#I am NEVER recovering from this scene

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

"See you tomorrow"

MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 4 [prev parts]

#better drawn mdzs #MDZS Disco Elysium AU #mdzs au #Lan wangji #wei wuxian #yiling laozu #Happy Belated Halloween! #digital art #Thank you all for your patience as I drove myself into a madness only known by those lost at seas alone. #I put a lot of time into this one! It's not perfect but I am very happy with it + I am so happy to put down the tablet pen. #Digital art has some nice features but I'm sticking with traditional! I need a month to recover from the 2+ weeks of torture. #Okay lets talk about the AU and the comic now #Disco elysium has some of the best existential-horror-dream sequences I have ever seen. #The dialogue here is heavily inspired by The Final Dream - A scene I'd love to talk about more were it not so heavy with spoilers. #My AU is a lot more complex than a simple character swap but I really felt like LWJ + YLLZ fit this scene. #The final dream is about being unable to move on from a lost love. From something You made holy. From something You ruined. #It is about realizing that no matter how smart you are or what you offer or how you try to change - #You will never be able to turn back time. You will never ever be able to fix what is broken. That you also have been broken for a long time #You are a fuck-up who worships the nail covered ground of someone who did not want to be holy. And even though it hurts- #You cannot let this nightmare go. The pain keeps the love close. It is worse to forget. You promised to remember. #WWX died thinking LWJ disliked him. LWJ lost someone he thought was revolted by his love.

[ninawolv3rina]

It will be harder for you to remember. Love is always harder. Love means weathering blows for another’s sake and not counting them. Love is loss of self, loss of other, and faith in the death of loss.

- Christopher Buehlman, Between Two Fires

#i am never going to recover from them #i will literally never get over them!!! #Between two fires #i have full scenes that i wish i had the art skill to depict but maybe this will be what motivates me to improve as an artist lol #my art #fan art #aaaaaAAAAHHHHH #Idk man #I’m *this* close to starting a reread tonight #like i already miss them so much wtf #found family?? more like… AHHHHHH

[tempestat-ignis]

everyone stop talking to me, i am fighting for my life!!! 🫠🫠

(sorry to my moots, i am clearly going through it and i fear i won't be stopping any time soon)

#i need her #i love her your honor #and i will not apologize #i am never going to emotionally recover from this #how is she real #mike flanagan thank you for casting her please never stop #the fall of the house of usher #tfothou #carla gugino #verna #behind the scenes #barking

[capthowzer]

why do we do this to ourselves

#istfg if they unalive Cody in TBB S2 #I will never recover #I'm still reeling from that scene in the Kenobi finale #I am barelyyyy prepared to see him reunited with Rex #but all I want in life is to see Cody and Obi-Wan together one last time 😫😫😫 #we've waited long enough gdi #star wars #the clone wars #the bad batch #obi wan kenobi #kenobi series #commander cody #cc 2224 #captain rex #ct 7567 #codywan #dave filoni #tuserdesi

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

[darkdragon768]

I'm so fucking tired of Major Character Deaths just for the Character to come back to life at the very end of the story because of uwu happy endings uwu

#nimona spoilers #I guess? got that thought after watching it #this movie would have almost been a 10/10 if yhey wouldn't have brought that move #*they #I'm just so tired of it #i am so used to it that I just won't cry at such scenes anymore #cuz I know 'oh they wouldn't pull that move! it's a child friendly movie we can't have fan favorites die!' #that's what I appreciate about mother 3 tho #yes the end has emotionally damaged me and I'll never recover from that and claus is my little blorbo who i love to bits but #it was fucKING DIFFERENT FOR ONCE #LET MAIN CHARACTERS FUCKING DIE FOR REAL WITHOUT THEM COMING BACK FFS #I have the same problem with dead end. pugsley(?) should have stayed just dead #i think both nimona and dead end are based on books? which I haven't read so I don't know if stuff's different there #maybe it's just that Netflix is the problem #dragon's stupid thoughts #[EDIT] ok yep it's a Netflix thing #fuck you netflix

[tenrose]

The "It hurts when we are apart" followed by Lyra screaming broke me beyond repair already.

