#We WILL be posting HD pics later

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THAT'S A WHOLE ASS DRACULA .... OR ONE OF THOSE FERATU.....

#THIS IS MY JOKER I WILL NOT SHUT UP ABOUT THIS IM OBSSESSED #I'm sick so I'm kinda 'eh' but I'm losing my mind the best I can rb considering the circumstances lmao #mcr #Mcrla4 #Gerard I love you I love your spooky ooky ass <3 <3 #Gerard Way #It's the way I was looking at pictures of vampira yesterday and some of bela lugosi #And now mfs dressed as a vampire.... My psychic serve #Mcr return #Return era #wow anna said something #We WILL be posting HD pics later #Even if I wanted to watch the show I had a rly bad headache from my allergies besides being late af😔😔 #Ignore that rb in the 2nd tag Idk what that was lol

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The PR strategies all weird cause whoever leaked a video of jk with woman in his house but few days later the guy came and told everyone bes got no gf? I mean he could leave it at that yet he cleared cause he was getting comments but heyy he didn't talk about video and we all know there's too many coincidences happening in that video to say he's not jk, that is him with his dog nd a woman in his apartment Period.

The RM one was Funny for me cause it was Clearly intentional there was no "accident" there. He posted because he wanted to, he deleted because people saw it and the job was done. I remember he also posted a pic where you can visibly see a cigarette 🚬 burn mark on his pant and armys caught it right away at that time so no one was surprised he smoked. Jk's cigarette scene wasn't surprising for me but armys are stupid to think it was invasion of privacy i mean to a point it was but he also knew what he was doing. They could have done more with dating rumours like click a pic of him where it's only him and the woman in the frame if they actually wanted to make a pr stunt with that rather than whatever they did. That is only if it was pr stunt otherwise we don't condemn any privacy breach. Always hoping it's the members that reveal their partners on their own than all this drama.

About the jk doing lives after live and singing all of jimin's new releases that was something else.....i wasn't surprised that he used to sing jm's songs but it was unexpected given "jikook" were no where to be seen, but the first live that he did and watched all of jimin's content was actually surprising for me. Idk what anyone else belives tho but from whatever i have seen over the years one thing i belive is jungkook loves jimin as an artist. He admires jm alot. You ask him about other members' songs he might not know it but if you ask him about jimin's songs he'll know all of it with lyrics and choreo at good level. He always watch jm when jm is rehearsing like he's always there sitting infront of jm watching him when he's performing. I mean who wouldn't that's jimin who's performing. But of course this mfkr will never admit that like he'll do for RM. I was actually expecting him to be more vocal for taehyung's album too but he was inactive a whole month when tae's album Dropped and i even saw tkkrs throwing tantrums that he never supported tae the way he did for jm etc. I mean technically tkkrs would help him for so you'd expect more for jk also given they were together the whole yr. But even when Taennie paris video came he went live few days later and was simply enjoying his lives it was when Angel pt1 was released and he was singing it, doing tiktok choreo for his betsies' songs and all. Tkkrs were disappointed then too but they always find a reason to cope so they did. He Infact that way actually showed more support towards jm than other members During his drunk live era lol. As you said it could be that he wanted fruits from both ships but then Shippers are either way going to support him, infact tkkrs needed more as tae's paris video was circulating. But we don't like it when others say jk was promoting jm cause we all know it's armys watching his lives so I'm hesitating to belive he did that for support from Shippers.

At the end i would say if jm ever does such dating rumours pr he can simply drop the hd pics and we'll be happy. He either way doens't have too many crazy y/n like the other two, and we'll get rid of shippers too. Imma throw those pics on Shippers' faces.

Them Dora bangs he had were real bad. And even with as grainy as the vid was you could still see the shape of them clear as anything so it was him lol.

Joon doing what he did honestly felt like he wanted to join in on the other member’s revealing they smoked cause he felt left out, but atp it was no longer a novelty. (for BTS)

Jk’s relationship with Jimin is difficult to decipher because it’s no doubt they’re on good terms with each other and I do agree with him holding some type of admiration for him but it’s not really akin to how he is with hobi or joon. I’d always dread when he’d go live because I knew there was always a chance he’d mention jimin in someway and that would be all it took for jimin’s report page to start posting R&Bs like rapid fire. And it’s crazy because he would be the one initiating it but jimin would still get hated on.

TH doing all that cheerleading for JK, going to his live show just for him to ghost him for his debut was 🥴 but nowadays I’ve felt like their relationship is symbiotic on that end. Like they know when to dial it up with each other to get what they want for themselves so probably didn’t mean anything to him that he didn’t.

If Jimin wants to reveal his S/O down the line he will. He’s very private so I doubt he’d make it a spectacle. Unless he gets married then there’s no way that’s not getting publicized in some way.

[larytello]

I was looking to see if there was any post about the Caramelo horse that would be written well enough for me to translate to English and reblog bc that story should get known worldwide

But everyone who posted about him used AI pics

I... Come on. We don't need a glorified strong horse illuminated by heavens and surrounded by people to rescue him but posing like they're adoring and praising him like some kind of god. This is ridiculously far from reality. It makes me feel sick.

It's not hard to get a picture of the actual rescue, it was broadcasted live from a freaking helicopter in HD for all to see. But reality is too ugly too show, I guess. People don't want to show the actual horse, weak, emaciated, who waited four long days and nights, with no food or drinkable water, standing on top of a tiny dry portion of a roof, nowhere to sit or lay down to rest, in middle of the devastating flooding which could've killed him. They don't want to show the actual people who worked hard to prepare the whole operation to flawlessly rescue him and bring him back to dry land and rehab him. Nah.

At this point I'll just make my own post later.

#We always gotta do everything ourselves in this house #Horses #Cavalo Caramelo #Caramelo Horse #Rio Grande Do Sul

[taehyungfirst]

i know we are tried of debating about this subject and the fandom in general just wants to move on from that and pretend that era never existed (yes, the “ta3nnie” era) but i’m still giving the whole situation a lot of circles because it doesn’t make sense. it never did.

recently there have been a lot of idols having relationships confirmed by dispatch. karina, sohee, eilee, a korean actress and most recently jihyo from twice has been allegedly dating this korean athlete for a year and dispatch just decided to say it now - the company responded by not denying but not confirming either - “it’s their personal life so we can’t say” and fair.

the thing is that tae/jn were never outed in the typical way a couple from the k industry is. dispatch never published pictures of them or claimed it was true. not even by her record. dispatch has outed her previews relationships by showing pictures and indicating a time line of events. but for them, it was always leaked content from random people (the car photo) a photo that was so pixelated that you couldn’t made up it was them. and then, leaked pics from her alleged phone that the company never took care of. and might you, all of the leaked content that was apparently personal was never hd just a bunch of blurred pictures with most of their faces covered. And I’m not going down that rabbit whole since i’ve convinced myself that most of those weren’t edits. but i just think it’s strange not even a video came out from a supposedly phone leak. those leaks also felt very controlled to me. like they were releasing photos but never giving too much to still keep the speculations and ambiguity going around. do i think some of those leaks were planted by her team? yes. absolutely.

and yes, we can say dispatch never involved itself with that because they don’t mess with hybe/bts. that’s an speculation going on. but i just think it’s funny how dispatch would go out of their way to deny situations such as when people started saying they came back together from cannes and left in the same car. not only did dispatch shut that down but tae did a whole live in the car to prove the fact he was alone.

after a few months of quiet, the famous paris walk came out and everything about it screamed staged. they’ve been dating for how long and this is the first time a video like that comes out - in every single video you can tell that they are aware the cameras are there and it seems like they’re performing for them. that devil manager knew it and so did her team. a video that also came from a random twitter user and no one else. tae was giving autographs away, the managers were allowing proximity and that’s not a tae behavior especially since it was supposedly a a romantic “date”. do i think that was staged to distract from the bad press jn was receiving during that era for her involvement in that show and the lazy allegations? yes.

and you would think that after that video and their active participation in it, there’s not going back and they wanted to be seen to launch the relationship but nothing. none of the companies spoke and not even dispatch. and after that bruno concert they attended where they weren’t even close and half the industry attempted (including her two ex bfs) - nothing.

don’t even get me started with her posting the exact same outfit of that video 2 months later to ignite the fire (that happened to be during a time yg was in shambles dealing with their renewal, that other member dating an european billionaire and stocks falling) so i don’t think that was a coincidence and all of that did was make her fandom send hate to tae because apparently “she was the only one brave enough to admit the dating rumors while he’s acting like a coward” and bla bla. like, what was she trying to prove with the post? that wasn’t an innocent post as her fandom claims it was.

even after that, nothing about them ever again, until the break up article that came from jtbc (not dispatch) but jtbc has done accurate reports before so i don’t doubt it and again no one spoke about it despite every single media outlet reporting on it and a lot of those shippers were sensing a “break up” ever since september so. i do believe that they allowed a report like that happen to draw a line, even if they never confirmed the relationship, having headlines about the break up allows them freedom from reports and they can move on with their lives both personally and media wise.

but i’m still trying to understand the whole reason behind it because - what was there to lose in confirming? specially because tae has been vocal about people invading his privacy and shutting down rumors before. i think the speculation provoked more hate in the long run and continued the persecution and invasion of privacy. but i suppose we’ll never know…

side note but if ta3nnie shippers swore for those leaks - then those leaks would also confirm that she dated g-dr4gon considering pictures of his hands were found on her alleged phone leak but according to them - it was never real. so, they pick and chose what dating rumor it’s true depending on the person.

Hi! Great timeline 😭

I wanna immediately reply to the “what was there to lose confirming?” and say that the companies didn’t confirm to keep the rumor alive, to give a scapegoat (the video, the leaks, the blurry pictures) when shit was happening to her and to her company. Taehyung treasures his privacy and always set his boundaries, if he was in any way related to that girl he would’ve shut down the invasion of privacy in 3 seconds —something that a lot of people seems to forget, he’s the same person who quoted “ugh” and sued sojang bc of their videos.

The timeline of the events happening is good, but we also need to give context to each event. Everything happened when YG/Hybe needed distractions: starting from Garan from lsfm and her bullying scandal, bp new comeback, bp actual comeback, bp renewal news, yg stocks dropping, Jn’s horrible hbo series, the bad press from that, enlistment news, L!sa’s allegedly not renewing with yg, stocks dropping because of that, L/sa’s bf (Jn posting those pictures made the article abt that DISAPPEAR), bad press, bad press, Hybe and Yg working together. Now, knowing all of this you can place each event in the middle of them.

People who choose to believe Gurumi’s “leaks” are the weakest breed. The same Gurumi who said J/soo was in the telegram groupchat and she was jealous of the whole thing. There’s a reason if when they started suing, the only photos that disappeared were pictures where Tae was in it, and not those edits.

#long answer omg sorry #ask #cult talk #thank u for sharing your thoughts! #taehyung

[dearweirdme]

I wonder why the Tn photos and videos come in installments 😅 And when will we see HD photos of them together without any phones or face masks blocking their faces? 😜 If ever they have HD photos or videos of them together, even without confirmation, there will no longer be room for speculations anymore and both companies will be forced to confirm their relationship. With this kind of tactics, they only make their relationship seems like a circus with cheap tricks.

Hi anon!

Oh, I’m not wondering about it at all. It’s a tactic to maximize investment of fandom. Posting blurry pics first only to post clear ones later makes no sense, unless it’s to extend the period of time they want people to talk about it. Those clear pics already existed when that pap first posted the Paris footage. Now what reason could there have been for not posting the clear ones immediately? It’s scheduled. Clearly!

They might still have more stuff. Maybe they’re keeping that for a different time. There’s still promo to be had. It would not surprise me if something (newish) was to come out during Tae’s album launch, or shortly before. But I don’t think they have much new stuff to work with. So it’s possible going to refer to the Paris time as well. They’re not going to confirm I think. What would the use of that be now? The only confirmation I can think of is about them having broken up 😂. But the companies seem to have taken a strategy of not making statements about artists personal lives, which basically leaves room for anything.

#taennie

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Copy pasta of the “Stuff I want to have/do soon!”(11 year update episode)

Yo! Some online friends talked about tumblr.

And I forgot I had this tumblr. And as always, I go through nostalgia and look through these posts.

And man….

I’ve always wanted to update this, so here we go… (APPRENTLY I DID A SENIOR YEAR AND COLLEGE ONE, SO HERE’S THE JOB ONE. BUT IT’S BEEN 11 YEARS SINCE THE FIRST OK?)

