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sivyera · 7 months

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TWILIGHT characters as love tropes

ft. carlise, esme, emmet, rosalie, edward, jasper, alice, jacob, seth, leah, paul, charlie, bella

a/n: with songs to each character

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⤷ Carlisle Cullen - rich love

Carlisle is a very rich man which means he will spoil you a lot. Not only with expensive gifts but also with a lot of attention and affection.

Every time when he gets home from work, he welcomes you with a kiss and warm hug.

When he has a day off, he will cook with you (even tho he cannot eat it, it's just about the time he can spend with you) or you will lay on his lap with his hand stroking your hair and book in his other hand, reading to you.

Every Friday he will take you to a fancy restaurant and than for a slow walk around the nearest park.

On your birthday or on International Women's Day (or any other 'special' day) he will spoil you even more than on normal days. Expensive jewelry, perfumes, clothes, shoes,...

He will bring you flowers at least once every two weeks. And every July he will take you on vacation and you can choose where.

Lolita - Lana Del Rey

⤷ Esme Cullen - falling in love fast

Esme is such a kind soul so it's no surprise that you two fell in love with each other fast.

She will take you on a date every Saturday. Mostly coffee dates are her favourite. The two of you can talk for hours while drinking delicious coffee.

She will also enjoy baking with you (even tho she cannot eat/taste them)

She has many polaroids with you on them or with the both of you on them and has them hang in her closet or the small table beside her bed.

She loves when you paint her nails and massage her legs and she will always return the favor.

She loves sunny days but because she's a vampire and her skin sparkle on the sun, she cannot go out where people can see her, BUT she can go somewhere private like meadow or forest where you two can be alone and on the sun!

Sofia - Clairo

⤷ Emmett Cullen - he fell first and harder

Emmett was absolutely over the moon when you two started dating, because he knew from the start that you two are just meant to be.

He loves, loves, LOVES when you sit on his lap. He doesn't care if you are stroking his hair or doing make-up on him, he just want you in his lap, so he can embrace you with his big arms and muscular body.

He'll dance goofily around the bedroom with you to some catchy hip-hop songs he has found.

He loves cuddling with you especially when he can be the big spoon, because he likes how tiny you're compared to him.

Matching pyjamas and make polaroids in those pyjamas, which happens to be one of his favourite memory and polaroids.

He doesn't really like reading books but he always wants you to read to him, because he loves your voice.

She's Kinda Hot - 5 Seconds of Summer

⤷ Rosalie Cullen/Hale - you fell first but she fell harder

Rosalie has trust issues and trauma because of her past so she wouldn't fall in love easily nor fast, but trust me when she does fall in love; she loves hard.

She loves having spa day with you which includes face masks, painting nails, shared warm bath and much more.

She will take you to the mail shopping almost every day and will buy you everything you look at.

She doesn't like much PDA but she will hold your hand in public but if she gets jealous, she will show the person she's jealous off who you belong to.

She doesn't show it to others just you, but she loves cuddles. She loves when you lay next to her, face to face so she can see your beautiful face.

She's also very protective over you, so if any guy or a girl makes you feel uncomfortable (or unsafe), tell her and she will make sure they won't approach you ever again.

Prey - The Neighbourhood

⤷ Edward Cullen - first and only love

Edward waited so many years for you, but it was worth it because he finally got you.

He loves when you kiss his forehead even tho he has to lean down because of your height difference, it makes him feel safe. Still his favourite place to kiss you is on your lips.

Edward will write poets for you and about you on small piece of paper and then put them somewhere in your room where you will notice them like your closet or on your book, laptop, notebook, pillow,...and he will bring you your favorite flowers right after the previous ones he gave you have withered.

He will also write songs about you (or for you) and then play them to you on the piano. Which he absolutely loves because you sit right next to him and look at him with those beautiful eyes of yours full of love. Edward cannot read your mind but he can sure read your eyes, the small spark and the love in them when you look at him, he just loves it!

