#It goes 4 1 2 3

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[carrotkicks]

some reverse bbys,,

#1. i need more kenji akutagawa friendship moments. it's a NEED #2. ranpo in his evil little mafia outfit. #3+4. higuchi gets armed #5. cute n soft baby skk. they actually start as (boy)friends before all the mafia 15 arc nonsense goes down #oh and. let dazai wear sneakers 2k23 #bsd #bungo stray dogs #reverse au #akutagawa #kenji #chuuya #higuchi #dazai

[kagoutiss]

“what does sheik actually do in this au” fair question. everything

#tloz #ocarina of time #oot #sheik #zelda #ganondorf #undercover sheik au #sheik is a 1. ranch inspector #2. scout #3. the entire department of wildlife #4. royal security consultant #5. human/monster resources #6. guy who collects whatever the king of all evil needs without asking questions #also gets paid at irregular intervals but in obscene amounts of rupees. which mostly goes to refugees in kakariko #and then balancing all of that with covertly reporting back to impa on everything sheik has gleaned while working for ganondorf #and sometimes having to compromise between what sheik tells who because he cannot be 100% honest with ganondorf and impa all the time #due to the Circumstances #its great. sheik is doing great

[callmegaith]

he's been 39 for a while : )

#shitposts #ship: jackalope #this was low effort but I had to draw it before it stopped being funny to me #list of things wrong with him: #1) caroline probably dropped him when he was born #2) cult family #3) living on a secluded island making him socially inept #4) he probably found drugs in those 200 years of living #5) the list goes on

[front-facing-pokemon]

#jangmo-o #i shiny hunted this motherfucker in sv for a while. during that one event where they had a heightened shiny chance #and despite finding like two shiny duraludon like immediately‚ it took me multiple days to find a shiny jangmo-o. even with a sandwich #a level 3 sparkling power sandwich dragon. ridonkulous… #just goes to show that i love this motherfucker. and also their shiny color scheme. pink and yellow is an underrated color combo #UPDATE: hi it's me from the future. happy daylight saving time #if you were waiting for this post at 1:20 PM eastern and you didn't see it‚ i apologize! apparently‚ tumblr's queue system changes #with daylight saving time‚ which means now posts every day will be at 2:20 PM and 5:40 PM eastern instead of 1:20 PM and 4:40 PM #until. daylight saving time ends. i would HOPE the queue would've kept the times consistent‚ but it didn't. so you may have to update #your expectations for when these guys get posted‚ if you had any. apologies for the‚ ah‚ minor inconvenience!

[gayofthefae]

It's the fact that it's not just that their actions are suspicious/indicative of them knowing they have feelings for each other, but their actual dynamic itself has gotten closer. You can feel the build-up without the plot-pertinent conflict around the romance. The romance itself is at its core there too with the tv-typical buildup.

They weren't this close in season 1. We often talk about it as them always having been different and then realizing but they DO have momentum. They WEREN'T this close. Like any other love story, they have been falling in love in front of us, not just noticing themselves.

They were close, closer than the others it seemed. Then they built on that in season 2 - practicing their close dynamic more and getting more used to it one-on-one, building to Mike telling Will how important he was to him near the climax of the season. In season 3, they fought for the first time, breaking some very important relationship ice, in my opinion, fighting. In doing so, they opened up a conversation about their future. One that, even if they didn't continue it, was now out in the open and they knew that the other knew, and that affects dynamics as well. This ended for the season with Mike purposefully subtextually validating that he wanted that future with Will too. closer. In season 4, they fought again, repeating more directly this new dynamic of saying their feelings out in the open, asking "What am I to you? Am I still important to you? As important as I used to be?" and working their way back. Mike took a big step forward in their relationship by not just letting it be swept under the rug like in the past but coming back to address it and voluntarily iterate how much Will means to him and apologize. That indicated to Will that he might be able to do the same, though he ultimately backed out via the El cover-up.

They have built up. Even if their dynamic has remained the same, they have over the course of the seasons been working more and more up in ability to talk with each other about their feelings. That is what needs a climax in season 5 for their relationship. And for "we're slowly improving at acknowledging the feelings we already have" as an arc, there need to be more unspoken feelings than the "you're my best friend" we've established in past intimate conversations.

#stranger things #byler #byler arc #byler analysis #byler isn't just cute like any other queercoded ship #they have BUILDUP #and we never talk about it and we need to #they have been getting progressively closer emotionally to the point of *kissing* (teehee) #but really just admitting their feelings the buildup itself is very verbal based actually #1) it was a seven. 2) it was the best thing i've ever done 3) i guess i did 4) it's not the same without you #also just noticed that it alternates who initiates it which is awesome #it goes will mike will mike #go them man #better at relationships than me fr #wait til i find out that's literally the whole point of me being a shipper #they're better than me and i am living vicariously through that

[compacflt]

wip wednesday: let’s have some happiness around these parts for once!!

