#I need more content about this book

[picturefirelizards]

I am begging the artists on tumblr to read Gwen and Art Are Not in Love because I am desperate for sword lesbian art

#gwen and art are not in love #I need more content about this book #tumblr people would enjoy it I think #it’s got everything #lesbians with swords #a confused possible lesbian/bi/ace girl #(I personally think she’s ace but she’s definitely into girls) #an absolute delight of a gay fuckboy and his very straight but equally delightful manservant #and a shy closeted gay animal loving prince #also intrigue and comedy #please read gwen and art #books

[theprincessandthepie]

ned stark's daughter will speak for them.

#game of thrones #sansa stark #ned stark #robb stark #asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #sansadaily #got #dailysansastark #am i allowed to put this in the asoiaf tag??? I did use book quotes and a lot of inspo from the books but i dont wanna be spammy. #lmk if its bad form and i'll remove the tag. #anyway. it's been 84 years.... #this vid. took so long. like. over a month. and she's HEFTY. #i'm really super happy with this. I am also going to have to post my 20 page (!!!) google doc with my notes and quotes and cut content #especially because - like a gremlin - i changed some of the quotes just a little bit to make more sense in the context of this vid. #which felt weird and bad and wrong but it did make the vid better. and so i can live with it. #also there is a shorter version on my youtube page for anyone who doesn't want to watch thriteen minutes of game of thrones vid #though this is the intended viewing experience #i could talk about this all day but i need to press post so. #my fanvids #Youtube

[nomattertheoceans]

I've been reading the Percy Jackson books for the first time over the past two weeks! Just finished "The Battle of the Labyrinth" last night (which btw is my favorite of the series so far!!)

I have now gained a new obsession but it might not be what you think

#like i swear to god i did not expect to be absolutely enthralled by the protagonist's mom kahskahfjkaja #she's just so fascinating to me #she's so kind and smart and she has given EVERYTHING for her son okay #like her staying married to an abuser for years to protect him omg she deserves the world #like when Poseidon called her a queen in the first book he was 100% right alright she is a queen #the woman murdered her abuser with a monster's head LIKE THAT'S SO AWESOME #also i cannot explain how obsessed i am with her relationship with Poseidon okay #like. do i want her to still have feelings for him? yes. do i need poseidon to pine and long for her from the distance?? ABSOLUTELY YES. #like realistically it's more likely that be does not but I need it okay #like at first i wanted them to be reunited because you know. of course i did. #but i am perfectly content with her finding love and happiness with a mortal man and Poseidon pining for her from the distance #like listen. this woman is amazing and she deserves to have an immortal all powerful god unable to get over her alright SHE DESERVES IT #but the way he just showed up at Percy's birthday party and called her as beautiful as ever????? omg??? BECAUSE YES SHE IS #and she blushed??? be still my beating heart #kahskahfksja honestly laughing at myself right now like I'm just over here watching a Sally Jackson tele novela in my head #AND HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE #percy jackson #no spoilers please if you see this post i know very little about the story and I'm thoroughly enjoying myself that way #also jsut as an fyi i am also a little obsessed with Percy and Annabeth kajakshdjshsha they are too cute and intense #sally jackson #percy jackson and the olympians

[nynnph0]

my bioshock headcanons (and canons) pt.1

(should have clarified this, the ages they are all at the time of 1960, or the time they died. so grace, gil, delta, sinclair are not as old as i think they would be by the time bioshock 2 takes place.)

andrew ryan

jewish - belarusian - russian

6'0 · 54 · 1906/01/26

bisexual (heavy f lean) neutral

sander cohen

jewish - american - czech

5'9 · 53 · 1907/07/12

homosexual ally/phobic

brigid tenenbaum

jewish - belarusian - german

5'4 · 32-35 · 192(5-8)/08/08

asexual aromatic lesbian ally

j.s. steinmann

jewish - american - german

6'1 · 49 · 1911/04/30

heteroflexible ally

frank fontaine

american - italian

5'8 · 42 · 1918/03/15

heteroflexible neutral

sofia lamb

british

6'3 · 48 · 1912/09/23

asexual aromatic ally

(deems love stupid)

