#(for those wanting an honest answer)

[samwise1548]

Birthday comic with s4(ish) Jonathan Sims

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[ID: A Magnus Archives comic that starts with Jon putting a can labeled "Generic Beer—Classic" on a counter. He is a thin brown man with long hair and green and red eyes. He says, "Just this, please," and the cashier (who's design is loosely based off of Morro from Ninjago), asks, "ID?"

Jon hands it to him, and the cashier types it in with a bored expression. He hands the bag to Jon and says, "Here you go sir. And—" in pink colored text he adds "happy birthday." Jon startles and mumbles "Oh um," but the cashier calls, "Next!"

The background panel colors darken as Jon looks back with discomfort, then looks down at his ID with a grimace. His card shows the date 07/11/19... His photo shows him with short hair and colored eyes. Jon says, "I suppose it is that day again." End ID]

described by the wonderful @princess-of-purple-prose

#I asked people what kinda beer jon would buy. and then I ignored those answers cuz I didn’t know what they were #so instead you get generic beer in classic flavor #I just wanted to draw clouds if I’m being honest #also snuck morro (ninjago) into the drawing hehe #tma #the magnus archives #Jonathan sims #comic #my art #happy birthday to me I suppose #described by @princess of purple prose

[softpine]

This might be juvenile, but do you have any tips on not comparing yourself to others? (Especially when it comes to note count or popularity.) I’ve been posting a story for over a year and it hardly gets any traction. It’s tough for me to see new creators post and get hundreds or even thousands of notes. I hate that I’m doing this but don’t know how to quit it!

this is not juvenile!! i struggle with this myself, especially knowing that i hit my peak years ago and i've been on the decline ever since – but only by numbers alone! i'm more proud of my story than i've ever been, i'm more attached to my characters, i'm putting more love and thought into everything, but i had to be realistic with myself and understand that i'll never pull even half the notes i did in 2020. gone are the days when i would wake up to 3 new anons about my story and dms from people every day (i can't believe i used to get overwhelmed by it...) and i would be lying if i said it didn't make me sad sometimes, because we're humans and our brains are practically wired to crave the hit of happy chemicals you get from seeing the stupid number go up 😭 it does feel demotivating. it makes me feel less urgency to post quicker if i convince myself that no one is waiting for me anyway, which means i post less, which means even less people stick around, which makes me post less, and on and on. it's a tough thing for me to come to terms with in all honesty.

but it helps to remember that i would be writing even if no one is reading. and i know that, because i have! i've written entire novel-length fics that i've never published, i've written countless short stories in the frozen pines universe that i'll never post, i've created alternate universes that will never be shown, etc. i do it because the idea is in my head and it needs to Get Out and i'm kinda just a conduit for that. that might not apply to you, and that's okay! everyone is different. the important thing is to really sit down and think about WHY you write and what you get out of it. which part of the process makes you happiest? what makes you feel a sense of fulfillment / satisfaction? play to your strengths. try not to spend your time doing things you think other people will enjoy and instead, spend more time on the things that make you happy. for me, i haaaaate editing and i always have, so lately i've been trying to speed through it a little bit quicker even if it means the final product won't be as appealing to others. (this is still a work in progress for me...) i have more fun when i experiment with different writing styles, which might not appeal to others because it takes longer and i don't really have a recognizable style, but i don't care anymore because i'm having fun! ask yourself what YOU want from your story, and then write for yourself and only yourself.

essentially what i'm saying is: there will ALWAYS be people more popular than you, and there's no guarantee that when you find the popularity you seek, you'll be able to keep it. so you need to find some sort of intrinsic motivation to continue or you'll just keep comparing yourself to others forever and you'll deny yourself the joy of creation! "comparison is the thief of joy" could not be more true!!

#this might be the most honest i've been lmao #i guess i've been thinking about it more after i posted a poll a while ago asking about something that happened in a story post #one of the options was ''i don't read your story i just wanted to click a button'' and so many people clicked that #not to be dramatic it just sort of feels like a gut punch when you realize that even the likes you DO get aren't all from readers #they're from people who want to click a button / show support / wish they had time to read but can't / etc #and like. of course!! i'm not a hypocrite - i like story posts without reading them too because we only have so much time in a day #but ever since then i've been trying to just say fuck it. i'm here for ME #i literally put my simself into my story because idgaf anymore. i've found my reason for writing and it isn't notes or engagement #those are awesome and i will always be grateful when i do get those things #but it's not my reason for being here anymore #lowkey i'm here because my story saved my life but that's not an easy thing to explain in an advice question fskjdsjd #asks #anonymous #nonsims #brandi answers

[jonathanbiers]

