#a friend showed it to me and I dunno

[spaciebabie]

#mlp #mlp fim #fluttershy #my friends hyped me up inta recording this fkjdfhajkhfkjashfjk #ive has this joke on my mind all day lmao #hatsune miku #out of all my shitty posts....please let this be the one that makes it ta 10k....plsplspslplsplspslpslpslpslpslpslpslpslsplspls #I WAS RECORDING THIS LIKE ''this doesnt sound like fluttershy at all 😭'' #and then i showed my friends some audio of me talking in her voice and they were like ''IT SOUNDS SO MUCH LIKE HER???'' I DUNNO #IT JUST SOUNDS LIKE ME I HAVE. NO FRAME OF REFERENCE FOR IF IT ACTUALLY SOUNDS LIKE HER

[forecast0ctopus]

Sorry, it's really funny to me that we're watching your Star Trek obsession unfold. It's a great franchise. I love it, and ur artwork is great!

THANKS lmao it was inevitable……… i do think its funny that you say obsession though ive posted it Twice here like. you are not wrong but i think i managed to spare most of you by relegating my Thoughts to my close friends story

theres too much star trek media though i fear ive condemned myself

#id been meaning to finish tos for like. i dunno six years maybe ive definitely watched the first handful of episodes like three times haha #oh definitely more than six years jesus christ. time #apologies to my close friends list but youll have to struggle with me #rhis was all like 2-3 weeks ago for reference #ask #anon #im so good at getting invested in things that have been Over for at least a decade but usually longer #though star trek is still like an Active Franchise.. unusual #im on tng now. slowly. why are there so many seasons where are my 2-3 season shows at #i like geordi a lot though

[ablazenqueen]

Charn and Tin’s development is so, so good. The way they yo-yo between antagonism and friendship, the way there’s instant sexual attraction but only slowly growing romantic feelings, the way their viewpoints contrast and conflict and constantly bring them back to Square 1, I could go on.

But I think one of the most interesting things about their ever-changing dynamic is how much more of a problem their conflicting perspectives become the more they care about each other.

Specifically, I think it’s beautiful and heartbreaking that the more Charn begins to genuinely care about Tin, the more he relies on what he believes to be case-winning methods. Methods that turn Tin against him, lead to distrust and anger and conflict between them. Obviously part of the reason Charn does what he does is because he wants to win. He likes the challenge, he wants revenge, he has a lot of pride.

But it isn’t just about winning anymore.

He cares about Tin and Tin’s grandma and his family and he cares what Tin thinks of him and he cares that Tin’s kindness is going to get him trampled by people who aren’t as kind. But the more he cares, the more he manipulates because he believes it’s the only way to win and winning is the only way to keep Tin and his family safe once and for all. Which unfortunately means the more he cares, the less Tin trusts him and the further the divide between them grows.

#me to my friend: I dunno I probably won’t write any meta about loa I don’t think I have much to say #me on tumblr five minutes later: ^^^^^^ #a little thing I like to call ✨no self-restraint✨ #anyway I’m so obsessed with this show that it got me back into writing meta and making gifs #laws of attraction #laws of attraction the series #loa #laws of attraction meta #tincharn #charntin #thai drama #asian lgbt dramas #asian dramas #thai bl #asian bl #bl drama #*my stuff

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

The catalyst

Recovered Black Mesa documents from the experiment, #2 of ____

(Pg. 1)

Stage Two: Resonance Cascade Simulation (RCS)

Section 2: Resonance Cascade Simulation

The Resonance Cascade Simulation (RCS) is a revolutionary advancement in Black Mesa’s incident prevention/preparation technology, where a replica of multiple wings of Black Mesa’s main facility were constructed to give the appearance of the real facility. Here is where the rest of the test will take place, as soon as the simulated Resonance Cascade Catalyst is complete. We hope that this experiment will prepare us in case of a real Resonance Cascade event, and thus can potentially prevent one entirely. 

