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dolfinsatdawn · 7 years

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While I wait patiently for hurricane Irma to barge in on FL next week, I might as well do this question-y thing that my fellow Turn fan tagged me in! Might be stuff you were always curious about OR alternatively stuff you couldn't care less about, but hey. Here it is.

Thanks for the fun @greenofallshades

I think there's supposed to be 100 questions. I started numbering them, but because I'm spacy I totally forgot to do the rest. So, here you go.

I'm tagging: @lou-who, @dying-suffering-french-stalkers, and anyone else who wants to do this (because my computer is glitching when I try to tag).

1. The meaning behind my url: dolfinsatdawn. This was me trying to upgrade to something more artsy sounding but still had something from my childhood obsession with dolphins it.

2. A picture of me: EHHHHHH. I'm kinda squeamish about this. If ya'll really REALY want to see a picture maybe I will.

3. How many tattoos i have and what they are: Lol I don't do the whole "permanent on your skin" stuff. I do love henna tattoos though. Anything semi-permanent is super fun.

4. Last time i cried and why: I cried when I found out my grandpa was in the hospital last week. He's okay though. I'm going to visit him soon.

5, Favorite band: THE BEATLES. Hands down. I also like a lot of classical and film scores so, the only real band I love 100% is the Beatles.

6. Biggest turn offs: Not respecting my personal space. It takes me a REALLY long time to get used to people (especially boys), so touching without my permission is really upsetting and people who do are immediately on my NOPE list. Also, men who constantly talk about money. I REALLY hate that. I don't care how much you make compared to everyone else.

7. Top 5 (insert subject): Top five places I want to travel to next! 1. Tokyo! 2. Washington State 3. Germany!!! 4. China! 5. Nepal!

8. Favorite place to be alone? I love doing everything alone. I'm so happy to go out and just chill without the stress of other people. I love going on walks alone especially in really pretty places like beaches.

9. Biggest turn ons: umm....I dunno sense of humor? Kind eyes....Classy clothes are a MUST.

10. Age: old enough to drink even though I don't

11. Ideas of a perfect date: One where my date doesn't "forget his wallet in his car" and make me pay for dinner before driving me home without paying me back for his half. (I'm not bitter about this dude AT ALL.)

12. Life goal: Publish my book series so there's something for people to remember me by.

13. Piercings i want: None really. I throw around getting my ears done, but I'm not really into punching holes in my skin.

14. Relationship status: SUPER SINGLE and livin it up.

15. Favorite movie: . UGH dude this is so hard. There's three main ones I watch whenever and I always love them: Pride and Prejudice 2005, Howl's Moving Castle, and Austenland!

16. A fact about my life: I've spent 13 years in the same house and I'm totally okay with that. (Yes I commuted to college from home and no I didn't regret it AT ALL.)

17. Phobia: Spiders. Terrible fear of spiders. I'm also afraid of the dark a little bit and tornados.

.18. Height: 5'2"

19. Are you a virgin? Heck yea! And proud of it!

20. What is your shoe size? 4-5 depending on who makes them.

21. What’s your sexual orientation? straight

22. Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs? Nope. I don't like alcohol and I'd prefer not to kill my brain cells I'll need those for grad school.

23. Someone you miss: My grandma. She was the most fun person and I could call her any time and we'd talk for hours. She died in February and I miss her all the time.

24. What’s one thing you regret? I regret how judgemental I was in high-school. It caused a lot of problems with my best friend. We're okay now, and I've apologized, but it caused a lot of wasted stress and fights we didn't need to have.

25. First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: J.J. Field

26. Favorite ice cream? CAKE BATTER!

27. One insecurity: Body image. I used to be very athletic and I miss that a lot. I feel really gross and lazy. I also stress eat a LOT.

28. What my last text message says: To me - I finally found a Publix that has water. From me - How am I like your dad?!

29. What's the most creative thing you've done recently: I decorated the house for fall!

30. What's the last song you listened to? Six Weeks by Of Monsters And Men

31. What do your favorite Pj's look like? I have a shirt that says "my cat doesn't like you" that I wear whenever we have guests over.

Have you ever stole money from a friend? no.

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met? Lol nope!

Have you ever been in a fist fight? I punched my brother a few times, but like...we weren't fighting.

Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? Yeah he had a girlfriend.

Have you ever been arrested? No

Have you ever made out with a stranger? Ew no

Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes I loved doing this at my grandma's house.

Have you ever been lonely? HA. Who hasn't...?

Have you ever been to a club? I went to a boat party once (I hated it) and they played that weird club music so that's the closest I've ever been to a club. I go to sports bars all the time for wings though.

Have you ever felt an earthquake? Nope you don't get those down here in FL really.

Have you ever touched a snake? I LOVE SNAKES. They feel so fun. Snakes need love all the time.

Have you ever ran a red light? Yes. It was 2 am. I was coming home from a theater show I was in. (They kept me late painting sets) and I turned left on red without stopping because I didn't even register that the light was red until I had already done it.

Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes. They totaled my car. Scariest thing ever.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? Yah

Have you ever sang karaoke? I think I did, but not in front of people. My grandparents had a Karaoke machine that my cousins and I all played with.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? Yah like continuing to eat Mcdonalds at 2am when my brother comes home lol.

Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? No! XD I've seen someone else do it though.

Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger? nope.

Have you ever dream that you married someone? Nope. I don't usually have love-related dreams.

Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No, but I got it stuck to an icicle that I licked once.

Have you ever ever gone to school partially naked? I was homeschooled so I worked in my PJ's a lot.

Have you ever brushed your teeth? ???? do people NOT brush their teeth????

Have you ever ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yeah I couldn't watch Black Mirror alone. Otherwise I don't watch scary movies.

Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Naw. I might be tiny, but I fight hard. People know better.

Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? nope

Have you ever broken a bone? I smashed my finger playing softball once.

Have you ever been easily amused? I mean yeh. I watched youtube videos of people organizing stuff once for HOURS. D:

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? Alll the time

Have you ever mooned/flashed someone? no.

Have you ever forgotten someone’s name? Literally all the time. I suck at names.

Have you ever give us one thing about you that no one knows? Uh...no? Idk I think at least someone knows everything about me.

What was your last dream? I had pants that changed colors but never matched the outfit I had on. (It was the first dream in a week that wasn't an awful nightmare so I was thrilled!)

Would you be up for interplanetary travel if it was a thing? YES YES YES. SEND ME TO SPACE! Its like being in the age of sail all over! Adventure! new planets! LET ME GO!

If you could travel back in time, where would you go? 18th century or Victorian era.

Do you prefer tech or real books for reading? Books!!!

Do you dread doctor visits or do they not bother you? I think they're a waste of time, but I'm not afraid of doctors.

Favorite fashion decade of the twentieth century? 1910's or 1920's. Edwardian (Titanic clothes) or Flapper (Gatsby).

Are you wearing nail polish and if so, what color? YES I'm wearing the Northern Lights OPI color from the new Iclandic line. I LOVE nail polish.

Are you into working out or no? Yes, but it has to be fun. I hate machines and gyms. Dance is much more my style.

Do you have a temper? Doesn't everyone? Mine's really buried though so you really gotta mess up and push me to get it to come out. I don't have the energy to be angry about a lot of stuff.

Do you have one item you treat yosef with, and if so, what is it? SUGAR SCRUBS

Do you eat meat? YEA I basically live at Chickfila.

If yes, how do you like it cooked? Depends on the meat. Steak Med-Rare and chicken usually grilled well (no thank you to salmonella).

Ever had a boss or a teacher you absolutely hated? HA basically every professor at my school who gets political. I'm sorry I took a literature class not a political science. You can critique the world later. Please teach what I paid for.

Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate? Tea!

Do you wear makeup? Yes, especially when I go to work.

If you wear perfume, what’s your scent type/favorite fragrance? I wear the cashmere perfume from bath and body works. I don't really like high end perfumes they make my throat hurt.

Do you have a girl crush? nah

Candles, wax melts, or incense? Candles. I love their little flames. It reminds me of fall/Christmas.

Favorite season of the year? FALLLLLLLLLLL

Fanfic—do you prefer smut or fluff? Fluff. Not into smut really at all.

Do you like taking selfies? Why or why not? I hate taking selfies. However, when you travel alone and you want photos of yourself you gotta suck it up.

Do you want children? Eventually, but that means wanting a husband and meh - i'll wait.

Do you prefer lots of friends or just a few good friends? Definitely just a few. People stress me out.

Introvert or extrovert, or mixture of both? Raging introvert.

Ocean/beach or mountains? BOTH?!!?! Beach because it doesn't give me altitude sickness, but I love the mountains anyway.

Morning person or night person? Night owl 10/10.

Do you initiate conversations with strangers? not if I can help it.

Milk or dark chocolate? Dark

What do you post on your blog? Star wars...historical romance gifs...artwork sometimes...random other aesthetic stuff and cute things!

Is it hard for you to apologize when you’re in the wrong? Yah I kinda have a pride thing that is hard to get past. I do apologize though. The person won't know you're sorry unless you say it.

Love at first sight? nope.