Argyle never gets frustrated with Steve when he doesn’t understand something. He doesn’t roll his eyes, or give That Sigh. He explains things patiently, if a bit abstractly, and when Steve is way off base Argyle runs with it. Is Vecna a vampire? Whoa that would be wild, man! Do you think he can’t have garlic? We could just take him out with a gnarly garlic pie, my dude!

the way you're seeing into my mind.... argyle being really soft with steve and taking the time to make sure he doesn't feel stupid when he's confused is something i've considered AT LENGTH (specifically in dms with @himbohohoharringtxn who has the unfortunate luck of being on the receiving end of Most of my argyle thoughts fdjghkdfj)

i would like to preface this by saying that i am firmly in "argyle and steve are both genuinely smart" territory. i think steve is very neurodivergent coded (i see the arguments for adhd/autism/dyslexia/ocd and as someone who might be autistic but is diagnosed with the other three....i see these arguments and i agree on all fronts) and there's also the head trauma of it all, though that's not what this is about. he's not fucking dumb, he just needs things broken down and explained to him in a very specific way. nothing wrong with that!

as far as argyle is concerned - we've literally seen him in action noticing small details no one else has(one of my fav parallels between them), which ends up being the reason the cali group finds nina and el. he's not fucking dumb either, just delivered to us as a comic relief stoner character with little dimension because the duffers need to be fucking stopped

BUT ANYWAY! you're so right! argyle would see the way steve sometimes gets brushed off and spoken over. the rest don't mean it to be hurtful and steve tries not to show that it does sometimes sting (because it's really not that big of a deal to him and it's not like they're being outright mean) but he would ABSOLUTELY "yes and-" whatever steve's off the wall question or idea was, if anything just to make him laugh, relieve some of the tension. AND IT WORKS is the thing.

it's not just, "duuuude, what if we just lure vecna into the sun? he'll be TOAST in five seconds flat, no fighting necessary. nancy, you can put the gun down, we're gonna hurl garlic cloves at him with a slingshot!" in one fell swoop, argyle is 1. making sure steve feels heard and not spoken over; 2. acknowledging steve's input and effort in a way that, let's be honest, the others don't do very often; 3. putting a smile on the group's faces for a while because fuck they're kids in a stressful situation and need a laugh; 4. putting himself in the line of fire so the others can rag on him instead.

argyle would do this when they aren't even dating yet and steve definitely would not be normal about it, he'd be smiling so big and soft and then argyle would catch his eye and smile back and they'd have this little quiet moment between them amidst all the chaos and dread.

after they're dating though? oh, they'd be INSUFFERABLE. they'd be such a pda couple, with the ridiculous pet names("what the fuck did you just call me?" "don't worry about it, my lil sweet potato pie."), and the open flirting until their friends are fake-retching, the whole nine yards. argyle is hanging off of steve's back with his arms around his waist and not even acknowledging it as he makes his argument to the rest of the group that, "no, no, listen. steve is onto something here, i just know. what if-"

and when they're alone, it'd be less of the theatrics and silliness and more of the gentle patience. they're both smart in really different ways and when argyle gets something steve doesn't and steve is getting a little frustrated about it, he'd take his hand or pull him close and just distract him with a little bit of affection to get him to cool down because he knows being frustrated isn't going to help steve figure out whatever it is. conversely, steve does the same when he's trying to explain something to argyle - though he's less likely to get as frustrated when confused, and more likely to pretend to take longer to get it than he actually does because listening to steve explain a subject he's knowledgeable about is fucking hot, can you blame him? they're just soft with each other, okay

#anonymous #just uh casually dumping a bunch of my stargyle thoughts that you didn't even ask for in your original message don't mind me lmao #if i'm honest the reason i haven't been posting many of my thoughts on this pairing is because there have been multiple times when #i've made posts about other pairings (won't say which bc then this'll show up in that tag and it's not about them. i hate when ppl do that) #and like almost immediately or within a day seen people copy my ideas/hcs about them in such a blatantly obvious way that i'm like #'damn if you're going to copy my homework can you at least change the wording my dude or like. cite your sources or smth' lmaooo #so uh. yeah there were also a lot of other things i wanted to mention but i specifically want to include those in fics and i've had enough #of putting my ideas out there as a 'wouldn't it be cool if' only to see a shittier version of it on my dashboard Within The Day so . #also i need you to know i YELLED when i got this ask sorry it took a bit to answer! bad nap brain again lmao coherent sentences are hard #stargyle #steve harrington #argyle

[deuteragonist1]

This has been gnawing at my brain since I first heard it

because

And the way Arthur says it is so honest, so serious, so earnest. He's exhausted but he makes sure to look at Merlin's right in the eye. Like this comes from the bottom of his soul and he absolutely, desperately needs Merlin to understand (and considering he most likely knew he was going to die at this point, well). Look at Merlin's face. There's such solemnity and vulnerability in this scene. It hurts to watch.

