#(that seems to be a tag some people use)

[transmascissues]

i love you testosterone i love you voice cracks i love you bass notes i love you loud laugh i love you fuzzy mustache i love you whispy patchy beard i love you bushy eyebrows i love you hairy stomach i love you knuckle and hand hair i love you boy smell i love you bottom growth i love you new orgasms i love you big nose i love you square jaw i love you squishy stomach i love you thighs that touch i love you stretch marks i love you acne i love you acne scars i love you body heat i love you appetite i love you mood stability i love you balanced hormone cycle i love you puberty awkwardness i love you uncertainty i love you adjustment i love you transformation i love you change i love you maturation i love you growth i love you freedom i love you euphoria i love you comfort i love you familiarity i love you recognition i love you second chances i love you masculinization i love you embodied manhood i love you testosterone

#in case anyone needed a reminder that testosterone is magic and no one gets to talk shit about it around me #and to be clear all of these are very specific to my personal experience being on t #these are all things that t either gave me or increased/exaggerated in me #just my own personal love letter to the last 10 months #i was going to make a more typical post for this account #but i was scrolling through some tags i use to find posts on here #and so many of the posts were people shitting on us not people who care about us #every time i go into those tags there seems to be more and more negativity toward us from people who dont want us to talk about our lives #i was even looking in positivity tags and finding assholes #and im tired of thinking about negative things now so instead you get this #transmasc positivity #trans man positivity #testosterone positivity

[residentialhomeowner]

a lot of people are using nex as a queer talking point without even mentioning they were choctaw and 2S. without even mentioning that this - harassment, assault, murder, disappearances, lies/indifference/denial about the circumstances of our death - is typical of the violence we face. not once have i seen non-native people address that we, as natives, face this same treatment within queer communities. that queer institutions use our land while declining to offer native-inclusive and -sensitive care. we suffer at the hands of white lgbt+ people just as much as we do at the hands of people outside the community.

nex is not your NB pariah. nex was a 2S, NB, choctaw child. thousands of native people go missing and are killed and no one cares. many are two-spirit. many are LGBTQIA+. many are "queer" in ways only defined and recognised by our closed cultures, that you may never hear of and may never understand.

if you are going to flock to nex, you are not going to take them from us post-mortem. they were choctaw. they were native. their tribal affiliation has already been falsely reported on. if you are talking about nex, you will talk about how unwelcoming and dangerous your communities are for us, too. you will talk about how natives face this violence constantly, everywhere. you will not remove nex from the context of them being choctaw, ever - or you won't say their name at all.

even when we die, you don't care about us. i am telling you to care about us if you want us to stop dying.

#howling #nex benedict #yeah no i'm tired of seeing edit: and they were 2s!!1!! #no. first and foremost they were a native child. can you people stop fucking stealing our children. #some other notes if you see my tags: allegedly nex preferred he/him. i will prioritise using he/him. sources seem credible. #secondarily: if you aren't Black do not say ''rest in power'' for non-Black people. i do not know choctaw mourning traditions and language #(i'm algonquain and aleut) and won't tell you what To say. but please do not use ''rest in power'' when inappropriate. #thirdly: if you don't know how to talk about us Don't Talk About Us. QUOTE us. share OUR words. #may your spirit walk freely nex. may you be at peace. may flowers grow in your footprints and birds fly on the wind of your breath. #may your ancestors open their arms to you and embrace you in love. we will never forget you. i'm sorry we failed you. #we will do better next time.

[stiffyck]

Trans hermits. You agree.

#i post abojt trans hermits a lot but shhhhh #listen im thinking about each of them figuring themselves out #some find out theyre comfortable as they are but just dont like certain lamguage used for them #some of them take a long time trying to figure everything out because everything seems to fit #some have issues figuring out how they feel about their gender and stuff #i think theres just a lot of potential with trans hermits #they all have different levels of dysphoria. some have none at all some have a lot #some wanna transition some dont #theres some hermits who like multiple pronouns. some hermits who just like one set of pronohns. theres hermits that dont care. #idk im ggoijg in circles but you get what i meannnn #im so starved for any trans rep that's not just a sad trans boi or whatever #i wanna see more trans people man i just wanna see trans people being happy and just living rheir lives #stiff talk #hermit posting #<new possible tag?

