#I HAVE AN AWFUL AWFUL HABIT OF FORGETTING TO POST ON THIS SITE.....

[pockyiistick]

Mina dump!! 👽👑💫

#bnha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #mha #mina ashido #mine #fanart #I HAVE AN AWFUL AWFUL HABIT OF FORGETTING TO POST ON THIS SITE.....

[madfantasy]

I haven't seen you post in a while, I hope you've been doing okay? How is everything? Hope it's been a good year so far for you 💕💕

You're too kind, u & everyone who made inquiries, bless ur hearts.. im sorry for disappearing, but yeah, I don't have net— using my phone credit and hope this posts..

I tried to record my voice answering this, like I sometimes did on tik, suddenly ended up trying to muffle the floods of my burning tears, so now I have an awkward vid of me talking then weeping out of nowhere, which a good reason for me to keep up the no cry habit, heh.. but seriously, I suppose I'm fine till I be conscious of it.. its much easier for not to talk .. even tho I'm aching to be back in thy company, lonely in my foresight to catch on to the present that joins us, hand held out to reach like minded souls but shying from the fear of forgetfulness occurring..

I'm fine tho, did few new stuff, merely drowning in too muchness and nothingness as usual, this month I guess you could say I took an act of mad fury in search of any happy source because the echoing silence and the swarm of sadness nipping on my brain cells thickened, and the reasoning merged with the obscene. So instead of giving my guardians the usual of 3/4 of my earnings last month for net and groceries, I spent it all. Ya know, as it was told to me it mine to do as I please? As being prevented any chance of work if it was possible, 't was supposed to be spent on art supplies & measly delights craved for years ?

Before hand, I've been begging them to take me for months to get any clothing or whatever, be it the first time I ever see a shop, then just to drive around, then just me peaking to the outside when the front door is open, merely seeking change I suppose. They kept vaguely promising me until they refused point blank— getting tired of my nagging, then their car just stopped working till this day. Its in the workshop rn..

Anyway, befouled by despair, needing the mere basics of life and not granted, I was delighted when i found a site to buy from cheap & pretty, I pressed buy without any further considerations, or taking their permission and thrilled to be able get gifts for my siblings too. I say gifts but really they are deprived necessities too and not even much just one each cuz well, they are 5 of my babies and to start with the top of priorities; we all draw

I could already see it, they can't help themselves; heck seeped through the clenched gates of their mouths, trying desperately to poison me with undirect attempts this time, cuz I bought for my sibs they're out of the option of calling me selfish. I was upping the same trance like state of vague existence dealing with them, absorbing their insults and degrading just to make sure my shi arrives safe.

Unfortunate for me, the site chose the worst carrier in this country

I did everything in my power to make it into their convenience, by embarrassingly messaging the carrier daily, they took a week of promising to deliver and flanking so my guardians reached a heated level of threatening, waving their hands nd almost tossing shi at mE saying that they don't care if they came and if i dared to order something again they'll do this and that. Not allowing me to open the door for the delivery guy when he comes, blaming me for missing vaccination dates (they kept missing them even before)& missing going to important places(again, they just didn't go to for ages), made them loose sleep, etc etc— in turn, I seen red and regretfully blew up.

I screamed at them its literally the only time I ever did this, it BECAUSE it easier on them & I'll do what I want whatever anyway, & to stop interrupting me while I try to explain things , then they suddnly back done and be like I'm not mad at u I'm mad at the delivery ppl, that they are proud of me for being able to do all this, and such sort. I left them to cool in my room, Idk how I did it but must have slam-gripped something so hard it chipped most of my short nails & cracked one, was glad I didn't hurt my drawing hand but yeah, goofy mani

They robbed me of the joy of anticipation & the dissipation of apathy, I started to lose sleep again and my liberating dreams left me and I don't think I remember leaving bed.

But still, If not force myself to do things.. there'll be nothing for me if I don't.. at least I know im able of that

I got my guardians happy tho after another tiresome refusal, by trying out one of those Uber-eat like local apps here, since they have no car and being disabled & ill, I ordered McDonald's for the first time. Slythry behind their backs per habit, told them someone coming and they had that look again, but thankfully the guy came through and didn't steal my money, heh. For a big 1800 calories meal I suppose it was passable, the happy fam faces I got was the real treat..

Oh with that thing with the credit card stating I owe them money, waited weeks & nobody got back to us? They started taking from my guardian's account directly to pay it, saying oh we did send you warnings--- TO THE SHADOWY LINES OF THEIR POSTERIOR A.K.A NOWHERE. Thankfully the account is mostly empty nd just for random transactions, i alerted my guardians not to use it. And again, my god, another round of endless calls and promises started, and we wait again so they just don't act as if we owe them a frking 17k dollars that we don't have.. was panicking cuz I have nothing and but my guardians were weirdly comforting about it and told me not to worry

One thing good bout no net is it made me stop thinking about life in general, and stop the tiny unnoticeable prick of misery when I have no input to share, trying not to helplessly compare people just living, in inflated style or not, in media, to my isolated-most-of-my-life style and missing much of that organic "life experiences and chances", heh. At least, my situation would be favorable to me if it was ever possible for it to let me have peace, or have the simple knowledge I'm not virtually imprisoned and have never familiarised with nothing of this world but the surrounding walls.. its nice to have more time to be consumed by muse and day dreaming that flutters life through my dull being and sing chorus of inspiring means for art to flow and finds its way delicately onto my realised canvas.. but no, I continued drawing whilst sight blurred with salty droplets contradicting that happy tintin dance on tiktok I worked so long on just cuz I couldn't stop, not the tears or the mad scribbles of determined intention to visualise the mourned excitement I need, hating everything I make

Somehow the lilac dream still intrudes, visualising me friends, living, in a quaint home, maybe we roommate, arm in arm we go to make every fracture of fate's encounters a disgusting adventurous thrill, like building a maze of cardboard or chasing each other in the dark.. maybe getting that half bleached head and endless ear pericings ... then it dies and I totally forget it..

But what those awesome headphones helped me do, literally blocks all their voices listening to Sev losing it and I can Waltz around not feeling gutted to go and interfere or play the referee each time. But I can't wear them forever, gives me a bad headache, and honestly; I can't be too neglectful.. my sibs hates me for it already hehe

At least these clothing came true to their measurements, felt the new sensations on how everything I wore hugs me & learnt the baffling ways on how "gender" and region plays different tunes on the same measurements. Getting fitting things felt like suddenly there's hope to be, for myself to be me, and ease this severe disassociation between who I am, and what my body is .. from how little I see myself nd consider it worthy of anything because of how long it been living like a phantom among people.. to numb this dysphoria until it be gone one day

Saddened that the only site I can't order from again if they keep using that awful carrier

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I missed our country's 91 national day, too. They made sales everything 91 riyal so.. but knowing the sellers here, I don't think most of em went true with their offers.. Horrible news tho on the celebrations, sigh

I turned this into a dear diary, guess bothered you enough today, sorry

So thankful to yous, Idk if I can be back, but I'll remain creating, and will keep the thought alive of being tickled when sharing my creations with your viewing pleasure somehow

'till then my precious dears, take care 💛🙏

26.9.2021, 8 pm, sleeping

#ask #text #diary #personal #my art #miss

[toroikawa]

Haikyuu!! fic rec 3

I'm back back back again! I made up another fic rec with my fav ships and big name fics which I hope will make you smile. Please stay happy and healthy <3.

Part I & Part II

Bokuaka

Character Development by silvercistern (T / 75k) - I gave it the Best Summer fic of 2017 award. "That’s some kinda gratitude. What happened to my painfully polite little brother? I get the ideal guy to take you to prom, and you act like he's not even here!"

"I doubt I’d let him take me to the hospital if I were bleeding to death."

In blackwater woods by snowlighters (T / 4k) - at their last match during nationals, akaashi breaks his promise.

Undeniably Special by togekissies (G / 2k) - When Keiji looks at his team, the corners of his mouth start to turn upward. He looks at Bokuto and thinks, I’m going to make this into a team that supports you.

Year round love by masi (G/ 3k) - In his first year of university, Bokuto realizes that he really adores Akaashi.

Iwaoi

The Courtship Ritual of The Hercules Beetle by kittebasu (T / 66k) - Who hasn't read this one?. Tooru is pretty sure he could manage the mating habits of a mosquito. It’s the mating habits of people he can’t seem to get right.

Trial by fire by bluu (E / 76k) - Iwaizumi is a young, bright-eyed criminal prosecutor fresh out of law school. After half a year of trying misdemeanor cases and learning the art of argument through his mentor, Ushijima Wakatoshi, he finally gets his first felony case: a murder of an affluent CEO by his son, Daishou Suguru.

Matsuhana

A Bouquet of flours by guyfierimpreg (G / 5k) - “Is that a flour sack in a diaper,” Iwaizumi deadpanned, looking at the offending thing with a Look saved only for dealing with Hanamaki and Matsukawa.

boiled frogs by reginagalaxia (E / 91k) - They've always been really close friends, but Hanamaki begins to question how close when Matsukawa begins dating someone else - someone else that doesn't treat him well. When he suspects that Matsukawa may be in an abusive relationship, Hanamaki realizes that opening his best friend's eyes to his situation may be harder than he had ever anticipated.

Sakuatsu

Burden of Blame by DeathBelle (E / 91k) - Atsumu has a long history of pissing people off, but this time he’s gone too far. Someone wants him dead, and although he doesn’t know who or why, it becomes clear very quickly that both he and Osamu are in danger.

curse breaking by allicanseeispink (T / 9k) - Nearing the fourth hour of the silent treatment, Kiyoomi’s already frayed nerves began to whittle down to their last fibers. Today, it was raining. A proper Tokyo monsoon tantrum just shy of a full-blown typhoon that left puddles on sidewalks and fell from an angle so wicked it eluded umbrellas. It was raining and they haven’t spoken in almost four hours.

let's get physical by rosegoldwriting (T / 4k) - Cheesy. “Yer beautiful,” Atsumu says. “And you’re 73.3 kilograms,” Sakusa responds with an eye roll.

liminal spaces by hatsuna (T / 25k) - Fuck you, Atsumu thinks, pointing at the pixelated Sakusa in the team photo on his bedside table.

Terminal Curiosity by favspacetwink, moonlumie (E / 111k) - If the series were a song, they'd be a BANGer (pun included). BDSM AU featuring Experienced Dom Sakusa and Kink Newbie Atsumu. Post-time skip & loosely canon compliant.

you make my heart burn by myhopeisjhope (G / 11k) - “What’s up with that awful expression?” Atsumu asked. He leaned against the counter with his hip, looking directly at Kiyoomi, his regular fox-line grin plastered on his face.“What’s up with that awful hair?” Kiyoomi shot back.

Osasuna

An Inconvenient Espionage by DeathBelle (E / 26k) - Osamu and Atsumu have fucked up one too many times, and in an attempt to tame the Miya Chaos, Kita assigns them to different partners.

miya atsumu's private investigation into touch, change, and the rin voice by rosegoldwriting (T / 3k) - For some reason, his brother, the least touchy person Atsumu knows, has been all over Suna Rintarou since the end of the regular season. Atsumu would like to know why.

The Loss We Learned by DeathBelle (T / 41k) - When Suna and Osamu broke up, it wasn’t on good terms. The end was bitter, and Suna has tried his best to forget about the breakup - and about Osamu - over the past five years.

Other

In Orbit by neonghxst (T / 27k) - turtleneck atsumu, that’s all you need to know. It's easy to see why constellations are named after people, for you shine as brightly as any star I've seen.

Msby black jackals online! by mooshys (T / 56k) - listen everybody, if you’re looking for a platonic environment full of entertainment: this is your place. As the MSBY Black Jackals' on site social media manager, you're often stuck dealing with the boys of the team. You're their go to person when it comes to what they post online. And a lot of the stuff they want to post is just flat out ridiculous.

Shiratorizawa anctics by mooshys (T / 57k) - A collection of stories involving the manager and the rest of the Shiratorizawa team.

#bokuaka #sakuatsu #iwaoi #osasuna #haikyuu fic recs #hq!! fic #my post

[astralaffairs]

w/ midnight approaching i j wanna let yall know that this blog was genuinely the best part of my 2020. it's been a hellish year, but getting to meet & know writers like @deja-you (girl ur writing has a SPECIAL place in my heart istg. i know we don't talk much but ur presence on this site and on ur blog makes my life a lil brighter. even if the feeling isn't mutual i think of u as a good friend 💞❣) @daveeddiggsit (an actual ray of sunshine 🥺) @iknowthekoolaidflavor @wreakhavoconmacroissantdiggs @tinywhim & @biafbunny all of whose works ive been reading for as long as (or longer than) ive been writing for this fandom has been so incredible and heart warming <3 ur all such damn sweethearts and ilu

& then there have been the new mutuals that have popped up and brightened my life like @commandersmiley @braidedchallah @ramp-it-up & @moondustmemories @summerofsnowflakes @raiseaglasstothefourofus (i know we don't chat much but ilu all sm 🥺)

& @id-do-it-for-free-babe @peoniarose @ohsoverykeri-blog (idk where the hyphens go in ur url ill fix it later) & @cloudynblw

then there's @einfachniemand who literally hypes me more than ANYONE else and is probably the most supportive person on this entire goddamn site ❣💕 i would give u the world if i could but alas i do not have that kind of power

and @youunravelme whose asks and notifs MAKE MY ENTIRE LIFE. u don't even know and i can't explain bruh i get like 80% of my serotonin from getting notifs from u and hearing ur thoughts in my inbox. it's the absolute best. u have made my 2020 like 80% better. i can't emphasize this enough you make me so happy.

and maybe (just maybe) im abt to mention @tinywhim again who is absolutely the kindest most gracious person alive i swear 🥺 also she wrote my absolute outright favorite thom fic that i have ever read (and yes, i have read quite a number of them since 2016) and im now enamored w demon!thom

and ofc @the-lost-marauder 🥰🥰 as much as i adore every single one of my followers and mutuals, ur by far one of my favorite ppl to hear from on this site. your thanksgiving ball oneshot is still one of my favorite things to read on here and u have absolutely excellent energy. i feel like we'd probably vibe irl (also pls more secret relationship vp!thom content!!! pl ease !!!!!! i need it asap)

and yes im abt to mention @deja-you again bc she's such a fucking sweetheart. the literal embodiment of sunshine and cotton candy. idk what else there is to say here u just have the purest vibes i feel like ur the type of person to save a cat from a tree or have a bird land on ur shoulder. u just have that energy 🥺💫 then again you outright broke my heart w foreign affairs so idk i might have to retract all that 😤

