#after 7 goddamn years

[malak-ballari]

I had to modify my art style to get through this, but I think I’ve got his color pallet down!

This is Barachiel, the first untainted angel to serve the clergy of Hell. He is the former chief guardian angel, representing lightning and minor blessings, and his presence is indicated by the scent of roses.

Barachiel — “blessings of God”

#digital art #myart #art #oc #angel #original character #original art #angelcore #doodle #sketch #digital illustration #barachiel #fallen angel #his color pallet is so warm #his character design is finally starting to come together #after 7 goddamn years

[embarrassinglastwords]

forever thinking about the way they’re literally obsessed with each other

stopping myself cause i could just keep adding to this

#sorry i just think about them constantly #they bicker and argue and fight #but goddamn are they dedicated to each other #after 7 years 4 of which they were apart #they are still partners #they still have that trust just like they did on day 1 #ship or not i’m tired of people who think they genuinely hate each other #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #soukouku #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #skk #skk brainrot #batpostingships

[sarucane]

Why was finding Stede's letter so important for Ed?

Real talk, I adore the season 2 finale and to me the rush is worth it to have a safe ending place. But this episode is so overpacked, and Ed goes through such an incredible character arc and I love it, so here goes my rant on why he burst into tears and screamed at the forest when he read Stede's letter.

Ed is all goddamn over the place in the first part of this episode, tossed about by his insecurity and baffled by what is safe and what is unsafe. He has a voiceover about how amazing being a fisherman is, then ends up regressing into childhood trauma when another father figure freaks out over dinner. Ed doesn't even choose to leave the fisherman fantasy: the fantasy gets shattered and he gets fired in a high-speed parallel of Stede trying to go home (return to a safe, simple life) and finding he doesn't belong there in S1E10. At least Ed does manage to not drown in self-hatred on the way out.

And then Ed returns to the pirate safe space, only to find that it's been invaded and taken over. And that his selfishness, the low self-esteem that distorted his view of reality and his relationship, may have had real consequences for someone he loves (another parallel with Stede, this time early season 2). Ed may have been off pretending to be a "dirty old fisherman" while Stede died.

What was safe is now unsafe. All Ed has left is himself--so he really looks at himself.

At the fact that the kraken is always there, no matter what clothes he wears or how deeply he tries to bury it. He can fight that and run from it, and end up losing everything. Or he can embrace it, and figure out what comes next. Be what he was made by his past, however dark that past was.

But Ed's past wasn't all darkness. Ed walks onto the beach and gets a letter from the past, and suddenly there is something safe again in his world. Something worth killing for.

Ed first started falling for Stede through the stories Stede built around himself, stories formed by boastful encounters with Izzy, muttered hallucinations, and trinkets decking his ship. Back then, Ed didn't believe he himself was a good person, didn't believe he could have friends. But Stede told him stories about friendship and treasure maps, and Ed took these to heart and told stories to match, and Ed found truth through the fiction.

Then Stede left, and those stories fell away for Ed. Ed embraced the story of the kraken, of Blackbeard. Instead of a story about love or survival, he wrote a story about an impossible bird, a raiding record, and a treacherous crew--and mourned a story about lost love.

But Stede kept writing stories. He poured himself into his letters, poured his heart into sustaining his connection to Ed in spite of all the obstacles.

Ed didn't believe in this story after Stede came back, even though he wanted to. He kept emotional distance from Stede, avoided risks, and bailed after two days. Because Ed didn't trust that their bond was solid, that their story was something that could survive Ed's darkness, insecurities, and damage. Didn't trust that what Stede said this time, he had truly thought about, and meant with all his heart.

Stede didn't get how insecure Ed was in all this, because Stede was just so sure of Ed, and of their love. Stede believed in his story with his whole soul, and Stede's stories have a way of creating reality--after all, the whole crew of the Revenge became "real boys." But he couldn't figure out how to communicate this to Ed, to let Ed believe it too.

And then, at a moment where his identity is fractured and re-forming, Ed finds this letter. And just like that, there's a solid ground of story beneath his feet.

Because there was, in fact, solid ground beneath his feet all along.