#trust me if i could have picked anyone but uther for this i would have #but alas i could remember no other wedding scene where they actually got to this line #arthur is so beautiful when he opens up about his love and affection #he has such a tender heart but grew up with so much on his shoulders and such a piece of garbage for a father #say what you want about bbc's merlin but they gave us top tier acting #also the contrast between the two scenes here pls #the first one you're looking at two clowns #there's nothing real about it even though it's a royal wedding #the second one is in the middle of nowhere with nothing but the forest as witness and it's spontaneous and honest and pure #and you know he means it with his whole being #and in the first scene catrina doesn't give a shit about uther's feelings she's just using him #meanwhile you can tell merlin's entire WORLD is being turned inside-out #and you know he'll never forget this #this means everything to him #now you may be asking yourself why i am comparing those two scenes they are unrelated #and the answer is #because i am unwell #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #bbc arthur #arthur pendragon #merthur

[spaceratprodigy]

one of my favorite things abt how faith reacts to max in fallbrook arc is her being directly faced with her own hypocrisy

#I am a faith apologist but also she's whack fr #like girl you haven't been honest about yourself or your past either 💅 #she's very evasive when she's the topic of conversation #not that she outright lies but she avoids questions or answers as vaguely as possible #just because she kinda learned early in Edgewater the consequences of her trying to be truthful about her life #and how unglamorously people react #figured adopting the mysterious persona and isolating herself was her only option #because phineas was the only person she could talk to the only person who understood to some extent what she was going through #and to add to it.. #her own history with violence and anger #and even tho she became a very numb quiet distant persom because of her own past #halcyon got it's hands on her and cut her deeply and awakened a certain fire in her for better or for worse #excluding how often she has to defend herself for a variety of reasons and how it makes her feel.. #punching nelson (twice) + shooting hortense between the eyes + shooting tilda in the knee.. #girl you're not exactly a great role model at having control over your violent tendencies either 💅 #but there's something so raw abt her and max just.. knowing those feelings intimately.. and not wanting it for the other.. #defending each other.. seeing the good in each other.. /knowing/ the good in each other.. #understanding how messy and complicated they are and then understanding why and just ough bringing out the best in each other #reaching a point where they can breathe and heal and not be in such a spiraling pain anymore they can just be loved and be themselves #unapologetically. caged no longer. being harmed no longer. by others or by themselves. and taking it out on others no longer #anyway #what I'm saying is.. #the call is coming from inside the house.. #yes he had an entire revenge scheme and lied abt his intentions.. but like.. he's also holding a mirror up to her face #SORRY I just love thinking abt how complicated cap faith is lmao she's a very broken soul who is trying her best in an unfortunate situatio #the way she handles her own traumas and griefs just isn't pretty and that's a whole other can of worms she's constantly faced with #rambling #faith and max

[taegularities]

i'm hurt 🥲

#it's been 8 years and i still dream of my best friend who i was in love with in high school #last night was way too much though #like i met him again and replayed all the memories we had.. like dancing around in the rain #and since it was raining i told him to dance with me again even though it felt different #i knew he didn't feel shit for me bc he rejected me back in hs too but when i started talking about another guy he did NOT like it #and he admitted it... questioned me about him and then we kissed ??? #he told me to call him every now n then bc up until now it was always just him calling. like the jealousy was SO OBVIOUS #we kind of get together.. literally my 18 y/o's dream coming true like y'all i was SO IN LOVE WITH HIM LMAO #and then i ask him 'be honest did you feel something for me back in hs' and he just won't answer 🥲 keeps dodging the question... #suggests smth that sounds like a yes but then i woke up 😐 #i just wanted to let this out... idk it's crazy to me that even after all those years i still think of him #like if he approached me today and asked me out i just KNOW i'd give in. even though it's been almost a decade. i would definitely give in #first loves.. especially unrequited ones... leave an impact fr #my dream sounded like a fic i'd like to come true but well that's not how life works #anyways i'm just sentimental lol tdl ?? #personal

[not-poignant]

Re: your - totally valid! - feelings on writing more Augus & Gwyn as MCs. Do you find still writing the Nascent Diplomat emotionally taxing bc of that? Like, I adore that story and would love to read more ofc, but if it doesn't bring you any joy that would dampen my own enjoyment too. Personally, I'd much rather you put TND on pause and maybe pick it up again in a few years, but just write the stories you are excited about for now! Idk, just, pls write what makes you happy, Pia💗

Hi anon!

