#Anyways I shall stop now

[red-moon-at-night]

I find it so SO interesting that as soon as Kazui's breaking their marriage vows and revealing his true feelings (literally tearing apart the dove), the wife is already falling off the balcony

Her hair is fluttering in the wind. The apple fucking splatters on the ground this whole sequence is so visceral I'm spinning it around in my mind. Kazui views his truth telling as a violent act, the killing blow.

#milgram #capri talks #kazui mukuhara #Cat #I made a gif for this are you happy (I love this part way too much I would've made it anyway) #I have... thoughts about this which Scare me but. For now... I am going to assume in good faith that this must be taken figuratively and #symbolically because that's the most obvious interpretation right. right guys??? *one fear* #*looks at the voice drama which starts with how he's never gone up against a woman as strong as him until kotoko* #*looks at the line 'it’s generally the heavier person who ends up winning.'* #*looks at that one frame in Cat at 2:33 where he's holding her back* #DONT MIND ME IM JUST DELIBERATING I want him to be innocent I want things to be simple but I'm so worried of being hoodwinked-- #--when the guy literally emphasises sleight of hand tricks and magicians and disappearing acts in his MV :'D #when he literally has a 'son of man' painting reference (man w/apple in front of face) #I am going to stop talking or else I shall combust into a million pieces #analysis #described

[yourlocalgrass]

I’m bored and thought of another scenario to put in tension and angst for obey me characters to go through. I like this one by the way.

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Sorcerers’ society find out the causes of earthquakes happening faster than usual was MC due to their magic potential (MC being the cause of all the natural ‘phenomenon’ in S2) and now want to investigate MC and call them in.

Drama has already started baby.

Solomon who’s against this but goes with MC to make sure they’re ok because it’s not a good idea to ignore a seemingly threat invitation I mean.

It’s explained the Ring of light was used to console MC’s magic and everything is fine now but they’re doubting it and want to investigate the Ring of light for themselves, if it’s actually successfuly tamed their magic or just a temporary device to tone it down- simply meaning if MC’s overflow of magic would still be leaking and not fully restrained.

[Also add overprotective Solomon drama who’s against this because that’s hot and more dramatic]

It’s found out the ring of light isn’t powerful enough to completely prevent MC’s magic from overflowing and now…

The sorcerers’ society have deemed MC a threat. A large threat to the human world.

Who would be better off dead. No. SHOULD be dead.

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「If only the story actually did have good drama like this~

Anyways I’m just describing the scenario since I can’t write at all lol if I had enough confidence I probs would haha」

#This idea sprouted from me just wanting to know more about lore the devs have trashed to the side #Like SPILL THE TEA what happened between Solomon and those lot #I feel like we’ll never get to expand on it other than the vague description we got #anyways back to this there’s so many more ideas that’s filling my brain I might write part two #also I only thought of this yesterday out of nowhere #actually while thinking back on S3 #now I can stop ranting in the tags #obey me #obey me swd #obey me shall we date #obey me scenarios #obey me headcanons #obey me headcanon #obey me mc #obey me solomon #If I am going to write a part two it’s gonna include the other characters

[nattikay]

saw a stock photo of a cougar with an absolutely gorgeous face pattern and just HAD to turn it into a character. not sure what to call him yet...

#my art #the design was a bit trickier than i anticipated #the animal in the photo only really had the silver on his face while the rest of his body was regular tawny #but that looked kinda goofy in the flat-markings style; his head looked out of place #so i tried incorporating highlights of silver fur elsewhere while still keeping it minimal #to make it more cohesive while still matching the photo that inspired it #but was really struggling to make it look good #finally i just stopped trying to be faithful to the photo (except for the face of course) #and the more i embraced the silver the better he looked #so now he is a mostly silver cougar ig ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #anyways #lowkey tempted to make him myla's mate or smth....we shall see

[mari-lair]

some of you are too comfortable on Anon so I am disabling it from my asks for now, chill.

