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ashmp3 · 28 days
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UMMMM ANAAAAAA… Nothing to see here not like i need this on my blog forever and ever like this a note you slipped and i cherish it so much i stick it into my journal. So yeah sorry for feeling a bit insane there are tears in my eyes yeah…. @wantbytaemin on all levels except physical i’m coming over with boni let me in .
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space-station-nursery · 4 months
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❄️⸝⸝ Welcome to Babi and bubby nursery!! ⸝⸝ 🌨️
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Babi's Name, age, pronouns┊・𓂃 Hi! im Finnegan, but prefer to go by Finn. Im 20 (21 on Jan 18th) and my pronouns are They/Them! Babi's timezone┊・𓂃 CST! (or central standard time) Bubby's Name, age, pronouns┊・𓂃 Hi im FD, im 21 and my pronouns are He/Him Bubby's timezone┊・𓂃 MST (or mountain standard time) Boundaries┊・𓂃 Please don't ask either of us to be your Little/cg, we are engaged and are not looking for romantic or platonic littles/cgs. Dms are open for anyone +16 or -26 (i had a bad past with older individuals on tumblr). Listen when we say "No!". If you would like to be moots/friends, please at least interact with our posts, its incredibly uncomfortable to have random txts from people asking to be friends that just followed 3 minutes before.
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🚂⸝⸝︰{Regression info} ・ ⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆
About Babi┊・𓂃 I am a flip leaning regressor, and regress to about age 0-4. I am a sleepy, but bubby when regressed! Sometimes i go nonverbal, but i use a pacifier almost all the time. There is a ton of trauma surrounding my regression and it was very hard to regress. Now, with the help of bubby there is hope! I can only regress for small periods of time, and it needs to be assisted but its a great start and i hope that when we live together it'll boost my regression more! About Bubby┊・𓂃 I am Finns CG, and I love my babi bear! I do everything I can to make sure they feel safe and comfy here when regressing, as well as when they aren't Views on sitters┊・𓂃 We do not see sitters as something either of us would want to be apart of unless it was us sitting for/being sat by someone we know very well. My current sitter is @sleeplessjunkie Who generally just regresses with me when bubby is gone while we play games !!!! We will either talk a lot or not at all, and thats ok bc talk is hard! (we're also both autistic)
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🦌⸝⸝︰{Our DNI's} ・ ⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆
What is a DNI? These are "Do not interact" boundaries, this means that if your blog meets any of these criteria you may be blocked\banned\removed from a persons socials. Below are my DNI's so make sure to read them!
・Are anti-agere/agedre(or petre/petdre), an NSFW blog/"SFW" kink blogs like Dd!g/abd!/md!b and other variants. Are an 18+ only blog, Terf, etc. Anything that you would not show a child does not belong here ・Bigoted individuals or peoples that believe in Anti-LGBTQIA+, Pro-ana, Pro-SH, Anti-recovery, MIKs or MAPs, Extreme left/right views, Pro-life, Pro-war, transmed, Pro-mia, Anti-Neos/Xenos. ・Over the age of 27. While you could be a regression blog, and completely SFW, individuals over the age of 27 can become a trigger due to my PTSD. Minors are always welcome, although we will most likely not follow back ・Are a blank blog. This means no banner, profile pictures, posts or names. Blogs like those tend to become a problem and we dont wish to deal with it
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Babi likes┊・𓂃 Bubby, jay, baking and cooking, playing games, reading (by myself and with bubby) making decor stuff and making custom things! Blues clues !!! if you see a blues clues ask from an anon, its probably me. Babi dislikes┊・𓂃 Bugs, bugsbugsbugs. Being confronted(confrontation), purposely being misgendered, having my boundaries disrespected, bubby or jay being purposely misgendered, uh-…. i think thats it lol Bubby likes┊・𓂃 BABI BEAR, our friends, gaming, cars, anything that has moving parts, reading and watching crime stuff, watching movies and playing games with babi and our friends, and really love the flash as well! Bubby dislikes┊・𓂃 I dont like icky people coming to talk to babi and i (i dont really like talking to people in general), People misgendering babi or my friends or being rude towards them, and i dont like when people disrespect my boundaries I also dont like the idea of sitters because so many people in the community that we have encountered have bad intentions, but there's nothing else i can think of rn
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┊Schedule・𓂃
✩⸜⸜ Mood/Stimboards ✩⸜⸜ Text post (tips, links, etc) hosted by babi or bubby! ✩⸜⸜ Wear or tear! (W.O.T) ✩⸜⸜ Worksheets ✩⸜⸜ Journal // QOTD hosted by bubby ! ✩⸜⸜ Pos quotes/affirmations
These have no specific Dates, they will be posted as we see fit! Each post will be sent between 12pm and 1pm (don't know when that is? find my timezone above)
┊Anons・𓂃
✨, (☀🐝), 🩷 Send us an ask to claim an emoji and show up here! <3
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Carrd:┊・𓂃 TBD
Pronouns page:┊・𓂃 finns page here!
Instagram:┊・𓂃 Agere insta!
Twitch:┊・𓂃 Finn's twitch! || Bubs twitch!
Snowflake Nursery Discord:┊・𓂃 Nursery!
Dino Lovers Discord:┊・𓂃 Dinos!