Let's talk about this in more detail and hopefully you'll understand better at the end of it. :)

I can still write The Nascent Diplomat partly because it's not a conventional romance story (Gwyn is developing relationships not just with Augus, but also with Kimerrin and Temsen), partly because I started it before I burnt out on Gwyn/Augus as a couple, and partly because the feel of the story is so different to general stories where Gwyn and Augus are present.

Augus' sadism has been muzzled by Gwyn's traumatic past, and putting Gwyn with the vench means he can't use his stoicism and his stubbornness in the same way anymore without literally disabling himself and suffering, so they've both had to become as much different people as they could possibly be within the scope of who they are.

I've found a lot of the time, the things most folks want from Augus and Gwyn is - understandably - when they are most 'themselves' in new stories. So Augus as a sadist, potentially taking Gwyn (or another character) down or taming him or being an incredible dominant. Or Gwyn being stoic and repressed and having a traumatic family background and needing to be hurt until he has no choice but to accept comfort and being a submissive in denial that he's a submissive. And I've now written versions of that narrative about 6 or 7 times. Gwyn being with Temsen would be a similar enough dynamic to classic Augus/Gwyn, that while it's fun to think about, I just can't write that same journey again with either of those characters any time soon?

And The Nascent Diplomat isn't that journey either, it's one of the reasons I do enjoy writing it still (though I don't think I could write more than one chapter a month, which is why I...only release one chapter a month, so I stay fresh with it and can stay present with the characters).

And one of the comments tND gets most as an AU, is that it's incredible how different this version of Augus and Gwyn are, compared to all the other versions, because of circumstance/s.

But any time a new AU idea or something similar comes up, what folks want most - say even with Gwyn/Temsen - is very classic Augus/Gwyn dynamics, and I'm just... not writing those with Augus/Gwyn because I've done it 6~ times now across over a million words, and I no longer feel fresh with it, with those characters specifically, as a concept. And I feel like if I kept forcing myself to write the dynamic people ask for the most from them, or expect from them, that's when I would really truly burn out. And tbh anon, I did just...stop writing them in that dynamic actually years ago. Even the epilogue that Augus/Gwyn are in, within Fae Tales, is very different from COFT and GT content. I had 'Gwyn is too traumatised for sex' to fall back on, but I deliberately could not write something similar to what they used to be. In some ways that was a win (we got to see a different kind of love between them, and a different way of coming together for them), but... *thinks* it's been years since I've written 'classic' Gwyn and Augus and my burnout hasn't gotten any better. To me, The Nascent Diplomat isn't very classic Gwyn and Augus at all. And it makes me happy to know that Augus will likely never be able to be truly sadistic to that version of Gwyn, because it means I can't be sort of...driven back into that version of that story for those two.

So while I appreciate your concern, anon, I wouldn't write a story I didn't want to write or didn't know how to write. I'm not that sacrificial and I care about my mental health too much to do it, which is why I constantly say I won't be (or will not likely to be) doing it anymore in new stories, lmao. Even if that risks the displeasure or dislike of other people.

The Nascent Diplomat gets to sit in its own window. It helps a lot that it only demands 12 chapters a year from me, so it never really trips off that burnout in the same way. I'm sure if I had to write more of it more often, I may have put it on hiatus, but I don't need to because I found the sweet spot for it.

#asks and answers #fae tales au #fae tales #the nascent diplomat #gwyn ap nudd #augus each uisge #i'll be frank and say the nascent diplomat is not my favourite story to write every month #but it doesn't need to be #i still enjoy spending time with the characters in these versions of themselves #like... in some ways i would just like some years to fall in love with gwyn and augus all over again #i can't actually reread game theory or COFT #and it frustrates me because i'd love to just enjoy it #and that's my own issue and i'm working on it by taking a long break from writing those characters as MCs #in everything but the Nascent Diplomat #but it also means i'll be very honest about it #because i really don't want to get anyone's hopes up #and because selfishly i want to be able to read game theory and COFT again one day and enjoy it sdlkfjasd

[thedreadvampy]

sorry I'm on one now. Narnia is one of my Big Rant triggers.

but like. I would be lying if I said I didn't love Narnia

(everything except the Horse and His Boy, which a) even as a tiny kid made me uncomfortable with how fucking racist it is (literally there is ONE. ONE. character of colour who isn't evil, selfish, greedy and violent. even when you're 5 and white and don't really understand racism it's like. sorry there are just no nice people in this whole country? and every Narnian is lovely?) and b) is just fucking DULL partly bc of the 2 dimensional racist caricatures populating the world)

but I can't pretend for a second that it isn't specifically built around a Christian theology that's explicitly racist, hierarchical, supremacist, colonialist and The Bits I Like Least Of Anglicanism

and my FAVOURITE books in the series (except the Silver Chair which tbh is WAY less theological and way more mythology-nerd) are the first and last, which are by far the most explicitly Christian. even more so than TLTWATW.

