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roublardise · 3 years

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my "Crowley isn't attracted to women" take

for @spnprideweek - day 2 - mlm

cw: dicussion of homophobia & transphobia all in all I wanted to highlight how canon gay Crowley is bc I love him 💕 thank u spn for Crowley even tho he deserved better

in the last weeks I've realized there's a huuge consensus in the fandom for pansexual Crowley. if you're pan or not and wanna hc Crowley as pan, power to you! but what's bothering me is the non-discussion of it all. the way it seems obvious for everyone. whereas, to me, Crowley has been canonically gay all this time.....

disclaimer: I'm aware Mark Sheppard alledgely said he saw Crowley as pansexual, however I can't even take these words for canon without context. Especially not when a year later he'd say Crowley's sexuality didn't matter. The way Mark Sheppard talks about characters' sexuality is more a "why are people making a big deal let them be" than "the character doesn't care." Moreover, actors pov can't be taken as canon imo. Jensen Ackles thought Dean straight for so long when Dean's been bi all this time as well. Sometimes actors are biased by their own experiences & stereotypes!

disclaimer #2: on god I don't wanna start discourse lmao. I just wanna share my silly thoughts about a tv show & question the way Crowley's sexuality is written in this silly homophobic tv show. don't @ me about what's making you think Crowley is indisputably pansexual bc I assure you I already know your points

That being said, here's why I think Crowley is a bear, a gay man, a trans gay man actually, a homosexual, who isn't attracted to women & some food for thoughts about why the unquestioned consensus towards pan Crowley could have roots in both homophobia & panphobia.

I don't think we can think of Crowley as your usual demon. We know too much about Crowley's life as a human, and the numerous ways in which he acts un-demony, almost humanly after. Considering him simply like a demon with no concept of gender preference who would be pan “by default” wouldn’t be right with his character. But we also can't question his sexuality in the exact same way we would a human's.

It also can't be thought in the same way as angels': as once-humans demons do have a concept of gender. Crowley especially cares a lot about his gender presentation and the way he's addressed. Not only does he literally sell his soul for a bigger d*ck as a human ; as a demon he uses the same vessel where other demons are shown to move once they had to leave one ; and for the few hours Crowley's possessing a woman, he clearly states he should still be referred to as king.

This will all be used for homophobic & transphobic jokes in the show, but I'll get back to that later on. Gender does matter to Crowley's identity, and I think it could be extended to his sexuality.

I've seen numerous descriptions of it all saying Crowley's sexuality was "ambiguous" and I guess it is, as he never explicitly used any label. However "ambiguous" doesn't mean bi or pan. It doesn't mean anything besides the fact we can't draw a clear-cut conclusion of his sexuality.

Imo we can actually draw a clear-cut conclusion of Crowley's sexuality but yeh, I'm getting there.

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Let's take a look at canon events around Crowley & sexuality!

His character introduction is him enjoying making a homophobe man kiss him for a deal

It is rumoured that he was a demon's lover (Lilith's)

He heavily flirts with Bobby

He french kisses Bobby for a deal and takes a pic

He never kisses a woman on screen (tell me if I forgot anyone!)

He flirts with every single man he sees, and even more strongly when it's making the other uncomfortable

The other parent of Crowley's son is never mentioned nor even brought up

He has two orgies that we know of

He has sex with a demon who's possessing a woman (Lola) when he was addicted to human blood

He dates, has sex with, and asks Dean to rule Hell with him. He's in love with Dean

On late spn he drinks fruity drinks

He flirts with and implies he had sex with an angel (Naomi)

He flirts with Death (Billie)

He's into BDSM

I'm not gonna go into details with all the sexual stuff he says bc there's a lot.... But it's always about gay sex. (once again, if I'm forgetting smth pls tell me nicely)

Now, with all that I'd like to question specifically the elements people use to say Crowley is canonically attracted to women.

He has two orgies that we know of

There’s the one Crowley has while he’s himself possessing a woman ; iirc it’s a foursome with two other men and one woman. Crowley still counts as a King, as the show makes sure we know, admitedly this dialogue implies we should still think of him as a not-very-manly-man.

Honestly, if one is convinced Crowley is attracted to women based on this scene.. okay. Personally I don’t see it because the orgy is unplanned, it’s an opportunity Crowley takes. Is he even attracted to the two other men?? Who knows. We don’t even know if Crowley even touches the other woman, there’re so many ways to have group sex. Even if he did, having sex with one woman doesn’t make it impossible for him to be homosexual.

The second orgy is with Dean. Crowley describes it then: “We've done extraordinary things to triplets.” It’s interesting how before I went to check, I thought it was clear the triplets were women. But not at all! I’ve been tricked by heteronormativity myself. So this is up to interpretation. Even though the way the show doesn’t make sure we know the triplets were women is pretty telling (as I’ll talk about later).

It is rumoured that he was Lilith's lover

Well, this is a rumour. In this relationship Crowley would know Lilith as a demon possessing a woman, and Lilith would know Crowley as a demon possessing a man as well. Who's even to say they met in their vessels to sleep together. That's the kind of cases in which the ambiguity of Crowley human/demon situation makes it impossible to draw any kind of conclusion towards Crowley's attraction to women. Also if anything Lilith is clearly a lesbian lmao.

He has sex with Lola when he was addicted to human blood

Same thing here, the relationship is one of demon/demon. Though we do now they do meet in their vessels to sleep together. Besides that, the sex happens while Crowley is at a low point. She's the one bringing him human blood, which makes the sex more of a transaction than anything. It does fit a very grey area of consent which would be fair to question.

We can't know for sure whether the demon possessing the woman was a woman as well, but let's say she was: 1/ Crowley having sex once or twice with a woman doesn't prevent him from being homosexual. 2/ What is he seeing if not a demon's true form? 3/ Wasn't he in a self-destructive mental state?

It's a stretch, imo, to assume Crowley was attracted to her.

He flirts with and had sex with Naomi / flirts with Billie

This one is so ridiculous to me bc Naomi is an angel and as a demon, Crowley sees her true form. We don't even know who was her vessel when they had sex.

The flirt thing is interesting however, bc iirc Naomi and Billie are the only "women" we see Crowley actually flirt with. During the orgies or the demon sex there's no flirt involved. It's interesting bc, as Cas would say: "Naomi's vessel is a woman. Naomi is an angel."

Same case for Billie who's a reaper then Death. Spn is pretty unclear about how the whole thing works but we know reapers are kind of angels. In any case, I won't go as far as saying Billie has any connection to gender.

Moreover, the way Crowley flirts with them is pretty light next to everything else Crowley says to men. It's pretty personal, I'm aware, but I do relate a lot with the way Crowley flirts with them VS how I flirt with men just because (and I'm a lesbian).

Anyway! Both Naomi and Billie are supernatural creatures, which brings the count of women Crowley flirts with to... zero.

-> What I take from all that is that Crowley is attracted to men for sure ; to angels and demons ; and doesn't care about the genitalia involved in the sex he has. We have nothing about the kind of relationships he had as a human. His gender presentation matters a lot to him. The only long-term commitment he has is with Dean. I wouldn't even say he had a committed relationship with Gavin's other parent bc we don't know anything about them.

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But what's my deal with homosexual Crowley? One can wonder, if Crowley doesn't care about bodies, doesn't that mean he can still be written as pan?

No! First because sexual attraction isn't about genitalia (even if transphobes would argue the contrary but they're transphobic so...). And second, well....

I would refer to this point as "how do I know Crowley isn't attracted to women? bc Dean is"

I'm convinced that if the show wanted to write Crowley as anything other than a gay man, it would have been way more obvious.

This is a show who wrote Dean catcalling a faceless woman on the street, for no other reason than to remind the viewers Dean was attracted to women & to balance it with the following homoerotic scene.

One could say spn doesn't have lots of women characters to begin with, but that's my point exactly: when spn wants to show attraction towards women, they do find women for people to be attracted to. Hell, they even give Gavin some girlfriend but never ever bring up the topic of Gavin's other parent. Even though an entire episode is dedicated to learning about Crowley's past.

What's important to understand Crowley's sexuality isn't the people he slept with ; it's the people he doesn't show interest in.

The absence of something is the presence of the thing, blablabla. It's a way to look at homosexuality that heteronormativity makes hard to see because, unconciously, we don't tend to question attraction towards the expected gender. One would ask for a 10 pages essay on why a character is gay, but one would need only a 2 sec kiss to assure a character's heterosexuality or attraction towards the expected gender.

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In Crowley's case, his attraction to men is a huge part of his character right from the beginning (thanks god, at least no one's questioning that). Spn as a show that hears what the fans are saying and twists writing accordingly, is perfectly aware of that. Yet rather than pushing women at him along the course of the show to remind everyone how Not Gay Crowley is - the opposite happens.

Yeh, Lola, Naomi, Billie, they all happen in the later seasons. But even then, the show somehow can't write Crowley as attracted to a human woman.

What happens then is: not only does Crowley fall for Dean ; he engages in some BDSM play with Lucifer : and he switches from drinking only the finest Scotch to fruity cocktails.

The BDSM thing as well as the drink thing are choices rooted in stereotypes, that's how spn is! But it does canonize Crowley's homosexuality. They're depriving him of his "masculinity" as the show goes on, because they purposely write him as homosexual. I don't think spn would have ever written a bi or pan character that way.

