#acting like im not from ends

[shazleen]

today I am thinking about code switching and also wanting to gatekeep ones own class / race culture vs making my words accessible vs actually expressing my feelings the way i want to

Often because im speaking to people online who are not from the specific areas of london I am from I am like self censoring the way I respond and it’s sad !! But also it means I can be accessible AND sort of protect my local culture possibly

But also sometimes I just want to say you mans are making me crease 😭 cuz your jokers and i greatly appreciate everyone who comments on my comic 🙏🏽 thank u

#i tend to speak formally a lot to people because i work in higher education and im also very used to talking to friends and fam #where english isnt their native language ; so it’s better to speak in simple clear english #but fam im dying #i can only talk normally to like my sister and 2 friends #mans drowning out here acting like their fucking rich or whatever #acting like im not from ends #HOW MANY YEARS MUST I LIVE LIKE THIS #SOBBING IN MLE

[strangersteddierthings]

So it's like, Eddie comes back and now he's like really affectionate to Steve in a way he wasn't before. Except it's not Eddie, it's Kas trying to pretend to be Eddie. Kas doesn't have Eddie's memories, just echos of feelings towards people and apparently Eddie had Super Strong Feelings towards Steve. So strong Kas thinks "They must have been lovers. If I play in love with the man with the nailbat, they will surely Believe I Am Eddie and I can help Vecna defeat them from within" and that is NOT the case.

Queue shenanigans as everyone tries to figure what who the hell is in their friend's body while trying to pretend they don't suspect a thing. Because the sudden affection for Steve is just the piece that tips the scale, because there's been an awful lot of things not adding up since Eddie returned. Like Eddie eating veggies happily while Wayne stares at him, suspicious and confused, or when Will asked about DnD and 'Eddie' was like what the fuck is that and Will's like... Dungeons and Dragons? The others said you were just as obsessed as us with it?? and Kas!Eddie has to be like "*nervous laughter* hahaha I jest I love the Dungeons and the Dragons". Etc.

And then poor steve is left to deal with this affection he wanted so bad before but doesn't want now because he didn't want Eddie for his body (even if it is a really nice body) but he liked all the things about Eddie that no longer seem to exist. He's not loud, he's not outspoken and wild, he doesn't care for music anymore, didn't even know what dnd was! Everything that made Eddie Eddie is gone and Steve doesn't know how to feel about finally getting what he wanted (Eddie's affection) but it's not the Eddie Steve fell in love with. But Steve's supposed to be distracting the imposter while the others work out a plan.

#steddie #kas!eddie #what im sayin' is he fools no one but thinks hes infiltrated SO WELL #angst with a happy ending #like eddie is in there the whole time but shoved back and when El finally rips Kas from his head Eddie is like #holy shit it's me guys!! #and then steves like... so... kas said he loved me. Was... was that just him or do you... could we...? #and eddie tells him that kas never loved him‚ that was an act‚ but eddie DOES love him #and then they smooch

[baeshijima]

it's you

despite everything,

it's still you

#how long have i looped cure for u may ask? yes. #in despair how will i ever function from now on #there are so many thoughts... so many feelings... so many tears... oh ivantill... #cries i want their standees so bad... i want to put them on my shelf and act like everything is ok and well and dandy ;w;; #will i break and cave for chara x chara just to give them a happy ending? who knows.... im so tempted... #also listening to their ver. of my clematis again hit different and in the worst way possible :'D #ivantill #alien stage #alien stage round 6 #alnst #alnst round 6 #alnst ivan #alnst till #ivan #till

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[artsycooky13]

a box of random shoes

(*They're getting divorced to win a bet to pay for von's college fund)

#the entire towns people bet on connverse never not being a thing #so the shoes hear about it and connie's like- 'okay guys- im making a tactical decision to get free money' #and the shoes have to act divorced for like a day or smth #which- they both suck at lying about it #cuz it turns into some shmaltzy thing where they both realize they cant imagine a life apart from one another #its really funny i think #its crack taken seriously by the end #connverse #vonvon #my art #steven universe #connie maheswaran

[steakout-05]

apologies to my followers who don't watch Star Trek but i still cannot get over the way Data enters the bridge in episode 2 of TNG after having just boinked Tasha. look at him. the style. the lean. the confidence.

this is the fruitiest android i have ever seen!