Best/funniest Halloween memory? This one year my best friend and I went as spies and everyone thought we were the blues brothers. It was hilarious because my friend had no idea who the blues brothers were and it got to the point where we both just said YES when people asked because it was too exhausting to say otherwise.

Did your first crush work out or was it unrequited? Unrequited

Do you like old movies—and by old, I mean OLD old? I watched a silent version of Phantom of the Opera that was cool once, but usually those movies are a bit slow for me.

Do you tan or burn? Both, but right now I'm tanning.

Do you think people deserve second chances? Depends on what they did. Cheating? Not a chance.

What animal would be cutest if scaled down to the size of a cat? ELEPHANT!!! Imainge the tiny round feets and the little trunk!!!!!!

Do you have any weird food likes/dislikes? I hate lots of foods. and I hate any food if there's too much of it.

.What’s the funniest real person’s name you’ve ever heard? (I don't want to use his real real name, but the last name is real) Harry Dingledien.

#about me

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rosenfey · 7 years

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Another Tag Thing

Tagged by the very kind and sweet @lenkalost, thank you so much, dear! ♥

1. Are you named after someone? After a girl from my father’s favourite movie.

2. When is the last time you cried? 10 mins ago.

3. Do you like your handwriting? When I try enough, it’s pretty decent and readable, but then, who has the time for all that?

4. What is your favorite lunch meat? Lettuce, lol.

5. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? I’d either really like me or totally hate me. Like there’s nothing in-between. And yeah, I’d have to be a weirdo to like myself.

6. Do you use sarcasm? Me? Sarcasm? Noooo, neveeer. What a wild thought, indeed!

7. Do you have your tonsils? Nope, got mine out when I was a kid [I’m told I made a lot of fuss in the hospital, lol].

8. Would you bungee jump? I’d have to die first.

9. What is your favorite kind of cereal? Cinnamon flakes. I’d eat them forever. I’d choke on them if I could. What a nice death.

10. Do you untie your shoes when you take off your shoes? Nope [then I break my neck every time I try to get them off].

11. Do you think you’re a strong person? I’m a crybaby, goodbye [but at least I’m soft and cute, get out].

12. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? Vanilla.

13. What is the first thing you notice about people? Their voice. And the way they move when they speak.

14. Red or pink? Red. Like wine. *wink*

15. What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? What kind of a question is this, mah body is great, thank you [narcissistic Ambie strikes again. But hey, I might be a narcissistic asshole, but I’m the best narcissistic asshole, deal with it].

16. What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? Blue shorts and no shoes. I’m at home, so barefoot all the time.

17. What was the last thing you ate? Food. Hopefuly.

18. What are you listening to right now? To my loud neighbours arguing + Paint It Black by Rolling Stones so I don’t have to hear again why “Marty is a better daughter than Lucy” and why “Peter and Kate are probably going to get divorced”.

19. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Black.

20. Favorite smell? Lavender and petrichor [which reminds me that we have a lavender syrup at home and I drink that shit all the time].

21. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? My grandma, lol.

22. Favorite sport to watch? I like to watch sports, so I can remind myself why I don’t do sport at all.

23. Hair color? Ginger.

24. Eye color? Blue-green-greish, idk, they weird.

25. Do you wear contacts? Nah. I’d wear those of fancy colors tho, if I could.

26. Favorite food to eat? Tuna salad. Or pasta in general.

27. Scary movie or comedy? Comedy.

28. Last movie you watched? On - drakon [it’s a slavic fantasy guys, and I’m too emotional, bye]

29. What color of shirt are you wearing? Black. As my soul, hurr durr burr.

30. Summer or winter? Summer. It’s holidays, so I can stay inside and quietly hate on all the smiling people, enjoying the safety of my cool room and beer in the fridge.

31. Hugs or kisses Both, but it must be a person I’m really comfortable with, otherwise pls don’t touch me, I’ll hit you in the throat in self-defense, friend or no friend [come to think about it, there’s maybe like 1 person who can touch me, lol].

32.What book are you currently reading? None.

33. Who do you miss right now? Beep, boop, not gonna tell ya.

34. What is on your mouse pad? Nothing. As I don’t have a mouse pad. Didn’t see that coming, right?

35. What is the last program you watched? I don’t watch TV, at all, thank the Maker.

36. What is the best sound? People shutting up.

37. Rolling Stones or the Beatles? Rolling Stones.

38. What is the furthest you have ever traveled? Italy [they have gud pizza].

39. Do you have a special talent? My special talent is not having any talents.

40. Where were you born? I’ve rised from the ashes of my enemies I’m a dragon.

Tagging: @lunedin, @ilonavic, @lithialetheia, @holy-squirrel-of-death, @dandelionandbuttercup, and everyone else who wants to do it! No pressure, as always. Ambie out! *disappears into the void screaming*

#c'est moi #ambie was tagged

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rreader · 7 years

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I don't want to bother you or stress you out if you're super busy, but can I request a Soulmate AU fic with Reader and Loki? I don't really have any specific plot ideas sorry but maybe some angst that ends fluffy? Hope that's ok for you 😊 Ps. You're an incredible writer x

Pairing: Loki x ReaderFandom: MCUWarnings: Soulmate!AU in which you get the same injuries as your soulmate does.

A/N: thank you so much for that compliment, my love! I have to be honest, I was a little worried about this prompt, because I’m pretty much a grandma when it comes to soulmate AU’s. I literally just know a single one and I didn’t like that with loki and reader, but then I stumbled across this one and I just fell in love with it and yes, I’ll stop talking now lol. hope you like it bb

*****

Youmade your rounds through the compound right now, wishing everyonewell in the fight against Thanos.

Youwere a scientist, not a soldier, so you had to stay put in thecompound while some of your best friends might give their life today.

Itwas tearing you apart that you couldn’t do much more than wish themluck.

Thelast person on your list to make your farewells to was Loki.

Hewas standing in front of a giant window, distracted by the outsideworld.

Youslowly approached him and gently placed a hand on his arm, trying not to startle him. If it was even possible to startle an Asgardian god.

“Loki?”

Hecontinued to look out of the window.

“It’sabout to start.”

“Yeah.I know,” you lowered your hand and looked outside as well. After amoment of silence you looked at him again. “Promise me to becareful?”

TheAsgardian only smiled a little. But it wasn’t a sincere one. You could tell right away.

“Hey!”you walked between him and the window so he had no other choice thanto look at you. “Promise me.”

“Youknow that I can’t do that,” his voice was low and soft, trying toprepare you for whatever would happen next.

Youtried to swallow down your tears, but it didn’t work the way youwanted it to work and looked down so he wouldn’t see them. He raisedyour chin with his fingers and pressed a kiss against your forehead,which seemed like a goodbye and you hated it. God, you hated it so much. You couldn’t stomach the thought of losing him forever.

You waited a few more minutes before you wiped away the tears and joined the others who were staying behind downstairs. Together, you watched all the Avengers depart for war.

Oncethey were out of sight, you all went upstairs again and gathered in frontof the TV to watch the live feeds of the fight.

Itquickly went south once they arrived. Thanosbrought forces that none of them had expected and you were able tosee the first Avengers going down.

“Ican’t do this..,” the nausea was kicking in, so you got up from the couch and wanted to go to thespot that Loki and you had been together earlier. You stopped in your trackswhen you felt immense pain in your shoulder.

Lookingdown, you realized that there was a huge cut, which was.. weird. Youdidn’t remember cutting yourself today.

Acolleague and friend of yours rushed towards you.

“(Y/N)!What happened?!”

“I..don’t know. I must have cut myself earlier.”

Justwhen your friend wanted to examine the wound, you felt a trail ofblood coming from your lip.

“Guys!A little help here!” the others rushed towards you, trying to figure outwhat was happening to you.

Andit obviously didn’t stay with the cut on the lip and shoulder.

During the next thirty minutes, several wounds appeared all over your body and yousoon lost consciousness from all the pain. Your friends carried youover to the medical wing and tried their best to help you. But howcould they help you when they didn’t even know what caused them in the first place?

“Idon’t know how to help her! We patch one wound up and another oneappears! I need to know how this is possible!” the doctor said.

Oneof your friends joined the others.

“Ithink I can help with that,” she showed them a picture of Lokilying on the ground with the exact same wounds that you were suffering from.

“That’s..impossible. That’s just a theory! No one has ever proven it!”

“Well,I think we just found our first case then, Doc.”

***

Thefight was won.

Witha lot of losses and at terrible cost, but it was won.

Nowit was time for the doctors and nurses to help the wounded as good as theycould.

Lokiand Thor were the first to be back on their feet. Being an Asgardiangod certainly had its’ perks.

Lokiwas confused when you weren’t nowhere to be seen. You hadclearly been worried about him when he departed and now you didn’t even visit himwhile he was still injured?

Heapproached one of the doctors.

“Haveyou seen (Y/N)?”

Sheturned around and was surprised to see Loki, then she gulped.

“Uhm,yes. About that.”

Hewas coming dangerously close to the doctor, immediately realizingthat something was wrong.

“Whereis (Y/N)? And know that I won’t repeat myself.”

