#(not really but i still tag it just in case someone doesnt want to see anything related to the new series prior to seeing it whatever

[girlboss-apologist]

the thing about ncuti gatwa is that he is not only THE doctor but also THAT bitch

#doctor who #doctor who spoilers #(not really but i still tag it just in case someone doesnt want to see anything related to the new series prior to seeing it whatever #dw #ncuti gatwa #fifteenth doctor

[ultra-raging-ghost]

Im real nervous main tagging this because ive said my main peace and i dont wanna clog the tag up, but i will say after some context given i have a couple more thoughts?

tw// SA, r//pe mention, etc.

This will be a controversial statement. Me personally, i dont really honestly care? About what he said? It was eight years ago and he hasnt repeated the actions so i dont honestly and truly care what he did eight years ago, he was 19 then hes like 26 now theres honestly and truly a BIG maturity distance between 19 and 26, but also it was. Eight years ago? Thats all i have to say on that?

I Also dont really care for how it was brought to light, from what ive heard from pt speakers the expose was done by someone whos publicly anti towards the Brazilian CCs and ive heard they've dug up some dumb things about pac that werent "hot" enough to get trending i guess and definitely werent condemnable enough to get him cancelled, so it's honestly and truly in my heart something i see as being done in bad faith.

Alongside this, ive seen translation screenshots from one of the "victims" (not sure her stance on being called this so its in quotes) stating she does NOT want to be aligned with these allegations and has changed her username and profile picture because she honestly doesnt wanna be involved and doesnt want it being spread around, this is something else i view as bad faith and if anyone was affected by this then its the best thing to do as they wish, this not only affects the person being called out but also their victim negatively, especially if the victims profile is easily attached to their real life and especially when the victim is a female victim of assault or rape or anything like that, i hate to say it but as an afab person ive seen it firsthand that thats honestly the culture surrounding assault victims, and most people dont want that being brought up or put out in the public. Im a victim myself - people view you differently, it affects platonic and romantic relationships, it affects jobs, you are actively hurting the victim by spreading this if they dont want you to do so and arent prepared for that to be spread around.

From what ive seen, some people are condemning Forever for getting a lawyer - i dont view this as him being automatically guilty. I view this as him getting a lawyer because this person on twitter has been actively harassing not just him but all the brazilian CCs on the QSMP. This is harassment, the case against them will hold up in court and Forever has said he will speak about this more when everything is said and done

Alongside this, i will say im unhappy with Forever specifically for his statement on the situation. It wasnt handled the way we wouldve liked it, but it also wasnt handled via ukelele, it wasnt handled the worst way it could've been. Ive heard pt speakers say it was kind of formal, there was some slang in there but overall i've read the translated statement and to me it sounds more like a legal statement than anything - he mentioned having a lawyer, chances are the lawyer helped him write it. To me it doesnt sound like anything he'd fully say which is why i was so put off by it at first but this makes more sense to me honestly, i dont know if anyone would agree with this.

TL;DR

All in all, i think its a shitty situation but nothing to condemn Forever over. I ask people be thoughtful regarding the girl affected, and dont spread shit around with her name or profile attached to it unless she states otherwise. It was handled badly on Forever's end and blew up WAY too fast on twitter.

I've generally seen people be well behaved on here, ive seen some strong statements but otherwise i like to think we're better than twitter.

This probably wont be my last post on this as we get more on the situation over the next couple days, but this is my main thoughts right now. I'm still choosing to remain neutral, but more mixed than anything.

#qsmp #the forever situation #forever player g

[its-the-sa]

it is serious. the ship just comes off as nasty to me and i dont understand it

oh, then I'm sorry for being dismissive. I thought you were just a hater lol.

but in all seriousness, if a ship seems nasty to you, then a logical explanation of it is probably not going to change your mind. squicks are just gut reactions, so it doesn't really matter whether or not you understand the thing that squicks you. and that's ok! if the ship makes you uncomfortable, you should just block the rw regicide tag (or in my case you should probably just block me entirely lol )

but since you did ask sincerely, I'll at least try to explain why I ship it:

basically, I'm just a sucker for the 'enemies to lovers' trope and the 'villain redemption' trope. show me any two characters who fit both of those, and I'll probably ship it lol

I like villain redemption, because I like tragic villains. I like villains whose actions are inexcusable, but understandable. villains who lash out due to grief and end up doing horrible things in the throes of rage. and I like making them feel bad about it. I like villains who know they are monsters, who know they have done despicably evil things and truly hate themselves for it. and I like giving them a second chance. I like to see them feel remorse and turn away from evil and try to become better people.

and I like enemies to lovers because... well, for a lot of reasons that would probably take several thesis papers to unpack, lmao. but basically there's just something really intimate about two characters who can handle each other at their absolute worst, when no one else can. arti is like an unstoppable force of rage until she meets scav king, who is like an immovable object to her. he's willing to fight her and kill her as many times as he needs to, but he never strikes first, and he always gives her the chance to back down. and since he does have min aggression and max sympathy, I see him as the type of person who would easily forgive someone who is genuinely remorseful. he doesn't want to keep the cycle of violence and hatred going; whenever arti is ready to let go of her rage and stop the bloodshed, so is he. when she's ready to face the consequences of her actions and try to become a better person, he would rather support her than condemn her. he doesn't necessarily expect his people to forgive her, and he doesn't try to make excuses for her or downplay any of the harm she caused. i just think he could personally look at arti and find someone worth caring about underneath all the rage and hate, and in turn she could look at him and find someone she can trust enough to let all that hate go and admit she was wrong.

obviously, this type of relationship could never happen in real life (or if it did, it would be a fucking toxic disaster). but they're just characters, so their relationship doesnt have to be realistic, and I just want their story to have a happy ending I guess.

idk if any of this makes sense to you, but it's fine if not. you don't always have to understand why people like things that you don't like, it's ok to just block them for your own peace of mind. so if this ship still makes you uncomfortable, feel free to block me, I wouldn't take offense. stay safe and remember that fandom is for having fun , so dont stress out about it too much!

[iintervallum]

some tma and tmagp meta and thoughts, disclaimer that this does contain some more negative critique

i think i realized why i still think about tma despite not actually fully loving the podcast. i like a lot of the lore and the workings of the avatars and the meta narrative around power structures,and many of the themes it discusses and disects through the subtext are intriguing, it has a very interesting tapestry of the inner workings of it's universe

but the actual way the podcast tells it was, at some points, repetitive and a little bit boring, i would have to relisten sometimes to episodes just to remember what was happening even though i was listening to a lot of it in the same time span and should have remembered, i havent felt as much of a need to revist the story as i have with other audio dramas ive listened to. I do want to say that i genuinely enjoy tma its just not something that ive latched onto as i have with other shows.

side tangent -> and seeing how volatile the fandom was in its peak i don't want to be involved further lol. I'm someone who has a bad habit of looking at discourse and critical tags because i like fandom history and I'm nosy, and seeing posts about jmart being "too fluffy" and the ending of tma having "no impact" and how they were "pandering" right next to posts about how "traumatically tragic" the ending was and how jmart was "extremely toxic" and they made them "do terrible things how dare they" was really funny. there were legitimate critiques of things there as well but the divisive nature of s5 is amusing to me as an outsider that came in late additionally some stuff with how fandom centers whiteness and white narratives, as nice as it that there is a widely adopted fanon of Jon as a person of colour, specially a brown asian man, i think the fandom still didn't really decenter whiteness at all, like sure you're solving the sexy man problem by making them non white but have you done...any thinking into the deeper implications of it? i have, being south asian myself makes it impossible not to. tangent over