Idk...I'm running out of ideas and it's only my 2nd day being here. First year. Been awhile (+11 years)

Have:

-HD Camcorder(Vlogging, duh!)Phone and or Z981.  Smartphone, DSLR(ish), DJI Pocket 2

-iPad(It looks awesome!)Almost never. Accomplished a year after, and in 2022 (M1 iPad Air -> M1 iPad Pro)

-Macbook(Pro)(same reason as iPad)Same reason as iPad. Acquired in college (15” Retina) Still uses the laptop, but lightly or while on the go. Good powerhouse for more than 7 years.

-DSLR(or even a good P&S)Z981, still need a DSLR. Acquired, but not heavily used. Maybe will invest in a mirrorless camera one day.

-Adobe Creative Suite. I have my ways to get it hehe.

-iMac(as a substitute for Macbook) Nah, I have a gaming desktop

-Flat-Screen TV (no more than 40". This will be in my room) I still lowkey want a TV... but 3 27″ monitors can do for now. 

-Xbox 360 w/Kinect(Dance Central...nuff said) Wow, so obsolete. I don’t know if I still want a console outside of my Switch.

-More Wii games(its getting there) I have a Switch…man 2 generations later.

-PS3?(blu-ray and other things...NOT adding my debit card number in there however) I don’t remember the card fiasco Sony had, but I very low-key want a PS5.

-Cash( I finally gone broke...oh joy) I make money now. Wish I can tell 17 year old self you found a job and a career and it’s NOT Civil Engineering. (APPRENTLY I DID IN COOLEG)

-Headphones(Bose, Beats, Skullcandys(t'wards some extent), any of those would work. I own WAY too many earphones but not enough headphones. Sony WH/WF X-1000M4 baybeeeeeee

-Spare Computer (perhaps a desktop computer). It would be either a great back up computer when this laptop goes awry, or use it as a main machine. This laptop I'm using is getting old... I have too many PCs and latptops lol, halp

Do:

-Successfully vlog.I fail at this. I semi-fail at this. My channel is getting there.

-Record something in the outside world without being afraid...I fail at this as well. Still a bit uncomfortable, but I can do it!

-Be a railfan!(me going to take pics on trains)I'm getting there... Done it back in college. Now I just want to watch trains from time to time.

-Ride the commuter lines around here in Nor Cal (never ever ridden on a commuter train(Amtrak doesn't count))Don't have the money or parents refuse...(Never ever is redundant. It's just never) Ackshually, Amtrak does count lol. But I have performed this. And well…. Amtrak > Commuter Trains, but Commuter Trains have their place for bringing commuters to places.

-Be an expert on Photoshop, InDesign, and Illustrator, when I have the programs that is...  Not an expert, but I know how to use PS. I have lost passion for InDesign and Illustrator though

-Blog/Vlog more. I find it fascinating, though I found it fascinating ever since I had Twitter back in 2009. Check my channel, I have been doing this shit. And Twitter…and maybe that old new thing called Instagram. Didn’t get into Vine, or TikTok though.

-Tech Reviews. I have videos, never had the chance to post it on YouTube. I has slow upload speeds here at home. Check my channel. I have done a few, but I am not that great. I do have to plan out scripts so I can provide a cohesive review. Also, you managed to get gigabit internet after moving out (yes you did move out).

-Skits. Produce Videos with either friends or cousins. Skits will make us famous...and hope its not impromptu.  Less skits, more gameplay and group play. Check channel

-Practice more on Photography. Close but no cigar.  I’m surprisingly decent with both  a smartphone camera (technology has improved a lot in the past 11 years) and a DSLR. I have learned the ways of at least taking a decent photo compared to others, that’s for sure.

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[accio-victuuri]

The “Mystery Picture” from GG’s 29th birthday.

This is speculation only and Fake. This post will lead to more questions but I’m still making it just because.

On 10/5/2020, XZ studio released pictures for GG’s birthday. Later in the day, XZ Studio Douyin shared a video of a “celebration” with the video focused on GG and with BGM only. One photo that circulated the same time as the photo set is the one below which was not included in XZ studio’s release. At the time this came out, we had no clue there will be a video.

I personally shared it on the day & didn’t think much about it. The person who I got it from was also asking where it’s from. You can find versions of this photo with and w/out watermarks. Different watermark credits too. It’s too HD to be a screencap & if you watch the Douyin update, this particular angle is not in any of the scenes.

This is the one released by XZ studios:

One person answered on Weibo that she HEARD this was distributed by the photographer/ deleted. No confirmation. Though I doubt XZ studio will allow anyone who they hired to distribute/leak stuff like this considering how hush-hush everything is with GG. It could be a staff, but again, why would they personally share something like this when they have 18 perfectly edited photos on XZ studio weibo. If they wanted to share outtakes, they can post that separately for more content.



The angle of the photo is on a different side. If you wanna go full on clown, then it’s possibly the side he looked at — where he looks so teary eyed but happy.  He looked front and to the side. Plus the way this photo was taken is very :

As of now, no one can really trace what account this came from. I don’t see anyone making a timeline of when this was shot, which is good— but my Clown heart is pointing towards Web. You can also wash it cause Web is just so busy and there are very few days where he had no public appearance and schedule. The latest was 9/28-9/29 ; he was also off on 10/4 to 10/5 but we know Web was practicing for the ZIC race. No matter who took the pic and shared it, what matters is GG looked happy. 2020 has really been an EXPERIENCE for him and it’s not yet done— so it’s really nice to see that he was happy in that moment to celebrate.

After posting this, these are 2 analysis that has come & I’m linking those here to not lose it in the void. You can also look through the notes of this post to see more of people’s thoughts on this.

This was all shot 10/2/20  Photoshoot is done at Dianshan Lake

Last edited 10/14/2020 11:22 PM 

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March 3rd 1847 saw the birth of Alexander Graham Bell in Edinburgh.

A wee fact is young Alexander never had a middle name until he pestered his father into giving him one, as both his brothers and father all had them, so it was at around age 11 his father allowed him to use the name Graham, after Alexander Graham, a Canadian being treated by his father who had become a family friend. To close relatives and friends he remained "Aleck".

Young Aleck,  was educated at The Royal High School in Edinburgh and later at both The University of Edinburgh and University College London.

As an adult Aleck's primary focus was on helping deaf students communicate. His grandfather had been an elocutionist, and his father, Melville, developed a system called Visible Speech, a collection of written symbols designed to help the deaf while speaking. (Melville was name-checked in George Bernard Shaw’s preface to Pygmalion, and is thought to be a possible basis for Professor Higgins.) Both Alexander Graham Bell’s mother and wife were deaf, and became the inspiration for his work.

Aleck, aged 23, moved with his family to Canada in search of a better climate as two of his brothers had died of TB.  In 1872, when he was 25, he opened a “School of Vocal Physiology and Mechanics of Speech” in Boston.

One of Bell’s pupils was Mabel Hubbard, the daughter of a wealthy Massachusetts family, with whom he fell in love. Her father, lawyer Gardiner Greene Hubbard, the first president of the National Geographic Society, opposed the marriage due to Bell’s poor finances. But only a few days after establishing the Bell Telephone Company and securing his fortune, Bell married Mabel. For a wedding present, he gave her all but ten of his 1507 shares in the company. On his desk in his study, Bell kept a photograph of his beloved Mabel; written on the back, in his own hand, it says: “the girl for whom the telephone was invented.”

In 1880, the French government awarded Bell 50,000 francs for the invention of the telephone. With the prize money he founded the Volta Laboratory, dedicated to the “increase and diffusion of knowledge relating to the deaf.”

Of the 18 patents held by Bell alone, and the 12 he shared with collaborators, many related to improving the lives of deaf people. Bell considered once such patent, the photophone, the “greatest invention I have ever made, greater than the telephone.” The photophone was designed for optical wireless communication, which was quite a feat for 1880. Bell and an assistant, Charles Summer Tainter, transmitted a wireless voice message by light beam over a distance of 200 meters from a school roof to their laboratory—a precursor to fiber-optics one hundred years later.

It might surprise you that Bell became interested in hydroplanes,along with aviation pioneer Frederick “Casey” Baldwin, Bell began building and testing what they called the HD-4 in his laboratory. On the Bras d’Or lake outside Bell’s home, the boat set the world speed record of 70.86 mph on September 9, 1919. The remnants of the world’s fastest boat can still be seen at the Alexander Graham Bell Historic site and museum in Baddeck, Nova Scotia.

  And not just boats but planes too!  The Bras d’Or lake also saw another milestone in Canadian history, when the AEA Silver Dart, one of the earliest aircraft, made the first powered flight in Canada in February 1909. As early as 1892, Bell had been developing motor-powered aircraft, and had done extensive experiments with tetrahedron kites. Under Bell’s guidance, co-designer John McCurdy managed to fly the Silver Dart a half-mile over Nova Scotia. A few weeks later, after more tinkering in Bell’s workshops, the flight managed more than 22 miles. By the summer of 1909, the Silver Dart carried the first-ever passenger in Canadian airspace.

There is a local story told in Baddeck of how, one day soon after moving to the town, Bell was walking along the main street and saw the editor of the local newspaper having problems with his wall-mounted telephone. Bell walked in and promptly unscrewed the earpiece, revealing a trapped fly, which he blew out of it. The astonished newspaper editor asked how the stranger had known how to fix the newfangled invention, to which Bell replied, “because I am the inventor of that instrument.”

Lastly for today's post did you know the National Geographic magazine as we know it today was largely the brainchild of Alexander Graham Bell. Under his father-in-law, the exclusive society’s first president, the prestigious club house in Washington D.C. was struggling. Membership was dwindling to just under a thousand people when Bell was elected its second president. He immediately set to work to revitalize the society, and in particular its journal, which, according to Bell, “everyone put on his library shelf and few people read.”

Bell relaunched the journal with a new slogan, “The World And All That Is In It.” He promoted illustrations and good photography, introducing “pictures of life and action … pictures that tell a story.”

Pics are of Aleck, the second, from 1885 is with his family.

#Scotland #scottish #inventor #history

[talkingtea]

I think HD was expecting something to happen btwn GG & CP after their breakup. That Golden Globes pic and the “😏” caption were a subtle shot at HD. “Oh, look who I’m with? The girl you were worried about! 🤪” Then like a week later he and LA made their synchronized debut lol. Call y’all believe that was over 4 1/2 yrs ago???

The fact that Grant and Candice have managed to maintain some level of mess for that long is so very impressive.

As far as Hannah goes we never believe it was an accident that she dropped Grant like a wet sack after he posted that pic of Candice with that suggestive emoji. They had clearly been done for quite some time at that point but that was the straw that broke the camel’s back. Because not soon after he posted that she unfollowed and he followed suit not long after and that was it for them.

[chrisdarebashfulsmiles]

Hi I'm here because I obviously have a question, I tried to ask it to others in here but got no answer. I'm not "new" to the fandom but for few months I've been told f/etusM/iarren on Insta is a fake account made by M and I wanted to know if that was true. How can you tell ? I'm not seeing it. I hope to have an answer this time. Thanks. Have a great day.

You are welcome and don’t worry, you will have an answer. It’s something that we often explain here in the open so no biggie at all. 

She didn’t pay attention in the past and she posted first on sockie ig stuff she later posted on Tsg Ig. This has happened at least twice in the last year than i can remember.  And it was told me she did the same at least once with personal stuff.  I remember also (and i have screen somewhere in my external HD) a time she forgot to edit a screen in which she was talking in 1st person..... So she did something that makes us see without doubts that she’s her fake account. 

More: Fishy and i can underline this because of my job, she has always pics without watermark to post from events very soon and this is possible only if you buy said photos from the agencies (and no fan without a purpose -or a news blog and it’s a stretch anyway have money to buy singular pics or subscribe to the service), you order them to be made, or you are part of the management of the artist depicted. 

Have a great day you too. :)

[poirott]

any news on Death on the Nile?

Hi! Not sure if this counts as news, it’s more speculation on my part but it’s something to think about as we wait for casting news. On Apr 14 2019, one of the VFX people who worked on Murder on the Orient Express, Andy Ryan, posted a little instagram “teaser” graphic of a train stuck in the desert, tagging it with “Murder on the Orient Express” and “Death on the Nile”. It’s not a proper movie teaser poster but perhaps something that came from the DOTN set, or a graphic the artist made for fun while they’re working on the sequel?