augustus sinclair, esquire

panamanian - british - cuban

5'6 · 46 · 1914/07/28

pansexual ally

yi suchong

korean

5'6 · 52 · 1908/12/16

homosexual phobic

gilbert (gil) alexander

polish - romanian

6'4 · 36 · 1924/11/05

homosexual ally

grace halloway

brazilian - american

5'8 · 33 · 1927/11/07

heterosexual ally

anna culpepper

argentinian - caribbean

5'5 · 26 · 1933/09/09

heterosexual ally

reggie furey

american - irish

6'3 · 53 · 1905/08/19

heterosexual neutral

jökull (johnny) sigrúnsson

icelandic - finnish

5'9 · 37 · 1923/06/23

bisexual ally

jack

jewish - belarusian - russian - dutch - swiss

6'4 · 4 · 1956/??/??

asexual aromantic ally

mary-catherine (jasmine) jolene

dutch - swiss

5'6 · 30 · 1929/04/30

heteroflexible ally

#andrew ryan #sander cohen #brigid tenenbaum #js steinman #frank fontaine #sofia lamb #augustus sinclair #yi suchong #gilbert alexander #grace halloway #anna culpepper #reggie bioshock #subject delta #johnny topside #jack wynand #jack ryan #jasmine jolene #bioshock #bioshock 1 #bioshock 2 #headcanon #my thoughts #i might draw all of them with i i think they look like #especially reggie!!! theres nothing about him even in the book #he needs more love from ken levine and 2k #his character concept is so interesting #PLEASEEEEEE i want more content of him #headcanoning time w/ ethan #ignore her nonsensical thoughts

[ehlnofay]

Efri thinks she’s found the library.

“Woah,” she says, letting the door swing shut behind her. (Loudly. The doors here are so heavy.) Her voice echoes off the stone walls. She feels like she’s stepped into some story, like an exaggerated version of what a mage’s college would be.

It’s not that she’s never heard of a library before or anything. She understands them, conceptually. But the most books she’s ever seen at once was the small set of shelves in Rorik’s manor, and even that blew her away the first time – all the pretty bindings and close-written words. This is –

The College library is something else. It’s a lot bigger than a set of shelves.

Winding, narrow hallways bend and squiggle around like a set of earthworms trying to squish together to make a solid shape with no gaps, and every single wall is lined with books. Each shelf is like a rainbow of covers and colours. Half the spines are thick as at least two fingers put together and written over with words she can’t read. Efri has to bring Sissel here. She’d lose her mind.

“Woah,” she says again, and steps further in to look at the books on the shelves. All the bindings in blacks and blues and browns. One has the title written down the spine in gold lettering that shines. She brings up a hand to touch it.

“What are you doing?” someone demands. Efri stops. She looks.

It’s a grumpy-looking orc man in a bright yellow tunic, glaring at her much fiercer than seems necessary for the crime of looking at books in a library. He looks like he might be old – his hair’s white enough that his beard’s the same colour as his sharp sticking-out teeth, and he’s wrinkly.  Efri wrinkles her nose and tells him, “I’m looking at the books.”

“Wash your hands first,” he barks, turning his much-too-angry glare on Efri’s hovering arms. “You look like the sort of person to have grubby fingers.”

It’s true, but Efri is offended anyway. She wipes her palms hard against her orange wool skirt. (The skirt is grey at the hem from playing in dirty snow. It does not make her any cleaner.)

“Who’re you?” she asks the rude man. “I haven’t met you yet.”

He does not stop scowling. Maybe he’s perpetually angry. Maybe he just has an unfortunate face. But he says, “I’m the Arcaeneum archivist. Urag gro-Shub.”

The Arcaeneum, that’s what the library’s called. Very fancy name. (Sissel will love it. And has Kazari been here yet? They might like it too. She’s pretty sure they can read, though probably not these fiddly little paper books.) “What’s an archivist?”

“I maintain the library.” The archivist Urag gro-Shub might be grumpy and not very nice but at least he didn’t do the thing where he sighed all annoyed at Efri’s question. “I choose when and to whom the books are lent, and I ensure they are not damaged. Hundreds of years have gone into assembling this collection, and it’s going to stay pristine.”

“Is that book hundreds of years old?” Efri asks, pointing to the showy tome with the writing in gold.