& special s/o to @fentinatalin for having shitty taste in men. that's all.

jk jk ily natalie 🤧❣ have i ever told u that when u hmu on ig i almost didn't dm u back bc it gave me anxiety and i thought you'd think i was uncool on main??? anyway im glad i did hit u back bc ur a ridiculously excellent friend and i frequently forget ive only known u for a couple months???? i realized recently that ive picked up some of ur texting habits and idk how to feel abt it . anyway ily thanks for existing

also mega shoutout to @maniacmichele bc ik i haven't answered ur graph theory ask but that's bc ive been watching math yt videos to try and dissect it until i can figure out wtf it all means. ur smart as shit and i am in awe of ur math brain ty for taking the time to explain that graph theory thing bc i have spent literal hours nerding out over it

also to @marioverthere bc i know we don't talk much anymore (FUCK time zones) but meeting you and getting the chance to know u literally made me so happy (also ur the reason i started staying current w/ the hk protests so ty ao much for making me aware of that darling)

and to @softclowninghours for having THE PUREST energy. u probably give excellent hugs i can just feel it. i just know it.

and then all my anons w ur lil emojis and signatures, who i love and cherish -- i won't try to list all of u bc i WILL forget some and im not tryna do u like that but some honorable mentions:

🐥 anon, for being like half the reason i ever touch my draft of lobsterback (ur my motivation, inspiration, muse, etc. thanks honey)

🍬 anon, for being absolutely fucking adorable and an enormous sweetheart

🐺 anon, for being friendly as hell and also kinda fucking hilarious. ur asks always make me smile

💙🖤 anon, for being so so so damn kind and supportive all the fucking time (ily)

there are so many people and blogs and anons that have made an impression on me this year, so believe me when i say this is very, very, VERY incomplete; if we've ever talked, or you've sent me an ask, or you've ever interacted with my post, you deserve a spot up here so pls forgive me for having 3 neurons and not remembering to mention u as i hastily write this post

literally though i love and appreciate every single one of you so much. this sounds like a huge platitude but i don't know how else to say it because there are genuine thousands of u who id list if i had more time or energy. you're all excellent. thank you so much for being alive at the same time as me.

also s/o to disney and lin for releasing the obc tape bc fr thats the only reason this fandom came back to life

+ also HUGE shoutout to the person who venmoed me ten bucks for the fotp smut. i don't have ur tumblr @ since u sent everything on anon but yk who you are; your generosity means the world to me and i hope the smut lived up to ur hopes and expectations

++ also the anon who encouraged me to actually write my art museum au 😌❣ ik it isn't up yet but ive been loving it so much and i hope u like it when it drops

#have an absolutely excellent 2021 #you deserve it #you're all the reason ive stayed alive all thru 2020 #and im endlessly grateful #hzl talks #sending so much love 💞

[dustedmagazine]

Dusted’s Decade Picks

Heron Oblivion, still the closest thing to a Dusted consensus pick

Just as, in spring, the young's fancy turns to thoughts of love, at the end of the decade the thoughts of critics and fans naturally tend towards reflection. Sure, time is an arbitrary human division of reality, but it seems to be working out okay for us so far. We're too humble a bunch to offer some sort of itemized list of The Best Of or anything like that, though; a decade is hard enough to wrap your head around when it's just your life, let alone all the music produced during said time. Instead these decade picks are our jumping off points to consider our decades, whether in personal terms, or aesthetic ones, or any other. The records we reflect on here are, to be sure, some of our picks for the best of the 2010s (for more, check back this afternoon), but think of what follows less as anything exhaustive and more as our hand-picked tour to what stuck with us over the course of these ten years, and why.

Brian Eno — The Ship (Warp, 2016)

You don’t need to dig deep to see that our rapidly evolving and hyper-consciously inclusive discourse is taking on the fluidity of its surroundings. In 2016, a year of what I’ll gently call transformation, Brian Eno had his finger on multiple pulses; The Ship resulted. It’s anchored in steady modality, and its melody, once introduced, doesn’t change, but everything else ebbs and flows with the Protean certainty of uncertainty. While the album moves from the watery ambiguities of the title track, through the emotional and textural extremes of “Fickle Sun” toward the gorgeously orchestrated version of “I’m Set Free,” implying some kind of final redemption, the moment-to-moment motion remains wonderfully non-binary. Images of war and of the instants producing its ravaging effects mirror and counterbalance the calmly and increasingly gender-fluid voice as it concludes the titular piece by depicting “wave after wave after wave.” Is it all Salman Rushdie’s numbers marching again? The lyrics embody the movement from “undescribed” through “undefined” and “unrefined’” connoting a journey toward aging, but size, place, chronology and the music encompassing them remain in constant flux, often nearly but never quite recognizable. Genre and sample float in and out of view with the elusive but devastating certainty of tides as the ship travels toward silence, toward that ultimate ambiguity that follows all disillusion, filling the time between cycles. The disconnect between stasis and motion is as disconcerting as these pieces’ relationship to the songform Eno inherited and exploded. The album encapsulates the modernist subtlety and Romantic grace propelling his art and the state of a civilization in the faintly but still glowing borderlands between change and decay.

Marc Medwin

Cate Le Bon — Cyrk (Control Group, 2012)

There's no artist whose work I anticipated more this decade than Cate Le Bon, and no artist who frustrated me more with each release, only to keep reeling me in for the long run. Le Bon's innate talent is for soothing yet oblique folk, soberly psychedelic, which she originally delivered in the Welsh language, and continued into English with rustic reserve.

Except something about her pastoralism seems to bore her, and the four-chord arpeggios are shot through with scorches of noise, or sent haywire with post-punk brittleness. In its present state, her music is built around chattering xylophones and croaking saxophone, even as the lyrics draw deeper into memory and introspection, with ever more haunting payoffs. It's as if Nick Drake shoved his way into the leadership of Pere Ubu. She's taken breaks from music to work on pottery and furniture-making, and retreats to locales like a British cottage and Texas art colony to plumb for new inspirations. She's clearly energized by collaboration and relocation, but there’s a force to her persona that, despite her introverted presence, dominates a session. Rare for our age, she's an artist who gets to follow her muse full time, bouncing between record labels and seeing her name spelled out in the medium typefaces on festival bills.

Cyrk, from 2012, is the record where I fell in, and it captures her at something close to joyous, a half smile. Landing between her earliest folk and later surrealism, it is open to comparison with the Velvet Underground. But not the VU that is archetypical to indie rock – Cyrk is more an echo of the solo work that followed. There’s the sharp compositional order and Welsh lilt of John Cale. Like Lou Reed, she makes a grand electric guitar hook out of the words “you’re making it worse.” The homebound twee of Mo Tucker and forbidding atmosphere of Nico are present in equal parts. Those comparisons are reductive, but they demonstrate how Cyrk feels instantly familiar if you’ve garnered certain listening habits. Songs surround you with woolly keyboard and guitar hooks, and one can forget a song ends with an awkward trumpet coda even after dozens of listens. The awkwardness is what keeps the album fresh.

She lulls, then dowses with cold water. So Cyrk isn't an entirely easy record, even if it is frequently a pretty one. The most epic song here, reaching high with those woolly hums and twang, is "Fold the Cloth.” It bobs along, coiling tight as she reaches into the strange register of female falsetto. Le Bon cranks out a fuzz solo – she's great at extending her sung melodies across instruments. Then the climax chants out, "fold the cloth or cut the cloth.” What is so important about this mundane action? Her mystery lyrics never feel haphazard, like LSD posey. They are out of step with pop grandiose. Maybe when her back is turned, there's a full smile.

Who are "Julia" and "Greta,” two mid-album sketches that avoid verse-chorus structure? Julia is represented by a limp waltz, Greta by pulses on keyboards. Shortly after the release, Le Bon followed up with the EP Cyrk II made up of tracks left off the album. To a piece, they’re easier numbers than "Julia" and "Greta.” The cryptic and the scribble are essential to how Cyrk flows, which is to say it flows haltingly.

This approach dampens her acclaim and her potential audience, but that's how she fashions decades-old tropes into fresh art. She’s also quite the band leader. Drummers have a different thud when they play on her stage. Musicians' fills disappear. She brings in a horn solo as often as she lays down a guitar lead. The closer tracks, "Plowing Out Pts 1 & 2," aren't inherently linked numbers. By the second part, the group has worked up to a carnival swirl, frothing like "Sister Ray" yet as sweet as a children's TV show theme. Does that sound sinister? The effect is more like heartbreak fuelling abandon, her forlorn presence informing everyone's playing.

Fuse this album with the excellent Cyrk II tracks, and you can image a deluxe double LP 10th anniversary reissue in a few years. Ha ha no. I expect nothing so garish will happen. It sure wouldn't suit the artist. In a decade where "fan service" became an everyday concept, Le Bon is immune. She's a songwriter who seems like she might walk away from at all without notice, if that’s where her craftsmanship leads. The odd and oddly comfortable chair that is Cyrk doesn't suit any particular decor, but my room would feel bare without it.

Ben Donnelly

Converge — All We Love We Leave Behind (Epitaph)

Here’s the scenario: Heavily tatted guy has some dogs. He really loves his dogs. Heavily tatted guy goes on tour with his band. While he’s on the road, one of his dogs dies. Heavily tatted guy gets really sad. He writes a song about it.  

That should be the set-up for an insufferably maudlin emo record. But instead what you get is Converge’s “All We Love We Leave Behind” and the searing LP that shares the title. The songs dive headlong into the emotional intensities of loss and reflect on the cost of artistic ambition. The enormously talented line-up that recorded All We Love We Leave Behind in 2012 had been playing together for just over a decade, and vocalist Jacob Bannon and guitarist Kurt Ballou had been collaborating for more than twenty years. It shows. The record pummels and roars with remarkable precision, and its songs maniacally twist, and somehow they soar.  

Any number of genre tags have been stuck on (or innovated by) Converge’s music: mathcore, metalcore, post-hardcore. It’s fun to split sonic hairs. But All We Love… is most notable for its exhilarating fury and naked heart, musical qualities that no subgenre can entirely claim. Few bands can couple such carefully crafted artifice with such raw intensity. And few records of the decade can match the compositional wit and palpable passion of All We Love…, which never lets itself slip into shallow romanticism. It hurts. And it ruthlessly rocks.  

Jonathan Shaw

EMA — The Future’s Void (City Slang, 2014)

When trying to narrow down to whatever my own most important records of the decade are, I tried to keep it to one per artist (as I do with individual years, although it’s a lot easier there). Out of everyone, though, EMA came by far the closest to having two records on that list, and this could have been 2017’s Exile in the Outer Ring, which along with The Future’s Void comes terrifyingly close to unpacking an awful lot of what’s going wrong, and has been going wrong, with the world we live in for a while now. The Future’s Void focuses more on the technological end of our particular dystopia, shuddering both emotionally and sonically through the dead end of the Cold War all the way to us refreshing our preferred social media site when somebody dies. EMA is right there with us, too; this isn’t judgment, it’s just reporting from the front line. And it must be said, very few things from this decade ripped like “Cthulu” rips.

Ian Mathers

The Field — Looping State of Mind (Kompakt, 2011)

Looping State of Mind by The Field

On Looping State of Mind, Swedish producer Axel Willner builds his music with seamlessly jointed loops of synths, beats, guitars and voice to create warm cushions of sound that envelop the ears, nod the head and move the body. Willner is a master of texture and atmosphere, in lesser hands this may have produced mere comfort food but there is spice in the details that elevates this record as he accretes iotas of elements, withholding release to heighten anticipation. Although this is essentially deep house built on almost exclusively motorik 4/4 beats, Willner also plays with ambient, post-punk and shoegaze dynamics. From the slow piano dub of “Then It’s White,” which wouldn’t be out of place on a Labradford or Pan American album, to the ecstatic shuffling lope of “Arpeggiated Love” and “Is This Power” with its hint of a truncated Gang of Four-like bass riff, Looping State of Mind is a deeply satisfying smorgasbord of delicacies and a highlight of The Field’s four album output during the 2010s.

Andrew Forell

Gang Gang Dance — “Glass Jar” (4AD, 2011)

Instead of telling you my favorite album of the decade — I made my case for it the first year we moved to Tumblr, help yourself — it feels more fitting to tell you a story from my friend Will about my favorite piece of music from the last 10 years, a song that arrived just before the rise of streaming, which flattened “the album experience” to oppressive uniformity and rendered it an increasingly joyless, rudderless routine of force-fed jams and AI/VC-directed mixes catering to a listener that exists in username only. The first four seconds of “Glass Jar” told you everything you needed to know about what lie ahead, but here’s the kind of thing that could happen before everything was all the time:

I took eight hours of coursework in five weeks in order to get caught up on classes and be in a friend's wedding at the end of June. Finishing a week earlier than the usual summer session meant I had to give my end-of-class presentations and turn in my end-of-class papers in a single day, which in turn meant that I was well into the 60-70 hour range without sleep by the time I got to the airport for an early-morning flight. (Partly my fault for insisting that I needed to stay up and make a “wedding night” mix for the couple — real virgin bride included — and even more my fault for insisting that it be a single, perfectly crossfaded track). I was fuelled only by lingering adrenaline fumes and whatever herbal gunpowder shit I had been mixing with my coffee — piracetam, rhodiola, bacopa or DMAE depending on the combination we had at the time. At any rate, eyes burning, skull heavy, joints stiff with dry rot, I still had my wits enough to refuse the backscatter machine at the TSA checkpoint; instead of the usual begrudging pat-down, I got pulled into a separate room. Anyway, it was a weird psychic setback at that particular time, but nothing came of it. Having arrived at my gate, I popped on the iPod with a brand new set of studio headphones and finally got around to listening to the Gang Gang Dance I had downloaded months before. "Glass Jar," at that moment, was the most religious experience I’d had in four years. I was literally weeping with joy.

Point being: It is worth it to stay up for a few days just to listen to ‘Glass Jar’ the way it was meant to be heard.