We learned a few days ago that Crowley died in a gutter. He died in a gutter for a bigger d*ck. I'm just gonna refer to Oscar Wilde & Mika on this : "some of us in the gutter are looking up at the stars."

The "referred to as king" scene isn't about Crowley being a demon and so not caring about gender - it's the opposite. Other demons are the ones poiting out Crowley's vessel. This is a transphobic joke. It's the demon edition of the "gay boy in a dress" transmisogynistic trope.

Viewers aren't supposed to be on Crowley's side ; we're supposed to be giggling with the other demons while Crowley is being emasculated. Crowley gets a woman vessel because he's a not-very-manly-man, because he's a trans man, because he's homosexual.

And I know that bc Dean is written as bi, and all they're doing is reaffirming the way he does like women while being extra subtle with his love for men.

Meanwhile Crowley is losing influence and power, loses his authority as he loses his throne in Hell, gets humiliated by Lucifer, until all his character revolves around is his love for Dean. The way Crowley is then protrayed as some lovesick ex who can't move on is, imo, a straight man fantasy. Crowley's love is both used as predatory and as a tool to validate Dean's Peak Masculinity.

Spn has been burying their gays all along, and Crowley was right there being punished for not only being in love with Dean but for not being attracted to women. For never being able to be a "normal" guy. For never being able to be seen as a "normal" guy. For checking every homophobic stereotypes in the books. Crowley as a human dies because he's a trans man. Crowley as a demon dies because he's homosexual.

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That's what leads me to be uncomfortable with the way the fandom seems to have a consensus towards pansexual Crowley. (Once again: idc about people's personal hc of Crowley as pan, I just want to think critically about the way no one thinks twice about it & accepts it as canon so easily. Hell, just bc I dared to ask what started the pan Crowley confirmation I got accused of erasing his pansexuality. All I did was ask a question.)

To me, it feels like erasing everything his character went through because he was gay. And it seems to be taken from a reasoning which is going to assume Crowley is attracted to women.

I mean: the reasoning would go "oh, Crowley clearly has a non-straight sexuality -> he's attracted to men -> he's pan" His attraction to women being accepted by default, without needing any backup. And when I look at the canon I see nothing implying he'd be attracted to women. Taking Crowley's attraction to women for granted is following an heteronormative thinking.

Being into people isn't all about who one sleeps with. It's about love. And when we look at what spn shows about Crowley's close relationships, the only meaningful one he got is with Dean. When Rowena wants payback for Crowley making her kill Oskar, she goes for his son.

And it's SO interesting to me because if angels can't be in love because they don't have a soul - can demons? as they're beings with a destroyed soul? And if so, how powerful of Crowley to still fall in love with Dean Winchester.... the power of gay love :) (Crowley 🤝 Cas)

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To conclude all this with some more stuff to think about if, like me, you love questioning everything:

While it's not wrong per se to hc Crowley as pan, it can be worth questioning what's making us so sure we collectively just vibe with it? To me there's a few things: - As I was saying: heteronormative bias - Crowley being a non-fully-human character - Crowley being masculine (despite the show's attempts to erase that) - Crowley being into BDSM - Crowley flirting and making sexual remarks in every context

These, unconsciously, gives a vibe of a character who's "outside" of the gender norm, not making big deal of their sexuality, not even questioning it. This creates this idea of "ambiguity" around Crowley's sexuality. The way Crowley particularly seems to be really chill about sex, is a demon (so what does he know about gender?), and heavily flirty, ... is what most people will link to pansexuality. That doesn't mean thinking of Crowley as pan is being problematic™ ; this means in western medias that's what fills the "pansexual character" imagery (like basically: the Jack Harkness type).

However, when we look at it like that, none of these elements are defining of pansexuality. None of them are excluding him from homosexuality. If not stereotypes.

That's where it gets personal ; but it does make me feel like the huge consensus towards a pansexual Crowley (when there is no clear-cut evidence of it) is erasing the complexity of homosexual experiences. As I said at the begining: I'm happy if pansexual people can relate to Crowley ; everone's free to headcanon. But saying Crowley is canonically pansexual is a stretch - and a take rooted in homophobic stereotypes.

Imo Crowley may have been created with all these traits pushing towards a pan reading of his character. However, as the show went, he was clearly written as a homosexual man. The changes in his portrayal took a turn to be specifically homophobic. He gets imagery that only strictly homosexual characters got (such as drinking fruity cocktails like Aaron. Meanwhile Dean, on the same scene, is allowed beer & whiskey.)

We're used to taking spn's homophobic rep and jokes to make it our own. Yet it seems, when it comes to Crowley, the fandom doesn't see it.

Sometimes people aren't attracted to the gender heteronormativity expects them to be attracted to.......... sometimes people are gay and it's not an umbrella term.

#crowley spn #spn crowley #crowley #trans crowley #spn meta #supernatural #spn #so..... i went off once again #homophobia #transphobia #i just kept adding stuff to it lmao and i would STILL have stuff to say but this is enough #long post #spnprideweek

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you-cant-spell-subtext-without · 3 years

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— just a destiel edit for - this post

“All of a sudden twelve years have passed and you still have not kissed the angel with tongue, or kissed anyone at all like you meant it for that matter, but you have had a 3 AM conversation with someone who would rather look into your eyes for ten minutes straight than talk. You have never worn a lover’s trenchcoat but he has “forgotten” it in a lake after ingesting primordial monsters and dying just so you would have an excuse to see them again. You have never even stood face-to-face with someone who makes your hands shake so hard it feels like they’re both having a separate anxiety attack. This causes you much guilt and self-blame and sadness but above all, an overwhelming curiosity. Are You are really that ugly, that unwanted, that uninteresting, that boring, that and this celestial eldritch being ever looked at you like you’re the only thing on earth? The answer is yes. This is the better answer is - that someone out there, somewhere in the world, is “wondered what it’s like to meet someone like you,” and they have millions of years worth of love stored in their veins like a shoot-‘em-up drug, and they’re just about ready to inject it into someone else’s bloodstream, leaving a handprint on your shoulder. All you have to do is roll up your sleeves and wait for it to happen. At times you felt so lonely you could stand at the edge of a cliff with nothing beneath you but air and grass and a long, long way down, and you’d still feel emptier than that canyon itself. Maybe you even danced with yourself alone in your room a few times, arms outstretched around a ghost, pretending someone else’s hands were on your waist, someone else’s eyes boring into yours. Or maybe you fell temporarily in love with strangers on monster hunts, fell in love with anybody who so much as accidentally brushed your hand on the way past. For you, falling in love with dozens of people a day was a coping mechanism for not having anyone to love you in return. But people are not eggs and falling in love with a dozen of them does not mean your shell will remain uncracked. One day you’re going to hit the point where you’re so desperate for human contact that you’re going to snap in half and all your love will bleed out like egg yolk. But someone out there is listening to your prayers, hearing you, or putting on bee slippers, or settling into the adjacent motel room bed. They are doing all the normal things that you’ve done in your own life because they learned how to love the entire world watching you. They are just like you. Once you allow yourself to grow old with them, tThey have cellulite and extra fat in all the wrong places and goals and fears and doubts and great handwriting. The truth is that they are just like you, and being just like you, they’re looking for a lover too. They’re what you might call a soulmate your own personal testament to the power of free will, of choosing each other every day and every minute. They think they’re all alone in feeling the way they do, but you’re really both two halves of a whole. And one day you’ll meet them, bump into them in a barn while stabbing them in the chest, and your two halves will be put together, and you’ll make one.”

[the original is amazing I just had...dean and cas thoughts and wanted to make this revision.]

#destiel #spn #supernatural #hellerism #deancas

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redneckangelsdrinkmoonshine · 3 years

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Okay, here's a thing -

I kind of like that Cas and John never met because if they did, well, lemme use the form of fanfic to show you what I think would've happened:

"Dean?"

"Cas! Come here buddy, want you to meet someone!"

Castiel walked down the noisy metal stairs, took a second to process where his human's voice was coming from and once he decided it was the kitchen, he shoved his hands in the pockets of his trench coat and headed down the hall. A small smile curled at the corners of his lips as Dean and Sam's laughter echoed off the walls, a sound that made his heart warm but unfortunately he got to hear it on a rather rare occasion.

Castiel stood in the doorway, about to greet his family, when his blood started to boil and turned to ice at the same time. He clenched his jaw as he pulled his hands out of his pockets and instead widened his stance with clenched fists.

That monster sat there on Castiel's chair, chugging down what the angel assumed was his third beer. The smile on Dean's face, who seemed to be drunk on his daddy's venom, pierced right through Castiel's heart as he innocently introduced them to one another, "Dad, this is Castiel, that son of a bitch who gripped me tight and raised me from perdition." Dean lifted the sleeve of his shirt to reveal the scar that had stayed there. Castiel got on idea.

