#4 years were terrible

[babythegod]

#last year #>>>>> ​I never look like my depression >>>> #in the spirit #for the first time #in my adult life #last year was sooo #<<<<< #actually the last #4 years were terrible #I’m finding the joy #in the littlest of things #personalized my wreath #my baby &I #decorating #the big tree #on Thanksgiving #&I’m cooking a lil #5 course #Thursday #😋 #changing the narrative

[perceptivehands]

phryne&jack + visual innuendo

#miss fisher's murder mysteries #mfmm #phryne fisher #jack robinson #essie davis #nathan page #~mfmm #~ #this has been on my to-do list for two years wow #the lossy-ness is terrible but i couldn't delete any more frames #5mb limit and still struggling #no idea why the files were so big #did i put gif 4 right after gif 3 on purpose so it gives gif3!phryne legs? mayyybbee

[horsemeatluvr23]

the juppet !! i just realised he is jerma posing i swear that was unintentional...... i spent so long digging thru muppet concept art and looking at old puppet designs just to end up doing a rly simple drawing but. i love joehills!! i have only been watching them for like 4 years but their videos r so special to me :3

#i would love to do a more complex drawing inspired by muppet concept art at some point... just wanted to give myself a bit of a break #i've been spending So much time on these drawings every day n it's not really sustainable for me to be spending multiple hours every day #when i have so much work i should be doing...... but i rly enjoyed this silly little muppet even if it's v simple for my standards #tbh i'm surprised i even made it this far into the challenge.. we're like two thirds in ?!!?! #i've only ever completed an art challenge once and that was inktober in 2018... and those were SIMPLE drawings #my standards are a lot higher than they were 6 years ago... but also there's extra pressure because i'm posting these #and i know i don't Have to post them but. it's a way of keeping myself accountable because i am terrible at that without outside motivation #omg why do i always ramble So much in tags this is ridiculous i'm so sorry if anyone actually reads these.... #anyways i rly hope my people drawing skills r improving.. #i doubt there will be noticable difference but i hope i feel at least a little more confident by the end of this #hermitaday #horsemeatluvr does hermitaday #horsemeat gallery #joehills #joehills fanart #joe hills #joe hills fanart #hermitcraft #traditional art #unedited sketchbook drawings 4 the win (i've given up on scanning n editing these or even taking them in proper lighting... too much effort) #i'm just a little guy

[tricoufamily]

jacques's, nancy's, and mrs. villareal's parents circa 1960-something + baby jacques and nancy bc they were there in cas anyway why not

this feud's been going on for approximately this long

#suicide mention in tags #god hugo looks so much like both of his maternal grandparents </3 he would have gotten along w both of them so well #they were quirky awkward middle school teachers they died in a car accident when mrs. villareal was just a baby #so i'm actually not sure she would have even met jacques if they lived and hugo wouldn't exist. but LOOK #benicio only ever met hugo he died not long after he was born #look at them they're all color coordinating then nancy's terrible terrible father ruins it #bad. idk if anyone ever bothered to do the math on that one unfinished wikipedia extra i did #but yes ~30 year age difference between them. she was 22 when she had nancy she killed herself when nancy was 11 #ts4 #ts4 cas #the sims 4 #this is the fall: extras #dominique #benicio #chester #queenie #elena #hector #jacques villareal #nancy landgraab

[vehemourn]

don't make me go here

#k #my art #pim #:] pim sighting... #finally... executed but ONE drawing of him the way i wanted... only took 4 fuckin years #photo drawover #the sky was beautiful this day #thts why i took the pic #we were in the car #was a while ago now #a few months #glad i got to use it for something :3 have a bunch of photos i can probably do similar things 2 #art #artists on tumblr #cat #original character #i see pim as kind of. a guy who is present when terrible things happen but not necessarily the cause of them #he does enjoy seeing it tho :3 i think its funny to him #seeing people me miserably hes like “lol why are u doing that??? :3 idiot.!!”

[antvnger]

¡Hola! You escribo en español. Yo no comprando mucho. Para application un teléfono, Duolingo, you soy estudiante.

(How did I do?)

Ummm let’s see here…

I’m not the best choice to teach Spanish. What I know is because of Luis.