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thehighladywrites · 3 months
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⌞ Hi, guyss! Please read this byf! ⌝
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rules .ᐟ
∿ if u don’t wanna see nsfw works, do not interact with me or my content. This is a nsfw blog and will have 18+ posts. All nsfw will be marked with a warning before
∿ if you’re gonna hate on anon, I will delete your ask immediately bc we don’t entertain losers over here :)
∿ do not, for the love of god, rush me. Please, I am a full time student and I do this as a hobby. I also work and have other things outside of tumblr. There have been some anons that rush/are straight up rude about an ask. If you’re curious and are nice, I’ll answer you ofc💗
∿ You are more than welcome to hit me up and talk about anything really, I just will not respond to gossip, trash talking etc.
∿ do not copy or repost my work elsewhere.
∿ If my reqs are closed, please do not send anything in because I’m already busy with other reqs. My inbox will be open when I’m done. But feel free to send in thirsts and links for characters👀
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what i write/ don’t write .ᐟ
∿ I don’t write: incest, scat, anything regarding pro ana/pro ed, vore, piss, heavy degradation, age play, super heavy angst with no fluffy ending, r*pe/SA, anything dead dove related basically, oh and also not for canonically evil characters like erawan, the autumn king, maeve, king of hybern, mahito’s ugly ass etc.
∿ I do write: fluff, smut, angst, some dark content such as: stalking, kidnapping, manipulation but nothing too graphic and deep.
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keep in mind .ᐟ
∿ If you think I’m ignoring your request, I promise you I’m not. I just need time to come up with a plot and then write it down and all that. It may take time, but I get it done :) also, i won’t be able to write every single req bc i sometimes don’t feel it would be written nicely by me.
∿ If i’m writing my fics, I usually write for fem reader and it will always be tagged and stated. I’m more comfortable this way and it’s easier for me. My smau’s/hc’s will generally be gender neutral unless stated otherwise
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freedomfireflies · 8 months
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hiya my lovelyyy! I just wanted to say about the anorexia ask, I think it's such a lovely idea and I really will enjoy reading bc Ur gonna be so fab writing it. But I just wanted to say, as someone diagnosed with ana, it is a really lonely disorder and alot of the time I see anorexia sort of glamorized and romanticised, and can almost trigger people to yern for ana to feel that sort of comfort, which is completely no one's fault, but I see alot of anorexia tags in fanfic and it just makes me quite aware of how that has become almost a trope, and although not the case all the time, it still happens :( I know the anon didn't romanticise it in any way!!(Sending love to the anon💚)
However I do think it needs to be discussed more and the horrors need to be shown and also like this blog is such an amazing space, like I get how fanfic can make us all feel so much more safe and loved, so it could defo make people feel less alone?
I just wanted to inform u with my views on it and experiences to anyone who reads it, YOU ARE ALL SO SO INCREDIBLE AND HAVING ANA REALLY SUCKS BALLS so please look after yourselves and reach out for support 💚💚 sending so much love to everyone on here.
And I love you firefly and anon! Xxx
Sorry for how badly this is worded and this is all meant with so much love
No, these are all amazing points, you're so right!!!
It's a very delicate subject and it's one that needs to be handled with the utmost care!! I would never want to misspeak or provide the wrong type of information!!! Nor would I want to glamorize it! And I would never want to make the story or my page feel unsafe for those that might see it!!
I so appreciate you for this!! I would love to hear all of your views and thoughts if you ever want to share them with me further!
AND YES!!! I'm so proud of everyone, truly, for continuing to fight the long, hard battles outside of Tumblr (or even within Tumblr) so bravely and beautifully! You are all such inspirations and I feel very blessed to get to be in your corner💞💞
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mchiti · 1 year
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hi, i'm the anon which said that it seems people don't follow him anymore like they used to. I know he plays less now but I miss it when around January and February there was a lot of content about him and Morocco but now if you go to the tags it's blank. I'm Moroccan and even if I don't post anything on tumblr I always read everything you post and I hope no one forgets about the World Cup it was special 😢
aw dear anon. first of all please forgive me for the late reply; these are busy times but I appreciate and I always answer eventually!!! Second, I was joking with my dear friend @swaggypsyduck who's also moroccan (follow her too if u don't already) on the fact apparently that are people out there who complain about too much content lol! and I remembered I wanted to take time to answer you properly.
turned out too long so:
I think we're all in need of representation and to connect to each other isn't it? I'm sorry if you worry about it! I think it's inevitable at some point you know? Like with everything, really. The world cup is something that sparks the interest of many but the effects might not be long-lasting. And I mean I love that non-moroccans are into the national team, is exciting because who ever paid attention to us before??? But I also understand that at some point that interest might not be there anymore for some non-moroccans which is inevitable and totally fine.
I've been in and out on tumblr for the past 10 years with different blogs and different interests but this is literally the first time I'm active first, and that I'm posting about football which is like, the only constant thing in my life. Hakim is as constant as a northern star, to quote an old song, my interests can come and go but not football and not him. But I've never thought of tumblr as a place for that? facebook, instagram, but on tumblr there were only a very small bunch of people from the ajax days who would post about him. He's not like, mbappé neymar or messi level of popularity you know. And probably not like others as well. A post about him is not going to get more than like, 100 notes at best. And it's fine. I think this national team should be for moroccans first and foremost. I mean it that I love to see my non-moroccans moots love it, really makes my heart full, but ultimately it's also important we - as moroccans - connect. And I love football for that.
anyways not worries darling, chi bas makayn w ana dima m3ak f hadi. I'm here! Sometimes I get a bit lonely too on here bc again it does feel like a small world compared to the way others connect and I don't have a lot of mutuals myself. Sometimes hadchi taykhle3 ngl. But come talk to me, anon or also off anon if you want. ♡
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daffodi1 · 3 years
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Editing this pinned post bc it sucks lol
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Please read this post and like it if you follow so I know you read it!