John's expression was already sour but Castiel wanted to make things better. He gave John a brief, plastic smile before he decided to focus his attention on his adorable lover who was wearing plaid pyjama pants and one of Castiel's t-shirt's from his time as a human, "Well, I like to mark what's mine. Babe, would you get me a beer?" Castiel softly bumped his foot against Sam's who slammed his beer down as he started to choke. Judging by his twitching nose, he was actually laughing at John's pure expression of horror and Dean's slightly shocked face. The older brother didn't hesitate as he got up and walked to the refrigerator to pull out a cold one for Cas. He put it down in front of Castiel and Sam let out a wheeze that he masked with a cough when Castiel gently patted Dean's bum, "Thank you." Dean nodded with a soft smile before he returned to his seat, way too scared to look John in the eyes and instead focusing his eyes on Sammy and his lover.

John spoke up as he raised from his chair, looking down at Castiel, "'Ey, Cas, why don't you come with me.. I think we need to have a chat." Dean's eyebrows lifted briefly and he momentarily flared his nose drills at his angel. Castiel gave him a reassuring grin before he took the beer, removed the cap with two fingers and finished the whole thing in three chugs. He stood up from the chair and a smirk curled at his lips when he saw the small surprise in John's otherwise cold eyes. Without saying a word, Castiel walked out of the kitchen confidently, not looking back even though he didn't hear the man follow him until later.

Castiel was sitting on his chair at the big wooden table in the library when John's low voice made his presence known, "So... You're the angel who saved my son from hell? After his stupidity got him there in the first place?" Castiel got up, letting his true eyes flash for a moment, knowing damn well the bright blue light that poured out of them always made his power known," First off, I'm not just an angel. A Seraph, to be exact. In fact, I'm taller than most of your sky scrapers here. And second, please tell me how your son is stupid when you did the exact same thing not that long before him?" John's jaw twitched but not like Dean's did when he was angry, John looked like a snake when he did that, "I let them torture me for a one hundred years while my son wasn't even able to go thirty years before he -" "I'm going to stop you here. You see, you most likely think I don't know what happened while you were in Hell. But I do, I know every single second of it. I know how at one point you begged them to torture you, because they never even touched you with a finger. The form of torture they had for you was to have all the times you let your kids down, all the times you hurt the ones you were supposed to raise with love, replay in front of your eyes but not from your point of view but from their's. You felt their pain, you felt their anger and I am sure that no matter what you'd ever say, that hurt so bad that you'd prefer any other form of physical torture than that. But listen to me, your son has a heart of gold. The time he lasted was longer than most because people usually give up five minutes after the torture's began. When your son gave up, I had people of my qarrison, good solders, I made them follow me down there so I could save him. The moment I held him against my chest, I felt like home, that's how pure your son's heart is, heart that ached for love since it was born. I've given up powers, I've given up armies, I've given up Heaven for your sons and I would do that again. But for now, one of them expects me to be their family and the other expects me to love him unconditionally. Well, that's exactly what I am gonna do."

Castiel turned to walk away when John's voice made him stop a few feet away from him, "How exactly can a low-life disgrace like you TEACH my kids how to love is so unclear to me. You're nothing but a faggot that somehow got lucky and now you're pouring your poison all over th-" John wasn't able to finish his sentence because Castiel's fist sent him to the ground before he could. He crouched down and gripped John's neck with one hand before he lifted him up effortlessly, the punches and kicks that John desperately tried to lay on him didn't make him even twitch because the anger in his veins burned worse than any other form of injury he could get. He heard Sam and Dean call his voice, he was aware that both had followed them and eavesdropped the entire time, but he didn't care. John gasped for air as Castiel spoke up, his voice low and dangerous, "You think Heaven gives a damn about who you lay with? You're damn wrong. You see, even if you have an icon in your car somewhere, if you were a piece of shit then you still go to Hell. Too bad Heaven's already using you like one of their batteries." Castiel released John from his grip and the man fell to the ground with a groan. The angel put two fingers to his forehead and smirked when John flinched," What's up, boy? I thought you're not scared of some fag with power." John stared up at Castiel in surprise when he realized that whatever injuries he had were gone.

Castiel turned on his heel and walked away while Sam helped his father up, just to get pushed away with "I'm fine" growled under his breath. Dean, however, followed Castiel, but the angel was too ashamed to look at these soft green eyes that he loved so much.

"Cas, wait." Castiel did. He sighed before he turned to face the man, but his eyes were glued to Dean's shoes instead of his eyes, "Look, I won't apologize for what I just did because I had to. Ever since you were born, even before that, ever since Mary bought that angel figurine I had to watch that assbutt treat his family like crap and all of the pent up anger released itself and I know I should've just walked away, I tried to, but then he decided he knew Heaven better and I shouldn't show you and your brother love when you need it and I-"

Castiel's eyes widened in surprise when he was pulled into a kiss. Dean's hands cupped his face softly but firmly as everything was he wasn't able to say with words was poured into that kiss. The "I love you." to the "Thank you." and even the "That was extremely hot." Castiel allowed his eyes to shut before he slowly sneaked his hands under Dean's shirt and dug his fingertips into Dean's back just the way he knew Dean liked it. The low sound that rumbled from somewhere in his human's chest indicated that he had done a good job in remembering all of Dean's weak spots.

When they pulled back they both had smiles that were drunk with love, Castiel's hair was all over the place because sometime during their kiss Dean had started to run his fingers through it and pull. The tie on Cas's suit was also loosened and his shirt was unbuttoned three buttons down. Castiel's hands were still under Dean's clothes but no longer under Dean's shirt. Dean giggled in a way that would've made him terrified earlier in his life but he no longer gave a damn because he was in love and that was important, "You think what I'm thinking?" Castiel pretended to think which made Dean swat at his chest playfully. Castiel chucked as he gripped Dean's hand and started to pull him down the hall, "Let's go, cowboy."

What followed afterwards was Heaven on Earth for the two but complete Hell for John who took the guest room that was just down the hall. Sammy had learned his lesson and he had bought himself noise cancelling headphones and enough podcasts to help him through the night if one of Rowena's spells failed and his room was no longer soundproof.

To be honest... Yeah, they should've met AT LEAST ONCE.

#supernatural #destiel #Some fanfic because I'm a junkie for destiel #Wrote that in less than one hour sorry for typos #Cas and John ain't gonna be besties

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waywardnerd67 · 3 years

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TFWB - Chap 25 Kiss the Girl

Summary: Jensen and (Y/N) embark on a book tour together where the line they desperately tried not to cross vanishes. Characters: Jensen Ackles, Reader Pairing: Jensen x Reader Warnings: Fluff/AU Word Count: 1465 Squared Filled: Friends to Lovers A/N #1: This is for @spnfluffbingo card

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Rachel was sitting on (Y/N)’s bed watching her pack, “I can’t believe you and Jensen are going to be gone for six weeks. Whatever will you do with all that alone time together.”

“Stop it…” (Y/N) rolled her eyes, zipping her suitcase shut.

“Seriously (Y/N), I thought after our little talk six months ago you would have told him already.” Rachel pulled her down onto the bed next her.

She sighed looking down at her hands, “I told you before and I’ll say it again. I can’t cross that line with Jensen. He is too important in my life and I won’t risk it especially now that we are professionally entwined.”

“You need to be naked and entwined together.” Rachel mumbled.

“Rachel!” She smacked her arm playfully as they both started to laugh.

The publishing PR booked Jensen on a book tour to bookstores and colleges around the country for six weeks starting on the east coast. They would end their tour back where everything started for them at UT Austin in the very bookstore where he had met his favorite author telling him to follow his dreams.

The six weeks had gone by in a flash. Traveling to different major cities around the country with Jensen had been the most fun she had ever had. They went sightseeing before his events and out to dinner afterwards. She never thought she could possibly learn new things about Jensen but along the way she did and with each passing day she fell for him a little more.

Each of their places were not close enough to stay at when they returned to Austin for their last stop. Unfortunately, there was a mistake made with their booking at the hotel and they ended up having to share a room for the night. Adding to the dilemma was having only one bed.

(Y/N) chuckled, “I just walked into one of the most popular fanfiction tropes in the world.”

“I will take the floor.” Jensen set his stuff at the end of the bed.

She shook her head, “No way. We need you bright eyed and bushy tailed for this event. You sleep in the bed and I will take the floor. No arguing.” She pointed her finger at him as he opened his mouth to speak.

(Y/N) made herself a spot beside the bed. She tossed and turned for hours before giving up on sleeping to read on her phone.

“You can’t sleep either?” Jensen's raspy voice startled her slightly.

“Jesus… you scared me. Did I wake you?”

Jensen stuck his head over the side of the bed, his hair sticking up wildly, “No. I can’t sleep knowing you're on the floor. Just sleep up here with me. I made you a promise and I will keep it.”

His olive eyes pleaded with her and she gave in. Climbing up onto the bed, Jensen turned his back to her staying on the left side of the bed. She did the same on her side and finally fell to sleep. They were both groggy in the morning but made to the event with no issues. Being back in that bookstore with Jensen brought up a lot of memories for her.

After the event, Jensen stopped her just outside the bookstore, “Will you come have lunch with me?”

“Of course Jay.” He held out his arm to her and she hooked hers with his.

She started laughing as they walked into the student center just like they had done all those years before. Once again, they fell into easy conversation about upcoming deadlines for his next book and celebrating Zalyn’s birthday. A few fans came over to him for autographs and one brave co-ed slipped her number to him. It was a moment so small that had such an impact on (Y/N) as she watched him slip the note in his pocket.