Ed's and Stede's relationship, like all relationships, is hard. But they formed a real bond of love in season 1, and like Mary Bonnet said, being in love is easy. Ed can trust it--like he did before, but for real this time.

Ed's figuring this out ruddy late. He and Stede didn't communicate these things to each other when they had the chance, and now the chance may have slipped away. So now, Ed yells his feelings at the world and runs off to try to find his person.

When Ed finds Stede again, he doesn't hold back anything. He doesn't hesitate to kill, and he doesn't hesitate to drop his sword when he reaches Stede. They're finally face to face, in every way. Finally balanced, and seeing each other clearly, and able to communicate.

And, for the first time since he and Stede reached each other this season--for the first time since his vision in the Gravy Basket really--Ed is utterly vulnerable.

And entirely safe.

#our flag means death #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd meta #ed teach #stede bonnet #blackbonnet #gentlebeard #arrrggggghhh every moment needed time to land it's like they were counting seconds in this ep #there's just too damn much it's as much as stede went through last year but 7 minutes less screentime #goddamn gorgeous tho #hey if someone sees this and can direct me to gifs that hit the still images i'll be eternally grateful gif searching makes me nuts #i gave up after half an hour on gif searches sorrry

[kazumist]

im gna be honest with u all thoma's installment is gonna be the less angsty one compared to everyone else in the shs universe LMFAOOOOO UHM

#( spam ) #and kaeya's installment is gna be the messiest one #bc all sort of shit happens there 😭 but oh well we'll see #thoma's smau: roommates 2 lovers + mutual pining + slow burn for like a good few chapters or so maybe + both are bad at feelings but ++ #++ nothing bad happens AND there wont be any major conflicts #childe's smau: peak hurt/comfort + one sided rivalry + hopeless romantic and idiot in love in one person (crazy) #kaeya's smau: MESSY. VERY MESSY + ex flings to lovers?? but even if u were supposed to be js a fling u both got way too attached???? + #+ and neither of you wanted to admit it not until like after 7 goddamn years how silly

[shayberri789]

Did anyone else break down at this parallel or is it just me?

(TRB ch 38 // TRK ch 55)

#HE MAKES ME SO SAD #BOY CAN YOU NOT SEE HOW MUCH THEY LOVE YOU #he feels like he doesnt have a right to lean on the others. doesnt have a right to complain. doesnt have a right to need love and support #and it took the others far to long to see through his president cell phone mask and realize hes a scared traumatised and deeply lonely child #who doesnt know how to ask for help #and they came for him. they came for him #they came. for him. #and he was SURPRISED #that makes me so goddamn sad #hes so used to being alone and independent that he was surprised that the people he would die for (will die for) would do the same for him #that they were never walkint away #they were just figuring out how to stand on their own two feet #and then they used those feet to walk beside him #something something gansey finally finishing his quest for Glendower - a quest hes done largely alone for 7 years - ol #only after he truely realizes hes not alone anymore #something something gansey died a lonely lonely boy and then dies again surrounded by friends. his family. FOR his family #he makes me so mentally ill #gansey my blorbo #gansey #richard campbell gansey iii #richard gansey #blue sargent #adam parrish #ronan lynch #bluesey #the raven cycle #the raven boys #the raven king #trc #shay posts

[akkivee]

the arb brand surprise for the 1️⃣🐴💉event was an unexploded bomb going off and helping ichiro’s senpai’s business out in the process, which truly is just ✨arb things✨ lol, but it reinforces the impact the war had on japan, as we see from jakurai’s homecoming conversation in the fpmtr➕ manga

#vee queued to fill the void #the arb chronicles #don’t go looking for this ‘screenshot’ in testimony now yall it doesn’t exist lol #there’s pretty strong evidence that hitoya and jakurai went to school in tokyo #and it’s kinda terrifying that the damage done reached the capital 😬 #arb isn’t canon lol but it does make you wonder HOW japan was impacted by wwiii if their capital did get bombed #like arb’s bomb was just outside of mt fuji lol it sounds to me there was some planning done in what damage their enemies wanted to inflict #and goddamn rereading that chapter HITOYAS COLLEGE WAS DAMAGED BY THE WAR???? #thank goodness he’s okay but i bet that fear drove sora’s bullies to admitting their crime to him after all these years #and ​i should reference the timeline for this particular train of thought but maybe this attack was what ‘killed’ yamada mama #like we don’t know when exactly the attack happened but hitoya’s 23 when jakurai comes back #so that would make ichiro 7 jiro 5 and saburo 3 and iirc the war ended when saburo was one……?? #but i DO remember the timeline makes sure to state that ‘armed conflict still continues’ #which is pretty poignant if you ask me lol #but again i should check the timeline on that lol (i cannot wait for the new one lol) #c: sensei #c: ichibro #c: samatoki sama #c: hitoya

