#( owes her too much ... )

[uncanny-tranny]

It's always, like, mildly annoying when people see a het trans couple and go "all that work just to be straight?" like... one, you don't know if they're straight and two, trans people don't owe you a queer sexuality to "make up" for the fact we're trans. Transhet people aren't a subtype of trans people, they're members of the trans community, and the queer one if they so desire!

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #and i don't really vibe with the word microaggression but it's very that #like it just comes across like people think trans folks owe them queerness and cabaret preformances y'know? #and we cannot *be* if it means the way we are being isn't this carefully curated version people have of transness + queerness #and it can kind of warp your desires and understanding of yourself because you *want* community and to be seen and to be allowed to just be #this isn't universal and the 'you' is impersonal. i am aware this is a broad range of experiences and not everybody can/does relate #my overall point is that it's probably not the best move to act like this toward trans people #maybe i read too much into this but it's just something i have seen over and over and over and over . . . again #shoutout to the real ones (heterosexual and/or straight trans people or people in straight-presenting relationships 👍) #back to playing the lelda of zelda (is it bad that i don't even call her zelda anymore i just go 'THERES LELDA!!!') #it sounds wrong to call her zelda now 😭 #the LEG OF ZEG. SWORD SKORD???? BREATH OF THE WEATH!! -my brain 24/7/365

[tojisun]

that “do you think we’re still __ in any universe?” makes me ill because i remember that one time my sister and i had a convo about if we weren’t siblings in another universe, would we still be friends at least? and she gave me this self-deprecating laugh and said, “i don’t think you’d even wanna be friends with me” as a testament to how different we are and i just crumbled in front of her sobbing

#sun rambles #if god told me i can only save one person id save her #i owe her so much #i dont even want her to know how much shes saved me—how maybe if she wasnt here id be gone too

[stil-lindigo]

emily carroll has once again permanently changed my brain chemistry

#i got my hands on her newest book recently and god. GOD #i finished that book and just lay down on the floor for an hour because i had to just absorb it all #it felt like coming out of the theater after watching ATSV for the first time #i was so full of adrenaline and the sheer impact of everything i read was hitting all at once #so perfectly paced so intuitively panelled #it feels so reductive to call myself a comic artist when emily caroll does too #shes so. she's just in an entirely different league #it feels like there should be a different word for her #im so far away from creating anything half as lifechanging as that book was #its so motivating and inspiring but its also like #fuck #FUCK #my work feels so damn juvenile in comparison #emily carroll i owe you my life #i need to rip this book apart (not literally) #i have so much to learn about writing and art #everyone read “a guest in the house” by emily carroll #i hope she gets all the accolades she could ever want or need #god #i need a tattoo of this book #expeditiously

[chewbaccawithouthan]

Semi-BAD BATCH SPOILERS

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It’s so funny to me, in the last three episodes, the bad batch really said: “you wanna f*ck around? Okay now you’re gonna find out.”

And the empire is, in fact, finding out.

#I mean they are called the BAD batch for a reason #hemlock thinks he’s got the upper hand but he legitimately has no hand at all #echo took the hand that’s why #Hunter has gone through too much to simply allow his kid to be taken without any consequences #wrecker just wants his lil sis back #Crosshair owes her and he intends to stick to his debt #tech IS alive but we have no idea where he is #star wars #the bad batch #the bad batch spoilers #tbb spoilers #clone force 99 #tbb hunter #tbb wrecker #tbb crosshair #tbb omega

[poly-space-nerds]

Me and my brother were talking and had a theory about Alastor after ep 5. Right so he’s chained to somebody right? And it happens that his disappearance coincides with Lilith’s right? (i think? correct me if I’m wrong)

SO, what if Lilith has his soul? And the reason he’s so interested in the hotel isn’t because he’s bored, but because she’s making him keep an eye on her daughter and her project.

I don’t quite know her intentions, but I don’t think she’s gonna be a villain or anything. I think she just cares for her daughter and doesn’t want anything to happen to her. Like that scene where she took Charlie away from Lucifer? I believe that she didn’t want Lucifer to show her the things that Charlie would never be able to see and have. She doesn’t want her daughters heart to break like Lucifer’s did.