Loves cuddling with you, his favourite position is when you lay on his chest or when he's the big spoon, face to face or hugging you from behind.

He loves having deep talks with you and he'll tell you about his childhood or about the time he was born in.

Follow You - Imagine Dragons

⤷ Jasper Cullen/Hale - unconditional love

Jasper can be sometimes insecure just as much as Edward, they even have similar reasons... Jasper is afraid of him hurting you, he's afraid that he won't be able to control himself around you, but your words of affirmation and gently touch will calm him down.

Jasper doesn't talk much, he rather listens and he loves listens to you. It doesn't matter what you are talking about, he just loves your voice.

He will take you for a horse ride because he loved it back when he was a human and because he was a cowboy, but you two will have to share the horse because he wants your arms around him.

At first he was a bit scared of cuddling with you (again because of his control) but soon as your hand went to his hair, he melted. Both of you realized how touch starved he's so now cuddling is an everyday thing.

Jasper is a gentleman like Edward or Carlisle so he will also bring you flowers every even week.

He'll read to you to make you fall asleep, because his smooth voice is like a lullaby to you. But if Jasper feels that you are anxious, he will calm you down with his gift and than talk to you what made you anxious, eventually he will cuddle you.

R U Mine? - Artic Monkeys

⤷ Alice Cullen - any universe

Alice (because of her gift) always knew you were the one, her one and only true love. So when she first saw you, she couldn't help but babbling to her adoptive siblings all day how amazing you are and how she's already in love with you.

She'll go to the mail with you and make small fashion show with you in the cabins with all the cute outfits she found for you and you for her.

She's mostly the small spoon (sometimes she is the big spoon but depends on the situation) while cuddling because she loves when you hold her in your arms and stroke her back.

Outside, in front of other people, she will always hold your whole arm, not just palm.

If you have trouble falling asleep, she will gladly sing to you while stroking your hair.

She'll buy matching clothes, jewerly or nail polish, because she loves when you two match your outfits or other accesories.

i wanna be your girlfriend - girl in red

⤷ Jacob Black - whatever it takes

Jacob is willing to do anything and everything for you, his imprint. He will kill for you, he will die for you, he will do just everything.

Jacob can be sometimes insecure because he isn't that rich like the Cullens and he thinks you deserve someone who will treat you like a queen, so once again he's willing to prove you that he's worthy of your love.

He'll make you a small wolf and your favourite flower out of wood and attached it into a bracelet, which he will eventually give you to your birthday.

He's also a big cuddle bug, because he's so warm will make you comfortable enough to fall asleep. He's most of the time the big spoon because he feels like he's protecting you but he doesn't mind to be the little spoon. Cuddling also leaves his scent on you so every vampire or shape-shifter (wolf) can smell who you belong to.

He'll take you on motorcycle rides. Also he will drop you at your school on his motorcycle and then he will pick you up. Also he'll let you ride on his back while he's in his wolf form.

Jacob doesn't like fancy restaurants, he prefers his or your bed with some snacks and movies, cuddling of course!

Galway Girl - Ed Sheeran

⤷ Seth Clearwater - love at first sight

Seth hoped that he will met his imprint someday and he heard from the others how amazing the feeling is to imprint on someone, but no one really prepared him to him because when he first saw you, your beauty hit him like a brick. And he finally understood the feeling because all he could see was you...

Seth will make sure you are always in a good mood with him, either he could tell you some stupid joke or cheesy pick-up line.

He maybe look like a cute baby but don't let his cute face fool you because he won't hesitate to kill for you, so it makes him really protective over you.

In his wolf form he's like a big puppy but only to you and he loves giving you piggy back rides in his wolf form.

Cuddling really depends on his mood; if he's in good mood he will be the little spoon with his head placed on your lap; if he's in a bad mood (mostly when he's jealous) he'll be the big spoon to show others that he can protect you.

He loves baking with you but he's clueless so he will just stand there and watch you or mix some ingredients, often sneaks up a kiss on the cheek while baking.