#i love asks truly i do! I adore when people show interest in aus or arts or analysis or canon BUT #don't vent on my inbox?? #or ask things that will put me on fire when you KNOW I can't reply privately to Anons?? #or give me 'reasons why i shouldn't like' someting I explicitly love? #ugh #...honestly idk if i am just anxious from a long day and misinterpreting some of these cause one was *explicitly* antagonistic #and another gave me twitter flashbacks #but i am just deleting them i am too old to argue with what might as well be a kid #i'll bring anon back tho is just for now i usually love anons #i got a lot of old ones i haven't replied to yet anyways so i shall stop procrastinating on that

[dribs-and-drabbles]

I'm not able to write anything coherent right now but that was perhaps the best ep of the series. It was just gorgeous...in a rip-your-heart-out-and-wring-it-dry kind of way.

I loved so much about it. Li Ming's mum and how they're both so different from their characters in My School President. A+ acting. Li Ming's tired but defiant "so what?". The siblings and how Jam is almost like a child herself still. UNCLE FU*KING TONG. Please, I'm wheezing! The conversation between Leng and Li Ming, how positive Leng is about everything that should be terrifyingly crushing, and Li Ming refusing the cigarette. THE WHOLE CONVERSATION BETWEEN JIM AND WEN IN THE CONDO. (Sometimes these 'flexing for equality' dialogues can feel forced but this one was so great.) So casual. So real. God, Mix just hits the right tone. The sniff-kiss was fantastic but I think I'll about lose my mind when Jim tells Wen to call him phi or Jim rather than lung/uncle. The whole Ar/Lung and subsequent teasing between Leng and Gaipa (and yes I had to pause the video to check how far apart the years of the horse and monkey are). But the heartache. The heartache for Mrs Hong's death. My god Khaotung knocked it out the park this ep. (I tell you, this was not an easy ep to watch after having been to my uncle's funeral yesterday, so thank you Aof for that.) Crying. AND THEN HEART'S PARENTS SIGNING WITH HEART. I couldn't see for the tears. And I'm sorry but there's a special place in hell for people like Beam's father/parents and they can BURN in it. And then Li Ming and Jim talking bonding in front of the diner, and Li Ming lost for words (Fourth does this so well). I didn't even care that there was singing (of course there was singing, is this not a Thai ql?!) because Khaotung Khaotunged his way through it and made me cry again (at this point I hadn't really stopped though).

And then in the end it was all about endings and new beginnings for all the characters - Jam with the prospect of her new marriage; Alan forging a new life for himself at home without Wen there; Heart reconnecting with his parents (and them with him); Leng literally bringing a new life into the world soon; Jim deciding to give up his diner; Wen finally cutting ties with Alan and hoping he can start a new relationship with Jim; Li Ming choosing to not go and live with his mum (and eventually to go to America); and Giapa being forced to say goodbye to his mother.

@shortpplfedup wrote something about how the sudden death of someone puts things into perspective for people. Whilst that is true (I had a sleepless night last night grappling with Thoughts brought up by my uncle's sudden death), I would say that for these characters all these things were inevitable anyway. They were all going to happen because they had already been on those paths - the funeral maybe just gave them a bit of a push. But that's perhaps what nini meant.

Anyway, 10/10. I can't wait to see the glorious new beginnings that await them (and us) in tomorrow's ep.

#moonlight chicken #I had way more to say than I thought I would #once I start I can't stop...much like that savoury snack #but it's way past my bedtime so I shall stop now #this was just a fantastic ep #I cried. a lot #I thought about my dear petty who was so hopeful that mrs hong wouldn't die #but one look at khaotung's face when he exited the hospital room told me she had #I was gone when he said she was gone #anyway... #wasn't I supposed to be going to bed...

[ninawolv3rina]

Look out below!