In the pilot, we saw how Charlie had left multiple voicemails to Lilith asking for advice and help in the past, and then who shows up to help? the All powerful radio demon for nothing more than ‘boredom‘. Even agrees to ‘an order from the Princess’ rather than a deal. which weird right? And who else would have Alastor on a leash than the Queen of Hell.

idk it’s a thing i’m now going to obsess over now

#hazbin hotel #this is making some assumptions ofc #we don’t know much about lilith so no idea if her intentions are good or not #but i believe she cares about her daughter #or maybe i’m wrong and she’s an ass #we will find out #but i def believe Alastor owes a debt to Lilith #maybe that’s why he has such a disdain for Lucifer too #OR #he knows Lilith doesn’t want Lucifer and Charlie together and that’s why he tried to split them up in ep 5 #make her choose him as dad lol #yeah idk about that last one #we shall see!! #hazbin alastor #hazbin lilith #hazbin charlie #charlie morningstar #alastor #hazbin lucifer #lucifer morningstar

[goldiipond]

isn't it fucked up this conversation takes place a few hours before she gets killed. isn't that so fucked up. what was their problem

#skye's ramblings #SHAKES YOU REAALLY FUCKING HARD. ISNT THAT FUCKED??? HOW DESPERATELY HE TRIES TO KEEP THIS PROMISE WITHOUT KNOWING ITS ALREADY TOO LATE. TH #ahem anywayay. man i really like how much more focus the anime gives their relationship in the short amount of time we have with conny #this is a side scene in the manga and i think including it in the anime was a really good choice #that along with conny practically being glued to his side for 99% of her screentime and having them both cry when saying goodbye.. OW #theyre just !! soo fucking good i love them they make me soo sad i hope we all die. the siblings ever #tpn

[mikyiko]

Drew my new fav…. Baby girl I love Illari smmm

#yall do not understand how much having a native american character in ow means to me (yes i know ph*rah exists) #and i love her too i just censored her name so this doesnt show up in her tag LMAO #anyways #overwatch 2 #overwatch #illari #illari quispe ruiz #chuño #llama pajamas #:)

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

(She really loved Joe for a long time and really tried her best to get through to him and help him out of whatever it was until it nearly destroyed her.)

#so long London #the tortured poets department #it’s just ylm but with distance #i know people want more answers #but she’s made it abundantly clear that she owes nobody anything #nor should she #but the point is that the details people want don’t matter in the end #they were too different and too broken and too unhappy #and the memories of when it was good can’t carry the weight of when it’s bad forever #imo i think it’s telling that she’s keeping so much of it private #whether it’s because it’s too painful or because she’s giving him grace and respecting his privacy who knows #but that’s for her to say or not

[mayasaura]

Something I'm gonna be so interested in finding out is the literal magical power dynamic between John and Alecto. Alecto is the source of John's power, but she can't do necromancy. She can do something, for sure, the way she moves through the River like it's her natural habitat, but all of this started because she needed someone else to wield her power. She couldn't do it herself.

#maybe the real rose bride was Alecto all along #but fr it seems like most intentional use of power and magic needs to be channeled through a champion or avatar #like a dnd god #so I wonder if she'll be acting for herself in the next book or if she'll be looking for someone she can trust to act for her #or if she'll need to find someone she can trust to act for her but love John too much and be too hurt by John to try #did she take Harrow with her bc she owes Harrow a debt or bc she needs a new champion #or both? #alecto the first #alecto speculation #ntn spoilers #nona the ninth #the locked tomb #tlt meta #starting to wonder if it won't be Alecto resurrection Gideon but Alecto giving Harrow the power to resurrect Gideon #which would be. so funny how badly Gideon could take that #oh sure you won't accept depending on ME for unlimited power but you'll take HER #not even clocking that the difference is taking Gideon would have destroyed her but Alecto isn't hurt in the process #tlt spoilers

[swiftcast-selene]

Day 26: Faith

what you take from the earth, take care to sow again. such are the teachings of the Matron.