Dandelions - Ruth B.

⤷ Leah Clearwater - enemies to lovers

At first Leah hated the fact that she actually had a imprint, so she would try to stay away from you as much as possible and when she couldn't; she would have some nasty comments towards you, but it hurt her as hell when she saw how sad she made you or worst insecure.

She tried hard to stay away from you but she failed, miserably. She needed you, she needed to be with you, so she will explain everything to you same as she would apologize for her acting.

Very protective of you, anyone could just try and test her patience.

At first she wouldn't want you to be near her while she was in her wolf form because she was much bigger and stronger so she was afraid that she could hurt you, but she became a sucker for scratches behind her ear.

Seth will often tease his big sister because she's really soft when it comes to you, which makes Leah give Seth few playful slaps.

When it comes to cuddling, Leah is the big spoon because she has the urge to protect you and being the big spoon makes her feel like she's protecting you in you sleep.

Running With The Wolves - AURORA

⤷ Paul Lahote - rough love

With the term 'rough love' i mean that Paul is passionate lover and is willing to do anything for his imprint, you.

Paul isn't very patient when it comes to people but you are an exception. Still he's aggressive when someone push his buttons but you are always here to drag him away and calm him down.

Just a single touch and Paul's full attention is on you. Which brings me to the fact that he turns into a puppy when you touch him, your touch is just to comforting.

He's the big spoon because he feels like he protects you and it makes his scent stay on you.

He can get jealous very easily, he trusts you but he doesn't trusts the others and he doesn't want any boys or girls too close to his imprint.

Loves everything you cook or bake and will always eat everything.

Overprotective, if any vampire even dare to touch you, he'll kill him.

Little Freak - Harry Styles

⤷ Charlie Swan - old love

Charlie is old school but still a huge gentleman.

He will bring you flowers every time you had a bad day and some chocolates when you had a good day to make it even better.

He loves watching old movies or crime/detective movies with you, with his arm around your shoulder.

When he has day off, you two will go on a picnic date which always ends up with you laying on his chest while he's telling you some stories from work.

Every time you bring him a lunch into his police office, he will welcome you with a warm, thankful smile and thank you with a kiss on your cheek.

He will protect you even more than before, when he finds out that there are vampires and werewolfs (shape-shifters).

Burning Love - Elvis Presley

⤷ Bella Swan - teenage love

Bella will be awkward and nervous when she first spoke to you, because you were just too beautiful to be real. But to her surprise she made you fall in love with her which made her so, so happy.

First attempts of trying to cuddle with her or just show her simple romantic affection were awkward because she was just to nervous, eventually she will warm up and feel more comfortable.

She find our that you touch calms her anxiety and nervousness so whenever she's nervous or anxious she will just hold your hand and squeeze it gently.

Charlie was very happy that his daughter found someone like you, which made Bella even more happy when she saw how you, the love of her life and her father get along.

Often having sleepovers at her house when Charlie has night shifts, which always leads to matching face masks and cuddles.

Kisses on the cheek are her favourite, because she can easily turn and give you small peck on your cheek and visa versa.

Electric Love - BØRNS

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theharrowing · 1 year

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i'm not even an earth sign, but i support the pettiness. i feel people should be more grateful that some of us don't get these asks, because i know at least ten of us who would have set fire to this website.

i appreciate you! i agree, they need to be more appreciative.

😤😤😤

#monvante #i love my moots #especially the lovely Bella #you've got mail 💌

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heich0e · 2 years

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Hmmm you call suna a whore but have admitted that there are many things that make you ‘feel slutty’ - is this the string of faith that keeps you two attached? 🖤

im going at the red string with a hacksaw

#tying him up with the red string and leaving him in the woods #like bella in new moon #just on the ground #liv got mail

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inkykeiji · 2 years

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ciao clari ! come stai? <3

buongiorno anon!! <33 sto bene, tho i am extremely tired. how are you?