Because they are definitely a DOTN crew member. IMDb for DOTN lists them as “Andrew Ryan - SFX Assistant Supervisor”. They work for a motion control company and have been involved with projects such as James Bond and Fantastic Beasts: The Crimes of Grindelwald. Their instagram is mostly vfx related - for personal behind the scenes videos and work in progress photos taken at movie sets. In September 2018 they posted these cool Orient Express train hydraulic testing videos filmed at the MOTOE set, and several other similar videos, describing them as, “On location on Murder on the Orient Express. 23T Train built by Absolute Effects on behalf of MOTOE. Internal shooting on the carriages in stage 1 Longcross." We know Longcross is the studio used by MOTOE and DOTN productions.

Pictures Ryan posted around the same time are also desert themed, taken in Wadi Rum, Jordan, and for a moment I thought DOTN could have been doing some pre-production stuff there but the tag on the linked pic says "1982reboot". The Ustinov version of DOTN came out in 1978, so Ryan couldn’t have meant a Poirot reboot but some other film he was working on. On March 28 someone in the comments asked him what movie is being shot there but he didn’t reply. On April 11 he wrapped in Aqaba, Jordan, and was headed to Budapest “for the second part” (I assume post-production). 3 days later he posted the train teaser pic.

My take he was in Wadi Rum and Budapest for Dune (2020), though he has no IMDb credit for it (yet?), but DOTN and Artemis Fowl are listed. It’s been reported Dune was filming in Jordan in April, one of the locations being Wadi Rum, hence Ryan’s pics? The wiki for Wadi Rum has a list of movies that filmed there, and Dune is on it, next to high profile projects like STAR WARS and Aladdin. The Dune wiki says the movie studio is in Budapest and that would certainly further strenghten the theory Ryan’s project is indeed Dune. The same Budapest studio is also used for another project of his, the new Terminator movie. As for the “1982reboot” tag he used on the Wadi Rum pic, I’m thinking it’s either a reboot of the original Terminator or Blade Runner (MOTOE’s screenwriter Michael Green wrote Blade Runner 2049, and there’s been talk about a third movie).

Whichever movie Ryan was actually working on in Jordan, it’s fun for me to speculate how his train in the desert picture came to be. See, tourists often post instagram pics of trains near Wadi Rum that have been used in several movies, including Lawrence of Arabia. Perhaps Ryan could suggest the location to Ken Branagh for DOTN, if Ken hasn’t thought of it already? :) We’ve heard Egypt isn’t the only location they’re considering, they could shoot at different places.

Wadi Rum is a spectacular location known for its high mountains and pink sand. Check out this HD quality video of the amazing sights. I like the idea of our detective leaving the Orient Express behind to take on the Nile case and beginning a new journey to Egypt, but the train theme from the previous film continues as he finds himself (for whatever reason) on a train in the desert at Wadi Rum Station. Did the train get stuck again? :) Poor Poirot is going to have nightmares about trains! Or Ken could use the Jordan scenery for the Egypt scenes. Remember they filmed footage in New Zealand and Switzerland for some of the scenery in MOTOE.

Did Ryan only post the train in the desert pic and tagged it with “DOTN” and ”MOTOE” because seeing trains in Wadi Rum reminded him of MOTOE, and he thought the Orient Express stuck in sand was a fun nod to Poirot’s journey switching from the snowy vistas to the desert dunes in the sequel? Or is his picture actually early DOTN concept art that’s being worked on in pre-production?

Any DOTN stuff Ryan is working on right now would have to be in its pre-production stages as we’re still months ahead of shooting, but we might get proper location shoot pics from him once the movie starts filming. I'll keep an eye on his instagram. :)

I’m sorry that’s all I have to share for now! Take care. <3

#death on the nile #poirot #hercule poirot #kenneth branagh #replies #Anonymous

[nohshinwoos]

would u ever do a gif tutorial?? i love your gifs !! 💓

first of all, thank you 💖💖 and sorry this took a while to answer/make, i have had a lot going on and found it hard to make myself focus on this! but here it is now :D

i did make a tutorial earlier this year, but since i feel like that’s slightly outdated now (because i’ve changed the way i make my gifs quite a lot during this year), here’s a new one :’)

in this tutorial i included how i:

download

cut out the part i want to gif

import to photoshop

how to use actions (because i’ve started using that a lot and will in this tutorial)

crop (action)

put the text on (action)

sharpen (action)

colour (psd)

save

‘delay’ the gif so it’s a (in my opinion) good speed (again with an action)

i use photoshop cc 2018, but i think as long as you can open video clips in it and it has the ‘timeline’ you should be fine no matter what ps you have. (don’t hold me to it, though, that’s just my own speculation.)

i’ve included some things too:

an ‘action pack’ including: crop, sharpening, text and ‘delay’.

3 colouring psds (2 from the last tutorial+the one used for this tutorial)

i’ll be showing how i made this 540x300px type of gif:

from this gifset.

(tutorial under the cut! warning for a long post, with a lot of text and pictures. sorry if this is very in depth i just can’t stop talking sometimes. some things might be small details, but it’s things i wish i learned sooner myself. anyway lets get into it! also i’m not an expert, just speaking from my own experience.)

downloading the video

the first thing i do is download the video i want from clipconverter.cc. paste the link in the field, press continue, choose mp4 and highest possible quality (preferably high definition (hd) 1080p or 720p) and then press start. it takes a while to process the video, but once that’s done just press download and wait for the video to download, which takes another while.

if you know which part you want, and don’t wanna download a full video, you can just put in what part you wanna download like this at the bottom:

cutting out the part i want to gif

i use quicktime player (download link) to open the video and then i cut out the part i want to gif using the ‘trim‘ tool, found under edit -> trim… i always leave more than i need when trimming, just to be sure i get all of what i want to gif, then trim it a bit more later in ps.

trim by pulling the yellow things until you’re happy, then hit the button to the right.

when you feel like you have the part you want, just click file -> save… and name it and save it where you want.

importing the clip to photoshop

i simply import a clip by pulling it from the folder into ps, like this:

this will open up your clip like this:

i always work in the video timeline like this, because i find it easier to move stuff around in it - especially text. and because you can listen to the video clip as you do the text part of the gif, so i don’t need to have it open on the side.

how to use actions

using actions may sound hard, but it’s honestly the best discovery i’ve done in ps this year! now i tend to use it more often than not, because it makes gifmaking simpler (in my opinion). basically, the action does the things for you instead of you having to click a lot of buttons

depending on how you’ve set up your ps, the ‘actions’ panel is on the right. if it’s not, open it by clicking window -> actions.

to import an action to photoshop, you click the little lines at the top right corner of the ‘actions’ window. then click load actions…

find the action (.atn) you wanna use and click it to add it to ps.

then you just click the action you wanna use in the actions window on the right, and hit the little play button (see pic below) and let ps do the rest.

click the action (red circle), then play (blue circle)!

nothing more, nothing less!

crop (action)

following the steps above we’re now gonna crop the video.

my ‘big’/one line gifs are usually 540x300px because i find that to be a good size for those.

click the ‘crop 540x300px’ action and ‘play’. done!

and before we move on, this is usually when i trim the gif from the excess i left when trimming it in quicktime player.

place the marker (red circle) where you want to cut the clip, use the scissor (blue circle) to cut it. click the clip you don’t want anymore and delete it.

text (action)

when i make gifs with text, i find it best to do the text right after the cropping. if the gif doesn’t have text, i just go straight to ‘sharpening’.

first close the video group by clicking the little arrow next to it, then click the video group:

add the ‘text’ to the gif using the action. the text layer won’t go all the way out, or it might be too long depending on the clip’s length, so just pull it so it fits the size of the whole clip:

this something to remember to check once we get to colouring as well.

then what i do is that i play (the button marked in blue below) the clip in ps, listen for what i want to be in that particular gif and then pause where i want to cut it, and simply cut it with the scissor. make sure the text layer is selected before cutting it.

you can either keep the layers like this, or you pull down the top one to the same line in the ‘timeline’. i always want them all in the same row because i find that simpler.

i keep cutting the text where i want the gifs to end. you could say that each section of text is a gif in the gifset, because that’s how i think when i gif like this.

then it’s just to put the text you want for each part of the gif.

click the section of text you want to write in, click the ‘type tool’ and then the text on the gif to start writing.

i always make my text boxes higher than i need to, because i never know how many lines the text will be. then i just hit enter to jump down as many lines as i need in order for the text to be at the bottom of the gif.

sharpening (action)

when you’re gonna sharpen the clip, you’ll need to open the video group that you previously closed again.

click the ‘video’ layer and apply the ‘sharpening’ action just like with the other actions. 

now that we’ve sharpened it, when saved the gif will look something like this:

colouring

i most often colour every gifset by itself nowadays, because i love experimenting with colours and try to find something that works for every gif/gifset. it can be challenging, but i personally enjoy that kind of challenge!

for the tutorial i made earlier this year i included some psds that you can find here. you can find the colouring i made for this tutorial there as well! if you just wanna apply the psd and not colour from scratch, i explained how you do that here!

the layers i use are:

‘levels’ (to lighten/darken)

‘vibrance’ (to make the colours ‘pop’)

at least one ‘selective layer’, but usually a few more (to experiment with colours and change/desaturate colours completely)

sometimes a ‘curves’ layer as well (if the gif is very dark or just need some more light other than what the ‘levels’ layer can do)

sometimes i use ‘hue/saturation’ as well (if i wanna change a specific colour to another or saturate it completely)

all adjustments layers i use can be find at the bottom of the ‘layers’ tab, the button is called ‘create new fill or adjustment layer’:

since my colourings differ from gifset to gifset, this is just generally what i do when colouring. it also varies depending on if it’s more colourful gifs (like this or this, or like the phil one i’m gonna show now), or just one more subtle coloured (like this, this or this).

if there’s requests for more colour tutorials i can make more :’)

but now back to this gifset!

i always start with adding a ‘levels’ layer. my settings for this gifset was:

the first value is shadows, second is midtones and third is highlights. i usually keep my shadows value at 10-20, midtones 1,20-1,50 or 1,60-1,70 if i need to, and leave highlights as it is. (i don’t use the output levels at all.)

after ‘levels’:

second layer i add is usually ‘vibrance’. (sometimes i add ‘selective layer’(s) before ‘vibrance’, but i find it easier to do ‘selective layer’(s) last.) my settings for ‘vibrance’ is usually:

so i basically always turn ‘vibrance’ up to +100, sometimes i’ve used ‘saturation’ too and put it at like +10 or +20 but i find that to be a bit too much most times.

after ‘vibrance’:

‘selective layer’ is for me the most frustrating part, but also the most fun because you can get such cool colours with it - or even just enhance the already existing colours just a bit.

‘selective layer’ have many different options and depending on what my ‘goal’ for the gifset is, i use these differently. something i always try to have in mind, though, is that the colours ‘disappear’ a bit when i upload the gifs to tumblr and it’s okay if it’s a bit too ‘much’ in ps.

my biggest tip is probably to explore it on your own and play around with it a lot. that’s how you learn what works and doesn’t work and also what you personally like or don’t like. if it doesn’t look good, just delete the ‘selective layers’ and start from scratch again.

my first layer is always in the reds and often in the black one as well. for the phil gifset my settings were:

in the reds i enhance his skin colour and in the blacks i make everything black a bit darker. if it’s a colourful gifset i always make the reds a bit ‘stronger’ than i need to, because a lot of the skin colour disappears when i keep adding layers and changing the colours in those.

after this layer the gif looks like this:

in the second layer i played around with the blues and magentas, to try and change the blue and magenta colours in the gif - in this case phil’s sheets, his sweater and his eyes.

my settings ended up being like this:

and then the gif looks like this:

layer 3 in this gif is just magentas, in which i kind of saturated the magenta and blue colours a bit.

then it looks like this:

i wasn’t really happy with the green (the pillows) in the gif, so i added another layer in which i changed yellows and greens, and put it beneath the rest of the ‘selective layers’.

in this layer i played with the yellows and greens, because green always contains yellow and green. putting the cyan to -100 in the yellows layer will make it more reddish and the yellow at +100 will make it more yellow. changing the greens and putting the cyan on -100 made it more reddish too, the magenta at +20 gave it a kind of orange-ish tone and yellow at +100 made it a bit more yellow.

and this is how the gif looks now:

all in all, i find that to get good or interesting colourings you just have to play around with the different layers. and add more ‘selective layers’, to change the colours even more. as i said before - if it doesn’t work or looks weird, simply delete the ‘selective layers’ and start over :’)

saving

one of the final steps in gifmaking is saving. i save my gifs in two steps, and this is the first one.

to save the first gif, just place the markers like this:

so it matches with the ‘text’ layer.

click file -> export -> save for web… for my laptop it takes a little while to process it, but soon this window will pop up:

in the bottom left corner of the window you can see the gif size.

it needs to be under 3mb for it to work in a tumblr post. if it’s over that, you can either exit the window now and shorten the gif a bit more - or you can save it now and remove frames in the ‘delay’ step further down. i personally most often do the latter because i find that easier.

on the right of the gif are all the settings, mine are:

i mostly focus on the top half i find ‘selective’ and ‘pattern’ to be the best settings, but that’s a matter of taste really. you can always play around with it until you find what you think is best for your gifs.

and make sure the looping options at the bottom is set to ‘forever’, so the gif doesn’t suddenly stop.

when you’re done, click save… and save your gif where you want.

move the markers (red circles) to match with the next text layer to and repeat the steps to save the next gif.