[c-c-top]

seeing posts about joe biden continuously unwilling to fully withdraw support from israel right next to posts where liberals are bleating about how we need to keep voting for him anyway is making me want to [REDACTED]

#like they cant even bother to change the script after 7 years of this shit #its just gonna keep spiralling downwards from here and yall are just gonna reblog the same goddamn self righteous speeches

[daxite]

artfight actually fix your website for once challenge instant fail

#can they seriously just like #shut the doors on the site for a year after the event ends #actually hire some outside programmers who know what they're doing #and just entirely fucking rehaul the website #because it's so goddamn obvious the reason the site runs like shit is because of a horrible spaghetti-code base #no matter how much maintanence or server upgrades are done it runs into the same problems every year it's so blatantly a fundemental problem #with the code #it isn't 'oh we can't keep up with the traffic' this has been a problem for like 6 - 7 years they should absolutely know how to handle this #by now it's so frustrating #dax rambles

[transgenderfivepebbles]

the experience of feeling several years older and younger than you are at the same time in the worst way possible

#abyss shrieks #idk what this means #i feel like i never went past being 12 but i’m also already 20 but i’m actually neither and something’s just wrong with me #and i happened to get all the worst parts of both. like a helpless child living the life of a fearful young adult #i know being 14-17 years old is universally terrible but i’m not sure it’s supposed to be this bad #i feel like outdated software man. full of unpatched bugs and unoptimized operations #like a modern computer running windows 7 #so much more could be done with my hardware but for some reason the software hasn’t changed in years #normally wouldn’t be posting this kind of thing but goddamn i just feel awful rn #might try to get a vaguely reasonable amount of sleep after sending this out

[mybrainproblems]

the past week or so i've just kinda been like. spn fandom has quieted down after two years; i will air some of my less popular opinions... and then i'm finding that there are tiny wee pockets of ppl who will at least drop a like on a post about how Actually The Confession Isn't That Great

it's all felt very healing

#also 'perfect ally sam sucks actually' seems to have resonated with some folks #i was curious if i'd get some push back on the berenscrit but it looks like no! which is great bc i cannot imagine posting that last year! #i also feel like less of a freak for being a genuine dabb enjoyer nowadays #he has a complicated legacy by virtue of having worked on spn for 12 goddamn years and i do split his work into three eras when analyzing #which are dabb-loflin (s4-7). solo dabb (s8-10). showrunner dabb (s11-15) #yes i know dabb took over in s12 but you can feel the hand off happening over the course of s11 #truly tho s7 is a tire fire and idk if that was an issue with dabb-loflin or what but his writing improves a lot after they split

[pearl-kite]

already googling 'how to quit a job you just started' and it's all stuff about quitting like, corporate jobs and how to avoid being blacklisted, and it's like damn son I'm never putting this on my resume anyway, it's only been a fucking week

#kite rambles #feel very shitty but like #a barista job should NOT be causing me this kind of distress #CERTAINLY not for less than 11$ an hour #like this is close to the level of distress teaching was causing last october what the fuck is wrong with me #dad suggested a parts courier position maybe I'll go try to nab something like that #have a psych appointment tomorrow going to mention it I guess :/ #just feels weird #feels pathetic #I know it's not #I know that not everyone is capable of every job #but still it feels bad #honestly one of the biggest things is that I don't get breaks #how can any place honestly have people on their feet for 7+ hours without a goddamn break? #and no one has said anything about insurance either #it was in the employee handbook but no one has brought it up what's up with that #and that whole no pto until after 4 years is also still mindboggling #I should not have accepted the position at all it was pure desperation #I feel like I should be able to quit a desperation job without 2 weeks' notice maybe #I'm sorry I'm rambling so much lately I think it's the exhaustion #thank you for reading so much <3<3