#waaaaaaah i only know the most basic phrases in italian im sorry >.<#i am very used to 'ciao bella!!!' said with emphasis on the iao and ell-la hehe #hehehe but i'm good for the most part!! just suuuuper sleepy #i only got three hours of sleep last night ._.#i hope you are well anon!!!<33 #stay safe and have a wonderful day!! and drink water pls!!#inky.bb #clari gets mail

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riboism · 2 years

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hot pink for the ask game :)

hi lu!!

hot pink— what’s your favorite relationship trope?

kinda basic but I love me a good enemies to lovers 😫

also idk how well to describe this but I love when one person is the dull, grumpy, and moody type and they fall in love with someone who’s super bubbly and lively…yeah that does it for me every time

#thinking Jess and Nick from new girl #they were my Bella and Edward ♥️#thank you for the ask :)#[📫 ] you’ve got mail #[💌] mimgis

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m3r1m4r5u333 · 14 days

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Buddie really is all about playing Scrabble, guys. Let's rearrange HILDY, and play it "on Scrabble"!

....

Chris: HILDY? Are we getting Hildy 😁?!

Eddie, scared: No, we are definitely not!

....

What could HILDY be? Play Scrabble. Rearrange the letters. Y hid L! "You hid love". That's the love story of buddie, "buddies".

Scary love. Hidden love. The kind you avoid admitting. Even to yourself.

Because it sparks between two men. Two "straight" men. Men who just telling themselves they are... Allies.

And because it's the kind of love that freaks you out anyway - falling for a friend. A buddie.

And because you've already experienced grief, and are scared to love again.

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Buck and Chris are playing video games. It looks super domestic, like a little family.

Then Eddie freaks out about talk of "Hildy" and disconnects the game from the server.

Chris: "😐 Buck, can we go to your place and play video games?"

Buck: "Uhh sorry, kid. I think we're gonna be playing it "old school" for a while...

Chris: "What's "old school"?

Buck: ...Have you ever heard of Scrabble?"

Rearrange the "letters", folks. ✉️🎬 See what "HILDY" is. Moments out of order, love that's still hiding.

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Eddie: Somehow, we became a ready-made family... And I... I don't know if I'm ready for that.

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Buck: Eddie. I have been Ana. I know what it's like to be in love with someone who is not all the way in.

...Deep down you know it, and it hurts. It hurts worse than the truth. So if you don't want to hurt Ana, you owe it to her to be honest.

...

Eddie: I don't know. Just feels like a lot, man!

Buck: Well. Go to sleep. No need to decide right now! It's not like we're going home anytime soon!

...

Then these two themes that come up, repeatedly."I see you"/"I don't even know what that means!"

"Isn't that what we all want in a partner, to be seen?"

(Lola threatening to jump off a bridge, next to a sign she made: "SEE ME NORMAN!")

"Lola! Lola honey, it's me! I'm here. And I see you, just like the sign says!"

"Liar! You look right through me, Norman. You don't even notice me!

I'm just around to... To collect the mail!" (Or... Male? Go listen to the very queer love triangle coded song Copacapana by Barry Manilow. There's a famous "Lola"...)

"I don't even know what that means! ... I'm the one who brings in the mail?

... I see you, Lola! I notice you!"

.....

(The song lyrics: Don't go chasing waterfalls... Please stick to the lakes and the rivers you're used to...)

To Buck, still in the closet: "Don't go chasing waterfalls, Buck!"

Buck: "I don't even know what that means!"

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That scene with closeted Tommy:

He's asked if he's ever considered that maybe he is more "team Jacob" than "team Bella"?

Tommy: I don't even know what that means!

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Then the concept of finding true love, and cherishing it.

"Love, actually... is all around..."

Buck, Actually:

Thomas: "He can't go! He's my heart, my everything...

Thomas: ... When we got married? We thought what the hell. We have so little life left. Might as well live it.

That was Mitchell - always daring the clock. And I, always following along. All those foolish things we did... We only ever wanted to go together. That's love.