[verdantglow]

I believe it’s true,

‘Cause nothing matters when I’m all wrapped up in you.

(Made a Boat Boys playlist the other day. It’s not quite done & ready to post yet, but I’ve decided I want to go through it & do paintings for a few lyrics from each song on it. Here’s the first one. ^^ )

#boat boys #SmallEtho #hermitshipping #trafficshipping #verdant art #Part-time soulmate Full-time problem #<— gonna be using that tag for this series so people can find it on my blog. #also that’s the playlist’s name on Spotify if you want to listen to the WIP #just remember it’s subject to change & some songs might get swapped out #Spotify #fuck it I’m gonna slap this in their individual tags as well #I hope that’s okay #afaik Etho doesn’t go on tumblr & Joel seems to know exactly what kinda shit’s going on here. #anyway. #Joel SmallishBeans #Etho #Ethoslab

[lucalicatteart]

A new sculpture! Finally... I feel like I never sculpt anymore since I'm always sick or have some 500 other things going on or projects to finish, but I'm trying to schedule time to do it more often this year hopefully..! Just a generic fantasy creature as usual, but did try making the eyes a little more sparkly this time.. hrmm..

#sculpture #fantasy art #fantasy creature #art #elf #lol what are the tags I should use... I still never know.. EVIL social media.. hate the idea of tagging anything ever anyway. but alas.. #I also would ideally like to start selling them again and open up custom commmissions and stuff again once I can hopefully get paypal #stuff sorted out. and find like.. a good way to do things.. etc.. I did still want to sell them through auction instead of agonizing #over setting prices being afraid they're either too high or too low. So being able to just be like. Here. this is $50. or more. or less. #negotiate. the worth is whatever you feel like it is so i personally dont have to make that decision. etc. lol... But etsy doesn't let you #do auctions or like pay what you want type stuff so.. then I was thinking ebay? but idk.. ANYWAY.. I want to set things #up so I can sell stuff again hopefully. I still haven't fully recovered from the costs of when I had to take my cat to the vet and put #them down last year and etc. So it'd be good to sell a few things. perhaps.. maychance... perhamble... so on and so forthe... ANYWAY #I was going for whiter more milky sort of hair that blends in closely with the skintone but after the paint dried it seems more yellowy kin #of. which is fine. But just not exacltly like my mind vision lol.. #Also it's like... wow... someone with face spots and elf ears and a half open mouth with a gap tooth and wavy hair and kind of downturned #eyes... revolutionary... never been seen before... every sculpture I have ever made surely doesnt look licherally exactly like this... LOL #but maybe it's just a style. so what. People have their motifs lol.. Im just getting back into sculpting. I shall sameface in peace. huzzah #Just like the only thing I ever carve out of avocado pits anymore is eyes. Because that's just whats fun to do. I'm going to accumulate lik #25 similar avocado eyes and have nothing to do with them. I was thinking of stringing some together into a necklace of eyes or something li #like that but.. hrmm... ANYWAY.. Love to do the same things repetitively. :3c

[brother-emperors]

Lucullus and Cicero were, as I have said, ardent friends, and members of the same political party, for Lucullus had not withdrawn himself entirely from political life, although he lost no time in leaving to Crassus and Cato the ambitious struggle for the chief place and the greatest power, since he saw that it involved both peril and ignominy.