#star trek #star trek data #data tng #so context: basically everyone on the u.s.s enterprise catches an infection from another ship that makes them act drunk #because they were investigating what happened to the crew after receiving a strange and concerning message from them #basically they were all dead from the ship's emergency latch getting borked because everyone was drunk and their judgement was impaired #so they ended up messing with the ship and got frozen to death #this spreads to the u.s.s enterprise through touch and when it gets to tasha she ends up finding data #and tasha's like ''hey bbg you're 'fully functional' right? wanna smash'' and data's like ''why yes of course i am fully functional #and yes i do want to partake in this 'smashing' activity'' #and then they bang #and the infection spreads to data (despite him being an android and not a human which implies the infection is quite strong) #because tasha touched him #and this is the way he waltzes into the bridge afterwards. keep in mind he is usually not this emotive like at all #he's so babygirl #you will likely only see dataposting for the next few weeks im so sorry #i love data so much you dont understand

[sacriou]

Autism is my superpower

#dragon quest 11 #dragon quest #dqxi #Erik #jade #Serena #luminary #Sylvia do #im so sooo sad I got to act three already and I’m so emotional like I don’t want the adventure to end…. #maybe I’ll just 100 it again that will take me a good bit #also context for the one comic I think the luminary went mute after coming back from Heliodor so I think he signs! #I want to draw him signing more #good drawing practice for hands

[blueskittlesart]

Feel free to ignore this but as someone who also goes to art school, I find it really interesting how other art schools also have a “don’t date your peers” sort of faux pa. Like so many people I know (including me) refuse to date anyone else who goes to my college 😭

I wonder why that is tbh, small school thing maybe?

being so serious i didn't have anything against dating other art school peers when i first came here and i think most freshmen dont but once you have one or two art school relationships under your belt you realize why all the upperclassmen avoid dating each other like the plague

#it sounds so good on the surface. like when am i ever going to find this many lesbians concentrated into one place at the same time #but unfortunately in order to go to art school you need to be 1. in your 20s and 2. have something wrong with you #also especially as you get into years 3-4 i think maintaining a relationship just becomes SO hard. bc we're all in the trenches #AND ALSO. from experience. this school is SO small that you CANNOT avoid your exes. if it ends badly fuck you you have 4 classes with her #anyway obviously this doesnt stop me from looking for. things. on tinder. i just dont swipe right on anyone i recognize from class #and it ALSO does not stop you from WANTING to date people in your classes. this tinder girl is nowhere near my first art school crush i jus #do not act on them anymore <3 lmfao #that being said tinder girl if youre reading this i didnt mean any of it baby you're so pretty and im so stable please dm me

[good-beansdraws]

Thinking of a fantasy au teamup.... ❄️🔥

#milgram #yuno kashiki #fuuta kajiyama #fire and ice pairs woooooo #i gave up on the bg sorry 😅 #i hope they do something visually with coldness in yunos t3 mv... #im so so crazy about fuuta acting like a leader but really just hungering for purpose #whether its amane or yuno or haruka i just love picturing him dedicating himself to them without realizing thats what hes doing #loyal bodyguard who thinks hes the one in charge sorta deal #i was told that yuno looked like the ice princess from sharkboy and lavagirl and Listen. thats a compliment. to me. #i may end up reworking that post afte deep cover but i think kotokos section is general enough for now #i still wanna do something with that au but just havent had the inspiration yet 🤔 #thinkin of them ;---;

[ty-bayonet-betteridge]

3l!grian is frequently depicted as a tragic figure and sometimes i wonder if we even watched the same series

#like yes he is tragic. every character in the series is tragic but i think hes easily the least tragic of the winners #(except maybe cleo. i have my own thoughts about how cleos victory plays into her core themes and why its not as joyous or triumphant as #cleo the players and the fandom at large make it seem that i will have to make a real post about at some point) #grian dies Laughing. he smiles and calls it a dual victory before the final fight. his last words are “its been amazing.” #to me Grians arc is about how he came in with this sense of mirth. had it ripled away by the reality when his joke gets Scar killed. #and then rediscovers it as he learns that the horror of their circumstances doesn't need to keep him from delight #plus also ive never seen a man more delighted to explode three of his friends #ill also bring up that Martyns lore has Grian involved in the games explicitly to COMBAT the angst #that Grians inherent silliness and joy makes the players less hopeless as they meet their endings #and theres obviously parts of martyns lore i can take or leave but this is one area where Eyes and Ears lines up very well with what actions #the characters take and so im happy to bring it up #unlike other parts such as “limlife pearl and cleo retained more trauma between seasons than any player has before” #which i do directly refute as it doesn't seem to line up with the way the characters act and the story plays out #thats for another post though #my point here is 3l grian was having the time of his life and i think there are some fanon interpretationd that disregard that #which theyre free to do im definitely someone who has ignored canon plenty of times in the past (glances at worm) #but i think this is the sort of thing that makes the canon more interesting and compelling #anyway. um. rambled longer than i meant to there #grian #trafficblr #3rd life #3rd life smp #3lsmp