[lizstiel]

I am literally sick thinking about them

#at what point do i feel normal about this i say #7+ years after first watching this stupid fuckin show #ive touched grass #ive read and watched other things #and STILL #((((it's the mental illness innit?)))) #maybe SO #but goddamn

[cool-person-yey]

I rarely get (physically) hurt in a way that like, actually bothers me. It's usually just some scratches and most of the time there isn't even blood, but for some godforsaken reason I always, always, ALWAYS MANAGE TO GER HURT MULTIPLE TIMES ON THE SAME FUCKING PLACE

#One time #a bee stung me. It hurt like hell and I went to talk to my mom #he was like “ oh yea pressing somethibg warm will ease the pain” #I was crying btw #so she warms up a spoon #but she didn't check the temperatures. it was too hot. it immediately burned and a bubble formed on my skin #then I fall down the stair like 20 minutes after that #and THEN I fought over something w my brother and he digs his nails into the same goddamn spot #the bubble burst ofc #and to top it all off #my dog bites my in that same place #i was 7 years old #this happened in the span of like. an hour and a half #sorry for the rant #I remembered this story when I fell facefirst into the sidewalk today

[chaossmagic]

will the forced steggy in endgame never not make me gag? in all likelihood, no

#personal #'i went into the ice in 45 right after i met the love of my life' NO YOU FUCKING DIDN'T STEVEN #she literally died of old age 7 years before this movie takes place #between that and that goddamn fucking compass that i wish i could reach through the screen and throw it into the ocean

[aturinfortheworse]

I read a fair number of recipes on the ten thousand interchangeable recipe blogs that exist, and often they say something like "This recipe is a family favourite!" or "This a crowd-pleaser" etc. and I roll my eyes a little bit every time because of course they are, it goes without saying! People like food! Nearly any special-occasion home-cooked meal is going to be popular.

But there is one recipe, one cake, that has recontextualised all those comments for me and now actually I think those bloggers might be wrong about what a family favourite is. It sure as hell isn't Interchangeable Chocolate Cake No. 7.

I'm telling you this because I need you to know the seriousness of the power I am going to bestow on you. And hey, maybe your friends and family have different preferences than mine do. Maybe you need to find another recipe to fill this role. But you must know that there's a recipe out there, and not even a particularly alluring one or a particularly difficult one, which people will bring up in unrelated conversations to you four years later.

If I so much as say the word cake, my family all turn to face me like a pack of hungry wolves. Even the ones that don't like food!! Health nuts and people who simply don't enjoy eating and people with no appetite and people I have no goddamn memory of ever having cooked for, all of them come up and say to me "Hey remember that cake-" I asked my brother and his girlfriend what foods they're looking forward to, when they return home after three years in Japan, and they say "You know that cake?"

It doesn't sound particularly appetizing. I only made it the first time because it was gluten free and I had a bunch of lemons. Please don't let the name inform your opinion here. This is a fairly fast and simple cake that requires no special equipment and people will literally never stop asking you for it.

It's not even my favourite cake! I'd rather have basque burnt cheesecake, which is harder and more expensive to make and consists almost entirely of fat and sugar but still manages to be a little savoury... But people want the weird corn one.

To be fair, this is the only cake that'll make me dip my fingers into boiling sugar without regret.

#ruin rambles #one of my friends brought me the ingredients for this unrequested #i haven't made this cake in four or five years #recipe #100

[antihcroes]

i might've done something impulsive and you can follow it if you want ...

#( ooc ) #(i am gonna write on here soon though i promise - stg) #(also most of you have known me for years and know her ... yes this is indeed my sunshine angel baby riley mills) #(yes after 7 years she got a fc change - ik it's wild but it was honestly time for a change for a number of reasons) #(and for those who don't know her - this is my sunshine angel baby riley mills) #(my number one baby girl fave muse my sweet baby light of my goddamn life) #(the BEST girl in the world sorry not sorry) #(i have poured my whole heart into this girl - my most developed muse by far - she means the world to me fr fr)