You will get blocked on sight if I find out that you:
meet usual DNI criteria
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are conservative (catholic tumblr, tr*dwives, etc)
are pro-pedophilia (MAPs, support pedophilic ships and/or CSEM)
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are a minor and interact with suggestive posts that I post or rb. I don't always tag these bc sometimes it slips my mind, so please use your better judgment. When in doubt, don't interact.
I don't really actively post about my interests all that much since they're always shifting and most of the stuff I like isn't big on tumblr; my current big interests are Camp Here and There and Case Study of Vanitas. HMU if you ever wanna talk about Witch's Heart though, I also never shut up about that one.
I hardblock and hardblock without mercy; this isn't me trying to be cruel, but there are things here I don't want to see. I've blocked people just for being rude and/or disagreeing on petty shit. It has nothing to do with you, but I'm stressed out enough and don't need more of that in my life, even strangers being "playfully" rude.
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I've received a lot of anonymous hate, rude messages, and other messages that make me uncomfortable, so anon is off and will remain off until further notice.
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So, I sent you (@disgruntledspacedad) a pretty long ask a while ago (back when you had anon on) and I'm decently sure Tumblr ate it (or maybe you ignored it, in which case, feel free to ignore this one as well). But then I saw one of those "writers appreciate feedback no matter how long" posts, so I'm back here. Here is my mediocre attempt to rewrite my original review of your work. Bear in mind that English is not my first language, so if at any point my phrasing sounds weird to you, you know why. Mandatory disclaimer/apology: this might get a little too long 😅
RULES OF ENGAGEMENT
I remember being SO mad at myself for not finding this sooner. I binge read it one afternoon with no thoughts for any real life responsibilities I might have had (and no regrets). Javiears is one hell of an unconventional relationship in the beginning, and I really love what you did with them. The whole premise of your story is quite refreshing, and you somehow manage to convey the trust and mutual respect there two feel for one another without explicitly showing us the beginning of their "entanglement".
Also, fuck you for what you did to poor Emilio, that man was a saint and he deserved better! I honestly can't believe that I got so attached to a character that appeared so little in the story, but it happened, and his death kind of broke my heart.
But the Javiears reunion + mild confession was lovely, and felt completely deserved. And of course the sex scene. I won't lie, I expected a bit better from Javi there, but I did like how utterly /human/ it was. Capturing that humanity, the imperfections in each character is something you're really good at (more on that later).
AFTERSHOCKS
Ah, my emotionally constipated babies who really need to work out their communication issues. I do love them, though. And this short series did a really good job of delving a bit deeper into Ears's and Javi's psyche. Kudos to you for dealing with the medical "aftershocks" of living through an explosion AND using that experience to move your emotional plot forward. These two need to grow a lot before they can get to a stable point in their relationship, and you really manage to convey their insecurity and fear of commitment/intimacy while making it clear that they're in it for the long run and that theirs is a relationship that WILL work out so help them God.
IF I FALL
Ouch. Punch me in the gut while you're at it, why don't you?
But seriously, "If I Fall" is SO FUCKING GOOD. Don't get me wrong, it's angstier than an image of Jesus on the cross (don't judge me, it's Holy Week and I just got home from accompanying my grandma to church), but it somehow works beautifully. You, my dear, play heartstrings like they're a fucking guitar and I AM HERE FOR IT.
You're doing an amazing job at making me feel everything these characters are feeling, which is both awful (bc pain) and impressive.
Also, if anything happens to Ana I will cry, because she is adorable and wonderful and has suffered way too much already and really deserves a break and some cookies.
Also also, if anything happens to Ears I will cry, because she is badass and wonderful and has suffered way too much already and really deserves a break and some cookies.
Also also also, if anything happens to Javi I will cry, because he is loving and wonderful and has suffered way too much already and really deserves a break and some cookies.
Basically, I am really invested in the well-being of these characters and can't wait until they're happy and safe again (please tell me they will be, my heart can't handle much more pain).
A quick note on the angst complaints: yes, this story is way angstier than most other fics out there and it can be a bit too much at times, especially considering how many chapters of pain it's been. BUT it's obvious that "If I Fall" NEEDS this amount of angst to get where it's going, to send the message it wants to and to properly develop its characters. The pain is as important to this story as flour is to bread. You may not like eating flour on its own (I don't think anyone does), but you love bread (because bread is amazing) and you must recognize that bread NEEDS flour to work. It wouldn't be bread otherwise. And eating the flour as part of the bread even makes you like the flour because the bread is just DELICIOUS.
I fully understand and sympathize with the people who have elected to table "If I Fall" until it's completed so they can binge read it knowing there's a happy ending in sight, but in case you're feeling a bit self conscious about all the angst, please know that your story is beautiful not in spite of the pain, but rather /because of it/.
PS: No, I'm not high/drunk, I just really like bread
AUTHOR'S NOTES
Silly thing to comment on, I know, but I do feel like it's important that you know how useful your ANs have been. There are many details in the story that I simply wouldn't fully get without reading your comments at the end of each chapter, and I appreciate your writing a hell of a lot more knowing how deeply you understand and care for each one of your characters. Plus, it is obvious how much work you've put into researching a country and a time period that are (from what I gather) unfamiliar to you, and I really do believe you've done an amazing job of it.