[skitskatdacat63]

Fernando S1E5 - “Mission Accomplished”

#i think last ep was better for the more cinematic shots #this ep was definitely more focused on the racing itself as opposed to more personal stuff #which is very okay ofc!! dakar is so interesting but seriously scary as fuck #in this ep he flipped over in his car and was fine but even tho i know in the present hes fine it was still terrifying #in this ep he was either very focused or acting like a little gremlin overall very fernando LOL #god i love his eyes sm hes so expressive and cute #they did this montage at the end of the ep with all trhe stuff he did in 2019-2020 god what an impressive era #bro really took a break from f1 and excelled in practically everything #like watching this its so clear rally is just completely different from single-seater yet he got 13th????? my man! #i hope they do more seasons bcs this was such a cool view into his life and him as a person #im guessing netflix with their dts wouldnt be too happy with his camera crew being there sighhhhhh #cause god could you imagine?? thered be such good happy nando content AND SO MUCH UNDRAMATICIZED STROLLONSO #fernando alonso #fernando s1e5 #fa14 #formula one #formula 1 #f1 #dakar rally #we do a little bit of f1 #fernando(show)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

shoutout to space/alien movies for continuously fucking me up in the best ways

#finally got around to watching arrival #what! a! damn! good! movie!!! #was sniffling all through the ending... #im mad at myself for never watching it before #for depriving myself of an alien movie where the aliens... are Genuinely Good? #and it Ends Well? #with STELLAR time travel & concepts and oasudasfuaoa #thats my favorite stuff.... the movie checked All of my sci-fi boxes #👀aliens... great time travel... fascinating cinnamon topography... an even more fascinating plot... positive ending #like the sheer hope and euphoria pouring from the end. damn #i love movies that say 'We Are Good. And There Are Always Good People Striving To Make Things Better.' #'And Maybe We Are Not Alone In The Universe. And They're Good Too. They're Striving For Better Things Too.' #THATS CATNIP TO ME BABEY #HOPE AND LOVE AND HUMANITY BABEYYYY #rewatched interstellar for the first time since like middle school too The Other Day #quite simply! i sobbed! #sci-fi space/alien movies just hit different... #movies with expertly done time travel hit Different!!! and incredibly hard! #time travel as an act of love and hope... HOWLING AND WAILING #absolutely unprompted #on a similar vein i just finished my sw:rebels rewatch and season four #DEFINITELY fits the bill for this topic #not quite to the extent of interstellar & arrival but still... #man and im rewatching eeaao As I Type #and its already fucking me up! this movie is so good!! i know im going to feel better about existing after watching!! #MOVIES!!! MOVIES ARE SO GOOD!! I LOVE THEM!!

[randomshenaniganery]

Reasons why the Svanaclaw chapter wasn’t as good as it could have been

It all starts with Leona, not that his character is flimsy or bad but I don’t think the writer handled him properly. 

The plot seems patched up.

Leona proves in literally every chapter but his own that he’s really smart. He’s the first one to notice Grim eating the weird black shit is bad, he’s quick at thinking and able to do something good while still benefit from it (helping the dumbass group with azul, helping jack from being ganged up on and beat up etch). The only thing he lacks is motivation and that’s because he’s already half given up hope. 

He’s also very likely projecting Farena onto Malleus. Its not much about Malleus is soo much better than him he’s intimidating but that Malleus absolutely wrecking Svanaclaw singlehandedly every spelldrive competition despite how hard he works and how many times he tries reminds him of how utterly useless all his efforts to be king of sunset savana ends up.

No matter all his hard work, his ability and his smarts were he just didn’t win, he won’t become king.

Putting that aside Leona’s ‘plan’ in the 2nd chapter is very... juvenile. 

It doesn’t match up with the rest of his intelligence. 

If every dorm but svanaclaw had incidents with their players then obviously svanaclaw would be the biggest suspect and yet in the chapter every five seconds they’re like OHHH make sure there is NOoooooooooo evidence. 

Also if Malleus is the only reason Svanaclaw loses why are they taking out people from other dorms? Why didn’t they take out people from Diasmonia? Why not just directly target Malleus? I get that he’s really strong and it would be super hard but it just seems like a waste of time to attack players from literally every dorm but the dorm that is kicking everyone’s ass. 