But I think you mean “yo” instead of you. “Yo” means I.

And I think “comprando” is buy. I think you mean “comprendo” which means understand.

I think what you were trying to say is “Hi! I write in Spanish. I don’t understand a lot. For the phone app Duolingo I am a student.”

Right?

#I apologize to my Spanish speaking followers #4 years of Spanish class and my teachers were terrible #but i did my best #ask scott lang #scott lang #ant-man #anon asks #spanish #spanish language #ant man #antman

[catoscloves]

i like how haley has like three sisters but they rarely show up and her parents go absentee on her after she gets married

#they think that they stopped being parents just because she's married now?? #and also like real life teen marriages don't typically end the way naley's do with genuine happiness #(well actually my best friend's parents were also naley coded pregnant at 17 and they're still happily married so i guess there's that) #her parents deadass just gave her away to get married in like 5 seconds when she was 16 #literally anything could have happened to haley and she could have ended up having a terrible life #i mean she DIDN'T but regardless they really shouldn't have abandoned her #and also any reasonable parents would have like?? idk maybe taken a bit more time before letting their 16 year old get married #naley is the ONLY teen couple allowed to get married young but still #her sisters don't have a parental obligation to her since all they are is related to her and she's not their legal responsibility #but her parents?? abandoning her?????? was really weird #also nate listed like at least 3 to 4 non-haley girls when taylor came over in s2 and he was trying to guess which sister she was #but according to a gifset i saw only haley and 2 other sisters comforting their dead mom so???? make it make sense? #oth #haley james scott #taylor james #quinn james

[fondwand]

not to be brave and controversial but rw&rb the movie is exactly what antis and puritanical fandom wants from queer media like the most bland sanitized rote dull unsexy no tension no chemistry unfunny surface level romance and representation. give me dirt give me real bodies give me imperfect humans give me natural dialog give me complex relationships explored in the silences give me kink and complicated sex and guilt and anger and selfishness and imperfection, imperfection, imperfection. and most of all give me forgiveness for imperfection and the knowledge that an imperfect thing becomes beautiful because it communicates with the imperfection all fallible beings experience on a day to day, not because the beholder is morally corrupt.

anyway. sorry if you liked it there's nothing wrong with that. go forth and live your life.

#should i tag the fandom.... #fuck it #me and my friends were so bored we started to play keplunk half way through #also ive read the book and i liked it i think although that was like 4 years ago and im an adult now whos had sex and been in love and #become much more politically and artistically conscious #so maybe i woildnt #this isnt a criticism of casey mcquiston i liked shara wheeler and i dont know enough about her #but anyway if this is the culmination of queer media shoot me #i think about how much connection i found as a young queer in things like jp/craig from FUCKING HOLYOAKS #and like brittana on glee or something like that #and how those are clearly not anywhere near perfect pieces of media but at least i felt like i was watching human beings #and not sanitized ken dolls repeating cringy unnatural dialogue in front of a terrible cgi tree #i dont need queer people to be hot or irreproachable i need them to be REAL #red white and royal blue #sorry again #negativity #queer

[br1ghtestlight]

watching these tv shows about serial killers has me thinking about how my younger brother was only like 10% bad choices away from being an Actual murderer. he's calmed down a lot now but even 5 years ago i wouldnt have put it past him to try and kill me or my sister, he used to try to stab us with a kitchen knife and we'd lock ourselves in the bathroom FJDMDMDKDSMJ

#there is...... so much context to our lives and his behaviour #he always had a horrible temper anger issues and violence ever since he was a literal toddler #he got in trouble at school for a thousand different reasons and would try to fight kids in the neighborhood. he was HORRIBLE #and im sure our parents enabled him or made him worse in a thousand different ways #he loved my older sister but ALWAYS hated me and my younger sister bcuz we were closer in age #he was horrible to us. which is weird to say bcuz he's like 4 years younger than me but duuude the shit he used to say and do #also he was an anti-sjw transphobic nazi for like a good few years #THAT BEING SAID he is my brother and he's better now and a lot more chill & doesnt do anything bad anymore #just plays video games and posts pro-palestine stuff on twitter. probably a good thing he was removed from the home when he was #also i was a pretty terrible kid too maybe less outwardly violent but i cant even blame him lmao. Anyway its weird to think #if our lives had turned out slightly different he would have murdered me and my sister when we were kids #family is weird #txt

