#It wounds me everytime

[articwolfclawartist]

Dang those Dofus (Dofuses? Dofai?) were HARD to draw

Loved this season

#Wakfu #yugo #wakfu season 4 #Dofus #Eliasphere #Art #fanart #fan art #Artic’s Art #My art #Why must tumblr always desaturate my drawings? #It wounds me everytime #Eliatrope #mina #phaeris #efrim #nora #adamaï #qilby #shinonome #balthazar #Glip #Grougaloragran #chibi #Wakfu fanart

[master-of-the-railway]

Sue me for this if you wish but I think Big World Big Adventures: The Movie wasn't actually as bad as everyone says it is and it's high time we gave it the appreciation it deserves, like it's a bit too overhated in my opinion. Maybe it's just my inability to be overly mean and aggressive abt pieces of media that line up with comfort interests but I genuinely don't get the hate towards the BWBA movie....like nothing was bad abt it in my own opinion? The songs were fire all the way through, the visuals are very pretty (the LIGHTING!!!), and I mean like Nia is there and how can you possibly hate anything that features Nia she CARRIES that movie so hard. I've seen some ppl say the movements are too much but like...it makes the engines far more expressive and I highly prefer them having a bit more movement to being entirely stiff because being stiff restricts their expressiveness even more, and tbh realism was left behind the second the cgi series made its debut (Ex: D51s were first produced in 1936 and yet Hiro was somehow the first engine on the island of Sodor) so I don't really look for realism too hard when it comes to TTTE because I mean...the trains talk and are fully sentient, and that's already grounds enough for me suspend my disbelief a TON.

Maybe it is just my Nia bias (AND YONG BAO IS THERE AT ONE POINT!!! Absolutely love him.) but I think BWBA is pretty good, it's one of my favorite TTTE movies. It's just really whack that half the fandom seems to hate or at least mildly dislike this movie, which was a huge shocker to me because I was happy stimming the ENTIRE time on my first watch. It was fun and colorful and expressive and thinking about how it introduced so many international machines to the lineup...like I physically cannot hate a movie that caters to my favorite thing EVER in shows with sentient machines (seeing the machines from other countries). I don't mind the fact that ppl dislike it at all (bc everyone's entitled to their own opinions and all that jazz) but it's more just I can't really find any negatives about it, the only character introduced in it that I dislike is the one they (assumedly) want you to dislike and even then I gotta admit his song slaps. To each their own in the end, I suppose, but the point I'm trying to make is that I think we gotta be at least a LITTLE bit nicer abt this movie. (And if anyone interacts w/ this post, please don't like. Start fights on it or anything. This post isn't mean to spark any discourse or aggression, it's just my personal thoughts that I'm sharing with the fandom because so far all of you that I've met are EXTREMELY kind and understanding and so I trust you all to be normal abt it.)

#ttte #thomas and friends #thomas & friends #Hero of The Rails is my favorite TTTE movie of all time tho :) #always will be #but yeah everytime I've seen someone talk abt this film they rarely say positive things which is just fine y'know- #-it's not like I'm mortally wounded over the fact that ppl don't like it #I just find myself unable to see what could possibly be so bad about it #but that's kind of just a me problem I suppose lmao

[pipfrankenstein]

you got a visit from the darknight hero! (seconds later he flops over on the floor and passes out from blood loss)

#he’s so bbg #i have forgotten how to draw i swear #love how he looks different everytime i draw him #it’s great. love it. #anyways kiss me diluc i’ll patch ur wounds #genshin impact #diluc #genshin #digital art #diluc ragnvindr #hoyoverse #mihoyo #diluc genshin #diluc genshin impact

[kluiyu]

The pain of liking series with complex characters is seeing the fandom flatten them beyond recognition

#this post is about sinclair limbus company #and every character in dungeon meshi #(only happens occasionally but everytime it does it wounds me deeply) #krimsble

[opens-up-4-nobody]

The way that the sun hits leaves and clouds. I feel like I could watch the colors change forever. If I could slow down for that long.

