#It STILL took me a whole hour

[imfailingmyacademics]

Blurred Reality

#I discovered the smudge brush. #>:D #It STILL took me a whole hour #Why are all of my drawings blue ish that's funny I don't like blue much. But dull blue is the angsty colour #bsd #bsd dazai osamu #bsd nakahara chuuya #bsd osamu dazai #bsd chuuya nakahara #bsd fanart #rikasart #I don't know what's happening in the drawing

[dashing-through-ecto]

The difference one and a half years can make

My first comic

My latest comic

It's been absolutely staggering to see the differences even though these panels have the same vibes.

#I've been reminiscing about my older comics #thinking if I should redraw the first one I've ever made because #holy shit that looks like hot garbage #but like #it's still one of my best posts #the whole thing that kickstarted me doing more comics #enjoying bringen stories to life #it's like a piece of my history #its just cool to see how fare I've come as an artist #also like... the first pic was drawn in about 30-40 min at max and the second pic took at least 2 hours if not more #the effort i put into my art has changed so much #i feel so much joy when people laugh at the dum jokes that i make in my art #even back then #all the comments and love and taggs people have left on my posts is what keep me going #y'all having fun with my art is what fuels me and motivates me to make more stuff #bigger projects #it's just been wonderful this last year

[the-real-google]

I got really curious about something while catching up on notifs and now I have to know:

I don't remember everyone's handles so please reblog this so more people see it! Thanks :)

#I'm all caught up now! #well caught up on tumblr #I have other things I must do but I'll probably do them on Sunday? #I had to skip a whole bunch of picrew chains to be able to get through my notifs in a reasonable amount of time (it took a little over #an hour I think? I don't exactly remember when I started but I was talking to gabe during it and those messages were from an hour ago) #so sorry about that #feel free to tag me in more chains I promise I'll get to them next time #google #google posting #google is the best search engine #LSKJFLKDSJF OH RIGHT THE FICS I STILL NEED TO READ THE FICS AHH #hey google make a list for things I need to do on sunday

[neversetyoufree]

Lord I cannot believe it took me this long to realize this, but. Vnc's refrain of Noé trying to grab Vanitas's hand is a metaphor.

This whole time I've been reading the constant references to "Noé grabs Vanitas and saves him from falling, but one day he'll fail" as very literal foreshadowing for a day when Vanitas is going to fall and get hurt (or die?) and Noé will fail to catch him. And I still think there's a good chance that's true! However, it's also really obvious symbolism for the idea of salvation in general.

I've beaten this drum to death, but Vanitas is more or less the ultimate example of a character doomed by the narrative. He is going to die; the entire story is the buildup to his death. And one of the main conflicts is that Noé wants desperately to save him (and wants it more and more as they grow closer), but by nature of the story, we know he can't.

At least by Noé's definition of salvation, Vanitas is unsaveable. His death and suffering cannot be prevented, and despite Noé's best efforts, he is going to die by Noé's hand.

Enter the falling metaphor.

The absolute certainty of Vanitas's death works like the force of gravity. He is constantly being pulled down and down toward his doom like an endless free fall. But then Noé steps in and tries to save him, and in little ways he even succeeds! In all the little less important ways, he grabs Vanitas's hand time after time.

When Vanitas goes toppling off the ledge in Gévaudan, Noé catches him and shortens his fall. When Vanitas sinks into despair in Moreau's lab, Noé snaps him out of it. And when Vanitas gets lost in his own trauma and self-hypnosis at the amusement park, Noé brings him back to reality. For all of the little free falls, both literal and metaphorical, Noé is there for Vanitas before he hits the ground. The beating heart of their relationship is Noé's constant attempts to catch him.

However, Noé is haunted by the fear that he is going to fail someday. When Faustina reverts back to Naenia and dissipates in Gévaudan, he's shown a vision of Charlatan(?) telling him his hand cannot reach Vanitas. Naenia preys on people's worst fears and weaknesses, and this is one of Noé's. He fears that his hand will not reach the one he's grasping towards, and he will fail to save those that matter to him. The very broad line "you persist in reaching out for them" in the middle of Noé trying to literally catch someone more or less tells us outright that the falling and catching is a metaphor for salvation.

And when he speaks from the future, Noé confirms that this exact fear has come true. Noé in his narration is haunted by the regrets of "that day when I didn't grab your hand." His grand attempt at Vanitas's salvation has ultimately failed, and he didn't catch him when it mattered most.

