#I felt she deserved that much

[clouvu]

Offering lil doodles of them bc my eyes have been opened

#genshin impact #furina #clorinde #furinde #furina's character story 5 and her voicelines about clorinde has left me so mentally ill in the head #THE WAY FURINA FELT THAT SHE WAS NO LONGER WANTED AND ALMOST IMMEDIATELY CLORINDE POPPED UP TO INVITE HER TO A LIL GATHERING AMONG FRIENDS #NOT TO MENTION THAT CLORINDE IMMEDIATELY OFFERED TO PAY FOR HER TO HAVE BETTER LIVING CONDITIONS #EVEN WHEN DECLINED SHE STILL HELPED FURINA TIDY UP HER NEW APARTMENT BEFORE THEY WENT OUT FOR DRINKS TOGETHER #the way clorinde was no longer bound to any sort of contract but still went to visit furina and help her out of her own volition is so????? #AND the fact that little miss stonefaced 24/7 clorinde actually SMILED at furina???? chewing on aluminum foil #oughhhh they scratch at my brain so nicely #ALSO!! ALSO!! THE LONGING IN FURINA'S VOICE WHEN SHE SAYS HOW MUCH SHE TRUSTS CLORINDE AND MISSES HER IS SO!!!!!!!!! #crawling on the walls and howling as we speak #4.2 had made me already so deranged about furina to the point where she shot up from being just a funky lil guy to straight hyperfixation #I just thinjk;;;;;;; she deserves to be happy for once in her life (and have her lil emotional support bodyguard gf w/ her to smooch)

[thaliagrayce]

y'know what we don't talk about enough? Hazel died. We talk about how she grew up in the 30's and 40's and we talk about how out of place she feels in the modern world, but! She died! She was dead! She has spent more time dead than alive, and not by a close margin!

How does that effect a person??? We got some of it in the flashbacks, but once those caught up with her present timeline and she shared them, they just kind of... disappeared. And she was a regular girl with some weird past experiences. That's one way of doing it, sure!

I think it would have been a lot cooler if she was just a touch creepier. If she felt a little bit Wrong. Yeah, in general she's more approachable than her brother, she's more sociable and less closed off, but. If you actually spend any time with her, it can be difficult to tell which child of the underworld is actually more unsettling.

Hazel is bright of personality and has a dazzling smile, but sometimes she'll just... shut down. She'll go completely blank for like half an hour and nobody knows what to do with it. Sometimes she forgets she's alive. Sometimes she'll spout the grimmest shit you've ever heard like it's nothing, she won't even notice it's weird until the room goes quiet. She spent decades in Asphodel, which is designed to make people forget about themselves and wander around for eternity, only she didn't have the luxury of forgetting! Wild! After she comes back to life, sometimes she forgets that she's allowed to Do Stuff now. She can spend so long sitting and staring at nothing. Sometimes she'll start crying on cloudless days because it hits her again that she can actually feel the warmth of the sun on her skin and she can hear birdsong. Every little mundane experience is a blessing and she will make you remember that in the most foreboding way possible.

#hazel levesque #hoo #mj talks #like. i am fascinated with characters who die and come back different and it JUST hit me that there was so much potential for hazel there #the idea of how death lingers was not explored At All in heroes of olympus #of course there's the obvious part in that there were what. 3 named character deaths total? 4 if you count leo #which i very much don't because it didn't stick! there were no consequences to this gigantic war! #the first series did well with that because we had plenty of named characters who died #even though some of them were introduced only to die like six chapters later. we still knew them on some level #and more importantly percy knew them. he felt their loss in a way that made consequences seem real #heroes of olympus didn't have any of that. hazel could have been a great way to talk about it a little more! #also i just love characters who have obviously gone through death. that has to change a person! tell me how it changed you! #anyway. i think i'll make hazel creepier from now on in my writing #she deserves it <3 #nico is creepy in an obvious way. he's got power over death and that clings to him like a second skin. he can't hide it #and he's learned that he doesn't have to. there is power in being othered #hazel seems lovely when you first meet her! none of the death power all of the glitter and gold and riches #and then she'll look you dead in the eye and say 'you really don't know how lucky you are to be able to breathe until you can't anymore' #and move on like it's nothing! what! #underworld siblings