JAVIER PEÑA
My boy. I love your characterization of this complicated character, and I have eagerly read each and every one of your headcanons about him. I can't really say if your version is fully faithful to the source material because it's been a while since I saw Narcos, but your Javi most definitely reads like a real person. He's fairly consistent as a character, and I feel like everything he does is perfectly natural for him to do as a character. He makes for an unconventional yet deeply interesting romantic lead, and so far I have thoroughly enjoyed all his POV chapters/scenes.
OCs
I know you've gotten some flack for making her into an OC halfway into the story, and while I get why the sudden change may have felt like a disappointment for some, I don't share that sentiment. I firmly believe that this fandom is unfairly harsh towards Original Characters and their creators, and I don't really understand why. Listen, I love Reader fics, and consume many Reader fics. I have read dozens, maybe even hundreds, and I can safely say that I've only ever "inserted" myself in approximately 10% of those stories. Reader characters are not as blank as their writers may want them to be. They can't be. They're characters, and character have personalities and moral values and senses of humor and a bunch of other things. Reader characters may not have a backstory or a physical description attached (and even that's not guaranteed), but they're still characters.
And on a more personal note, pretending they're actual blank slates is naive at best and insensitive at worst. Reader characters are American coded 99% of the time, and white coded 95% of the time. Not every readers is white nor American, even if that's the predominant demographic on Tumblr. When I read a JavixReader fic about a woman who speaks exactly zero Spanish, I know she's not me. The story may be beautifully written and have an amazing plot and character development, but the Reader *isn't me*. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, and some of my favorite xReader stories feature a "reader" who couldn't be more different from me, but it's something that enemies of OC fics should take into account. Particularly if they are white and/or American. But I digress.
HANNAH AARONS
Your character is amazing. She's strong, smart, confident, independent and an all-around badass. She gets kidnapped while pregnant and still focuses on problem solving and survival. But she's also overly guarded and mistrustful, and really needs to work on her communication skills. There are times when I absolutely love her and even admire her, and other times when I want to whack her with a slipper. She's no Mary Sue, but remains interesting and likeable throughout the story. She feels wholly human and real, and that's no easy task. I like her, I am invested in her, and I can't wait to see what's next for her. She's a compelling and three dimensional protagonist in a complex story who never fails to draw me in. I love her. She's your baby, and you should be proud of her.
Also, quick question about personality types: I know you've typed Javi as ESFP and Ears as ENTP (100% agree on both, btw), but have you given any thought to their enneagram types? I personally have always seen Ears as being somewhere on the thinking triad, maybe a 7 or even a 6w7, but I'm not too sure about Javi. 9w8 maybe? He could also be a 6w5 🤔
PARTING THOUGHTS
Basically, I love your story, your characters and your writing in general. You are a fantastic storyteller and wordsmith. You get into the heads of incredibly different characters personality-wise (Ears, Javi, Berna...) and manage to capture all of their complexities and quirks every single time. And it doesn't feel like it's something innate for you either. To me, it seems that you have put a lot of work and effort into understanding each and every one of your characters, who they are, why they do what they do and what they want. And let me tell you, all that effort has been more than worth it. "Better Love" is a fanfic, but it wouldn't be out of place in a regular bookstore, if I'm honest. I don't know what you do for a living or if you've ever considered writing professionally, but you clearly have the skills and the drive to create some masterpieces.
You are amazing and your writing is a gift. Thank you for sharing it with us, and have a nice day! ~ 🍪
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My friend, I apologize for hoarding your first ask. I’ve been sitting on it because I’m not gonna lie, I enjoy going back and rereading it. It gave me a lot of comfort when I was in a pretty dark place, both personally and in regards to my writing, and I was reluctant to send it out into the the abyss of Tumblr where I might never see it again. 
That’s not fair, though. You put just as much effort into sending me that review as I put into my writing, and I apologize for never responding to you.
Okay, anyway, so twice now, you’ve made me cry. In a good way, I promise! 
I absolutely love your bread/flour metaphor. It made perfect sense. I want the emotional release of Javi and Hannah’s reunion to be earned, and in order to do that, the angst has to come first (there are also a few plot “ingredients” that have yet to make their appearances). Thank you very much for understanding that, and for voicing it so eloquently.
I appreciate your comments on my research and characterization. You’re correct that I’ve put a lot of time and effort into crafting a universe. In a lot of ways, I’m doing my best to stay true to the source material (regarding culture and timelines in particular), and in others, I’m branching into my own territory. 
On that note, I’ve never once regretted fully embracing Hannah Aarons’ identity as an OC. She’s stayed consistent in my mind from the beginning, and it was a relief to finally share my vision of her with the audience. And for the record, I totally agree with you regarding “reader” characters. Every reader insert echoes the perspective of their author, no matter how vague the physical description. I can only imagine how grating that must be from the perspective of a non-white, non-american reader. Thank you so much for sharing your insight! I will certainly keep it in mind the next time I write a “reader insert” fic.