Urag barely glances at it, dark eyes flashing in the vague direction of her pointing finger and flashing back again. “No. That’s historical fiction written in 185. That copy was made within these last ten years.”

“You didn’t even look at it,” Efri says.

“Bejewelled Tragedy. Four hundred pages. Horrendously inaccurate. Frankly, it wasn’t worth acquiring in the first place. Feel free to look for yourself.”

Efri will take his word for it.

“This section is for the books that are up for purchase,” he tells her, gesturing. “The worthwhile ones – and the old ones, if those are what you’re looking for – are further in.”

Efri squints down the passages again, their bright lights and cosy winding walls. She can’t tell where this section ends and the next one starts. She feels like if she went any further into the library she’d get lost. She says, “Thanks. I’m Efri, by the way.”

“I know. You’re that kid who showed up.”

“One of,” Efri corrects.

Urag keeps talking, rolling right past like he didn’t hear her. “Don’t know why in the name of all that’s been called holy they let you in. You’d think this would be a step too far, even –” he huffs and snaps his jaw shut, tusks digging into his moustache. He says, “At any rate. You’re here now, and you’re subject to the same rules as everyone else. You treat these books as careful as if they were your own firstborn children, understand? And if there’s something you want to find – or especially take out of the Arcaeneum – you come talk to me.”

Efri nods obediently. What time would it be right now? The lecture Sissel went to was almost two hours, and it’s definitely only been about one. She asks, “Are there any books with pictures?”

She’s not sure if it’s just the shape of his mouth or if he’s sneering. Urag says, “That depends. Are you going to respect the books enough to try to read the words too?”

“That depends,” Efri retorts, nettled. (She gets that he’s protective of the collection, but there’s no need to be rude about it.) “Are your books going to teach me how to read?”

Urag stares.

“You can’t read,” he replies, sounding vaguely offended, as though she, at six years of age, had refused to attend the village school for the express purpose of spiting him four years later.

Efri pulls a book out of the shelf without looking at it, ignoring the way he huffs. There’s nothing embossed on the spine or the cover, but there’s a title scribbled on the first page. “That’s a B,” she says, pointing to the first letter of the first word, and then stops, squinting. Switches her focus to a different word. “That one says off.”

“Of,” Urag corrects over her shoulder.

Efri shrugs. She snaps the book shut and slips it back into its place on the shelf. “I can read a bit,” she says. “I know my letters and that. The books here are just big.”

And given that she’d failed to correctly identify of, even small stories might be a bit beyond her skill level.

Urag is quiet. Efri looks back at him, mostly expecting him to still be looking affronted, as though she’d stolen food out of his mouth and thrown it at a wall – instead he looks oddly, blankly thoughtful.

“We don’t have anything suitable for early readers,” he says, tapping his fingers against his leg. “That might be an oversight.”

Efri really doesn’t think it is. “It’s a big fancy library, right? I think it’s normal to just collect the big fancy books.” All the ones that are hundreds of years old, or about magic or important things, or both.

Urag’s knuckles rap against a buckle on his belt. He says, “No! First misconception. A worthwhile collection archives all the work on its focus possible. The Arcaeneum is a collection of knowledge in every form. Therefore, we have as many books as we can access, on all sorts of topics. Half of them aren’t even good!”

“You sell the bad ones,” Efri says, trying to follow.

“Some of them. If they’re wholly without merit. Mostly I sell duplicates. Or works no-one has ever used. There’s things to be learned from everything – if not now, later. I’ll think on it.”

He looks back at Efri, looking a bit like he might have forgot she was there. “Regardless. Do you need anything, or can I get back to work?”

He’s still all rude and prickly. Efri bristles a bit. “I wasn’t keeping you,” she says, flicking her eyes again over the strange and wandering walls.

Urag sighs again like he’s got any right to be annoyed with her, but then he asks, “Would you like a tour of the Arcaeneum?”

“Do you want to give it?”

“You’ve already distracted me,” he says. Adds less irritably, “And I enjoy a chance to show off the collection. Long as you don’t interrupt me.”

“I’m going to interrupt you,” Efri informs him. She doesn’t like to be told what to do.