“It’s..hard to explain. Just.. follow me, would you?”

Even though he was terribly confused, hedid what she asked and followed her to an empty room of the medicalwing.

Well, almost empty. Except for one patient.

Hewas shocked to find you as the patient, completely bandaged up and hooked up toseveral machines. He rushed to your side and placed a hand on yourcheek.

“Whathappened?” he asked, his voice sounding desperate.

Fearrushed through him. He cared for you. Deeply. Even if he had nevertold you or anyone else.

The fear was quickly replaced with anger though and he turnedaround to look at the doctor.

“WHOdid this?”

“Well,you see.. That’s the thing that’s probably going to confuse you even more. YOU did this.”

“Wh..-What?” that completely threw him off balance and the doctor camea little closer, pushing the blanket over your body aside.

“Lookat the wounds. Look at them carefully. And then tell me what you see.”

Hedid what she asked. It took him a little to find a pattern, but he did eventually.

“I..those are my wounds.”

“Ittook us almost an hour to figure out that you were the cause. We managed tosave her though. Just barely.”

“Howis this even possible? I’ve never heard of magic like this..”

“It’snot magic. But it’s not science either. It’s a so called ‘SoulmatePhenomenon’. One person gets injured, their soulmates suffers from thesame injuries. It’s a special bond. One that can have horribleconsequences if your soulmate is an Avenger as you can see.”

Soulmate?He had heard that word before and knew what it meant but.. was thiseven possible? Could someone like him, who had done such terrible things, have a soulmate that was the complete opposite of him? Kind and gentle and helping everyone that needed help..

“Whatcan I do?” he asked after staring at your body for a little while.

“Shedoesn’t have your healing abilities so it’ll take time for her torecover. I need someone to watch over her while I patch everyone elseup. If you want to, you could be that someone.”

Henodded and grabbed a chair that he placed right next to your bed.

Thedoc smiled a little and left, walking back to the others.

Lokistayed where he was.

Ittook hours before you opened your eyes.

“Loki?”

“It’sme, yes,” he caressed your cheek with his hand.

“You’realive..,” you sounded so incredibly relieved. He felt his heart skip a beat. Never had someone cared so much for him..

Hewanted to talk to you about that entire soulmate situation, but he knew how high the dosage of your pain killers were so it probablywouldn’t do any good talking about it now.

Hewaited a little. And then a little longer, but after a few days you were the one who asked.

“Didthey tell you about what happened to me? No one wants to tell me and I amrather curious about it, to be honest.”

Hewas sitting on your bed, holding your hand. You were still feelingweak, but better than these past days.

“(Y/N)have you ever heard of soulmates?”

“Uhm,yeah sure. I mean, in stories and movies and such. What does thathave to do with anything?”

Helooked down to your joined hands and only when you said his name didhe look up again.

“It’snot just a story. You suffered from the same wounds I did in battlebecause.. well. Apparently we’re soulmates.”

Youreyebrows drew together in confusion, then you laughed a little, butstopped immediately when you felt your entire body hurt from it.

“What the hell, Loki? Don’t tell me you actually believe that crap.”

“It’strue. I’ve seen your wounds, (Y/N). I’ve suffered from the exactsame ones. Every single one of them.”

Youremained silent for a little while, trying to wrap your brain around the idea of soulmates truly being a thing.

“Butthen.. that means that you and I.. that we..,” you said after a fewminutes.

“Itappears so.”

Youknew that you had some feelings for Loki and knew that he might even return them in some way, but soulmates? That was a whole differentlevel.

“Whatare we going to do about it?”

“Fornow, you need to regain your strength and heal fully. Then, we cantalk about it.”

“Soyou.. actually want to talk about it?”

Hesmiled and nodded. He’s been alone for too long and was ready for someone to be in his life.

Hewanted this someone to be you.

Now more than ever.

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wishingfornever · 5 years

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12/14/17 – No Contact: NationState Anniversary

It would appear that a year ago, MN was created. Hrm… Interesting. I thought I made it sooner. I was in Texas at this time. I thought I was in California when I created MN. Or when Castro died. Well, he died in November… yeah, I was in Texas. Weird. My memory is turning to crap.

Hrm… I coughed up some mucus mixed with blood. That’s a really bad sore throat.

244. I’m almost at 240. That’s great. Then 40 more pounds and I reach my goal. Which should be in about April. April is going to be the month for me. 2018 will be the year for me. I’m optimistic. :D

Watching Moana on Netflix. Charming movie thus far, of course it just began. I have one quip. This wisewoman is sharing the history of the tribe with these toddlers and they’re all scared except for the titular character. Two things that I take issue with:

Firstly, there are more male toddlers than female toddlers. That would be a truly rare occurrence to see in a culture such as theirs. Women have always outnumbered men historically.

Second, this old bat is talking about how everyone is going to die and Moana is smiling like a maniac. All the other children are afraid. So, I guess this has two points within it’s own point. Moana shouldn’t be smiling and it’s alright to be afraid. She is young, she has a lot of reasons to be afraid because if she’s not then she won’t grow up and will be carried off by predatory animals in the middle of the night. That said, why not tell the story when they’re old so that they won’t break down in tears and will remember their own history better? Just saying.

Also, why doesn’t Moana have any siblings? Especially since her father’s father’s father’s father’s father was chief that continued to son onto son onto son? Idk, I don’t understand how their government works. I like the poetic meaning with the rocks on the tallest part of the island, though.

Fuck, how old is this fucking chicken? Where are they getting their fabric from?

Moana isn’t a super narrow princess that we’ve grown accustomed to in Disney movies. She’s kinda buff. :o

Oh, shit. Moana’s grandma killed Steve Irwin. :o

Ugh… Just finished Moana. I feel like crying.

I ended up crying. Watched Lava by Disney/Pixar. Cute song. Very touching. I’m very emotional right now, I guess. Anyways, it’s time to walk Max.

Back. Watching the Jungle Book. The one with CGI animals. One of the wolves refers to a boar as wild. Like, really? You’re fucking wild! >:C

I noticed how there were hand drawn animations in this one (at the beginning) and in Moana. I guess Disney is still watching out for their old cartoonists. That’s nice of them.

Just like the old Jungle Book, they cheat. They’re recycling CGI animals from OTHER Disney movies and using them in slightly edited scenes! GAWD!!! Kidding, kidding.

Oh, Sher Khan sounds powerful. Good voice actor.

Fucking hell, Bill Murray is ruining the movie for me. Like, GOD DAMMIT. Everyone refers to Mowgli as the “Man Cub!” and speak very properly and in a distinguished manner. Then Bill Murray comes in speaking his fucking slang and just being… well, himself. Says, “Kid.” Like, really? I wish they got someone else to be Baloo.

Something I do like about the movie is how the animals have their own customs, traditions, cultures, languages, governance, and even religion. It’s crazy. So much lore. :o

Eh… the bear-necessities song seems out of place. Guess I was hoping it’d be more of a drama rather than a comedy/family movie. I mean, Bill Murray isn’t a bad actor but I don’t find him very… well, dramatic. He’s more comedy which is probably why I prefer someone more fluid with the other voice actors.

Mowgli forgot his rope.

Christ, Christopher Walken is King Louie. “I want… to… be like… YOU… I want… to… TALK… like you… in coherent sentences.”

I take back everything I said about Bill Murray. Christopher Walken, however… And yet again, the song feels out of place. Want more drama. Then again King “Louie” doesn’t sound like it belongs to begin with. All the other names are SUPER Indian. King Louie, however? Sounds French. I’ll look into it sometime.

Gigantopithecus? Is that what King Louie was in the original? I thought he was an orangutan. Ah, well. It’s kinda cool they’re using an extinct creature. It makes it extra creepy, like he were some sort of old god. I was wondering why he was so big. I feel like they changed the song since then.

HE SAYS “FIRE” IN THE FUCKING SONG!!! WHAT THE FUCK!?! THE LORE!!! YOU’RE BREAKING THE LORE!!!

Wait, Mowgli did a monkey crawl thing up the steps. Now that he’s running in terror, he knows how to run up them like a normal person? Consistency…

This is a weird thing to note, but Christopher Walken has a lot of screen time. Kaa’s voice actor has such a pretty voice, I was hoping we’d get to hear more of her. Maybe she’ll show up again. I’ll look up the cast when the movie is over.

I like how the monkeys swarm but can’t really do much damage. Like, lol, they the zerg.

Oh, fuck. Zerg is a perfect comparison. They have a hivemind. The temple collapses and they immediately coordinate a rescue effort. All in unison. In sync.

Mowgli is sneaking into the Human Village. I bet you he’s going to steal the fire and then leave. Obviously not trying to join them. Also, wasn’t it daylight a minute ago?

Now, I’m pretty civilized. But is it common to have a bonfire in the middle of the village every night? I feel like that’s a waste of resources. Also, how did he reach that torch? It’s like twice his height up. Also, how would they know fire is red? When it’s more orange? Not the point. Red flower. Aren’t most animals colorblind?

Fuck, that was a quick run. I thought it took him days to get to that village. It took him far less time to get back.