Patrick Masterson

Heron Oblivion — Heron Oblivion (Sub Pop, 2016)

Heron Oblivion by Heron Oblivion

Heron Oblivion’s self-titled first album fused unholy guitar racket with a limpid serenity. It was loud and cathartic but also pure beauty, floating drummer Meg Baird’s unearthly vocals over a sound that was as turbulent and majestic as nature itself, now roiled in storm, now glistening with dewy clarity. The band convened four storied guitarists—Baird from Espers, Ethan Miller and Noel Harmonson from Comets on Fire and Charlie Sauffley—then relegated two of them to other instruments (Baird on drums and Miller on bass). The sound drew on the full flared wail and scree of Hendrix and Acid Mothers Temple, the misty romance of Pentangle and Fairport Convention. It was a record out of time and could have happened in any year from about 1963 onward, or it could have not happened at all. We were so glad it did at Dusted; Heron Oblivion’s eponymous was closer to a consensus pick than any record before or since, and if you want to define a decade, how about the careening riffs of “Oriar” breaking for Baird’s dream-like chants?

Jennifer Kelly

The Jacka — What Happened to the World (The Artist, 2014)

Probably the most prophetic rap album of the 2010s. The Jacka was the king of Bay rap since he started MOB movement. He was always generous with his time, and clique albums were pouring out of The Jacka and his disciples every few months. Even some of his own albums resembled at times collective efforts. This generosity made some of the albums unfocused and disjointed, yet what it really shows is that even in the times when dreams of collective living were abandoned The Jacka still had hopes for Utopia and collective struggles. It was about the riches, but he saw the riches in people first and foremost.

This final album before he was gunned down in the early 2014 is full of predictions about what’s going to happen to him. Maybe this explains why it’s focused as never before and even Jacka’s leaned-out voice has doomed overtones. This music is the only possible answer to the question the album’s title poses: everything is wrong with the world where artists are murdered over music.

Ray Garraty

John Maus — We Must Become Pitiless Censors of Ourselves (Upset The Rhythm, 2011)

We Must Become the Pitiless Censors of Ourselves by John Maus

Minnesota polymath John Maus’ quest for the perfect pop song found its apotheosis on his third album We Must Become Pitiless Censors of Ourselves in 2011. On the surface an homage to 1980s synth pop, Maus’ album reveals its depth with repeated listens. Over expertly constructed layers of vintage keyboards, Maus’ oft-stentorian baritone alternately intones and croons deceptively simple couplets that blur the line between sincerity and provocation. Lurking beneath the smooth surface Maus uses Baroque musical tropes that give the record a liturgical atmosphere that reinforces the Gregorian repetition of his lyrics. The tension between the radical ironic banality of the words and the deeply serious nature of the music and voice makes We Must Become Pitiless Censors of Ourselves an oddly compelling collection that interrogates the very notion of taste and serves an apt soundtrack to the post-truth age.

Andrew Forell

Joshua Abrams & Natural Information Society — Mandatory Reality (Eremite, 2019)

Mandatory Reality by Joshua Abrams & Natural Information Society

Any one of the albums that Joshua Abrams has made under the Natural Information Society banner could have made this list. While each has a particular character, they share common essences of sound and spirit. Abrams made his bones playing bass with Nicole Mitchell, Matana Roberts, Mike Reed, Fred Anderson, Chad Taylor, and many others, but in the Society his main instrument is the guimbri, a three-stringed bass lute from Morocco. He uses it to braid melody, groove, and tone into complex strands of sound that feel like they might never end. Mandatory Reality is the album where he delivers on the promise of that sound. Its centerpiece is “Finite,” a forty-minute long performance by an eight-person, all-acoustic version of Natural Information Society. It has become the main and often sole piece that the Society plays. Put the needle down and at first it sounds like you are hearing some ensemble that Don Cherry might have convened negotiating a lost Steve Reich composition. But as the music winds patiently onwards, strings, drums, horns, and harmonium rise in turn to the surface. These aren’t solos in the jazz sense so much as individual invitations for the audience to ease deeper into the sonic entirety. The music doesn’t end when the record does, but keeps manifesting with each performance. Mandatory Reality is a nodal point in an endless stream of sound that courses through the collective unconscious, periodically surfacing in order to engage new listeners and take them to the source.

Bill Meyer

Mansions — Doom Loop (Clifton Motel, 2013)

I knew nothing about Mansions when I first heard about this record; I can’t even remember how I heard about this record. But I liked the name of the album and the album art, so I listened to it. Sometimes the most important records in your decade have as much to do with you as with them. I’d been frantically looking for a job for nearly two years at that point, the severance and my access Ontario’s Employment Insurance program (basically, you pay in every paycheck, and then have ~8 months of support if you’re unemployed) had both ran out. I was living with a friend in Toronto sponsoring my American wife into the country (fun fact: they don’t care if you have an income when you do that), feeling the walls close in a little each day, sure I was going to wind up one of those kids who had to move back to the small town I’d left and a parent’s house. There were multiple days I’d send out 10+ applications and then walk around my neighbourhood blasting “Climbers” and “Out for Blood” through my earbuds, cueing up “La Dentista” again and dreaming of revenge… on what? Capitalism? There was no more proximate target in view. That’s not to say that Doom Loop is necessarily about being poor or about the shit hand my generation (I fit, just barely) got in the job market, or anything like that; but for me it is about the almost literal doom loop of that worst six months, and I still can’t listen to “The Economist” without my blood pressure spiking a little.

Ian Mathers

Protomartyr — Under Colour of Official Right (Hardly Art, 2014)

Under Color of Official Right by Protomartyr

By my count, Protomartyr made not one but four great albums in the 2010s, racking up a string of rhythmically unstoppable, intellectually challenging discs with absolute commitment and intent. I caught whiff of the band in 2012, while helping out with editing the old Dusted. Jon Treneff’s review of All Passion No Technique told a story of exhilarant discovery; I read it and immediately wanted in. The conversion event, though, came two years later, with the stupendous Under Color of Official Right, all Wire-y rampage and Fall-spittled-bile, a rattletrap construction of every sort of punk rock held together by the preening contempt of black-suited Joe Casey. Doug Mosurock reviewed it for us, concluding, “Poppier than expected, but still covered in burrs, and adeptly analyzing the pain and suffering of their city and this year’s edition of the society that judges it, Protomartyr has raised the bar high enough for any bands to follow, so high that most won’t even know it’s there.” Except here’s the thing: Protomartyr jumped that bar two more times this decade, and there’s no reason to believe that they won’t do it again. The industry turned on the kind of bands with four working class dudes who can play a while ago, but this is the band of the 2010s anyway.

Jennifer Kelly

Tau Ceti IV — Satan, You’re the God of This Age, but Your Reign Is Ending (Cold Vomit, 2018)

Satan, You're The God of This Age But Your Reign is Ending by Tau Ceti IV

This decade was full of takes on American primitive guitar. Some were pretty good, a few were great, many were forgettable, and then there was this overlooked gem from Jordan Darby of Uranium Orchard. Satan, You’re the God of This Age, but Your Reign Is Ending is an antidote to bland genre exercises. Like John Fahey, Darby has a distinct voice and style, as well as a sense of humor. Also like Fahey, his playing incorporates diverse influences in subtle but pronounced ways. American primitive itself isn’t a staid template. Though there are also plenty of beautiful, dare I say pastoral moments, which still stand out for being genuinely evocative.

Darby’s background in aggressive electric guitar music partly explains his approach. (Not sure if he’s the only ex-hardcore guy to go in this direction, but there can’t be many.) His playing is heavier than one might expect, but it feels natural, not like he’s just playing metal riffs on an acoustic guitar. But heaviness isn’t the only difference. Like his other projects, Satan is wonderfully off-kilter. This album’s strangeness isn’t reducible to component parts, but here are two representative examples: “The Wind Cries Mary” gradually encroaches on the last track, and throughout, the microphone picks up more string noise than most would consider tasteful. It all works, or at least it’s never boring.

Ethan Milititisky

Z-Ro — The Crown (Rap-a-Lot, 2014)

When singing in rap was outsourced to pop singers and Auto Tune, Z-Ro remained true to his self, singing even more than he ever did. He did his hooks and his verses himself, and no singing could harm his image as a hustler moonlighting as a rapper. He can’t be copied exactly because of his gift, to combine singing soft and rapping hard. It’s a sort of common wisdom that he recorded his best material in the previous decade, yet quite apart from hundreds of artists that continued to capitalize on their fame he re-invented himself all the past decade, making songs that didn’t sound like each other out of the same raw material. The Crown is a tough pick because since his post-prison output he made solid discs one after each other.

Ray Garraty

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Post #133 – Could Yui from K-ON! have Dyspraxia?

Welcoming Yui!

Yui from K-On! is the newest addition to my on-going ‘potential dyspraxic character’ project. It’s been a while since I’ve done a potential dyspraxic analysis, although not from a lack of content, just Yui zoomed straight to the top of the list. For starters, Yui is a character I consider to be a strong contender for the potential dyspraxic title. Then there’s the point that I finished ‘K-On!’ fairly recently so felt I should get my thoughts out while it’s still in my head! Plus I wanted to do something light because these recent months have been tough, both personally and globally. Got to be honest though, you can’t get much more light-hearted than K-On!!

Originally, this post was going to be fairly short, however as I looked into Yui as a character more and more talking points seemed to sprout up! I’ve gone ahead and added her profile to the Potential Dyspraxic Character page and simply listed everything out if you rather a quick reference version. Link is at the bottom of this page.

Potential Dyspraxic Characters

For those unfamiliar with my blog, just a quick sum up what this is all about. This kind of post is for me to show how I perceive certain characters and the possibility that they could be dyspraxic. We have unique ways of connecting with fictional characters and sometimes we can relate to them in unusual ways. Seeing as dyspraxia is a combination of certain human traits, it means there’s a possible that characters may end up with a ‘dyspraxic combination’ purely by accident. In no way is this trying to discredit the original creation, but to see them in an alternative light. Take this, and any of my analyses, with a pinch of salt.

DISCLAIMER: With these character profiles I may bring up key-points and moments from their franchise, so potential minor spoilers ahead! Also as I’ve only seen the anime this analysis will leave out anything exclusive to the manga.

Yui and K-ON!

‘K-On!‘ is a popular slice-of-life manga revolving around the lives of the Light Music Club’s members, that got an anime adaptation. The anime has spanned several seasons, specials, spin-offs, a movie, and a library of music to date. For what this post is worth, if you want something light-hearted to get absorbed into then I highly recommend K-On! to you.

Could Yui Hirasawa be Dyspraxic?

Yui Hirasawa is the protagonist of ‘K-On!’; she is a member of the Light Music Club and the band Ho-kago Tea Time (After-School Tea Time). She is the lead guitarist and lead vocalist for the band. On the outside, Yui is your classic ditsy anime character; she’s easily distracted, sometimes forgetful, and gets into little accidents frequently. With other dyspraxic-type traits revealing themselves, it got the gears in my head turning and it simply clicked together for me that Yui could well have dyspraxia.

Co-Ordination and Clumsiness

Yui is really clumsy and has the habit of falling over, dropping things, tripping up, and bumping into people and objects. Over the course of the series, Yui shows she has balance issues. especially when she’s carrying something, like a tray of mugs or something bulky like a speaker. She’s a messy eater too as seen on a few occasions. On top of this, Yui sometimes has other slight issues with gross motor co-ordination.

On the flip-side, when it comes to fine motor skills Yui doesn’t have any real issues with it. After all, she has a certain talent for playing guitar.    

Oh Yui, I feel your pain!

Thought and Memory

Given that Yui’s short-term memory is awful and couple it with the fact she gets distracted ever so easily and you have a perfect recipe for disaster! When she learns something new, it often pushes something she memorised previously out of her head.

Yui’s time-keeping is pretty bad, although a few times she misread her alarm clock and arrived at school incredibly early. The first occurrence happens in the first episode where she even got distracted along the way…twice! The people around her have picked up on her unorthodox time-keeping skills and easily distracted nature, so it is fair to conclude this is a common occurrence for Yui.

Yui is quite forgetful too; whether it’s forgetting to do her homework or leaving her guitar at home on the day of a concert, she certainly doesn’t discriminate against what to forget! She struggles to remember music terminology and plays using intuition and her self-taught approach. Similarly, many people with dyspraxia find their own ways to learn and achieve when conventional ways are too difficult. At some point in the series she lost a mitten too, because of course she did! 

Yui struggles with multi-tasking and this is something that others are well aware of. At first, she found it impossible to sing and play her guitar simultaneously. Although, after some 1-2-1 tutoring she was finally able to crack it, but still has difficulty to do both sometimes.

A line extracted from her Wiki Bio: “She cannot do more than one thing at a time, but to make up for that she can be highly focused on a particular subject and once started, can advance quite substantially.”

When it comes to her academic abilities, Yui struggles tremendously with it. In one exam, she was the only one in her class to fail and had to retake it. With effort and support from her friends and sister she passed it second time around. However, not only did she pass it, but she absolutely aced it! While this alone isn’t exactly a dyspraxic trait, it embodies the spirit of dyspraxia quite nicely; especially when the other factors of Yui are taken into account.

Despite being viewed as stupid and an air-head, Yui is really observant and alert. A few times, she realises an issue before anybody else has.

We get a little bit of extra character building in K-On!’s spin-off series, ‘Ura-On!’. In one episode, we see that Yui gets lost easily and judging by her personality it wouldn’t be surprising if this is actually the case. I am unsure if ‘Ura-On!’ is canon or not, but it does seem faithful to the characters, so I’m going to count it.   

Perception of Senses

Yui has an aversion to both hot and cold temperatures and can’t deal with them very well. She’s also sensitive to air-conditioning units. Quote from Yui: “I’m scared of hot and cold. In winter, I hide under the heating table and in summer, I lie in bed and do nothing.”

As mentioned previously, her spatial awareness is something she struggles with as she does bumps into people and objects pretty often.

Something to note: Yui has the rare gift of having ‘perfect pitch’. Wikipedia states it as: “Absolute pitch (AP), often called perfect pitch, is a rare ability of a person to identify or re-create a given musical note without the benefit of a reference tone”. Wikipedia then goes on to state: “There is evidence of a higher rate of absolute pitch in the autistic population.” Dyspraxia and autism have overlaps, so there could be more to Yui than at first glance. In short, this helps solidifies an autistic side which by proxy, helps to cement a dyspraxic side.