She lets him show her the library.

#I need to post more of efri in winterhold... it's sooo much fun #I'm slowly making my way through the story still. figuring out mzulft rn #this piece I wrote a while ago but I like it #urag is going I cannot BELIEVE we don't have any early reader books. this is a grave archival oversight!! #and efri is going ok man. #(he is very earnest about this. he wants the arcaeneum to have Everything in it. the idea that it doesn't is not to be borne) #after this scene ends efri is appropriately impressed by the library contents #and urag makes her a shitty little booklet made of stitched-together scrap paper to help her learn to read #(man cannot interact with children for the life of him but he is very invested in literacy) #oc tag #efri #the elder scrolls #skyrim #tes #tesblr #fay writes #my writing #urag gro shub #college of winterhold #arcaeneum #microfic

[thesmokinpossum]

I can't believe y'all almost made me pay to go watch po*r th*ngs in theater without telling me that the whole thing revolves around a hardcore born sexy yesterday trope with a side dish of pseudo necrophilia where a woman with the brain of a litteral foetus who don't have periods or body hair (but do have boobs!) find joy and freedom by having a lot of sex with a bunch of men, shoving a apple up her vagina for some reason and joining a brothel (but it's a cool socialist brothel and all the girls looove being there, don't worry guys), all of that written and directed by two men, I'm never gonna trust you guys after this one lmao

#she also piss on the floor at some point and talks about fucking with the vocabulary of a toddler but i'm supposed to believe it's not sus #lmao ok sure #'there's more to the story than this!' idgaf! 'you're taking it out of context!' idgaf! 'it's actually a feminist story!' no it's not lmao #i cannot let go of the socialist brothel either like wooooow #men are so obsessed with the idea of natural born sex workers it's almost comical #also i cannot comment on the original book since i haven't read it #but apparently a big thing is that at the end it's revealed by the woman character that the male ones where bullshitting... #...about pretty much everything to look smarter and more important than they are #but in this 'feminist' movie they actually do frankenstein the woman and give her a second life fr fr #like aiiiight lmao #btw i truly don't care if you love the movie that's perfectly fine i love plenty of movies with very questionable content #plus i don't think anyone need my approbation to enjoy anything in this world #but boy does it personally gross me out #poor things spoilers #i hope this don't pop in the tag btw #if it does i'm sorry but people who wants to see it *will* complain about being spoil

[fictionadventurer]

Who wants to see one of the dumbest purchases I've ever made in my life?

An actual 1881 copy of a book with all the info your average American could possibly want about the recently-assassinated President James Garfield. It was just sitting there at the used bookstore! I didn't even have to fight anyone for it!

As far as I can tell, it includes:

the campaign biography that was written for his presidential election

transcripts of some of his speeches, including the speech to nominate John Sherman at the 1880 Republican Convention, and his inaugural address

a full account of the assassination

recountings of his final moments and the funeral

the autopsy

a history of the Lincoln assassination for some reason

accounts of the world's reaction to the assassination

a list of all the prominent world figures who'd recently been assassinated

a whole lot of eulogies by some people who knew him and probably a bunch who didn't

This gets detailed. There's a full chart of every single round of voting from the 1880 Republican nomination convention.

A short bio of our boy Chet Arthur (with astounding illustrated sideburns).

And lots of illustrations!

As a book, it's not something to sit down and read (or to trust with much historical accuracy as a biography). As a historical object, though, I'm going to get an absurd amount of delight out of this stupid thing.

#history is awesome #presidential talk #and with this post i've fulfilled 50% of my reason for buying it #i should have been content to know this exists #and just left it on the shelf #i paid more than i wanted to for it #but for a book this old and obscure it's actually a steal #do i need it? no #does anyone? not unless you're writing a biography #but this is not about practicality #it's about the fact that i find it hilarious that this exists #in a random used book store #and fits in with one of my historical niche interests