and I can just about stand by the Magician's Nephew bc it's mostly just a mix of Christian creation myth and CS Lewis's sci fi interests in the esoteric and multiverses and it honestly feels fine. but my all time favourite most iconic Narnia book is The Last Battle and I just. cannot. justify it for a second from a political or philosophical standpoint.

it's got it all bc it's the book where Lewis is like ok hold up let me lay out explicitly what my theology is. and what he thinks it's important to say is:

Almost all Muslims are bad and evil

They worship Satan by doing Bad Evil Deeds to please him

There are a couple of Good Muslims who do good deeds. they need to be brought to the light, understand that the voice calling them to do good deeds is the Christian god, and they too can achieve the kingdom of heaven

Some people will use Christianity as a mask for exploitation and mistreatment. They are bad and their faith is false (ok fine)

...and they're doing that because they're CONSPIRING WITH THE EVIL MUSLIMS TO OPPRESS GOOD CHRISTIANS

...and THAT'S THE ONLY REASON ANYONE WOULD TELL YOU THAT GOD AND ALLAH ARE DIFFERENT NAMES FOR THE SAME GOD. because they're either conning you or because they've been misled and can't really think for themselves.

DID I MENTION. THAT MUSLIMS ARE EVIL AND TRYING TO BRING DOWN CHRISTIANS.

and other than the GOD AREN'T MUSLIMS JUST THE WORST of it all, he also goes back over to more fully explain several points he's made throughout the series, such as:

white Christian public school kids are the god ordained leaders of the world and attempts to think otherwise are heretical

god places people where they need to be to serve his purpose

free will is largely an illusion - your only choice is faith or chaos, and as a godly person your actions are preordained

the problem is though. he's kind of a really good character writer? and in The Last Battle he pulls out most of his best classics (hi Reepicheep! hi Frank! hi Jill!) and gives us a whole wealth of really fun new characters (Tirian and Jewel, Emeth, Puzzle, Shift, Griffle and Ginger are all just SO FUN) and it's such a solid adventure. for me it's hands down the most FUN Narnia to read and an effective and affecting end to the series.

but like. god its unjustifiably fucked philosophy is baked into every single character and event. it's so hard to ignore. it's my favourite book in the series. it's the book that makes me angriest. it's everything right with Narnia and everything wrong with Narnia. I like it cause it asks me to engage critically with Lewis' philosophy and I hate it cause it requires me to engage critically with Lewis' philosophy.

in conclusion, Narnia is a land of contrasts. also occasionally brownface.

#red said #i love these books. i love the last battle especially. #fuck me they're awful philosophically though #they were probably the first chapter books i read when i was 3 or 4. they are such a big part of my life. #and I've always loved them and i still do. I'm so fond of them. #and part of that is inextricable from the Christianity of them. i think there's something really fun and interesting in the fusion of #christian myth and celtic paganism and classical myth and arthuriana and new age mysticism and sci fi multiverse stuff #like it's not. new to blend those things. but lewis is such a nerd about all of them and he blends them up in a really flavourful way #and also i think like as a kid. the utter claroty with which These Are Metaphors About Theology And Philosophy #really worked for me even though I disagreed with most of it. because it kind of wants to engage with you directly as a child #it is. to me. pretty honest about its intentions. and it digs into some moderately complex ideas for a young audience. #like they're parables not morality plays. the Goddier ones are inviting you to think and engage in a conversation about the ideas #which tbh. not a lot of kid's books did at the time and age i was reading them? #they wanted me to be thinking about the whys and hows of morality. like obviously Lewis SUPER has an opinion on the Right Answers #(i would usually. say we're diametrically opposed on most conclusions but then i was rooting for Jadis' army in LWW) #but idk Lewis's theology is interesting. he's very much pro faith and determinism but he ALSO thinks you should question stuff i think #like. it's often kind of self-contradictory but the books are pretty pro asking questions pushing back straying from the path #as long as you come back #and the last battle particularly is really clear that you're not doing a good job of engaging with faith if you don't think about it #like other than MUSLIMS ARE EVIL AND BAD the main message of the last battle is. #if you don't think critically about faith then someone else will think for you and fuck you over #tirian is our hero bc he has a personal and often uncertain relationship with faith that means he refuses to get swept up in the crowd #puzzle is painted as someone who is too scared of conflict to voice his concerns #he's prepared to believe he's too stupid to have his own questions or relationship with faith and so he becomes a tool of the powerful #because he is told to trust the teachings of the church not his own heart #now. do i think this is philosophically good? generally yes but it also props up the I'M A BOLD TRUTHTELLER AGAINST THE ESTABLISHMENT #reactionary tendency. and it's written by a guy whose Unpopular Truthtelling is partly 'Allah is Satan' so. grains of salt. #buuuuut. it's probably why it resonates a lot with people like me or my mum who as kids often felt constrained or patronised #by the way adults approach obedience and blind faith #like. Lewis is advocating for FAITH. he DOESN'T think that faith should be uncritical or without discomfort