‘delay’ (action)

once the gif is saved i always open it again to change the ‘frame delay time’ and sometimes (like for the gif used in this example) i add another ‘vibrance’ layer if i find that the gif lacks some colours. you can of course do this during colouring, but for me this works as well.

find your gif, open it in ps. choose the action called ‘delay 0,05’, then hit play. this will make the gif a bit slower than it is when you first save it in ps.

if you want to add another ‘vibrance’ layer, you can do so now. in the ‘layers’ tab, scroll all the way up and click the first layer and then add another ‘vibrance’ layer and set it to the value you want.

(i usually go for +50 or +100.)

if you know your gif is too big (over 3mb) from saving it earlier, you can now delete frames in order to make it smaller. what i do is delete one or two frames at a time until it’s under 3mb.

to delete frames, click the one frame, hold ‘shift’ and click as many frames back as you wanna delete. click the tarsh bin (blue circle) to delete them.

once you’re done, click file -> export -> save for web… again to save your gif. i usually save over the one i saved before, because i see no use having two gifs that’s almost the same. i only confuse myself so i don’t know which one is which without having to open ps again.

now you’re finally done and can post your gif(s) to tumblr :D

the final result!

before all effects:

after all effects:

if you found this helpful, please like or reblog! thank you for reading :’) 💖

#anon #asks #gif tutorial #i really hope this makes sense and that i didn't miss anything hhhh iamanxious sjkdhjgdshfkl

[strangely-amusing]

Étoile

Characters : Jaemin x You

Genre : Romance, Fluff, Slight Angst

Wordcount : 10,580

Note : Originally going to post this on Jaemin’s birthday, but I’m just that impatient lmao. Before you read it I just want y’all to know that there’s a lot of drama and it can be confusing for some, so feel free to ask me about it! Title probably won’t make sense (Y’all know me, I’m not good with titles) and please do correct me if i use certain words wrong! I’m really sorry for the low quality pic, I can’t find the hd one. Hope you all enjoy! ♡

Gazing at the beautiful night sky, your eyes glimmer under the luminous glow of the moon. Millions of stars are dotted on the black canvas of the night, illuminating the night sky. Its a simple yet breath-taking view, having been your favorite view for the years you have spent alive.

Tonight is a little different, however.

It is a little more special as you get to star-gaze without having to go outside, the glass windows over your head are solving all your problems.

“Do you like it?”

You turn your head to the side, facing him with a broad smile on your face. “I love it.”

Yukhei’s smile widens when he hears your answer, and he leans closer to place a kiss on your forehead. You snuggle closer, curling up against his body. “Thank you for installing these roof windows for me. I really love it.”

Yukhei gently caresses your cheeks, his eyes glistening under the soft glow of the moon. The smile never leaves his face, and only seems to widen from time to time. “You know i would do anything for you.”

You nod, a rather sheepish smile decorating your face. You then move to lay on your back once again, your inner child taking over. The stars are beautiful, but you can’t help but to notice that as time passes it starts to lose its glow, masked by the pollution produced by careless human beings. You have had countless of dreams involving the night sky where the bright stars were scattered all over the sky, illuminating the world with its gentle glow. All this time, you think it is only a beautiful dream of yours, leaving you delighted when you wake up in the morning. But as time passes, your dream is becoming more vivid that you start to think that maybe its not just a dream. Maybe its one of your lost memories.

“Yukhei?”

A hum comes from his direction. You glance at him, barely noticing his half lidded eyes. “What does the night sky looks like when we were young? Was it like tonight?”

“Yeah, i guess.” He replies nonchalantly, his tone turns flat and cold.

Yukhei doesn’t like it when you talk about the past, there is always a different glint on his orbs whenever you ask him about your past. You never know why, but its not helping at all. With almost all your memories lost from a fatal accident that you could never remember, you need a helping hand to guide you back to living a normal life. Although Yukhei does a pretty great job at re-introducing you to all your friends, he hates it whenever you ask him about your past life before the accident. Yukhei always says that your life was miserable, and its best for you to start over rather than to try living your old life.

Its an odd way to cope with your lover’s memory loss, but you never question him. Even when you first woke up from the comma and he introduced himself as your boyfriend, you never question his words or actions.

You trust him.

♡

“Was it always like this?”

Seulgi tilts her head upwards, trying to see what you are talking about. “You mean the sky?”

You nod, eyes still gazing at the bright dots. Yukhei is out of town, having to work extra to get a promotion. When she hears that Yukhei is going out of town for a few days, she immediately comes to your house. Seulgi plays quite a big role in your life, she helps you remember a lot of things, from childhood memories to embarrassing funny stories.

Maybe that’s why Yukhei doesn’t like her. Because she tells you things that Yukhei never will.

“It used to be way more beautiful than this.” She sighs, looking at the stars rather sadly. “Pollution really fucks things up.”

You nod as you continue to stare in awe, imagining how beautiful the night sky must be in the older days. As your imagination runs free, you suddenly feel a tiny pang in your chest, as if the beautiful night sky has a painful memory behind it. You clutch your heart in surprise, feeling your heart beat starts to accelerate.

“Are you okay?” Seulgi asks, concern obvious in her tone. You shake your head, gazing at the night sky once more before closing the roof window. “I’m fine. Oh and by the way, can I ask you something?”

“Go ahead.” She says nonchalantly, quietly munching on a red bean bun. You gulp, not knowing why you suddenly feel so nervous. “Was i always like this when i see stars?”

Seulgi stops chewing, tilting her head slightly. “Like this?”

“Yeah, I mean, happy. Is there a time where i don’t feel happy when i see stars?” You fiddle with your fingers, looking anywhere but her eyes. She doesn’t immediately reply, as if quietly trying to find the right words. “Yes, and no. There wasn’t a time where you don’t feel happy when you see the stars.”  

Holding back a pained choke from the sudden pang in your heart, you nod.

“I see.”

♡

You’re very lucky to be alive.

At least that’s what people told you. You don’t know how bad your injuries were that people always say that whenever they meet you. You think its odd that no matter how hard you try, you can’t remember a thing about the accident. Everyone say that it was a car accident. How and when exactly, they never spare you the details.

You remember waking up in a white hospital bed with both Yukhei and Seulgi sitting right next to your bed, but it was nearly 4 years ago. Yukhei says that you were in a comma for quite some time so you couldn’t really know the exact time of your accident.

Everything about it feels odd, and yet you never really question it. You tried once, questioning a supposedly old friend of yours, but instead of an explanation, all you got was an unwanted advice.

She said that you should feel grateful that you had a wonderful life even after the accident, having loyal and lovely friends right by your side.

Its not an advice that you need, its not even an advice. Later on Yukhei told you and you and her were never that close to begin with, and it sparks your interest even more. Why would he invite someone you barely even know, and expect you to trust her?

You continue to dig information from all your friends, being careful not to let Yukhei knows about this. Odd enough, most of them keep their mouths shut, not willing to tell the details to their stories that seem all too general.  

Their answers are all the same, as if it was scripted. You feel like an outsider, living a life that doesn’t even feel like yours. Hanging out with people that you barely even know, pretending that you do remember them and all the things that you did together.

A wandering soul, is what you are.

♡

Heading home from Seulgi’s apartment, you make your way to the train station. Yukhei will be home early today, and you don’t want him to know that you visit Seulgi frequently.

Looking at the train schedule, you immediately start to sprint towards the train doors that are slowly closing in. Its dangerous, but you can’t afford to wait for another 30 minutes.

Entering the train just a mere second before it completely closes, you let out a relieved sigh. However, the train is packed and you struggle to make your way into the train. You let out a gasp when the train suddenly moves forward, launching your body backwards.

A strong pair of hands catches you just in time, holding onto your arms just before you could touch the ground. You immediately stand up, ready to apologize and to thank the person who has helped you. However, when you look up at them, your voice leaves you.

He is simply breath-taking, with dark hazel eyes and plush lips that is slowly curving into a beautiful smile, standing tall right in front of you with a long coat hugging his model-like figure.

“ Y/n.....?”

Your eyes widen when he calls you by your name, wondering if he’s actually one of your old friends that you fail to remember. “I’m sorry, but do i know you?”

He looks at you with a gentle gaze, so gentle and delicate that not even Yukhei ever gazes at you that way.

“It is you.”

Seeing his glassy orbs, you start to panic. You feel uncomfortable when people cry, because it makes you want to cry as well. “P-Please don’t cry.”

The stranger shakes his head, a hearty laugh leaving his lips. “I know, you don’t like it when i cry because it makes you feel sad too.”

He must be important in my life. You bite your lips, desperately trying to remember a name and a story behind his now all too familiar face.

“Its me, y/n. Don’t you remember me?” He stares at you gently with glassy eyes, tears threatening to fall any second. You don’t know if he’s crying because of happiness or grief, the mixed signals he sends off are making your head hurt. You shake your head, desperately trying to recall any memories with him in it. “I’m sorry, I don’t. I’m trying so hard but I still don’t remember you.”

He stays still for a moment, eyes casting downside as the smile on his face starts to fall. He then looks up, a forced smile on his face. “Its okay, I get it. You don’t want to remember. I just want to apologize, I never had the chance to before.”

Apologize? All the things he said makes you even more confused. If he’s really an important part of your life, why are you so clueless about this? Why do Yukhei and Seulgi never mention about him?

“I’m really sorry if i hurt or offend you in anyway but I really can’t remember. I had an accident a few years ago, and I can’t really remember anything before that.” You say in a small voice, not wanting other people to hear it. His eyes widen when he hears you, the tears in the corner of his eyes slowly melting. You’re taken aback by his reaction, quickly reaching into your purse to get a pack of tissue. You immediately offer him some, but he doesn’t even tear his gaze away from you.

“A-Accident? When?” His voice is barely audible, just above a whisper. You nod slowly, opting to just carefully dab his tears away yourself. The act feels so natural, as if it happens a lot before. You offer him a small smile. “Its okay, it happened like 4 years ago. I’m fine now.”

Hearing your reply, more tears spill from his eyes. Your eyes widen when you see him crying, wondering what makes him cry.

“What’s wrong? Why are you crying?” You say gently, voice wavering slightly from holding your own tears. He shakes his head, wiping the tears from his eyes. Then he whispers. “I’m sorry.”

You raise your eyebrow in confusion. “What? Why are you sorry? You didn’t do anything wrong...”

He lifts his head up, his still glassy orbs looking straight into your soul. “I’m so sorry, y/n.”

“What are yo-“

You snap out of your thoughts when you hear your stop being called, forgetting what you were about to say in an instant.

“Be careful, alright?” He suddenly says, a painful smile hanging on his lips. Your heart wants you to stay, the identity of the mysterious guy sparks your interest so much. But Yukhei will be upset if you aren’t home when he comes home. Conflicted, you stay still in front of the open doors, mentally debating with yourself.

“Go home, y/n. Its okay.”

You turn your attention back to him, who is now slowly disappearing into the crowd, away from the train doors, from you. “Wait!”

He stops, although still not facing you.

“Tell me your name.” You say gently, but still loud enough for him to hear. He stays still for a second, before looking back at you. He parts his lips but nothing comes out, almost as if he’s re-thinking his decision. He then shakes his head, forcing a smile onto his face.

“Jaemin.”

♡

“Baby, where were you? I’ve been looking for you all day!”