Rachel’s words shouting in her mind, “Make your move or you’re going to lose him to some other woman…”

After lunch, they were dropped off at Jensen’s house where they both fell onto his couch exhausted, “Do you mind if I crash here tonight?”

He gave her a sleepy smile, “Of course not.”

They both ended up crashing early until the early hours of the morning. It was still dark out as (Y/N) went downstairs for something to drink. She saw the kitchen light on and smelled fresh coffee as she entered the living room. Walking in the kitchen, she found Jensen standing at his counter in nothing but his boxers and her heart nearly stopped.

“Hey.”

She giggled as he jumped, “Shit! Don’t sneak up on a half asleep man with coffee.”

“I’m sorry. I was coming down here for the same thing.” She walked over pouring herself a cup of coffee.

They stood there silently across from one other sipping their drinks. A quantifiable tension building between them. Her eyes kept drifting over his arms and chest. When she would look up she would catch his eyes traveling down her body which was barely covered by her panties and tank top.

“I-I’m gonna go try to get some more sleep.” Jensen set his cup down walking out of the kitchen.

In the split second, (Y/N) made a choice that would change her life forever. She followed Jensen out of the kitchen catching up to him before he got to the stairs.

“Jensen, wait.” She called out.

“(Y/N), I know what you’re going to say and I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to cross any lines or make you uncomfortable. I made you a promise and I will keep it no matter how hard it is for me too.”

“Cross it.” At first she did not think he heard her.

He slowly turned around facing her, “(Y/N) don’t say that… not unless you truly mean it.”

She took a step closer to him, “I should have said it years ago but it wasn’t until today when I saw you slip that girl’s number into your pocket that I could truly lose you. Forget the boundaries Jensen, I’m in love with you.”

He closed the distance between them in two strides of his long legs. His hands cupping her face as she gripped his narrow waist. His full lips hovering over hers before firmly pressing them to hers. Her heart was pounding in her ears. Her body was desperate to be against his and she hopped up wrapping her legs around his waist. His hands gripping her thighs as he carried her up the stairs.

(Y/N) could feel the warm rays of the sun on her face as she opened her eyes. She felt a strong arm pull her back against a firm body that she got acquainted with a few hours earlier. Smiling, she turned in his arms to find a mussy haired, bright eyed Jensen smiling at her.

“Good morning pretty girl.”

“Good morning handsome.” The happiness bubbling in her chest escaped from her lips as she giggled.

Jensen’s smile got wider then he started peppering her face and neck with kisses, “I could get used to this. Waking up next to you. Going to sleep next to you…”

(Y/N) pushed him onto his back straddling his waist, “Making love to me?” She leaned down kissing him.

“Oh yes, definitely that.”

***

The last page was filled with pictures from his book tour, but it was the ones she had hidden behind them that were meant for their eyes only. A picture of her with a sheet wrapped around her. Pictures of them kissing in bed. A picture of Jensen as she sat on top of him with his arms behind his head. Memories, she would never forget but wanted to have a snapshot of.

(Y/N) closed the scrapbook just as the door to her office opened, “Pretty girl it’s time to get ready for our rehearsal dinner.”

“Come in here handsome for just a moment.”

Jensen closed the door as she stood up from her chair. Wrapping her arms around his neck, she pulled his lips down to hers. Pushing him back until he fell back into her chair and straddled his lap. He was laughing as she ran her hands under his t-shirt.

“You made it to the last page, didn’t you?” He asked as she kissed him again.

‘Mmhmm and now I need you.” She pressed her forehead against his, slowly grinding herself against him.

Jensen groaned laying his head back, “I guess we could be fashionably late.”

He stood up carrying her out of her office and into their bedroom. An hour later after a shower and getting ready they finally made it to the dinner only thirty minutes late.

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Destiel Trope Collection 2019 Day 21: Hurt/Comfort (and Whump)

Lie To Me | @castielslostwings Rating: Explicit Word Count: 27476 Main Tags and Warnings: Alternate season 14, canon divergent at s13e23 “let the good times roll”, angst with a happy ending, Michael!Dean, fix-it, pining, temporary MCD, human castiel, casturbation, top Cas/bottom Dean, Sam & Cas brother moments, alcohol as a coping mechanism, Chuck Ex Machina, hurt/comfort, Castiel whump, Dean whump Summary: Castiel and Sam's plan to expel Michael from Dean's body backfires in a big way, leaving them with an unexpectedly human archangel and the horrifying possibility that Dean's soul is gone forever. Can they bring Dean home from wherever he's gone? What will become of a human Michael trapped in Dean's body? How will Castiel survive losing the love of his life, just when things were starting to fall together?

Worlds Away | @hefellfordean Rating: Mature Word Count: 4240 Main Tags and Warnings: Multiple Universes, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergent, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Interdimensional Travel, Getting Together, Angst with a Happy Ending Summary: "In all the infinite, incalculable number of worlds, you don’t love me. But what’s worse, is that I didn’t need to ask to know that I love you in any world, unconditionally – and unrequited.”, Cas says, pulling away from Dean. Castiel is sent to a place between worlds, with infinite doorways through which he must travel to return home. All of the worlds he visits have something in common: Dean doesn't love him. His world is the same - or is it?

Angel Whisperer | @noiproksa Rating: General Word Count: 2767 Main Tags and Warnings: Hurt Castiel, Concussions Summary: Taking care of a concussed angel is a lot harder than anticipated. Dean might be out of his depth, but that doesn’t mean he won’t do everything he can to make his angel feel better. (Intended as gen, but can be read as Destiel pre-slash.)

Anti-Cuddle Curse | @noiproksa Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 5155 Main Tags and Warnings: Hurt Castiel, Cuddling & Snuggling, Witch Curses, Hurt/Comfort Summary: When a witch curses Team Free Will, Dean realizes how much being able to touch Cas really means to him. (Intended as gen, but can be read as Destiel pre-slash.)

Touch Deprived | @noiproksa Rating: General Word Count: 4132 Main Tags and Warnings: Hurt Castiel, Angel Healing, Hurt/Comfort Summary: Confused by all the human rules for personal space and touching, Cas has to come up with excuses in order to be able to touch Dean and Sam. Or is it the other way around? (Intended as gen, but can be read as Destiel pre-slash.)

longing for grapefruit | @reallyelegantsharkfish Rating: Explicit Word Count: 1686 Main Tags and Warnings: Friends to Lovers, Recreational Drug Use, Marijuana, Oral Sex, Mental Health Issues, Hurt/Comfort, Shotgunning, Demisexual Castiel Summary: Dean lights up and takes the first hit, but instead of exhaling, he leans over towards Cas. It’s not a proper kiss, breathing in Dean’s air, but it’s intimate, and they take turns sharing hits in between kisses. Cas is flying. Cas can feel everything, Cas is out of his body. “Baby,” Dean says, soft in between them. “Let me make you feel good.”

Green Corners | @rustling-pages Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 72533 Main Tags and Warnings: Elemental Magic AU, (Threat of) Main Character Death, (Past) Child Death, Friends to Lovers, Slow Burn Summary: After the death of his son, there is nothing left for Dean other than his garden market. His days are tough, the nights are tougher, but at least there's a reason to get up in the morning. And with the new boom on do-it-yourself garden magic, his business is going okay. Amidst the passing of time, there is only one thing that distracts him from functioning like a normal human being: Diagonally across the street, in the display window of that traditional Herb and Potion shop, plants are dying in masses. Storming in to confront the owner goes differently than he imagined, though. Castiel Novak may be the kind of guy who wears old-fashioned mage robes and keeps his shop in sweltering heat, but he's also a talented herbalist, the kindest soul Dean has ever met, and utterly beautiful. Not that Dean is ready for anything other than friendship. (Not that Cas doesn’t get sick a bit too often.)

The Bone Eater (WIP) | @rachelhaimowitz Rating: Explicit Word Count: 111259 Main Tags and Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Castiel/Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester/Original Male Character(s), Castiel/Original Male Character(s), Hurt/Comfort, Prisoner Dean, Monsters, Dean Whump, Season/Series 09, Set somewhere between Bad Boys and Holy Terror, Size Kink, Non-Consensual Bondage, Violent Sex, Manhandling, Torture, Castiel Whump, Forced Orgasm, Prisoner Castiel, Possessive Behavior Summary: When Dean wakes in a strange prison cell, he quickly realizes he's become another victim of the mystery monster he and Sam have been hunting: a creature who sucks the marrow right out of people's bones. There are years--sometimes decades--between the killings, and no connection between them but men who were big, strong, and healthy when they disappeared. Dean learns right up close and personal why the monster picks who he picks. Unfortunately, stuck behind bars, consistently outmatched, and growing weaker by the day, he's having a tough time putting that information to good use. But Cas can't hear his prayers anymore (and doesn't owe him shit anyway, the way he left the guy), and Zeke might or might not have his ears on (and might or might not let Sam do anything about it even if he did), and Dean ain't no damsel in distress besides. He's gonna get out of there no matter what it takes, and he's damn well gonna make sure this monster never hurts anyone again--especially not the guy he finally finds the courage to admit he loves.