The night that he first meets Vanitas, Noé throws himself out of an airship in the attempt to catch and save him. And from that point onward, he tries to catch him over and over again. Their relationship is one long straining outstretched hand as Noé attempts to pull Vanitas from his endless plummet downward. He is the one person deeply focused on Vanitas's salvation. However, Noé cannot ultimately stop the forces of tragedy and gravity and doom, and in the way that matters most, he can never quite reach Vanitas's hand.

There is going to be a day when Noé will be unable to catch him, and that day is the day that the entire rest of their relationship (and the entire rest of the metaphor) is building to. Noé is constantly reaching out, but he cannot save a man that is already dead, no matter how passionate the outstretched hand.

#vnc is so absolutely jam packed with symbolic things #that sometimes even the really obvious stuff like this goes over my head #like how long it took me to think about Jeanne's gauntlet case being a coffin! or this whole massive metaphor! #there's just so much going on that even the most blatant things can be missed in the flood #vnc #vanitas no carte #the case study of vanitas #vanitas #noé archiviste #english major hours #the vanoé agenda #<<I've been tweaking my tagging system and trying to keep track of all my posts about their relationship. rather than just the shippy ones #but hooboy does it still feel weird to use that tag here lmao #Noé arqueueviste

[procyo9]

reblog to have the big sad™ Raziel on froggy chair™ spin on your blog

#loved working on him so much that i did this speen thingy #hes my toy now :3 #legacy of kain #legacy of kain raziel #legacy of kain soul reaver 2 #lok #lok raziel #soul reaver #lok meme #legacy of kain meme #raziel #animal crossing #froggy chair #nge #nge meme #gif #3d #.obj #it only took me 2 whole nights of rendering (because i made some mistakes first time and had to redo lmfao) #spent about 60+ hours working on the first still render AND this silly animation which is nuts?? i really need a better setup for this #i want to make more stuff but first i gotta get my claws on more models from the games and im dead set on achieving it soon #fixed his pose a bit there!!! (lowered shoulders; sat him in the middle of the chair; most importantly now his hands look more natural) #fun fact: i rigged his wings with breast bones which makes raziel an enby icon (real) #i wanted to upload fly me to the moon with it but tumblr shat itself orrrrr copyrighted music is illegal now which is actually more likely #+ idk why his back is shattered like that and idk how to fix it lol sorry

[monbons]

WIP Wednesday

Thanks for the tag @thewholelemon!

I feel your pain on just making progress. Perhaps it will make you feel better to know that I am also just throwing words into a document and seeing what sticks?

I keep promising to start posting The Eternal Life of Baz Pitch, but the further I get the more I realize that I may need to finish at least a rough draft of every chapter before I can post the first chapter. Why?

I am still actively avoiding the slow burn. Evidence below:

If they never become SnowBaz, we don't have a story now do we?

2. The closer I get to writing the climax of this story, the more I realize it's going to be harder to land this plane than I thought. I'm still on track, but when your premise involves word games, curses, and a non-chron plot, you gotta make sure the math is mathin' - know what I mean?

3. This is really just an extension of the above, but I already had to go in and significantly revise two chapters by chopping up later chapters for parts. Both revisions were necessary and absolutely improved the flow of the story, but it does mean I can expect it to keep happening.

I just started Spring Break today (woohoo!), so here's hoping I can exorcise myself of this fic with a finished first draft before break is over. The pile of grading on my desk that I've ignored while cranking out words is not getting any smaller!

Here are some words for you. Thanks for sticking with me!

Hampshire, England  February 22, 1708 The boy with the silky black hair is running—crashing—into the woods. His lungs burn and his legs ache, but he can barely hear the voices calling to him anymore. Can’t see the eyes always on him. Expecting. Judging. He can only sense the ancient trees looming ahead, hear the chirping of birds and the familiar babbling of the brook that he knows is nearby. A destination.

No pressure at all tags below the cut!

@emeryhall, @noblecorgi, @cutestkilla, @bookish-bogwitch, @valeffelees, @beastmonstertitan, @roomwithanopenfire, @raenestee, @youarenevertooold, @arthurkko, @iamamythologicalcreature, @you-remind-me-of-the-babe

#i took a four hour nap today #my grading judged me the whole time #it's still a planning period if its for a fic instead of lessons right? #the eternal life of baz pitch #simon snow #baz pitch #snowbaz #carry on fanfiction #wip wednesday #addie larue x snowbaz

[liqu3d]