You snap out of your thoughts when you hear Yukhei’s deep voice, not exactly aware of your surroundings. You look around, wondering how did you manage to walk all the way back home without even realizing it. You then look up at him, meeting his worried gaze.

“Are you okay? Did something happen?” Yukhei asks, hands going over your forehead to check your body temperature. You shake your head gently, offering him a small smile. “I’m okay. I was at Se--Irene’s house today, I’m sorry that I made you worried.”

Yukhei breaks into a smile, pulling you into a hug. He then presses a kiss on the top of your head. “Its okay, I’m so glad you’re okay.”

You wrap your hands around him, burying your face into his chest. The strong sweet scent of his vanilla cologne fills in your nostrils, and you fight the urge to gag. For some reason you never like the scent so much.

“I bought cheesecake on the way home, let’s eat it while we watch a movie.” Yukhei smiles, beckoning you to the kitchen. You nod and follow him into the kitchen, mind still fazed. Yukhei cut a big portion of the cheesecake for the both of you, while you quickly make a jug of iced lemon tea.

When you walk into the living room, Yukhei has already put a movie on, sitting on the couch comfortably. You put the iced lemon tea on the small coffee table and take a sit next to him, immediately welcomed by his arms.  

As the movie starts, Yukhei becomes more and more focused on the movie. You, however, find yourself restless. You’re unable to focus at watching the movie, despite it being one of your favorites. Staring blankly at the wide screen of the TV, your brain keeps showing you an image of the man in the train. You glance at Yukhei’s focused expression, deciding something that you haven’t even realized you’ve been thinking this whole time.

For now, Yukhei doesn’t have to know.

♡

It has been a week since you met Jaemin, and he has not leave your mind since then. You say his name numerous times, but not even the slightest bit of memory comes.  

“Jaemin.....” You hum as you look through your high school yearbook, hoping to get a clue about his identity. You scrunch up your face as you scan the pages quickly, having to scan all the pages because you have no clue about Jaemin’s family name.

“Na Hyemi... What an interesting surname.” You mumble, scanning the page quickly. You then flip the page, only to flip it back in a matter of second, noticing the name that you’ve been looking for just under the name that you just said earlier.

Na Jaemin.

The photo is ridiculously small, and you have to squint your eyes to get a better look. Considering that this photo was taken years ago, you do not expect any resemblances between the photo and the young man that you met on a train a week ago. But when you see the same beautiful smile from the man on the train, you know its him.

Your finger ghosts over the photo, as you try your best to recall any memories. A vivid image of his beautiful smile pops into your mind, but there’s nothing else. No memories about the reason behind his smile, no memories about what he was smiling about, there’s nothing else but his smile.  

His smile is so bright and contagious. You think as you look at the blurry photo, unconsciously starting to smile as well. The yearbook offers no information but a name and a quote underneath the picture, and you let out a hearty laugh when you read the sentence under his photo.

Do you have a name? Or can i call you mine?

You shake your head in disbelief, mildly amused that an 18 years old Jaemin was such a flirt. “This isn’t even a quote.”

Although you can’t remember anything other than his smile, you continue to flip through the page, just to see what your quote was. Finding your name in an instant, your eyes widen when you read the words underneath your photo.

I do have a name, but you can call me anytime.

You visibly cringe, but you can’t help but to laugh it out. “Turns out mine was just as bad.”

Your smile widens when you read the two quotes, knowing very well that you both planned this out. Its heart-warming, to be able to get a glimpse of your relationship with Jaemin in the past. You aren’t sure what it was, but judging from these yearbook quotes, the two of you must’ve been very close.

Closing the book with a smile on your face, you can’t wait to discover more about Jaemin.

“Maybe Yukhei knows something about him...” You mumble, walking to the living room to search for your boyfriend. You find him lounging on the couch, eyes half lidded and mouth agape. Giggling, you playfully pinch the tip of his nose to wake him up from his half asleep state. He blinks a couple of times, closing his mouth instantly. “What’s wrong, honey?”

The pet name sounds so familiar yet so foreign, almost like you used to hear it a lot but not in that tone, or voice. Shrugging off the thoughts, you proceed to show him the yearbook. “Do you know him?”

Yukhei squints his eyes at the small photo, leaning closer to the pages. He then presses his lips into a thin line, the sleepiness gone in a matter of second. He then take the book from your hand and closes it, putting it on the table rather harshly. “Never seen him before.”

You frown as you take the book once more, opening it once more to show him the photo. Its almost impossible that Yukhei doesn’t know him if the two of you used to be really close. “Na Jaemin—you must’ve known him, right? Look! We even have corres-”

“No, I have never heard of such an odd name and stop talking nonsense. Its coincidence, everyone knows that.” He cut you off rudely, tone and gaze as cold as ice. He takes the book from your hand once more, this time putting it on his lap. “You weren’t popular, not everyone in this book is your friends.”

You quietly stand up, feeling the pain from his sharp words. It makes you wonder what role does Jaemin play in your life to make Yukhei that upset just at the mention of his name?

Yukhei’s wrath and blatant lie about not knowing such an odd name makes you even more curious, even after a week after Yukhei tells you to forget about it.

Of course, Yukhei notices your unusual behavior for the past week. And he isn’t very happy about it. Its one thing that you still can’t stand about him, even after all these years. Yukhei is a hot blooded person, getting very irritated when you don’t give him the attention and affection that he needs. At first you thought he was just clingy, but after awhile his tantrum is getting worse and unreasonable.

Much like today.

“Can you tell me what’s wrong? What did i do to deserve this kind of treatment?” You sigh for the nth time that day, frustrated. Usually you would just apologize and cuddle him until he gives in, but this time you can’t. It happens way too much and the reason behind his tantrum is becoming more and more ridiculous.

Yukhei squints his eyes at you, eyebrows raised. Its as if he is looking down on you like you’re a fool for not knowing. This irritates you so much that you decide its not worth your time.

“You know what? Keep doing that for as long as you want. I’m heading out.” You snap, getting your purse and coat. Yukhei immediately stands up, holding tight onto your arms. You expect to see a hint of regret in his glinting orbs, but what you see is rage. “Where do you think you’re going?”

You’re terrified, his deep voice alone is enough to make you shrivel into a ball. But when you remember Jaemin, and the fact that Yukhei lied to you about him, you make up your mind. You forcefully remove his grip on your arm, quickly trying to leave before he could stop you.

“Anywhere but here.”

You shut the door behind you and quickly run away, trying to run as far as you can. You stop running after awhile, realizing that he isn’t chasing after you, which could be both a good thing and a bad thing. You sigh as you stand in the middle of an unfamiliar street, the moon and the dim lighting of the nearby shops are the only source of light. You tilt your head upwards, hoping that the bright little stars could cheer you up even just a little bit. It seems like the universe senses your grief because for the first time in years, there are no stars illuminating the night.

♡

“Do you need an extra blanket? I think you do.”

You sigh in content as you sip a cup of hot chamomile tea, a blanket pooling around your torso. “Its okay, this one is warm enough.”

Seulgi squints her eyes at you. “Are you sure? You look cold.”

You stay quiet, eyes staring off into the distance. Your mind wanders, and you start to wonder if your decision to leave the house is the right thing to do. After all, Yukhei does take a very good care of you, always making sure that you’re safe and happy. You don’t know why all of the sudden you’re being so impulsive, but a part of you just know that its because of the sudden appearance of Jaemin.

“y/n are you listeni-“

“Can i ask you a question?” You cut her off, blank orbs staring up at her. Seulgi raises her eyebrow, confused by your sudden question. “Well, Sure, Why not?”

You let out a sigh. “But you have to promise me you will tell me the truth.”

“Wha-This feels kinda creepy.” Seulgi jokingly says, although you could sense the concern in her voice. You stare up at her, trying to convince her that you’re being serious. “Please.”

She gulps, changing her sitting position. “Okay, I promise.”

You nod, silently thanking her for agreeing. “Tell me all you know about Na Jaemin.”

♡

“Childhood friend. Is that it?”

She nods, although you could clearly tell that she isn’t so sure either.

Listening to her doesn’t seem so fun tonight, as you could easily detect the lies that she throws here and there. You’re disappointed, to say the least. At first you try to let it go, seeing that neither Seulgi nor Yukhei want to talk about him. But you quickly change your mind when you notice that her stories don’t add up.

“Earlier you said that me and Jaemin used to be very close, right? When did Yukhei comes into the picture? And where is Jaemin now? Why do you never mention him in any of your stories?” Question after question spill from your parted lips, a result of such a vague story. She sighs, covering her face with her palms. “He was also your friend, but you and Jaemin were much closer. Look y/n, that’s all i can tell. There are things that i just couldn’t tell. Trust me, its for your own good.”

At first you think she will be willing to help you, but much to your dismay, she’s on the same boat as Yukhei. You stand up, too fed up with the lies that she continuously tries to offer.

“Where are you going? Its 2 AM.” Seulgi stands up as well, ready to stop you. You shake your head as you collect your things, refusing to answer her verbally.

“Why are you acting like this?” She says loudly, clearly frustrated. You stop in your tracks, her words ringing in your ears. In that moment, you know you shouldn’t trust her as much as you used to anymore. “Is it wrong for me to try and dig up about my own life? My own life that i used to live? Is it a crime that i want to know who i was in the past??”

Seulgi doesn’t say anything, standing still in her previous position in the middle of the living room. You shake your head, making your way towards the front door. “I’m leaving.”

“...Lovers.”

You turn around to face her, mildly surprised that she decides to answer. “So he was my lover. Why is it so hard to explain?”

Seulgi sighs, sitting back down on the couch. “Because its not that simple. He was, in a way, the reason why you got into an accident.”  

Is that why he’s apologizing? You squint your eyes at her, not truly believing her words. “How?”

“You were both in a fight, I don’t know what the topic was about, you never told me. Before either one of you could apologize however, something terrible happened.” She slowly says, her voice trembling. “And because of that something, you changed. We all changed in a way, but you... you changed a lot. You lost interest in everything, college, music, arts, even the stars.”

You press your lips into a thin line, feeling a mixed emotion. How horrible something must have been if it makes you lost your interest in the thing that keeps you happy?

She looks up at you, tears pooling in the corner of her eyes. “You were distracted, and one day you crossed the road without looking first… That’s when the accident took place.”

You stay quiet, trying to digest all of her words at once. How is it Jaemin’s fault that you got involved in an accident?

“You said that there was a moment when I lost interest in everything right?” You ask carefully. She nods, her eyes seem a little dull. “and how is it Jaemin’s fault?”

“And if it is then why didn’t Jaemin try to cheer me up? I thought you said he was my boyfriend?” You raise your eyebrow, mind full of questions.

She stays silent at first, avoiding your questioning gaze.

“Seulgi.”

She let out a sigh. “Because he can’t. Even if he wants to, he can’t.”

You stare at her with wonder. “What kind of boyf-“

“He died in an accident, y/n.”

You feel as if your heart drops into your stomach, the feeling unfamiliar and so extreme that you feel physically sick.

Seulgi sighs for the nth time that day. “That something terrible was his death. He was on his way to your house to apologize, but he never made it.”

That’s what he was apologizing for. You feel your throat getting dry, the memory suddenly comes in like a train wreck. The atmosphere in the room when it happened, the fight, the harsh words that you both exchanged, it all suddenly dawns on you. Your eyes widen as realization hits you, tears threatening to fall.

“Yukhei.”

Seulgi raises her eyebrow, as she tilts her head in confusion. “What about him?”

Your eyes flutter shut as all the memories start to flood in, filling your head with both beautiful and unwanted ones. “The fight. It was about Yukhei.”

“It-It was?” She whispers, eyes wide in disbelief. You nod curtly, tears starting to fall.

“Yukhei was never my boyfriend to begin with, wasn’t he?”

No answers come out of her mouth, but you could see the regret written on her face. “I’m so sorry, y/n.”

The pain that you feel right now is unbearable, knowing that all the people around you that you trust, have been lying to you this whole time. It feels like your whole life just crumbles right in front of your eyes, and you’re unable to stop it from doing so, knowing barely anything about yourself.

“So this is all a lie?” You say, voice just above a whisper. “The life that i’m currently living in, its all a lie?”

She shakes her head, standing up immediately. “y/n, there’s a reason-“

“So it is a lie. A big fat lie created by both you and Yukhei and for what? So i could get on with my life without knowing who i was? Without even remembering the people in my life?” You shake your head, letting your tears fall without a care in the world. Seulgi moves to hug you, but you immediately take a step back. Overwhelmed by the situation, you know its better for you to avoid her and Yukhei.