#miqomarch #miqomarch 2024 #final fantasy 14 #seeker of the sun #ffxiv miqo'te #very loosely based on the 'sower of stars' thing i thought it would look nicey #shout out to the rats who ran euphrosyne with me so i could get this shot... love u all #ANYWAY as a seeker negi obviously has a lot of respect for azeyma too #but theres something about having spent a lot of time both in gridania and studying conjury #that makes him like. feel much more connected to nophica than to azeyma #she was there for him when he couldnt figure out his magic... she helped him tend to the ala mhigans #and him studying nature was his escape when he was a little bedbound kitten #so he feels like he owes her a lot. in general but also for his own personal growth #so he's very stringent in his gathering methods #only take what you need. keep seeds to scatter them when needed #woven mesh bags to gather mushrooms so the spores can spread #that sort of thing! #his faith carries him just like he carries it~

[deathbydarkelves]

I hate all forms of PvP 99% of the time but this new mode is silly enough that I wanna try it. I'll let y'all know how I do. I have next to no experience in battle royales.

#the only exception to my ''all PvP stresses me out too much to have fun'' experience is Overwatch funnily enough #or... WAS #I played on xbox without a mic back when it first came out. so zero chat = zero toxicity #and believe me when I say I was actually pretty good. I'd turn matches around by switching to Tracer at the last minute and #wiping the other team. Or I'd just play Tracer from the start and dominate the entire time. it was awesome #the balance of grind to loot boxes was great at the start imo. I loved that game so much #but now it's waaaaaaaaay too grindy and there's battle pass stuff and it's so much harder to get the cosmetics you want :( #and too many limited time events. I was a kid back when I played so yes I had more time but GOD OW demands so much time from you now #oh well. it lives on in my memory. #I have a Figma Tracer figure on my desk still :) I like her

[jakeperalta]

spent weeks psyching myself up to stand up to my mum and then immediately got shot down by her 😃👍

#vent incoming i apologise in advance for the long tags #we've lived together just the two of us since dec 2021 (although her boyfriend is here like 2/3 of the time as well) #and since i got my job in march 2022 i have been paying half of all the bills (literally down to like tv license when i barely watch the tv) #which is £300 a month #plus i buy all my own food + pay for the amazon prime she uses + contribute to various household things like toilet roll etc #and she doesn't have a mortgage so i am paying the same amount as her to live in her house #(and it is very much her house not our house) #and I've never been very happy with any of that but never complained either #but then recently it turned out she never set up the water bill when we moved in (it's one of the only bills i didn't sort for us) #so we have a huge backdated bill from dec 2021 and i knew she was going to tell me to pay half #so for the past month or so I've been preparing myself for this conversation and sure enough today she came and said 'we owe £700' #so i was like 'oh i thought maybe it would've been covered by my £300/month' which is the biggest stand I've been able to work myself up to #and she immediately started going on about how i live here too and use water too so it's just as much my responsibility to pay #and how when we're both earning i should be paying my share and i was like yeah i know that's why i never complained about paying before #but also i already pay more than most people would to live with their parents #and she went off about how actually most people charge their grown up kids rent on top of the bills so really i'm lucky i don't have to #(when she got the original £300 figure it was actually rounded up from like £240 to include 'rent' but i wasn't gonna bring that up now) #and in conclusion she doesn't see why she should be subsidising my bills #like i don't know maybe because you're my MOTHER and i am your CHILD who is just starting out in the adult world #and maybe that entitles me to being treated better than some lodger???!!!!! #anyway i paid the bill and now i'm trying and failing at not crying at my desk 😃 #talking

[deus-and-the-machina]

Frothing at the mouth what do you MEAN pearl gave Scott a life in ll for their alliance to be sealed oh myg od THAT MAKES EVERYTHING SO MUCH WORSE AND SO MUCH BETTER