Ah, fuck! Mowgli just proved Sher Khan’s point! Whaaaaaat?! Moral complexity in a Disney movie?!

Sher Khan killed Baloo? Oh, shit. That was brutal. I wonder who would win. A tiger or a bear. Doubt they’d interact very often, tbh. Bears would win on strength but tigers are strong AND agile. Like, oof. They’re a feline. And Sher Khan is like… vicious. Baloo is lazy. Guess that settles that.

Drat. Sher Khan fell to his death. Though, admittedly, the fall probably didn’t kill him because tigers are just oversized cats. Rather, I’m fairly certain the fire did. Disney likes having falls into fire. Hrm…

Fuck! Baloo lived!

Elephants don’t strike me as the sort to alter the environment but I’m not an elephant specialist.

Alright, it’s over. I wonder what will happen when Mowgli gets older. Like, will one of the female wolves be offered to him as a “bride” or whatever? Will he fuck a wolf? Is he a furry? And what of King Louie? Will he come back for him? And also, his diaper. Why does he never take it off? I’m aware that it’s indecent and I don’t want to see an underaged penis. However, how would he know what decency is? And does he ever poop? Where does he poop? Does he eat meat raw? It seems like he must have. Can you actually eat meat raw? I think humans used to be able to but the organ responsible is no longer functional. There are so many questions. Really, he should have been brought back to the human village at the end to avoid, “When his balls drop, will he fuck animals?” question. I might be the only one asking it, but I’m asking it.

Oh, the outro is fucking awesome. Christopher Walken/King Louie crawling out of rubble and then singing in these temple ruins inside a book. Pretty cool, not sure if it’s canon. If it is, then that means he lived and Mowgli better beware.

Shere Khan? I’ve spelled it wrong this entire time. :o

HOLY FUCK!!! KAA WAS SCARLETT JOHANSSON!!! ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?!? Like, that’s a name I’m familiar with and I’m not that great with names. Jesus Christ, you fucking got her to play Kaa for a SINGLE scene? Less than that? Like, so little. I feel like she should have had more screen time. Like, really. She must have been EXPENSIVE to bring in. Geez. :o

Just googled Akela’s character. It’s Gus from Breaking Bad. Or the Dentist from Payday. That dude is usually a villain. They’ve got a great cast. He was a very powerful pack leader, I thought. Surprised his character died.

Then again, these actors are pretty expensive. Maybe that’s why they’re only in it for a little bit? Or because plot.

Alright, so that was it for the big names. I heard that in the original story of the Jungle Book, Mowgli had elephants destroy his village at the very end and killed everyone. Not sure how true that is. If it’s very true, then the book is immediately better.

Eh… looking for something else on Netflix. Recommended for me… all anime. I don’t watch anime. Esther does. Her spectre is back. :/

Going through critically acclaimed. That means they received high reviews. They’re considered good movies. One of these movies: Antz.

I’ve seen Antz. I remember it from when I was very young. Allow me to assure you, it wasn’t very good. It had Christopher Walken in it. That’s not really relevant to the quality, just thought it’d be interesting to point out since the Jungle Book also had him.

Holy shit, Antz is a children’s movie? There was an attempted rape scene in it. Christ. :o

Anastasia… that was a decent movie. It’s not a Disney movie. I know this because I cracked a joke involving Disney. I think it was the supposed hatred for Jews? I don’t remember the joke. Anyways, everyone quickly YELLED at me, calling me VERY mean things and informed me in a not so polite manner that Anastasia is made by Fox.

Whoops! Anyways, I remember that a lot because it was in my World of Warcraft days. Dark times, even then. Late high school, early… no school? Idk, but you get it. I basically had this guild I rolled with called the Bloodfury Clan. Orc-Only RP guild on an RPPvP (Role Play Player versus Player) Server. It’s where my writing talents sort of… came to me. These folks were very professional in a very brutish way. It was great. We never referred to our guild as a guild. It was a Clan. Because ORC!!! The head of the Clan was this Puerto Rican woman. A lovely person. Kil’Gora. Or Kilgora because the game wouldn’t allow punctuation in your name, but lorewise! It was Kil’gora. Real name was Miri. I looked up to her. She was very influential. Helped me through… a lot of dark times. Mostly caused by my dad.

I don’t remember if it was before or after my comment… I think after. But over Ventrilo, she sung to me. Out of the blue. Just… randomly sung. She knew I was going through a particularly rough day, so she sang to me. She sang a song from Anastasia. I cried. It may seem like I cry a lot, but I assure you, crying for me used to be rare. I hated crying. I didn’t want to seem weak. She was there for me. And she was the first person to hear me cry.

Esther, however, was the first person to see me cry. Weird how that works.

Anyways, a nickname of hers was Ariel because of her Disney singing voice. I pointed out to her that Anastasia isn’t by Disney but by Fox. It surprised her too. I also told her that the internet thought I was a fucking retard for not knowing. That didn’t surprise her. Tough love.

Decided to send her a message. Just something reassuring. Life hasn’t been easy for her. And considering how Puerto Rico has been this year, I’d say she’s probably worried about home. She doesn’t live there anymore… but it’s still her home. Weird to say.

You know, I never really considered California home until I left it. I was alone in Texas with plains. I felt like I was in the middle of a golden ocean. Why was it golden? Because it was piss. I missed the mountains. They were always so reassuring. Then I come back and realize that I never wanted to come back. And I couldn’t return to Texas because my dad fucked my credit. Well… I have now. I don’t really look outside. I don’t really pay attention to the atmosphere. A lot has changed. But, I keep my troubles to myself. To many, they see me and think, “Wow… he hasn’t changed one bit after all these years.”

The reality is, I’m always changing. I find new horrors, new regrets, new kinks in my personality. Every day, I feel more unhinged. What they see is what I rehearse. I plan conversations ahead of schedule, I alleviate thought and avoid improvisation. Should they deviate from the path… chaos. Panic. Fear behind a shy smile. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to say.

Thus, many will see that I say the same thing over and over. This is intentional. This is the conversational package that will get me through my life. How long will that last?

Years ago, I predicted that I would die at the age of 27. This was during the Bloodfury Clan. So, perhaps I will die next year. Maybe I shouldn’t enlist afterall. Regardless, it’d be more convenient if I do perish. Simpler, rather. Not that I seek my own death but I will not seek to prevent it, either. If I die, then I will die. If I live, then I will live until I die. The age at which I die is irrelevant.

However, I will be disappointed to die at 28. That might actually piss me off.

Anyways, backtracking. Fun fact about Orc RP: It’s basically descriptive grunting. Like, it’s comical at times. You have to be fierce. Not necessarily sub-human but definitely animalistic. I was THE BEST recruiter Bloodfury ever had. At least… I think? Not sure. Might have changed since then. I’d post my advertisement in General Chat and Trade Chat. People would often comment with how well written it was. I had longer adverts, too, but Blizz prevented me from using them because spam filter.

Drat.

My best advertisement was actually a ripoff from the Napoleon: Total War intro cinematic. The thing is, I didn’t even own Napoleon: Total War until I was in Texas. I had already stopped playing WoW by then.

Not the point. The point is, people would send me a “Tell” or “Whisper” which is a direct and personal message directly to me. Tell me if I need to slow down. Anyways, we’d set up an interview to see if they can RP. Turns out, not many people can. It’s easy. Write a coherent sentence, right? You’d think.

Most people are illiterate. And though my advert was well-written, it appealed to EVERYONE. So, a lot of Non-Orcs and Non-RPers would have to be turned away. It was a shame, but purity. You know how that goes. #fascism

When the interview began, I started with a single statement. “The Prey approaches.” Nothing more primal than referring to someone who is your lesser as prey, something for you to sink your fangs into and tear their flesh out. It also establishes dominance. Not sure how, though. Miri said she LOVED that line because it was just… perfect. Orcs don’t HAVE to be stupid. They can be, but that’s not their purpose.

Big, dumb orcs? No. Orcs are brutes, but that doesn’t mean they’re stupid. Orcs should be Laconic, forceful, direct, perhaps impatient. Orcs can be really smart but they should still be prone to their instinct.

I mentioned a story here, I’m fairly certain. Of my orc in a forest? I might not have, but if I have then consider this a recap. The orc ended up looting a dwarven doll and then it broke and he angrily threw it at a tree so hard it shattered. He was basically an angry gorilla, pounding the floor and screaming over something so trivial. My Orc wasn’t dumb. He had my intellect, which has been praised by many. It’s also been denounced by far more, but fuck them; me am smart Orc!

PvP was my thing. It was my character’s lore. I basically leveled from 57 to 60 using NOTHING but Alterac Valley, one of the PvP modes. PvP, btw, stands for Player vs Player. So, I would attack other players. Miri got me turned on to WORLD PvP where you gank people. Gank means you ambush them while they’re questing. I was REALLY good at it. Like, I set up AMAZING ambushes.

Back in the day, you had to walk to dungeons. Now, you just magically appear there for… reasons. But back then? No. You had to be there in person and then you could summon people to join you. What I did was I waited at one of these dungeons. It’s entrance was an opened top box. On the top parts, were pillars and debris to depict the dungeon being ruins or whatever. What I’d do was have my cat, who was named “Mittens” because I’m a badass Orc Warrior but lol. I RP’d with Mittens. She was canon. It was… the best.