-Plutarch, Lucullus

rejected panel layouts for a scene between lucullus and crassus, but it was still fun enough to play with that it gets memorialized on the blog :)

crassus ???? reaction has less to do with his own characterization and more to do with me, who was mostly thinking about how much cato wanted to Stab Sulla and completely forgot that lucullus had independent ties with cato. like, a whole relationship dynamic was going on with those two.

so jump cut to

lmao. anyway! something interesting (gestures vaguely) is happening in all of this

Cato the Younger: Life and Death at the End of the Roman Republic, Fred K. Drogula

Lucullus, a Life, Arthur Keaveney

A Life in Pieces, Plutarch, Crassus 12.1-16-8, James T Chlup

Lucullus: A Life, Arthur Keaveney

Plutarch, Cato 3

bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost

#also lucullus' marriage drama is some real soap opera material #it really makes crassus' own marriage look exceedingly boring. like. the most scandalous thing there are the affair allegations #and the absence of reaction from him gives off 'my girl can do what she wants' energy #'lucullus seemed to have lost his stomach for political battle's so he decided to sick two people who were very good at breaking things #onto the political system instead. everyone clap for lucullus! #not a joke. i love this for him. #roman republic tag #komiks tag #drawing tag #marcus licinius crassus #Lucius Licinius Lucullus #LUCULLUS WOULD YOU SHOW UP IN MY FREQUENTLY USED TAGS ALREADY SO I CAN STOP COPYING AND PASTING YOUR NAME

[mossytines]

"Agent Milton was just doing his job" STOP SUCKING HIS DICK OH MY LORD. I DON'T CARE IF HE WAS HONEST OR FAIR HE STILL DID THAT BULLSHIT IN LAKAY IN CHAPTER 5 WHEN HE KNEW ABOUT JACK'S PRESENCE, ACTIVELY PUTTING A CHILD IN DANGER FOR SOME RICH GUY MONEY.

HE STILL.. IS A PINKERTON. I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU BUT IF THERE'S SOMETHING THAT'S NOTORIOUS FOR BEING CRUEL, I WON'T REALLY RESPECT OR TRUST ANYBODY WHO'S IN SAID SOMETHING.

DOING HIS JOB OR NOT, HE DOESN'T HAVE A RESPECTABLE JOB.

#i dont know bruh its the same with cops #you cant be “one of the good ones” if youre all working to push the same cruel and unjust laws #also not to say that the gang hasnt done bad shit because its obvious they have #but bad person vs bad person doesnt make one of them better #also people supporting milton because he was “”just doing his job“” seem to ignore the major themes of morality doesnt always equal legality #okay ill stop ranting in the tags #just stop dickriding cops please #milton isnt a cop. just some guy paid buy a rich asshole #by this time the pinkertons wouldnt be able to work with the us government because of the anti pinkerton act in 1893 #big L honestly #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan #red dead redemption #rdr2 arthur #red dead #arthur rdr2 #red dead 2

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet! #here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress! #you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better' #i Immediately started doing Worse! #i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now! #okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um. #i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually. #love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me. #perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that! #with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!! #gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

[skeletoninthemelonland]

cw // possible eyestrain

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Sound Sensitivity

#here is some unrelated artwork i'll be posting occasionally for now on #this might seem confusing to you (and I'm not talking specifically about the drawing) #i don't usually bring up anything about my personal problems but this one really is a thing #all i have to tell you. person reading the tags. is that sound sensitivity really fucking sucks. #and if someone reading this has sound sensitivity well i do hope the people around you are understanding of your condition #and that you find efficient ways to diminish the impact it has on you #whether if it's by using noise cancelling headphones. by leaving the loud environment or by learning to focus on something else #/// #this christmas i'm receiving a noise cancelling headphone from my bsf #im very happy and so thankfull for them #this gift is appreciated by my younger self #who. during birthday parties. couldnt stand anywhere close to ballons #who cried at the sounds of fireworks #who cried in class numerous times because it was too much #who was accused of faking it and blamed for ruining everyone's fun time #i remember being very confused and scared #my art #eye strain #artists on tumblr

[marinsawakening]

Weighing in on the debate “Are you allowed to ship aromantic characters?” As an aromantic person, this is a difficult subject. On the one hand, we have characters who clearly and repeatedly state that they hate romance, do not feel romantic attraction, and don’t want to be in a relationship. On the other hand, we have your personal inability to engage with deep relationships without making them romantic. As a compromise, I say people are allowed to ship canon aromantic characters, provided they pay me at least $100 in cash for the license.