Okay, enneagrams! I am much less familiar with enneagram than I am MBTI, but I agree 110% that Javi is a 9 with a strong 8 wing. I waffled back and forth on Ears a little, but eventually landed on 8w7 for her. It came down to the eight’s deepest fear, which is being controlled. That’s Ears all over, and the fact that she and Javi share that eight willfulness means that they might butt heads a little, which also seems very appropriate for them. Big thanks to @remusstark for her insight into the eight frame of mind - our conversations helped solidify my decision on this. :)
Anyway, I’m just rambling now. The big take-away point that I want you to get is that I am so, so grateful to you, both for your insightful feedback and your dedication in making sure that I actually saw it. You are an absolute gem and a deep thinker, Cookie-Anon, and if you ever feel like sliding into my DM’s, I’d welcome the opportunity to get to know you better.
Mad love and soft hugs, 
~ Jay
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candied-peach · 4 years
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ao3: “the mirror is a lie” rating: T warnings: food, eating disorders, self harm, self hatred, sympathetic deceit, analoceit genre: hurt/comfort description: Logan has an eating disorder. (for anon prompt:  "Okay so: analoceit with V or Lo (you pick which) who struggles with an ed(specifically ana). problem is no one knows because they've never "followed though" with it because they fight it all the time(bonus if fighting it is 'easier' bc they fight s/h / suididal thoughts anyway) so they have to barely keep together everytime someone mentions their weight bc they're 'chubby' (no unsymp anyone please) and they get soft affection and comfort from the boyfs sorry if this doesn't make sense") (song lyrics are from “empty” by boyinaband and jaiden)
Mirror mirror on the wall, yeah Tunnel vision on the flaws In the scale of things it's unimportant So no talking, but it's still an intrusive thought
It isn't logical. He knows that. He knows his routine isn't very logical, either. It's fine when he wakes up and brushes his teeth (for precisely two minutes, and he always uses the same amount of spearmint-flavored toothpaste on the medium-firm bristles). Dressing doesn't take long- it isn't like he's some kind of fashion icon. The most complicated step is fixing his tie, and at this point, he could probably do it in his sleep. The next step the others know about is breakfast and he will get there, but before that step, Logan has a secret one.
And it's one he knows isn't very rational at all.
He stands in front of the mirror in his attached bathroom. It's a full-sized mirror, lingering on all his flaws in painful detail. He lifts up his shirt, exploring the contours of his pudgy stomach with ruthless fingers, squeezing and pinching until he frowns at the sting. He welcomes it, too, though, because if he were better at this, he would have nothing to grab. Don't eat thumps in tune with his heartbeat as he tucks his shirt back in and runs a comb through his hair. That thought's not logical, either. He needs to eat. Well, he doesn't technically need to- none of the sides need to eat, they aren't real that way- but they perform better if they do. It helps Thomas when they eat and how can Logan deny that?
"Chocolate chip waffles!" Patton chirps in response to Roman's inquiry as Logan makes his way downstairs, heading straight for the coffee pot. He has to get there first, or Patton will serve him sugar and cream just the way he likes it and he knows he only deserves it black.
Staring down at a plate filled with three waffles, Logan feels sick. He doesn't want to eat any of it. Even breathing the aromatic air above it feels laden with empty calories. He takes a deep breath in through his nose, pretending he doesn't see Virgil's and Janus's concerned looks, to either side of him. He cuts off a piece of waffle with his fork and raises it to his lips, chewing automatically. It feels like he's eating chocolate-scented couch stuffing.
"Are you all right?" Janus asks him, softly, under the clamor of the others. Logan tightly nods, but he knows that it's not reassuring. He wouldn't believe it either. Today was supposed to be a good day.
Been getting even worse All the days begin to merge, yeah Just a blurry haze and now it's Almost second nature to ignore the urges
It gets worse that night. Dinner is shrimp alfredo pasta, heavy and cloying. Logan feels his throat narrow to a pinhole as he attempts to shovel it down. He wishes he could blame the sensation on a shellfish allergy. He knows it's not.
The others choose a movie to watch. He isn't sure what it is. Some Disney movie, naturally. With Roman around, it's hard to choose anything else, although technically, they all get an opportunity to pick a movie throughout the week. Logan's choices are rarely approved of by more than Janus and Virgil (and occasionally Remus, oddly enough).
"Can I sit by you, Lo?" Patton asks. "You make the best pillow!" He doesn't mean anything by it, Logan tries to convince himself, static roaring in his ears. Don't be irrational. It's a simple question, Logan, it only requires a simple answer.
"Of course, Pat," he croaks out, through dry lips. "I'll be right back." He walks up the stairs- walks, but doesn't run- and he doesn't notice the glance his boyfriends exchange, nor the similar string of excuses made as they trail behind him.
When he reaches his room and the door is safely tucked shut, he collapses by the foot of his bed, doubling in on himself and cursing every inch of his disturbing fat, squishy body. He doesn't have to be this way. He shouldn't be this way. He wouldn't be this way if he wasn't such a coward. He drives his fists into the tops of his thighs as hard as he can, relishing the pain. He doesn't hear the door behind him open, or the twin intakes of breath seeing him disheveled on the floor, muttering self-hatred into his lap.
I can reach out To someone not like me I can help my mind learn to trust my body
"Lo-" and Virgil is there, softly coaxing him back into purple-clad arms, and Janus is facing him, concern bright in mismatched eyes, and then it all blurs in a wash of kaleidoscope colors, and Logan realizes he's crying.
"I just-" He stops, hiccuping and hating himself for it.
"Take your time," Janus quietly encourages. "No one here is judging you, Logan. No one is pressuring you. Take as long as you need."