Try to put some new clothes on Stella and danggg she got some taste

She look good in whatever I throw at her 😋 yayyy

bonus her human design

Def will make some change later on this desigh don’t focus on that </3

#look at her #she looks so good #soo pretty 💞💞💞 #butttttt #She still #unemployed #lmao #girl find a job #Stella #Stella my beloved #I had never let smb wear this many clothes #oc #oc art dump #fan child #😋 #tehee :3 #This whole thing took me like #5 hours #more than that actually #Including finding smt to put on her #Spend good time on Pinterest #And like #I deleted sooo many other draft I drew her different style #Gosh #At lest I love the #Result #ok ok im done #I love her so much

[b4kuch1n]

I lied I think it’s fun to draw animals sometimes

#sonic the hedgehog #miles tails prower #knuckles the echidna #amy rose #team sonic #hey. still dont expect more sonic stuff okay. this is an exception #(I say as I immensely enjoy scribbling these animals) #man. Im mad how good these designs are tbh theyre so (clenches fists) theyre so! scribbleable! #hate that! dont like that dont like how much fun it is to draw them! #also I made amy spiky bc I want to and I can. and also shes a hedgehog #gods. thinking abt it sonic designs cater to me to such a disgusting level... the cartoon gloves... the big shapes.... the varied footwears #it's like psychonauts raz was so fuckign fun to draw. but here it's the whole cast #it's fucked up! it's entrapment!! I didn't consent to this!!! #next time they give any of the characters a big coat I'm sending sega a strongly worded letter. they cant do that to me #well. here it is anyway. genuinely these all took like an hour each I drew them as breaks inbetween work #(an hour for me is equivalent to other artists' fifteen minutes btw. I'm not fast at all I just don't know when to stop) #well. that done. back to work now #I am actually so excited abt the current one lol its just also gonna be a pain in the ass to coordinate #but I really wanna do well with it. go crazy go stupid baku!! #have a good night! a good pair of boots is worth the money but only if you can tie the strings together & wear it on ur neck in emergencies

[raiiny-bay]

scrapping this edit & starting over so here are some outtakes/wips

#i took a lil break from this edit bc it was annoying me but #i am ready to give it another try #i think my best bet is to just. redo the whole thing #i miiiiight still use the first shot but idk #i'm gonna mess around in blender for a bit & see what happens #i spent like. a solid hour yesterday journaling about dusty's childhood. it was kind of nice #definitely came to a better/deeper understanding of why he is... Like That #i may have to start doing that more often tbh #rainyrambles

[sc3n3kitt3h]

Request 4 @fallow-grove: a (found) family of sparklecats

#yay yay its finally done!!!!!!!!!! it might not look like much but this took me 7 hours of on and off work!!!!!!!!!!! #i tried a whole bunch of new stuff with this #obviously i used a new brush and shaded!!!!! for once!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and the shading is why it took so long #so here it is!!!!! a (found) family of sparklecats!!!!!!! (ones half bunny but it still counts) #this was SO FUN. i love drawing even though its hard #i'll probably draw these guys again n make em 4 real ocs because i really love how they all turned out #i really hope these r sparkly enough btw O_O" i was stressing a lil bit about that #nevertheless i hope u like it ^u^!!!! #eyestrain #gif warning #sparklecat #funky cool art #sparklefur #kittys awesome ocs #sparkledog

[atanxdoesstuff]

I saw this in a Yakuza vines vid and HAD to draw this

(read right to left)

#i originally had a whole essay in the notes about how nishiki murdering dojima doesnt make him evil #but then i realised that prob belongs in a seperate post on main #holy shit this took me longer than i thought apparently almost 2 and a half hours #nishikiyama akira #yakuza #digital art #yakuza fanart #rgg #sketch #kiryu kazuma #i still struggle to draw him #sawamura yumi #dojima sohei #i also played YK1 immediately after Y0 so I already still wanted to murder Dojima on Majima and Makoto's behalf so I might be biased lol #also idk how to draw guns and i cant be bothered to learn sorry XD

[hella1975]

ough

#napped for like an hour and feel worse for it! tbh it wasn’t even proper sleep i was still partially conscious it was one of them naps yk #now waiting to get picked up then driving to manny. im being brave im being so brave #next time ryanair hit you with £40 return flights maybe question why they’re so cheap. they will have you sat at the end of your bed #nauseas and disgruntled at 3am on a beautiful lord’s tuesday #also tell me why i just chugged a bottle’s worth of milk. like i put some in a water bottle from home bc i have none here at my uni house #and didn’t want to buy any but my mum FREAKED at the prospect of me Not Being Able To Make Hot Drinks so I just took some to go #but wound up drinking barely any and i was like well im not just going to bin this or let it go off. i HAVE to drink it #so i did. just alone in my kitchen at 2:40am. the whole bottle. okay…

[juicedbeetle]

when the note doesn't light up (fav moments 6/?)