I guess some aspects did not feel as tight as they could have been, with some themes the show deals with being hits and misses. i think the structure and the statement format as iconic as it is, restricted the way the story could be told, if i'm making sense? (and the decision to go with more realisitc and more grounded horror that intersected with real world issues are a part of said hits and misses from my perspective, some things i feel didnt fully work from a narrative standpoint but thats a subjective thing that i wont get into)

thats why i'm enjoying tmagp a little more, i think they took what worked well with tma and expanded on it with a fuller cast from the offset,the inclusion of the non statement parts that tma had (the interpersonal relationships and conflicts) and intergrated it without fully losing what makes tma intriguing to listen to. tmagp so far seems to balance the cases and the character interactions well. it doesnt feel like we're just going with the same format and its not too unfamilar either.

like one thing i'm looking forward to is the guest writers, specifically a few of them since ive listened to their work and loved them, and it will be really interesting to see how their writing would work within the tma universe.

and an aspect which makes tmagp intresting as well is if you have proior knowledge of the tma universe, we know much more than the characters, and have our own perceptions of what is going to happen to them based on our previous understanding of the series and the events that transpired. we're just waiting for the characters to catch onto what we know, and all the foreboding tragedy and devastation that will come with it.

some part of me wonders, if this season will be about how tragedies like the universe ending in the way it did in s5 are unavoidable, how even in an alternate universe where the circumstances are different the same things are bound to happen again. no matter what its inevitable, the mark of what transpired cannot ever be reversed,

like there are parallels to be had with how jon was ultimately pulled into everything against his will and had not that much agency in what happened to him, even if he did make the decision to use the power he had(for both good and bad reasons), it was forced onto him in the first place. meanwhile we have sam who is desperate for a connection to something greater, as a part of his self worth is tied to being chosen, even if we know that being chosen is not what it seems, hes willing to endanger himself if it means finding out more with his curiousity overpowering the risk factor. i wonder if the outcome of it all will be the same because that would be very very interesting.

either way the tighter nature of tmagp seems to work well for it and i hope that the momentum continues till it's conclusion, and even if not I had a decent time with it so it still would have been worth it

#aster.txt #the magnus archives #tma #the magnus protocol #tma spoilers #tmagp spoilers #meta #fandom meta #critical #tmagp theory

[columboscreens]

i’m always telling everyone who will listen about the Valid Queer Reading of any old port in a storm so i’ve been really enjoying your recent tags! i think it’s so interesting that when the episode starts we see that adrian appears to have the genuine respect of his peers but it def doesnt go both ways, since we also see him unrepentantly spying on them, lmao. columbo’s genuine interest in the thing adrian’s dedicated his life to is definitely what leads to the genuine bond they seem to share by the end, but do you think there’s more to it than that? what do you think it is that makes the two of them click so well?

thanks! i think that part at the beginning is meant to establish just how punctilious and highly respected carsini is at what he does. and like you said that is what ultimately connects the two, the mutual respect for each other's work ethic and dedication to perfection in their life's work.

that quick establishment of mutual respect means that throughout the episode there is, uniquely, almost no animosity between them, save for carsini at the beginning somewhat bristled at columbo's repeated intrusions. but once columbo shows a genuine curiosity about wine, he warms to him very quickly, and instead of bitter spats they have very friendly exchanges; they literally just become Friends. they drink wine together, joke together, explore The Catacombs together. hell, carsini's even glad to be caught(!)--he actually admits he's way more comfortable with the notion of columbo arresting him than he is the notion of having to date his secretary of twelve years. and, of course, he compliments him at the end.

yeah. freedom is getting your crush to handcuff you while giggling and serving you fancy italian dessert wine. we know

the two seem to truly enjoy each other's personalities. columbo gets a kick out of carsini's dry wit and exacting nature, carsini gets a kick out of columbo's...well everything, it seems. even when columbo pretends to close the case and ask him out to dinner (read: A Date, designed to trick him, but still A Date), carsini isn't out there gritting his teeth in an attempt to drive him away. he's genuinely ELATED, he's in a HURRY to get there, he gets MAD when the table is bad and INCENSED when the WINE is bad. he wanted everything about that meal to be sensational. why? not just because he's meticulous, but because that's amore

don't trip over your dick lover boy

waiter this dreamy italian hunk was going to bestow upon me a goodnight kiss until you dared serve him this LIQUID FILTH

speaking of which, i think, too, that the initial bit establishing that they're both italian is important as sharing heritage can sometimes very quickly bridge gaps.

especially when actual prejudice against you was the norm not too long ago

most importantly, these two have phenomenal interpersonal chemistry. you ever start talking to someone and find a rhythm with them so easily that you surprise yourself? these guys are just always on the same wavelength. their banter is subtle, funny, and distinct. theyre so nauseatingly in love with each other that every time they trade shiny-eyed smiles it looks like wedding photography.

so yeah, that's why they're so obviously in love that it sickens me. but don't take it from me...

like them and miss them and even want to kiss them

#i sometimes see people who really dislike this episode but how can you dislike true love... #i also have a little thing in my head that columbo tends to refuse alcohol around suspects except for when he's comfortable around them #and judging by the wine guzzling in this episode... #columbo #any old port in a storm #ask #text #longpost

[cosmic-d1ce]

Okay I read as much tag as I could find and I'm just curious... BBH and fml au? I don't really specific questions, but like... there was a reference to him trying to help? or phil going to him specifically? I think? I read a lot of posts. IDK something. Invitation to ramble.

Bbh is overall one of the most sympathetic towards Phil, even when almost everyone else loses trust in him

Bbh is a very nice person so he doesn't want to just... leave Phil alone

But he loves the eggs. More than anything, in fact. So, when everyone is believing that Phil is the reason Tallulah lost her first life, he's a bit iffy

But he's still very nice and does go to help Phil if he thinks he needs it. Like when Wilbur came back and wanted to kill him for letting Quackity have Tallulah

Bbh does also have a crush on Forever which causes a few issues sometimes. It's incredibly one-sided and Forever doesn't even notice but it's a thing

Phil finds out about this at the Cellbit/Roier wedding, where Bbh confesses to Phil that he's jealous because Forever just proposed to Phil. Phil does not take too kindly to this and he isn't very fond of Bbh after this

obviously bbh doesn't know what is actually going on between Phil and Forever but that doesn't mean Phil is any happier about what he said. He has more than a few bitter moments where he wishes Bbh was in his place

Bbh is one of the few people Forever actually lets Phil hang out with tho so he cant be too mad at him or he'll lose one of his last threads of hope

Forever actually trusts Bbh a lot and Phil sees him very often. Forever and Bbh both want the eggs safe more than anything and most of their time together is spent talking about the eggs and ways to better protect them. They built NINHO together after Bobby's near-death experience (he doesnt die in FML) and both have stasis chambers for all the eggs in their houses in case NINHO somehow fails.

Bbh will tell Phil how Chayanne and Tallulah are doing as well. With Phil essentially out of the picture and Missa and Wil being so busy, Bbh ends up taking care of them a lot and Phil always likes to know how his kids are doing without him

I think my favourite thing that Bbh does in the AU is bear witness to Cellbit's mental breakdown when he realises that his best friend is a violent maniac and he can't stop it

Bbh just has to sit there and watch Cellbit yell and scream and cry about something he can't talk about. But

"If i told someone itd all be fixed!!"

"then tell me...?"

"NO."

Bbh is pretty much just a witness to the chaos that is unfolding. He's also very bitter and jealous that Forever is the president. More than he is in canon. Everyday he wakes up and thinks "god i wish forever didnt win the election i hate him and his stupid wife (phil)"

He's very chill tho he doesn't have anything against Phil like Fit or Wilbur do and when Phil does get helped, he is one of the most helpful and caring people.