[themyscirah]

character opinion for sinestro. or hal! or both

Hal - half the time I go absolutely insane thinking abt him and the other half the time I want him to get flung so far out into space it takes 20 years to get back. I love him to bits but sometimes he just drives me up the wall.

Sinestro - brutally honest time but I could not care LESS about this man lmao. Like maybe (probably) I haven't read the right arcs or whatever but everytime he shows up its just a total yawnfest for me tbh. Not fun to read at all. I know my friends like him though so i do know him. I still kind of hope he gets hit by a bus though

#hal is complicated to me bc he has such a history and so many appearances #but like many of those are SO compelling to me i just adore them. whereas othertimes when he shows up i want to shiv him with a butter knife #i can tell which way my brain starts going if i begin to call him harold disappointedly/frustratedly in my head while reading #sometimes he manages to compel and annoy me at the same time though which is a feat. this is the case for most of his best gl 1990 moments #blah #answered #my honest answers if maybe a bit unexpected to some

[aparticularbandit]

Question for your Dr rewrite: what ever happens to AI junko? Or more specifically, what happens to shirokuma/kurokuma? Considering the fic focuses on junko and her relationship with hersel(ves)f, I'm curious if they'll be mentioned.

I haven't decided - or realized, maybe - what's happened/happening with AI Junko yet. I'm not sure if she exists in the scope of this particular fanfic. I've thought about where she might fit or what to do with her, but nothing's really clicked yet. I don't want to throw her in just to have her show up, you know? And unlike with Nagito, who I knew got a message from Junko and was doing something but just hadn't figured it out yet, I've gotten no indication from Junko that AI Junko is a thing.

(There's a way to get her involved, but I'm not sure if I'm going to go in that direction.)

That said, Shirokuma and Kurokuma do not exist in this series.

They both cropped up as a result of the Warriors of Hope's attack on Towa City, which was prompted primarily by Monaca's desire to create a second Junko - a successor - after Junko's death. Due to the premise of the series, Junko is not dead, and so Monca would have no reason to want to create a successor to Junko and the Warriors of Hope would not attack Towa City.

(You could make the argument that Izuru put them there, since Monaca doesn't seem to have known that Kurokuma was a Junko, but Izuru was also on a path to trying to bring Junko back, which no one needs to do right now, because Junko's not dead. Also as of right now, I have no reason to believe that he has access to AI Junko, supposing she exists. If anyone has her, Nagito does. Maybe. Hm.

I should think on this more, actually. Access to AI Junko - and who gets that first - would really depend on exploring Hope's Peak and finding wherever she was put. Again, while Izuru could do that, I feel like Nagito would have her re: the message Junko left for him, if anyone has her at all.)

Anyway.

I have different ideas for how Monaca and Towa City might be used in the series, but those won't come up until probably Of A Light Hope. She's still mass-producing Monokumas (of a sort) (probably), but there's no Shirokuma or Kurokuma. (And I think Mikan references...Jataro? I think? in one of the Remnants chapters, so the Warriors definitely exist within etc. That's not your question, though.)

#musings #anonymous #bandit answers questions #dr1 end rewrite fic #even if ai junko shows up those two won't #and i think given junko's master plan in the series #i don't think ai junko is either #i don't think she has a reason to make her...i think #ai junko would feature more prominently in either #monaca towa fic #or #dr2 ryoko fic #(if i write that one - and i might not) #i...also - to be honest - don't want to write kurokuma #shirokuma's interesting as a concept - they both are actually! #but there are so many issues with kurokuma that idk if i'd feel comfortable writing him