Dr. Freeman is to be put in the RCS as soon as the Catalyst is complete and he is sufficiently unconscious. It is crucial to place him under anesthesia to not cause alarm as he is moved from the real Black Mesa Facility into the replica. (REMINDER: it is of UTMOST IMPORTANCE that Freeman is to be unaware of the test taking place, as to make this simulation as accurate as possible. Failure to comply with this rule will result in career termination.) It is to be noted that despite the simulated AMS failure being in a controlled environment, there is room for error and potentially even injury in the case of Dr. Freeman being within the chamber as it happens. However we believe the HEV suit will be enough to protect him throughout the process.

To make the RCS even more realistic, we have contained multiple species from multiple expeditions to [CENSORED TEXT] within the testing facility. Though it is to be noted that certain species remain too great of a liability to keep within the same facility as the subject. We hope these specimens will help make the cross-dimensional-travel of anomalies more predictable in the case of a real Resonance Cascade event happening, and more importantly, teaching us how to deal with, and/or dispose of these specimens.

Notes: Freeman is a smart man. Hiding the true nature of this test is for his own good.

Conclusion of section:

Power AMS to 105% to begin simulated AMS failure scenario

Begin RCS

(Pg. 2)

INCIDENT LOG: #40

TIME OF INCIDENT: 10:24 AM, December 13th, 1998

CAUSE OF INCIDENT: Technical Malfunction

PERSON(S) INVOLVED IN INCIDENT: Gordon Freeman

INCIDENT TYPE: Workplace Injury/death

DESCRIPTION OF INCIDENT:

At approximately 10:24 AM MST, a malfunction occurred involving the Anti Mass Spectrometer, where a stray beam struck Dr. Gordon Freeman between the lower Thoracic and Lumbar sections of his spinal cord. Due to this area being primarily the HEV’s visible undersuit rather than an armored section, it proved to not be enough to withstand the entirety of the shock. Freeman Suffered near instantaneous lower body paralysis, along with heart failure. Freeman also underwent convulsions, restricting his ability to remove himself from the situation. When the AMS had reached a state of stabilization, allowing personnel to enter the chamber, they found Freeman unresponsive aside from minor erratic muscle spasms. They found that his lower back was severely damaged, along with the HEV undersuit.

Damage to the HEV suit was minimal, though holes caused by the shock needed to be repaired. The protective cover over the Life Support Module was damaged, and unable to be reattached. However, the Life Support Module is still intact and functioning as expected. 

Freeman appears to be healing despite tremendous damage. The HEV suit took most of the hit, allowing Freeman to heal relatively without problem. Due to the HEV’s extraordinary biomatter repair technology, Freeman’s heartbeat has returned, along with stable brain activity and nervous system control, meaning he is no longer paralyzed. (It is to be noted that he awoke during examination, but was quickly put under anesthesia to prevent further pain, any potential alterations to the test results, and any further mental strain from the resurrection.) 

Planned initial Termination was going to be three (3) hours after the RCS had begun, however due to this horrible oversight from the engineers in the Lambda team, the first test had taken place prematurely. However, Freeman appears to have healed completely from this incident. This is promising.

FOLLOW UP ACTION(S):

Monitor possible HEV malfunctions

Monitor Freeman’s physical health and recovery from this incident

Resume test as initially planned without further delay.

#Project: Freeman (half life au) #half life #gordon freeman #Subject: Gordon #shmorp writes sometimes #character death mention #injury tw #I. dunno what else to tag it as if I missed something let me know #But uh. yeah! #I wanna. show some of the story through these documents before I show off more art I made for it and like. get to the REAL parts of this au #Its silly. science based stuff is silly (I know nothing about science) #Also shoutout to my friend Ivan again for helping me with certain parts

[oceanwithouthermoon]

once again thinking about mermaid saiki !!

him having bad days and just wanting to get in the damn ocean and swim with the fishies !! fish have thoughts but they r so simple minded that its just a gentle murmur and its so lovely for him !!

the ocean is so beautiful to him !! its one of the few things he allows himself to take comfort in !! my boy can literally make friends with sharks and he does !!

IMAGINE any of his friends being scared of the ocean and wanting to get over their fear and saiki is like. i can literally show you the beauties of the world. the wonders of the earth. let me show you.

cuz he probably gets to be a really REALLY good swimmer because of his mer shenanigans.. he takes his friends diving (not very far/deep) and holds their hands and shows them beautiful things..

they watch him pet sea creatures that they wouldnt have even thought to get near and are just like.. huh..