Fighting My Way Back | @deans-jiggly-pudding Rating: Explicit Word Count: 81740 Main Tags and Warnings: Graphic depictions of violence, major character death, canon compliant up to S13, Slow Burn, PTSD Summary: Sam, Cas, and Mary are trying and failing to break Dean out of Michael’s stronghold. Jack is exploring his potential while slowly recovering his power. He has the ability to create, but until his grace is at full strength, his creation must be made out of something already existing. Our favorite nephilim has a plan to use his newfound power to snap Dean out of Michael's control, but what will become of Dean after the ejection? And can Team Free Will 2.0 stop Michael before he destroys the world?

don't leave me | @breathingdestiel Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1016 Main Tags and Warnings: au, established relationship, angst with a happy ending Summary: Dean is a mess after Cas leaves him. And it's all his fault.

Angeleech | @noiproksa Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 14457 Main Tags and Warnings: hurt/comfort, hurt castiel, case fic, platonic cuddling, sharing a bed, team free will Summary: It was supposed to be an easy hunt, but then everything goes sideways. Dean and Sam have to take care of an injured Cas and find out what is going on with the angel before it is too late.

Keeper of the Garden | @pherryt Rating: Mature Word Count: 5672 Main Tags and Warnings: Perceived MCD but not really, Season 13 Finale Coda, possessed!dean, Michael!Dean, Hurt/Comfort, Saving Dean, Recovering Dean, Angst, Hope, Hopeful Ending, Caretakers Sam and Cas (but mostly Cas), Gardening Dean, Canon, until next season starts anyway, broken!dean, Crazy!Dean, Hurt!Cas, Confessions Summary: Michael backed out of their deal and now Dean's stuck, trapped in his own mind with a crazy Archangel who keeps showing him Cas's death over and over again, keeps making Dean kill Cas over and over again... till he really does and Dean snaps... Finally free of Michael but not of his own sins, Dean is slow to recover from the possession, and is convinced Cas is dead at his own hands. Dean has done a lot of things, both good and bad, but there's nothing that will ever make up for that.

Any Other Day (WIP) | @peanutbutterjelly-pie Rating: Mature Word Count: 21679 Main Tags and Warnings: Canon Compliant, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Friends to Lovers Summary: Victor just wants to finally enjoy his weekend. But when weird reports of a man in a trench coat having been arrested for murder in some small town in Colorado are coming in and the names of the Winchester brothers are all of a sudden mentioned for the very first time in almost a decade inside the FBI building, Victor needs to kiss his free time goodbye. So instead of spending his days on the couch, eating all the takeout he can find and watching crappy movies, he all at once sees himself confronted with an unstable angel, incapable of controlling his powers, a hunter missing from the scene, nowhere to be found, and the other one worried out of his mind about his family. Yeah, that's not the quiet weekend Victor had been hoping for. At all.

You are my home | @DesiraeLovesDestiel Rating: Explicit Word Count: 4774 Main Tags and Warnings: canon verse, bunker fic, post season 11, Castiel whump, love confessions, profound bond, smut, angst Summary: “Cas? Hey buddy, wake up.” Castiel blinked his eyes open slowly, looking up at Dean owlishly before jolting up, nearly clipping Dean’s jaw on the way. “Hey, hey,” Dean said, concern lacing his tone. “You okay, man?” Castiel cleared his throat. “Yes. My apologies, Dean.” “S’okay. You wanna tell me why you’re sleeping in Baby?” Things have settled down since rescuing Sam. Mary is bonding with her sons, and Castiel is nearly back to full capacity, just needing a little sleep here and there. When Dean discovers Cas' unusual resting spot, what starts as a series confessions leads to the emotional healing they both needed.

If This Is To End In Fire | @reaperlove77 Rating: Explicit Word Count: 16279 Main Tags and Warnings: Alternate Universe, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Dean Winchester Whump, Supernatural Elements, Smut, Anal Sex, Temporary Character Death, Happy Ending, Past Abuse, John Winchester's A+ Parenting, Dean-Centric, Haunted Houses, Domestic Violence (not Dean/Cas), BAMF Castiel, Panic Attacks, Minor Eileen Leahy/Sam Winchester, Slurs, Bottom Dean, Top Castiel, Gothic Elements Summary: Dean Winchester doesn't trust easy, not after everything he's been through. When he finds a new home and a new job in Kelvin's Point, he's almost ready to believe he also found happiness for the first time in his life. But what does he really know about this Castiel and is their love enough to keep the ghosts from the past away for good?

When Angels Cry | @sweetdaydreamsblog Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1068 Main Tags and Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence, Major Character Death, Mentions of Suicide, Happy Ending, Hurt Dean Winchester, Emotionally Hurt Castiel Summary: Castiel remembers the events that transpired during Dean's last night on Earth, as well as what happened after.

Eyes Shut | @galaxystiel Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1493 Main Tags and Warnings: AU, Human!Castiel, alcoholism, drunk driving, supernatural elements, angst with a happy ending Summary: Dean learns a lesson about the dangers of drink-driving, and in the process learns a few things about his future.

And I swear | @notfunnydean Rating: Explicit Word Count: 4413 Main Tags and Warnings: abusive relationship, Dean dates Arthur Ketch at first, hurt!Dean, break up between Arthur and Dean, first time, first kiss, bottom!Dean, top!Cas, crying Dean, Cas saves Dean Summary: Dean knows that Arthur is treating him badly, but he had worse in his life and besides, it’s not like the person he really loves wants him back.

I'm a sucker for you | @notfunnydean Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 3148 Main Tags and Warnings: Drunk!Dean, hurt!Cas Summary: Dean knows he and Castiel are a good team, but he only talks about his feelings for Castiel when he’s drunk and doesn’t remember their kisses in the morning. Someday Castiel has enough.

Event Horizon | @cas-lost-grace Rating: Mature Word Count: 6442 Main Tags and Warnings: Suicidal Thoughts, Suicidal Dean, Depression, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Past Character Death, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Angst,Texting, Sharing a Bed, Happy Ending, Veteran Dean, Doctor Dean, Writer Castiel Summary: Castiel couldn't have helped his sister. That's why being offered a chance to help somebody else dealing with suicidal thoughts he took it without hesitation. When he gets the first text from someone who needs his help, nothing goes as he expected.

Finding You, in Pieces of Me | @lunastories Rating: Mature Word Count: 21263 Main Tags and Warnings: Trueform Castiel, Angst with a happy ending, Post Sam's fall into the pit Summary: Dean is jaded after the loss of his brother and left with little to no hope in humanity. Castiel decides to show the world and humanity from his perspective so that Dean can regain the spark that he’s lost. They visit seven locations that have significance to Castiel. From the Cave of Crystals inhabited by an ancient eel spirit, to the Atacama Desert haunted by a heartbroken woman, Dean goes through a journey of self discovery. Slowly, Dean falls for Castiel and the world the angel sees.

Love me to Death | @lunastories Rating: Mature Word Count: 9219 Main Tags and Warnings: Death!Dean, Temporary Character Death, Reincarnation, Angst, Self harm Summary: There once was a man who feared Death. He feared him so much he tried to seek immortality, but his efforts were in vain. Eventually, he learned to love Death and everything he represented. This is the story of a mortal and a god and their love for one another.

Mixtapes (WIP) | silverstar2419 (Wattpad) Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 8407 Main Tags and Warnings: Depression, dealing with depression, mentions of attempted suicide Summary: Two years ago Dean tried to kill himself but Bobby stepped in and saved his life. Now he deals with his unwanted life the same he used to, strippers and beer. What happens when he finds out the person he loves as more than a friend (or brother for that matter) has the same feelings? Let's find out.

What We Ache For | @almaasi Rating: Explicit Word Count: 93115 Main Tags and Warnings: Alternate Universe - Prostitution, Sex Work, Hurt/Comfort, Romance, Fluff, Consent, Sex Worker Castiel, Demisexual Castiel, Police Officer Dean, Affectionate Dean, Dean bottoms for the first time, Making Love, Cuddling and Snuggling, Injury Recovery, Temporary Amnesia, Supportive Sam, Castiel loves dogs, Domestic Fluff Summary: Working as a prostitute (that’s ‘sex worker’ to the decent folks), Castiel has heard more than his fair share of odd requests. When he’s paid to spend a night with Dean Winchester (handsome, dork of all dorks, has a nice car... secretly a cop), the last thing Castiel expects to hear are the words “I wanna make love.” That's the one thing he’s never done before – so Dean is going to show him how to do it. But then, barely a month after that night is over, Castiel finds himself in a difficult situation, and Dean is mistakenly summoned to help. They begin to share again: Dean’s apartment, the spare bed, their deepest secrets. Over time, with the support of Dean’s brother Sam, a mystery dog, and lots of cuddles, kisses, comfort, and tea, maybe Cas can finally be loved the way he deserves.

Lost Night | @almaasi Rating: General Word Count: 2608 Main Tags and Warnings: Canon Universe, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Brief Angst, Pre-Slash, Best Friends, Holding Hands, Dreams, Dreamwalking, Lucid Dreaming, Angel Castiel, Sad Dean, Mutual Pining Summary: Dean is so afraid of losing his best friend that he dreams Cas is floating away. His longing is great enough that the real-life Castiel is summoned, dreamwalking into Dean's subconscious – and, as The Beatles once said: "the minute you let him under your skin... then you begin to make it better..."