Buck: "I guess I can only hope to find something that good."

Thomas: "You don't find it son, you make it."

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Thomas dies of broken heart syndrome.

Buck: "....That's love!"

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And then love being SEEING. "I c u."

The scrabbled letters we've been watching, of falling in love, stupidly, in the closet.

Falling for a friend, not realizing it. Refusing to admit it.

Hiding it, even from yourself. Being afraid to see it. Running from it... The way you really feel about this "buddy".

Their almost instant connection, promising to have each other's backs:

Here's Eddie, having a panic attack at the fire station in the dark due to a power shortage. Looking at Buck as his most current girlfriend, Ana, says this line:

Buck's line about looking good even in bad lighting, the first day they meet.

Now, many of these scenes are from Buck's episode Buck, actually. An obvious reference to the movie Love, actually.

Quote from Love, actually;

"When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know, none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge – they were all messages of love.

If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually... is all around."

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That scene with the old men, deeply in love, dying together? The one left behind saying love is something you make, together. Saying love is everything. Saying life is short.

..…

Buck and Eddie. Buddie. The ship name really fits them. It's a love story but of "buddies", friends, falling for each other. Confused, scrambled. Playing Scrabble. Refusing to admit it.

Sometimes you fall like that. Sometimes love materializes in the dark, before you're ready for it. It scares you. It avoids your notice. You hide it, even from yourself.

But it's there, waiting to be discovered. A hidden treasure. Something precious to you, buried. And slowly, you open your eyes, see it, without flinching from it. Gather that courage. Even if it scares you... You open your eyes. Because you must. Because love is everything, and life is short.

#abc buddie #911 buddie #eddie diaz #buddie #evan buckley #buddie 911 #evan buck buckley #911 on abc #911 abc #tv: 911 #eddie díaz #Buddie actually #i see you #i'm not the gif wizard #Buddie is a Scrabble #abc 911 #tommy kinard

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akutails · 2 years

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"EX-GIRLFRIEND?" - dazai osamu

✁you find out where dazai gets his fix of fake bombs and love letters. based on this tweet abt bsd's untold tales. warnings : mentions of bombs, obsessed ex-girlfriend (?).

"you got the bomb from who?"

"i get them in the mail sometimes from this girl with notes, turns out that's her way of telling me she's obsessed."

you and kunikida could only stare in disbelief, blinking foolishly as dazai picks up the fake bomb that was used earlier for atsushi, the agency's new recruit, in his entrance exam.

"once i found out who it was, i told her to stop and that it wouldn't work out between us. besides, i wouldn't enjoy myself if i just kept receiving bombs everyday." dazai says casually, which ticks you off a bit, and which ticks kunikida off a lot.

"how could someone like him be a catch with women? what's so appealing about him?" kunikida mumbles but immediately straightens up and clears his throat when he feels your burning glare from behind his neck.

one of your eyes twitch at the way dazai nonchalantly carries the fake bomb under his arm, hoisted above by his hip while chatting along with atsushi and the others. how could he be so unserious about the fact that someone out there is obsessed with him and knows how to make or knows where to purchase fake bombs?

maybe you were just annoyed at the fact at how lowly he values his "romantic" relationships. well, you had no right to pry or judge the poor woman, you liked dazai osamu as well. at least you didn't send deadly firearms as a way to show your infatuation, right?

"i expected this reaction from kunikida, but from you, belladonna? why are you so worked up?" speaks the devil, wearing a sly smirk.

okay, maybe on second thought, leaving deadly things on dazai's front step is more appealing now.

"it's concerning, that's why," you sigh, crossing your arms while avoiding his teasing gaze, "what if she starts leaving real bombs? or maybe she knows you work for the agency. a lot of things could go wrong with your crazy exes."

"or maybe you're just jealous, bella."

you're this close to choking him. of course i'm not jealous. what kind of psycho gets jealous of having to get someone's attention using bombs?