#my posts #aromantic #this is about the murderbot diaries fandom. btw. #me: you know the murderbot fics on ao3 are actually pretty good. most of them seem to understand the themes of the books #and most people seem to have gotten the hint and don't ship murderbot romantically. maybe I'm safe to check the tumblr tag #the tumblr tag: no you're not #me: ok noted #people will see a character repeatedly and consistently being romance-repulsed #and go 'is anyone gonna ship them' and not wait for an answer #it's rlly funny how quick seeing blatant shipping made me go from #'while in terms of human western labels murderbot obviously fits the definition of aromantic asexual and some flavour of nonbinary/agender' #'I do not feel like it's useful or desired to ascribe these labels to it as it consistently avoids labelling its gender' #'and in general seems unlikely to be the kind of person who'd want to use human western labels perhaps even if it was human' #to 'murderbot is not just aromantic it's a loveless nonpartnering aromantic suck my dick'

[svtskneecaps]

personally i think the best way to look at this election in terms of "who am i (as a viewer) going to vote for" is that first and foremost, for us, this is a STORY. we are watching a story (and also a fun game and funny people doing funnies together, but for election purposes we'll say that)

therefore our goal should not be "which candidate has the best policies" or "which candidate is best for the island". we don't CARE. that's not our business.

we don't care what's good for the islanders. THAT'S NOT OUR BUSINESS. we're not islanders nor are we players. we are the guy in the bar watching the Truman show. our business is "what story do we want to see?"

each candidate offers something different.

(note: i don't claim to understand their platforms, for personal reasons i haven't followed it closely bc i kinda suspected there was gonna be drama and didn't feel like stressing myself over minecraft politics; my local elections freak me out enough lol)

for a rough example:

elquackity: obvious federation plant, clear enemy for the rest of the server. man-vs-government arc.

forever: did you like cellbit's infiltration arc? i could predict something like that following in forever's footsteps (forever sneaks around the federation, learns a few secrets, continues to make his changes to the server but does perhaps experience horrors, most likely a slower burn than cellbit's arc but certainly a lot of espionage and theorycrafting)

gegg: gegg chamg e world

those of y'all with a sounder grasp on candidates, sound off in the notes on what we can expect FROM A STORY PERSPECTIVE; i actively ignore the debates (they make me want to cry lmfao). i don't care what their platform is exactly, where will it take the story?

and i'll repossess your liver if i see any goddamn cc hate or harassment in there. this is more than not a safe space for that, this is an active danger zone. watch yourselves. <3

#qsmp #qsmp elections #qsmp discourse #hopefully that covers it lmk if we're tagging other things for filtering #whopper whopper whopper whopper junior double triple whopper IS THIS YOUR IP ADDRESS YOU ARE NOT SAFE TONIGHT I AM COMING FOR YOU AND YOUR F #shut up vic #block game brainrot #personally the story i want to see would come from forever's presidency but from the minute elections were announced i resolved not to vote #has made the arc wayyyy easier for me to tolerate bc the way my heart sank when it was announced #have i mentioned lately how sick i am of overzealous fans ruining things? #there's a reason i've sent maybe 4 things in a twitch chat ever (and they were all in bad's somehow?) #but yea first and foremost qsmp fans need to recognize that we're not part of this #some people don't seem to recognize that #have all the fucking opinions your little twisted hearts desire but don't put that shit on the cc's like it's their fault #it's a story. cry about it. #(this policy has exceptions but you'll have to use your own discretion to list them) #(i believe in you <3 i can't list all the -isms lol)