#silly guy who screams about bugs but is literally friends with sharks and squids and other terrifying sea creaturws #every character in saikis harem anime being like 'wow he really is a disney princess..' #we already know kaido is afraid of the ocean so imagine kusuo being like PLEASE let me show you how beautiful it can be #this is how kusuos friends discover one of his 'weaknesses' (? dunno how else to phrase this) #i just think if he let himself take comfort in it then itd be 1 of the few things that can make him smile uncontrollably like sweets can #kaido only agrees to let him help because when else has he ever seen saiki this happy ?? #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #meows post

[ghostorbz]

Don't bully him </3

#my friend showed me a photo and then i made this #lols #art #my art #madness combat #madcom #sanford madness combat #deimos madness combat #DEI IS IN THE BACKGROUND and the comments #also sorry if the thingie looks weird i dont have tiktok i dont remember what the setup looks like #do i tag as sanmos???? i dunno #hngnngngg okay bye it's 5am kms

[front-facing-pokemon]

#another bonus under the cut where i got up under their big head to get 'em a little closer and a little more front-facing #aggron #aggron is just cool. a big metal bitch who *could* hug you but is probably actually just gonna obliterate you. is that anything #i think i prefer lairon more. it's kinda just a little metal creature and i think that's awesome but aggron stands up #and normally i'm a big big fan of when pokémon stand up. when everyone wanted sprigatito to not stand up i was like #please stand up. because i am a furry and i knew it was gonna become favorite pokémon material if it did. and it did and meowscarada is #wonderful and i love it and it's one of my top like 10 of all time. but aggron is like. i dunno. a little too gruff for me #i think aron and lairon are cute and i'm generally a fan of and user of cute pokémon but aggron is very. how you say. aggressive #and also… ron… aggressive ron. new show on netflix i just reinvented aggretsuko but for pokémon #also weirdly every furry on the face of the earth likes aggretsuko but for one i've never had a netflix account and for two i just #don't ever watch shows. it's just not something that works in my brain. having to get them‚ and then just taking the time to sit down and do #it just never does anything for me. the last show i watched was because i was over at a friend's house and he was like hey. we're watching #this show now. i want you to see this show. and it's a show that folks generally lamented for a lot of reasons so i was like iii dunno about #that one! but he was like no trust me it's fine. and then i was like. kinda uninterested at first but it turned out to be really good #and i'm still ashamed. that i liked it as much as i did. so i will not say what it is. it's not supernatural. it's a short-ish show #but like it was good and i didn't expect it to be. which has nothing to do with aggretsuko OR with aggron for that matter #literally idk. look it's distraction (AGGRON DISTRACTION)

[marsupials-of-mars]

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#gotta say. #most of the hate towards hazbin hotel seems wicked reactionary and just an excuse to dunk on the younger generation's cringe interests #like ive done my research and most of what i found leads me to conclude that i wouldnt personally be friends with vivziepop #but thats no reason not to enjoy a popular undoubtedly flawed but fun and colorful and gorgeous thing that brings me joy. #i feel scared to talk about hazbin now like i felt scared to talk about steven universe or undertale or mlp in middle school. #not because i think im doing something bad #but because i know just saying the words is a calling card for people who want a reason to be mad and make jokes. #fucking hate posts that are just “i like hazbin hotel” “<haha isnt that guy lame and cringe” under the guise of #i dunno. morality policing? is this not the same website that says cringe culture is dead and unapologetically likes “problematic” anime #and bbc shows and medical dramas and supernatural #like whats the actual problem? give me a list #otherwise im assuming you would have bullied me in middle school and id hide my sketchbook when you walked by.