"I hate myself," Logan blurts out. "I'm sorry, I know it's not logical, but I-" He stops again. Virgil rubs slow, soothing circles on the tops of his hands, steadying him. He can feel Virgil's breath stirring his hair.
"I hate myself," he repeats, starting anew. "I hate my body. It's disgusting. It's too fat. It's wrong. I should look more like Thomas and I don't. I- I like Crofters too much and I hate it and I wish that Thomas had never found that jam brand in the first place because maybe that was the start of my downward spiral and maybe I wouldn't be this way if it wasn't for Crofters." He shakes his head, staring at the floor.
"We love you," Janus says. "No matter what you look like, Lo. We love you. I could stay here a thousand years and never run out of things to say about how much I admire you and your body. But I know that self-hatred and body dysmorphia aren't so easily shaken." He looks down at ungloved hands and Logan can see the spattering of scales there.
"I love you and I love your body," Virgil chimes in. "And whatever we can do to help, we want to."
"You- you do?" Logan stammers in surprise. Janus scoots closer, taking one of Logan's hands.
"Of course we do," Janus says. "You're our boyfriend. We might not have taken wedding vows but I, for one, still apply that whole 'sickness and in health' thing."
"Even if it takes months? Or- or years?" Logan asks.
"Even if it takes eternity," Virgil says. "You're worth it, Logan."
The world goes out of focus again, thanks to another steady wash of tears, but Logan can't bring himself to care.
"Do you want to go back to the movie?" Janus asks, a long while later. Logan nestles himself deeper in Virgil's arms.
"If it's with you two, I'll go anywhere," he says. "Thank you."
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fatphobiabusters · 7 years
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I have a dumb question its more like asking for you to tell me I'm ok. I feel like I'm inherently fatphobic bc I have an eating disorder. Like bc of it that automatically makes me fatphobic? I don't hate fat people and my eating disorder only affects me. It makes me feel bad but other people all look good to me I just don't like how I look. But I feel like it's bad to say I want to be skinny but I can't help my mental illness? Any advice to overcome this problem? and I keep seeing pro Ana blog:(
Hello anon, 
You are ok. I believe you are a victim of our fatphobic society yourself, and we are on your side.
Please don’t worry about us right now, you need to work on recovery. 
We all are fatphobic to various degrees, we live in a fatphobic society. It’s in the air we breathe and the water we drink. We can’t avoid it. I still have fatphobic thoughts sometimes, I just have learned to spot them and squash them before they can affect my behavior or mood. It’s a skill that takes time to develop.  I doubt I’ll ever be free of them entirely.  
But right now, you need to work on getting better. Anorexia is a life threatening mental illness, and fighting that should be your priority right now. 
You are aware of fatphobia, and it sounds like you’re doing your best to not hurt other people. When you recover, there will be time to work on unlearning any remaining fatphobia, ok?
Please take care of yourself as best you can right now. If you need to talk to us about it, or want any resources, please just send in another ask. 
A reminder: please don’t use d*mb in our asks, it is an ableist slur.
-Mod Siarl
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tbhstudying1 · 6 years
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hi seo!! i kno this ain't a gaming blog and it's probably asked before, but do you have any tips for a complete beginner in ow? i played before but was kind of just thrown into it and randomly chose a character so i didn't kno what was going on. everything seems super overwhelming, so i don't kno what to kno before playing lmao :') thank you in advance!
issok!!!! i LOVE talking abt games and ppl don’t talk to me enough abt games!!!!!!! and now i get to talk abt jeff kaplan’s ballpit hella
this is gonna be LONG so i’m gonna put it under the cut! also, i’m so sorry to all the mobile users out there bc the cut may not work. these are my own opinions + other players might have different feedback? if so, feel free to reblog / reply with your own tidbits!! hope this helps, anon!! lmk if u ever wanna play overwatch w/ me!! u can join my discord and give me ur battle tag in our video games channel :)
classes
OKAY so there are three classes: dps, tank, and support. dps focuses on damaging the enemy, tanks can put up shields / have greater health to allow their team to fight longer, and supports heal ppl on their team. jeff and the rest of the overwatch team ™ have kindly divided up all the heroes up into the categories that you see on the bottom of the screen during the “hero select” part before a match starts.
generally, you want to have at least one from each class on a team to make it a balanced team. unfortunately, you might not see that as often in arcade modes / quickplay, but it’s ok!! 
abilities
each hero has different mechanics and skills, so i highly suggest going in the practice range + vs ai to test out the different abilities and things like that. you have your weapon, 2 “special” abilities with cooldowns, and 1 ultimate ability that you can charge up. by practicing w/ the hero against other ppl, you can figure out what times are best to use each ability and stuff like that. 
now, it’s time for Seo’s Hot Take On (almost) All The Heroes:
(click the link, it filters thru the heroes by category for u)
dps
oh,,, the dps,,,,,, players,,,,,,, as a support main, i can be tired ™ of dps players who overextend and then demand “i need healing” constantly,,,, but ur not gonna be one of those players!!! dw dw
essentially, you gotta be Good at Aiming to be a Good DPS (but that’s ok, there are some heroes that do not have a high skill cap)
soldier 76 is a good “beginner” hero to start off on bc 1. you play him during the tutorial and 2. he’s the most traditional fps character you can play in the game. he’s got sprint so you can get to places faster, a little biotic field to heal yourself with, and a nice rocket so you can blast someone in the face. the ultimate is also auto-aim so that’s even more helpful for beginner players.