Not only that but if u can’t beat him in spelldrive with your own crazy magic what makes u think a stampede will kill him? That and also Leona’s freak out was so iffy and awkward to me. He just seemed like an asshole especially with the choking his dorm mates and he didn’t even over blot yet. 

I think that the writer was lazy took very direct plot points from the lion king slapped it on and called it a day. 

If you wanted the story to be more memorable or believable try this, Leona seeing some kind of news article talking about what kind of king Farena is, Leona’s family urging him to talk more to them, everyone talking about how Malleus is going to win the tournament in a landslide with very little hope for everyone else, jack talking about how leona used to be so cool in spelldrive. 

You build up Leona’s stress to the point that he’ll start to think that that stupid plan i mentioned might just work because he’s gotten to the point of being desperate. If he might win the spelldrive competition against Malleus Draconia maybe he still has a shot at being king. maybe it isn’t hopeless after all. 

you know what’s better than making him overblot before the competition? making him overblot when Diasmonia wins even if he tried dirty tactics. 

because then ALL of his efforts fall down, his practices at spell drive, how smart he is, how strong he is, and even with him playing dirty. He still lost and that’s what will make him lose it.

This is more authentic and far more in-character than what we got in twisted wonderland.

because Leona is (as I said), really smart and I believe that he’ll only do something stupid if he’s desperate.

So make him desperate. 

so like ya know twisted wonderland writers why’d you do him so bad?

#twisted wonderland #disney twisted wonderland #leona kingscholar #twisted wonderland leona kingscholar #malleus draconia #svanaclaw #svanaclaw dorm #twisted wonderland svanaclaw #honestly he deserves better writing because of how secretive his character is #you wouldn't understand him unless you really think about it #at face value he acts like an asshole and he is BUT there's a reason for it #he has a lot of themes about doing something good but still in the end he manages to get something from it as well #can u tell that i love leona #like at first i was just so offended why would I like an asshole when there's a dragon to simp over? #but then i thought more about it and im like oh yeah this bitch i love him #sorry mal

[todayisafridaynight]

whatever og text i had in mind for this post about ko shibasaki looking like sayama in this movie is completely cancelled on account of utsumi (this character)'s first name being kaoru and i only found this out cause i was looking up her name just to be sure when making this post

like jesus christ i legally have to make this post now

#snap chats #they literally never say her first name in the movie. i think lol LIKE WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS JUST 'NO FUCKING WAY' #i do have to be tbh and say her face /is/ a little more round than sayama's #and its absolutely predominantly because of how her bangs and wardrobe are so close to sayama's that i think she look like her #BUT I CAAAANT THE WHOLE MOVIE I WAS JUST THINKIN ABOUT SAYAMA... i miss her... #OH RIGHT THE MOVIE THOUGH noooo fuck you this movie was so good it actually made me want to write a summary for it LMAOOO #LIKE I LIKE WRITING SUMMARIES BUT IVE JUST BEEN SO LAZY ABOUT IT WITH THE PAST FEW THINGS IVE SEEN BUT GOD. #ignore the fact i finished this movie two hours ago i was too busy fiddling with a card holder kit but. ill make a post about that next-- #THIS MOVIE THOUGH NOOOOO IT WAS SO GOOD //SCREAMS AND YELLS AND DESTROYS A SNOWGLOBE// #god the part where ishigami and yukawa are walking by the homeless and it just lingers on an empty spot.. LIKE I THOUGHT I WAS WACK #CAUSE I WAS LIKE 'hang on wasnt there a guy there last scene' and obviously there was since the shot lingered right #BUUUUTT WHEN IT WAS REVEALED DOWN THE LINE SHUT UPPP I LITERALLY YELLED IM SO GLAD. my roommates arent home.. #on god i thought the movie was gonna end with utsumi and fukawa's convo from the beginning #and i was gonna make a gaf about how fukawa was acting irrationally because he was too in love LMAOOO #BUT THEN IT KEPT GOING AND. im so glad it did. ishigami valid tbh #id also cover up and take blame for AND ACTUALLY commit murder for a girl if she said hi to me and made me lunch while i was trying to kms #while fukawa and ishigami were talkin that first night tho i just thought of after the rain.. lol... maybe the mangaka was inspo'd by that. #anyway. this movie was great. it reminded me of sherlock but if it was directed well and actually let you solve the mystery too #CAUSE WHILE I WAS WATCHING THERE WERE POINTS WHERE I TOO WAS JUST 'hang on' AND I JUST POCKETED THE INFO FOR LATER #i kicked and screamed when ishigami was talking abut how he formats his tests LIKE I SAID 'oh you fucking slipped' #when ishigami called and told her he had a white envelope in there bitch i knew it was gonna be the stalker letter i YELLED #LIKE I LIKE HOW THE MOVIE SETS THINGS UP SO ABUNDANTLY. IT'S FUN SEEING IT FIT IN THE MOVIE LATER ON #the twist of there being two bodies was so fun tho cause at the start of the movie i was sure two murders happened the same night #so when it was played off as just one i was like Oh. Ok. im still stumped on how he snuck a body out of the apartment #but yk what one detail is like. whatever in comparison to the rest of the movie being fun to watch #god im running out of tags POINT IS. PLEAAASE watch this movie if you got two hours #ive left some minor warnings on my Watchlist doc but there's nothing. TOO extreme ?? #i mean there's an aforementioned suicide attempt but aside from that it's nothing too grotesque. for an rgg fan ig #ok bye i have to ramble about the card holder i got <3