Mittens would break to be on one side. I’d use a bunch of potions to make my character small and turn him into a skeleton. I’d wait on the other side of the box. When someone entered, I’d pop out behind cover, throw my axe at them, pop back in, and wait. They’d look around, see the cat, and look at it. Then, when Mittens had their attention, I’d pop out from cover again and charge into their backs and just BEAT the everliving shit out of them.

Other times, I’d stalk people. Wait to strike. Like this one Paladin who I was following. She jumped down and bubbled (meaning she cast a spell making her immune to damage for a limited time). When the bubble faded, I charged her. She took so much damage she tried to heal. I spellblocked her in the middle, meaning that spell and any spells like it were unable to be cast for a limited time. Her defeat was SO absolute, her only response was to /cry.

I felt a little bad, so I apologized for it on my Alliance character almost immediately after. She was really nice it seemed.

Anyways, another time there was another Paladin. He was doing daily quests. He was pulling all these monsters all at once so he can kill them all at once and complete the quest faster. I saw this and ambushed him. Me plus ALL these monsters meant he had no chance. I won.

When you die, you have to find your body as a ghost and then you come back to life. He does this and immediately heals. He finds me. I wave. He changes his armor to PvP specific armor. He changes his specialization from Player versus Environment (PvE) Paladin to PvP Paladin. I get worried. I message Jer that I might need help. Then I realize he has no mana. I tell Jer, “Nevermind” and charge him again.

A Paladin is worthless without Mana. He loses again. I laugh and I laugh.

I use player’s instincts and strengths against them while feeding on their weaknesses. When you get attacked, you find where they attack from. You see a fortified position or a sign of previous occupation (like say a cat that follows a player anywhere they go) and you prepare for an assault from that position. Then you get attacked from what you thought was barren and had no sign of life because you didn’t expect a 6’5” Orc to actually be a 2’ skeleton hiding behind the least cover possible. The most powerful spells in someone’s arsenal will be used carelessly when they’re not threatened. So, if you wait long enough, they’ll expend what they think they won’t need and will be vulnerable for attack far sooner. Preparing for confrontation means you’ll have to reallocate resources. Failure to account for the resources lost means you’ll be targeted before you can replenish.

I could have written a world PvP book. Like, I suggested to clan members who were getting into PvP to get the Helmet and Shoulder armors last when it comes to PvP gear because it’s the easiest to recognize because they actually have unique models. If you have ALL the armor besides the helmet and shoulder armor, you’d be VERY well-geared, but you won’t look like it. Thus, you’d be underestimated and that’d give you an advantage in the initial engagement.

I miss PvP.

Anyways… watching Anastasia. If you ever read this and think, “Maybe Orc RP is kinda cool?” it is. At a time, I knew plenty of Orcish words that I’d just throw into conversation to make it sound so much more authentic. My axe was named “Lok’tra” which is an Orcish song about great battles or whatever. I LOVE naming weapons. ^^

Hrm, I’m not sure how historically accurate those uniforms are.

300 years? Um, not in 1916… 1913 would be 300 years. Though, I guess it was just rounding down at that point... But traveling to Paris? During WWI? Not with that German Uboat threat. And this bitch, with Rasputin? The Tsarina LOVED Rasputin because he saved their son. And then he said when he dies, their entire family would die.

This is something petty to point out, especially since it’s accepted regardless… but “Tsar” is better than “Czar.” I’m sure “Tsar” looks less pleasing, but the Russian character they use is basically a “Ts.” Pronounce the T and then the s. Czar is still correct, of course, but Tsar is perhaps more correct.

Rasputin did die from drowning. But it wasn’t an accident. He was assassinated by Russian nobles (not the Romanov family) who didn’t like how much power he had with the Tsar and the Tsarina. Or he was assassinated by the British. Long story there. The fun story is that he was poisoned. Excessively. And then he was shot. Excessively. Then he was tied up. Excessively. And then he was tossed in a river. His body was discovered and he had freed himself of the rope. He had drowned, though. He was a pain in the ass to kill.

Also, a fortnight? Really? The Romanovs were killed in 1918. Not 1916. Or 1917.

Wait, this bitch is taking a train to Paris? A train? Bullshit. Not with WWI. Like, no way. She could be taking it to a sea port, but still. Not very likely.

Saint Petersburg? Still? 1917, we’ll say, so in 7 years. She’d be 23 when it switches to Leningrad. So, I wonder how old she is. If it’s not too long, then she’d be stuck in a Russian civil war.

Oh, that’s dumb. They have a newspaper saying, “Anastasia Lives” and the “A” is the Russian character for “D.” That’s the only Cyrillic letter there. The rest are western letters. Commissar wouldn’t have a tie at this time. At least he shouldn’t, fairly certain they had only collars.

How come the main characters are the only people without Russian accents? More importantly, why would they have Russian accents? They’d be speaking Russian, not English. Thus they wouldn’t have much accent to themselves. Thus, it’d be more natural to have them use anglophone accents instead of Russian accents speaking English. Like, if they speak French? They can speak French in English but should have a Russian accent because French isn’t Russian so they would have an accent. It’s just… trivial, I guess.

TEN YEARS?!? FUCKING CHRIST!!! Anastasia was born in 1901! Assuming it all happened in 1916, that means she’d be leaving that orphanage at the age of 25. There is no Russian Civil War at this point, and it’d DEFINITELY be Leningrad.

Backing up to the Russian accents thing… something that I’d think would be cool would be Russian slang equivalents or idioms. I say that because there are a lot of American slang and idioms in movies like this. Like saying, “Pal” or “Guys” or whatever. When making someone sound foreign, you don’t need to give them an accent. Just alter the way they speak. It’ll still sound foreign when clearly spoken in English. A good example is Jade Empire. I think the character’s name was Smiling Mountain and he introduced you to the in-game language and then spoke regular English again. Mind you, Jade Empire is based in Fantasy China so they wouldn’t be speaking English. Thus, they reflected the foreign language through clear, concise, and proper wording and very poetic touches like Spear-Catches-Leaf. Of course, that’s a name. They’re are a lot of names like that, obviously… but the point of those names is that you understand the language so you know what the names mean. Very pleasant. :D I already hate the fucking dog. Fuck the dog. I hate the fucking dog. Die. Dog.

Also, I want to see this movie in Russian. I feel like it’d be better.

The squirrels should be hibernating.

The animation is weird. Like, multiple layers… the footprints in the snow move at a different pace than the snow does when the camera is moving. Peculiar.

No exit visa! No ticket! Glory Arstotzka! I love how he actually has a hammer and sickle. Red uniform was a thing for at least one unit during the civil war, not sure if he’d have one though.

Fairly certain the palace wasn’t abandoned. It was probably re-purposed. Might be wrong though since the governance did move to Moscow.

Singing the song Miri sang to me… It was touching, almost brought me to tears. Then I realized that all the dancers look the same. I realized Anastasia is a schizophrenic. Maybe not the real Anastasia. Just Anya. Tsar Nicky looks good for a 50 year old man. Or at least a ghost. Then again, he was always an attractive man I thought. That is unusually rare for royalty. I’m not sure why that is. Look at the queen of England. Who will inherit looks like he was kicked in the face by the ugliest horse in the stable. Who won’t inherit actually is a decent looker.

Of course, the uglier son… I heard he is supposed to be a very kind man. Could be wrong. But he is honorable.

She said she was 8 when the revolutions happened… um… no? She was born in 1901 not 1908-1909.

I’m fairly certain Tsar Nicholas II’s mother died before Anastasia did. The entire movie is her going to find her grandmother, who clearly played favorites. What a bitch.

I like how Rasputin actually expresses joy when he sees his old bat friend. It’s touching. :D

They get a period correct map but they couldn’t get the rest correct? Actually, how am I sure this map is correct?

It’s not! Estonia isn’t on there! Or rather, it doesn’t have any borders, really… implying it’s a part of Russia! Come on! >:C

It bothers me that Vladimir is the only one with a Russian accent. Either everyone does it or no one does.

Where did they get horses? Did they steal them?

The fuck is Tasha? The boat is in Germany? Why is Tasha everywhere?

Ugh… I always found France pretentious and overrated. Like, at a point France dictated what was considered art and what wasn’t considered art. Rembrandt is an example of what wasn’t considered art. However, more people recognize Rembrandt than any of the French artists of the same period.

Holy crap, someone’s actually speaking Russian. Really?

Where did they get the palace? In France? The French Republic? They leasing out Versailles now? Who are the nobles?

Dmitri gets hit in the head with debris. Then the dick. Then Anya says, “THIS IS FOR DMITRI!!!” Like, make sure he’s dead first. Otherwise, he might already have one. Won’t need two.

They eloped? Oof. Where are they going? Leaving Paris, it seems. Can’t go back to Russia because… well, they’ll kill her there. Curious. Probably a dumb idea. The monarchy could establish a government in exile, of course. That’s if she didn’t elope. She doesn’t think about Russia. Self-absorbed brat. This is why the Romanovs were shot.