#qsmp #qsmp philza #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp bbh #forever my love au #philever #forphil #qsmp au

[thegirlisuedtobe]

hey your post were you mention the narrator of rebecca lies by omission is haunting (pun intended teehee) me, what did you mean when you said she lies by omission, feel free to rant btw

-💗

Did you mean [this] post?

AHH!! mrs de winter,,, that girl is a liar and the most conniving woman i have ever had the pleasure of reading jk

but actually i mean it tho that she does lie by omission. i tagged this as the musical but in terms of the show, i dont think she actually lies in that one, especially as far as how most actors in that role interpret her character.

but book mrs de winter?? my goodness,,,, when i made this post the scene i was really thinking was the prologue for the most part, when shes describing her life living with maxim at that hotel after the fire. there's this kind of way where shes saying shes content but like against her descriptions about the kind of glamour that manderley had, their quaint life together feels so,,, dreary, like a half existence, not really a life not really in death yknow? if u read in between the lines at this listless kind of development of setting, shes saying all these things about living an ordinary life but in a tone where shes not satisfied with it at all,,,

this quote from the the top of chapter 2 is like one that gets referenced a lot but people never quote the whole thing, she says "we have conquered ours, or so we believe." like first of all who the fuck says "or so we believe" in a statement where shes trying to justify or rationalise the ordeal that they went through and the outcome of it (being this dreary life) as a net positive,,, like why are u being so ominous now,,, and then the next line "the devil does not ride with us" like babe,,, ur not being honest with yourself,,,, u just said "oh we conquered ours, jk unless,,, but we did yknow," she has such a flip floppy way of framing things that makes u question which is it really? i think its a testament to that idea of rebecca being a mirror and finding what you want to see, and for me i see this person desperately trying to frame something that is still deeply affecting her to this present day as if it doesnt. like someone else who might wish to feel the same way might only see the oh we've conquered it and not pick up on the unease of or so we believe, just that the devil does not ride us anymore. to a reader who wants to see that, they will interpret this quote as a triumph, which often is usually the case.

like she says that the unrest has "mercifully stilled" but at the drop of a hat "the past is still too close to us." their situation remains in this precarious balance, if they go too far in any direction they endanger this so called peace,,, this is not a life that has progressed beyond what happened,,,

and the cherry on top is this beautifully long gorgeous passage that is EXPOSING HER for her lies about being happy in this small hotel half-existence with maxim. u just have to read all of it actually to understand, and if u dont, well,,,

(i also annotated it; red is the negative aspects, blue is the postive/their ordinary life, and green is when she starts talking about manderley and her love of that place)

i feel like its so easy to attribute the love of manderley as being primarily held by danny or by rebecca or by maxim even, but the person who loves manderley most in this novel (yes by virtue of it being a first person pov but also bc its true) is mrs de winter. i highlighted in my physical copy of rebecca ever single time she mentioned manderley in a very flattering or loving way and its basically the whole book. she loves this castle, this place is the epitome of all her aspirations; becoming a lady, rising in class status, the image of a perfect marriage a perfect home a perfect family, manderley holds all of that in her heart so when she talks about manderley she exposes herself so deeply if you are willing to listen to her.

that part about her saying "colour and scent and sound, rain and the lapping water, even the msits of autum and the smell of the flood tide," these things that quite truly colours our quality of life are "secret indulgences" implies that these inherent basic things that make life beautiful are things she cant access without rocking the seemingly still peace that they have. especially with the way that maxim reacts to it and how she picks up on that. she has to rely on the dull and the boring monotonies to continue that so called peace even though thats not whats personally fulfilling for her,,, the line where she says "we prefer to store up our excitement; the result of a cricket match played many days ago means much to us" ,,, doesnt that sound so sad? theyre not even living in the moment anymore, if they did i think it would kill them to be quite honest.

so many of the positive/ordinary lifestyle descriptions are weaved against these pitiful sounding statements and its truly like,,, why stitch it like this? if daphne du maurier wanted us to feel like this was the life that was better, the one that you should choose or idealise, than the chaos of manderley why did she write it like this? why not just say that she was happy, why add those hints of melancholy?

and because of that i feel like shes lying by omission. its like all these things shes saying are half truths. its true that ordinary or even dull days are better than chaotic ones because youre not pained by such hurtful circumstances but at what cost? the joy and excitement of life? its like all of her descriptions of their life after the fire are backhanded compliments,,,, im just so curious about the other half that she isnt saying,,, when she doesnt say what shes implying it just feels like what she did say was a lie by omitting the rest of it.

does that make sense? do u get it?

#rebecca daphne du maurier #rebecca das musical #rebecca korea #like theres soooooo many passage that read like this in the book its kind of insane............ #i also cut it out from this bc it was getting long but legit the next page she forgets shes not supposed to be #indulging in manderley memories but her mind just wanders and then all of a suddent shes thinking about danny so #like u can say ur over it and then keep dreaming about manderley!! U ARE A LIAR THE EPITOME OF AN UNRELIABLE NARRATOR!! #i love her so much <3

[thehadesincident]

hades fun ramble abt how the yttd fandom treats shin tsukimi :)

haiiii so if you know me you know that i have one billion illness about some guy named shin tsukimi from yttd! and i have some issues on how the fandom writes him, this is coming from someone who has health issues so im going to be somewhat projecting but! hopefully not that much. all of it is going to be under cut!

this is going to cover a lot of spoilers.. so i wouldnt click it unless you finished the game. its also going to cover topics like ableism and a mention of toxic relationships but thats expected when you want to talk about shin and the fandom

so in game (epsically in your turn to shine) its heavily hinted that shin is someone who has health issues (chronic illness and the works), even in the base game it is shown that shin is physically weak (chapt one in the bar where he tries to open the drawer for example.).

and how the fandom made that into shin being a weak person, but not in a strength sense, in the sense that he cant protect/cant hold his own (looking at you shin ship writers.). but! thats just the only issue right? (this is also ableism to me in a way.. but i cant put my words right at the moment.)

nope!! theres more. the fandom at times made shin out to be a 'dirty' person, someone who is gross and unclean. even if that's far from canon (there being a line that shins hands are clean in game.) and to me, thats just stereotypes of people who are mentally ill coming into play. saying that people who suffer from mental illness cant treat themselves on their own. which in some cases may be true, but not in all of them.

i also think this ties into shin being a person who was in game he is saving money, he is a job hopper which some fans took as he is poor which mean hes dirty.. which is just gross that people think just because a person may be poor, automatically means they're dirty.

theres also the issue with shadow sou (also know as shadsou in the fandom) where (some) people treat it as not a part of shin, it just being a part of midori. shin didnt bring out the hiyori persona out of nowhere, it wouldnt make sense that shin is some 'soft boy'.

fans tend to forget that shin isnt the best person, even in a few pregame thoughts. he can still be an asshole without being told about the 0.0% thing. you can let him be petty, you can let him be sly, you can let him be mean. he doesnt need to be doomed to do any of that.

its the same with the shinai, we only really saw small bits of the shinai.. and guessing from his dialog, he is still close to hiyori and that can affect how he acts, but that doesnt mean a pre game shin acts just like shinai, his an ai for a reason, he learns over time and picks up his own traits. its similar to how the fandom treats highschool shin and his friendship with hiyori and thats a whole another can of worms.

people who say they dont ship hiyori and shin.. and then say they dated in the past are an issue to me. not every toxic friendship has to be romantic, yes hiyori wanted to study shin, but thats because he wanted to see how much he can push a person. even the shinai says he likes to experiment on people, and hiyori most likely did the same with shin but more in a mental sense.