#currently crying #how do they dare doing this to me #how the hell am i gonna be able to watch this with my own two eyes #his dark materials #i mean it can't be worse than the books #but still it's gonna hurt so fucking much #this scene is not an emotional dmaage #it's an emotional destruction #i think ive never entirely recovered from it from the first time I read it at 12

[carry-on-every-neverland-magic]

Guardians of the galaxy 3 initial review:

DO NOT TOUCH ME

#gotg spoilers #guardians of the galaxy #guardians of the galaxy spoilers #THE INTERNET IS A LYING FUCK aside from one scene I had spoiled #it didn't ruin that entire scene #plus the thing I was worried about happening didn't #although now its kinda sadder and gives me war flashbacks to toy story 4 #I AM NEVER RECOVERING #ill do a proper review later but fuck gotg 3 was fucking perfect #beautiful hilarious sad as fuck and epic as fuck and its the reason why I love films and the movie theatres exist #also Id die for Cosmo and tbh the whole insane lot of them #I MISS THEM ALREADY #im overwhelmed what a fucking fun adventure that was #dont wanna be in real life I wanna be there

[calowlmitygoddess]

i've had a small freak out on twitter after deciding to read ahead on Stormcaster and finding out Han eventually started to use the sul'Alger tittle/last name

#GDHSFJGSJFHKSDF I'VE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT THIS #AND THEN I PROCEEDED TO RE-READ ALL SCENES OF THEM IN THE FIRST SERIES AND GO EVEN MORE INSANE #ILL NEVER RECOVER FROM THIS #MRS CHIMA HOW DARE YOU JUST DROP THIS ON ME WITHOUT EXPANDING ON IT FURTHER #LIKE GODFUCKING DAMNIT #IN THE FIRST SERIES ALGER WAS SYNOMIN WITH THE PUREST OF EVIL AND NOW HAN CAN CLAIM TO BE HIS DESCENDANT FREELY AND LITERALLY BE- #NAMED HAN SON OF ALGER #AND NO ONE EVER COMMENTS ON THIS OR THEIR BOND OR ANYTHING????? #I AM GOING INSANE YOU UNDERSTAND #seven realms series #han alister #alger waterlow #cinda williams chima

[bylertruther]

favorite will fic ever:

I Didn't Know There Were Wizards In California — they Understand will and his conflicts to an almost scary degree. like.. they're just a Supreme Understander and Knower i say. reading this will make you see so much in a different light that tbh i don't think there's any going back. you're just Changed afterward. there's the will you thought you knew before you read this fic and the will you came to realize was always there after you read this fic. i don't know how to say it other than This Is Will Byers And His Story.

favorite mike fic ever:

It's Still Raining — jesus fucking christ. this is mike. his emotions, his thought processes, his actions, his relationships with other people, his dialogue... everything is just so mike it's actually unreal. this is also the most accurate depiction of his will-specific devotion ever methinks, and how he manages to know everything and nothing all at the same time. mike trying to drag them both to a gate even though his leg is literally broken and will should be dead but he won't give up because he can't leave him here alone he can't do that again and he won't + the scene with him and his will binder live in my mind and play on loop as if it's a movie scene stuck on repeat. like. good lord that is some Writing. it's not fanfic, it's Literature. this is a "sequel" / work 1.5 in the series so you can't really jump into it, but... still!

#don't let the richie & will tag fool u for the first one ok tht's a will character study n will power hour 100% ! #the hermit crab metaphor for castle byers................ u will always be fucking famous jesus LORDTTTTTT #AND THE BINDER SCENE FROM THE MIKE FIC....... HIS FIGHT WITH LUCAS IN FRONT OF EVERYONE..... SCREAMING SHITTING CRYING WAILING #i will never recover when i say i think abt these fics all the time i really genuinely actually mean it i see them play in my brain like a #movie. i can recite actual dialogue from these fics i am not a fan i'm a SCHOLAR #fic

[just-sp-in-inginthevoid]

Noritoshi checking (again) to see if everything is okay in his mother's life (while making sure to act normally bc it'd suck if people start to notice/recognize him and think of him as a stalker).

His (new?) halfsibling comes to talk to him (his mother is busy w/ something) and asks his name. Noritoshi answers (good manners are important! (and automatic ngl)) but doesn't ask back (he's not sure if he wants to know).

They talk for a bit.

His mother comes to get his halfsibling and go back to their home and thanks him for entertaining her child.

"Thank you, mister... ?" She says, with the intention of learning his name. It's the second time they see each others, she isn't suspicious. Her life is going great, and he looks kind. He said they've never met the first time she talked to him, but after two encounters why not change that? (She still thinks he looks familiar)

He hasn't said anything since she walked toward them.

"Noritoshi." Her (youngest) child completes the sentence for her.

Her smile drops.

His guts twist.

(He should've not come back to check if she was still okay.)