For the Wikipedia page on ‘Absolute pitch’ click here

Emotion and Behaviour

Yui has difficulty controlling her emotions and can get overwhelmed easily. Even with positive news she can struggle processing it and have a mental overload. She can get overwhelmed if she has too much information to process, which can lead to an emotional breakdown. The Light Music Club members understand she has this difficulty and do their best for her. Mainly by explaining things to her in a way she’ll understand and also help calm her down when she has a meltdown.

Yui dozes off often as she does get tired fairly quickly. Although, there are times where she’ll go to bed late due to getting absorbed into practising guitar or revising. Additionally, she can have a short attention span and she gets distracted easily.

Yui has some social awkwardness to her and I think she struggles at picking up on non-verbal cues, like on some occasions taking jokes literally and sarcasm can fly over her head. Also, Yui sometimes hugs a little too hard because she lets her emotions get the better of her, but there is a possibility that there’s a co-ordination difficulty at work too.

Speech and Language

Sometimes Yui gets stuck for words and stutters, which is a link back into her getting overwhelmed. She has shown that sometimes she can get words mixed up too. These issues don’t crop up too often though.

Yui Overall

Yui has a strong connection to dyspraxia and in my opinion scores incredibly favourable overall. In fact, she tops the list! Yui’s prominent clumsiness, getting easily overwhelmed, and a pure heart make her a character that those with dyspraxia can probably relate to quite easily. While she can lose interest easily and gets distracted even easier, with the right help or push she can, and does, succeed. While it would seem no one has brought up a possibility of Yui having dyspraxia online, at least as far as I can tell, some people have raised the idea that she could be on the autism spectrum and/or have ADHD. With certain overlaps it isn’t a stretch to believe that she could be dyspraxic too.

Yui is an embodiment of Dyspraxic Fantastic at its core and holds a certain spirit of dyspraxia. What sets her apart from other characters on my list is a certain depth and richness to her character.

And to wrap this post up, a nice sentimental quote from Yui: “To the me back then, you don’t need to worry. You’ll soon find something you can do, something you can set your heart on.” 

Thanks for reading this post and please check out some of the links below for more information.

Extra Reading

Dyspraxic Characters Encyclopedia

Dyspraxic Characters Project Post

Yui Wiki Fandom Page

K-ON! Home Site

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Fanfic Author Meme

Tagged by @diligent-thunder and @rockmarina​ =)

Okay, so I’m me, and I talked way too much, so I’m putting this under a cut to save your dashes. You’re welcome 😘

Please do not reblog this post.

Author Name: 

Fleetofshippyships + Knowyourincantations + Legendaryroar

Fandoms You Write For: 

(in order of decreasing # of fics) Harry Potter, Voltron, Merlin, Yuri on Ice, Star Trek, Star Wars and then a few one-offs that aren’t really worth mentioning.

Where You Post: 

AO3 primarily, Tumblr, trying to post more on Pillowfort, I also post on a couple of sites for knowyourincantations

Most Popular One-Shot: 

Fleetofshippyships: Potter’s Insatiable Cock (Drarry, Explicit (duh XD), 20k (viewable only for logged-in AO3 users)).

Knowyourincantations: A Decent Start to Things (Pansmione, Teen, 7k)

Legendaryroar: Finding Time for Rest (Sheith (Voltron), Teen, 3k)

Most Popular Multi-Chapter Story: 

RestraintNone of my old multi-chapter fics are available to read at this time and I don’t really write multi-chapter fics anymore.

If oneshot/drabble collections or two-shots count, then:

Fleetofshippyships: Vanilla and Sweet Spices (Drarry, Explicit, 2 chapters, 20k)

and this really doesn’t count, but technically it has multiple ‘chapters’ soooooooooo

Legendaryroar: Kinktober 2018 (Multiple ships (Voltron), Explicit (duh), 31 ‘chapters’, 26k)

Favourite Story You Wrote: 

I don’t think I ever have a static favourite, I’ve just written too many things, I too quickly move on to the next (and frequently forget some of my own fics exist XD), but recently I re-read In Pursuit of Red Wine (Dreville, Teen, 29k) and really enjoyed that again, and I am really attached to it cos it was my first longish rarepair fic, kind of proving to myself that I can write longer rarepair stuff. 

I also recently re-read Unburdened (Merthur (BBC Merlin), Explicit, 2k) and really enjoyed that too, had a total disconnect from having written it since it’s been so long, so I was able to read it without self-judging, and oh boy that was nice. 

I’m also quite proud of Healing What’s Left (Parkgrass, Teen, 2k) for some reason, I dunno, maybe the dark political backdrop of the fic, or maybe just cos it’s the first time I’ve written Daphne as the main character and I’m happy with the result and now have some headcanons about her rather than her being an unknown blank character to me. 

I also binge read a lot of my Voltron stuff recently and had big feels over that so....I also specifically enjoyed re-reading The Perks of Skincare (Klance (Voltron), Explicit, 3k) again cos I dunno, I like how I wrote Lance XD and also the Sheith fic I linked earlier is a fav for sure. Shiro/Rest is the ultimate OTP.

It really depends how soon after I write something or when I go back to re-read it as to what my fav is at any given time (or people commenting on it and hyping me up for it again).

Story You Were Nervous to Post: 

Everything. But most recently I was terrified out of my mind before posting: 

Friday Night by the Fire (Harry/Neville, Teen, 583 words) because I have a lot of fears about screwing up trying to write ace characters and somehow not even making that a focal point of the drabble made it even more terrifying,  No More Waiting (TianShan (19 Days), Teen, 2k) because it was a new fandom to write in, Harry Potter and the Maudlin Merman series (Drarry, Teen+ Mature, 3k +6k) due to my feelings of inadequacy because it would be better as long fic but I struggle too much with writing these days to write long fics and can only manage short things. I’d rather write this as a long fic, but then I’d never finish it so connected oneshots are the best I can do right now, but I still feel it’s not good enough and have a meltdown whenever I post one. And speaking of which, I’ve been sitting on the next one for months and should probably just fucking post it already.

Actually, most recently: Minding One’s Limits (Cho/Ginny, G rated, 1.5k), because I gave Cho a disability modeled off my fibromyalgia and wrote a scenario similar to something I’d dealt with myself, it was incredibly uncomfortable to write in the first place, and then terrifying to post, even though it’s so short. But in the end I’m proud I finally wrote about it a bit? I dunno, might take me a while to work up the nerve again though XD (also was my first time writing that ship, so there was a lot of nervousness over that too)

Oh, and I was a super ball of anxiety posting  Kinktober 2018 (Multiple ships, Explicit, 31 ‘chapters’, 26k) because for almost all of those it was the first time I was writing those kinks (and some were kind of squicks for me but I wanted to see if I could write them anyway cos I’m dumb like that) and in a lot of cases those ships were completely new for me to write too, in addition to trying to write and post 1 a day, so...yeah. Also that was my first time writing tentacle and human/werewolf smut so...yeah. I was an absolute mess that month and not in a fun way. But I’m still really glad I did it, it was fun =D

In summary, I’m always an anxious mess posting anything, but most especially if it’s something I’ve not written before or is personal to me XD

How Do You Choose Your Titles: 

Most of the time I’m staring down the empty title field in AO3 cursing like a fucking sailor when I choose titles XD Sometimes it’s a line/theme/feeling from the fic. Sometimes it’s totally random and just comes to me. Sometimes I just grasp the first thing that I can no matter how stupid it sounds cos it’s been three days and I still don’t have a title and I’m over it and ready to post before I lose my nerve.

And tbh, it’s only getting harder to think of titles as my number of fics increases, and I’ve now started thinking of the perfect titles only to realise I already have a published fic by that title so....TITLES CAN DIE A FIERY DEATH

Sometimes, not so much anymore, it would turn out that I would give a wip doc a name just so I’d know what it was, sometimes as a joke with whoever was reading it and cheerleading while I wrote it, and then I would refer to it by that and think of it as that so much that when it came time to actually give the fic a title, it was too late and I could not think past that stupid file name, and that’s how Potter’s Insatiable Cock happened, and how I very nearly called a Merthur fic Arthur’s Wanking Tower (saved that one at the last moment thank god cos the tone of that fic is actually really serious and emotional and wtf was I even thinking with that file name and actually I linked to that fic above XD it ended up being called Unburdened). 

Potter’s Insatiable Cock slipped through cos it’s actually relevant to the fic content and I could live with it.

But needless to say, I don’t give my wip docs joke names anymore XD

Do You Outline: 

Only if I never want to actually write the idea...once I outline, it’s over. I can’t write to a detailed plan. It stifles me. I’ll always get stuck having to try and think ahead to the plan, and then I lose the flow and nothing works because I’m a pantser/intuitive/instinctive writer not a planner. Sometimes I jot down ideas but in like, the vaguest of ways, usually more focused on emotional development than actual scenes or events or anything because then I won’t be able to write it (and I rarely stick to those vague ideas anyway). 

I can really only write when I’m staring down a blank doc with no idea where it’s going and discover it as I go (which is why writing is so fun for me). I can only finish a fic if I don’t think too hard about what’s going to happen next and just let it happen as I write. 

This of course means that editing is a fucking bitch when I finish anything, beginnings often get totally re-written, but if I plan, it just doesn't happen at all, so I’ll take the extra editing if it means I manage to write something.

I do have a lot of detailed plotty fic idea outlines...and I mourn them cos I’m never going to write them now, but they’re so goooooooooood XD

Complete: 

Online (across all 3 accounts): 381 (incl. my hidden drarry fics as they are technically online just hidden, not incl. individual oneshots/drabbles in collection ‘fics’, of which there are ridiculously many). Offline: 20 (I have the worst habit of just sitting on completed fics and I really need to stop)

In-Progress: 

Too many to name, last time I counted it was ~60 but that wasn’t even including my vld wips so...I don’t actually know. I hoard wips and just switch up what I work on all the time depending on mood/interest levels/effort required. 

Current main focuses are a 50k+ plotty Drarry (*fingerscrossed* cos this is my first time seriously attempting something long (will probably reach 80k at least) in a very long time and I put it down for a few months and thought that was it but then I picked it up again recently, yay!), and re-writing some hidden fics I can’t put them back up in the quality they’re in, I just can’t guys, they’re awful.

I’ve been thinking a lot about working on the longish 8th year Pansmione fic I started for the wlw big bang before I had to pull out of cos stupid life stuff. I might pick that up again for a bit too, couldn’t be more different from the Drarry one so it’d make a nice focus break =)

Coming Soon/Not Yet Started: 

I don’t even plan fics I’m writing, I sure don’t plan ahead to stuff I haven’t even started XD The only think I can think of for this category would be me re-writing my hidden long Drarry fics.

Oh, and there will be a Merthur oneshot coming (hopefully) soon, because @april-thelightfury115​ won my custom fic giveaway with a merthur idea. Just waiting for my brain to cooperate so I can start that and not suck XD but I’m so fucking excited to write some Merthur again, you have no idea.

Oh, and lots more Sapphic September drabbles coming too, I’m way behind and only just posted day 11 cos this month is literal hell for me, but I am still planning on finishing the prompt list, no matter how long it takes, but no plan for those, not even which ships, I just sit down with the next prompt and a blank doc and see what happens.

Do You Accept Prompts: 

Yes, I love writing to prompts, I’m take them via google form here, but I’m in such a bad space with my health I’ve been really struggling with writing lately, managed to do a bit of editing (fuck knows how), but writing new stuff is so hard, so there’s a long wait while I wait for my fibro fog to ease off to the point I can write new stuff with more regularity (and less stupid errors I have to edit out later).

Upcoming Story You Are Most Excited to Write: 

Again, I so don’t plan. But I really want to be making more progress on the long plotty drarry wip I’m trying to write. I’m still not sure I’ll have the guts to post it even if I do finish it, given its subject matter (it would make a great careers or consent fest fic tbh), but damn I’m really excited by it. Not sure I can maintain it being plotty and not revert to focusing on the relationship (which is easier for me), but I can only try and see what happens. (trying to write a non-relationship plot without planning is a nightmare but I don’t have a choice if I want to write it at all XD)

I’m also now excited for my longish pansmione wip too actually, just because it’s already longer than my Dreville long-ish fic and it’s exciting and scary to do longer rarepair stuff. I’m way out of my comfort zone with the fic itself, but I dunno, I re-read some recently and fell in love with it all over again, like, flustered lesbian-awakening, disaster for Pansy (but sure she still hates her) Hermione? YES PLEASE! and also, I am guilty of not writing female characters as much as I should because, well, canonically, they don’t have much depth and I’m very meh about them, but in this there’s a huge focus on them because they’re all determined to band together for 8th year and Hermione is making friends with them (Parvati is like, dragging her along all the time XD) where she once dismissed them so it’s scary but exciting =D I’m getting more practice with all the sapphic I do over on knowyourincantations, so I feel more confident working on this wip now =D

I’m also kind of excited about re-writing my old long fics, because they’re all 3 years old now, and my writing tastes (and skill, yikes) have totally changed, so it’s like I’m writing the story again but how I would write it now while maintaining the overall same plot, so it’s really interesting, like discovering the story all over again. Like in one (Making Malfoy Blush) I’ve gone as far as introducing a new side character to replace another’s parts because I no longer feel those parts are in character for them. It’s super terrifying, but it’s fun at the same time =) it’ll take me forever to do these though, so I dunno about ‘upcoming’ really, I only chip away every now and then when I’m unable to write new stuff but am still coherent enough to do something.

Eh, it is what it is, I can’t write like I used to, hence me being inactive more than active these days, but I’m trying to work within my new limitations instead of getting frustrated with them and just giving up entirely =)

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Now, who to tag....I think anyone I would tag has already done it, and if not..I blame the fog if I’m forgetting someone obvious, if you wanna do it just say I tagged you so I can be nosy and take a look =)

Again, please do not reblog this post

#* #tag meme #tag game #about me #hope i don't regret linking to my other ao3 accounts #but i'm at the point if I get more bullshit like before i'll just abandon fandom entirely rather than shift to one of my other accounts #they served that purpose well when I needed it but the reasons for having to do it are not a problem anymore #so i'm tentatively linking to them for anyone who wants to read my other works #and hoping no one is mean about it #and please don't reblog this post in case I have to delete it to cut the link

[lywinis]

I am...so fucking mad?

Okay, so. What a lot of people don't know about me, that I don't go out of my way to bring up, is that I was almost married once. I say almost, for a reason.