Huh. The voice actors are up there. Kelsey Grammer. His last name bothers me. Christopher Lloyd was the Doc from Back to the Future. John Cusak. Kirsten Dunst. That’s all I recognize.

Oh, fuck. It’s 1 in the morning. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. Um…

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I want to be all diary like rn

so like I could just make a note of whatever I’m bout to say but I want it like live forever and i know literally no one on this damn site cares about what i have to say so here I am lol..

I’ve been in this weird pit of overwhelming emotions accompanied by the incapability of processing them for the past few years. It took me so much time to even realize I had such a problem with allowing myself to be a regular fuckin human and initially when I first started seeing the signs of how mentally unhealthily I was living I didn’t know what the fuck to do and abruptly cut off pretty much everything and everyone I loved. I became a fucking hermit. I kept telling myself I was doing it for the better, that I cut everything off and am gonna take my time to heal and grow as a person and when I feel better i will try to rekindle with everything and whatever doesn’t work, just wasn’t meant to be. Which is a mentally unhealthy thing to do in the first place and potentially not only harmed myself but those around me but life’s a fuckin cycle of realizing shit so,,,

Anyways I went through some hella hard times filled with anxiety and depression, literally every day was either full of tears and feeling every emotion at once or was empty and ghost like. But I pushed through it. I learned a lot about my self and how my mind works. I grew as a person and still am. I’m not sharpest in a lot of ways but i know I just want to be a kind and accepting person, not that I wasn’t all those years ago, it’s just that back then I couldn’t present myself as such as I didn’t even have the fucking motivation to live. I mean I like to think I was kind in others eyes but I also fucking hate thinking about what others might think me so again,,, lol. I just know now that I’m trying to be a better person, and I’m trying to learn more and do more this year than I have in the past four years.

I’m writing this now because I’m in a really good state of mind. This month alone I’ve had conversations I never thought I would with people that are so close to me yet knew so little about. That sounds so cryptic lmao. Basically i spoke with my closest family members about struggles mentally and the past and how emotionally traumatizing it was for them and in turn I allowed myself to open up about the exact same thing. A specific convo was with my mom, a woman who has been through hell and back. She told me about past abuse, most of which I was there to witness and we have talked about before, but this time it was different because we spoke as equals. I’m gonna be honest I didn’t open up as much as I could have but it felt like I finally walked over a hill I was dreading for so long. I used to just be a good fake and slap a smile on in difficult time probably not fooling anyone. It’s always been a problem opening up to my family and friends but send me a stranger and I’ll talk their ear off.. well sorta, so like in high school i saw a grief counselor who i guess was technically my therapist but she was a total stranger and the second she asked what I even need to see her for, I broke down. I swear she said like two sentences but I rashly explained all the shit i was dealing with in between fits of tears. At the second meeting I felt like she knew my whole life but somehow I still had more to say?? I literally don’t know how I was so comfortable sharing all that with a stranger so fast like I get it’s her profession and I would’ve opened up eventually and that it could’ve clicked in the back of my mind like ‘why waste time just tell her everything now!’ But idk I think if I were to talk with a stranger that is willing to listen, I would legit do the same thing.. idk.

Anyways, opening up in the slightest bit feels like a major accomplishment. And the fact that i could with my mom who, god bless her, did so much that was seemingly unhealthy and careless to others but meant the world to me, felt amazing. There’s that thing about high school being the time of your life and living it up- a pre show of college which I wasn’t really expecting to be true in the first place but what I didn’t expect was to be emotionally unstable dealing with anxiety, depression, self hatred and grief. So when all this shit hit me like a truck, I was left feeling numb not wanting to do anything with little to no interest in any previous hobbies and likings. I grew up feeling said things^ but didn’t realize until hs how worse it got over time. In the midst of all of that I didn’t know what to do and was having frequent anxiety attacks and even though I couldn’t explain it at all, my mom had a sort of understanding and allowed me to stay home like every damn day. Like I said wasn’t the greatest thing to do but it helped in its own way. In the first years of hs my relationship with my mom was rocky but towards the end she screwed her head on and became more mama bird then ever. We bonded and it felt much better, almost like we rekindled after a long time. Which is kinda true.

Another thing I realized in the past four years was how normalized death was to me growing up. Like by the time I was eight I went through at least six funerals which to my Catholic Mexican/Filipino family meant six mortuary family reunions, six forty day prayers full of greeting mama and papas, being one of the only children to not be playing in the backyard but rather doing the rosary with the adults and what my fam called the ‘Filipino golden girls’ singing walk with thee. Not to mention the other annual prayers with said golden girls where we had a Jesus of Nazareth statue that traveled from the Philippines for a whole week and just prayed for mercy and the souls of our dearly deceased. Like this was the norm for me.. but ALL of that did not prepare me for the deaths of two of the most important people to me. I mean I guess it did because after one of the passings, after a ton of tears and goodbyes in a hospital room, I got in the car and on the way home and immediately thought about where the nice tablecloth was and the saint statues and how to move the table we used as an alter at the previous prayers. So yeah I was prepared but not for the emotions.

Back to why I’m writing this now, i just feel happy??? Idk why this past week was a rollercoaster but overall I felt happy,,,, idk. Imma elaborate..(holy shit I said I could talk the ear off a stranger and look at me spilling hella shit about me rn to the three strangers who’ll see this and scroll right past lmao.) So hmmm, there was a party hosted at my house recently and I was hella excited, I felt like I looked great and was ready to party but as all other times when there’s a gathering of any sort at my house, this weird overwhlelming feeling pops up and fucks everything up. It’s basically a fucking anxiety attack but soooo much weirder than the ones I dealt with in school. I mean they’re both basically the same but these ones felt worse. Because not being able to leave my room for school full of kids I barely knew and not being able to leave my room for a patio full of family and friends that I’m mostly close too should not result in the same form of anxiety. Idk tho it’s all in my sick brain!! but yeah that shit sucked I stayed in my room the whole night, hungry and sober which were two of the things I was absolutely not supposed to be!! There were tacos, &(oops) my fave tequila, good music and fun things planned but that didn’t stop my sick brain from telling me nO. And another thing in this glorious month is —Father’s Day. liSTEN I’m hella damaged nd am not trying to get into ALL of this but to keep it short, my dad who wasn’t in my life until I was one and only very briefly until I was thirteen which also turned out to be very briefly until I was eighteen which you guessed, was also very briefly, just isn’t a good dad. i have a half sibling who I feel so bad for because her parents are literal idiots that just shouldn’t have had kids because they can barely take care of themselves. But the very brief moment when I was eighteen was because of said halfsibling that I was worried for but as of now that family is it’s own and I’m nowhere near it nor do I want to be. But really I wasn’t struggling with my own dad issues this time around but rather my grandpa. It’s just that i know Father’s Day is hard for him because he lost my grandma who gave him his babygirl, my momma. And I didn’t push any emotional induced conversation at all. But as we ate dinner the conversation was about how well he used to get paid as a server waaaay back when and that he’d have stacks in his pocket lmao we were like yeh okay as a waiter all right,, and he sorta slipped up and said, “No really! Ask Mama!” And I’m pretty sure only me and my brother in law heard because he moved on really quickly and there were side convos happening but like a wave of emotions came over me. I teared up the second I heard him say her name because it just reminded me more about how hard this day must be for him. And my throat is swelling up jus typing about it rn so I’m not gonna get eVEN more into it.

But yeah overall June has been okay. I have felt okay. And after months of not going on here I just thought “why not type about this?? This content feelin is all I crave and have been longing for and whenever I get it, in even the slightest, it should be appreciated and remembered.”

Whoop so like what’s some good things that happened in the last few months. Hmmm

Well I’m just finally acting, in the tiniest way ever, as an adult. I didn’t take grip of my life yet but like I took A STEP!!

I’ve got new things I like and am more open than ever to new things.

I’ve got hobbies!! I’m growing mint and wanna start and herb garden. I’m reading and learning a new language that I’ll probably never use but I’m learning it for fun and not for a grade or something and am taking my time with it. And a new language brings so much more!! More people, music, shows and writing!! I mean I’m at a hella basic level but all of those things are helping me.

I’ve thought about reigniting old flames lmao that sounds like getting intouch with old lovers but no. I mean creatively. In the past three years I barely even thought about drawing and in the past few months I found myself thinking about things I could draw up and cool ways to mix medias. I actually looked for my sketchbook and was gonna test it out but I saw some of my old work and got nostalgic and was almost putting myself in my shoes from that year and like that didn’t sit well so I haven’t tried. bUT at least I’m thinking about it again. I really think imma start again soon and just the thought of that makes me happy!!

I took up writing and the result is exactly what I thought,,, I suck at writing lmao but I tried and it was fun and it led me to find some writers online that made me cry over some fictional characters. some were fan fiction and??? A writer no less.. which really doesn’t need to be explained more especially on this site lol

I’m getting healthier. Not that I was suuuuper bad before but it was good either. I did have some horrible eating and sleep habits. I swear I was addicted to food like I ate to fill a void in me idk but l changed that shit real quick. And as for sleep,, well it’s still shit. Considering I started typing this at nearly six am nowhere near tired. Lately I’ve been falling asleep around 6:30am which indeed results in my waking up at noon or past it even but it’ll surely go back to the usual 2:30 to 10:30am schedule. Not too bad...