[roses-and-tears]

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#I have spent. 8 almost 9 hours resetting my laptop. I chose the option to keep all my files but uninstall apps. and it has been restarting #and installing for almost 9 hours. yeah I get that the process will be long. but ffs #I have been bored the past few hours so I watched the smile movie bc I got reminded of it yesterday #it was pretty bad. the couple gorey scenes towards the end were nice but some of the acting and writing was just terrible #I was also hoping the movie would’ve taken a different turn. I think it would’ve made it more.. idk. I can’t think of the right term.- #-it just would’ve made it better I think. #I’ve also eaten a lot today. more than I usually do. more than I have in months and years and im upset about that. im already bloated. #I hope I don’t work tomorrow. I have to call in in the morning to check. and I don’t mind working but rn I just kind of want to spend the #day relaxing #I’ve spent almost 9 hours on this resetting part. and 4 extra hours trying to simply repair it in restarts #I also need to clean up my room. a lot of it. and clean my pets cage. it’s ant season now and im really stressed about that #the smell of sharpie returns and I am just. overwhelmed. I have 3 days to prepare for my special week long activity and im not happy about- #-that. #I also had some feelings earlier that im stressed over too. #im being vague about that bc i just don’t want to go off about that to everyone #im tired and overwhelmed i just want my laptop to finish resetting so i can stop fretting about this. i want to sleep #im tired. of so much #to delete later

[eggmeralda]

okay but I am genuinely so unwell about numbers and dates and ages and time and years etc. so I'm blaming all my bad luck on the number 23

#got so paranoid about it that i didn't talk to anyone for the last few weeks and i haven't applied for a job and i'm honestly not doing #anything until i'm safely 24 #idk what 24's gonna be like but it's got a 4 in it so that's a good sign #but then again 14 had a 4 in it and that was a terrible age #but tbf it was a 4 + a 10 which is like. my fav number and my least fav number. so the year just malfunctioned #first 6 months good second 6 months bad #so 24 can fit two 10s but they're not as obvious. but it's a multiple of 4 so i trust it a bit more #4 x 6. idk my feelings on 6 but it's never really done anything too bad to me so yeah. 24 is the safe zone #i blame everything on the number 23 and also my friend's awful ex girlfriend #OKAY SO LIKE i was reading coronation street youtube comments the other day #and people were talking about how characters like terry duckworth and mike baldwin were kind of prats before but then they #had some significantly bad experience and after that they became Absolute prats #like basically what caused their villain origin stories #and i was like oh my god am i gonna turn out like them?? is my friend's ex girlfriend responsible for my villain arc?? #and i have felt myself becoming more negative and unhappy and cynical and bitter over the past few months #and i was like fuckkkkkk no i can't enter my mike baldwin terry duckworth era #bc before whenever a remotely bad thing happened i would just disappear and go back to telling myself there is nothing good with the world #so like for every job i never got and for every time i put something in the group chat and no one replied and every time i made something #and no one cared about it i would just sink deeper into some hole of hatred at the world #i mean. the rsd. like I'd still react to stuff in that way when i was younger and happier but at least back then I'd also #wave at cool clouds and smile at people in public and be like ''fuck i woke up too early and now i Have to take a photo of the sunrise'' #but now i don't do any of that I'm just some bitter cynical bitch who hates everything #so yeah. my 2024 resolution was to reclaim the whimsy i lost at the end of 2022. and so far it's not really going well but at least I'm not #23 anymore #ramble

[kneworder]

been having a meltdown the past few days i finally got back in the country but my bag didn't come with me and it contains four months worth of clothes but significantly more importantly every single christmas gift i've bought while abroad and lufthansa has been dicking me around for days. like why did you send my bag to a different state. why has it been there since 2:30pm yesterday. like i'm literally genuinely begging you we have to do christmas a day early bc of my brother's flight home and i have two dinky gifts i fit in my carry on one of which is a gag gift like fuck you guys for real i just want my bag!!!!!!!!!!!