[shorlinesorrows]

just got the time to start the sunshine court and I'm Vibrating out of my skin

#i did not think it was possible for me to like a character this much three chapters into a book #i might actually end up liking Jean better than Neil which is saying a Lot #something about a character whose route to survival had to be giving in and staying small instead of fighting back or running away #something about a character who has been taught to lock up their emotions for years or suffer the consequences #something about a character who is resigned to what happens to them because that's the only way they can survive in their environment #I am desperately hoping that Jean learns how to be ANGRY outwardly without permission. #I need that boy to be able to Rage out loud and do it MESSY #because I'm not convinced he's going to be able to really smile until he does #Also I'm really appreciating both the Renee and Thea content we've desperately needed more of both of them and they showed up so quick #privately hoping both stay present for a while but tbh i'm just excited for where this is headed #Anyways I also just fixated on Jean Moreau then discovered that (SPOILERS) he's 19???? Almost the same age as me??? hate riko hate riko HAT #anyway sorry riko enjoyers i know he's Complicated but I never liked him in the first place #and this book is making me look forward to his death even more than I did when I first read aftg. So. #listen i know he has Issues. I know Ichirou killing him without a second thought is probably the cruelest way that he personally can die #I also want him dead and gone. Those statements can and should coexist imho. #the sunshine court #jean moreau #really looking forward to finding out more about Jeremy too #this is gonna be a wild ride #jeremy knox #all for the game #love how nora's writing and characters can grab me in a chokehold and refuse to let me go thank you nora for the food

[sheena-is-a-punk-rocker]

We were robbed of more Rachel Elizabeth Dare content in the Trials of Apollo series!! What we did get was amazing but like, THIS SHOULD'VE BEEN WHERE SHE SHOWED UP THE MOST!! She's *Apollo's* Oracle dammit!

Anyway, I read through all the Rachel and Apollo content on AO3 and am desperate for more, whether that be romantic or them just being bros so if y'all could point me in that direction I would be muchly appreciative

#percy jackson #trials of apollo #rachel elizabeth dare #apollo #we were robbed of them being bros together #i ship them romantically but also just as bros #and there is seriously not enough content or either dynamic and I'm Mad about it #oracle of delphi #seriously why was she only in two toa books #she's my absolute favorite character and i need to read more about her

[kyouka-supremacy]

Mmmhh...

#(Basically rant on my last two posts) #I know I've said it before and sorry for coming off as annoying– #but I really wish we still had a central bsd blog on Tumblr like fy-bungoustraydogs or bsd-central or things of the kind. #I think now everyone rushes to post news first. And although there's merit to it in knowing news as soon as they happen‚ #in the long run the death of this kind of central official content ***fan*** blogs is such a huge loss of fandom spaces‚ #especially for the archiving purposes they solved. Especially today that T/witter and G/oogle have basically become unusable. #Literally. Literally. I've been doing official content archiving since I was 11 #(because that's the very specific kind of mental illness I have) #and let me tell you that the quality of web search and especially reverse image search only got worse– #in a way that is very evident and noticeable. Which is crazy tbh and not how things should work. #If anyone would like to start a bsd-central kind of blog I'll be the first one to follow. #Actually if anyone actually wants to establish it feel free to contact me and I'll be more than happy to share the resources I have!!!! #It just needs to be something multi-modded for a series of reasons I won't get into right now #I just can't personally do it (not as main admin at least) because that would be modding my FIFTH active bsd blog– #and that's a little too much even for me. #On top of some ethical concerns I have regarding whether it'd be fair for me to mod a fandom central bsd blog– #when I feel like I can't genuinely share the same amount of love for the franchise other fans share #On top of. You know. Getting a degree eventually hopefully. #Then years after the blog has been solidly enstablished and aquired enough credibility it could even open a free donations found to invest– #in buying and scanning and releasing bsd content that hasn't been shared yet like the guidebooks or illustration books or everything else– #for everyone to see... #The dream. (Is realistically never going to happen) (Won't stop me from daydreaming about it every day) #((Still salty I couldn't afford the guidebooks only due to the shipment prices. I *would* have scanned and uploaded them.)) #That was a long and idealistic rant. Kyotag out #Edit: *Modding my SIXTH bsd blog #Apparently I mod so many blogs I lost count of them

[where-is-my-beheading-ceremony]

Looking through the Pruliet tag and realizing there are different flavors of Pruliet shippers