OC: Cass Carver/X-Spider (She/Her)

#spidersona #xmen #wolverine #my art #my characters #Cass carver #x-spider #hhhh and with that I’ve wrapped all my strong ideas for this character #I’ll probably have more soon but for now this is it #yeah i basically said here’s five pieces of a character i just came up with now i shall stop posting for a week whoops #anyway #bye #lol

[svtskneecaps]

listen in the grand scheme of things i'm glad i let myself get back into minecraft content for this. like i haven't touched a minecraft series since like 2014, on purpose, but i saw clips of qsmp in march 2023 and thought, screw it. maybe it's time. and i don't regret it yknow? i saw multilingual server and thought 'that looks AWESOME' and it certainly didn't disappoint. my only regret is that everything went crazy and people logged off RIGHT when everyone finally started relying on the live translations more, which was something i've been dreaming of for months lmfao. all in all, just happy to be here. this stuff gave me new reasons to use my blog.

hell if this is actually an end or even just a pause maybe i can FINALLY write my FUCKING TIME LOOP FIC JESUS FUCKING I'VE BEEN COOKING THAT STUPID FUCKING THING SINCE LIKE MAY LIKE I WAS ON THE FUCKING FIELD AT MY COLLEGE GRADUATION CEREMONY WAITING TO WALK THE STAGE AND GET MY DIPLOMA AND I WAS WRITING THE FIRST STUPID CHAPTER OF IT LIKE GENUINELY BUT I PUT IT ON HOLD BC THINGS KEPT HAPPENING AND I WAS LIKE I SHOULD UNDERSTAND THE BIG PICTURE SO I CAN ACTUALLY PLAY WITH IT PROPERLY BC THE MOST FUN I HAVE WITH TIME LOOP AUS COMES FROM KNOWING EVERYTHING AND MESSING WITH HOW SIMPLE ACTIONS CAN ALTER THE PROGRESSION OF EVENTS AND CHANGE CHARACTER CHOICES LOGICALLY BC THAT STUFF'S COOL BUT I DIDN'T KNOW LIKE THE MYSTERY OF THE FEDERATION OR WHATEVER AND I WANTED TO SEE WHERE THAT WAS GOING SO I COULD SEE WHETHER I WANTED TO TOSS IT OR ALTER IT OR KEEP IT AND SEE NOW I'LL KNOW YKNOW AND NOW I CAN JUSTIFY SHIT LIKE "OH HEY PURGATORY'S HAPPENING IN JUNE THIS TIME BC I WANT THE BREAKFAST TRIO TO EXIST FASTER AND FUCK YOU" WITHOUT IT FEELING TOO WEIRD AND ALSO STUFF LIKE CODE LORE AND ALL THIS OTHER NONSENSE LIKE DAMN WOULD BE PRETTY COOL I MEAN ONE SINGLE FUCKING INTERACTION BETWEEN SLIME AND MARIANA COULD SEND ME CAREENING DOWN A PATH PREVIOUSLY THOUGHT UNIMAGINABLE I COULD MAKE THIS FIC THAT'S BEEN SIMMERING SINCE LAST MAY A REALITY I COULD DO IT THIS COULD FIX ME. THIS COULD FIX ME

but yeah i'm glad i allowed myself to get invested in this server. i think y'all are cool, and i think the admins did amazing with everything they were given even though they shouldn't have been given it the way they were, and the ccs were cool and i'm glad everything happened yknow. maybe things will keep happening and maybe not but yknow what. i became All Powerful. i started watching as someone who knew english and some french and now i am someone who knows english (100%), slightly more french (like 70%), a workable understanding of spanish (like 40%) and a slightly less workable understanding of portuguese (like 20%) they added german to nerf me specifically. they knew i was getting too powerful. yeah, i spent some time as a kpoppie, i have a tiny miniscule understanding of korean (5%) german i have 0 experience with they added german to nerf me and then this happened to nerf me further. make no mistake they cannot stop me. i will become all powerful.

like cmon. if it ends here it was never all bad. i don't even have to use google translate to understand roier shittalking in the chat. i can just read it. i couldn't do that before :D and i can make my chilean friend keysmash bc she's not used to me knowing any spanish at all

we've grown strong over the year, haven't we? i hope we will continue to, no matter what :D