#i keep forgetting a have a deck now. i can go outside and sit there #im doing that now. sitting in the corner of a deck full of empty chairs. staring up at a big pine tree where the sun is striking it gold #at the top. i like how thr light hits the needles. if the sky was black it would look like its on fire #theres a tree outside my bedroom window too. in the morning. after the sunrises it catches thr light and refelcts the most perfect shade #of green. the kind of green that flutters translucent like youre looking up from the bottom of a pool. the light the light its all about #the sun. everything everything is about the sun. when i start my project I'll be focused on understanding how organisms catch the light bc #its so incredible and complicated it would make my chest swell to bursting if there wasnt an empty bleeding wound in my gut. a #metaphorical wound of course. i dunno. its just difficult bc right now my mood is inflated by hormones. not even that much i think I'm #just at what shoulf be a normal level of happiness so i can be slow for a minute. but just a minute bc i kno it won't last long #sorry i cant shut the fuck up when im like this but i dunno i just feel like i havr to document these ephemeral moments before they're gone #its just difficult when you kno the world is so full of beautiful things but 95% of the time your eyes are too clouded to see it #everyone tells me i work too much but i feel like im just staring off into space being miserable 60% of the time. ive just done so much #damage over the past few years im coming into a new lab as damaged goods. ive got an albatross around my neck in thr form of data i #collected so self destructively that the idea of having anything to do with its publication makes me hate myself. everytime someone tells #me good job on collecting so so so much data it feels like they're congratulating me for breaking something within myself. like i slit my #wrists and bled out on a lab bench and theyre saying good job and theyre excited for me and i have to grin and bear it and pretend im #excited too. but im not bc ive burned everything inside me to ash. so when im elevated enough to be distracted by the clouds and trees it #feels like healing. like seeing angels. beautiful ephemeral beams of light. i wish i could slow down enough to watch them. but now thr sun #is hitting the horizon and the sky is going gradually dark and i should go inside. bc i have many things to do in the morning. so that's #what ill do. and ill try to get more thsn 6hrs of sleep but its hard when your body is vibrating over with energy #but at least i dont feel tired in the morning. something in my head must be on fire #unrelated #hm i should maybe add a tw to this #tw self injury #but its the kind thst makes u good at ur Job. its the kind ppl reward. so they don't understand when u say its destroying ur life #but im trying to get better. i say as i gear up for an insane semester lol but i do mean it

[snarkylinda]

I won't talk about that scene, it has been discussed to death, I don't want to open that can of worms. My blog is just to bully (with love)/appreciate Spencer Reid rn, that is all. I just love the little detail that on Rossi's weeding his bun is all crooked, like his ties normally are.

By what he said in that scene on The Lesson this is never intentional and he simply can't fix a tie/bun to save his life and I think that is adorable.

#criminal minds #spencer reid #´but linda you bitch all the time about the way he doesn't has kids-´´ that is because I want him happy #´and about the info-dump joke-´ see above #also because I do the same so everytime it happens it wounds me

[sensitivegoblin]

Fuck I'm yearning for soft attention so hard my body physically hurts

#sad ramble #highgoblin #today all I can think about is how I don't think anyone would ever wanna actually be physically close to me #sure people wanna have sex with me but I don't think if they saw me in person they would want to be CLOSE to me #there's a difference between sex and closeness #I don't think I'm the type of guy someone wants to hold and stare at and comfort and love #everytime I imagine someone softly tickling/teasing me or just doing cute things like kisses and hand holds #I just get this dreadful feeling as a voice in my head tells me I'll never get the romance I desire #I dunno how to explain my feelings right #I want sex and rough stuff #but I really NEED soft affection to heal my wounds #and I don't think I'm ever gonna get that

[thenarryparable]

Everything is so confusing.

#everytime i think about. recovery. because this is hell. #all those comments that contradict what people in recovery say just get thrown at me and it feels like another gaping wound. #anyway. SORRY. feel like shit rn. #Heart rate bad :))) #tw 3d talk