I’m dressing up again! I don’t go anywhere but catch me looking cute in a fit at home or 7-11. lol I used to be hella into getting dolled up for school and used to play around with hair cuts and colors and different makeup but then suddenly it was like mAYbe I’ll do my eyebrows today and rather than choosing good outfits I would wake up and change from my actual pjs to my outside pjs, loungewear, if you will.

Idk man i just am okay right now and that’s enough to keep me going. I haven’t had a really low point for a few months now and like I said I don’t get this content feeling very often so I’m just really soaking it all up. It’s good, I’m good.. 2018 is fucking flying and I didn’t think I’d get into new things this year but I did and I’m exited for more!!

#im excited that im alive but no necessarily excited about living this life #IM OKAY THO WHOOP I AIN GETTING DOWN NOW!!#its the middle if pride month like #idk okay im done lmao #me

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Appearing before The Dramacourt: Suits (Korea) Episodes 1 and 2

***If this is your first time browsing The Drama Files, please read The Rules section first for our reviewing and rating system***

***Disclaimer***: This analysis based on Canadian law. This is also NOT LEGAL ADVICE for anyone and this drama is FICTIONAL.

Issues:

Whether the portrayal of Kang Seok and CEO Ha Yeon managing client expectations is accurate.

Whether interviewing for jobs at law firms are as shown.

Whether corporate lawyers can practice criminal law.

Whether you can get potential clients to sign retainer agreements while they are high out of their minds.

Whether you can blackmail your client into dropping his lawsuit against you.

Whether the bromance is legit.

Are Ji Na and Geon Woo the new Mike and Rachel?

The Rule(s):

Yes. Minus the whole lying to the client part.

Somewhat…

It depends…

No!

Hell No!

Ehhh….We’re not really feeling it

Not really….

Analysis:

RedRosette J: Hi guys! Sorry we’ve been AWOL for a while. We had to do some life things like finish Law School! (YAY!) And just as we graduate we get the opportunity to review Suits (Korea)! (*Cheer*) I have to start off by saying that I was a HUGE fan of the US original and I absolutely LOVED it at first. Then I went to Law School and all I could see was how badly written the law stuff was and I had to stop watching it for awhile (occupational hazard LOL). When I heard there was going to be a Kdrama version starring HYUNGSIK I was beyond sold on it! I am all about Hyungsik and his puppyness!

❤

RedRosette J: What really surprised me was how similar to the US version the first two episodes were. They were almost exactly alike but with a little bit of Kdrama jazz added to it. The cinematography, the script, the OST (right down to that quirky toast food truck) was very similar (out of curiosity I went and re-watched the US version pilot episode to compare). I wasn’t sure if I was going to be a fan of the remake because remakes usually faceplant and don’t end well, but I have to say that I was pleasantly surprised!

#aesthetics

Breaking the law like

Dat sandwich tho

Client meetings on the street like?

This is what drowning in work looks like

When your boss is weird af but you have to act normal and keep a straight face

RedRosette J: I am a huge Hyunsik fan and I think that he makes a good “Mike Ross” (Geon Woo) character. When Hyungsik is up with Jang Dong Gun though his acting can be a little underwhelming but I mean it’s not the end of the world. Hyungsik does manage to give us his sad puppy eyes which made my heart melt for poor Geon Woo. Jang Dong Gun on the other hand is a pretty good Harvey Specter in his character Choi Kang Seok and I’m buying whatever he’s selling.

RedRosette J: I wish CEO Ha Yeon (Jessica Pearson in this alternate reality) had had more screen time because she seems to be written as a composed bad ass just like her US counterpart. From what little we saw, the actress is doing a good job living up to the role so far. I’m slightly disappointed in the Louis Litt character played by Choi Gwi Hwa because a little bit of Louis’s zany-ness is missing from the character Chae Geun Sik. Sure, he is still married to his dictaphone and talks to his pet goldfish but I wish it would have been a bit funnier. I also wish the remake stuck to the running joke about how Louis hates his ancient secretary Norma (LMAO!). I am also not that ecstatic about the Donna character equivalent Hong Da Ham because while the friendship with Kang Seok exists, its not on the same playful level as between Donna and Harvey. I also accept that certain things can get swept away or underplayed in remakes and that character relationships can change when cultural norms are imported into the new version.

#pantsuitgoals

THE DICTAPHONE

Her fashion is on point

Harvey-Donna vibes

In every alternate reality Louis tries to poach Donna!

RedRosette J: As of now, I’m not a fan of the Rachel character Kim Ji Na. She came off too bitchy and mean and I feel like Go Sung Hee doesn’t have electric chemistry with Hyungsik which makes their banter fall a bit flat for me. The drama needs to work on the two of them. The drama however did stay true to the annoying Trevor and Jenny characters in Cheol Soon and Se Hee which I liked and I can’t wait too watch Geon Woo free himself of those toxic friendships.

Kim Ji Na you need to redeem yourself like asap

Oh look its the Trevor guy who ruins Geon Woo’s life

Please do not make this a thing like in the US version

RedRosette J: This remake had big shoes to fill and for the most part I think it delivered.

Issue 1: Whether the portrayal of Kang Seok and CEO Ha Yeon managing client expectations is accurate.

RedRosette J: You do need to manage your client’s expectations just so that they don’t think that you can get them the sun and moon when they retain your services. While I do think that Ha Yeon and Kang Seok needed to talk to their (obnoxious) client so that he was clear about what their services entailed and what he could expect from them, I don’t think it was appropriate (AT ALL) for Kang Seok to lie to him about getting paid already and that the client should just do what they tell him to do. That’s not really how it works. Lying to the client is a big No-No and breaks like a zillion lawyer ethics and rules. To the drama’s credit though, this was addressed constantly throughout both episodes so kudos to that!

When your client is an ass but you gotta be professional

Issue 2: Whether interviewing for jobs at law firms are as shown.

RedRosette J: I can’t really speak for what interviewing as an associate is like because I am technically still a student but for the most part that is what it is like. Everyone gets crowded into a big hall (typically at some shitty banquet hall or convention center) and there’s a lady at the desk who takes your name and then you wait to be called in and the waiting room is a giant stressball of candidates memorizing their perfectly crafted answers. It’s actually quite terrifying. Unfortunately, in real life, it’s nowhere near as nice as the fancy shmancy hotel the Kang & Ham interviews were held at LOL!

Can you feel the stress? Because I can

Who interviews people like this?

Issue 3: Whether corporate lawyers can practice criminal law.

RedRosette J: There’s a common misconception that having the title “Lawyer” means the person knows everything about “the law” and can practice in any type of law whenever they want. FALSE. Most lawyers work in highly specialized parts of the law and it is not recommended that you retain a lawyer who primarily works in one type of law to represent you in a case that is about a totally different type of law. Case in point: corporate lawyers are not experts in criminal law, so don’t get a corporate lawyer to defend you on a criminal case. It’s not that they can’t, it’s just that your interests will be better served by someone who has specialized knowledge in that area. That’s why there are criminal defense lawyers! I think it’s a bit silly that shows do this.

Specialize in one thing peeps

The worst that could happen is you could go to jail bro. It’s all good.

Getting handed your first case like

Issue 4: Whether you can get potential clients to sign retainer agreements while they are high out of their minds.

RedRosette J: Ummm….NO!!!! This is so beyond unethical I can’t even. You cannot get a client to sign a retainer agreement (an agreement stating that they allow you to be their legal representative) while they are high out of their minds! A person entering into any agreement must have the mental capacity and be of sound mind to make a rational and well thought out decision as to whether to enter into the agreement or not. Someone who is as high as a kite on Molly or whatever Lee Yi Kyung’s character was taking was definitely not of sound mind and he was definitely not able to enter into the agreement rationally. On top of that, he was also coerced by the arrival of the cops and Kang Seok threatening him! Nope. No. No can do.

Nope. Not ok. DO NOT SIGN THAT DUDE!

Issue 5: Whether you can blackmail your client into dropping his lawsuit against you.

RedRosette J: Yo no you cannot! Absolutely not. This violates a whole bunch of lawyer ethics, not to mention it is also breaking the law. So no. No matter how much of a pig your client is, you cannot blackmail them into dropping their lawsuit against you. You’d go to jail or be disbarred or both.

Definitely not ok.

Issue 6: Whether the bromance is legit.

RedRosette J: Unfortunately……(don’t hate me) it fell a bit flat for me. I was expecting a fast talking, movie line quoting bromance like the original, but this one just didn’t quite get there for me. While both actors have merit, there’s just something missing between them that just doesn’t quite make the bromance super awesome and one that you want to root for. As of right now, the only relationship on the show I care about is the one of Geon Woo and his Grandma.

This version of Harvey is a baseball fan!