[andthebeanstalk]

Betty is so relatable I would do the same shit for my wife

#simon petrikov #original #at #the moment where she declares that she's jumping into the future to save him. just pure save-husband impulse #and maybe she made the wrong choice but I felt the emotion in my gut and that's good tragedy baby #I would do the same thing and then be in the future and realize I probably fucked up but also what else could I do but #devote my entire life and sanity to saving her after I have destroyed every other option?? #it's not healthy necessarily but a fucking apocalypse happened and her wife is in eternal torment. what else could she possibly do?? #I'm just obsessed with the attitude she has towards saving him and how it turns from joyful heroism to unhealthy obsession #I have a much healthier relationship with my wife. but also she's never been driven mad by a magical crowd for a thousand years! #and Betty did it!! y'all can argue about whether Ice King was better than Simon and I think he must make peace with every part of himself #but it is extremely consistent in the original series that being Ice King is basically this existentially horrifying Eternal torture #so the fact that someone who loved him decided they would save him from that at all costs is very sad and very beautiful #beautiful because no one deserves to suffer forever. tragic because she was far to willing to take his place if she had to. #betty grof #fionna and cake #golbetty #golb #*driven mad by a magical crown #you forgot your floaties #edit: upon rewatching every episode with betty in it i will say i don't think i would be so hellbent on murdering the person she had become #betty does act selfishly and it makes her character more compelling #but i like to think if my wife went banana-pants ice-king-level bonkers i would be able to love that version of her too #but who's to say whether this story would be the reason I responded differently? #it's a good story

[good-beansdraws]

Yaaay, I got to do an art swap with @kyanako5972 -- here's her wonderful oc Claire Inez, featured in her webcomic SWAP Ensemble 🎶 Claire was a blast to draw, I hope I could do her justice!!

Failed versions include trial song background that just looked lame/unreadable, and the original singing pose that just looked off for some reason...

#ocs #waahhh thank you for doing the swap pal -- shes so cool ;--; #i always love seeing her pop up on your blog -- i was so excited to finally sit down and draw her :D #*offers you a cute little claire to bribe you to not Stab Me for my milgramblrgram attacks*👀👀👀 #i was fully prepared to do a clarinet-playing-pose but it felt kinda static for a trade piece😭 #so i figured dancing was a good mix of something fun and still musical 😎 she deserves the spotlight!! #i love all of her outfits -- i picked this one but it was hard to choose from so many cute ones haha #im impressed how many there are across the comic :0 #and hairstyles!! i liked drawing hers more loose here but there were so much fun ones!! #i couldnt get her pose/face to look right in the original sketch and i wanted it to be perfect >:[ #i also loved your recent dance sequence art and had to step up my game if i was going to match your dynamic poses haha! #🎶🎶🎶 #claire inez #swap ensemble

[eerna]

I just think that............. *gestures wildly to how Harrow experiences attraction* you know??????

#as you could probably tell by my fanart today i am having a Night #this funky repressed nun chose the object of her worship to double as her imaginary gf #she cuddles her she calls her beloved she tries to make a move on her #all completely imaginary of course. she doesn't feel any of that but likes to imagine she can feel it. #the object of her worship is also the death of god the monster he defeated once but couldnt defeat twice who resides in a tom under her home #a tomb harrow herself was conceived at the price of 200 innocent children to keep shut #she is the symbol of harrow's power as a necromancer she is the proof harrow deserves to live even if the price was so horrible #and then there's ianthe who is also a brilliant necromancer. who understands attraction at the level harrow does and uses it against harrow #how the only two times harrow even considered giving in to ianthe was when she was either at the end of her rope and insanely powerless #or when she felt at the top of her game like the powerful necromancer she is supposed to be and somehow isn't anymore #their touching is always threatening and uncomfortable and makes her feel on edge #and then there's gideon who just. has nothing to do with any of that. gideon exists on a completely different level. #she reduces alecto to ''ice lolly bimbo'' and ''big slut'' and ''bullshit dead girlfriend'' without breaking a sweat #she forgives harrow everything. things harrow had no part in and things she had. it doesn't matter she forgives it all #she holds harrow's hand she hugs her she kisses her she is REAL and the FIRST PERSON TO EVER PROPERLY TOUCH HER WITH AFFECTION #and it stuns harrow so much she is incapable of even processing it. she completely shuts down every time. we dont know how she feels aboutit #just. harrow and attraction and desire. holy shit #tlt liveblog

[dailykugisaki]

Day 127 | id in alt

They hangin out on a building fr.