#pearl literally gave him part of her life and they ended up soulmates and he REJECTED her even still like. ow #what fascinates me about the divorce quartet and specifically pearl and Scott is how more than any particular slight the thing that stops #them from coming together is their stubbornness. scott was prolly too harsh on pearl but he’s not backing down no way besides she’s lost it #now and is hostile right back and so they hurt themselves to hurt each other and build up more and more animosity #cleo concedes a bit to martyn bc she knows it’s practical for survival but scott and pearl are the messiest of messy friendship breakups #you witnessed in hs because they’re both (mostly scott tho ngl) are so STUBBORN #and with how he and cleo seemed to be so eager to go off from their soulmates maybe it’s also like. it doesn’t really matter who their #soulmate was. at that point scott was sold on the two seasons in the making full time alliance with cleo and vice versa #they wanted to cause problems on purpose and they found the perfect reason to split from fate even if it was a tad of an overreaction #pearl and martyn were collateral. and with the context of what she did for him in last life you could argue she’s one of the reasons he won #at all by giving the yellow name a life. so no wonder it stings so bad they’ve done so much for each other. SHES done so much for him and #he throws her away over a nether excursion? did their bond really mean that little? ough. ough man #double life #pearlescentmoon #scott smajor #last life

[mitakun]

i've watched the triple MyGO anime ep yesterday but i can't stop thinking about tomori.. i think she is the most autistic character i've seen tbh and i definitely had a spiritual experience while watching it ngl

#like seriously im obsessed #not even mentioning ep3 but theres so many of those little monents #like when anon was talking with her classmates and tomori in the background was lining up magnets on the blackboard in a neat line #and all her little collection habits #and how she gets all jittery when someone gets remotely interested in her stuff #and how she sulks when someone tells her they dont care #but on god ep3 really went off #i really loved how almost the entire ep was tomoris pov #theres too much stuff to list even #but the thing that got me the most is the first “lyrics” that she wrote.. like jesus #how she could never fit in.. and how she never felt connected to anyone.. and how she wanted to “become human” #like istg whoever was responsible for writing all that i owe them my life #please dont fuck this up later on #tho probably even if they fuck it up im never letting this go #bang dream #MyGO!!!!! #tomori takamatsu

[untimelyambition]

i owe my entire life to whoever filmed erika’s last show. that video is my everything <3 i see stars continues to reduce me to tears with every watch

#you can fucking see her crying all through the speech #see her crying through the song see her miss lines bc she’s too emotional #see the rest of the cast sobbing alongside her #the harmonies the dancing the staging the hugs the actual smiles #everyone fucking breaking character with their stage makeup streaming down their face #the final shot of her onstage looking around at everything grinning her face off #i turn into a mess #it’s like someone set my chest on fire #god i love mean girls so much SO much #erika henningsen i will never be able to explain the impact you’ve had on me #whoever filmed that bootleg i owe you everything #mean girls #tilda rambling #broadway #and the camera is so hd as well like they were PREPARED i thank them profusely

[pinktief]

i'm not really upset but just doing a little introspection while i filter through my drafts:

i don't expect all memes to turn into threads, but when an overwhelming majority of them get ignored it's so discouraging. like, i took what little spoons i had left to reply to people's asks and for all i know they're not even reading it

obligatory disclaimer that this not directed at anyone here in particular. it's just an observation about tumblr rp in general after looking at my other blogs (from other fandoms) this morning and finding memes i replied to 1 to 2 years ago and still have no like or comment or any kind of acknowledgement that they read it

i realize every time i sit down to reply to memes my brain goes "is it worth spending what little energy i have for writing on something that will likely be completely ignored?" and that sucks. i wish i could just enjoy writing everything and not feeling bad if it's not at least acknowledged and end up feeling guilty bc i want engagement :')

#everyone's tired and busy no one owes me anything i'm being entitled yadda yadda yeah yeah i know #i'm mostly annoyed at myself for not having enough energy to do More #i do also set myself up by not writing 'desirable' muses so there's that too #i appreciate so much all the people who always engage with me on this blog though🩷 #its been a pleasant surprise how many people are interested in zuriel and interact with her!! so i'm not complaining hehe #˗ˏˋ 🩷 ˎˊ˗⠀ooc. #ask to tag idk what to tag this as