Sorry not feeling it

Nope

Still nothing

Awww my poor heart can’t take it

Issue 7: Are Ji Na and Geon Woo the new Mike and Rachel?

RedRosette J: Again, this fell a bit flat to me because a) their first (real) meeting didn’t have the psazz like Mike and Rachel’s had, b) there was no indication of Geon Woo being totally smitten by Ji Na when they first meet (unlike Mike Ross who is instantly in total awe of Rachel) and c) they shouldn’t have tried to kdrama trope-fy the first meeting. Also idk whether it has to do with the whole kdrama love-hate trope but Ji Na carried that grudge about the rainwater splashing on her for far too long. Girl. Get over it. That shirt wasn’t even that nice. Also she was a bit too mean to him but what I did like about her was that when she realized that she had been wrong about him, she apologized without hesitation so she redeemed herself in my eyes a bit. The two also need more screen time for us to really get a sense of whether or not they are the new “Mike and Rachel”. But there is potential there and I’m not totally dismissing them at this point.

This first meeting kind of didn’t work for me

What is this weird vibe?

At least she apologized

Friends now?

Conclusion: Appeal Allowed.

Rating: 4 = I’ll Give You A Cookie (Mostly because they stuck very close to the original)

File No: Suits (Korea)-EPS-01-and-02 Appearing before The Dramacourt: Suits (Korea) Episodes 1 and 2 ***If this is your first time browsing The Drama Files, please read…

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What I think about each MBTI

Okay so, before I start I just wanna say that most of my opinions are based around a) people I’ve met or b) what I hear and read about online. I would’ve done this based on my assumptions like a real intuitive, but I don’t want to offend people and it’s better if I use actual examples overall I think. I might do this again later to see how much it’s changed after I meet a more variety of people.

ISTJ - I think I only know one, which is my grandma, and I also think that if I were to meet another ISTJ I’d be all up on them and may even come off as annoying. I read about their personality traits and I couldn’t help but to think “Wow, these people are awesome ... wish I knew more”. I also have a crush on this personality type since I hear male ISTJs are like good fathers and tend to be police officers or something of the sort. Totally swoon worthy in my opinion. (wow such INFP thing to picture them as perfect)

ISFJ - Same as ISTJ, but more on the bff sort of way. My best friend is actually an ISFJ. She’s very nice and is certainly one of my favorite human beings. She’s a good influence on me, but doesn’t give herself enough credit. Sometimes I feel the world is against her, and she genuinely believes that. But she still manages to keep going which is great. So yeah, ISFJs are angels in comparison to everyone else who are disgusting (lol jk ... not really).

INFJ - Never met one~~ but they sound like goals. I kind of feel bad for this type since there are so many people claiming to be INFJs and ruining their reputation of being wise, rare, and humble people. And then there’s the reputation itself that must be hard to live of to. So for all the actual INFJs out there, you have my sympathy.

INTJ - Once again, I don’t think I met one. The impression I have of them from various tumblr blogs is humorous and cool, but also arrogant and extremely proud of their personality type (which they have every right to be since lots of people adore this type). Uh, I would love to have discussions with them about politics, science, or how terrible people are. They are also pretty much the opposite of the people that go to my school and live in my area so yeah, I can already we’re would get along :)

ISTP - I can think of two ISTPs I know. One of them is my dad. The second is a guy that’s been going to the same school as me since 6th grade. I don’t want to make my opinion based on my dad since I love him and that’s unfair as ever so I’m going to make an opinion based on the guy. Oh wait. I’ve never had a conversation with him so who knows what he’s like... Lol I remember my former friend (I’ll be talking about her later) had the biggest crush on him. She was obsessed I tell you. But that’s about her, not him. He, obviously, never really noticed her. He’s also arguably the most popular guy since he’s dated girls, dumped them, and the cycle continues. But yeah, it’s whatever. If I were to base this off of what I read online I would say they sound cool.

ISFP - Now, I know like three ISFPs. And they help me believe in humanity once again. One is this girl in my school who is super sweet and kind. She’s not afraid of being a little weird and makes it seem okay. Everyone likes her I think. The second is my cousin, who was my best friend during my childhood. He is still the coolest person I know. As for ISFPs in general, I would say they are unique, the funniest people I know, and overall kindhearted.

INFP - I am an INFP, and I think I would hate to meet another one. Okay that’s a joke. Truth is I like being an INFP. As for other INFPs that I’ve met, I know one and he is perhaps the nicest guy in my school. Like no joke, he’s funny, kind, hardworking and helpful. Lots of girls have a crush on him, in fact, one of my friends did too (I’ll talk about her later). Hm ... I know INFPs have a somewhat bad rep both on the internet and real life and I get why. I feel like they are either really awesome people or really annoying people. There is no middle ground for INFPs.

INTP - I know one! And oml I hate the fact we have no classes together!! I’ve only talked with him a couple of times and he the funniest person I've ever met (maybe that’s a little exaggeration). He is so chill, like he’s smart but doesn’t care about school so his grades are terrible, which I would usually shake my head to in disapproval, but he’s funny so he get’s a pass. That’s pretty much how I feel about many INxPs that I see online. If you’re an INTP, you’re funny. I also think my sister is one and she’s also really funny but I’m not too sure yet since she’s still pretty young.

ESTP - OKAY, sooo ... um, I don’t know where to start ... Basically, the reason I know a very little variety of mbtis in real life is because there are ESTPs EVERYWHERE! Like ugh, my school is FILLED with them. Now, some are tolerable. Others are downright annoying and I hate breathing the same air as them (that was an exaggeration). They have no chill, are irresponsible, and think they’re always right. But as I previously mentioned, some are cool. Like I don’t really talk to them because they are too cool for me, but you know, I wouldn’t mind working with them in group projects. In case you didn’t realize, I lied, I would hate to work with them. I know what you’re thinking (or maybe I don’t?), “She’s just an INFP that got bullied by all of these ESTPs.” No, I am not bullied by them, mainly because I avoid people I don’t like as much as possible. However, my friend is bullied by them so that makes me dislike them even more.

ESFP - I know quite a lot of ESFPs and there are usually two types. The awesome ones and the overly dramatic and hypocritical ones. My mom is one and I absolutely love her, and I’m not just saying it because she’s my mom but she’s incredibly smart, reliable, and loving. Then there’s two cousins of mine. They are the most illogical, emotional, and stupid people I know and I know a lot of illogical, emotional, and stupid people. So yeah, I feel the same way about ESFPs as I do INFPs. I either really love you, or really dislike you.

ENFP - I’m pretty sure I only know one and she’s a close friend of mine. She’s the one who had a crush on the INFP guy and also gets bullied by ESTPs. To sum up a lot that has happened in the time I’ve known her, she’s fickle, fun, and social. She’s gone through a big change this year so it’s really hard to say anything. From what I read online, ENFPs are fun and chill people. If I hear you’re an ENFP, I’ll be hype because you’re great companions, but I’ll be wary of letting you into my close group of friends. However, I’m sure you’ll find a way to sneak in anyway.

ENTP - 90% of my favorite fictional characters are ENTPs. They are just this perfect combination of fun and intelligent. Ugh, if only I knew one in real life. Like seriously, if I could pick out my group of friends (which I technically can but it’s not as easy as people make it sound) it would definitely have an ENTP. In fact, I would go as far as to say ENTP is the only extrovert I would allow.

ESTJ - My second closest friend is an ESTJ. She’s great. Um ... my general opinion about ESTJs is that although is wouldn’t be great to be around one, it’s awesome to be one. They are hardworking leaders and they know they are so they don’t care about what people think about them. They are also real in every sense. They know themselves and know the people around them.

ESFJ - I know two ESFJs, my friend and my aunt (ISFJ’s mom). They are kindhearted and very practical, and they always want to help you. Like literally they are great human beings. From what I read online, people don’t really like them because they are nosy or whatever. My ESFJ friend is not nosy at all, and I don’t think my aunt is either, but I can imagine an ESFJ being nosy. I don’t really have anything negative to say, and maybe that’s because ESFJ is my “ideal match” but whatever.

ENFJ - Okay, so I only know two ENFJs, so lemme give each a name for the sake of not getting confused, Melissa and Eleanor. Basically, we were good friends when we first met each other then things started becoming really rocky. I realized how manipulative they both were and tried to back off. I have this other friend (I think she’s an ISFP but not sure) who got treated so badly by Eleanor in so many occasions, it’s sad. What I hate the most about them is that they always make themselves sound like a victim. Funny thing is that they both insist that they’re ENFPs and they hate being the same type as the other. They’re definitely not ENFPs. Anyway, as for what I think about ENFJs in general is that they’re alright I guess. Melissa and Eleanor really ruined this type for though.

ENTJ - As you probably guessed, I never met one. Whenever I think of one though, I think about Erwin Smith and Eric Cartman. So really, I guess you could say I see ENTJs as amazing leaders with the ability to influence many. They have big dreams and know how to make them come true. They have the confidence, drive, and skill to do anything they want.

#mbti #istj #isfj #infj #intj #istp #isfp #infp #intp #estp #esfp #enfp #entp #estj #esfj #enfj #entj

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