#'thats basically that scene in 'goodbye lenin!' ' i thought while writing this #still not canon and i hope itll never be bc i wont recover from it if it is #dont think scenes like this will help the story and since gege only cares about it.. #whatever. did you people whove seen the other part ive wrote think i was over ? #i am now #jjk spoilers #jjk noritoshi #noritoshi kamo #jjk 195

[lirulii]

No but one of my biggest gripes with Hum Aapke Hain Koun is that Pooja straight up DIES, they have a funeral scene for her, and then the entire family unit is like. Oh no!! Anyway. Rajesh marry her *sister* of all people 

#LIKE???? WHAT #BRO THAT'S HER WIDOWER AND HER LITERAL SISTER. HELLO? #methinks he should be allowed to. ykno. grieve a little longer #it's redeemed slightly by the fact he does stay single by the end but good lord #ALSO THE ONE #W THE REALLY OVERBEARING LADY AND HER HUSBAND #where her husband snaps and goes you are why we do not have children #what the HELL yall #i have a v complicated dynamic w hahk as a film because it was my introduction to indian cinema and it has an absolute banger of a soundtrac #buuut also. has Scenes Like This #i vaguely remember nisha having an entire COMPUTERS degree and its never brought up again because ? #but then again this is a 90s movies made by a very family value driven company #the same mixed feelings i have w hahk are the same i have w hum saath saath hain #it's a Lot #I AM ALSO NOT DESI I SHOULD CLARIFY. I am very much Peruvian so maybe there's a bit of cultural nuance or context I'm missing? #but anyway. #hum aapke hain koun #THEY HAD DHIKTANA 1 AND 2 DEDICATED TO POOJA IM STILL BITTER #why'd they move on from her so fast. i will never recover

[timewcr]

i have about 50 pages of babel left and i am so deeply terrified to finish this book like im literally having heart palpitations

#I AM STRESSEDDDDD #granted ive been in shock every since That Scene #but like. im never recovering from this book #ever #i dont think i can #babel #babel rf kuang

[septembersghost]

istg man every time you make another bates motel post i get dangerously closer to watching it 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

*cackling in delight* my real reactions:

i've written like three novel-length responses to asks about this show recently lol, but i could easily write more. it's so weird and it probably shouldn't work. it's camp and melodrama, it's horror, it's romance! the main characters exist in a prestige psychological drama, and yet the entire hellmouth of a town around them is mired in some kind of nutty b-movie crime procedural much of the time. it is unmoored in time, because it's set in our modern age but filled with vintage touches in fashion, music (the music is so good!!!), and aesthetics. it is deeply, achingly about love as a force of destruction and calamity, all different forms of it, and also it's the only thing that matters, it kills us and it saves us. sometimes the house feels like it's a living entity and oppressively dragging people into its evil, its window eyes watching everything as it unfolds and consuming its inhabitants and visitors alike. you can never escape your fate, no matter how hard you fight, but that doesn't erase the courage of fighting altogether. you can and will withstand everything, and only the dearest person in the world can ever knock you down. it is incomprehensibly unhinged. it can be brutally realistic and yet it often uses dream imagery. it pays cinematic homage to hitchcock (more than just psycho) and also turns those conventions on their head. it needs a dozen different trigger warnings, but its study of the harm of abuse and the pervasive damage of misogyny and utter failings of systems meant to protect the vulnerable is necessary to tell it. it is so tragic it will dig a hole into your heart. i am convinced that taking it in this year mixed with the final season of bcs has altered my brain chemistry in some indefinable sense.

i probably can't say more about norma than what i said here, but...what a gift of a character. the performance vera gave is so tremendous and deranged and beautiful. it almost feels like she shouldn't exist, because storytelling doesn't often give that much breadth to women, where they're allowed to be messy and terrible and frantic and scarred and angry and controlling and prone to emotional outbursts, and also cunning and capable and brave and loving and warm. she is tremendous and she convinces everyone to adore her, including the viewer. you desperately wish she could be saved from every circumstance, even the ones she perpetuates herself, but she's doomed. she's the most vibrantly alive character, yet she's a ghost from her first line. i am so sad about her. she drives me insane and she makes me want to give her the biggest hug in the world. she should be allowed to commit any murder she wants. she should be given a home filled with light and laughter, but she gets a refrigerated basement in a broken display of reverence. i love her so much. women of all-time.

#i will literally never recover from norma bates kim wexler and vanessa ives #i will be feral for the rest of my life about her and i am haunted by the scene of norman walking through that house in the dark #aminta #i'm serious about the trigger warnings though i always want any of you to be careful with that and come to me directly if you need to #letterbox #bates motel #maybe fate wins here #we're all doomed in the end #norma bates

[mossflower]

cause of death: apparently, my own fucking writing

#girl help i am emotionally attached to a minor character and their final scene is actually just killing me #i should not be in this much distress! i skipped to this scene because it was one i had a fairly good idea of how to write #and i’ve made the word count but god. i’m never mentally recovering from this #nano 2022 #morganposting

[tyrramint]

so

um

that finale, huh

#😭😭😭😭😭 #I am never recovering from so many of those scenes #WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MYSELF OVER THIS HIATUS #I was like screaming through the whole thing #the owl house spoilers #toh finale #toh season finale #toh spoilers #TOH #the owl house