#i've called baggage services 9 times today and talked to someone 4 and every time they say there's gonna be something #and i'm gonna get an email #and then i don't get an email #my bag needs to fly to my original destination but there were FIVE FLIGHTS THAT WAY today!!!! one of which i KNOW it could have fit on #and when i asked if i could get it onto that flight they said if i could i'll get an email #and then my airtag didn't move and i got no email #like what am i supposed to do #i have been looking forward to christmas all year it's my favorite holiday #and my brother's getting old enough that i'm always nervous the next one will be the last one we're all together as the four of us #and it's really been fucking with me like i feel so guilty bc i know my parents feel terrible #and i'm just radiating misery about this and it's bringing everyone a little down #but like i just want my bag!!! fuck!!!! i should have had it three days ago!!!!!!!! why is it so hard!!!!! #IT DIDN'T MOVE ONCE TODAY #first year where i have multiple gifts for everyone and got my shopping done early and they do this to me.

[malusienki]

it’s weird because i consider polish my second language due to my lack of skill in reading and writing in it, but, technically i was raised speaking both english and polish ever since i was born.

#what constitutes a second language? #shitpost #it’s like the other question i have: what constitutes home? where you were born or where you were raised? #<- guy raised in 4 different states #oh but i’m not going to go out there and say polish is my first language. i am terrible at polish outside of speaking . my grammar is poor #i can kinda read and kinda write #my 2 years of polish school carrying my ass lol

[githvyrik]

this is fully just a matter of personal taste but what’s with all these fantasy games with “realistic” graphics exclusively giving you shit ugly hairstyle options in character customization

#what’s up with that. #I didn’t care much when it was just dark souls because those games are supposed to be like. gross and yucky #so if the hair is ugly that makes sense and it’s also funny to put a silly weird medieval style on your character #but then cyberpunk obviously tried to make the hairstyles cool and they were all ugly #baldur’s gate 3 has like 6 Hot People face presets depending on if you pick an elf or human or dwarf or whatever #and yet all the hairstyles are super ugly #like???????? oh my god I’m terrible at hair it’s one of my weakest areas when it comes to art but I WILL DO A BETTER JOB #what serves to baffle me about it more is that modders make other hairstyle options that are infinitely better #and more interesting than the base game #so like????????????????? what is the issue #skyrim also has ugly hairstyles but at least that game is like 10 years old. and 8 years old. and 6. and 4. and 2. and

[ginaporterr]

less than two hours left in the day and my anniversary post isn't made yet.........

#i've been thinking about this for MONTHS can't believe my terrible time management #if i post it tomorrow just pretend it's not late #i actually might have to post this weekend bc i'm gonna be busy as hell the next 2 days between wedding season and work 😭 #everyone just pretend the day i post is nov 8th for my sanity ty for your consideration SJDHJDSF #BUT ANYWAYS 4 YEARS CAN YOU BELIEVE #lives were changed #i still vividly remember refreshing an illegal streaming site since i didn't have cable at the time until it finally popped up #and i was hooked IMMEDIATELY #signed up for my d+ free trial on nov 12th expecting the rest of the season to be there only to discover it was a weekly release model #then annoyed my sister into setting up our free year of d+ asap just so i could watch this show 😭 #fun times #txt

[proonv]

i feel dizzy

#likw im just floating in water #i guess it doesn;t really matter and yet we do it all anyway #and we all die in the end and yet we try to live fully #thats ok i think. i think #its okay. theres nothing we can do about it anyways #and ill have you for a little while at least #that will have to be enough #vent #and yet i dont believe this. i want to live forever #go back to being 14. have so much of my life to live #now its just 3 years till im an adult. 4 more and im out of college. 3 more and its been a decade and everything has probably changed #hasnt it? #how awful. what a terrible thing this life is #to be human and to always want more and yet the same #to be human and humans must die #no one gets happy forever #it all comes and goes #like waves. drifting back and forth with my mind #it will all be over soon wont it. it doesnt matter at all #none of it does none of it ever did. i wish the world were that foolish #that happy endings werent just a thing of dreams #but i guess theres always gonna be a book. i can always just say that their story ended right there #where they always have the rest of their life to live #its nearly november ive lived life in a blur and that is no way to live life and yet. and yet.