Unconditional | @almaasi Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 2676 Main Tags and Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Romance, Fluff and Angst, Love Confessions, First Kiss, Unconditional Love, Human Castiel, Injured Castiel, Caring Dean, Abused Dean, John Winchester's A+ Parenting, Abusive John Winchester Summary: Over the years, Dean's learned a lot about himself, and the way he loves those around him. Now Cas is back from the dead, and he came back human - and hurt. As Dean soothes Cas' wounds in the front seat of the Impala, an ache in his heart drives him to find words to explain.

Mostly in Silence | @almaasi Rating: General Word Count: 4216 Main Tags and Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Romance, Depression, Executive Dysfunction, Mental Health Issues, Self Care, Fallen Angel Castiel, Human Castiel, Castiel in the Bunker, Depressed Castiel, Sick Castiel, Caring Dean, Stargazing, Stars, Holding Hands, First Kiss, Poetic, No Spoilers, Always Keep Fighting, You are not alone Summary: Dean returns home to the bunker, only to find Castiel is lost in a deep depression. Taking their cues from the night sky (perhaps holding hands, perhaps sharing their first kiss), Dean helps Castiel rediscover a small but shining sense of hope.

Delirium and Doctor Sexy | @almaasi Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 9388 Main Tags and Warnings: Crack, Comfort, Fluff, Pre-Slash, Doctor Sexy M.D., Hunt Gone Wrong, Dean Hallucinates, Age Regression/De-Aging (mentally only), Bisexual Dean, Closeted Dean, Innocent Dean, Character Analysis, Dean Projects His Insecurities, Dean in Panties, Magic Made Them Do It, Sexual References, No Sex, Unresolved Romantic Tension Summary: Dean got hit by a wave of magical gas while protecting Sam, and now he's curled up in a motel bed, watching comfort TV on his laptop and hallucinating. Cas hangs around to look after him. But Dean thinks the friendly angel at his bedside is actually his favourite fictional beefcake, Dr. Sexy, M.D.. With all inhibitions on standby, Dean might admit a few things about himself he never dared to tell anyone before.

Dean, 2 pm | @sternchencas Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1464 Main Tags and Warnings: suicidal thoughts, emotional hurt/comfort Summary: Cas is done with his life. He's ready to end it all. The only thing that might be able to change his mind is one little note in his calendar that says 'Dean, 2 pm'.

Patch Me Up | @babybluecas Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 1426 Main Tags and Warnings: canon universe, fallen!Cas, minor injury Summary: When Dean gets injured on a hunt, it's Cas's turn to take care of him.

Oh Death, Bring Him Back | @envydean Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 3984 Main Tags and Warnings: Modern AU, accountant!Cas, mechanic!Dean, hurt!Dean, Temporary Character Death, two-sided unrequited love, Pining, Major Character Injury, Angst with a Happy Ending, Angst, Fluff, First Kiss, Supernatural but Dean and Cas don't know about it, So much begging Summary: Dean is badly hurt after a bar fight and Castiel goes to see him only to find out that the news isn't good. However, supernatural forces are on their side. Castiel follows the doctor quickly, barely a pace behind him. It's as bad as he feared. What if he doesn't get the chance to tell Dean that he loves him. Even if Dean doesn't love him back. The room is reminiscent of a war zone. Several people are crowded around Dean's body. There's blood everywhere, machines going haywire and doctors barking orders. Castiel is frozen to the spot.

Don't Let Go | @envydean Rating: Mature Word Count: 28578 Main Tags and Warnings: EMT!Castiel, mechanic!Dean, alcoholic!Dean, Alcoholism, Car Accidents ,Hospitals, Recovery, PTSD, Descriptions of Injury, Angst with a Happy Ending, Angst, Trying to fall in love Summary: Dean Winchester’s life is a mess. Ever since his father’s death, a downward spiral has seen his occasional beer become something of a crutch. Then, a revelation has him going to see his brother in California—except he doesn’t make it and ends up in a nasty accident, destroying the Impala. Air rescue paramedic, Castiel, and his partner Benny are the ones to pull him out of the wreck and that’s just the start of it. He forms a tentative friendship with Dean and manages to convince him he needs help and that he can be there for Dean. It should have been all uphill from there—because getting sober is easy, right?—except it isn’t and their relationship is thrown into turmoil at the wrong time. Slowly, they learn to accept each other once again.

Like Sands Through The Hourglass | BiP (AO3) Rating: General Word Count: 1643 Main Tags and Warnings: illness Summary: It's always Florida, and it's always witches.

Battle of Mind and Body | @light-in-my-darkness Rating: Explicit Word Count: 164466 Main Tags and Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Sexual Content, PTSD, Whump, Slow Build, Additional Warnings in Notes Summary: A confession. A car accident. A coma. The results of which lead Castiel and Dean on a destructive path. Their family and friends fight to alter that path, but without knowing the truth of that fateful night, they fear their efforts will fail. Determined to box up the pain and humiliation, Castiel falls into depression and self-harm. In the aftermath of that night, Dean confronts his own demons. Both the angel and the hunter struggle to repair the broken pieces of themselves. As they try, will the dark nature of their world stay at bay long enough for them to heal or will it shatter any progress they made?

Taker of Souls | jscribbles (AO3) Rating: Explicit Word Count: 128664 Main Tags and Warnings: temporary major character death, Minor Character Death, Pining, Slow Burn, non-con, dub-con, Blood, Gore, Body mutilation, Self Harm, zombie-type characters, Hallucinations, Nightmares, horror-imagery, shameless use of horror movie tropes, offensive language/insults, spoilers for The Witch ,the boys cry, Sickness, Sweat ,Mud, Possession, canon-calibre discussions of religion, the evil dead 2013 Crossover, Inspired By, Smut, minor prescription drug use, Vomiting, Summary: The angels have fallen. Castiel is human, Sam is recovering from the trials, and Dean doesn’t want to expose them to the world as it’s crumbling outside the bunker doors. To pass time in their solitude, Dean discovers a hidden room in the bunker full of dangerous magical artifacts and accidentally exposes his friends and family to an ancient horror. If Castiel thought adjusting to humanity was already a terror in itself, he experiences a world of pain when the ancient spirit Dean released chooses him as a vessel to fulfill its evil prophecy. Castiel begins to change as voices call out to him in the night and take the form of the one righteous man he desires, temptation drawing him to complete a ritual that will allow one of Hell’s most feared ancient entities to occupy his vessel. Before Sam, Dean, Kevin and Crowley know what is happening, they are thrown into a lockdown, unable to escape the bunker as the cruel, twisted monster inside of Castiel prowls the hallways, hunting them, thirsty for their blood, hungry for their souls.

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Made for each other

A little self-indulgent something I made to fight writer´s block

A/B/O friends to lovers, explicit

When Dean Winchester presented as omega, it was a shock. His father didn’t say it out loud but he had expected his firstborn son to be an alpha and the disappointment hit him hard. The rest of Dean’s family and his friends were supportive but they were surprised as well. They knew Dean as the brash, loud kid who got into fights and always had his knees scratched from climbing trees and running around the neighborhood. They didn’t see him as a soft, caring omega.

Dean himself wasn’t surprised, he was devastated. Not because of his father’s disappointment, not because of his mother’s worried looks, not because of the lewd comments he started to get at school. The reason was Castiel Novak.

Cas has been Dean’s best friend ever since he can remember. With the Novaks living next door, the boys grew up together. They were joined in the hip, inseparable and Dean thought they would be like that forever.

He thought about Cas as his future mate from the moment he learned what it means to be mated. They didn’t talk about it, because in Dean’s mind, it wasn’t necessary. They would just wait to come of age and get mated. It never occurred to him it could be any different. Until the day his body betrayed him.

He ran to his mother as if he was a little boy again. He thought it was just some illness giving him a fever, making his guts feel strange. When he realized what it actually was, he sobbed. His mother was running her hand through his hair as he was soaking his underwear with slick. It meant he was an omega and his dream was ruined because there was no chance in hell his best friend, his sweet, demure Castiel would present as an alpha.

Dean couldn’t look him in the eyes for weeks. He knew it wasn’t Castiel’s fault, it was nobody’s fault. It was just Nature hating him. Castiel hadn’t present yet but there was no doubt that once he would, it would be as an omega. The only thing Dean could do was learn to live with the fact they would never be anything more than friends.

He managed. Cas was too precious to him to avoid him forever. Dean got over it. He even accepted himself as an omega. The heats were annoying without an alpha but he enjoyed the idea of having pups one day. Maybe there was a soft side of him all along, he just never let himself cherish it. Now he was allowed to do it. He was allowed to watch chick flicks and buy pretty things and play with kids and show his emotions and he liked it.

When alphas approached him, though, he always rejected them, still unable to imagine himself with anyone but Cas.

They are lying on Castiel’s bed in comfortable silence. Dean’s on his phone, Cas is reading his astronomy book, pretending to be taking notes but every time Dean looks, Cas is just doodling idly, obviously lost in thoughts that may or may not be about astronomy. Dean doesn’t ask him about it, Cas has been off all day and they almost got into a fight, so Dean doesn’t want to risk triggering his bad mood again. It doesn’t worry him too much, at their age everybody’s moody all the time.