junkrat is another dps that’s relatively easy to play for ppl bc his little bomb things go off and have an explosion radius damage. bastion, mei, and symmetra all have sorta self-heal-ish abilities / passives that might make them easier for you to pick up. symmetra and torbjorn have turrets that auto-aim, so they can be easier heroes to pick up too. just know that ur gonna get smacked later on in higher levels bc No One Likes Playing Against These Two DSJKSDKDSJKKJ
genji, hanzo, and widowmaker tend to be the most popular dps that i see ppl choose in games? idk why tho
my dps favs are soldier 76, mccree, and pharah
tanks
the unsung heroes of overwatch,,,,, no one bothers to play tank in quick play and it’s truly a tragedy bc u never realize how much u need a tank until u need a tank
your job as a tank is to 1. be that big distraction that the enemy team wants to go after, 2. make space for your team to work in, and 3. protect your team. this is why they have high health and shield abilities. 
there are 2 different types of tanks: main tanks and off-tanks. off-tanks are generally more mobile, have less health, their defense abilities are shorter, and have “more offensive” capabilities than main tanks (so kinda like a dps / tank hybrid?). they go zooming around more often to protect teammates that are farther away from the objective. main tanks are solid, thicc, rock-hard bastions of protection that get on the payload / control point and do their damn bestest to keep the objectives going + protect their teams with their blessed shields.
some ppl are picky on how to categorize them, but here’s my categorization: off-tanks: dva, zarya, wrecking ball, roadhog main tanks: orisa, reinhardt, winston (winston’s on thin ice tho)
i’d say dva is the most popular tank + it’s nice to pick up as a beginner bc she’s got good mobility, infinite ammo, and a “second life” with the mech and baby dva (you’ll see when u play her). in terms of main tank, i’ve heard ppl say that reinhardt is the easiest main tank to pick up ???? but i personally prefer orisa over him bc her shields are easier to deploy and you can kill things from afar. her reload time is very slow compared to other heroes.
my favorites are orisa and dva.
supports
oh, my favorite class :”) i lov playing support SDKJSDKJSDJK
basically, these are your healers!! they keep your team in tip-top shape + make sure that no one dies. (ppl still die.)
mercy is the easiest support to play imo. your healing beam can lock onto a person + you have high mobility + i genuinely love mercy’s gun even tho i should be focusing on healing. mercy does get a bad rep for being “every e-girl’s main” and ppl might be rude to u if ur a mercy main ;; anyhow, the most important thing to focus on as mercy is your positioning. do not get urself into a position where you cannot easily get out and please don’t die ;;
lucio is another hero that has high mobility and requires positioning bc you have aoe heal but u need to make sure your team is within your radius. wall-riding is very fun too and booping ppl off cliffs is highly entertaining.
brigitte, moira, and zenyatta are supports, but it’s very easy to be a pseudo-dps with them if you’re interested in taking down ur enemies too. 
ana is probably the hardest hero bc she has little mobility and requires good aim to heal and to kill. on that note, zen and ana are the supports that require you to be good at aiming.
my favs are zen and mercy :”)
tips
practice practice practice
it’s overwhelming at first but you’ll get to know all the abilities relatively well 
turn your sound up
each hero has their own unique “sound” whether that be footsteps or ultimate voice lines. the ult voice lines change depending on if they’re on your team or the enemy team + it can be very helpful to know them. 
footstep sounds from the enemy team tend to be louder, and the more dangerous the hero, the louder their footstep (ex: reaper, mccree). hearing footsteps has helped me escape from a flanking reaper out to kill me dsjsdjkksdj
watch overwatch esports
pro ovw esports are casted by ppl who explain how the players are moving and reacting + this can help you get a better understanding of the gameplay and abilities
overwatch league is finished, but you can go back and watch their videos + blizzard has been pretty good abt making sure that owl is appealing to newcomers. i’d recommend matches casted by uber and mr. x
don’t get discouraged by toxic ppl and be a positive person in-game!
toxic ppl suck,,,,, don’t be one of them,,,
play with friends!
ovw is a lot more fun when u play with friends and chat in vc while playing! also the joy of playing with friends can help u feel a lot more comfy with the game too
hope you have fun playing overwatch, anon!!
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tbhstudying · 6 years
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hi seo!! i kno this ain't a gaming blog and it's probably asked before, but do you have any tips for a complete beginner in ow? i played before but was kind of just thrown into it and randomly chose a character so i didn't kno what was going on. everything seems super overwhelming, so i don't kno what to kno before playing lmao :') thank you in advance!
issok!!!! i LOVE talking abt games and ppl don’t talk to me enough abt games!!!!!!! and now i get to talk abt jeff kaplan’s ballpit hella
this is gonna be LONG so i’m gonna put it under the cut! also, i’m so sorry to all the mobile users out there bc the cut may not work. these are my own opinions + other players might have different feedback? if so, feel free to reblog / reply with your own tidbits!! hope this helps, anon!! lmk if u ever wanna play overwatch w/ me!! u can join my discord and give me ur battle tag in our video games channel :)
classes
OKAY so there are three classes: dps, tank, and support. dps focuses on damaging the enemy, tanks can put up shields / have greater health to allow their team to fight longer, and supports heal ppl on their team. jeff and the rest of the overwatch team (tm) have kindly divided up all the heroes up into the categories that you see on the bottom of the screen during the “hero select” part before a match starts.