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #itadori yuji #fushiguro megumi #tokyo trio #PEEP THE NAILS YALL #i had to draw Kugisaki with a watermelon sometime it's a thing of its plus i just wanted to state the obvious of where i stand again #i got into an argument with the politician major again yall #i dont wanna say anything out of context but they just said something extremely tasteless and it pissed me off a bit #thinking about the fact i watched a fucked up rose bush strangle another plant and thinking about Kugisaki like a freak #all plants can be a little weird #i enjoy drawing Kugisaki with scars. she deserves them #a friend drew Kugisaki earlier and i had never felt so much joy before. #everyday i am taken aback because i think of Kugisaki in lost beloved one movie scenes its dumb as shit #I DO NOT WANT KUGISAKI TO JUST SHOW UP OUT THE DAMN BLUE I WANT HER TO DO SOMETHING INSANE AND THEN SHOW UP #i cant elaborate because idk soul cannibalism for some reason idk ifk #Kugisaki's fit is like just a different colored fit of what i saw megan thee stallion wearing #famous people can rock shit if you find the right ones #im trying to do backgrounds more and i do refrence but what i do is called “getting references and then fucking it up” #i dont get down yall i fuck up #Nanami cameo because i just wanted to draw him looking technologically incompetent when it comes to face timing #ive just been tweaking as of late #ive been reading too much where people think Kugisaki barely knows anything due to her origin #YALL THINK SHE WOULDN'T DO A BUNCH OF SHIT OR LEARN SHIT JUST FOR FUMI??? WILDING OUT HERE #just realized why i can't do backgrounds in a certain way. its bc i dont do lineart.....

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[atomicengineerdetective]

THIS SHOW

"She's so determined to make herself sad..."

"My dad didn't care if I fal, But I didnt want to fail him"

"Everyone's on edge and I don't know what to say...I wish you were here"

"I can do this, I can do this... I Can't do this"

"All I've ever wanted is to be Understood"

This show Just keeps on tugging at my heartstrings, Bringing Back every insecurity and deep rooted fear I may have Huh?

Its truly so emotional seeing characters you love so much Go through struggles that are just a little too familiar and see them overcome them.

I think I never felt as Understood and represented as I have with this show. Each new special brings back a lesson I learned long ago or something I'm still working through emotionally. In doing so It reminds me I'm not alone in my experiences. (And it does so with great animation and phenomenal worldbuilding IMO)

God I love this show so much. I dont think it's gonna be topped anytime soon.

#This post also doubles as a Compilation of all the Times I Cried during this special #So a lot #Specially on willow's scene which deserves an essay on its own honestly #I was waiting for her to finally be vulnerable so when that amazing scene came and she was able to CRY and let herself break. #I was devastated on the floor #And LUZ. God that break me because I get her so much #I felt that way all my life tbh #But then again Luz's struggle was the focus in Thanks to Them. #toh hunter #the owl house #toh #toh spoilers #willow park #the owl house spoilers #hunter toh #gus porter #The hexsquad and their trauma #venting #for the future #toh for the future #For the future spoiles #ftf spoiles

[atticcreationz]

[Ruth is talking to Brooke at her locker, then the bell rings, and Ruth runs over to join Richie and Pete on the way to class, blushing]

RICHIE: Ruth, is that a ~spark~ I detect between you and Brooke?

RUTH: maybe 😏 I get all warm and fuzzy when I talk to her...!