She doesn’t say anything when you avoid her hug, and takes a deep breath instead. “That’s why i never told you. Both me and Yukhei decided that its best for you to-“

“Don’t.” You take a deep breath. “Don’t you dare finish your sentence. I know what is best for me, not you, not Yukhei.”

She seems a little surprised of your rather aggressive reply, but she doesn’t stop. “No, you don’t. Because like you said before, you don’t have a clue about your past life, but we do. We know-“

“We weren’t even that close.” You cut her off once more, not bothering to keep your voice down anymore. “What kind of best friend are you if I didn’t even trust you enough to tell you about my love life??”

She opens his mouth to reply, but you quickly cut her off.

“Both you and Yukhei are telling me my life from your point of views, but how could you do that if we weren’t even that close? How would you know what i was really feeling?” You’re practically shouting, unable to hide the distress in your voice.

She gasps, and unconsciously takes a step back, her eyes widened slightly. Your words are straight forward and sharp and you know it could hurt her feelings, but right now, you’re the one who’s hurting the most.

“Thank you for your bed time stories and all, but i think its best for me to ask the person that you’ve been trying so hard to hide from me this whole time.” You unlock the door and open it, ready to step out anytime, not expecting for another reply.

To your surprise, Seulgi does reply.

“How? By using a fucking Ouija board? Do you not hear me?? He’s dead, y/n. He’s been dead for 4 years!” She exclaims, frustration clear in her tone. Its funny how she looks regretful at first but now she turns all red and angry. With all the lies she has been feeding you, you’re not even surprised anymore.

Stepping out of the apartment, you look back at her.

“That’s what you think.”

She gasps, unable to form a coherent sentence as she watches you walk off into the distance.

“He’s dead! People could easily claim to be him, y/n. You don’t even remember him!” You could hear her voice in the distance, but you pay it no mind and continue walking. Getting into the small elevator, you could see Seulgi standing in front of her door, frustration written all over her face. She’s still trying to convince you to forget everything and to go back inside, but you choose to ignore her. You press the close button, ignoring her whole existence as the door slowly closes.

♡

Walking with your hands in your pocket, you have no idea where to go. You don’t have anyone in your life other than Yukhei and Seulgi. But you do not have even an ounce of regret, knowing that they are the cause of your distress. You let out a sigh as you come across a small bench, deciding to take a sit just for a moment. You look around, realizing that there’s no one around, not a person, not even a cat. You know its dangerous to be outside at such an ungodly hour, but you don’t have a place to go, a place to call home.  

Your mind wanders to Seulgi’s words from before as you stare at the dull sky. Is Jaemin really dead?

You try to remember anything, any memories with Jaemin in it, but your encounter with him on the train and the fight are all you could think of. You sigh as you close your eyes, trying to hold in your tears as you recall the fight that ruined everything.

◇

“He’s my friend, Jaemin. He’s OUR friend!” You shout in frustration, massaging your temple. Jaemin lets out a groan, hands balled up into fists. “How blind can you be?! He asks you out on a date multiple times! And you still think that his intention is friendly?!”

You shake your head, clearly disagreeing with his opinion. “He doesn’t ask me out on a date, He only asks me to show him around the city! He’s nothing more than a friend! Why are you being so stubborn?!”

Jaemin looks at you with what you could decipher as disgust, and the rage in his eyes intensifies. With a dangerously low voice, he makes his statement clear. “He sent you a flower bouquet on your birthday.”

“Well maybe he-“

Jaemin cuts you off. “He told you to ditch me while you were waiting for me.”

You frown, folding your arms. “Maybe its because you were-“

Jaemin takes a step closer, staring down at you with his brows furrowed. “He followed us while we were on a date.”

“Jae-“

“He fucking tried to kiss you, for god’s sake!” He exclaims, throwing his hands out of frustration. Your eyes widen as you try to come up with a denial. “I-It wasn’t-“

“I saw you. I saw how he looked at you that night. I saw how he pulled you into his embrace. And the worst part is you weren’t even trying to resist him before I fucking came.” He spits out, venom laced in his voice. Your eyes widen as you unconsciously take a step back, startled by his harsh words. Jaemin shakes his head, and turns to leave.

“Defend him all you want, y/n. Might as well let him have you while you’re at it.”

You don’t know what happens, because you find yourself enraged by his words.

“Atleast Yukhei would never say such things to me.”

Jaemin stops in his track, turning his face sideways to look at you with spine-chilling gaze. “What did you just say?”

“Yukhei will never hurt me. He will never say those things to me!” You shout, tears threatening to fall from the painful words Jaemin said earlier. “Maybe you’re right. Maybe Yukhei is trying to take me away from you. And you know what? I should’ve fucking let him!”

Jaemin is now facing you completely, the burning rage in his eyes is prominent even from a distance. “Say that again I dare you.”

You let your tears fall down as you stare back at him with almost the same amount of rage.

“Falling in love with you is a mistake.”

◇

You stare at the sky blankly, wondering how depressed he must’ve been after you said those regretful words. And most importantly, how depressed you must’ve been when you realize that its the last words you said to him.

You let out a sigh as you let your tears escape, regretting your poor choice of words. You want to do nothing but to apologize, but you don’t even know where he is right now. You don’t even know if the man that you met on the train was really him, or just a part of your imagination.

You’re not completely sure the reason behind your tears, as everything seem to upset you. Yukhei’s and Seulgi’s lies, your fight with Jaemin, Jaemin’s accident, your encounter with Jaemin, it all feels like a huge drama.

Do they really lie? Or you’re just suspicious of them? Do you really meet Jaemin? Or Is he really dead? Its too much to take in, and its making you crazy.

You don’t know who you are, or who you used to be, and if it isn’t the worst thing that could happen, what else?

You yelp in surprise when you feel a cold hand gripping your arm, immediately scrambling away. It is now that you finally realize that maybe staying at Seulgi’s apartment for the night doesn’t seem too bad.

“Let go!” You desperately try to break free, but the person doesn’t let go, only tightening his grip on you.

“y/n! Calm down!”

Huh? Cautiously, you look up. All your movements stop the moment you lay your eyes at him, your arms falling to your side. You feel your eyes start to water, as your body begins to tremble.

“Jaemin.”

He releases his grip on your arm, concern written all over his face. “Are you okay? Why are you out here in the middle of the night?”

His deep, honey like voice triggers another memory, in which he lulls you to sleep on a rainy day. As you see and hear more of him, a little piece of your memories start to come back. And its makes you realize that he really is Jaemin. Hot tears spill down your face, and you find yourself unable to speak out.

“Why are you crying? Are you hurt?” He asks, scanning your body to see if there’s any open wound or bruises. When he finds none, he immediately knows its not physical. “y/n?...”

“I’m sorry.” You manage to speak out, more tears starting to spill. “I didn’t know that—They never—I’m so sorry, Jaemin.”

Although your sentence is not complete, it’s almost like Jaemin knows that you’re trying to say, and pulls you into his embrace instead. The earthy scent fills in your nostrils immediately, and you find your body relaxing at the pleasant scent. It soothes you, but the memory it triggers is only making more tears stream down your face.

You remember Jaemin pulling you onto his lap, wrapping his arms around you as you catch a whiff of his freshly-washed hair, hints of patchouli and the slight amber notes making you feel warm and safe.

You close your eyes as the memory hits you, tears falling in a stream. Jaemin doesn’t say anything, gently caressing your hair. He feels his eyes getting wet as well, the sight of you crying breaking his heart. He doesn’t know why you’re crying, or why you’re apologizing, but he knows it has something to do with him.

The moment your tears start to stop, you immediately try to explain yourself. “I’m sorry, I was so blind. I should’ve known that Yukhei was-“

“No, stop.” He cuts you off, gently cupping your cheeks. “I’m the one who should apologize. I was the one at fault, not you.”

You notice the tears pooling in the corner of his eyes, and you find yourself tearing up once again. “No, Its mine. I sh-“

Your words are cut off the moment Jaemin lays his lips on your forehead, the act feels so natural that it leaves you feeling a lot better. He pulls back and smiles, although the tears are still there. “We have a lot to talk about, but i think it’s a good idea if we go somewhere safe first.”

You give him a small nod, wiping off your tears with the hem of your sweater. He stands up and offers you his hand, which you gladly take. He doesn’t say a single word, only squeezing your fingers occasionally. But its enough to remind you how natural it feels to have his hand in yours, how natural it feels to have him close to you.

♡

“Come on in.”

You step into the house, the strong earthy scent hitting you right in the face. The familiar scent of the house makes you feel safe almost immediately, your shoulders visibly relax at the first whiff of the scent.

The house is small, only consisting of one bedroom, a living room and a small kitchen. Jaemin doesn’t have a lot of furniture either, the simplicity of the house makes it more appealing to your eyes. It stuns you at how much you two share the same preferences.

However, your gaze lands on the ceiling of his bedroom, and you unconsciously walk into the room to take a closer look. Jaemin doesn’t really know what catches your attention, so he follows you to his room. When he catches you staring at the ceiling, his lips curve into a small smile.

“Its a roof window.” He says as he walks closer towards you, staring at the glass window with a small smile on his face. “So I could see the stars.”

You nod, a rather sour smile hanging on your lips. “I know. I have one too.”

Jaemin raises his eyebrow at your sudden change of mood. “What’s wrong? Don’t you like it? You used to like stars.”

“I do, and I still like them.” You gulp, looking up at him. “But we have a lot to talk about, other than the stars.”

Jaemin nods, laying down on the bed. You watch as he lies down, not knowing what to do. He then pats the spot next to him, signalling you to lie down as well, and so you do. Both of you stay quiet for a moment, staring at the dark night sky in silence.

“What else do you remember?” Jaemin breaks the silence, his voice slightly wavering. You let out a small sigh, gazing at the dark night sky. “Not much. I remember you lulling me to sleep...”

His lips curve into a smile at the beautiful moment, partly relieved that you remember it. “What else?....”

There’s a pause before you answer his question, as you try to carefully choose your words. “The fight.”

Jaemin visibly flinches when he hears you, the smile on his face vanishes in an instant. Silence fills the small room as you both try to come up with another ice breaker.

“You know,” Jaemin starts. “We used to spend hours just staring at the stars.”

You stay quiet, waiting for him to continue. He runs his fingers through his hair, a small smile hanging on his lips. “I don’t know if you remember this, but we used to lay out some mattresses on the backyard and snuggle up together while looking at the stars, talking about our dreams.”  

Just the thought of it is beautiful, and you find yourself smiling. Jaemin lets out a small sigh, glancing at you from the corner of his eyes. “I know there’s a lot of things that we have to talk about, but talking about the stars makes me feel—"

“Happy.” You finish his sentence, feeling the same exact thing whenever you look at the stars. Jaemin turns to face you, a small smile hanging on his lips. “Yes. Just like how you make me feel.”

Your heart starts to beat faster as the blood rushes to your cheeks, tinting it with deep pink hue. Jaemin chuckles when he sees your flushed cheeks, a beautiful sound that easily becomes your favorite.

“It has been quite some time since the last time I made you blush.” He smiles, glancing at you from the corner of his eye. You stay quiet at his words, trying to calm your heartbeat down. Its strangely beautiful how he could turn you into a blushing mess with just a sentence or two. You haven’t even remembered a lot about him, but the impact that he has on you is unimaginable.

“How do you find out? About us?...” Jaemin breaks the silence, his deep voice sounds heavenly in your ears. The smile on your face disappears as you remember what happened earlier, a small sigh leaving your lips. “I don’t really want to talk about it... ”

Jaemin nods, there isn’t any hint of annoyance on his tone. “Its okay, If it makes you upset then you don’t have to.”

“Can we... talk about us?” You quietly ask, turning your head to face him. “Our relationship, what was it like?”

A small smile appears on his face as he turns to face you. “Its perfect.”

Before you could reply, he quickly adds, “For us, at least.”

“How do you know I also feel the same about our relationship?” You look up at him, staring at him in wonder. Jaemin chuckles, leaning closer towards you. “Because we always talk everything out.”

“We grew up together, and we were attached to the hips. You would cry whenever I get sick, and I would do the same too. It was such an innocent time back then.” He continues, his smile getting wider as he recalls the beautiful memories that you still can’t remember. But you can visualize it, and for now its more than enough. “And then?”