"it's kind of impressive, actually. for a civilian, it's hard to find a supplier for these things, much less actually make them yourself."

now you're a bit jealous.

"just don't make it our problem. keep your insane ex-girlfriend to yourself." you spat, turning around to get back to your station when he tugs on your arm and pulls you back, pressed up against his chest and staring directly into his eyes.

he giggles at your flustered expression before dragging his index finger over your jaw and secures your chin with his thumb, smile widening at the warmth of your face.

"don't you worry, darling, you know you're the only one for me."

"w-what the fuck do you think you're doing?"

╰─▸ ❝ @[akutails]'s work is not open to reposts, plagiarism, and the likes. (09/02/22). taglist: @sips-tea-cutely

#✎-love letters #bungo stray dogs x reader #dazai x reader #bsd dazai osamu #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #dazai fluff #bsd dazai x reader #dazai osamu x reader #dazai imagines #bsd x reader #dazai bsd

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tropes-and-tales-archives · 4 months

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Whistle Down the Wind, Chapter Nine

Word Count: 2411

TW: Idiots in love, angst, major injury (talk of recovery), lots of feelings, I guess?, the barest mention of sexy times but nothing explicit.

AN: Part of a series. The series masterlist here.

It was awkward at first. You moved into Sonny’s tiny guest room. He tried to convince you to take his bed, but you refused: he was too tall for both the twin in the guest room and his couch, and you weren’t going to be comfortable anywhere anyway. He gave you every pillow he had to help prop up your broken leg and broken arm, fussing over you each night and clucking like a mother duck. It would have made you smile if you weren’t in so much pain.

Your doctors had sent you home with a generous amount of pain pills, but you reacted badly to them and rarely took them. You took ibuprofen and just weathered the pain. You only took the stronger stuff after your therapy appointments.

Sonny took you to most of your appointments. He took time off and long lunches when he had to work. When he couldn’t make it, he had a roster of people to fill in: Bella and Tommy, his parents, your bandmates. He had a phone tree of people ready and willing to help you.

One time, Sonny’s partner Amanda Rollins drove you to your therapy appointment. Sonny was stuck in court, so the petite blonde picked you up. She was gorgeous, and you felt like a complete slug sitting beside her in her car. You also felt a thin filament of jealousy coursing through you; you knew that Sonny spent a lot of hours with her, so the two of them being close was inevitable.

She was a complete charmer though. “Carisi talks about you all the time,” she said as she navigated the afternoon traffic to the rehab facility.

“I suppose having most of my bones broken and taking up his guest room would qualify as a fun topic of conversation,” you joked lamely, but the woman shook her head at this.

“No, he’s always talked about you, even before the accident.” She muttered a curse at the traffic in front of her and took a cross-street to avoid it. “I should thank you, actually. Carisi’s always playing new music that you recommend to him. My musical horizons have definitely expanded because of you.”

You smiled, and Amanda continued.

“You made him a playlist once after a tough case. He played it in the precinct late that night when we were wrapping up the paperwork. It was really great. Actually made me feel better when I didn’t think anything would.”

The two of you sat in silence for a moment. Then Amanda cleared her throat.

“You know, Carisi is sort of the optimist of the squad. The work we do…it can really make you bitter. But Carisi can always find a bright spot. But I think that you’re the one that helps keep him, well, sunny.”

She turned and glanced at you, and you looked back at her. “That’s not true,” you replied.

“It is, I think,” she said. “I know that when the two of you were…arguing, he wasn’t himself.”

You made a thoughtful hmm, but didn’t reply.

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Sonny was happy. It was tempered, of course, with the sorrow of seeing you in pain, but Sonny loved having you in his apartment. He loved rushing home at night to make you dinner; he loved driving you to your appointments and picking up your mail and refilling your prescriptions. He loved tucking you in at night, even if it was torture sleeping in a separate room from you.