[thewhizzyhead]

recently I've been seeing a shit ton of discourse about Princess Bubblegum on twt and how some people kinda view her as some sort of irredeemable bitch who does not deserve to be treated kindly by marceline or anyone and like,,,though couple of pb's actions are certainly morally questionable at best and outright unethical at worst,, people must know that adventure time has like 10 main seasons worth of pb character plot right? and like,,,doesn't the whole "we were messed-up kids who taught ourselves how to live" verse from the monster song like literally sum up why PB was the way she was until she decided to outgrow that-

#like i dunno isnt the whole point with like the adventure time main 3 (marcy bonnie and finn) #them learning how to live in the midst of isolation in a literal apocalypse- #like i dunno i havent even watched the entirety of adventure time but isnt that like a legit point the show made #which is why at the start of the show all 3 were kinda in weird places cause who else would teach them a solid moral code #who else would teach them to grow up at the start but themselves? #(i mean finn had jake and marcy had her mom and simon but still like u get what i mean) #its even worse on bubblegum's side like sHE HAD NOBODY SO NO WONDER SHE VIEWS CANDY PEOPLE AS THE LITERAL SIMS #and it is only with the help of her friends does she learn to like kinda deconstruct her micromanagerial dictatorial ways so like- #i DUNNO THE PB TWITTER DISCOURSE IS ANNOYING ME KASI LIKE MOST OF THE CLIPS THEY SHIT ON #R OUT OF CONTEXT #But anyways i'll save my 'PB is one of adventure time's most morally questionable characters aND THATS THE POINT' essay for another day #adventure time #princess bubblegum #marceline abadeer #but then again i cant like really fully defend pb with a fucking powerpoint and everything cause i havent watched the entirety of AT yet #so ummm save the debates for another reblog my dudes 😭

[that-disabled-princess]

I don't want a storybook ending. I don't want a white picket fence life. No partner. No friends except that one friend I text occasionally. Just me, alone in a sunny apartment with a balcony, gauzy white curtains, a dog, some plants, and my arts.

#literally the dream #this is all i want #movie/book/show endings always fill me with despair #i dunno #it's just not for me #i prefer when love doesn't save the day and people die and it's tragic #like in bbc merlin #i mean i got a bit icked out by how much emphasis was put on love in the show but i like that in the end it didn't save the day #my favorite endings are the ones where there's no need for a storybook ending #like yes you actually DON'T need a partner/friends/family/etc to be happy! #you can live your life how you want #fuck storybook endings #gimme a dog #actually aromantic #aromantic #aplatonic

[basofy]

hmmmm i guess i can let these out in the wild now

these are doodles i did the next day i watched that convo, while still having a bad stomachache, so they're more like vent art

idk if im the only one that took this thing extremely seriously, but it made me sad and it keeps making me sad the more i think about it

img that describes what the scene felt like to me

#my feelings on the matter are extremely conflicted #because im not really opposed to the themes that were explored #but i keep rejecting the conversation no matter what #wheter it's because of the execution or because this happened like 10 years later i dunno #it was such a strange thing to be surprised with #sometimes i dont know if it was made to be serious or not #my main conflict is how different it feels from how lisa tends to tackle these things #i was talking to a friend and they mentioned that it could be made to feel like a joke at first and then get rly dark #because thats how it feels when youre a kid in the position jack was in #i keep wishing there was more to that though #anything that showed that the game cares about jack after it #i think it was made as some sort of trap? to see who took it as a joke and who took it seriously maybe #but it keeps giving me a stomachache im rly bad with triggers haha #didnt expect my comfort game to put this right on my face and leaving it all up to me so im not having a lotta fun #my stuff #lisa rpg #this was my first fanart for the DE wtfff #still wish they got something extra that wasnt a pain to watch just becuz i like both charas #in fact i dont understand some of the choices in the conversations but there are some i liked a lot #i might probably still like garth out of nostalgia but it's random sometimes i like him sometimes im grossed out and so on #lisa garth #garth lisa the painful #jack lisa #if ya need this tagged tell meee #honestly this goes further than 'i hate garth now im gonna send him to the roulette' for me #i dont stop anyone from hating him my issue is with the scene in itself i think. i just wasnt expecting this #also be nice in the tags this thing makes me overthink so much lololol #everytime i make art for this thing i end up changing my mind like i dont feel the same way about the first doodle anymore #upd8 from 3 months later im more at peace with this thing MENTAL ILLNESS CURED YAYYYY #i just allow it to make me sad when it has to

[siflshonen]

The thing about watching Frieren is that instead of reflecting and thinking to myself about the folks in my life I took for granted until it was too late and aspiring to change, I realize that, unfortunately, I may have been taken for granted by a whole bunch of immature and self-centered moe elves.