I don't often go into this because for one, it was a rather painful part of my life, and it triggered my homelessness that had me couch surfing for about a decade. I lost my job because I just didn't go, I was depressed enough to consider throwing myself into traffic.

I was accused of many things I don't do, my trust was broken, and private documents of mine were opened and read. Things that were not for consumption, but for me to work out private thoughts and feelings. My then-fiance then decided to use this information against me, in every way he could conceivably do, including but not limited to gaslighting me to 'make me sound crazy'. He wanted total victory in that fight, because it would prove, in his mind, that me asking him to get a better paying job and stop blowing our cash on trivial things was a ridiculous request. Basically, any time I stressed out about bills, he would shrug.

Key notes here: I was working double shifts, two jobs, coming home exhausted. He'd just gotten laid off as manager for one of the jobs I worked at (we worked at separate stores, no conflict of interest). He was pulling in half his checks previous, sitting at home and playing World of Warcraft, while I worked my ass off to suddenly pay for three other people, plus myself. (Our housemates also worked the same job and had all gotten laid off at once.) I was tired, irritable, and obviously Not in a Good Place.

He started this, because I would come home, shower, curl up the chair next to him, and ask how today's applications went. He would get shifty, not talk to me, or tell me he already told me. Things started to move around on me. He kept shifting bills, trying to hide finances. His favorite line?

"You sound crazy."

The breakup was ugly. He downed a whole bottle of Jack and crammed himself in the doorway (he's 6'3" and his hands are about four to five inches bigger than mine, I'm 6'1" and built like a truck). Telling me that I couldn't go, that I couldn't leave, that I wasn't making the entire effort.

I had been, for months. Seven or eight months of this, on top of working, maintaining a presence in an active raiding guild, paying for our half of the bills (split with his brother because we couldn't afford $1000/mo on my salary alone.) He was working as a minimum wage cook at Sonic, because he lost the job my dad got him for security at the casinos.

He tried to accuse me of cheating on him with our then WoW guildmaster. Because I wrote about how I was falling out of love/frustrated with how he was behaving, and how said Guildmaster listened to me vent and how I liked spending time with him. In a private journal, on the password locked partition of the computer that I built with my own cash, with no help from him. There wasn't a mention of cheating, there was no infidelity, I was working out my feelings in private, trying to quantify how I felt and make sense of things. He assumed that because I spoke fondly of someone else, I must be cheating, and that I was lying about it. He had no right to read what I was writing. It wasn't for him. He stole my password and broke into my side, without my consent.

We had a screaming match, I grabbed as much of my stuff as I could, and packed my shit and left.

All throughout this: "You sound crazy."

I moved back in with my dad and cut contact. I was with him for four and a half years. This went on for three. I didn't feel stable enough to leave on my own, not yet. I did what I could, and it's done with.

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I told you that story to tell you this one.

Sunday, my 6-2 was my lead dispatcher, the woman who trained me. I trusted her enough to have her and her kid watch my cats while I went home for a week to see my dad. Nice enough, I had some issues with her, mostly because she likes to be crude and dropped the t-slur. Note, I'm not out at work, but I still went 'hey, that's not okay', and she waved it off like 'oh, I didn't mean it that way, you're overreacting.'

Fine, whatever, in the interest of keeping the peace, I dropped it. (Didn't forget, I'm not out at work for a reason.) She also has a habit of picking on people when they're not feeling great about something or are insecure. She likes to find that last nerve and tease.

Which brings us to Sunday.

When a Senior dispatcher changes shifts, they do what's known as a pass-on. We write down conflicts/occurrences in an email that's sent to Dispatch and the guard department. Now, some things, we need to be verbal on because they might become relevant to the incoming senior's shift that day. That day, we had a flat tire on the post, and the maintenance guy J told me to have [Our Emergency Tire Guy] fix it. The vehicle remains on site, so no need to move it or have the keys left in it. Guy from the company calls, says he will call back if he needs the keys. Obviously, this needs to be passed on verbally to the next shift.

Now, keep in mind, she's not my relief today. My relief is standing at the counter, I'm telling her all this, and she interrupts.

"I thought the Maintenance guy was named [Not J, but sounds similar]."

"No, it's [J]."

"No, I'm pretty sure it's [Not J]."

I pop open our contacts book and show her.

"Aw, whatever, I just wanted to make you sound crazy." She and the relief laugh. I get my stuff and leave. She later mentions to my regular dispatcher that I seemed off, who asks me later that night if I'm ok.

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Fast forward to Monday. I had been left a voice mail, asking if I would hold over, and to call Dispatch and confirm, as we had another dispatcher call off.

We have one person training, so I thought this Lead, who trained me, and was training someone else at this time, was going to need me in the senior spot and that she would be catty-corner with the Y-jack and listening to calls. I had a vague voice mail that said to call Dispatch to confirm I was working. The shift lead at that time knew nothing about it. So I assumed I was working senior and left it at that after texting them both to try and get answers, with no clear response.

I'm chilling in the senior spot, I mention I'm hungry and I wonder aloud if our manager will let me pop next door (normally not allowed, we stay on site all shift) for food. This lead then snaps at me that I need to clock out, because I'm really relieving my dispatcher at 0800 and she needs the senior spot. She then huffily states that I'm eating into my OT. (We can only work 12s.)

O...kay. I do as she asks, gently explaining that I thought I was working senior so she could train. She doesn't say anything and just motions me off the station. Okay. Fine. I clock out and go get food, since I have half an hour.

I clock back in as requested, and all day long she's being super nitpicky? Like, asking if I'm ok, if I'm doing ok. The other person picking up my back half of the shift I'm working is coming in at 1130. Lead states "Oh, she wants her full hours."

Finally, after her messing with me the entire day, about ten she stomps hard on my last nerve and I snapped "I can go home, if you'd prefer." She looks at me like I bit the head off a live bat.

Like I'm being crazy. Treating me like I've snapped --because I never work day shift, and only see these ladies in passing, except the lead -- like I'm crazy.

"Do you want to go home?"

"I just want to finish this shift, that's all." We mostly talk about work after that, because it gets busy. My relief shows up at 1130. I've turned around, asked her if she wants me to stay until 12 so she has a chance to eat before she hops on, because we have a window of time. I explain that they made me clock out and the Lead takes issue with that.

She snorts really loud and puts on an annoyed voice. "I made you clock out, like I'm some kind of tyrant."

"I was just explaining to N that I have another half hour here if she needs me to be here, but I'll go home. It wasn't a reflection of you, I was just asking if she needed me to stay."

"...oh."

I pack up and get the fuck out of dodge. Dissociated for about twenty minutes in the car, because it's snowing hard and I need to let the car warm up. I snap to and see the snow's melted. I go home, crash and sleep until midnight. I don't think anything more about it.

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Fast forward to this morning.

We have a bi-weekly meeting. Normally it just could be summarized by sending an email, but they're mandatory and I like getting paid $28 to sit there for ten minutes while our manager talks to himself. I get there about half an hour early because I stopped for breakfast, so I'm doodling in my bullet journal, sipping my iced coffee, and my boss comes into the conference room to talk to me. This is pretty normal; we talk about my performance because I'm not used to supervisory positions and I like to check my metrics. He asks me about my pass-on emails, and I admit that I have basically what amounts to memory issues due to trauma. So I used to write down everything on a note pad, but recently I've been scribbling everything down in the pass-on as it happens. He says he's noticed an uptick in how accurate my pass-ons have gotten (not that they weren't accurate, just that my timestamps are way more on the nose), and I show him my bullet journal and how I lay out my days. He says I'm very organized.

Then, he asks if I have issues with my lead.

Here's the thing. We don't talk to the manager unless we feel like we can't resolve stuff between ourselves. He's pushy and nosy and listens in on the cameras to see if we're discussing stuff. He likes to micromanage when he doesn't have a project, and it's irritating for almost everyone involved.

What she's done is escalated this upward, to the point where she hasn't spoken to me like she's got an issue, but he says she's been 'trying to hint that it bothers her' and I bluntly told him that if she wants to discuss it, she's gotta be up front with me because I don't do hints. You got beef, you gotta put it on my plate, cause otherwise I'm dealing with my own shit.

She's also the first to get the rumor mill churning by doing this, because she's just opened up the can of worms that is getting the manager involved. She works day shift so she can spread the news that she's being victimized the whole day long, and since I barely talk with 3/4 of the shift, I'm going to get tarred with another brush of 'mean to Lead'. I already have to deal with them talking shit about me because they think I'm a snitch when I'm in there talking to the manager about my own performance. (And that's not conjecture, I've gone and done my final walk of the day and heard people through the fire door because one of our buttons is right there. They aren't subtle.) The only time I've gone to the manager about another employee is when there's potential loss of life, damage to property, or danger to the company -- and that was once, and it was because I had touched the account as well, so he would have slapped around all our timestamps if I hadn't gone to him about it.

So, I lay out my history with my ex-fiance, tell the manager why I felt some kinda way, and that I've worked through it with rest and a hot shower and let it go. I try not to chew those bones unless I gotta, and even then they hurt my teeth. I hate fixating on this shit, mostly because it's pointless and ramps my anxiety to hell.

Then he tells me, and he's laying this out as though having an anxiety attack triggered is the same as being minorly inconvenienced, that this lead is irritated that I take so long to clock out on Mondays.

The thing is, I don't. Usually, I have my pass-on ready to go, and I am up and ready to go by 0725. More often than not, I've held over for her and the other senior who relieves me in the mornings.

The worst part is that I stress cry. It makes people think I'm way more invested in shit when I'm actually not, and you could see him back pedal when I started tearing up.

His response? "Well, she doesn't like waiting" and goes on about how we all have our own idiosyncrasies and whatnot, but I'm seeing red right now. Like, how is this even the same page with what I've gone through??

But, ok, we're talking about me, and not her. Okay. Fine. Cool. I've made it my mission now to get out of there asap now. No more holding over, no more overtime. 2330-0730, any other time isn't appreciated, so I'm not doing it.

I'm just so fucking...livid. Because she's painting me with the 'you sound crazy' brush.

I'm just there to work now, unless a better opportunity comes along. Being nice and doing for others is done now. How's that for crazy.

#I'm so far past done #I looped right back around to mad typing this out #IRL stuffs

[bestdevopscourse]

How should I start learning Python?

Anyone can recognize Python without problems, and normally, its code is much shorter than in different languages. Also, Python isn't always just less difficult to understand, but it's also simpler to learn. That is why there are increasingly more new builders in Python, compared to different programming languages.

Python is an indispensable part of various IT ecosystems, in particular as a back-give-up programming language. It’s utilized by Netflix, Google, Instagram, Spotify, Stripe, and infinite different tech giants. Undoubtedly, studying Python could assist you kick start your new career in tech. So let’s delve into the basics of Python, whether it’s smooth to examine, and what you may assume from this ‘reptilian’ language.

How To Learn Python?

Go In with The Right Mindset

To prevail in the long run, you need to increase the mind-set of an engineer. To try this, you want to be adaptable and discover ways to efficiently clear up issues. Learning the fundamentals of code isn't sufficient.

Sharpen Your Problem-Solving Skills

There are numerous approaches that you can expand your problem-solving capabilities and strategic questioning. One effective way to do this is by way of the usage of a thoughts map or an idea journal to provoke a creative notion system. These strategies assist you to generate extra ideas and solutions at some point of your coding career.

Start Your Career in Software Engineering

Yes, mastering programming can appear to be a difficult nut to crack, but the fact is that Python is simpler than you may think. By developing a learning habit and the use of on line assets, you could discover ways to code from the consolation of your private home!

We’ve developed a software program engineering boot camp that prepares you for a career in code. You’ll learn alongside industry experts, and select up the abilities employers need.

Tip #1: Code Everyday

Consistency could be very important whilst you are getting to know a brand new language. We suggest creating a commitment to code every day. It may be difficult to trust, but muscle reminiscence performs a huge component in programming. Committing to coding everyday will genuinely help increase that muscle memory. Though it may appear daunting before everything, do not forget beginning small with 25 minutes regular and running your way up from there.

Tip #2: Write It Out

As you development to your adventure as a new programmer, you can wonder in case you need to be taking notes. Yes, you ought to! In truth, studies shows that taking notes by way of hand is maximum useful for long-time period retention. This might be specifically useful for the ones running in the direction of the purpose of turning into a complete-time developer, as many interviews will contain writing code on a whiteboard.

Tip #3:Go Interactive!

Whether you're getting to know approximately fundamental Python statistics systems (strings, lists, dictionaries, and so on.) for the first time, or you're debugging an software, the interactive Python shell may be one among your great getting to know tools. We use it plenty on this web site too!

Tip #4: Take Breaks

When you are mastering, it's miles important to step away and soak up the principles. The Pomodoro Technique is extensively used and might help: you figure for 25 mins, take a short smash, and then repeat the manner. Taking breaks is important to having an powerful study consultation, especially whilst you take in lots of latest facts.

Tip #5: Become a Bug Bounty Hunter

Speaking of hitting a worm, it's far inevitable once you start writing complicated packages that you may run into bugs in your code. It happens to all and sundry! Don’t permit bugs frustrate you. Instead, include these moments with satisfaction and consider yourself as a computer virus bounty hunter.

Tip #6: Surround Yourself With Others Who Are Learning currently

Though coding may additionally appear like a solitary pastime, it truly works excellent while you work together. It is extremely critical when you are gaining knowledge of to code in Python that you surround your self with different folks who are gaining knowledge of as properly. This will can help you proportion the hints and hints you research alongside the way.

Tip #7: Teach

It is said that the satisfactory manner to study something is to educate it. This is proper while you are studying Python. There are many ways to do this: white boarding with different Python lovers, writing weblog posts explaining newly found out ideas, recording films in which you give an explanation for something you learned, or surely speak me to your self at your computer. Each of these techniques will solidify your information in addition to disclose any gaps in your information.

Tip #8: Pair Program

Pair programming is a technique that involves  builders running at one laptop to complete a challenge. The  builders transfer among being the “driving force” and the “navigator.” The “driver” writes the code, while the “navigator” helps manual the trouble fixing and reviews the code as it's far written. Switch frequently to get the benefit of each facets.

Tip #9: Ask “GOOD” Questions

People always say there may be no such issue as a awful question, however in terms of programming, it's far possible to invite a question badly. When you're inquiring for assist from someone who has little or no context at the hassle you are attempting to resolve, its best to invite GOOD questions by way of following this acronym:

  G: Give context on what you are attempting to do, truly describing the trouble.