[wheucto]

an afterlife where everyone looks just like you

#wheucto #art #bfdi #bfdia #bfb #bfdi bubble #bfdia bubble #bfb bubble #is this spoilers? shrugs #anyways. another thing this could have been captioned as is “is this heaven” #i had to compress this image it was too big to post on tumblr lol #anyways. spoilers in the rest of tags #since afterlives seem to depend on how people die_ and bubble usually is only able to be killed via popping_ she has to show up in the - #- “death by popping” afterlife. and since we know that some amount of people died after using the bubble transformer_ they must have went - #- here: the “got popped” afterlife. so there's probably a bunch of bubbles in there

[i-love-you-very-much]

For the nine of you that like flute sounds. For those that don't, here's the full range of this piece, across all instruments (ID in alt):

If you wanna brace yourself beforehand, the highest note happens 3 times, at 1:04, 1:21, and 2:06. Annoyingly, tumblr only shows timestamps on mobile, so fuck you if you're on web i guess (it happens once at the start of the middle eight, once in the middle of the middle eight, and once to begin the ending tag)

#iloveyou.pdf #this be me audio posts tag #musicians on tumblr #do people use that tag? #as always. let me know if this is secretly a real song that i've accidentally plagiarized #also. rb if you enjoy it. please i'm begging you #i don't like writing in Bb but this one seems to work there for some reason #aside from. y'know. being very shrill

[sofishticated3]

Omg the f1 side of instagram and particularly the m*x fans are not passing the vibe check. I mean, of course if he's your favorite driver, you can be happy and express that in the comments but is it necessary to always bring up Lewis or merc domination? Or harass someone as soon as they express their opinion about m*x that does not fit the "golden boy/great white hope" image? I swear some are just proving themselves to be racist and misogynist, which considering the man they stan, well

#one woman says that she finds max to be rude to his engineer #you bet there will be men telling her to go back to the kitchen or that she doesn't know what's she watching #someone saying max is a spoiled child? #of course some will ask “are you sure you don't mean george?” or “lemme guess you're brit and a lewis fan” #like #i think i'm getting too used to tumblr and the ability to curate my own experience where i can filter tags and words #and block people #i take that for granted and will do it no more #want to lose faith in humanity or get mad? head to f1 insta comment section especially on a post with m*x #some still think mercedes domination was worse. #and are particularly bitter about said domination as if lewis had ran over their dog #seems to me like it's another issue at play here 🤐 #anti max verstappen #anti verstappen #ofc this isn't an attack to all max fans #as i said if he's your fav you're happy and that's good for you #but some relate to him a bit too much if y'know what i mean #lewis hamilton

[milimeters-morales]

(NOT ATSV) my ideal miguel and miles friendship (bordering on enemies) dynamic is where Miles is sort of a Mean Girls figure where he’ll say the worst things to Miguel, who actually has no problems dishing that shit right back out, is usually too fed up or somewhere else mentally to reply. They fight a lot, more physically than verbally, usually in a slapstick comedy type of way. Miles is banned from Nueva York once a month and got a restraining order against Miguel in his own dimension. His parents fucking hate him and Miguel hates them right back. Rio has tried and failed to poison him via food and Jeff is considering hiring a hitman. Gabriel is beloved by them. Miles takes Miguel’s money at least twice a week to go spend it just because he can. Miguel has tried (and succeeded once) to get Miles sick with a future illness because he figured out the lesbian bar Miguel liked to perform at in drag. Miles has cried at least once in every room of Miguel’s apartment and Miguel has been confused on what to do each time besides an awkward hug and pat on the back. People are rightfully worried for Miles’s safety at least 80% of the time but when they aren’t they’re shaking their heads at the two’s antics. They need to be separated until they have a healthy “this is a grown ass man / this is stupid little girl i don’t like at work” relationship and it’ll take an act of god for either of them to realize their current one isn’t healthy at all and has extremely negative impacts on their mental state.