generally, you want to have at least one from each class on a team to make it a balanced team. unfortunately, you might not see that as often in arcade modes / quickplay, but it’s ok!! 
abilities
each hero has different mechanics and skills, so i highly suggest going in the practice range + vs ai to test out the different abilities and things like that. you have your weapon, 2 “special” abilities with cooldowns, and 1 ultimate ability that you can charge up. by practicing w/ the hero against other ppl, you can figure out what times are best to use each ability and stuff like that. 
now, it’s time for Seo’s Hot Take On (almost) All The Heroes:
(click the link, it filters thru the heroes by category for u)
dps
oh,,, the dps,,,,,, players,,,,,,, as a support main, i can be tired (tm) of dps players who overextend and then demand “i need healing” constantly,,,, but ur not gonna be one of those players!!! dw dw
essentially, you gotta be Good at Aiming to be a Good DPS (but that’s ok, there are some heroes that do not have a high skill cap)
soldier 76 is a good “beginner” hero to start off on bc 1. you play him during the tutorial and 2. he’s the most traditional fps character you can play in the game. he’s got sprint so you can get to places faster, a little biotic field to heal yourself with, and a nice rocket so you can blast someone in the face. the ultimate is also auto-aim so that’s even more helpful for beginner players.
junkrat is another dps that’s relatively easy to play for ppl bc his little bomb things go off and have an explosion radius damage. bastion, mei, and symmetra all have sorta self-heal-ish abilities / passives that might make them easier for you to pick up. symmetra and torbjorn have turrets that auto-aim, so they can be easier heroes to pick up too. just know that ur gonna get smacked later on in higher levels bc No One Likes Playing Against These Two DSJKSDKDSJKKJ
genji, hanzo, and widowmaker tend to be the most popular dps that i see ppl choose in games? idk why tho
my dps favs are soldier 76, mccree, and pharah
tanks
the unsung heroes of overwatch,,,,, no one bothers to play tank in quick play and it’s truly a tragedy bc u never realize how much u need a tank until u need a tank
your job as a tank is to 1. be that big distraction that the enemy team wants to go after, 2. make space for your team to work in, and 3. protect your team. this is why they have high health and shield abilities. 
there are 2 different types of tanks: main tanks and off-tanks. off-tanks are generally more mobile, have less health, their defense abilities are shorter, and have “more offensive” capabilities than main tanks (so kinda like a dps / tank hybrid?). they go zooming around more often to protect teammates that are farther away from the objective. main tanks are solid, thicc, rock-hard bastions of protection that get on the payload / control point and do their damn bestest to keep the objectives going + protect their teams with their blessed shields.
some ppl are picky on how to categorize them, but here’s my categorization:off-tanks: dva, zarya, wrecking ball, roadhogmain tanks: orisa, reinhardt, winston (winston’s on thin ice tho)
i’d say dva is the most popular tank + it’s nice to pick up as a beginner bc she’s got good mobility, infinite ammo, and a “second life” with the mech and baby dva (you’ll see when u play her). in terms of main tank, i’ve heard ppl say that reinhardt is the easiest main tank to pick up ???? but i personally prefer orisa over him bc her shields are easier to deploy and you can kill things from afar. her reload time is very slow compared to other heroes.
my favorites are orisa and dva.
supports
oh, my favorite class :”) i lov playing support SDKJSDKJSDJK
basically, these are your healers!! they keep your team in tip-top shape + make sure that no one dies. (ppl still die.)
mercy is the easiest support to play imo. your healing beam can lock onto a person + you have high mobility + i genuinely love mercy’s gun even tho i should be focusing on healing. mercy does get a bad rep for being “every e-girl’s main” and ppl might be rude to u if ur a mercy main ;; anyhow, the most important thing to focus on as mercy is your positioning. do not get urself into a position where you cannot easily get out and please don’t die ;;
lucio is another hero that has high mobility and requires positioning bc you have aoe heal but u need to make sure your team is within your radius. wall-riding is very fun too and booping ppl off cliffs is highly entertaining.
brigitte, moira, and zenyatta are supports, but it’s very easy to be a pseudo-dps with them if you’re interested in taking down ur enemies too. 
ana is probably the hardest hero bc she has little mobility and requires good aim to heal and to kill. on that note, zen and ana are the supports that require you to be good at aiming.
my favs are zen and mercy :”)
tips
practice practice practice
it’s overwhelming at first but you’ll get to know all the abilities relatively well 
turn your sound up
each hero has their own unique “sound” whether that be footsteps or ultimate voice lines. the ult voice lines change depending on if they’re on your team or the enemy team + it can be very helpful to know them. 
footstep sounds from the enemy team tend to be louder, and the more dangerous the hero, the louder their footstep (ex: reaper, mccree). hearing footsteps has helped me escape from a flanking reaper out to kill me dsjsdjkksdj
watch overwatch esports
pro ovw esports are casted by ppl who explain how the players are moving and reacting + this can help you get a better understanding of the gameplay and abilities
overwatch league is finished, but you can go back and watch their videos + blizzard has been pretty good abt making sure that owl is appealing to newcomers. i’d recommend matches casted by uber and mr. x
don’t get discouraged by toxic ppl and be a positive person in-game!
toxic ppl suck,,,,, don’t be one of them,,,
play with friends!
ovw is a lot more fun when u play with friends and chat in vc while playing! also the joy of playing with friends can help u feel a lot more comfy with the game too
hope you have fun playing overwatch, anon!!
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