"What’s it like?" Cas says at last and it feels as if he’s popped a bubble that was separating them.

Dean pushes his phone away and looks at his friend. "What?"

"What does it feel like?" Cas repeats, eyes still glued to his notebook. "To be in heat."

Dean freezes. A wave of sadness rushes over him. That’s it then. That’s why Cas has been off. Dean remembers being like that. Cas is going into heat. Dean feels the last spark of hope die in his chest as his fate is going to be sealed. But that doesn’t matter, what matters is Cas who’s going into heat for the first time and he must be scared if he asks Dean such a question.

"It’s weird, but nothing you can’t get used to," Dean replies.

Cas nods. "But what does it feel like? Exactly?"

Dean frowns. It’s hard to describe something like that but he can try if it’s going to help Cas.

"It starts with a fever almost like a cold. But everything gets sharper - colors, sounds, smells, especially smells, but touch too. After a while I get so hot and so oversensitive I can't stand to have my clothes on. And there’s the need. It’s like... almost like hunger like there’s an empty place inside you and you need to fill it and it’s the only thing you can focus on," Dean explains in a low voice. He’s playing with the comforter he’s sitting on, his heart is beating faster and his cheeks are all warm as he’s trying to recall every detail. "Oh and the slick, it’s gross, but it’s not like if you shit yourself it’s just... it goes with the need. For me, it’s part of being turned on now. So you are hard and wet and everything is too bright and too loud and too much and all you need is a cock." He shrugs a little. "I usually fuck myself with a dildo, but it only helps a little. I guess it’s different with a mate around. It might even feel good. You know, because you need it so much and you get it." He lets himself imagine it. Being so hot and bothered and feeling the terrible emptiness and then an alpha pushing into him, giving him what he wants. He shifts a little as a drop of slick soaks into his briefs.

He hears a low growl.

Startled, he looks up and only realized Cas has been very silent during his speech, when he sees him sitting there with eyes shut, his hands balled into fists. There’s a weird smell coming off him.

"Cas? You okay?"

"You need to go," Cas growls.

Not knowing what he’s done wrong, Dean shifts closer, trying to reach for Cas.

Cas gasps and opens his eyes. They are red.

Dean flinches away and drops his outstretched arm. Cas bows his head. Dean’s eyes follow the movement and slide down his body to his crotch with a prominent bulge. He has to bite his lip against a moan.

"Dean, please, go away," Cas whispers. The shame in his tone makes Dean’s chest ache.

"Cas, you’re-" Dean’s mind is utterly confused, stuck between shock and joy and worry. His body, though, knows exactly what it wants and shows it with more slick.

Cas looks up, eyes blue and intense, begging. "Dean, please, you need to leave or I’m gonna... I don’t wanna do anything..."

"What if I want it?" Dean blurts out before his mind can catch up on his mouth.

Cas’ mouth falls slack. "Do you?" he breathes out.

"Of course, Cas!" Dean huffs out a little laugh. This time when Dean reaches out to grab his hand, Cas doesn’t stop him. "I always wanted this! I dreamed about this, but then I... I thought we weren’t compatible and it broke my heart but now-" he gestures between them. "You’re an alpha! We can be together like this we-" he trails off and loosens his grip on Cas’ hand. He feels the blood leaving his face as the realization hits him.

"But you don’t want this." He draws his hand away but Cas catches it.

"Do I look like I don’t want you?"

Dean shakes his head. "But you only want it because you’re going into a rut. You’d fuck anybody right now."

Cas tugs at Dean’s hand and uses it to draw him closer.

"Don’t be stupid, Dean," he growls. His other hand lands heavily on the back of Dean’s neck. "I’ve been in love with you ever since I met you."

Dean lets out a relieved breath but before he can inhale again, hot lips are pressed to his.

It’s wonderful. Cas’ lips are soft and warm and he kisses like he’s been waiting for it all his life, which might be true. Dean loses himself in the kiss, in the way their lips fit together and their tongues slide wetly against each other, in the feeling of Cas drawing him closer and closer. Then Cas draws away like it’s the hardest thing he’s ever done. His chest is heaving as he looks Dean in the eyes.

"Dean, tell me you really want this because if I... I know I won’t be able to stop."

Dean wants to laugh his doubts off, but he notices Cas’ whole body is shaking. He wraps his arms around his shoulders and hugs him tightly.

"I want it, Cas, I really want it, you must smell how much I want it." He feels Cas taking a deep breath against his neck and his body stiffens. He lets out a low growl. Dean squeezes him tighter. "I got you, Cas. It´s gonna be alright. Come on, Alpha, let’s do this."

Dean gasps for breath as he’s pushed down on his back. He knows his eyes are gold. Castiel’s eyes are almost shining red as he grabs the waistband of Dean’s pants and drags them down Dean’s legs. Dean pulls his own t-shirt over his head and turns on his belly. He hears the rustling of clothes as he pushes himself on his hands and knees. Then there are warm hands on his hips.

"Dean," it’s a moan, it’s a plea.

"Yes, Cas, please. I want you." As a prove to his words a drop of slick runs down to his balls and Cas catches it with his tongue, making Dean cry out with surprise. He bites his lips to stifle his moans as he feels Cas’ tongue pushing against his wet hole, tasting him like he’s been starving and Dean’s the only thing that can keep him alive.

"Cas!" Dean shouts when it’s too much and not enough at the same time. "Cas, please! Alpha!"

Cas’ tongue disappears and is exchanged with something else. It takes Dean a moment to realize it’s the head of Cas’ cock being dragged against his rim, spreading Dean’s slick.

Cas pushes in and Dean’s unable to keep his moans contained. Castiel stills, his hands run gently up Dean’s sides in a silent inquiry.

"I’m okay," Dean breathes out. "I’m good, keep going."

There’s a warm kiss pressed to his spine before Cas pushes in deeper. This time Dean’s sounds don’t stop him from filling him more and more with each small thrust.

It’s so much better than fucking himself with a dildo. Cas is warm and alive and he growls softly when he bottoms out inside Dean’s body wrapping his arms around him and holding on for dear life.

"Dean," he moans against Dean’s skin. Dean’s only able to respond by pushing himself against him. Cas takes the hint and starts to move. Slow at first, each drag of his cock against Dean’s rim setting the omega’s body on fire.

His rhythm gets faster, his thrusts harder as he starts losing control and Dean loves it. He loves that he can make him feel like that, he loves being wanted by his Alpha, he loves being held, being filled. He throws his head back, baring his throat for a bite that doesn’t come. Instead, Cas wraps his hand around Dean’s cock and strokes him quickly. Dean’s arms give up under the onslaught of sensation and he drops on his face, ass high in the air for Castiel’s taking. The alpha adjusts his stance and keeps moving, his hips hitting Dean’s ass mercilessly. The change of angle makes Cas’ cock drag over Dean’s prostate and Dean basically sobs into the pillows.

When he feels Castiel’s knot catching at his rim it’s the last straw. He comes crying out Cas’ name. He feels his ass clenching around Cas’ cock and his knot swelling inside him before Cas lets out a heavy sigh and comes, his body shaking on top of Dean.

They roll on their sides, still connected by Cas’ knot. Dean tries to get his breathing under control but it’s hard when Cas pulls him impossibly close, trapping him in the warm cocoon of his arms, his cock twitches inside Dean and gives a last weak spurt of come. Dean moans and finds Cas’ hands so he can intertwine their fingers. He feels soft lips on the side of his neck and no, his heart isn’t going to calm down anytime soon.

"Dean, are you okay? Didn’t I hurt you?"

Dean huffs a soft laugh. "I’m okay, I’m awesome."

Cas rubs his cheeks against Dean’s. "So you don’t regret it?"

Feeling a pang of pain in his chest, Dean cranes his neck so he can catch a glimpse of Cas’ face. "Do you?"

"Of course not! I’m so lucky that we’re compatible, that you want me." The emotion in Cas’ voice makes a swarm of butterflies take off in Dean’s stomach.

"I always wanted you. I was so scared when I presented as omega."

"But why? Was it so unbelievable that I’d be an alpha? I wasn’t at all surprised that you presented as an omega."

"You weren’t?"

"No, Dean. You act all tough but you’re the gentlest person I know."

Dean thinks about it for a moment, rubbing soothing circles with the pad of his thumb against the back of Cas’ hand.

"And you are the most headstrong and brave person I know. I shouldn’t have doubted us."

Cas’ laugher tickles the back of Dean’s neck.

"We’re made for each other," Cas whispers.

"Yes, we are." Dean squeezes around Cas’ knot making his Alpha growl.

#destiel #destiel fanfic #destiel au #a/b/o dynamics #spncreatorsdaily #omega!dean #friends to lovers #coming of age #mating cycles #smut #mine

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charlie-minion · 4 years

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21 Supernatural Questions

I was tagged by @amwritingmeta – thank you for including me, sweetie. You’re so lovely! I gotta tell you that it honestly made my day when I read that one of my favorite meta writers considers my blog one of her favorites, so yeah… thanks! :’D

Now let’s tackle these super fun questions ;-)

1. When did you start watching Supernatural?

I remember I watched for the first time around 2009. Season 4 was on, here in my country, on Warner Channel. I’m sure that season had already finished in the U.S. at that time, but it was just starting to air here in El Salvador. I didn’t know anything about the show and I didn’t know what season that was either, but now I know it was 4 because all I remember was that some dude had rescued another dude from Hell. Period. I understood next to nothing about the plot because I hadn’t seen any episode prior to the beginning of S4. I caught a few episodes now and then and continued to watch for some time until the schedule changed. The eps started to air at 11:00 p.m. and I had to get up early for work, so I stopped watching.