PETE: uh, that might just be the fires

[all three turn around to see Brooke setting her own locker ablaze]

#nerdy prudes must die #once again: i think ruth should get to have a very short flirtatious relationship with brooke as a treat #she deserves it #(and then call the fire brigade) #every time i have fanart i want to draw and get sad that i dont have time and/or am im in too much pain to sit down and draw it i say hey #write it down instead baby you dont have to draw it #write down the silly things so theyre not bouncing around in your head #on a related note some rambling thoughts #im trying to get comfy writing more than drawing - i always felt nervous writing since college and always thought i was bad at it #but a) fuck it and b) its been a nice compromise between my urge to draw and my sadness at how im too in pain to draw on my own time anymore #and some friends have been incredibly nice and encouraging about small things ive written recently and i cant even theyre so kind 😭✨ #anyways back to the regularly scheduled tags sorry #starkid #team starkid #ruth fleming #brooke npmd #npmd #starkid npmd #richie lipschitz #peter spankoffski

[n1blakelover]

i think we can all agree that mako was an absolute shit boyfriend to asami (he has definitely grown since then i am not a mako hater, he got so much better after season 2)

bro literally constantly casted her feelings aside and did not care if the way he was treating korra was hurting asami or not. i understand completely that he had feelings for both of them, and i wouldn’t be so pissed at him for how he treated asami if not for the fact that she was literally his girlfriend the whole time he was treating her this way

#asami deserved so much better #i will die on the hill that she was the only innocent person in the whole triangle madness #except for the kiss in season 2 but it’s very obvious she felt bad about it when she talks to korra in season 3 #not to mention asami has the most ignored trauma in the show #seriously her mom died then her dad was evil and in prison then when he was becoming better he dies as well #she literally has no family and is always treated horribly #anyways stan asami sato #asami sato #korrasami #lok asami

[crossdressingdeath]

The Dark Ritual just hits different if you're playing Surana or Amell and he's the one to do it. Because like... Circle mages routinely have their children stolen from them. That's common practice. And this isn't exactly the same, but at the same time... imagine what it would be like to finally get out of the Circle and have a chance to build a home and a life and a family, and then this child is dangled in front of you, and you never even considered that possibility, and you can even justify it to get the whispers of the Chantry's teachings out of your head, and then you're told that you will never know your child. Part of the deal is you won't know them and you won't try to and the Warden accepts that but it must still sting. I wish there was an additional dialogue option for Surana/Amell when Morrigan makes it clear that he doesn't get a part in his kid's life to say "That was all I was ever going to get anyway". At least this way he knows his child is free and reasonably safe, which is more than he would ever have had if he'd had a child in the Circle.

Anyway my headcanon will always be that a high approval unromanced (and romanced, basically just even if he doesn't follow her through the eluvian and meet Kieran in Witch Hunt) Morrigan who did the ritual with the Warden eventually cracks and introduces Kieran to his father, because the Warden is a good man and quite possibly her best friend and he and Kieran deserve to decide for themselves if they want any sort of relationship.

#dragon age #it's just one of those things where i get where morrigan's coming from #but as someone who always plays mages it always felt a little... unkind i guess #that she won't even give her best friend the CHANCE to so much as MEET his child #(unless you follow her through the eluvian. which a warden romancing someone else probably wouldn't do) #so yeah i choose to believe that tahel eventually meets his kid #because it's what he deserves dammit

[dumbs0ckss]

thinking about how izzie got cancer so young and thought she was done, nearly died in her husband's arms, and then had to wake up and find out that her best friend and basically soulmate had died but she was still alive despite having everything against her, and she had to keep going. she got better with treatment and is now living a great life with her husband and their two kids, but she lost her best friend who was perfectly healthy and had everything going for him, he was going to start a new part of his life and he died so suddenly, izzie was waiting to die and yet it never came. she was ready, he wasn't. george died without his best friend and they never got to fully say goodbye to eachother. thinking about the survivors guilt she must deal with everyday because of how many lovers and friends she lost, while she was ready to go.

#george o'malley #greys anatomy #alex karev #izzie stevens #greys spoilers #i am so so so sad #i miss them so much #thinking about izzie visiting his grave and just sobbing because he didn’t deserve to die #she probably felt like she should've died instead and that guilt wears her down for years

[archduke-enver-gortash]

mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again. #sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all. #imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs! #so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately. #but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when. #like. imagine that. jesus dude. #like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here. #but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