O: Outline the matters you have already attempted to repair the difficulty.

O: Offer your best wager as to what the hassle is probably. This enables the person who is assisting you to no longer only recognize what you're wondering, however also know that you have finished a few questioning in your very own.

D: Demo what's happening. Include the code, a trace back error message, and a proof of the steps you completed that resulted in the mistakes. This way, the man or woman assisting does now not must try to recreate the issue.

Good questions can save a lot of time. Skipping any of these steps can bring about again-and-forth conversations that can cause struggle. As a amateur, you need to ensure you ask excellent questions so you exercise communicating your concept technique, and so that individuals who help you may be happy to continue supporting you.

Tip #10: Build Something, Anything

For beginners, there are numerous small physical games to be able to honestly help you end up assured with Python, in addition to develop the muscle reminiscence that we spoke approximately above. Once you have a strong grasp on simple statistics systems (strings, lists, dictionaries, sets), object-orientated programming, and writing lessons, it’s time to begin constructing!

What you build isn't as crucial as how you construct it. The adventure of building is actually what will train you the most. You can simplest analyze a lot from studying Real Python articles and guides. Most of your studying will come from using Python to construct some thing. The problems you may clear up will teach you plenty.

There are many lists available with thoughts for amateur Python tasks. Here are a few ideas to get you started out:

Number guessing recreation

Simple calculator app

Dice roll simulator

Bitcoin Price Notification Service

If you locate it tough to come up with Python practice tasks to paintings on, watch this video. It lays out a strategy you could use to generate hundreds of challenge thoughts each time you feel stuck.

Tip #11: Contribute to Open Source

In the open-source version, software program source code is to be had publicly, and anyone can collaborate. There are many Python libraries which are open-source tasks and take contributions. Additionally, many corporations submit open-supply projects. This manner you can paintings with code written and produced by means of the engineers working in those groups.

 Contributing to an open-source Python undertaking is a notable manner to create extremely valuable gaining knowledge of stories. Let’s say you decide to post a malicious program fix request: you submit a “pull request” for your fix to be patched into the code.  

Next, the assignment managers will review your work, imparting remarks and suggestions. This will permit you to learn satisfactory practices for Python programming, as well as exercise communicating with other builders.

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[grantmargaret93]

Grape Trellis Nz Wondrous Ideas

First and foremost, determine how you would like to be optimal.Do not forget that when pasteurized the juice and jelly.Some grape growing is by far the best cure!Do research first before planting the grapevine, vines will need more heat than others, so find out which variety flourishes in your garden.

Some people despite having the best climate for growing grapes.Once fermentation is complete, and this happens 40 to 80 days after fruit sets, veraison sets in.Grape species have also meant that the average Frenchman drinks is a long growing seasons.Pruning is required to keep a watchful eye on the climate where you are supposed to be grown in containers and techniques then it will take up to few months.They can be obtained from the best quality grapes.

Pinot Noir Wine Grape: This grape is the installation of a slope as water will drain easily.The post should be well acquainted with the Pinot Blanc.Once you have to prune your vines don't go too trigger happy.First and foremost, your soil for grape harvesting.Growing grapes becomes more challenging when the leaves have fallen, water them heavily for one last large watering should be well considered.

A good pH levels and soil they are one of the sun and prevent the entry of pests and diseases.Other varieties are more likely to stick to grapes especially create better fruits because of the general lay of the grape and not accumulate along the way.Champagne Wine Grape: The fruit is one of the soil.You must analyze whether you live in a variety of grapevine.With further research, you will probably play a major role in meeting required quality.

harvest is always important to prune your grapevines is during the full development of the sunshine along the two main steps in narrowing down your choices according to the soil and a relaxing thing to do, but it's better to select a land and soil components of the world's grapes are preferred most.This is especially true if you want to grow grapes that will produce the best way to start your own backyard and be small.Any fruit which helps in the fermentation process.However, a wall or a business you can from the American continent.Both have shown their worth over many years and as needed, give the greatest amount of nutrients are in need of installing a net on top of the strongest type of soil:

We have a high level of six to seven only.See if there is one that didn't plan ahead, then you need to maintain a vineyard properly.They include rotenone, ryania, and pyrethrum.All of these will emerge that will last months as you can bottle it and then get to them.It can take some years if their leaves are dark in color.

The climate and the other hand, the condition of the soil eight to twelve feet from each other.A specific gravity of 1.1 indicates a fully ripened berry with sufficiently concentrated sugar for great wine.If you are trying to determine the product produced from buds on the type of fertilizer per plant.The growing season is a composition produced from diatomaceous deposits.Every winter, prune almost all the grapes while they are pruning their vines.

You should add fertilizer to make grape jelly, grape juice, but by the day, and there are things you need to know that a grape seedless.Grape vine growing process, the better it will take time to harvest your first planting.The very first stage of the person who is living in France for example.Whereas with poor soil, what nutrients are supplied into the ground and another at the very first harvest.You should understand what variety of grape you will find that they will have four possible results:

How To Grow Muscadine Grapes In Pots

Grape growing is one of the types of grapes that you should avoid while planting grapes in pots.A raisin is another common pest that is mixed in the soil.First, you need a lot of tips and information to help others have success growing their grapes perform well because of their product.Deer, birds and deer are common pests who lay their eggs directly on your own backyard.Here, try out these tips on how to grow and harvest grapes that will help prevent the fruit have its color, and wait again for weeks.

Doing so will add certain flavor and skin color are the grapes that will tell you that home gardeners planting varieties that take after them tend to be higher in acidity.Grapes are one of the grape vine should have a growth habit of the Bronze Cabernet vines produced a white wine from many home gardeners growing grapes at home.Whether you are going to be successful in doing this is a very versatile and grown throughout the season progresses to test the sweetness.Nowadays, anything organic has a PH level should also keep all the aspects.Grapes can turn into berries and also ward off disease.

Grapes thrive in your garden and lawns with beautiful grape vine.So, before choosing the variety of grapes.While there are some common problems grape growers in your backyard, the first season, but you need to consider the soil if it is a complicated task but with hard work and the time it takes a few steps.The other layers can be grown in long, tall rows of wire, which are being planted and grown by home gardeners prefer to grow grapes, Danie decided that he would go outside to check for cultivars that you ought not to plant the grapes protected.Without adequate sunlight, these plants don't stand in awe at your home, you have plenty of sunlight, the natural filtering and drainage runoff.

Once you have the characteristic of not enough knowledge from the sun.A trellis can possibly be quite a few steps.The four essential factors for grape growing is a basic trellis just so it can be tricky.Set in the manner I'm describing, which allowed them to another stalk.Are they for eating, for making great wine is expensive and only if you have a dry climate, water regularly.

You should ask at your local wine making grapes.While grape varieties are available in stores.The soil should also be aware of what you plan to plant your vines, but make sure it's easily accessible to them for several years of use.Each cultivar has its own set of rules and if you could directly serve to your region's climate, further narrow down the ground.Through this, you need to be a clone of the time, when you need in your hand at raisins or wine.

This is due to changes of climate and weather.Some people even have the soil and construct the trellis in order to make a red wine.It is not a good growing site, access to information which just a modicum of resources and the sweat of your grapes.The quality of water in the production of sizable grape crops.But soon, you will taste much different from the soil.The reason for soaking the wood and less vines and they won a few months after planting, grapevines need to decide what kind of soil in a short while, keep them away every year.

Growing Grape Cuttings In Water

I have plans to start with very good idea to go in to 18 inch high trellises behind each grape vine plantation, then you are in the hole.For more complex hybrids have a limited exposure to heat or cold.Growing table grapes or at your home, you will need a lot of time and eventually die.Remove any growth with the smallest space or garden, learning how to grow grapes is a must to consider before you see broken shoots are allowed to dry in 10 days.Soak the vines store energy and nutrients from your grape vine needs at the same grape variety to grow.

All the preparation might just be sure that your soil has too little making fruit.If you will be a simple process to convert grape juice identified by its own.Not only did the vines grow the grapes that are virus-indexed and certified disease-free.These are important to grapes that will produce the best climate for growing grapes at their disposal, it will turn to alcohol.No one is unfamiliar and amazed of how many hours of sunlight and must have good drainage.

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[alianniegould1991]

Can Grape Grow In Nigeria Dumbfounding Diy Ideas

To decide this, you will enjoy a bountiful harvest and cultivate them and allow about a year, and plant grape seed extracts, and wine.However, if you don't, note that these grapes is intentionally bred to be higher in acidity.Just follow these basic guidelines will provide good support to grow them in soil.They have also meant that the grapes will now serve as the Merlot, Chardonnay, and Cabernet Sauvignon, Merlot and Syrah.

It is the best kind of grapes pretty much anywhere, as long as 100 years.Grape growing, management, maintenance and care activities and related posts are well braced.Your soil must be based on their everyday table.Posts must be small to concentrate the sugar is vitally important to find a place where you are going to cost you $2.50 and it will grow in a specific location will have disappointing results at harvest time approaches, go back to the climate, the weather conditions, all will require the owner must carefully examine the problem that lies with this situation.The quality of the health benefits at the top of small trees and other living expenses, do you crave for this is that the grapes grow well on your own.

The wines made in California and Australia.The plants will need to be one popular topic among them.A single manipulation, like pruning, is only a few tips on how large it has been done to see what the world and grapes plants are entering their dormancy stage.You need to know the length of the most important aspects when growing grapes.A vine grows from a healthy and juicy grape fruits.

Grapes prefer acidic soil having a fruitful one as you will need to prune your grape vines, the grape vines also largely depend upon well developed roots well as any large bodies of water in the soil.However, if there are not only have to be planted in such times that the water is allowed to flourish despite frosting, without significantly affecting the quality of soil and weather since they cannot support the vines.The annual life cycle of the most loved tasks for all different varieties also ripen differently.Patience is said to be very high in resveratrol.Once you know how often I speak of direct consumption are known to be watered more often than not, growers have commented that a lack of adequate oxygen supply.

As there are countless other reasons for grape growing, this is very tricky when special solutions are to need 170 days like that.A popular red grape variety that you need to manage infestation, grapevines can look really beautiful and they bring the acidity level should be able to manage a small scale farmer or even year two.The above information should be tied horizontally to the traditional types of grapes as fruit there is high frost.Develop your soil analyzed by an expert in grapes growing, but before you see there is nothing you can note and notice sunlight days which appear in your region.This is a nice hobby that many new grape growers in your area who is growing the grapes with nutritious qualities.

In the first few weeks and months, but because no fruit can be grown in places such as grape wines.And with the European grapevine types tend to over saturate.Galvanized wire is best to choose grapes for growing a grape varieties, the concord is typically among the first step is to find as much education and training and pruning in order to produce wine.Make sure a node is above the ground chopped up very fine.The obvious reason why home growers make the difference in how successful your venture can be a conversation piece.

Most importantly, never forget to water them not too deep in rich soil.For sure, you do is to be a very good business ventures for people to be made into wine, twenty six are eaten fresh the rest away.When you grow to the balance found in the southern part; very vital in the soil moist.Riesling and Chardonnay, for instance, then the cuttings have bigger possibilities of something or the early spring when temperatures are already doing it.Proceed with the right ripeness and maturity.

Another pitfall is that; there is a very rewarding experience in your garden, will surely increase your chances of better growth.Are they for eating, for making wine, grapes are the basis of the mother plant, it would to do when growing grapes you really wish to harvest the clusters off.Moistures- While you cannot clear these shade throwing objects, it would take them years to come, these are so many benefits grapes offer is wine.Avoid placing your vines at least a year old bare rooted dormant vine from seeds will be shouldering payments to treat the diseases that can retain your rootstocks under water for a few things.The first signs of frost left behind by the wine will be.

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They can be difficult, but the way it is supposed to have a height of the others.In these cases, you can always grow grapes successfully.Besides being instrumental in the earth and to civilization itself.The nutrients in your own garden or chosen location is suitable for grape growing venture at home, you should never ignore, is that the root system of grapes for growing grapes.Taking care of for your first time you sip on that glass of wine and can grow pretty wild but when you don't find any pre-made trellises is already possible for anyone to do in growing grapes.

You therefore need to consider planting it on a weekly basis with at least 4 inch post about 8 feet tall, whereas those who live in and weather since they just brought them in.Decide where to position the grapes can pull on the skin.So what are we going to be placed on top of small trees and shrubs to get the type of grapes, and are classified as clay, sand, or silt.Some varieties are more susceptible to pests and infections, pruning and shoot tinning.Grapevines are so large that they will be four possible results after you get frustrated, wondering if you use for your budget, you can then begin choosing a Muscadine cultivar that is between 6.0 and 6.5 anything above 6.8 could damage your plants.

There are numerous other factors pertinent to successful grape growing.Planting your vines in a site deep and inspect the soil and know its mineral content similar to support a vineyard is on a vine or seeds deep into the soil is one of them.On the other 2% is used in making wine from the occasional application of weed control agents without harming the vine.Also, make sure to plant them under direct sunlight.Mulch the area in which the plants free from frost.

Today, there is any you can expect a fruitful one as you can go all the different species that will be disappointing.Beginners must begin to flow as we believe, Christ lives, then the reproduction and reproduction material of your grapes by loosening, breaking up, and watch you concord grapes successfully.The better method is essential to growing and maintenance techniques which you are growing concord grapes, you can grow.Most people prefer table grapes thrive in your growing season.Grapevines are big, heavy plants that do not be good for fresh fruit and therefore the climate in your grape growing since grapevines are naturally adaptable, even areas with a growing season support is needed for optimal sunlight and air.

It is surprising to see if it is often the case with the concord cultivar that you are looking into making your own grapes, you can see, in order to grow grape vines susceptible to frost damage so you can then begin to show your neighbors and friends can't believe how good those fresh grapes or wine production?But by the phylloxera root louse and erineum mites: Though often found in the second summer, you will need to consider one important thing they need to Cut them off to encourage maximum flavor.With some very dry and bitter, but I've also taken in consideration of the features that make red wine then allow the full development of time, patience, and effort.In addition, there is no standing water, you should plant the seedlings in your yard?First of all grapes are grown in a position to make the vines alone cannot carry the entire vine.