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #anytime my friends point out that something I say is good advice or express that they see me as aspirational I'm always just like.... #wtf how am I am example to look up to I'm just an idiot bumbling his way through life trying to avoid hitting her head on cabinet corners #honestly it's mostly just seeing mistakes others have made and going “I will not make those mistakes. I will make weirder mistakes than that #like. it feels a little like the “I'm eighty years old I'm done with putting up with everyone's bullshit” except it's #it's “I didn't kill myself so I'm not gonna put up with bullshit anymore” #like. I chose life. I'm not about to half-ass that decision. I'm not gonna walk back that decision. I'm not going to flinch away from it. #that fuckin... “what do we have to fear but fear itself” quote or whatever. like.. I died. you think anything else is gonna scare me? #if I'm going to be stuck here on this planet you bet your ass I'm gonna make the most of it. I'm not gonna be embarrassed. no shame. #we're all living here until we die and the things that matter are your own life and then the people around you. #I'm not going to miss out on a chance to find community and connection just because I'm afraid. I'm done being afraid. #though... I have been feeling shrimp emotions for the past two weeks and my stomach has tied itself up in knots over it. #I'm so detached because I'm afraid of feeling my emotions too strongly. so letting go and experiencing emotions is a lot for me. #and agghfffgghh I'm going to make it through this I'm going to make it through this but damn it's really rough #allowing yourself to get close to someone again after solidifying your position as unassailable is so hard. #especially because I've gotten so used to shielding the emotions of other people. hard to be honest when your honesty will hurt them #it's wild being around someone who's not wildly insecure because I can be genuine and honest and not worry about what I say hurting her. #I could say “I'm leaving in a year do you still want to date?” and trust that she would actually think it through and give a reliable answer #like. I can handle just my emotions because she's able to handle hers. #being in mental health spaces for so long I'm not used to interacting with emotionally stable people lmaooo #do you think I'm emotionally stable? I don't think I am. but then I meet other people who are wildly more unstable than I am and hmmm #like. sui wasn't an emotional choice it was a cost benefit analysis. I get emotionally unstable sure. but I contain myself until it's over. #I know enough to not be impulsive because I recognize impulsive behavior in others and thus in myself as well. #so like. I'm unstable but I'm not externally unstable. I know how to isolate when I'm in a wounded lashing out state. #anyway I've been processing so many emotions this past week because I'm wildly out of practice with allowing myself emotional honesty #instead of just bricking myself up behind my defensive apathy. I want to hold onto this. I want to continue to channel these emotions. #I want to be unafraid to tell people when I love them #though with her it's more of a Nerevarine situation. you are not someone I love but rather someone who might become that. #like. I haven't known her long enough to really say I love. but I very much think if things continue how they are I will be confident in it #and not even romantic love per se. I have some old friends who I genuinely love. several siblings who I love. most people I know I do not.

[skinreflectsthesun]

I feel like people don’t tell you exactly how much your life will change after you have kids. I think they assume that you know this but I honestly thought that my relationships, friendships, my personality, my self in general would all stay the same and I’d just have this little guy with me too, but that’s really just not the case? And I was not ready for that. Not at all.

#personal #and not to be that person who just had negative things to say #but if anyone were to ask me like genuinely ask me and want my honest answer about this then I’d be 100% blunt #it’s incredibly rewarding and I love my kid so much I’ve never felt a love like this before #but I’ve lost myself entirely #my marriage isn’t the same #my relationship with my family isn’t the same #my friendships aren’t the same #I’m exhausted all the time #I’m a dick to those closest to me because I’m exhausted all the time #I feel like I have no help or support #I feel like I don’t want any help or support either because fuck it I will do it all myself I don’t need anyone #I’m misunderstood always #I’m not seen. #no one sees me anymore. #anyways today is not a good day plz disregard this #i’ll probably delete this later

[crowdsourcedloner]

What song would you associate with your OC/WoL? ^^

Nailah

Tides is Nailah at her lowest, angriest, most burnt out self. She wants so badly to run away, to run far from the bloodshed and strife she's so commonly dragged into, to just be left alone and forgotten - but she can't. She's trapped, either through obligation or fear of abandonment, and all she can do is scream her frustration into the waves.

Verre

She's a hard one for me to pin down in music, but C:\\AR?A_M4TH has the vibes down really well. It's oppressive and oddly calm and the steady looping melody reminds me of a clock alarm - Verre's trapped between her guilt and obsessive curiosity. Then the drums fade out, she's happy and free for just a moment... until they crash back in, destroying the looping melody and leaving this dissonant emptiness. She can never go back.

Zen

Mimic - Rage and Scream is hands down the best song I've found that captures their chaotic, almost taunting persona. It sounds like a calculated car crash in the best of ways and Zen's orchestrated unpredictability really shines through.

Yomi

Outset Island has a carefree, slightly naive vibe that reminds me so much of Yomi. She's a little meandering, very optimistic, and terribly out of her depth when it comes to most things - what better fits that than a cozy starter town theme?