#I love almost all flavors #Except for the far too problematic and making me scared of the admin flavors #Which is thankfully rare- #As rare AS THE GODDAMN SHIP #I NEED MORE CONTENT #Idk which flavor I am #But definitely the poetic #They both make each other question everything #And they both wish things weren't so gd complicated in the world flavor #Everytime I write about Pruliet or just Lithuania #I write as if they were either a phylosophy book where they try to find different ways to understand the world and bring themselves closure #Or a 19th century Lithuanian novel #Anyways #Pruliet ❤️

[sciderman]

pls watch the interview with the vampire series it's so much better than the movie or the books...... and yes its actually gay

ACTUALLY GAY?? thank god. the only thing that can save the vampire genre, i think.

i am so chronically unable to commit to tv series though i am so sorry. everyone tells me the what we do in the shadows series is amazing and i have watched the first two episodes and love it but i am chronically unable to commit... my body is physically unable to sit still for longer than two hours without exploding and it makes watching tv series nearly impossible because once i break the streak i never come back... i'm cursed to an existence where i will never watch a series all the way through

#i need to consume more content... i consume so very little... #i think the last series i watched all the way through was peacemaker. but i did it for james gunn and john cena and it was only five eps #oh. i watched um. what was it. the gay pirate show too. our flag means death. watched that too. im normal about it though. #sci speaks #basically the only content i consume is comics these days. and i've been reading some silly books about physics too. #i want to get back into physics. as olivia newton john would say. lets get into physical. #oh i watched all of the good place too. that's a good one. i like that show. #OH! and i watched moon knight and hawkeye too i guess. i do not remember anything from either of them. but oscar issac cute.

[essektheylyss]

Not gonna lie, both vindicating but also deeply sad that every single literary magazine I've looked at recently, having visited those site in the past, has edited their submission requirements to specify that AI work will not be considered.

And at the same time, I'm extremely fearful of how many writers are going to give up writing when it becomes impossible to tell AI from real anymore, and markets are utterly saturated with content to the point that getting anything published is nearly impossible as scammers try to make some quick change.

I imagine it wouldn't be worth it in the long run as a scam, because it doesn't exactly pay to write these days even prior to this, so it may then die out within a couple of years, though that might be optimistic given the plagiarism that makes it into the Amazon self-publishing realm. But even still, I do worry that in the meantime it's going to push writers out and force already struggling lit mags to shut down, and I'm so, so worried about it.

#I have not been submitting anywhere for a few months cuz mental health hit me weird #but I've been going back to look now and it changed SO suddenly with the release of chatgpt #I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it— #like I REALLY do spend a lot of time thinking about this kind of thing. straight up where does art go from here. #like that question was bad ENOUGH before this but now #also this also applies to book publishing but I mention lit mags especially because they're actually a VERY low entry point #and also—and perhaps more importantly—this will only further cement the monopolization of the publishing industry. #which will then mean that any moves toward diversity will be instantly walked back #because you don't have to worry about the backlash queer authors get for writing anything besides fluff gay romance. #you don't have to worry about controversy about your writers of color being harassed on twitter. #you can outsource your content to a false faceless entity who doesn't need to be paid and create whatever you so desire. #I know it's been said constantly but we grow ever closer to the most sanitized and pacifist destruction of culture and story possible. #that sounds dramatic but it's legit the cliff in the distance and the car is hurtling toward it faster than you'd think.

[stilldoingscience]

people really need to get a grip. The pale blue eye is a book set in 1830s, why are you surprised that there’s misogyny in the film?

#y’all would go wild if you knew the book was written by a gay man #I mean I understand the problems with the content and the way it’s handled #but Maddie’s situation… and the way 1830s society would’ve handled it would be to ignore it or consider her ruined. #it’s disgusting and it shouldn’t be a thing but that’s the reality #the movie struggled in playing out a lot of the character depth you get in the book #needed more Lea… needed more of her being a bad bitch #they put Mrs marquis in more than Lea tbh LOL and she’s not very significant in the book #I love the book and I’ll go to the grave defending it #the pale blue eye #still have the male savior complex I know but can we appreciate what landor did. kill r*pists. #women were silenced in those days.. maddie would not have been able to talk to anyone about it bc in the book she’s isolated in a cabin with #her dad. she rarely leaves.. and she’s so excited for that ball.. she wanted to go so bad #she prepped for days and that happens and it just shatters her being which in turn shatters the household #she didn’t have any girl friends.. she didn’t have friends.. she just lived with her dad!!! #suicide hits close to home and the movie hit close in its own way