theres a reason why i dont interact with people who tag stuff with their ship tag, i dont trust them to take them in a way thats just them being 'friends'. and if you see it like that or make it out so hiyori isnt that bad of a person... block me i dont want you guys near me. (this goes with those 'midori isnt a bad person!!' au writers to. get out.)

on the topic of shipping, a handful of people who ship shin with people srsly make him out to be someone whos weak and needs to be protected by whoever the pairing is with. you guys just want your yaoi. i see this the most in keishin / alishin circles. shin doesnt need to be 'saved' or whatever, he just needs to heal on his own time, he doesnt need a romantic partner in his life for that.

thats a good part of my thoughts! if you have any questions on my thoughts on shin you can send me an ask here or shoot me a dm on discord :3 (samuraiyaiba)

#letters from the underworld #shin tsukimi #yttd #your turn to die #cw ableism #ableism mention #ask to tag #long posts #ranting it up

[littlestpersimmon]

OK so ive always been into gentle swords but not fully got it but i Get It More now that uve posted more and i did a big read of all ur tag for it. so heres my questions. 1. we know how radinta reacts to finding out darenyas still alive but how EMO and 'nothing left to live for' unhinged does dinta become when he finds out about darenyas execution. also like how close to the execution does dinta know about all this in the first place (esp w the pregnancy ...) 2. youve touched on that darenyas undead + undead servants are used in the world as unending labor, is there any sort of way to tell someone id undead without them directly telling you? (also doesnt darenya count as twice undead because of his birth circumstances?) 👀👀👀

Ohh my g-d.. the more asks abt this the more I reveal how much of a whipping boy Dinta is to everyone around him..

Dinta is autistic as I mentioned before, so his only friends have always been just Humadsan and Narakan, whom are Both Also On The Spectrum, and Darenya.

They have been through thick and thin, been together catastrophe after catastrophe, however, no one grasps Dinta like Darenya does, no one is as kind and patient over Dinta's quirks and awkwardness and Difficult to Understand-ness like Darenya, who is just always... amused, never angry, and always willing to see the better side of Dinta's thought process, since Darenya knows what it's like to be Disabled But Not Visibly So.

Dinta was raised by a single mother, and though he's Understanding that life in an occupied land is difficult, and he's willing to give his mother Understanding, he just, also. Is terrified of the idea or being like her.

Because Renya is an "amsara", a child called back from a stillbirth for another shot at life, it is understood that he will only live partially a normal human lifespan, in my world's case, the oldest he could possibly be would be his early thirties. This doesn't daunt him, he's always known death, he has made peace with it. But also knowing he was gonna have a shorter life than other people, it made Renya very assertive, honest, and direct with asking for what he wanted.

It was him who pursued Dinta, asked him out, and was very protective of him. It was Darenya who was always chasing this boy and making sure he was okay. And Darenya's directness was very good to Dinta's brain, he never had to wonder if Renya had hidden motives or was not speaking in plain words.

Renya became pregnant when he was in his early 20s, and both him and Dinta were super excited, even if they both knew Renya did not have much long to live, they were determined to make the most of it,

Darenya would retire from his job at the rajah's court (he is a starfarer!), and Dinta would start to withdraw as well, Dinta is also a starfarer, but he'd be more of a "mission control" guy, like computing how much a ship should steer away from certain winds, monitors the weather condition, how much karhanan is needed to let a ship take off, just nerd shit, and he also makes wayfinding maps, for people like him who can't really memorize or visualize navigating stars by mind alone.

At the back of Dinta's mind, he knows he's gonna be a single dad for the rest of his life after Renya dies, and he's already sort of, depressed about it, and the only thing that they're both super excited about is how nice it would be to live near the ocean and they can swim every day, and both Renya and Dinta spend hours and hours drawing what their house is gonna look like..

Dinta, does one day, give Renya a small vial of this shiny liquid. It looks like.. almost translucent, almost prismatic liquid, and he WONT tell Renya where he got it, only that if he so wished.. to extend how long he belonged on their earth.. then he may have a drought of it. Renya would be shocked, because he immediately recognizes it to be sap from the saranggita, the holy trees from their world, and it is only permitted to take ONCE from it, to bring back stillbirths, but he is teased by the notion of getting to live longer, which was something he'd never even considered possible, so he keeps the vial Dinta gives him, and mulls it over.

But then eventually, Darenya finds out how Radinta got the vial, and another terrible betrayal, and he, being very hormonal and heartbroken, goes nuclear, but he does not stop loving Dinta, and Dinta does not stop loving him, and even to the Last day before Darenya eventually dies from his long, drawn out execution, Dinta never stops trying to, save him, run away with him and be vigilantes somewhere they can both be safe, even after Renya miscarried.. they can try again. Renya still dies, from infection, exhaustion, blood loss and just grief, and Dinta does not cry.

He does tenderly take Renya's body, in a fetal position and in rigor mortis, and he does the autopsy, the bathing.. scrubbed him clean in plumeria and coconut until he did not smell so dead and some of his beauty was restored to him.

Usually the Idina Tala, the undead slaves, would arrive to the deadships caked in blood and dirt and sweat, because the Idina Tala were executed criminals whose punishment continued even after death, and they were considered the dregs of mankind, people so unloved their deaths would just go on and on as eternal outcasts.

Renya arrived very clean, his nails clipped, his hair lovingly cut, bathed and with herbs in his mouth, and a talisman that would ward off any demons wishing to reposses his body, because Renya had an autopsy and was prepared like how a loved one would be buried, much unlike the others. The witches who would call him back remembered the man who dropped him off laying him down on the table very carefully, like he was still alive and could still feel pain.

I always see Dinta as having a blank face, rarely smiling, not mean, but just very.. reticent and withdrawn. He would comb back renyas hair on the table and stand there in numbed silence for a very long time, before he turns to the manhiyang, the witch who would reanimated Darenya to turn him into a slave, and he tells her, "do not think Ill of him. You know him not."

After Renya dies and is surrendered to the dead ships, its like Radinta was going about his life half a person, when he closed Darenya's lifeless eyes he knew no one would ever love him, and look on him with such deep understanding like Darenya did. Narakan did not know it was possible to have someone who was as distant to the world like Dinta, become even more distant, walking around the halls of the Rajah's palace like a man trapped in a thick fog. But, life must go on for Dinta, he still had some other matters to attend to, so. He focuses all his effort and energy and resources to find his sister in Sasaban, the most difficult to get into Sundering, and to get to Sasaban, he first must get to Janalila. All his hopes for the future, all his grief, he pours into finding the one family he has left, something to anchor him to the world, or else he might, he might die, lose himself to the myriad and the wheel of time.

In the world of Hidlawonen, when you are deemed to have done a social transgression, or a crime that is judged to be extremely gross, you receive a single tattoo, of a ring of salamanders and geckoes that goes around your limb. These are magical tattoos, one that remind the person branded that they have some role in the world to perform, and that all their actions must turn the wheel of time forward, meaning they must do all the good in life to progress the world. The more bad a person has done, the more they receive these rings of geckos. Almost everyone in Hidlawon has some form of gecko tattoo on their body, it is all part of being human to make mistakes. This system of punishment, though, is easily abused by people born into more fortunate circumstances, to isolate people they deem to be people "the wrong way", people who were born into misery are just.. trapped in a cycle of being miserable and a burden to their respective societies, and trapped to recommit evil acts trying to survive in a world that is just naturally hostile to them, and the gecko tattoos become a mark of shame the more there is on your body. The gecko tattoos are normally invisible, until you receive so much of them that they become visible and painful, once past your elbows or knees. The tattoos start at your ankles or below your shoulders, and the more "bad" you do as deemed by the local governments, the more tattoos of them you receive. When the gecko tattoos reach your wrists and ankles simultaneously, you are sentenced to death, and yoir fate is to become inevitably an Idina Talan, "no longer a person", an undead slave. That would be how people in Hidlawonen identify the Idina, and most Idina are "broken in thought and body", meaning while they are conscious, their mind is broken to the point they cannot speak, cannot smell, or anything. Most of the Idina simply cry, groan in pain, unable to remember who or what even they are.