#back to making you guys read 🫡 #big happy family :) #1. what are families good for besides playing cards on a school night and talking shit? #2. all Ice wants to do after his promotion ceremony is take mav out to dinner #3. the one day in 2015 when everything just… goes right #4. Mav being dad-shaped post-mission #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #bradley rooster bradshaw #icemav #top gun #top gun maverick #top gun fanfiction #i think the prop is made out of aluminum? idrk. not a materials scientist or anything. just making it up. #love the idea of ice & mav holding onto Bradley’s childhood #waiting for him to come back #he’ll come back. #all these mfs do is leave & come back to each other fr

[volivolition]

don't talk to me or my son ever again

#de conceptualization #conceptualization #disco elysium #disco elysium skills #de skills #voliart #still trying to finalize a design for her (conceptualization not tangela hjkdshd) #i thought it'd be cool to put them in a frame? im still figuring out the logistics i want it to have. decided things (subject to change): #1) frame can shrink or grow as needed 2) frame floats 3) part of xer must always be passing through or touching the frame #4) frame is always aligned how the Square is aligned (so if the frame is facing horizontal the Square is also horizontal) #i might play with the canvas in the frame changing colors to suit her mood. it would be yellow here since xe's happy about tangela :) #i might also play with if xe can just hide parts of her body in the frame and not have them show on the other side? #maybe the frame grows with higher levels? and she just breaks out of the frame and goes fucking wild at max level. thats cool :] #anyway sidenote almost finished a different piece so thats exciting :3 i took a break and doodled a bunch of these little fellas #and then i drew this one with a tangela and laughed too much at it to not post it. this is so amusing to me hkdjd THE MOST CREATURE EVER!!

[phant0municorn]

goodbaye 2 dinobot(uninspired) haelooo lucifer<3

#beast wars #transformers #dinoprimal #optimus primal #dinobot #doop #im gonna dump about this au since like excluding the 1-3 and last 2 images like alot of this is almost from like a year ago by now so uh #if ur a FRIEND who has NOT finished beast wars do NOT read im literally gonna ruin some shit 4 u DONT do it. i SWEAR. ok ily bye #maximals and predacons crash land on earth yadda yadda except its 10 times worse they crash land on the wrong time where most of humanity #has already evolved lets say they crash land around 15-16 century or so. idk yet exactly maybe we may never know just know au is gothic #mostly kinda yeah u see op hes a bat and shit but when he was scanning a lifeform while being barely alive because wehn they crashed both #sides almost went up in flames literally and when op was scanning a lifeform he did scan a bat but it was full of parasites and he ended #up scanning those as well. hes like yeah hes a vampire but like not an actual one but just as scary since energon isnt as abundant as time #goes on on earth and its scarce op needs more of it or else he goes feral he has 2 eat the protoforms kinda. lucifer doesnt defect immediat #ely uhh idk if i might make this like a visual novel or something one day if i have the time or energy after a project im alredy working on #well see ok thanks bye #i also wanted 2 redesign db because it always kinda bothered me how like its just him in some western get up. i wanna commit more 2 it and #now hes a diamondback rattle snake(not sure if i want 2 specify eastern or western idk if it matters really) and op kinda like has more of #flea mouth but rins mouth is canon 2 they can coexist<3 ok now byebye #oops made it up on the spot last minute i hate doing refs but the top of lucifers head is his snake skull #i keep forgetting sm shit but also why do they fight whats the point. in the crash both golden discs were destroyed. theyre pissed off as #hell if im going down im taking u with me

[coquelicoq]

crashes ur board meeting n drags u out by the collar but its fine bc youre the one always saying shit like "im looking for people i can use" ok lol. get used idiot

#just tracing like. the sequence of events that had to take place in order for this to come to pass #1. natori and his shiki are skulking around homura stalking ban. possibly it's just his shiki and natori is elsewhere. #either way 2. natsume shows up and natori learns about it either bc he witnesses it or a shiki comes to tell him #3. natori gets in his little richard scarry apple car (this is my mental image for some reason) & fucking. BOOKS IT to the matoba compound #4. goes inside. presumably matoba lackeys try to stop him bc their boss is in an important meeting but somehow he gets past them #(possibilities here are v fun to think about. maybe natori does this all the time and they're used to it. maybe he's never done it before #but they're all on orders to let natori in if he ever shows up. maybe natori convinces them he's supposed to be IN the meeting #which is great because it sounds like some important clan thing so what is he in the clan now??) #5. interrupts matoba's meeting like 'i need you' and matoba's like 'bye everyone whatever this is is more important' #6. they get in natori's comical apple car (again the apple car is not canon don't worry about it) #& natori drives like a bat out of hell back to homura. (SOURCE: matoba is so scarred he refuses natori's offer for a ride later) #i wonder what they talk about on the way there? because they don't talk about why natori is stalking ban until much later #so they must be busy talking about something else. but what?? #that or they're both too distracted by all the near-death experiences from natori's crazed driving lol #natsume's book of friends #natsume yuujinchou #homura cats arc #horrible exorcists #my posts #sidenote i feel like that page at the end where both matoba and sensei refuse natori's offers of a ride is really funny because #sensei's reason is that it will take too long. but sensei did you know natori drives like a speed demon? think it thru... #also like. how long did it take him to decide to involve matoba? was that his backup plan all along? #also it's pretty lucky that he found matoba at all considering he could be anywhere...the matoba have like 15 houses... #he has matoba's schedule memorized lol #natori sparkling to the assorted clan members in the meeting: sorry ladies and gentlemen i just need to borrow this~ #*throws matoba over his shoulder and fireman-carries him to the parking lot*