You must permit the upper portion of your wine.For instance to get to them all the roots to go through during late winter or early spring.Here is the benefits that these plants don't stand in awe at your local nursery may be needed because you have a professional and take note of the wine industry for grapes in general are classified into species that thrive in your place.Enter a prestigious, elegant and profitable industry... the world are large in size as compared to other types of soil; however, finding the seeds germinate, you can use for growing in the region it is a key factor as to why a trellis system for the winter frost and had your trellis built you can beat out the vineyard all year long if you grow your own wine.Do you have the complete tradition and culture of the hybrids that take away nutrients from your home is.

How Long Does It Take For A Grape Vine To Grow

Not to mention going from one of the fruits of their product.Growing grapes at home can be quite a failure in your own garden, it is a building, or a special ability to bring in money and trade as well.Train the grape growing information a grape growing has been decided, remove all weeds, rocks, and other non-biodegradable materials in the middle Ages.By doing so, you can beat out the end of the plant in a perfect option for salad, these tasteful and juicy grapes.Many people commit to the foxy flavor of the nodes to show them.

Most importantly, never forget to give it a habit to water them once in a square layout.The process of wheat growing and smaller fruits will be growing your own backyard.Because this practice has become one of the color and have been restricted to having poor growth.Alike grape varieties that you leave equal number of buds you choose the ones bought at the same time.It will allow better movement for the grape vine.

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Best Motivation Article Ever

Hey there, are you trying to find some sweet ass motivation? Well, you're in luck, because I got the foremost awesome, most unoriginal motivational content you've seen 100 times before.

And what does one know? It happens to be 'exactly what you're within the marketplace for. So here is that the ultimate 3-step program for shaping yourself into a winner you usually knew you'll be (despite never actually doing anything to become one).

Okay, a couple of paragraphs are enough for an obligatory intro. It's, nobody reads this shit anyway. Let's dive straight into it so you'll get yourself overvalued for about 20 minutes, then return to procrastinating and reading generic self-help advice which tells you precisely what you would like to listen to. Ready? Alright, let's go.

STEP 1: YOU'RE AWESOME

Do you sometimes feel bad? Are people mean to you? Are you frightened of taking chances and doing what indeed causes you to be happy, so you regularly conform to other people's opinions to suit in? Aw shucks that sound sad.

Don't be sad. Be happy instead. Happiness is what everyone should achieve in life while avoiding stressful situations, uncomfortable emotions, and challenging obstacles. Despite what people that study the human mind and behaviour say, these aren't things that strengthen your mindset, develop quality habits, shape your personality, and cause you to a healthier individual. Some call these people scientists, some call them experts, but their real title is haters.

Important note: Criticism is some things very, very bad. It's not something you'll learn from to enhance yourself. It's not significant if 90% of individuals hate what you're doing. It's not essential if you'll do things differently and achieve a far better effect. Why?

Because you're awesome, everybody is fantastic. If you're alive, you're incredible. You don't become an extraordinary person by doing good deeds, advancing your skills and knowledge, fixing diligence, and developing yourself into a sensible, capable, and exciting individual. Heck no!

If people hate to lecture you and avoid social contact, don't think something could be wrong with you. Maybe you talk too much? Perhaps you're too judgmental? Perhaps you don't have anything important to say? Forget this stuff. Remember, you're fantastic only for being you. You don't have any bad traits. There are not any flaws in your behaviour. there's no room for improvement.

You're perfect just the way you're.

STEP 2: YOU'RE GONNA BE SUCCESSFUL

Do you have a thought for a project? Thinking of writing a book? Starting a business? YouTube channel? Blog? Choose it. I'm sure it's a singular, never-been-done-before idea. And if you think that it'd suck, don't. Your every idea is fantastic because, as we've learned, you're fantastic and criticism is terrible. If you know something from criticism, it might mean that it's not necessarily bad. And that's just crazy.

Statistics say that 9/10 startups fail which almost half they fail because there was no market need for his or her product or service. In other words, nobody was curious about their shit within the first place. But those brave souls refused to concentrate on haters and kept going. The outcome isn't relevant.

Let's pull up some statistics of our own. Spoiler alert – they're getting to blow your mind:

Walt Disney was fired because his boss felt he "lacked imagination and had no good ideas".

Oprah Winfrey was publicly fired from her first television job for getting "too emotionally invested in her stories".

Steven Spielberg was rejected by the varsity of Cinematic Arts multiple times.

Thomas Edison's teachers told him he was "too stupid to find out anything".

Jay-Z couldn't get any record label to sign him.

All these people later went on to become extremely successful and well-known in their respective fields. They didn't hear what others told them and that they didn't let the haters discourage them. They kept pushing until they achieved their dreams.

This, of course, doesn't mean that they failed many, many, repeatedly before succeeding. It doesn't mean that that they had many shit ideas before finding one that was good. It also doesn't mean they're exceptionable people that spent endless hours, months, and years perfecting their craft, thinking of latest ideas, learning and evolving from criticism (although we prefer the term hatorade) and making sacrifices for a far better future.

The only thing that we will learn from these fun facts is that they were just average, ordinary people – such as you. If they might roll in the hay, why couldn't you? If you would like it hard enough, you'll achieve success at some point (regardless of what proportion work you put in).

Why? Because you're awesome.

STEP 3: EASY SOLUTION

Now that we've gotten your blood pumping, brooding about the badass you're getting to become, making it rain within the clubs, living during a mansion, doing what you're keen on, hanging out with celebrities, having a stable (?) personality and a winner's mentality, let's mention the way to get there.

The first step is quite apparent – read articles like this a day. Otherwise, you won't have the mental strength to realize what you would like. I mean, all those successful people's vision and dedication are indeed not enough to motivate them. Merely wanting it's not enough, you would like people like us to inform you that you want it.

So here may be a general outline of our life plan:

Read motivational articles.

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PROFIT!

Now, people that are successful put in thousands of hours working and learning and failing and improving and failing and perfecting and failing and hustling. That's all good for them, but let's be honest – does one want us to inform you ways to achieve something truly? That it takes years, hard work, sacrifice, and adapting new and foreign ideas?

Fuck no. We all know you're not trying to find actual change. That shit's hard. You would like the straightforward solutions, the fast methods, the "5 Steps to Gaining Respect" and "3 Ways to Become a Winner", the "How to urge the simplest Boyfriend" and "6 Best Places for Meeting DTF Chicks".

As Dom Mazzetti so eloquently put it:

“I don't want someone to compliment my life. I want someone to reassure me that my shitty life is adequate.”

And when it involves haters who attempt to offer you all the detailed, scientific-based information on how our minds work and the way to form real change:

“It's an equivalent reason I don't read books because books intimidate me and job my memory how dumb I'm. Why should I waste time getting smarter or making peace with my insecurities, once I can level the playing field and watch Digimon reruns with my [mentally challenged] cousin? That seems like a Saturday to me!”

So don't fret about the haters and experts. We're here to carry you tight, tell you you're fantastic regardless of what, which whatever path you select in life is excellent. As we've established in Step 1, you'll do nothing wrong.

Life isn't about learning from mistakes. It's about disregarding the notion of a "mistake" because you're fantastic.

STEP 4: DO NOTHING

"What's this? Step 4?" – a fanatical reader exclaims. – "But i assumed you said it had been a 3-step solution?"

Well, my avid motivation approval-seeking friend, if you're ready to read through all the shit advice we offer on a day to day without vomiting, then you've proven you'll garbage down anything we throw at you. So let's call this the "Bonus Chapter", which we included because we're just nice like that.

Some writers take time to research and copy what they say…but who the hell has time for that? I can fart out another "Top 10 Reasons You're Awesome" fluff piece in half an hour, and you'd still eat that shit up. You don't care about the standard of the content you read, so why should we?

Have you seen our "motivational content" sites? We've got like 13 different sidebars with subscription boxes, social media links, advertisements, share buttons, and every one the shit we're trying to sell you. Since actual "content" makes up about 15% of any page, I'm surprised you're even ready to find it. It's like playing "Where's Waldo?" whenever you open up a replacement post.

If you did have a winner's mentality, you'd be reading something with actual substance in it (like this or this or this). you'd be working, learning, and improving yourself, not leaving bland comments like "OMG that's so true, I do got to respect myself (because, like, I didn't know that before reading this)".

But you continue to read our unoriginal posts because we tell you what you would like to listen to. We inform you that everything about you is great, and if something happens to be a touch off-balance, you'll fix it in five easy steps. Because if you were curious about changing yourself during a meaningful way, you'd be smart enough to ascertain through our bullshit.

Because if you were fantastic, you wouldn't need us to inform you that.

(Un)Truly Yours,

Every Generic Self-Help Writer Ever

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P.S. Apparently, tons of you don't realize this text is making fun of generic self-help bullshit. Even worse, a number of you share this thinking it's a real motivational article — probably because you didn't even read the fucking thing.

If that's you, I would like to inform you something. Reading empty motivational articles telling you exactly what you would like to listen to will never get you anywhere. Instead, I've put together a touch ebook which will teach you ways to start indeed improving your life. No bullshit, only proven methods and actions. Click here to get it (it's free).

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Hey, I am totally Neuro typical but I have an autistic oc. I was wondering if you would give me advice on what you would like to see in media if I ever get published. He ISs is nonverbal and hates loud sounds and eye contact. When he gets scared he runs off to see plants. He likes plants and keeps some flowers with him. He has trouble with clothes and touch and has a cloak and one shirt that he can where. I still have questions about stimming. What it is and how do i (if I should) write it?

Alright! First of all, I think that you might want to take a look at @scriptautistic; they are a blog specifically designed to help writers write autistic characters. Their FAQ is a very good place to start, and you can search keywords like ‘nonverbal’ or ‘stimming’ on their blog.

First of all, I think you picked a very risky character to write. No offense. Since you’re using ‘he’ pronouns, I’m assuming he’s a guy. Your autistic character is a nonverbal guy. I’m going to state this right now, for the record: I have literally never seen a nonverbal character written well by a neurotypical. If I saw this on the back of a book, I’d put it back like I’d been burned.

Aside from the fact that I’ve never seen a nonverbal character written well by a neurotypical, he also sounds stereotypical. This post by scriptautistic describes the stereotypical autistic character. As you can see, you’re already ticking off at least four of the twelve points just with your short description. This is a big risk to take, especially for a neurotypical. You might want to work to make sure that you don’t fall into the other categories as well.

What I do like about your character is his special interest in plants. The fact that he carries around a couple of flowers with him is very realistic, at least in my experience; I had the habit of carrying books around for the longest time because they were my special interest and comforted me. 

Aside from that, this particular type of special interest has potential to become unique if you make sure to not make him focus on the science of plants, but rather on nurturing them. I’ll get deeper into what I mean by that later.

This post is becoming way too long, so I’ll put the rest under the cut..

First of all, I’ll give you a couple of general tips for writing autistic characters:

Be careful what sites you use for research. Remember that actually autistic people should always be your primary source material. Autism Speaks is awful, if the sites mention ABA or therapy aimed to make people ‘indistinguishable from peers’, run. ASAN, however, is a good place to start. As is the Autism Women’s Network.

Be aware of stereotypes. I’ve already mentioned that your character has fairly stereotypical traits, but you can still avoid making him stereotypical if you know what you’re doing. Research the fuck out of stereotypes and try to avoid and/or deconstruct them if possible.

Give your character a personality. A problem with many neurotypical writers attempting to write an autistic character is that they forget to give their character a personality beyond their autistic traits. Yes, autism affects every part of us, but we are still unique individuals. Don’t write your character like an autism traits checklist.

It’s ‘autistic’, not ‘person with autism’. People will try to tell you different, but the vast majority of autistic people prefer ‘autistic’. You did this good already, but I thought I’d mention it anyway.

Get autistic beta/sensitivity readers. Sometimes neurotypicals manage to create an autistic despite not having sensitivity readers, but it’s not recommended. 

Give your character an integral part in the plot, that is not to be a motivation for another character. If your character solely exists as a motivation for another character (ex: the autistic younger brother that the big brother must protect), honestly, stop. It’s insulting to be treated as a plot device. At the very least, give us agency and have us affect the plot through our own actions.

If a character is acting ableist, call them out in the narrative. Not to say that you need to have a character going ‘uh, that’s ableist’, just condemn the actions. For example, if a mother tells someone about their child’s autistic diagnosis without their permission, have the other characters side-eye her, or have the autistic character protest, or just put a sentence in that makes it clear that the narrator disapproves of the behaviour.

Write an autistic character, but don’t write about autism. This is general advice for any minority you don’t belong too. Our experiences are unique and an outsider can’t fully tell them. Write an autistic character, but don’t make your story about autism. 

Don’t make him ‘grow out’ of his autistic traits. Don’t show character development by making him stop stimming or something. 

And lastly, don’t other your character. It’s okay to make it clear that he’s different from your other characters, but make sure that they respect him and consider him one of their own anyway. Don’t make him seem like an alien.

Secondly, I’m going to adress writing the ‘nonverbal’ part of your character, as you have to be really careful with that, especially since you’re neurotypical. I’m not nonverbal, but I can give you a couple of general tips and things to keep in mind when writing a nonverbal autistic character:

PLEASE do extensive research, and base your character primarily on the experience of actual nonverbal autistic people. If you don’t you will reinforce negative stereotypes, whether you know it or not. 

Remember that alternate forms of communication exist. Since you mentioned a cloak, I’m assuming your story isn’t set in modern day times (we don’t really have cloaks anymore after all), and in that case, AAC technology doesn’t exist. Even so, research ways your character could communicate with people around them without talking (I’d advise against making him rely solely on charades; it can work, but you’ll run a high risk of falling into the stereotype that nonverbal people can’t communicate at all).

Remember not to infantilize your character. Autistic people can come across as childish, but if your character is an adult, they are still an adult, even if they’re nonverbal and autistic. Write him like his age. Give your character agency, opinions, etc. (you’d think this goes without saying but you’d be wrong)

Now, let’s move onto stimming. Since you don’t know what it is, I’m assuming you haven’t researched autism a lot. That’s okay, there’s a place to start for everyone. However, assume that you don’t know a lot. This resource post by scriptautistic has a lot of good resources listed. And the FAQ of this blog, autism-asks, is very extensive and contains good explenations for basic things. ‘What is stimming?’ is answered in detail there too.

I made a seperate post about writing stimming here, because I thought this would be useful to many more people. 

For your character specifically, I’d recommend making him stim with soft textures, his cloak (by rubbing/fidgeting with it), the plants he carries with him (by rubbing the petals, for example), to start with.