#qsmp #shut up vic #block game brainrot #yippee!! #i don't think this is a 'so long and thanks for all the fish' moment to be honest #but perhaps! #hmm i tried not to make this a goodbye post since idk the future #if any of our wonderful admins see this thank you very very much for your hard work!! #you truly made this server; its memories are all yours :D thank you for everything #long post #it was really nice to be part of an active tumblr community #i don't think i've ever been active in a fandom that was as passionate as this one #i learned a lot and i've had a lot of fun! even when it's a shitshow lmao #yea anyway lmao i should send this i think i should stop looking at it #this is long and rambly and silly sorry for the wall of text and especially the all caps part #maybe someday that fic will exist but i gotta be better Cultured yknow #accents are hard to write i must Study ✍️ perhaps i shall do MUCH vod crawling now that i'm not distracted by oodles of live content >:D #see! silver lining #IDK I NEED TO SEND THIS LOVE YOU GUYS SORRY THIS IS A MESS

[baeshijima]

once again

i hate it here

#sophie’s idle chatter #I NEED TO STOP DOING THINGS THE LITERAL NIGHT BEFORE MY GOD #in my defense... on saturday i was watching true beauty with my mum and today we were watching singles inferno... its her rare days off.... #but anyway the presentation obliterated me. 7 mins of self recorded audio and i had to reduce some bc it went over ;w;; #AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON HOW IMOVIE WOULDNT SAVE IT AS AN AUDIO FILE AND I SPENT A WHOLE ASS HOUR TRYING TO MAKE THE VIDEO FILE AN AUDIO #AND THE FACT IM MAD BC I COULDNT EVEN DO THE GENSHIN EVENT BC I BARELY STARTED FURINAS QUEST BUT I HAD TO DO WORK AND OIUERI #TEARING MY HAIR OUT IM SO OVER THIS BUT ITS DONE I DONT HAVE TO THINK ABT IT ANYMORE #now i just... need to do my ad poster due on the 15th... #but thats a week away— *gets slapped* #anyway bc its nearly 4 am i shall now slep 🫡

[leosmasktails]

Guys I’m in love with Donny Osmond’s voice it’s the most angelic thing ever

Like especially when he sang “Close Every Door” at Royal Albert Hall-

LIKE-

GIRLLLLLL

THAT BITCH BE ON REPEAT 24/7 365

#HIS BELT IS SO FUCKING CLEAN I SWEAR #THE “SHALL FIND’’ BELT MAKES ME SCREAM EVERY TIME #NEKDKDIDKDKD #I love men #leosmasktails #leosmasktails personal #donny osmond #leosmasktails ranting about dumb shit #Also my gay coworker has influenced my speech he’s my work best friend 😭 #Girl has become a part of my daily vocab it cannot be stopped #Ight this has been my weekly check in bye girlies I’ll be back in like another week 😭 #I’m so sorry about the lack of content college is fr kicking my ass so hard #Anyways I gotta go to bed so I can get up at like 6:30 💀 #I need Winter Break right now holy fuck

[qroier]

cellbit saying he wants a short live today and meanwhile he's literally still streaming at 2 am his time

#fhskdjsk i thought he'd already ended a while ago #the update accounts havent been posting anything since roier stopped by and sent some bits saying good night jose jose #speaking #cellbit #side note that no one will see probably but the swfty and tripoier overlap is insane #i'm seeing a bunch of people live tweeting the new ts album on my timeline right now and i only follow qsmp people 😭 #shall not be commenting my ts opinions mainly cause i have none anyway sorry boa noite gonna go keep procrastinating on assignments

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[redrockbutch]

I know everyone hates The Power of Positive Thinking on this webbed site bc it's so often used to dismiss serious structural or societal issues but tbh I wonder if it's a branding issue. Will enjoying the spring breeze or thinking about things you like about yourself fix your entire life? No, probably not.

But what do you think a commitment to negativity is doing for you? Do you really think it's helping? After a certain point, constantly and aggressively acknowledging the negativity serves no purpose, especially in your own mind. If you already know you're miserable, why does it require so much enforcing? Why not try something else and see what happens?

Why not let yourself enjoy what you can?