[sekaitransparents]

colourful festivals....... oh how we love and hate them

#such pretty cards #but too many for our hands and motivation levels lmao #btw #our current kinda rule is that we do the 2 star 3 star and 1 4 star and then leave the rest to yall #but maybe we should do two at least #we'll see how it goes #colorful festivals are one of the only times we have good luck tbh but considering we've been barely playing lmao #we're level 190 we have no crystals left

[moonshynecybin]

In a reconciliation world, what do you think it would take for Vale’s whole entire brain to jump in there?

Like you say he is repressing the fact that he’s in love with Marc. What makes him say: Ohhhhhhh that’s what that was.

THIS ONE IS HARD ummm see the thing is. they havent reconciled in the last 8 years.... and well. a large amount of history resentment and ego is preventing that from happening. which means we are left to theater of the mind to heal one of the most entrenched sports divorces EVER. one that has become a major part of their respective legacies and has been highly publicized by them both. so theyve got a lot on the line if they want to reconcile. and ive said that i DO think it should be valentino to make the first move here but um. well. i genuinely dont know how to get him to that point ! ive got amporphous ideas about a post-retirement crisis/re-evaluation (helpfully dovetails with marc having the worst time vis a vis his injury), them being in forced proximity and remembering they have insane chemistry/the same sense of humor, marc publicly looking like a slut, and many other somewhat plausible scenarios but until it happens (IT WILL. please please please youre nothing) im just throwing darts at the board.

#everytime i write fic im having soo much fun writing the angst and then i have to actually solve them and im like UH OH. #like they are NOT unsolvable it just would take a MASSIVE kick in the pants or happen so slowly and gradually #that neither would realize it was happening until they are maybe literally married. #IN FIC IVE WRITTEN: 1. marc goes FUCK IT and tells valentino he used to be in love with him (slightly OOC frankly! not my closed-off queen! #2. vale has an emotional journey off-screen that i never fully explain #3. literal time travel. #4. tumblr fic: insane horniness #motogp #callie speaks #asks #rosquez

[carrotkicks]

day 1

#doodle #doodles #comic #bsd #skk #fem soukoku #kunikida #ranpo #yosano #dazai #chuuya #in the comic: #1. dazai arrives. mori wishes her luck #2. she introduces herself to her class with the usual 'i like death and hate pain. please take care of me!' everyone goes ???. #3. so then she gets assigned the seat behind chuu. who's apparently not there #4. scratch that she's here. #sends them to school au

[brofightiscancelled]

#png #1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #6 #ichimatsu is a reference to this post https://pierogiy.tumblr.com/post/701419540132823040/swear-to-god-i-made-like-5-comics-that-go-exactly #chorochan sucks so bad he needs to go to the gay bar #i think there would be some kind of big convoluted gag where totty accuses him of being homophobic and he's like IM NOT IM NOT HOMOPHOBIC #so to prove how not homophobic he is he goes to the gay bar #then while he's there he has some kind of Realization. and he goes home. and eveyrone's like well how was the gay bar. and he's like #“(panicking) it was horrible it sucked im never going back there again” #and everyone's like wow... choromatsu is like super homophobic.... should we kill him or something

[shinayashipper]

I love how the manga Otogi arc got many Shippy Contents for more of Yugi's ships 🥺

Kaiba really Skipped 1 (ONE) arc and Yugi already got New Boyfriends 😂😂 KAIBA!! PUT SHACKLES ON YOUR MAN!! He's Collecting Boyfriends anywhere he goes 😂😂

#Kaiba really goes Absent on ONE ARC and Yugi has gotten: #1. Otogi-kun #2. Bakura's 'I Need Yugi' #3. Jou's bridal carry #4. Yamiyu's I WANT TO STAY WITH YOU FOREVER #yugi may have gotten some burn scars but hes getting The Boys #rivalshipping #tagged rival because its funny to me

[toadscools]

if any of you even care. our rabbit has been trying to make friends with our beardie for half a year now, but couldn't figure out if she was in charge of him or if he's in charge of her, bc she is a lizard and wasn't giving him any body language clues. (rabbit hierarchy is very important - each rabbit has to know who is in charge of every other "rabbit" they know.) but just this past week he seems to have decided that her refusal to groom him when he's asked her to in the past means that she's in charge of him, so he's started to groom her instead when they see each other, which is rabbit for "oh heeeeey i love you and respect your authority kisskisskiss". and she just closes her eyes and allows it bc she is a peaceable and tolerant little reptile. the world is so beautiful

#our household pecking order in his little mind goes: 1) oddish the beardie 2) oliver the rabbit 3) me 4) my partner who he seems to view as #anything from a threat to my attention/affection to an inferior rabbit that he generously allows to play with him & pet him & give him food #the other lizards are too small for him to recognize as sentient beings #oliver tag #oddish tag #mine