Jaemin’s smile softens, his gaze lands on your cheeks. “I remember when I accidentally kissed your cheeks, back when we were still in junior high school.”

“Accidentally?” You raise your eyebrow, a small grin hanging on your lips. He let out hearty laughs as he shakes his head. “To be honest, not really.”

Laughing along with him, you feel genuinely happy and its the first time you feel such a wonderful feeling. Although you still can’t remember anything, his smile is enough to assure you that the memory really is beautiful.  

“How did we end up together?” You ask, looking up at him with wide eyes. Jaemin winces, but the grin on his face shows that he reacts in a good way. “Its really stupid and awkward, are you sure you want to hear it?”

“Certainly.” You let out a chuckle, already grinning because of his reaction. Jaemin shakes his head, the silly grin still plastered on his face. “Fine then.”

You immediately sit up and face him, an excited grin decorating your face.

“Well you ask for it.” Jaemin grins, sitting up to match your eye level. “Back in high school, I used to be friends with this guy named Jeno. You might remember him, he was pretty popular.”

You scrunch up your face as you try to remember any Jeno in your life. “Is he the one who looks like that big ass statue on Easter island?”

Jaemin breaks out into a fit of chuckles, his voice resonating in the small room. “You remember him!”

You grin, happy because you succeeded in remembering your old friend and happy because you made Jaemin laugh.

After a few moments Jaemin finally stops chuckling, his hand clutching his stomach. He then leans back against the headboard of the bed. “Well, I’ve been wanting to confess to you even before I met Jeno, but it’s hard to build up the courage. I’m not afraid of rejection, I’m afraid of what might happens after that.”

“I’m afraid that I would lose you, forever. At that time I thought I would rather continue living my normal life with you as my best friend, even if it means that I have to hide—or possibly get rid of my feelings for you.” He let out a sigh, offering you a thin smile. You then scoot closer towards him. You take a seat right next to him, your shoulders touching his. “You told me its a stupid story, not a sad one.”

“Jeno made it stupid, honestly.” He laughs, fingers reaching out to yours. “When he knew about my feelings for you, he immediately told me to confess. He told me to give you a surprise, and I was dumb enough to believe him.”

You look up a him with a small smile. “Surprises are great, though.”

“Not so great when it involves me sneaking into your room in the middle of the night while holding a huge bouquet of roses.”

“What?....”

He winces, noticing how creepy it must’ve sounded for you. “I didn’t know why I agreed either.”

“What happened then?” You ask, mildly amused. Jaemin pinches the bridge of his nose, a small embarrassed sigh comes out of his parted lips. “You hit me with an umbrella.”

“I—What?...”

Jaemin sighs, looking up at you with an embarrassed grin on his face. “It was dark, and you weren’t fully awake. It didn’t hurt, but It sure was unexpected. I don’t blame you though, I’m blaming Jeno for coming up with the idea and I’m blaming myself for agreeing with such a stupid idea.”

You let out a chuckle. “I mean, that’s pretty stupid.”

“That’s not even the dumbest part.” He quickly adds, already covering his face out of embarrassment. “After you hit me with the umbrella for a full minute you just kind of... fell asleep.”

“I... fell asleep?”

Jaemin nods, already cracking another smile. “You did.”

You cover your face in embarrassment, awkward chuckles pouring out of your lips. “That’s more embarrassing than stupid.”

“Do you remember any of it?” Jaemin asks, his tone genuine. You shake your head, disappointed in yourself for not being able to remember such precious memories. Jaemin ruffles your hair gently, a reassuring smile decorating his face. “Its okay, I’ll guide you through this.”

You nod as you move closer to him, resting your head on his shoulder.

“Well, the next day I didn’t know how to act around you because I didn’t know if you’re actually awake or not when you hit me. It was pretty awkward until you casually came to my desk, telling me how you dreamt about hitting someone with an umbrella.” He looks at you, a grin sitting on his face. “And I didn’t know how to react so I just kind of blurted out ‘Its me.’ And we both kind of just went silent.”

“That is so awkward I want to die just from imagining it.” You let out a small groan, although the grin on your face remains there. Jaemin laughs at your reaction, pulling you closer. “It wasn’t that bad!”

You scrunch up your face. “It was that bad!”

He chuckles, pressing your head against his chest. “I’m still glad that it happened, though. Having you in my life is the best thing that ever happened to me.”  

You feel the sudden urge to wrap your arms around him, and you do just that. Jaemin let out a content sigh when he feels your small arm around him, putting his hand on top of yours. After a few moments of silence, you could feel the change in the atmosphere. “What’s wrong?...”

He shakes his head, pulling you closer onto him. “Its just that.... we’ve come to my least favourite part of the story.”

You look up at him with a reassuring smile. “Its okay if you don’t want to, I’m alre—”

“No, I have to.” He cuts you off. “You deserve to know what happened.”

You can’t help but to nod in agreement, knowing that he is right and you deserve to know the real story.

“This might sound odd but the reason why all of our friends thought that I was dead its because I was declared dead for a good 7 minutes.” He says, his deep voice sounds even deeper than usual. You look up at him, confusion written all over your face. “How?”

He chuckles humorlessly. “My heart stopped beating for those minutes, but the doctor refused to give up on me. It was a miracle, really.”

“Indeed.” You quietly reply, scooting closer towards him. He notices this and intertwines your fingers together, closing the distance between your bodies. “I didn’t immediately wake up, but when I finally did i didn’t remember anything. So my parents brought me out of the country, to get a better medical treatment so i could get my memory back. I guess they didn’t tell anyone about my condition back then.”

He then takes a deep breath, the smile on his face slowly disappearing. “I remember about you, about us. That’s why I came back.”

Your heart skips when you hear his words, something that rarely happens even when Yukhei does something special for you, but happens so easily when Jaemin isn’t even trying.

“My parents thought its better to reach out to you and my friends here in Korea after I got my memories back.” He says, a brittle smile plastered on his face. You look up at him, noticing the way his voice starts to get more and more shaky. “Jaemin....”

He then takes a deep breath, glassy orbs gazing at the sky. “But it wasn’t that easy.”

“I spent months looking for you, I visited your house but it’s empty, and the neighbors said that it has been empty for quite some time. That day when we met on the train, was another miracle.” He finally turns to face you, his smile becoming more genuine. He then gently caresses your cheeks, hazel orbs gazing at you softly. “I was shocked, confused and happy at the same time. I wanted to pull you into my arms like i used to, but when I see the confusion on your face, I knew I couldn’t.”

You hide your face in the crook of his neck, unable to bring yourself up to see the pain in his eyes.

“I regret letting you go that day. I should’ve made you stay on that train. But seeing you so clueless and confused, I just couldn’t bring myself to ask you to come with me—A stranger.” He continues, cold hand caressing your hair softly. He then pulls away just so he could look at your face. He gently lifts your head up, forcing you to face him. “To be honest, I consider tonight a miracle as well.”

“Jae—“

“But what i really want to know is why were you crying? What happened?” He asks gently, eyes hooded as he gazes at you with a hint of sorrow in his orbs. You know he’s going to ask that eventually, and you don’t have any other choice but to tell the truth. “Its a long story though...”

Jaemin squeezes your finger as he offers you a warm smile.

“We have all night.”

♡

Fluttering your eyes open, you let out a small yawn as you roll over to the other side of the bed. You’re slightly surprised when a body stops you from doing so, wondering why isn’t Yukhei at work already. However, when you look a little bit closer, that sleeping figure doesn’t look anything like Yukhei.

You almost squeal in horror because of the supposedly stranger in your bed, but quickly notice that it isn’t your bed either. Looking around, you notice that its not even your room.

Oh my god where am I?? Your breath starts to quicken as you frantically search for your phone, being careful not to wake the other person up. You quickly find your phone at the night stand, connected to a charger. Huh?

“Good morning.”

You immediately turn around to face the now-awake stranger, only to see a very familiar face. You let out a relieved sigh as you remember what happened last night, letting Jaemin pulls you into his embrace. “You fell asleep mid-story last night—Just like you always do.”

His voice sounds deeper, and a little bit hoarse from the deep sleep. You find yourself smiling, such a rare thing to happen in the early mornings. “I’m sorry, I was exhausted.”

“Its okay, you looked adorable.” He sighs contently as he snuggles closer, his lips curving up into a smile. You haven’t remembered a lot of things about him nor your relationship, much to your dismay. But you’ve noticed the way your body relaxes just at the sound of his voice, you’ve noticed how easy it is for him to make you blush, you’ve noticed how your body reacts to him being by your side. You think it as a sign. A sign that this is where you truly belong, In his arms.

You want to stay like this forever, safe and sound in Jaemin’s embrace, but you know that life doesn’t work that way. You let out a sigh as you cover your face with your palms. Jaemin tries to pry off your fingers, concern obvious in his tone. “What’s wrong?”

“What about Yukhei?” You look up at him, trying to look for answers. Jaemin knows what Yukhei did, and he isn’t happy about it. You had to calm him down last night when you told him what happened the day that you first woke up.

Hearing Yukhei’s name, He scrunches up his face, visibly upset. But he stays quiet, as if he’s actually trying to think of a rational solution. You find his hand and intertwine your fingers together, squeezing it gently. “To be fair, he has been treating me well these past years.”

“I know.” Jaemin replies softly. “That’s why i’m trying to think of the best solution.”

You don’t want to lose him, ever again, but you don’t want to hurt Yukhei either. Yukhei has done terrible things both to you and Jaemin, but he treats you well when Jaemin couldn’t. On the other side, you haven’t remembered everything about Jaemin and your relationship in the past, but it feels so right to have him by your side. You know your heart longs for Jaemin but you couldn’t just ditch Yukhei like that.

“Does this count as cheating?” You whisper, voice barely audible. Jaemin shakes his head, squeezing your hand in his. “Technically, no. I was still your boyfriend when he one-sidedly declared himself as your boyfriend.”

You nod as a reply, not knowing what to respond.

“I think what matters is your feelings right now.” He adds, cupping your face with his hands. He presses his forehead against yours, the tip of your noses bumping slightly. “If you want to be with him then its okay, I will be fine. After all, I was the one who left you—in a way.”

The smile he has on is genuine, but it doesn’t represent happiness or some sort. Seeing him smile in such a painful way hurts you, almost to the point of crying. You gently shake your head, letting out a sigh. “To be honest, I still can’t remember a lot about you and our past...”

Jaemin shuts his eyes tightly as he prepares himself for the worst.

“But I want to be with you.” You whisper, hiding your flushing cheeks in the crook of his neck.

Jaemin pulls back abruptly, eyes wide. But then his gaze softens, a hint of grief in his hazel orbs. “Are you sure? I’m basically a stranger to you.”

You could hear the pain in his tone, as if he doesn’t actually want to say those words but has to. But he has a point. Although he used to be your lover, at this point he’s a stranger in your newly started life.

Gently reaching out to swipe his bangs off his eyes, you offer him a small smile. “Funny, because I never feel so safe around strangers before.”

Jaemin let out a sigh, putting his hand on top of yours. “I’m serious, y/n. What if you hate me, or my personality? Or my living style, my hobbies?”

“Jaemin, you were my boyfriend before. What makes you think I won’t love you like i used to?” You trace his facial feature with your finger softly, familiarizing yourself. “And technically we’ve really never broken up.”

Jaemin sighs, leaning into your gentle touch. “Because this is different. Its like a new blank page, and what if the result is different? Anything could happen, and you could easily—”

His words are cut off the moment you lay your lips on his cheeks, leaving him stunned. His eyes widen for a moment, not expecting you to do that.

“I’ve fallen in love with you before, and even though I don’t know why and how, I’m sure I will fall back in love with you in no time.” Your lips curve into a genuine smile, as you brush the tip of your noses together. “And to be honest, I think I’ve already started.”

Jaemin stays still for a moment, but the corner of his lips start to lift into a smile. He pushes his body up, supporting his weight with his elbows. He leans closer and presses a gentle kiss on your forehead. He then lifts your face by the chin, sheepish smiles decorating both of your faces.

“I love you so much.” He whispers, sighing contently. Your heart beats faster, and you find yourself blushing even though there’s nothing to be embarrassed for. You don’t know what to say, tripping over your own words.

Jaemin smiles softly. “Its okay. You don’t have to say it back just yet. Don’t force yourself. I just want to make sure you know that i love you.”