#long post for ts #the lord of gentle swords

[exiledelle]

its vengeance au PAPYRUS time (LINKED POST HAS UTY MERCILESS SPOILERS)

i was originally planning on having more sprite edits n stuff for this but unfortunately i think too many of my thoughts would be too hard for me to sprite, at least not currently, but. since i dont want to be spending months on this:

like i mentioned in the original post, after clovers slaughter of a decent part of the underground, and progress toward breaking the barrier being shot back to square one as a result, the royal guard essentially goes into a panic, putting out a mass recruitment.

much to the relatively-newly-crowned empress, undynes, dismay, this includes papyrus. wouldnt be a good look for her to turn down such an enthusiastic volunteer, especially not when the guard is in desparation.

but shes still biased, and doesnt want to see him hurt, so she manages to position him as a royal watchman instead of a guard. instead of capturing a human, his job is just to keep watch, help anyone who needs help in the forest, and if he manages to spot a human, all he needs to do is report the sighting to the rest of the guard. pretty simple and fitting job for him, and hes still very enthusiastic about it!! plus he gets a neat ranger uniform, so win-win (the design stuck)

once frisk escapes the ruins though, and clover chases after, papyrus notices somethings not right before hes able to send his report. theres TWO whole humans, which would surely make undyne and the guard happy, maybe send him up a couple ranks too, but...

his job is also to HELP people. and clearly, frisk needs help. so in a conflict of interest, papyrus opts to help frisk find safety deeper into the woods, and only reports clover, to try and keep them at bay

realizing way too late the kind of threat they are, and that theyre too far gone for his usual approach of trying to talk them down like he does in undertale. he'll attack clover, but only when they have him and/or his friends cornered and its absolutely necessary. papyrus IS tough, so he can at least stall them, but he also knows his best chance is to find an opening to flee (he still has to protect frisk, after all), and that a prolonged encounter isnt really in his favor

unfortunately, being a watchman, as well as undyne being busy with empress duties, means he doesnt have as much time for his usual Spaghetti Training, so he falls back to rations of dinosaur egg oatmeal (calling them rations makes it sound cooler to him), which he gladly shares with anyone

...he gets a little overexcited though. its fine, this is normal for him, dont worry. also, the oatmeal survives this.

also in case youre wondering about sans: hes....actually pretty much the same, all things considered. hes happy papyrus got into the guard, tags along to his outposts, pulls his usual pranks, that kind of stuff. this isnt a sans au (and i dont really want it to be), so theres like. not a lot of emphasis on him, and theres not really going to be. he'll still like. timestop to drag papyrus and frisk out of danger given that hes there, cuz he does want to help protect them both, but hes not going to go all out on clover, at least not right away, and not without backup or a plan.

(also i say timestop and not teleport just because thats my own interpretation of the grillbys scene, and him having attacks start and end in seemingly random spots during his fight, i dont think its definitively canon or anything, but i still lean more toward timestop than simple teleportation)

WITH undyne busy though, papyrus is assigned a different captain to answer and report to.

someone... ...nyafarious... within the guard.

she will come later though. once i can make a sprite or two, and have more details ironed out. (should probably also start making a masterpost for this au at some point)

#undertale yellow #undertale yellow spoilers #undertale #undertale au #papyrus #vengeance au #ellesprites

[vhvrs]

HEY so i've been thinking about those tags you left on my rick siblings poll. rattling them around in my head, even. rick being the only child is good becauseeee... you get him feeling unwanted so to compensate he overasserts himself everywhere. excellent. and most people said that in the tags but then you said THIS

and like. "RUINED IT FOR HIS PARENTS"??? so. implied to be an unplanned pregnancy??? ...LIKE SUMMER??? i am about to be so unnormal about this. the similarities between them. Crazy . CRAZY

i do enjoy eldest daughter syndrome rick like you mentioned. definitely not because i have the same thing and am projecting hard......... but i can definitely see it. rick being that older sibling who cares so much about his little sibling(s), but also at the same time refusing to verbalize that feeling or express it healthily. and then... having that leak into his family relationships later in life when he's even LESS stable... AUGH AUGH AUGH 💥💥💥💥💥💥

i always had this thought in my mind that rick always wished he'd been closer to his sibling(s), or in the case of only child rick, wished he HAD them in the first place. and he kinda tries to emulate that specific sibling dynamic with morty and summer. (because really, the way he treats those two, especially in the early seasons is SO far removed from how anyone typically treats their grandkids. it's more like how an irresponsible older sibling would. or probably an uncle.) and obviously it doesn't WORK for a million different reasons. but Still

this ask... probably could've been its own post but i just really wanted you to know that your tags got me Thinking ejdksasksadkfvjsdc. ok that's all thank you for reading

HI HELLO this is a major delight to get so ty for that - im nodding my head in agreement soooo much

im not looking at them rn to make sure im not repeating myself but EXACTLY!! its easier to dissociate himself from things mattering whrn he wasnt wanted in the first place (airquotes around wanted he pulled away too long ago to dig into that). it works either way but again im biased on him being the oldest bc then i can see him caring abt his sibling(s) but with a growing resentment bc of his place among them... n then pretending later he never cared at all while overattaching to the only family he has left ghcgvbv

AND YES ive always thought he acts more like a big brother type at first, like he doesnt know how to handle the relationship? so he slips back into that old role instead? and its probably also why he acts the way he does esp to morty so unconsciously bc the power dynamics arent quite as intense? n why hes so distant from summer at first bc she essentially fills that role now. (or in the case of an only child rick, struggling to be a caricature of a brother/uncle n having that resentment for summer who DOES have someone)

i have not slept yet so i started rambling too bc i have thought. way too much abt ricks pre-canon experiences but greatly appreciate u getting this 👍🙇🙇🙇

#ferretwhomst #ive considered his parents also being young when they had him bc like. rick had beth young. beth had summer young. cycles cycles #n if so ugh getting raised by immature inexperienced parents who werent planning on being here explains a lot abt rick

[marshmallowprotection]

No wait oh my god theres so much potential for Saeyoung getting sick and Saeran having to help him- Especially if its post RAE bc you and the twins go traveling and you KNOW Saeyoung's not gonna say shit because he doesnt want to spoil yours and Saeran's fun after all you went through. It probably takes you, Saeran, and several rfa calls to get him to actually rest

And then theres the whole mess of actually having a fever and all the Trauma the boys have associated with that and Saeyoungs internalized guilt about not being 'strong' enough for his brother and their still mending relationship and GOD I WISH I WAS A BETTER WRITER SO I COULD WRITE THIS

"He wouldn't let you do anything?"

"Nu-uh, nothing. I left the Tylenol by his bed, though. He wouldn't let me give it to him but I figure... he'll take it if he really needs it. Brother has... been that way for as long as I can remember. I can't remember a time in my life when he let me take care of him. I always was sick as a kid, but... if Saeyoung ever was, I can't recall. He wouldn't tell me if he was sick. For a long time, I thought Saeyoung couldn't get sick... it seemed like he was... stronger than I'd ever be."

"Saeyoung didn't want to worry you, I guess."