[bo0zey]

anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol

#laying in bed everytime i think abt myself i feel literally nauseated n like it’s so weird #this feeling comes in waves intermittently just even .01 sec of ‘hm i’m hungry’ FFFFFNOPE HRRGRHFFF VOMITTY #i want to curl up in a ball and die forever i don’t care about me i don’t want to take care of me anymore i’m not even good at it #whyyyyyyyy did i stop taking my meddsssssss i guarantee y’all this is why i’m being such a crybaby on the dash lmaoooo #i have a headache i’m def dehydrated from crying n sniveling n barely drinking any water today while sweating like a mf at work #imma go to bed 🛌 if i don’t wake up i will be soooo pleasantly surprised y’all have no idea FINGERS CROSSED🤞 #real talk tho can someone tell me why my body is literally reacting this way for like no real reason #like am i truly that disgusted with myself i make myself nauseous just thinking abt me #ok yeah the answer is yes lol BUT LIKE WHY THATS SUCH A DRAMATIC BODILY RESPONSE TO MY BRAINS DUMBASS THOUGHTS??? #ik the body and mind have a super powerful link n the brain influences the body like crazy but like #why this why does my brain literally want me to berate and degrade myself and isolate me and make me cry alone n starve me that’s so mean #i’m not starving btw i’m literally always eating just these past 2 days i’ve been such a fuckup my body won’t let me do anything #i had a chocolate poptart for dinner last night (thurs) n threw myself to bed #i hope i don’t end up hurting myself that would be so lame #i literally don’t have time for that like i am Not doing wound care duty off the clock for my damn self lol #also don’t want to take care of myself so i wouldn’t bandage myself up properly sooo yeah i’m not gonna do anything actually #cleaning ur wounds r super important ok yall ur literally playing god if u don’t do good aftercare snfjfbdj #i can’t believe i’m in this nasty ugly depressive episode i hate this so much i don’t have time for this i hate this cycle #i hate being bipolar 2 n my moods n meds have been so fkcdd up lately that i don’t even have the rlly fun hypomanic episodes anymore #i’ve just been constantly having mixed episodes im unbearable to be around im so sorry for everyone that’s ever spoken to me im insufferable #ok that’s enough im done being dramatic lmao #im gonna give myself a bolus PRN dose of clonnie then i’m going tf to bed #ramblings #shut up cianna

[theclosetedskeleton]

WHIMSY POSTING PAUSED the day I finally stop my compulsive skin picking habits is the day its OVER for all of my enemies

#stares at my family #why the FUCK do they have to point out everytime I go back to picking my skin #“are you scratching your forehe--” YES!!!!!!! BITCH YOU HAVE EYES #it gets so bad sometimes #i'd go into detail but i dont think anybody wants to know this because. its slightly disturbing like tmi #its not an anxitey related thing 100% though it goes on and off #not correlating with my anxiety #i looked up compulsive skin picking or smth and fucking OCD shows up #which OCD wouldnt be too far fetched the more i think abt it #back on the point with my family #MULTIPLE times my sisters have made some sort of “fun” with my scars/wounds #like theyre “jokes” but theyre not too funny #like you do realize i CANT control when i start/stop. When it starts I cant just say “stop!!!!” and its over #istg some days ill look in a mirror and all of a sudden im entranced #15 minutes go by and BOOM now i have to make sure i cover my forehead w/my bangs properly or else ill get comments from my family #wait. was this a vent #falls to my knees IM SO SORRY #oh my god me when tumblr is one of the only places i vent #i doubt thats good though bc yknow digital footprint but then again ive seen way WORSE on a digital footprint #closet rambles again on tumblr

[green-graveyard]

i want to go back to yesterday where stranger things was my comfort show, instead of a show that rubbed it even more in my face that us queer ppl cant have happy endings

#it feels like salt on a wound #cus during the three years i genuinely had hope #and everytime a family member called me some stupid homophobic slur id be like #hey at least i have this super cool show #that has a pretty big possibility that two guys will fall in love with each other #and it could be canon!!!! #NOPE #it hurts so bad

[badolmen]

I forgot how well Frictional does tension. This is not a dinner youtube video I’m so stressed and I’m not even playing the game.