#i wanna write this so badly bc like . this type of relationship with adults as a kid when you can’t 100% trsut them and place your safety + #in their hands is sooo interesting to write esp considering Miguel’s past and what Miles is used to #which is dangerous fights from adults (his villains) but also the loving ones like his parents his neighbors ripeter and peter b etc #and this miguel (imo) wouldn’t hurt miles on purpose because he knows the pain BUT he also doesn’t realize some shit is pain-causing both+ #mentally and physically bc yknow some abused kids grow into adults who subconsciously do similar shit #and for Miles and Miguel to finally realize beating the shit out of each other almost constantly and the negative back and forth (if miguel #feels like talking that day) is just. not a good thing #it’s sort of like the way i write pavitr and miles’s relationship regarding their fighting because it’s genuinely helpful but #can seem borderline awful and physically abusive to each other #peter b is so fucking worried sometimes bc he sees Miguel in a completely different way than other people. like he’s off in lala land #like. he’ll see this 15 year old stickbug of a kid fighting his buddy Miguel who has been known to kill #he’ll say some fights tou just can’t win Miles… and Miles is setting Miguel’s apartment on fire #like they have good moments. okay. trust me. but a toxic friendship like the kind you see that people take too seriously from a show like. #idk bluey. or some kids show like that. #spiderverse fans DNI ‼️‼️‼️🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾‼️‼️‼️‼️ #not ship never ship don’t even tag is as such bc i’ll just delete the post #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #gabriel o’hara #rio morales #jefferson morales #miguel o’hara #m&m posts

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneepy cozy....

#cats #(medical stuff mention for tags) #poasting confortable image of boye for peace and serenity and such forthe #I have little weird episodes sometimes where I get shaky (but like violently like 'would spill a drink if you were holding it beacuse #your hands are moving so much' type shaky) and weird and sick feeling but usually it passes in an hour or less. but last night I just #literally couldnt sleep I was shaking so much and my heartrate was up a ton and wouldn't go down even after like 6 hours plus super nausea #so I went to the hospital and now shall wear a heart monitor for a week. which hopefully it's just some weird drastic low blood sugar #event or something and there's nothing actually going on. ekg + ct scan for blod clots + virus panel + almost all of the blood work seems #normal so... aa....... #Though me being so privacy focused hrggh... I basically have a constantly bluetooth connected device around me #since the monitor comes with a cell phone that is constantly transmitting data to the place. which they said they'll call you #if they see anything weird which is also scary. random phone calls... but definitely better than letting an issue go unadressed lol #the phone is also not meant to be more than 10 feet away from the monitor at any time so I put on this old tactical fishing #vest thing thats like navy green with 100 pockets and im just using one of the giant pocketson the side as a phone holder #my enormous silly vest just to keep one little phone #ANYWAY... because I got up early the morning before and didn't sleep at all and spent nearly all day in waiting rooms and such #I have been awake for like 32 hours striaght. which I'm sure also does not help with an elevated heartrate lol #feeling shrimp emotions or whatever people talk about unlocking at a certain level of stress and sleep deprivation #and also no food or water. after a while they brought me like 3 saltines and some ice water but I basically also haven't eaten since 3am #last night and it's 2pm now.. #thus............ bapy............. baby boye....... he will help ease all ailments with his baby powers... #And no I dont drink energy drinks or anything with caffiene really I'm afraid of all substances on the planet essentially #My body just likes to become shaky and weird randomly even when I'm not conciously anxious about anything/have had no caffiene/etc #and I guess I'm always more nervous about getting anything heart related checked out because of my arm/shoulder/chest area injury stuff #... i literally have constant chest pain all the time. it moves around but i nearly always have some sort of pain or pressure in my chest #so when people are like 'oh well a little weird heartrate is fine but watch out if you have pain!' it's like... i always do lol.. how am I #supposed to tell the Bad Pain apart from the Always Pain when the descriptions of Bad Pain are very very similar #AAAANYway.... hrghh... i wanted to be very productive and finally post drafts and wrok on things today. but alas.. #I can at least post small image of soft boye.. though he recently got into stuff in the bathroom whilst left #alone and knocked things into the toilet.. So perhaps not an innocent and NICE boy.. but still.. a soft one .. beautfile....