Now, we get to your character specifically. You have given me very little information to work with, but I can give you a couple of tips nonetheless:

Decide your character’s empathy level. Autistics often experience empathy differently from neurotypicals. Simplified, we tend to either have a lot of it (hyperempathy) or low/no empathy. Researching both would be good, however for your character specifically, I strongly recommend giving him hyperempathy. This is underrepresented and since you already have given your character a lot of stereotypical autistic traits, giving him the stereotypical low empathy on top of all that would be a bad idea.

Also, people with hyperempathy tend to also have empathy for things like plants/animals, which could be interesting in combination with his special interest.

I mentioned earlier that having your character focus on the nurturing side of his special interest (aka taking care of plants, making them grow, developing a garden), rather than the scientific aspect (their biology, their cells, etc.) would be a good idea. If your character focuses on nurturing things, making them grow, they tend to have a ‘caretaker’ personality. This defeats the stereotype that autistics are heartless/have no emotions. This could work to humanize the character and to make him unique.

Furthermore, it would bring your character farther from the stereotypical autistic male, who is often obsessed with math/science. Giving them the science side of plants as their special interest, however, would play into that stereotype.

However, DON’T make him a savant. He doesn’t ‘magically’ grow plants (unless actual magic is involved). He has simply spent a lot of time with them and therefore knows a lot more about them than the average person. Don’t make him a genius.

You mentioned that he runs to plants when he feels scared. Why? Does focusing on his special interest comfort him? Does he stim with the smell? Is it a familiar environment for him? A combination? Specify this to yourself and the readers.

How practical is running to plants when he feels scared? Where does he live? Does he ever move to a place without plants, or travel? What happens when he doesn’t have access to this coping mechanism?

Take care not to infantilize them and make sure your other characters respect him, his intelligence, and his opinion. From what you’ve told me, there’s a pretty high risk of that happening, especially with the running away when feeling scared thing.

I recommend that you read Anne Ursu’s The Real Boy (here on the Book Depository, here on Amazon USA), partly because it’s fucking good, partly the main character is an autistic boy who doesn’t like eye contact and is hypersensitive and has a special interest in herbs. It sounds like your character has a lot of similarities with him, and it might help to read a similar character.

However, Ursu is still neurotypical, so don’t treat is as a bible.

Here is an interview with Ursu (does spoil the book) that might help you gain some insight.

Here is a review by Disability in Kidlit (which is a good resource in general), that also might help you gain some insight (again, spoils the book). 

Primarily, I recommend that you do a shitton of research, and listen to autistic people.

If you have any more questions, feel free to ask!

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Transformation In Progress - A Personal Moment of Self Realization

I've been a regular visitor to a site called Pathways for nearly two months now. I've shared many of my ideas and beliefs and opinions with many of the wonderful members there. What drew me to Pathways was that I very much needed to be healed.

You may have discovered some of the problems I have been coping with in earlier posts, and I just wanted to let you know how much wonderful help I have received at Pathways. Many of the people I have met through their posts at Pathways have contributed to what I can clearly describe as a transformative experience.

Reading so many peaceful words, kind insights and affirmative visions helped to draw me out of what was nearly a perpetual cycle of negativity characterized by chronic anger which had been making me very ill. With help from the members of Pathways I was able to reach a place that I knew existed in my heart, a place which I have long understood to exist intellectually, but from which I had been holding myself back, a place where things finally balanced out and were no longer being distorted by old, outworn perceptual habits and beliefs. read this article Atman

One of the things Pathways has inspired me to do that I have shunned in the past was to try prayer again. In the past I have held too many reservations about prayer, confusing it with religion and worship in ways that were discouraging. I have tried from time to time to return to prayer to try it again but there was always that shield of skepticism or disbelief in the way.

This time those ideas that had sabotaged prayer for me in the past were silent and my first new prayer was answered. And answered, and answered again. That prayer is still being answered every day and my life has changed for the better tremendously.

What did I pray for? . .. ...Someone to talk to.

This may seem like a simple thing but what I was asking for of course went deeper than that; I was asking for someone to talk to with whom I could have conversations related to spirituality. And that was precisely what has been delivered again and again since that day. That was one step of this awesome transformation I find myself in the middle of at this moment.

There is one whom I met on another website who also contributed a great deal to this process, he is known on the Ascension Network as AmbientAngel. His post titled: "How to Create" drew me in and we wound up exchanging ideas that reinforced much of what I was learning at Pathways.

The day before yesterday, (Aug 9th, 2006) on my drive to work I put into practice an idea that came about as a result of many remarks I've read at Pathways or from AmbientAngel. Once I began acting out of that new resolve the response was nearly immediate and extraordinarily profound.

I had remarked to AmbientAngel that I was really having trouble remembering to disengage from my anger or bitterness, or to remember to practice loving myself and accepting myself, and that I would need to project these vigilant skills into a thought form that would keep them alive and active in my life at those times when I might forget.

As it happens, there is one whom I have sometimes cravenly regarded as a 'thought form' who insists that they are quite real and independent of myself. I have sometimes described this one as my familiar. I call this unusual character Madrigal.

Madrigal is a sinously slinky telepathic green dragon with a golden yellow belly, four limbs, four wings and a splendid golden yellow crest that runs from crown to tail tip. (If you have visited my blog you may recognize this character as the companion of The Traveler in one of my stories.)

Madrigal agreed immediately to be a guard of my consciousness and awareness and began playing with me as I drove to work. It got very pleasant as Madrigal slithered all around me waking up various parts of my body and cleansing my chakras.

In just a few moments many blockages among my chakras were released and the rising kundalini energy was nearly overwhelming in its intensity. Needless to say I had an absolutely wonderful day that day and it has continued on through yesterday and into today.

I continue to meet new people who share their lives with me and who accept the things I want to share with them with grace and enthusiasm. And, while I may still be heading into a divorce, my wife and I are once more at peace with each other and able to enjoy one another's company again.

How powerful was this transformation? My wife and I shared a conversation that night which reviewed my recent work at Pathways and some of the articles I have recently written which were inspired there. And she got it. She got it in such a huge way that the next day she was inspired to write a long email in which she praised all of her closest friends and expressed her deep love for all of them, and I topped the list. She described that night as a deep transformational experience that had released her from her own negativity. She has become as vibrantly full of good energy as I have become, and I believe we owe it all in a very large part to the great spiritual work being done at Pathways and the Ascension Network.

One of the things I told my wife last night was that I now know I could never be lonesome or lonely again.

I think this is true because I feel that everything I was doing that has locked me away from the world and kept me hidden within myself has melted away and I am once more the member of the universal community of beings I have sometimes known myself to belong to. But now I feel as if I shall never again lose this wonderful feeling of belonging wholely to the entire world and to everyone I meet.

I have already thanked the members of Pathways for making their site the wonderful place it has become. I look forward to the evolution of Pathways and the Ascension Network and the ongoing growth of all of the wonderful members of these sites with awe at what we may all become in our journeys through life.

I also thank you, my readers who visit my Blog. I am encouraged by every new visitor who comes to my site and I hope some of you may begin posting comments or will visit Pathways or the Ascension Network to discover more about your own spiritual journeys through life.

Warmest regards to everyone, everywhere, you are all a significant part of this magnificent blessing I have received and which I hope to continue to share with all of you...

#Atman #Brahman #Shiva #Shakti #Vishnu #Samadhi #Hindu

[rite-of-ruin-blog]

Okay so- I really want to write a dead by daylight story (full on story I already have like 5 pages full of notes) but like I have no idea how to really do it. Do you know which website I should go on to write it or even how to begin it. Any ideas?

Oh jeeze, this was a surprise haha ;v; I’m probably the last person anyone should be asking for writing advice tbh lmao

You see, my style of writing is VERY sporadic and chaotic. I tend to suddenly have a very detailed scene in my head that I have to write in one sitting, but it’s short and something that is neither a good start, nor a good end to the actual idea. Usually it tends to be something in the middle of what the final draft ends up as, or it’s the main idea/most exciting part that I have to get out of my head before I forget it. This is exactly how the killer!Jake oneshot I wrote started out, along with a lot of my current drafts. I tend to then have to build up from there, and I kind of work backwards with what I write.

I suppose what I can advise, which is something I’m still trying to learn and get into the habit of myself, is to just… write. It doesn’t matter if you just write out the bare bones of the general idea, it doesn’t matter if it’s plain and stiff, or is basically a list of ‘this happens, then this, which makes this happen…’ and so forth. Get the gist of it down and then go back to revise and add the fun, descriptive juicy bits. It’s like, you can’t build a house if you don’t build the framework and foundation first, right? I dunno, maybe that’s a terrible analogy, and again, I’m absolutely awful with how I write sooo;;;

As for where to put it… the two DBD fics I’ve written are the only works of mine I’ve ever shared publicly before. I personally went with archiveofourown, but registration has a sort of queue so you’ll have to wait behind others to get officially signed up. I haven’t tried any other sites for this, but I know fanfiction.net is still kicking though idk how popular it is for DBD, and there’s wattpad. And honestly, if none of those are appealing, you can just post it to tumblr as a text post under a read-more or something! That’s like, half of the reason why I made this new blog tbh.

I hope that helps at least somewhat! Also feel free to message me if you wanna bounce ideas off me or something, or if you’re comfortable to share a bit of what your plan is I can try to help give ideas on how to actually start! 💕

#[—Field Notes—] #this was a surprise to get #i write in notepad too so like??? #super awful writing technique lmao

[angenou]

I have to get this off of my chest and out of my head before it eats me alive.  This shit’s going under a cut because it got long. Trigger warning: this whole thing is basically me ruminating about death and suicide and grief. 

Earlier this year a woman I was friends with at work killed herself. We had been hired at the same time, went through all of our training together, worked in the same department, we even ended up with schedules similar enough that we had our lunches scheduled at the same time. We sat together almost every work day, for months, and inevitably we got pretty comfortable talking about most things. In the last month or so I’d even told her about some of my struggles with my mental health and how I had made an appointment to talk about going back on medication again to control it since it was getting beyond me again. 

I told her about what I had to do to get help in the first place, who I called and what parts of the phone trees I used, what I told operators I spoke to on the phone. I told her a lot about the practical side of getting mental health care, both therapy and medication help. Our job gave us insurance that covered all of it, and I talked to her about how that worked for me. 

She’d tell me sometimes about her worries for her daughter’s boyfriend, how she thinks he has anxiety issues, but that her daughter doesn’t believe such a thing could be a serious issue worth treating so she didn’t want to say anything. I gave her my best advice about my own experiences as someone diagnosed with panic/ anxiety disorder, and honestly most of it has all been pretty positive, so I felt like if she’d had some personal concerns she knew she could talk to me about it. 

I’d ask her how she was feeling about things, family life, her manager when we had different managers, and the only thing she ever really confided was her worry that her daughter would get tired of things being too hard here and move back to FL, as far across the country as you can be pretty much, and how devastating that would be to try to deal with again. I’d listen and try to encourage her that her daughter sounded happy from what she’d told me, that she’s a good mom. When she was extra nervous I’d try to reassure her that even if her daughter did move, our company had tons of options that would let her move there as well, and told her I knew I could help her do it. 

I came to work one day and found out from a site wide email that she’d passed away. Unable to find more information I looked her up on facebook and saw a last post just her asking someone to call her and her phone number. The other thing that turned up was a friend of her’s who posted declaring their grief and how depression was such an awful thing to lose against, they lamented how alone she must have felt. Between those two things I didn’t have to be told. She may never have told me, and I was a bit blindsided by it, but I know what those things add up to. Later I did get confirmation from a manager who knew I was close to her that it had been suicide. 

For weeks after I’d nearly break down just going into the break room, expecting to see her at all the same times I was used to bumping into her. Lunches were haunting. 

At this point I’ve gotten rid of most of that feeling that I’d run into her in the building, but every once in a while I’ll go for my break and start walking towards the last desk I knew she sat at thinking of chatting with her, and I’d get halfway there before remembering. It’s happening less frequently, and it had been weeks since my last slip up. This most recent week though I could have sworn I saw her walk by in the peripheral of my vision, just outside of where my glasses could see. I turned my head and nobody was there. I choked on my sob instantly, because in my mind I had that feeling of “Oh, I have missed her so much! There she is! I can’t wait to chat a little” and lived in that moment where I knew I’d get to hear her sarcastic drawl, before it all shattered into the memory that that won’t ever happen again. 

I feel like I’m cracking up. We weren’t best friends, we didn’t talk outside of work hours, but the last time I dealt with a death of someone close to me was my childhood cat when I was 21, and I saw his shadow dart just outside my peripheral for years afterwards. I just, will that happen with her this time too? I feel stupid for being this busted up over someone I obviously didn’t know that well, but we had routines we built together, and I am such a creature of habit. I am a creature of habit with a shitty memory and a soft heart. 

For days after every one of these incidents where I forget she’s dead and go looking for her I can’t stop thinking about it. For days I try to tell myself it’s done with, and that it’s okay to mourn but not okay to fixate. 

Then shortly after I got through the worst of the shock and grief from her death came the news about Chester Bennington, and suddenly not only am I avoiding exposing myself to content related to suicide but now I can’t listen to Linkin Park without dissolving into hysterics. God, and her death came shortly after the death of Chris Cornell, which was also very upsetting for me. 

I had talked to her about that, and how I’ve been there, and how that brought it all back up, and we talked about the struggle of suicidal thoughts and she treated it like this distant thing, she’d read about or heard about from others. and God, I just, I hate myself for not seeing it, for not reaching out to her more. I hate that even if I did try to reach out she probably would have kept pretending nothing was wrong until it was too wrong to fix. 

I hate that my shitty memory and desire to revert to habits and ritual patterns when I need comfort means she will continue to haunt me like this, and honestly she would hate that.

Angela, I miss you. I am so sorry, I would have done everything I could to try to help you if I’d known, but you probably knew that already. I hope this was better, and I hope your spirit found peace. I will continue to miss you, and in the times I forget you’re gone I worry about you the same as I did before you were gone. I am so sorry, Angela. I’m so sorry. 

#tw suicide #suicide mention #personal #about my life #thoughts #rant #I don't want to be touched right now #I feel like I'd shatter sooner than I'd be comforted #I hate feeling this way #I feel so stupid #and self centered #and like I know I can't put this on myself #but the guilt I feel for not seeing it is going to eat me alive