He even loved the elaborate process of wrapping your casts in plastic bags before you took your awkward baths. You were oddly modest, and once your plaster was protected, you would cross your arms (awkwardly) and wait until he was out of the bathroom and the door was solidly shut. Then he spent the next hour listening to your mutters and curses as you tried to wash your hair one-handed.

He did hate seeing you in pain. He knew that you reacted badly to the pain meds, and you had refused to take them once you got released from the hospital. With nothing standing between you and the pain, you were only a shadow of your usual self. You slept poorly throughout the day, and your nights were sleepless as a result.

You had lost a lot of weight in the hospital, and despite Sonny’s attempts to tempt you with homemade pasta and sauces and desserts, you stayed thinner than you usually were. As a result of your lost weight, you were always cold: he wrapped you in his sweatshirts and blankets, and in the evenings, he’d pull you in against him and cuddle with you on the couch, hoping to share some of his body heat with you.

He was always careful with you. You were still healing, after all, and you had broken ribs on top of everything, so Sonny always made sure to snake a cautious arm around your shoulders, letting you settle against him until you were comfortable.

He was just happy to have you with him. Now that he had you, he wasn’t going to let you go.

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It took about a month after you were discharged from the hospital for your ribs and arm to heal. Your leg needed a little more time, but you graduated to a walking cast and were able to do more for yourself.

The driver who hit you was arrested, but more importantly, his insurance settled with you. You got a tidy sum, and it was enough to replace your cello – and then some.

The first weekend after you had the cast on your arm removed, Sonny drove you to a tiny storefront in Brooklyn. You spent several hours trying out various cellos (as well as your freshly healed arm). Armed with your settlement money, you finally selected a benchmade instrument made by Antonio Stradivari in 1712. It was made of Russian spruce with ebony fittings and fingerboards, and it’s sound was true and gorgeously mellow. It was love at first sound.

You played a variation on “Für Elise,” one of the first pieces you had learned to play as a kid. When you looked up, you saw Sonny leaning against the wall, gazing at you with a soft smile on his face. You couldn’t help but smile back.

The smile didn’t last, though.

As you healed, you had a lot of time to think. You thought about your parents and their history and your own childhood. You thought about how you had latched onto Bella and Sonny and their family as soon as you got to college. You thought about your life after college and what may lay ahead for you.

You also thought about Sonny. A lot. It was hard not to. He literally tucked you in at night after he stuffed you full of homemade food. He made every moment of your recovery as easy as humanly possible. You saw the way he watched you, and you knew what was coming next.

A few weeks after you bought your cello, you had your leg cast removed. Your physical therapy wound down as well, leaving you with at-home exercises that you did diligently to regain your lost strength. There was no reason to stay with Sonny any more – you could handle your own walk-up apartment, and you could navigate your way to any appointments that you had left.

You didn’t know if you would end up broaching the topic or if Sonny would. The evening after you had your leg cast removed, Sonny removed any doubt. You knew he was gearing up to ask you.

He outdid himself with dinner: his mom’s chicken parmesan, homemade pasta, and homemade tiramisu for dessert. He opened a bottle of wine and lit candles for the table. You felt sick to your stomach through the entire meal, and when Sonny led you to the couch to talk, you almost threw up altogether.

He sat on the couch, one of his long legs tucked underneath him, and you perched on the edge beside him. He reached out and took one of your hands in his, and you glanced over at him long enough to see him smiling at you, his blue eyes bright.

“So,” he started, but you couldn’t let him continue.

“Stop,” you interrupted him. You had to take a deep breath to try and collect yourself, and you felt his hand grasping yours firmly as he waited. “Sonny, I need to tell you something, but I worry that you’ll stop listening once I get the first part out.”

He reached out with his other hand and tilted your head so that you were facing him. His smiling face was replaced by one of concern, and you felt yourself tearing up. You didn’t want to hurt him, but it felt inevitable, like a freight train bearing down on you.

“Sonny,” you said, your voice shaky with emotion. “I know what you’re going to ask me, but I can’t. I’m….I’m still going to move to L.A.”