#Beetlejuice #beetlejuice musical #gif #mine #bonus blum for some reason not changing the wig from the green one at all?? i thought it was just in the red but no. no purple either #i have another 🐍 but i wasn't able to put the specific part that has say my name on my phone so i- #still dont know if the note works there 💀 whatever I'll just do another gif when i have it all in order if so #very troublesome format it's in :( but its ok we can cope #i feel so lucky in this chili tonight that two masters were able to capture both BRIGHT and BLUM having a note technical difficulty #so i can effectively compare them 😭 isn't it beautiful. or am i the only one that cares about something like this #what were the CHANCES #dude what was UP with that wig i need to know why they didn't change it the whole time #me in my happy place making gifs....... my relaxing activity..... hoping everyone else likes them too :3 #i used to compare 🐍s by seat placement but the new ones i have all have the same seating #😭😭😭 so i will get confused between them #very excited to debut this gifset in like a week lmao i make them so in advance #fav series #sowwy todays daily gifset took so long to post i took hours to make a new one teehee got lost in the sauce

[glassphinix]

i've been a busy boy (spoken w the same vibe as that one garfield 9/11 comic)

#baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #bg3 #bgiii #bg3 astarion #bg3 abdirak #(oh god ive been misspelling that cunts name this whole time) #for anyone whos not familiar with this game you get the bloodless debuff if astarion drinks your blood #and you get loviatar's love by letting a sadomasochist beat the shit out of you ritualistically. no that's not a joke #but i went thru with it cause it gives you advantage on low health and my bard is the squishiest bitch on the team now #even GALE has more health than my character now bc i gave him the tough feat #i also coincidentally got astarion's first bite scene the first long rest after meeting abdirak #because ive been delaying my long rests as long as possible for fear of anything time-sensitive becoming unavailable to me #and so a bunch of other shit took priority over astarion trying to bite me #BUT. that has instead resulted in the extremely funny idea of my character volunteer to get beaten up #for NO in-universe discernable reason i might add #and astarion being like 'hm. okay he might be a big enough freak to let me feed off him without shoving a stake through my ribs' #and then trying his luck that very night ASJFKSA #anyway. i stopped playing this fuckin game like an hour ago bc i have to wake up early and yet im still awake and being a freak #internal monologue

[camscendants]

That was an eventful two days

#I had a better time at the Waterparks concert #Noah was great #buuuut #I was on the barricade #I had my cousin hold onto my spot while I grabbed some merch and he didn’t hold onto the barricade so when I got back there were like three #rows of people in front of me #tall people too #and I got a ticket for my friend who wound not being able to go #and my brother who took us didn’t wanna go so I completely wasted $25 on a ticket #and it just Sucks that I spent so much money on ticket and got there super early just to be shoved way back when I LITERALLY had the front #there was this rude entitled lady who made everyone move for her son #he only knew tx2 but stayed up front the whole time #(she also took a spot right on the barricade too) #I was just really upset about how it didn’t go according to my plan and I kind of had a panic attack. like. a really fucking long one #and I had my vip bag + merch with me and everyone was stepping on it (no one was even playing?) and they fucked up my poster #but yeah I pretty much had a 2 hour long panic attack my ribs hurt now from hyperventilating (leaving the pit wouldn’t have helped) #the vip part was still good #I met Noah again he remembered me he did great it was just the people around me #oh I also like fucked up my knee #but that’s cause two concerts in a row hurt I think someone kinda accidentally kicked in a mosh pit and the first venue the ground had a #slight tilt to it. so it was kinda uncomfortable after a few hours #Waterparks #noahfinnce #concert #tx2 #music

[photon-crest-art]

Tmw you're just trying to do your job but then all these Toons who don't even try to fight you just start following you around jumping up and down and shouting your name like they're in some sort of trance.

The Toons, from top left to bottom right:

Masked bat: Masker Raid, belongs to @booboothundergadget

Purple bat with jester collar: Loopy Lancelot, belong to me

Brown koala: Euca "Chelly" Lyptus, belongs to @revvywevvy (Who also took the background screenshot; thanks for that!)

Bat facing away from the camera: Violet Honeybee, belongs to @cipherbunz

#toontown corporate clash #ttcc #others ocs #deep diver #mary anna #OC #Loopy Lancelot #2023 art #I wasn't even trying to put a whole lot of effort into this and it still took me forever :skull: #Granted I drew multiple characters in this but still #When will I ever be able to make something in less than 5 hours that isn't a shitpost or traditional drawing </3 #Ok enough of my bitching here