"He took care of me from the minute I could walk... which was way after he did. If I needed anything, Saeyoung would do everything to take care of my needs. I don't know how he did it, but there was one time when I had a really bad fever. He left me alone at some point to take care of mother's errands... but when he came back, he had some medicine."

"How did he manage that? I mean, you guys were in hiding from your father... and he was... the two of you were just kids."

"I still don't know, my love. But, that's the kind of person Saeyoung is. He will do whatever it takes to protect his loved ones... and... I know it must be hard... to..." Saeran's voice wavered, cracking his throat from the other side of the door. Even if he couldn't see his brother's face, it was obvious he was on the brink of tears.

Saeyoung caused that.

The voice of an angel was there to comfort him, though. To protect a weary heart with their gentle love and care. "It's okay, my sweet... it's okay. You're allowed to cry. Breathe with me... okay? Let's slow down and get you some tea."

Even in a state of delirium, Saeyoung Choi still had enough sense in him to pay attention to his surroundings. It didn't matter how weak or sick he was. He would be on guard. He was trained for this, yes, but it was a skill he'd been using since he was a child. It didn't matter if the threat was gone. It didn't matter if their father was behind bars for the rest of his life. It didn't matter that the agency had been dismantled.

His job was to remain strong for his dear family. His family meant the world to him. Saeran... [Y/N]... the RFA... they were his family, but the most important family to him was Saeran. They were twins, made of the same soul, and he promised that he would always protect him. It didn't matter what happened. It was his duty as a big brother to save his little brother.

His goal to protect his brother had been distorted by others his entire life. People used him and abused him in the name of what had been a truly innocent goal on his part. How could he just stop trying to do all he could for Saeran? He couldn't just stop giving the shirt off his back for his twin. He couldn't stop fighting even if Saeran had stood on his two feet, his two wobbly legs, and proved that he could protect every dream he had on his own.

Saeran was strong, emotionally.

He could handle himself now. He didn't need Saeyoung... but, what Saeyoung needed was to be needed. He needed to be there just in case. Just in case someone tried something again. That's why he'd wanted to come along with Saeran and [Y/N] after their honeymoon. They made the offer to him that he should tag along for a new trip, a family vacation. He would get to see his brother every day and chat with his new in-law.

It was a wonderful offer... even though, Saeyoung didn't want to get in their way. Saeran was living a beautiful life. He'd carved it out on his own. He deserved it... and Saeyoung was still trying to figure out what his life was. He was 'free' now... all thanks to his brother... even though, Saeran shouldn't have ever been on the battlefield in the first place.

No.

Blood wasn't meant to touch Saeran's soul.

It was meant for Saeyoung's hands alone.

With a ragged breath, he rolled over in bed, the fever burning him to nothing more than ashes. He was supposed to be strong... why had he gotten sick like this? How was his body this broken? Only a couple minutes in the icy cold shouldn't have done this to him... he'd been in the Antarctic for two months not even that long ago for a mission via Vanderwood's request.

When had Saeyoung left himself to become soft? Was it when he stopped training from threats? Was it when he lost himself in a bad state when his brother left the country for six months to enjoy some peace that he rightfully earned? Was it when he realized that his one purpose in life was no longer what he imagined it to be? He had to be strong for Saeran.

Just in case.

Something could always go wrong... and if it didn't... Saeyoung would be ready. He had to be ready. So, why wasn't he ready? Why was he in bed with a fever? Why was he trembling with chills that reminded his aching heart of the days when Saeran would cling to him? He wanted to be healthy... so he could do what he had to do.

If he couldn't give his life for Saeran, he had to be willing to remain there... always in the corner... always ready to act.

He wasn't sure he had another purpose. He coughed, the heart in his brain feeling too much to focus on anything but discomfort. He was free... but what was freedom? He wasn't allowed to exist and now... it was too much. There was too much in front of him and he felt like it was impossible to move. He could mask. He could smile. He could be there and laugh...

But, he would never admit to a single soul he was running himself into the ground with this feeling of misery.

"P... Pathetic..." his throat was hoarse as he spoke to himself in the darkness. "You're pathetic... that's what Saejoong said... you're just another cog in the machine, Saeyoung... thinking you... can do any little thing to outsmart them all... but in the end... you get played like a fiddle... and... and...."

The darkness welcomed him in the midst of his haze.

It would be hours before he even vaguely regained awareness, much less consciousness.

He thought he'd been on fire again. But, this time, there was a kind of coolness against his face that wasn't there before. His glasses weren't on but he could feel someone in the room. He blinked, bleary-eyed in a feverish state, and saw a white blob at his bedside. Saeran was the person that he least expected to come in here.

He didn't imagine his twin would want to risk getting sick like this. His immune system was still a weak one. It wouldn't take much for a little cold to leave him on his back for days.

Maybe it wasn't even his twin... maybe he was having a dream from the fever. He didn't know what a dream would feel like against a fever dream... if he got sick when he was in the agency, Vanderwood gave him the strongest painkiller and he kept working. Even though he'd hated substances that altered his mind... medication kept him going like he needed. It was better than alcohol, he told himself.

The coldness he felt, he realized, was an ice pack.

Saeran must've grabbed one to try and help with his fever the only way he knew how. Saeyoung knew Saeran had a weariness to most medications, too. He didn't talk about it... but whatever happened to him with Rika... it wasn't good. Another reason why Saeyoung knew he was a failure. But, Saeran trusted painkillers and basic medicine... because it made a difference when someone needed help. The body was only so strong...

Normal people were only so strong.

Saeyoung wasn't normal.

"You didn't take anything," Saeran said.

"I'm fine," Saeyoung muttered. It was a blatant lie that neither of them believed. "You shouldn't be in here. It's just a fever... I'll be fine. I don't want you to catch this cold. It'll be a lot worse if you get sick. You and [Y/N] have plans this weekend."

"Brother, I don't have any plans that're more important than you are. I don't want you to be alone. If you're not going to help your fever, the least I can do is stay here with you."

Saeyoung said nothing.

"You used to do this for me all the time, remember? When I got sick, you wouldn't go to the cathedral until I felt better. Even if that meant we didn't eat much that day... you knew I'd cry and cry... and cry... if I was alone and sick with mother," Saeran said, softly. Even if he could not see Saeran, he knew his brother was looking at his lap. He didn't dare look at Saeyoung when he was nervous.

"I knew you needed to go. But, I kept asking for you to stay. I was a scaredy-cat. I hated being alone... but I knew you were stronger than me. You were faster than me... you knew how to protect yourself on the street. But, brother... Saeyoung... tell me, why did you ever let me believe that you weren't scared, too? Why couldn't I help you when it was bad? I know I needed more... but, why... why couldn't you—"

"I wasn't important," Saeyoung cut him off, a cough burning in his throat before he could finish. He closed his eyes to avoid the static clouding his vision. "You were so important, Saeran. You were more important. If I got sick, I got better. If you got sick, you got worse. I didn't need anything. I had to take care of you. I have to take care of you no matter what! That's my job! I'm your— ack, cough—I'm your big brother. My job is to protect you since our parents didn't want to protect either of us."

A coughing fit burned in his throat. He felt ashamed of himself... and the pain he felt was wrong. He needed to be better. He wanted a dull dream where nothing like this haunted him. Whether this was real or fake, he just wanted it to... he needed it to end. He needed to be back to full strength. He needed to be strong.

"I'm not a child anymore, brother."

"I know that! But—"

"Saeyoung, brother, I love you. You're my big brother. You always will try to take care of me no matter what happens. I know that. I know I don't have to be afraid of anything when you're with me. But, brother, I don't need you to be strong for me now. I'm strong. I know how to take care of myself, too. If I need you, I'll tell you I need you. You know I would. I don't have any reason to hide my suffering from you. We're the same soul, remember? So, why are you still hiding your suffering from everyone? Not just me, but the rest of our family?"