[ceruleantinted]

divorce era parallels at full force

i’m living in a nightmare…

#I usually parallel mr.fell with my dearest baby angel cas #in this case he was acting like our dense boy dean #and im not happy about it #divorce era #only ends in a big romantic bang so #im keeping my hopes up #dean fell down on his knees and prayed to cas ffs #oh OH maybe…. #nah #they are the dancing type so i’ll expect a dance from azi boy #good omens #good omens s2 #supernatural #destiel #ineffable husbands #or may i say #ineffable idiots #spn x good omens #aziraphale #crowley #castiel #dean winchester

[findafight]

Me, lying face down on the carpet: I don't know how many times I have to explain that people love characters like Steve Harrington and Zuko, is that they have done things that are bad. They have said things that are bad. Possibly reprehensible. Possibly violent.

But then. And this is THE fundamental aspect of them that you must understand, they realized they were wrong. They realized that what they did and who they were were not things they were proud of. Were not things they liked doing or wanted to continue doing. Were things that hurt people. They realized that they didn't want to be that person anymore.

And then they changed. They went and tried to apologize to those they wronged. They worked to fix what they had done or helped do. They made strides to be different from what they once were.

Zuko stood up to his father, he apologized to the Gang, admitted to them he and his people were wrong, and taught Aang Fire bending. He changed and he helped and he apologized.

Steve helped clean up graffiti, he went to Jonathan's house to apologize for the terrible things he said and their fight(and got dragged into monster fighting and saved Jonathan and Nancy's lives), he replaced the camera he broke.

They owned up to their mistakes and apologized and did their best to remedy them. The apology and the changed behaviour make these characters likeable. They have flaws that have glared but they have accepted those things, tried to do better than them.

I need you to understand that there are characters out there that do the same things but never apologize. When you question why someone likes character a but not character b, when character a has also done bad things, I need you to think about whether or not that character has apologized and since changed that behaviour and thus been sincere in their apology. That is why. No excuse or justification. Did the character apologize and change? Did the other not? There you go.

Me, sitting up with the imprint of the carpet on my face: Woah haha where'd that come from?

#steve harrington #zuko #atla #stranger things #meta #redemption #finda's rambles #listen im not trying to actually compare them im just saying people always question why the love for them #and its like ?? they changed?? #frustrated when ppl act as though other charscters who also did bad but never changed are more deserving of love because #because canon gives them abuse but it never has them apologize for the abusing they do #like realizing you are perpetuating the cycle of abuse and ending it and trying apologize or mend things is powerful #but do not act like your blorbo did that when they never did. they were abused. that is sad. they did terrible things. that is bad. #they never tried to change away from foing horrible things. that is also bad #just because!! a charscter is abused!! does not mean they are not culpable for their shitty actions!!! #zuko was abused and he did shitty things!! the fact he was abused isnt the reason he was redeemed #he was redeemed because he worked for it. he broke out of the mindset that caused him to be violent and cruel #he apologized directly to those he hurt most directly. and he changed #azula didnt do that!! yes she was abused and deserves compassion but she was also murderous and would have killed her brother! #she had not decided to break the cycle!! #Billy was abused. and then he abused his sister. he was violent. #he would have attacked and potentially killed a thirteen year old black boy for being friends with his sister. #at no point does he realize those actions are unacceptable. at no point does he apologize. at no point does he change #just because he was abused and abandoned does not mean he was not responsible.