[apoptoses]

it's day three of anne's eunuch book making me absolutely feral 🥺

#i can't stop wondering about if people had reacted better to the castrati smut #what kind of action we might have gotten in the VC books #because she wrote this before TVL #and you can see her laying the groundwork for concepts that would later be used in the VC #but the public absolutely could not handle the contents of this book and it kills me #it's such an incredible exploration of what it means to exist in a body that transcends sex and gender #and what intimacy is like for them #and idk idk just crying in the club over much more anne could have explored in the VC #had only publishers and the public in the 80s accepted her more graphic works 🥺 #anyways if you need me i'll be thinking about armand and daniel #in relation to tonio's experience with the cardinal #and tonio absolutely losing his mind over experiencing a man's body #and thinking about if armand lost his over touching up daniel in the same way

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

Dazai to Odasaku about Akutagawa: "If I'd left him to his own devices, he would've ended up a slave to his own powers until he destroyed himself."

Hey hi what does that mean???

I'm probably way overthinking it but it just reminded me of when I first started my watch of the anime and we get to the opening scene with Akutagawa and Rashoumon (I can't find the exact scene but here's something similar from DA)

He implies he's not attacking with her so much as he's reining her in from devouring everything - and originally I thought, hey, that's a cool premise. It seems like there's something odd about this guy's ability; he's talking about it like it's almost sentient.

But then it didn't really get brought up again so I kind of forgot about it.

And sure maybe all the above line means is that his ability is naturally attuned to violence and he could grow more bloodthirsty, etc - but if that's the case, why bring him into the mafia?

So I started thinking about Dead Apple (which I really need to rewatch...) and how there was this focus on Atsushi as the "antithesis" of special abilities. And I just kind of thought about that because... wouldn't that title go to Dazai...?

But then it's stated that Atsushi's claws can cut through any ability... including Rashoumon (he also has some connection to the Book which absolutely must be related somehow but I'm skipping over that for the purposes of this post). Dazai describes Akutagawa as "a sword without a sheath". Is Atsushi part of the sheath? It would make a degree of sense: after all, we get a sharp reminder in the movie of how imperative it is that Dazai nullifies Chuuya's ability - it is literally needed to keep Corruption in check.

But why such a focus on self-destruction and sheathing... unless there really is something dangerous that needs to be reined in? That needs to be controlled.

I think about the dragon in Dead Apple called the "chaos of all special abilities".

I think about how the tiger and dragon are another representation of yin and yang. I think about how Atsushi and Akutagawa so clearly have that yin-yang dynamic. I think about how Rashoumon very well has the appearance of a hungry snake - or a dragon.

I think about how the focal point of an entire altered timeline was the prevention of Akutagawa from joining the mafia and the taking of his sister. And then I wonder why Akutagawa always seems to factor into Dazai's plans.

I think there's something special about Akutagawa's ability.

I think that something special, whatever it is, is very dangerous - more than we know.

#of course there's not too much evidence for this #but it's just a really weird line to me #like it stands out #and i'm not kidding my first thought on seeing his ability #was 'whoa are we sure that thing is an ability?' #'because it seems alive' #i need to rewatch dead apple #i genuinely believe there are clues in there about the nature of abilities #after all the whole singularity thing (first referenced in dark era) became important for chuuya's backstory #also regardless of whether this is true or not i really believe there is something special about akutagawa #we know people wanted atsushi for the tiger and for the book #dazai is valuable as a negator of abilities #chuuya was literally experimented on and i think it was implied he originally had an amplifying ability? #which would make him and dazai exact opposites #why shouldn't the same be said of atsushi and akutagawa? #it makes sense #*sigh* basically i just want more akutagawa content that's all #i admit as a trauma response rashoumon makes a lot of sense #she's protective violent and hungry #...yeah that checks out #i'm not totally sold on the idea for this post i just think it's neat to think about #anyways #storyrambles #bsd #bsd akutagawa #bsd atsushi #shin soukoku #sskk