#and I can’t believe I put up with them all my life #Frieren #soso no frieren #like ok certainly it’s an instance of give and take where sometimes I’ve taken people for granted too #but #I dunno the show just depresses me now #you don’t feel anything for her?! a friend asked me #and I had to be like #not really #I’m the most self centered person I know but that used to not be the case #oh well!!!! #that’s it for today’s tumblr confessional

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#tis i! tragic daughter one of three! #motherless at age 26 #the last wake was today and this was more fun than the 1st. more casual. my moms childhood friends were there #ans it was fun to catch up with my uncle and his side of the family #i feel so weird tho. bc ppl r asking how we r and like genuinely i feel fine most of the time #like my sister is like: i sacrificed so much for my mom and i saw her downslide into death #and im like yea i fucked off to [redacted state] and showed uo after the horrible part was over #and bc im finally on medication i really feel better than i have possibly ever. so its just weird #weird to br at my mother's wake and think: god ive wasted so much fucking time being miserable. i dont want to do that anymore #and i feel like thats an option now. i mean ill always be frustrated by the same things. the difficulty reading and focusing #and the lack of social ease. but it feels like less of a big deal now #i say that now before im entrenched in school again. but idk. its just weird #but idk i love my mom but there was distance there and i have weird insect brain which i think makes it hurt less #i dunno. maybr ill feel it more later. when im on my own again #its just that i never reached out to her. i didnt realy on her and she didnt reach out to me so now things won't change much #i dunno. well see #unrelated

[tratserenoyreve]

i've struggled to make any progress in elden ring and yet here i am bulldozing my way through new game+ on lies of p because i learned i forgot to check out the epilogue and am determined to get All of the Plot

#tratser talks about stuff #showed my friend what my build was partway thru the first run #i had spent half of the game slightly heavy #her response to me was ''how are you alive'' #dunno but i am winning!! i got [redacted] and [REDACTED] on the first go and with no heals left and a wish in my heart to Kill #lies of p #ridiculous premise but also fun

[the-music-maniac]

The Fanfic:

#my friends showed me MHA #and then as i do with all fandoms i got curious and went on AO3 #and i realize it's probably canonical that none of the characters are shabby in terms of looks #(i dunno man i saw like three episodes) #but something about bakugou just cracks me up #he's like 90% angry eyeballs #my hero academia #bakugou katsuki #if you wrote this fanfic btw i'm not dissing your writing my brain is just stupid #i will say i did see manga panels of bakugou later on and happiness looks good on him #so i get it #but also #angry eyeballs

[merevide]

thinking about killing eve again. thinking about eve. and her inhabitions and how she was so repressed and unfulfilled and her only true escape from that was her extensive research into female assassins and through that and getting fired and then rehired she meets villanelle and they basically bring out the worst in each other obvi but that’s also kinda their best selves because all villanelle wants is to be understood and that’s also what eve wants but she denies and denies and denies and she basically keeps denying everything until it’s too late and she’s left alone, again, screaming out in the water.

#like this shit is tragic IF ONLY IT WAS WELL WRITTEN. my god #i haven’t even rewatched this show ever since the last episode aired how do i have all of this just stored away in my brain #eve is such a wasted character because she’s literally so interesting #and then they just kinda fuck it up because they couldn’t really commit to her and her desires #which is also reflected in the show through her character bc she denies and denies and denies until it’s too late #too late being villanelle ending up dead and villanelle was basically the personification of all of eve’s dark desires #like villanelle kinda fucked up her life and killed her best friend and hurt so many of the people eve loved #and eve still was in her orbit because. BECAUSE!!!!! #i’m literally ranting right now and i don’t even know why #like i could go on and on but none of u wanna hear that #like eve is alone in a mental sense in the start and she’s alone in a literal sense in the end #like lol. this isn’t even talking about the romantic aspects of it either #don’t even hit me with that their obsession went deeper than romance sit they wanted to fuck each other let’s get real #i kinda need a reboot of killing eve but with good writing all the way through #i dunno. i dunno why i’m even talking about this #like i’m gonna be 80 and still babbling about killing eve and toxic yuri madness in the nursery home #this show wasted literal years of my life i’m never gonna get back…. #BLEGH. sick sick sick sick sick sick sick SICK #killing eve #my text