#ra speaks #personal #I legitimately can’t remember the last game that got me this tense just watching a play through #amnesia bunker is literally triggering my fight or flight response I am loving this #but I definitely need a different dinner video bc this is a lil too much to multitask with #I’ve been into so much doom lately that everytime the flashlight gets wound up #the audio cues a pavlovian reaction from me like ah yes the chainsaw those monsters are fucked #(when in fact it is the character in the horror game that is fucked)

[moonchildridden]

Today's episode was very triggering for me. Triggering for the me that had to listen that being a writer was a useless dream because it would not give me financial stability (Wat), triggering for the me that had to listen a lot of people saying that my behavior was not aligning with my gender (Thua), triggering for the me that never really showed emotion or what I wanted for fear of being judged and would often just freeze, not knowing what to do next (Kan), triggering for the me that feels like I need work twice as hard and make twice as sacrifices to have a fraction of what other (privileged) people have (Akk), triggering for the me that often had her inner thoughts, ideas, secrets threatened by people who only wanted to use them to hurt me (Ayan), triggering for the me that listens in a daily basis that I'm a freak, that lost long time friendships and whose some family members would really love to burn on the stake just for being me (The World Remember gang).

All of that is still a part of me, parts of myself that got hurt over the years, parts that I struggled to heal but never managed to, parts of me that are in a constant fight in a society that tries to diminish me and turn me into something that I know I'm not. The thing that hurt me the most is that I used to be just like Akk before he turned into a School Prefect: smiley, introverted but still approachable...but now I'm just like the School Prefect version of Akk. And that hurts every time I think about it.

I knew this show was going to go places, it was a given. Bit damn, today really got to me, a lot of things at once.

#the eclipse #the eclipse series #the eclipse spoilers #this episode got very deep for me today #more deep than on other days #everytime i think about it i wanna cry #this episode brought to surface wounds i try to pretend are not there

[gisdotnet]

Wait adventberry is a cute ship my interest is peeked

#but im also multiship hell but. that aside #they would both be very goofy. think about it #Adventure tries doing dumb shit and Blackberry saves his ass everytime #like. he tries jumping off a roof saying that he can fly and Blackberry face palming when he brexks a bone or two #or he tries fighting a fight he can't win gets beat up and Blackberry has to scold him and tend to his wounds #they both have caught my attention so hello adventberry nation #I like you guys. accept for the people who believe in the forced marriage theory uh. stay 46464757 feet away from me ty

[cinderlla]

hey guys i wish to go absolute apeshit crazy

#tired of having to Use Coping Skills #and Heal Wounds #i want to hurt every man who has ever hurt me #and scream and scream and scream so people get it #it's so tiring like im doing it for myself i know i know but sometimes it just seems like it's for nothing #it's only been getting worse #everytime i get a grasp of one thing another thing pops up

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#im just gonna b a whiney bby for a sec bc im tired and i spent too long out in the sun :-P #we left at like 7.30 for sampling and got back around 4 so like it was a long day. it wasnt too awful tho #only kinda awful. but thats not what i wanna complain abt. i wanna complain bc we have this project looming #bc our machines r coming back. so i have to make sure i can connect the stupid cameras thru code stuff and make sure the chambers r built #and i dont wanna do any of this bc i kno this project is gonna cause me physical and Phycological pain #like all the projects we're collecting for. last time i had to work with the samples i got a little too close to a like full of breakdown #so my brain and body dont wanna do it. and this specific project has potential to b even worse that what i usually do so fml #sigh... i just dont wanna be here doing what im doing anymore. ive stopped having fun. my boss is like wow u r gonna be the person ppl #think of on X topic once u get all this published and its like. god i dont fucking care. #when i think of the data all i can think of is how awful it was collecting it. everytime it cuts a bigger and bigger wound in me #like i think its done long term damage to my psychy. i burned out too hard too many times. #so i dont wanna do it. i dont wanna push these projects forward. and i dont wanna collect more data from 2 other sites bc i kno the more i #collect the worse its gonna be. ugh. whatever. im sure itll b fine. bc im less invested in what im doing so maybe this time ill have a #healthier way of dealing with it idk. im just sick of it. and that's really sad. #ugh. whatever. i have a big meeting with a guy tomorrow and idk what device im gonna use to zoom with him #bc my computer screen is fucked and the camera makes me look like im at the bottom of a well... #i need a new computer... agh. whatever ive gotta reread some of his papers #i hope he likes me. he's at a way too prestigious school so im like. way too intimidated. but like im sure he just wants passion #ans ive got passion. Hopefully ive also got the stuff for knicking a full ride scholarship as well #yea right... but idk ill fucking go for it bc why not #hhhh i just wanna b in a future what i have the perfect phd program and its all sorted out #unrelated