[forgotten-rain]

more people need to talk about how

1. Gale thinks the world is better off without him in it.

He thinks the mistake he made was so monumental that it's not even worth him being alive anymore. He thinks that if he does as Mystra asks and blows himself up to kill the elder brain, then at least his folly would amount to something. He's lived for a year in darkness and isolation and convinced himself that the only way to move forward is by somehow regaining his goddess's favour, and if he can't do that then he's not worth the air he breathes. He wants so desperately to matter, to mean something, that he's willing to throw his whole life away to garner even a fraction of the love Mystra used to bestow upon him. He's a brilliant man, an incredible wizard, kind-hearted, and trying so damn hard to do the right thing, but somehow he fails to see all those qualities and puts his worth solely on a single mistake he made that he made out of love. Out of ambition and out of desire, but ultimately out of love. And now, after spending months in self-imposed isolation, the only future he sees for this world is one where he's not in it. And,

2. That he doesn't think he's worthy of Tav. He doesn't believe that anyone can love him as he is, no matter how often Tav tries to convince him otherwise. If a literal god deemed him unworthy, then who is he to claim he isn't? He finds the ability to love again with Tav, starts the slow and excruciating journey of healing together with them, but somewhere in the back of his mind, he still believes he's not good enough. He wants to be more. He wants to be everything that Tav wants him to be. He wants to be everything Tav needs him to be. He wants to prove to them that he can be a good fighter, a good lover, a good friend. That's why he asks again and again if they wouldn't love him better if he were a god. If he was perfect - truly perfect. If he could command armies and fell kingdoms, if he could give them everything they could ever dream of. Wouldn't Tav want that? Why would they want his battered, broken, mortal self when they could have a perfected version of him? What beauty is there in failure, in making mistakes, in being flawed? Even when Tav insists that they love him for who he is, not for the power he would wield, he struggles to accept it. He trusts that they're telling the truth, but he's been a wizard of renown for so long that he doesn't quite know how to be a regular man any more. His whole notion of worth has been tied so tightly with power and control for so long that he's forgotten what it is like to be loved simply for being who he is. Not the Wizard of Waterdeep. Not Mystra's Chosen. But a man, wandering in the dark like everyone else, afraid, but so full of hope.

#i have Thoughts #and a lot of them are about my husband #gale dekarios #and his issues of self worth #larian wheres the option to give him a big squeezy hug #he offers so much #and asks for so little in return #baby i love you #you deserve all the planes #also hot take but i dont hate mystra #im putting this in the tags because im a coward #she sucks but shes a god #like #theyre all fickle #its kind of a god thing #and at least she had reason to be angry #not reason enough to give my man depression #she could have handled it better #but she was threatened #and i guess felt betrayed by the man she loved #like opening up an old wound #anyway gale is baby girl and i unironically want to have his children #ive never felt the mother instinct before #but gods damn it i will mother his children #and give him a happy blissful domestic life #where he can malewife to his hearts content #bg3 #bg3 gale #gale bg3 #gale of waterdeep

[maxwell-grant]

Was kinda interesting watching Aquaman 2 do that thing Hollywood movies do where a villain barks orders in an non-English language to signal to the American audience that they're foreign and scary, except this time the actress doing it was speaking portuguese so I actually understood everything she was saying and it was just weird and abrupt. I guess they just told her to translate and say the lines in her own language but didn't direct her how to adapt the dialogue accordingly, so she ends up just telling the henchmen to pick up a guy in a very stilted formal factual manner while everything's exploding around them, that was kinda funny.

#not criticizing or blaming the actress here she was allright #it's Aquaman 2 nobody was on their a-game here #anyway movie was actually okay #not the worst thing I had occasionally fun times watching it #by the DCEU standards it was actually pretty good #for better or worse it felt way more like a Monsterverse movie for most of it #you can almost exactly pinpoint the scenes made when it was a major blockbuster sequel project #and the ones they made not giving a shit anymore knowing this was their last dance and just having fun with it #plenty of the ones in the latter are even some of the best in the movie #just Momoa and Wilson dicking around Jumanji sets #ending is very schmaltzy and optimistic and you can pick that and the enviromentalist angle #as what Momoa contributed to the writing because it feels very much an actor writing their hero character's finale thing #not complaining about it tho I find that kind of stuff interesting even if it isn't good #I mean why not go with that at this point #fuck it let's rip off a subplot from Black Panther and end with a limp imitation of the Iron Man 1 ending why not #Aquaman Saves the World and Patrick Wilson Eats A Cockroach and that's how the DCEU ends #honestly a more dignified fashion than it ever deserved to end