He dropped his hand from the side of your face, and he dropped his hold on your hand. You looked up and saw the pain written across his face and hated that you were the cause of it.

“I can’t ever repay you for everything you’ve done for me,” you continued. One tear, and then another, rolled down your face. You didn’t bother wiping them away.

“You don’t have to repay me,” he protested. “I did it because I love you.”

You nodded. “I know. And I love you too, Sonny. More than you know.”

He gave a bitter laugh. “Sure.”

“I do. I loved you from the moment I met you, and I’ve loved you more every day since then.”

“But I was too late,” he replied. “It took me too long…”

“No,” you shook your head vehemently at him. “Sonny, I’ve done nothing but think the past two months.” You reached out and took his hand in both of yours. “I grew up in a miserable home. My mother was bright and had a future ahead of her, but she settled into marrying my dad right out of high school. She grew to resent him, he resented her resentment. They made each other miserable and then had me, and then there were three miserable people living in that house. You’ve met them, Sonny. You’ve seen what a lifetime of resentment can turn you into.” You took a deep breath and continued.

“I need to take time for myself to see what I can do with my talent. If I go to L.A., even for a year, I can either make it or not. If I do, then that’s great. If I don’t, then I’ll never have to wonder ‘what if.’ I’ll never have this bitter resentment taking over my life when I’m older.”

Sonny didn’t answer, so you looked up at him and saw the tears in his own eyes. You couldn’t help but reach out and cup his face with your hand.

“Stretch, I don’t ever want to resent you,” you said softly. “And I don’t want you to ever feel obligated to me. You bounce from relationship to relationship, and I don’t want you to settle on me because I needed to be taken care of for a few months.” You gave him a weak smile. “You like to mother people, Sonny. You like to feel needed.”

He nodded and leaned into your touch, shutting his eyes. You were both silent – the only sound was the traffic outside of his window and the occasional murmur of other tenants in the hallway. “When are you leaving?” he finally whispered.

“In a week,” you replied. “I have a place sublet out there, and I have someone lined up to sublet my apartment here. I have meetings lined up for some projects out there already too.”

He nodded again, his eyes squeezed shut. A tear crept out from under his eyelid, and you reached up and wiped it away gently. “I was too late,” he whispered, his voice choked with tears.

“Oh, Sonny.” You leaned in and wrapped your arms around his neck, and he turned and pressed his face into the crook of your neck. “This isn’t goodbye. I just want a year out there to see what I can do on my own.”

You held him while he cried against you, and you cried too. You felt sick to leave him, and you felt awful to be hurting him, but you felt in the pit of your gut that this was the right thing to do. You didn’t want to turn into your mother: divorced, estranged from her only child, and bitter about what she could have been. And if you and Sonny were truly meant to be, then you’d find your way back to each other.

“Stay with me until you leave?” he asked, his breath hot against the bare skin of your neck, and you murmured your assent. He lifted his head to look at you, and you felt that sick feeling again. You could get lost in his eyes. It’d be so easy to change your mind and stay with him.

He closed the gap between you in a flash, capturing your mouth with his. You froze a second in surprise but then leaned into the kiss, relishing the feel of his soft lips against yours. It was better than you had ever imagined, in all the years you had pictured kissing him.

He kissed you until you were both breathless, and then he carried you into his room, lying you down and stretching out alongside you gently, mindful of your recent trauma.

With a few exceptions – him going to work, you tying up loose ends – you spent the rest of your week with him, in his bed and in his arms. After one particularly vigorous evening together that left you both panting and exhausted, you curled up against his bare chest with a heavy sigh.

“You’re just trying to convince me to stay,” you accused him, half-playfully but half serious. It would be so easy to just stay with him.

He huffed out a breath in mock offense, but then he reached down and grasped your jaw lightly in his hand until you were gazing up into his blue eyes.

“No,” he murmured, his voice full of feeling. “I’m trying to remind you of what’ll be waiting for you.”

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