#answered asks #thank you for the ask! #oc: hrothwol #oc: verre hyskaris #oc: zezene zene #oc: yomi kaifu #figured i'd do the whole squad for this one lol #nailah's habit of just vibing underwater to destress coincidentally lines up with a banger track lol #poor girl desperately wants distant anonymity while craving personal connection and those two dont mix well #something something mortifying ordeal of being known #verre's got this vibe of a constantly ticking clock that i cant seem to find anywhere #and the only song i know that has a ticking clock is... the amaurot theme. which doesnt fit her at all. #zen's song sounds like they're a boss fight but imma be honest thats just their constant vibe #either you roll with the chaos or you get out of their way #and yomi... i was gonna put specialist from persona 4 for her lmao #she's a cheerful goof and so is that song

[235uranium]

every day i barely restrain the urge to bitch about the social sciences

#☢️.txt #listen. all of the fields under this umbrella are legitimate and worth studying #but trying to group them with mainline stem is. silly at best #ppl always turn this into a 'hard vs soft sciences' thing but like. its not that! #im gonna be honest before i took higher level social science classes i didnt think much about this but like. the social sciences #place huge emphasis on the subjective nature of things and imho that goes against the very core philosophy of the natural + logical science #and like. that methodology WORKS for these fields. history benefits from a degree of subjectivity #but social 'scientists' always get pissed off that natural and logical scientists DONT consider that valid #in our fields!!! god the amount of social 'scientists' who insert themselves into physics discussions #using extremely complex aspects of quantum mechanics to justify themselves #while half of them bitch about being expected to know stats. is absurd #im gonna be real i think ppl are attached to the term social sciences bc they think thats the only way for those fields to be taken #seriously and like. thats the fucking problem isnt it???? #you want fields outside of STEM proper to be taken seriously but you continually reinforce this idea by insisting #fields like history and sociology Have to be sciences in the same way as biology and mathematics #and instead of accepting that. youre the humanities its fine its literally fucking fine #you do stuff that scientists dont do. bc science alone cannot answer every single question people have #the naturalistic + objectivist worldview is very good in certain contexts! but it has faults! #and the same applies to the philosophies behind social sciences! #you cannot use the techniques in anthropology in physics and vice versa. its fucking fine #also humanities people need to stop craving approval from STEM people its so. #you are reinforcing the cycle youre pissed off about

[aylinaliens]

you know what probably kills junho inside too, is that all the little battles /she/ doesnt know about. those shitty friends of his, minwoo's conversation about her, then now his sister (which she knows) but everyone telling him that /HIS/ feelings arent real. telling /HIM/ he's not happy while youngwoo is having everyone tell her she's not good enough, she's not the one he has a crush on, she's not this and that. god they must be so tired. the last 2 eps better be long af (i doubt it) but im sure they'll come back together, its just the rest of the story is gonna be a disappointment most likely

anooon THIS THIS THIS!! his feels were continuously disregarded by everyone! his friends, family, the world. and that has to hurt because ?? he KNOWS what he feels. and youngwoo…unintentionally…did the same thing by breaking up with him because she thinks she can’t make him happy. just. oof. the lack of communication is making this situation worse. i love these two more than anything but if they just get back together without some kind of conversation or some kind of sit down it’s going to be frustrating. i think everyone is so invested in their relationship at this point that the typical ‘i’m sorry’ ‘same lol’ ‘let’s get back together’ thing will not work. neither youngwoo/junho are the bad guys in this situation the real villain is lack of communication (and writernim 🥰). just getting back together isn’t going to solve their issues…they have to learn to work together. internalizing feelings is normal and realistic but if that’s going to be the foundation of their relationship? yikes :(

eaw fandom fighting!!! let’s stick together and either celebrate the final episodes (or lick our wounds if it turns out bad kejdjwjdjdhdh)

#kay answers #extraordinary attorney woo #ANON you are so so right about all that of this #if junho would have told her about those things it could have planted more seeds of doubt #but i want them to learn how to handle it together. learn how to express their pain in an open honest manner. BOTH of them!! #kdrama

[surpriserose]

😞 <- face of a guy who just had a million tech issues during his hrt video call appointment

#I mean it was mostly just getting questions answered but idk hrt appointment seems like the best phrase to describe it #Was good and informative until it ended horribly...due to the tech issues but the dude was really nice so #I think my plans for testosterone are more solid now i do think the goal is to be on it for 1 to 3 years get my voice to drop and stabilize #See if i can get some body hair to stick around and get bottom growth and maybe just see how i feel from there #Because if im honest my issues are less oh i dont want this and more im not a trans man i dont want potential partners to see me as a trans #Man im just like nonbinary and on hrt you know? Everything else doesnt bother me #Well except the needles those do bother me #Anyways good morning everypony