#I have worried a lot in my life that I'm not enjoying things enough as I did them and that must mean I was incapable of True Happiness #turns out it's easier to notice unhappiness etc bc I put a name to it #'I don't enjoy this. I hate this. I'm uncomfortable. I'm in pain' #never did that for positive things and now I try to #just saying 'this is nice' when things are nice makes that feeling surge #it's so easy to feel like negativity is more realistic but it isn't and I was obliterating my ability to enjoy things by not giving them th #same fanfare as I did when I was unhappy #turns out i gotta speak its name and it shall appear #and stop constantly thinking about everything wrong with me. turns out that makes you unhappy #I already know my issues no need to beat the dead horse. I'm working on them and that has to be enough #cassidy.txt #I have to write these things or I'll forget forever #but the past week has been really nice bc I let myself call it nice #anyways let's call it the skeleton blast of negativity that you should avoid. will that help.

[per-aspera-ad-aporia]

i started writing (fiction) again! after so long. it feels so nice. i have tiny inklings of stories, and i wish i knew how they ended—so i suppose i'll have to find out. (i hope i can.) (not now, however, as it is 1.20 am and tomorrow [today] is a working day.)

i also found a stupid (affectionate) short piece i wrote in 2020 (during lockdown, when i should have been writing my thesis) and damn, i used to have skills.

#also!! the unstoppable force of me wanting to showwwww my scraps and thoughts to my friendsssss #vs the immovable object of fearing they're too busy/annoyed with me/don't think of me as a close enough friend to pay attention to me #HOWEVER! unfortunately (affectionate) they are my muses and i am (more than a lot) imagining them reading my stuff—out loud #<- a scary and highly premature confession #anyway. i shall stop rambling incoherently and crawl into bed now #paaa

[gaytobymeres]

i miss the filmhouse :(

#literally the state of the arts in the uk is so fucking tragic #thats all i shall say rn or i wont be able to stop #anyway #also edinburgh now being so prohibitively expensive that it has ceased being acceptable for the vast majority #what is fringe about it anymore? #*affordable not acceptable. my brain is tired and I’ve had whisky so forgive me

[familiarache]

what if i make a playlist but its literally just 'u/ryu pining after hime and ichi'

#out. #also i feel like this is a uhhh hilarious thing to state but #when i first started writing on tumblr in 2011 #my very first rp blog ever. was in a b/leach rpg #and it was r/yuken #so my uhhh thing for tall douchey guys w glasses and also white haired bitches has uhhh never left #neither did my thing for gingers tbh #started w his dad and now im here lmao #what tf was i even in 2011 i think i was like.... fifteen or some shit #iiiiiiiiii cant do math lol #bibis knew me tho #on og site we shall not name anymore #not on tumbs #i think the second b/leach char i wrote the longest for was actually l/oly #bc none of the rpgs i joined EVER had u/ryu free but he was all i rly wanted and i didnt join the indie scene rly until after i mostly #stopped writing manga stuff for the most part #i had a bl/each oc tho that shall remain not mentioned bc teen me was absolutely the worst but like #idk i might remake her at some point #and just be less absolutely a fucking menace bs teenager abt it lMAO anyways--

[maybeinanotherworld]

you know, having anxiety sucks and all but i honestly think the worst part of it is how fucking embarassing it is, like...the situations that trigger my anxiety are so fucking stupid

you guys I spent TWO WEEKS losing sleep over having to do a blood test because for some reason I was scared I wouldn't bring my health card (it is on my phone how would I forget!!) or something stupid like that and the front desk person at the lab would call me an idiot and then I wouldn't be able to do it and then my doctor would call me stupid for missing a blood test and then also somehow I would get diagnosed with leukemia and then die- I cannot do this anymore this is so fucking embarrassing

#i think that i would make an excellent doomsday prepper #because what the fuck are these scenarios #anyway the Get Scared disease is fucking stupid!!! #stop it!!! get some help!!! #i am waiting to do the test right now lol we shall see how it goes #god no one ever talks about how having anxiety is just embarassing smh #how am i supposed to explain this bs to people #anxiety #mental health #cw medical #tw medical #cw blood #cw cancer mention #tw cancer mention #abby's anecdotes #IT TOOK TWO MINUTES #all i had to do was go 'here's my requisition and my health card :)' #and they were like #'cool go take a seat' #i fucking hate this #this is so embarassing #i am okay btw guys this is lowkey kind of funny #please do not worry i am fine