Saeran was standing up now, his voice emotional and torn with such things that Saeyoung had never heard before. He felt shameful. This wasn't what he wanted. He never wanted to hurt Saeran. The pain in his brother's voice tore him to shreds. In trying to hide his pain from his brother, he hurt his brother more than he would've if he had just been honest.

Saeyoung jolted up, the ice pack falling from his face as he looked at his twin, full of shame. "I have to be the strongest, Saeran! I can't live if I'm not— If I'm not strong enough to protect you!"

Like whiplash, the truth sent him reeling and tears flooded into his eyes. His vision clouded, and his fists clawed at the sheets. What he didn't see in Saeran's face was the recognition of the words he'd just spoken as if those words were his own. All he knew was that he had no way to hide his pain anymore.

Saeran's arms wrapped around him, tightly, in a hug that he refused to let go of. Saeyoung couldn't bring himself to hug his brother back, he only stared ahead of himself, the darkness taunting his vision as the fever became worse and the ringing in his ears left him nothing but a shell of himself. He needed to be strong... Saeran wasn't meant to see him like this.

But... the fact was... Saeyoung couldn't hide anymore. Not from his brother and not from their family. His mask was broken and nothing could put it back together now that the truth was revealed.

"You don't need to be the strongest to be worthy of a wonderful life, Saeyoung," Saeran's words were foggy in the distance. "That's what [Y/N] taught me after I really hurt them trying to prove my strength was the only reason I was still alive. We won't let you suffer that way, I promise... I promise. Please, let your family take care of you."

And just like that, Saeyoung was swept away once again, this time, whispering, "Forgive me."

#mystic messenger #drabble #mysticmessenger #mysme #mm #ask #anon #mod kait #saeyoung choi #choi saeyoung #luciel choi #choi luciel #rae saeyoung #sae saeyoung #saeran after ending #saeran choi #choi saeran #ge saeran #saeray #saeran #saeran mysme #saeran mystic messenger #saeran mm #mm saeran #mysme saeran #mystic messenger saeran #seven mm #seven mystic messenger #mystic messenger seven #mm seven

[artsyunderstudy]

WIP (it good) Wednesday!

Hey friends!!

Firstly!  It’s been an honor to see such a positive reaction to Sixty Seconds. For those of you reading - thanks for letting me hug you every day this week.  It’s been lovely.  Two more hugs to go!

I am happy to report that I dusted off my word doc for A Mild Case of Madness and have begun to fix my outline.  The biggest issue with this fic is that I’ve wanted to do so so so much and I literally haven’t stopped myself even once from following through with any of those things.  So, my lil bitty maybe 10-15k jealous!simon fic blossomed into what is VERY LIKELY going to be like ... 35k.  So.  A good length, that.

That being said, chapter 3 is going to be a lot.  Strap in.  Simon might be on the right track, but he’s still a lunatic.  And we love to see it.

I haven’t written much, and what I have written is likely to change because I did it before I even finished chapter 2, and I tend to hate things that I wrote more than a week ago.  So this actually might be a deleted scene.  I don’t know.  I can’t predict the future.

Have the whole damn thing.

I’d like to say I didn’t think about him all summer, but that’s just another thing I’m terrible at, isn’t it?  Magick, talking, and not thinking about my evil, plotting, fit as fuck roommate who I apparently don’t hate.  Apparently.

And maybe he doesn’t hate me, either.  I’ve been hanging onto that one thought, like when a song gets stuck in your head, playing on repeat, inserting itself between all your other thoughts.  

I wonder what’s for breakfast today.

He might not hate me.

Did someone pull my linens from the dryer while they were still damp?

He might not hate me.

Did that bloke just look at me wrong?

He might not hate me.

Don’t think about magick.  Don’t think about Watford or the tower or Penny, or …

He might not hate me.

Even if you like it, even if it makes you feel good, it’ll slowly drive you insane until you can actually listen to the bloody song.

But I can’t.  Because in this metaphor (simile?), the song is Baz telling me he doesn’t hate me.  That maybe he more than doesn’t hate me.  Or at least, that he might want to kiss me.

Because I really, really want to kiss him.  

Pining Simon wooooooooooo lets go!!

Also as a weird extra treat apparently I wrote this in my notes an AGE ago.  

simon tells baz he doesnt really think, and baz says "this is my shocked face” and simon bites his nose

Tags under the cut!

@forabeatofadrum @johnwgrey @takitalks @bazzybelle  @ileadacharmedlife @aristocratic-otter  @urban-sith @facewithoutheart @basiltonbutliketheherb @letraspal  @tea-brigade @stardustasincocaine @palimpsessed @cutestkilla @whatevertheweather  @nightimedreamersworld  @orange-peony  @carryonsimoncarryonbaz  @ionlydrinkhotwater @raenestee @fatalfangirl @captain-aralias @erzbethluna @stitchyqueer @larkral @bookish-bogwitch @whogaveyoupermission @you-remind-me-of-the-babe  @chen-chen-chen-again-chen  @ivelovedhimthroughworse @confused-bi-queer @moodandmist @martsonmars @sailorblossoms @aroace-genderfluid-sheep @hushed-chorus @yeonjunenby

#wip wednesday #artsyfic #snowbaz fanfic #simon snow #baz pitch

[lakesbian]

wrt what you said about worm opinions not being a fight; sometimes it reads like you and bloggers you're talking to have different aims in the fandom. people aren't always interested in being corrected (and feel extra defensive when it's in a reblog by someone with a large following like you have) and posts made about someone else without directly referring to them can occasionally come across as passive aggressive in a small fandom. directly stating if and when you don't want people to feel bad or offering to leave the topic be can help mitigate that if it comes up. you should blog how you want but it seems worthwhile to point out in case you find it helpful. you post a lot about reddit so if you were part of that big migration i wanted to note it since it can be easily confusing. feel free to disregard this if it's too much meddling

okay this is a lot of sentences about something that Isn't worm analysis so i'll be nice to everyone scrolling and put it under a cut

HASFDAKSFDSLS i don't post a lot about reddit no. i post a lot about alec, the only times i mention r/parahumans are when i'm 1. making everyone who doesnt have the stomach for one million posts about e88 in a row look at the rare good art that got posted there or 2. showing everyone a funny post title. i also feel like you might be misremembering that a Big reddit migration ever happened because while i havent been here long enough to remember everything i feel like the environment would b a lot more insufferable if it had? anyway

re "posts made about someone else without directly referring to them can occasionally come across as passive aggressive in a small fandom" - posts i make inspired by disagreeing w/ someones opinion with a direct tag to the person i saw have that opinion could be taken as aggressive/uncomfortable, because people leaving a random comment of a pretty generic opinion somewhere do not generally want to be dragged onto a stage for an impromptu debate! it's far more reasonable to just post my thoughts on a paraphrased version of the generic opinion without specifically shouting out whoever i most recently saw it from. (if i wanted to address precise phrasing or details of a point vs just bouncing off it, that's when i directly respond to the original text.) given that you also literally just said "people aren't always interested in being corrected (and feel extra defensive when it's in a reblog by someone with a large following like you have)," i feel like you should be able to understand this pov--it's extremely contradictory to imply that i often shouldn't directly correct people, but also that i should always explicitly shout out the person responsible for an opinion i disagree with

as for "people aren't always interested in being corrected (and feel extra defensive when it's in a reblog by someone with a large following like you have)," i have a couple notes:

i've been told i have a large following a few times but tbh i still genuinely do not see it--it was really only some of my first wormposts that got a notable amount of notes, at this point i feel like i've lost enough followers from having largely very specific posts (alec <3) & from being opinionated about hot-button topics that i do not think i count as a Large Blog. per se. i'd actually posit that No blog on wormblr is large enough to invoke the risks of disagreeing w someone publicly as a large blogger (i.e. unintentionally siccing harassment on someone), but maybe there's something i'm missing there

literally all of the people i've publicly corrected about amy were well-known fandom mainstays at the least and considered actively foundational (especially on the much much larger reddits and discords) at most, while also being extremely well-known on tumblr. i frankly find it hard to imagine any of them feeling threatened by the wormblr alec guy disagreeing with them when their opinions on her are those that have been shared by vast portions of the fandom for far longer than i've been in it. in fact, i would guess that any defensiveness there is actually far more liable to be a result of being extremely unused to having viewpoints they see as ubiquitous challenged

in both of the most recent cases that i'm sure inspired this ask, the people i was reblogging from made maintagged posts directly quoting things i've said without explicitly stating they were from me (<- "this can occasionally come across as passive aggressive in a small fandom") to express their disagreement w/ those opinions--if they didn't want me to try offering corrections, and fairly politely phrased ones at that, they could've just not made a post starting a dialogue about the topics, yeah?

#ask

[crplpunkklavier]

humbly requesting your intense opinions on klavier gavins fingernails

@lunstones asked: please please i need to know. what is your stance on klavier's fingernails. that tag hasnt left me alone since i read it

(in response to this post and my tag on it)

alright first and foremost. if you draw klavier gavin with anything other than short short nails, you are my enemy.

look at your hand, with your palm facing you. look at the tips of your fingers. can you see your fingernails poking over them? even just the smallest bit? they are too long. you will never be an internationally acclaimed guitarist.

i have played piano for 25 years, and that is impossible to do with long nails, and that's not hyperbole. ya can't. so i've always kept my nails pretty short, but not short enough, evidently, because once i picked up a guitar, the neck immediately got scratched up from my left. had to clip em even shorter.

the one thing you can do, which i've seen multiple guitarists do, is give him short nails on one hand and longer nails on the other, although i really mostly see that with people who play more classical guitar, because they do more plucking and klavier would do more shredding and play with picks. but if you absolutely must. then one hand only. or you are putting this man out of a job.

(although it is another intense opinion of mine that klavier is ambidextrous and plays with both, so, nope, not in my universe.)

the second thing is really more of an arbitrary headcanon, but this is supposed to be about meaningless intense opinions, and it certainly is that.

i don't see him wearing nail polish. :/

it is again something that becomes difficult when you use your fingers for work in music so much, although i will also say that i frequently wear nail polish. but then i will also say that it chips to hell and back, no matter which of my instruments i play. (ok maybe it doesnt chip on the drums. yet.) you bang them on piano keys, you scratch them over guitar strings. it's not going to be neat. not even on klavier gavin. he's gonna look like a punk. if that's the intention, by all means, be my guest! PLEASE. ACTUALLY. i need more punk klavier it is insane that i have to say this about someone who canonically makes rock music

i mean the hair post proved that i don't need my klaviers fully rejecting everything that says kristoph in any way, but in this case i do feel like actual, proper, pretty nail polish is a kristoph thing. i can live with black nails on klavier, but i will be ecstatic if they look chipped.

essentially i guess...... i mean, do what you want. obviously. but as a long-haired masc punk myself i am tired of seeing bubblegum bitch klavier #3000. you guys know you can be gnc and still rock out right

if you must babygirlify klavier gavin. babyaltgirlify him. i rest my case

#angel-starr #lunstones #:x #maybe i should make THAT my meta tag #imco

[maschotch]

No opinion here, I just wanted to tell you I just love your tags😅but I guess I’d like to get your opinion on Hotch and his relationship with JJ throughout the show, like how do you feel about it or what are some of your likes and dislikes about how it was written

i am a known #jjhater but i actually really love her relationship with hotch?? i dont think jj herself is well written, but i like the dynamic between the two.

i like that jj has a very skewed perception of hotch? she definitely takes him at face value in the first 4 seasons. she thinks he’s emotionless and abrasive.. but she respects that? its how she was raised to be. so she admires him for being unaffected by the job, for asserting himself and getting what he wants, not realizing that he’s not really like that at all.

i think foyet was a bit of an awakening for jj. bc now she Knows he must be suffering, even when he’s not showing it. so she learns that “gee maybe he still has emotions even tho he doesnt talk ab them.” but she’s still not at the point where she’s comfortable talking to him. i think she really realizes that how much he cares in season six—both with the way he fought hard to try to keep her in the bau, and with the lengths he was willing to go to save emily. hotch himself has gotten a little less guarded over the seasons, particularly season 7 on, so that also helps. she sees him as a bit more human

but beyond her misjudgment, i find their actual relationship super interesting. i cant remember where but there was one interview back from season one talking ab the chars and someone said jj was like hotch’s intern. which they said mostly as a joke, but its stuck with me bc of how true it actually is? not an actual fucking intern akdhak but like… his mentee almost? reid had gideon and jj had hotch. not as explicitly teacher/student as gideon/reid, but the toned down version (which works better for both of their characters anyway). reid and gideon are more ab the intelligence aspect, while jj and hotch are more on the bureaucratic side. reid/gideon can focus on the profile, while jj/hotch deal with everything behind the scenes: the paperwork, the media, the police, the reports, etc. hotch also obviously works on the profile—especially since thats what we see him do the most—but thats only ab half his job. the rest of it was the stuff gideon hated about being unit chief (which makes me think hotch probably did the paperwork for team even before he became unit chief so gideon wouldnt have to). i mean he’s apparently been handling most of the reports for the rest of the team for fucks sake.

and jj has to do the same thing. i bully her for never doing shit on the show lmao but to be fair thats bc most of her job is when theyre at quantico between cases. and in the brief moments we do see them doing the paperwork, they usually interact. he’s either doing it with her or just checkin in on her since they’re the only ones on the team that are left in the office. they spend the most time together when they’re at the office while the others are working on cases or doing interviews or consultations or whatever else they have to do. she respects and admires him: she’s gonna look up to him. he wants to help her. its an unspoken mentorship that both are too emotionally constipated to acknowledge.

she doesnt always get the point of the lesson (like the birthright episode) but she’s been studying under him for years. and she picks up stuff quick. she’s grown more capable (allegedly) and more confident throughout the seasons. he’s seen her through one job to the next: tbh it would make more sense for her to be unit chief after hotch leaves. she would be taking up the mantle, and this would be the last thing he leaves her with. it would feel full circle. (pretending like she’d actually be good at the job—but it still makes more sense than bringing an extremely overqualified emily back)

anyway i love their relationship. neither of them are the best at communication, so they both interpret each other’s actions/words in a way that makes them hate themselves the most: they’re only hearing what they want to hear. they’re probably the most self loathing on the team, so p much everything they say feels like an emotional blow (i want to be clear: not at each other, eg hotch taking jj’s “youre a bully” comment to heart even tho she was essentially in the middle of a breakdown when she said it). they’re alike in so many ways but the way they view the world couldnt be more different. they’re mirrors, but they’re opposites. they show their love in completely different ways

idk i just think theyre neat

#want to make it absolutely clear that its not sarcasm when i say jj fundamentally misunderstands hotch #i think its fantastic and genuinely interesting—and a good decision considering both characters #like. morgan doesnt fully get hotch either and thats what makes their dynamic so interesting #asks #char crit #<- ig #not tagging as anti jj bc i was nice to her this ask :)