“I know.” You whisper as a reply, cheeks flaming in embarrassment. Jaemin doesn’t reply, instead he pulls you closer, so close that your body is pressed against his. “I miss this.”

“I still can’t remember a lot but i must admit this feels very nice.” You admit, snuggling closer to prove your point. Jaemin chuckles heartily, pressing a chaste kiss on your forehead. You sigh contently at the feeling of his lips against your skin. “You must’ve done this a lot.”

Jaemin pulls back slightly just so he could look at you. “What do you mean?”

“I remember some memories because of certain things, like the smell of your shampoo, it triggers a specific memory. But you’ve kissed me at least 3 times since last night and I still can’t remember a specific memory attached to it, So I’d figure you must’ve done this to me a lot.” You quietly reply, suddenly feeling shy about the topic that you bring up yourself. Jaemin hums as a reply, his hand pulling you closer against his body. “That’s because I haven’t done the real thing yet.”

“What real th—”  

Your words are cut off the moment Jaemin lays his lips on yours, the contrast between his chapped lips and your smooth ones is making you feel light-headed. Your eyes flutter shut as the kiss deepens, his lips moving in sync with yours, molding perfectly against each other.

Your eyes slowly open when he pulls away, breaking the kiss that you’ve grown to love in just a matter of second. Jaemin looks at you with a gentle gaze, a small smile decorating his face. “Does it bring back any memories?”

“No, actually.” You answer him honestly, chuckling quietly. Jaemin hums, the smile still sitting on his face. “Don’t worry, though.”

You look at him with wonder, eyebrows raising ever so slightly. Jaemin leans closer as the corner of his lips lift into a playful grin.

“We have all the time that we need to try again.”

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[honeyspov]

BTS Wings Tour Newark/Chicago

This weeks topic is going to be something not related to dramas at all, but BTS! I am member of ARMY and have been for almost three years now, so it’s awesome to see how big BTS has gotten. None the less, I figured I would share my WINGS tour experience, and eventually share my LOVE YOURSELF tour experience as well! I’ll include pics that my best friend and I have taken, but please don’t forget the credit and don’t remove it if it’s already there. 

Also note that if you’re looking for HD pics of the concert, you won’t find that here. Pics are all from a sweaty iPhone 7 snapchat camera. 

Now, let’s jump right in!

 ^ this was WINGS tour in Chicago btw

ALRIGHTY. Let’s start this adventure in Newark, because that’s where my best friend and I went to our first BTS concert! It was a super cold day in March, and we traveled from New York City to Newark via train along with a few other friends. The line around the Prudential Center where the concert was wrapped almost all the way around the building. Everywhere you went you could see people selling KPOP merch, and eager fans. It was pretty uplifting and exciting because everyone there was so energetic and hyped up, you could feed off the energy of everyone else just waiting in line.

But ya girl here forgot her ticket. So in we ran to the ticket booth, and I’m desperately showing them my receipt from Ticketmaster and they actually were able to reprint my ticket so I could enter. We didn’t have to wait in the super long line outside though, because we went in through a side entrance and the line for security was super short. So we go inside, and we sit upstairs on the floor and we’re just all super excited and looking forward to the concert. My best friend and I both got GA floor tickets so we were going to be in the pit, and my other friends had actual seats, so we left our coats and belongings with them, knowing that there wasn’t really going to be anywhere to place them later. This is important bc people were actually fainting in the pit because of dehydration and how hot it was! I actually caught a person, and gave them some of my water and security even came because we all parted like the Red Sea for them. If you have friends with seats, let them hold your stuff! 

Okay end of PSA.  

Fast forward, my best friend and I are in the pit and the concert has yet to begin. They’re playing BTS songs in the arena and we’re all jamming out and having a good time when eventually the lights dim, the curtain drops, and the beat for Not Today starts blaring. If ya’ll thought the pit was crowded before, it’s about to get wilder. Everyone rushed forward and it got so tight, you could barely lift your hands above your head, but with all the excitement that was fine.

I honestly do not remember the order of songs they played, but I do remember when they performed Lost because that’s when they came to the front stage and we could see them so close. 

When rap line took the stage though, all wigs were gone. Namjoon is my bias, and Suga is my best friends bias so we both LOST it when they started performing Cypher pt. 3. We did manage to get this gem of a photo though, and it is forever my favorite pic of rap line because MY BESTIE DID THAT.

I also managed to get Jin with his wings during his performance of awake, which was super emotional for me because that is one of my favorite songs off the whole album. Why do they always give Jin the most moving songs huh??? They really know how to get me sobbing, and it’s not fair anymore ok.

Overall the concert was b e a u t i f u l . I cannot express how much I miss that night and would love to relive it. I sometimes just lay there scrolling through all the snapchats and pictures I have of that night because it was truly a phenomenal night. Also, here are some gems that my best friend took because she’s actually talented as heck and y'all should check her IG out! 

My friend and I did go to WINGS in Chicago though, but that would honestly just have to be a whole separate post... I’m not too sure if I’d type it all out yet or not though, so I’m still contemplating.

Thanks for reading!! Hope y'all enjoyed the pics, and sorry if I rambled too much, this is more so just for me to reread later and either laugh or cringe.

Take care x 

#bts #wings tour #newark #chicago #wings tour usa #kim namjoon #kim seokjin #min yoongi #jung hoseok #park jimin #kim taehyung #jeon jungkook #bts rm #bts suga #bts jhope #bts jimin #bts v #bts jungkook #bts jin #bts pics #concert pics #kpop #korean pop

[sweaterkittensahoy]

TELL ME OF THE MARMAN DOGS, PLEASE?

Okay, you don’t know this because you can’t see me make this post, but I promise I spent TIME figuring out doggo pics (and other pics; we’ll get there). 

Okay, so there are four dogs. The first one is this guy: 

This is what he looks like when John first finds him, except he’s very cold and wet in the back garden of the Embassy, and John has no idea how the little guy got there (he will find out later about an attache in another embassy having purchases the dog from a breeder, then decided it was not manly enough; that man will be summarily removed from every guest list on embassy row). 

John is on his way to pick up Josh for lunch when he spots the puppy. He scoops him up and tucks him in his coat and figures he can get Donna to call the Humane Society on his behalf. 

Donna is happy to do so and even gets a warm towel from the dryer brought up so she can cuddle the MOST ADORABLE PIBBLE.

“The what?” John asks, thinking he’s misheard.

“Pibble,” Donna says. “It’s a nickname on the internet for pitbulls.”

“Pibble,” John mutters and smiles. He “forgets” to ask Donna to call the Humane Society. He also does NOT have to convince Josh on adopting the little guy because Josh comes out of his office, spots the puppy, and yelps, “IS THAT A PIBBLE BIT?”

The puppy is officially named “Sir Pibble Smilemouth” a week later. John knights him with a butter knife. They were not expecting him to be the biggest boy. But now he looks like this: 

He is, of course, a lap dog. 

So, about a year after they get Pibble (and realize he is the biggest boy), John is in England to do English stuff and also visit the Queen (he is the favorite cousin, after all). She has him come along for a visit to a Corgi rescue, and John REALLY doesn’t mean to do more than look, but then he spots a a scruffy little guy in the fourth kennel down. It’s a sad story: The corgi came from a backyard breeder and was abandoned in front of the rescue because it didn’t have a naturally docked tail (the breeder had the nerve to leave a note (WITH THEIR NAMED SIGNED) explaining they didn’t want to HURT the dog--said asshole was raided a week later). 

John really, really, REALLY doesn’t mean to take the dog home, but it’s been there a YEAR, and he has ways (money) of keeping the puppy out of a long quarantine, and so he comes home with this guy:

He “forgets” to mention to Josh that he’s bringing home a dog. Josh rolls his eyes but is otherwise unfazed (he’s married to this idiot, after all), but he demands that for John to fully apologize, he has to let Josh’s staff choose the new dog’s name. 

And so, Lord Mr. Stumpybuttons becomes a regular fixture around the White House (Sir Pibble prefers the embassy because it’s closer to food and kids come through and love to pet him). He loves CJ best because she always sneaks him cheese (his cheese farts are legend; CJ does not care because he gets so fucking dorky when cheese is offered). He also becomes known for following CJ into the briefing room and sitting by her podium. When they go in one day, there is a tiny podium next to hers, and you better fucking believe Lord Mr. Stumpybuttons standing with his front paws on the thing went viral (note: I know WW happened in the late 90-early aughts, but I always picture them present day; likely because they treated the show as present day, so). 

Six months after Lord Mr. Stumpybuttons (who hogs the bed more than Sir Pibble, who is WAY LARGER AND THAT IS NOT FAIR) comes into the family, Josh is on the campaign trail with Sir Pibble (who loves a car ride), and they’re in Arkansas. Donna takes Sir Pibble out to pee (Josh called a Republican hopeful Lord VolDUHmort on a hot mike has been grounded to the bus by both Leo AND CJ), and when Donna comes back in,she has something wrapped in the cardigan she was wearing. She explains as she undoes Sir Pibble’s harness one-handed that Sir Pibble REFUSED to come back inside without it. Josh expects a pinecone (Sir Pibble has a collection) or a gross tennis ball (they’re in a parking lot of a slightly questionable Ramada Inn. 

It is, instead, a pupper about the same size Sir Pibble was when John found him, but this one is clearly all mutt. Josh doesn’t even pretend like he’s not gonna bring the little guy home. He gives the dude a bath, dries him off, lays him on Sir Pibble (who is flopped out and chewing lazily at a Kong ball), and sends a photo to John. 

“Congratulations! We’re parents!”

John responds with MANY emjois and asks where they are. 

“I dunno,” Josh texts back. “Someplace in Arkansas. Donna says it’s called Toad Suck, but I think she wants me to embarrass myself on TV again.”

Maybe Toad Suck grows into a goofy, handsome boy: 

And, just when they think, “Okay, we have enough dogs. We don’t need anymore dogs,” some upper crust type complains that he got his daughter a Chihuahua and it ANNOYS him, and so he’s getting rid of it. They’ve had it a week. It doesn’t even have a name. 

The daughter in question is fifteen and STANDING NEXT TO HER DAD when they get this information, and John and Josh have to squeeze each other’s hands REALLY HARD so they don’t yell at the guy. 

John throws on his best smile. “We’d love to have him! One in every size. Did you have a name picked out?”

The girl is OBVIOUSLY trying not to cry as she brings up a picture on her phone: 

“I was gonna name him Spruce Moose,” she says, and Josh laughs so hard he nearly falls over. A joke from his favorite Simpsons episode? Oh, hell yes. 

“You know,” John says as Josh continues to laugh, “I believe your father mentioned you were looking for summer work, and Josh and I are always on the hunt for a dog walker who understands how odd are schedules are.”

Upper crust asshole is PISSED. The daughter is BEYOND HAPPY. She becomes a fixture in the neighborhood and gets tons of work because the Marbury-Lyman dogs are sweet as can be, but still, you’re walking a pittie, a corgi, a very smart mutt, and a tiny guy all at once and not tripping? LET US HIRE YOU. 

“Okay, that’s it, no more dogs,” John and Josh agree. It’s too damn hot in the bed as it is. And spring is coming. They leave a second-story window open one night, and when they wake up in the morning, the screen is pushed in and there’s a huge fucking Siamese cat on the kitchen counter: 

He’s got a couple scars, but when Josh approaches, he immediately starts purring like a rusty chainsaw and SCREAM MEOWING for attention. He is CONSTANTLY noisey, and when Bernice meets him, she immediately dubs him, “Professor Meowbury, Purr HD.” 

He is also a shoulder cat and did NOT flinch when Josh screamed in surprise the first time he landed (from the cupboards above the stove; he’s a dick). John ADORES him because he learns that making one small, cat-like sound at Professor Meowbury will lead him to scream-meow for at least two minutes, and it becomes his very favorite way to pretend like he didn’t hear comments from people he doesn’t like who he is not allowed to kick out of his office. 

There are so many lint rollers in their house. And leashes. And treats. And toys. And sweaters. And the carrying sling for Spruce Moose (who loves people but gets scared easy but not as easy when he’s in the sling). And you have about a 60% chance of getting bowled over by the crowd when you show up because even Professor Meowbury runs to the door for pets when people show up, and always seems to know who has NEVER experienced a shoulder cat (the screams are amazing). 

#marman #josh lyman #lord john marbury #josh lyman/lord john marbury #and their dogs #and the cat #who got added last night when i came up with that name and had to get out of bed to laugh #oft-goes-awry