In 2013, I spent one year living in North Carolina with my older sister. I was having a difficult time, so I moved to my birth country (USA) to escape everyone and everything. I had no TV in my room, but I had my laptop and my sis had the first 7 seasons of Supernatural, so I was like, “Hey! I might FINALLY understand that freaking show that looked so cool”. That’s how I started. I wasn’t planning to binge-watch the whole thing, but it became addictive pretty fast.

I loved the first 3 seasons, but once I got to season 4 and Castiel was introduced, I was hooked for real! When I watched season 5 and I saw the “I did it, all of it, for you” from 5x02, I started Googling Dean and Cas, because I was SO SURE I was seeing romance there, and I couldn’t be the only one. I was super excited when I found out there was a Supernatural FANDOM (back then I had no idea that was a thing). And I was even more excited when I learned about Destiel, about shipping, and about all the fandom culture. I joined Twitter, became a Misha stan because the more I read about him, the more I adored him, and I got caught up just in time to watch 8x17 live.

Can you imagine becoming a Dean/Cas shipper all on my own, doing research, finding out about Destiel and then the VERY FIRST EPISODE I watched live, while living in the U.S., was Goodbye Stranger written by Robbie Thompson?!! Those were the days!

I have been watching live, along with the fandom, ever since March 20, 2013. I joined Tumblr during the hiatus and started writing meta (accidentally) at the very beginning of season 9. So yeah! This show has been a very important part of my life for over 6 years now, and I don’t want to think about how things might change after the show ends. NOPE. Not thinking about it AT ALL. (At least not yet).

2. Who is your favorite in TFW?

I absolutely LOVE my three boys. I want them to be happy because they deserve it. But, we can all have a favorite, right? I was a Dean!girl when I started binge-watching. When Cas was introduced, I became a huge Cas fan, and I thought he had become my favorite. However, lately I’ve understood that I became a huge MISHA fan, and that’s a little different. If we’re talking about the SPN cast, Misha is and will always be my favorite because he’s a real life angel. I love that man with all I have! But, if we’re talking about the SPN characters, I have to admit that I will forever be a Dean!girl, no matter what.

I’ll continue after the cut because, apparently, it’s impossible for me to give brief answers :P

3. Who is your least favorite in TFW?

This question sounds cruel, but I want to understand it in a ranking way, not in an “I hate this character” one.

If I have to rank TFW, for me, it would be:

Dean

Cas

Sam

HOWEVER, let it be known that I love my three boys immensely, and I want a happy endgame for the three of them. If Dean and Cas had a happy ending, but Sammy didn’t, that would ruin it for me. Ranking doesn’t equal hating.

4. Tag your top 5 Supernatural blogs!

I’ve said I follow very few blogs because I curate my fandom experience a lot, but you guys make my time on Tumblr extraordinary. I enjoy seeing you in my dash, reading what you blog or reblog and just knowing that you’re around as part of this community. If you answer these questions, please tag me ‘cause I’d like to read what you got to say about our beloved show. Much love to each of you! ♥♥♥♥♥

@dimples-of-discontent @mittensmorgul @cas-you-assbutt-dean-needs-you @naruhearts @casthegrumpy @fangirlingtodeath513 @bluestar86 @viva-la-cockles @obsessionisaperfume @caswouldratherbehere @perfectlyelegantdelusion @occamshipper @amwritingmeta (and no, Annelie, I’m not tagging you because you tagged me; you truly deserve to be here).

If you’re not tagged, please forgive my poor memory, but if we’ve talked before, or I reblog/like your posts, please know that I adore you. ♥

5. Who is your favorite character (not including TFW)?

Oh my! This is so hard to answer. Supernatural has had so many amazing characters that choosing only one is hard. But I guess I have to go with Charlie Bradbury. The only time I seriously considered to stop watching the show was when Charlie was killed off. I was very angry and disappointed, and 10x21 became an episode I truly hate. I don’t think I have ever re-watched the whole ep because the writing was SO BAD. Dean and Sam were stupid in that ep, and Cas was basically a lamp. I… NOPE. Disgusting episode for sure. And I lost my beautiful lesbian queen.

6. Who is your favorite woman in Supernatural?

I should say Charlie again, but because she got covered in my favorite non-TFW character, I will choose someone else for favorite woman.

And that has got to be Rowena. I don’t think there has ever been a female character in Supernatural written better than Rowena. And because the show’s ending, there will never be.

7. John or Mary?

Definitely Mary. We got to know her better. I know certain parts of the fandom didn’t care much for her, but I loved her a lot, not despite her flaws but because of them! She was made human in a realistic way. We had only seen the idealized version of her through Dean’s eyes, but once we got to meet the real Mary, it was something I enjoyed. John, on the other hand, is not a bad person, but he wasn’t the best parent. He loved his children, and I know that, but his love doesn’t negate all the crap he put his sons through, even if his intentions came from a good place. I like the closure the boys got with him in 14x13, though. I was not against it at all. But, as John would say in that ep, “Me versus your mom? That’s – that’s not even a choice.”

8. What were your first opinions of Sam, Dean, Cas, and Jack?

Dean: Since the first moment I saw Dean, I knew he was faking and was trying to hide how broken he felt. That’s why I fell in love with him from the get-go.

Sam: My first opinion was that he was supposed to be the mature and detached brother.

Cas: I thought that he was meant to be the epitome for the enemies to friends trope. (And I added “to lovers” one season later).

Jack: The only opinion I had was that he was going to be the opposite of Lucifer. The characters were saying he was evil way too early for it not to be subverted.

9. What’s your favorite season?

There are many seasons I love. I mean, this show has given us SO MUCH. But, season 8 is probably my favorite for two reasons. First of all, because it was the first one I watched live once I caught up. And to this day, the season finale still blows my mind.

And second, because it was when Carver took the reins of the show and did his best to fix the Gamble era. He gave the Dean/Cas dynamic a serious note, narratively speaking. I’ve said before that even though I shipped Destiel in the previous seasons, it wasn’t until season 8 that I saw an intentional development. It wasn’t played for kicks and laughs anymore, and it wasn’t just Misha’s and Jensen’s doing either. It was in the plot. The whole ‘I stayed one year in Purgatory just to get you back’ and all the ‘I couldn’t bear to think you didn’t want to come with me, so I chose to make it my fault’. Season 8 marked a new era, indeed, and Destiel became a real thing from then on, in my opinion.

10. What’s your least favorite season?

Even though there are some episodes from that season that I truly love (and they’ve become memorable, like The French Mistake or The Man Who Would Be King), as a whole, I don’t enjoy season 6 much. After a formidable season 5, Sera struggled to keep the boat afloat and it shows. Season 6 is certainly the weakest.

11. Opinions on Destiel?

My whole blog was born because of Destiel, so? What do you want me to say? Hahahaha. Destiel is life. And I can divide my opinion in 4 (depending on the showrunner):

Destiel was a fortunate accident during the Kripke era. It was played for laughs and it was the result of whatever was going on between Jensen and Misha. Their chemistry had nothing to do with the script.

Destiel was a tool during the Gamble era. I don’t like to use the word “queerbait”, but I think the closest Supernatural has been to that was when Sera was the showrunner. It seems to me like she used the ship to lure the fandom and keep the audience, but it’s clear she had no intention of giving a resolution (we all know how she treated Misha, so…).

Destiel became an intentional part of the narrative during the Carver era. As I said before, it wasn’t until season 8 when you could clearly see that things were not accidentally there anymore. It wasn’t a joke, either. The ship sailed for real during the Carver era, but Jeremy was not allowed to give a resolution because the show continued to be renewed.

Destiel became canon during the Dabb era. I mean, I know people will argue that it’s not canon yet. And I understand what they mean. But, in my opinion, Destiel hasn’t been TEXTUALLY made canon, but when Andrew took the reins of the show, he made Dean and Cas sooooo married that I came to the conclusion explaining the subtext was unnecessary. It was WAY too in the nose to need explaining. So, I stopped trying hahaha. I don’t know if we’ll ever get Textual Canon Destiel, but in regards to Subtext, it can’t get more canon than that. And noooo, that doesn’t mean queerbait at all. Queercoding is a thing, you know?

12. Do you believe Supernatural queerbaits?

As per my previous answer, currently I don’t think Supernatural queerbaits. I do believe Dabb, Bobo and company want to give the Dean/Cas storyline a satisfying resolution. I have no idea what they will be allowed to do, but even if they can’t textually give us what we want, I have faith they will find a subtextually strong way to wrap things up. I enjoyed when Misha and Jensen explained in the DC Cockles panel the restrictions the CW puts, and I think it applies to so much more than blood and language.

13. Seasons 1-7 or 8-14?

Seasons 8-14, no doubt. For two reasons: 1) They are really good (and gave Destiel relevance) and 2) those are the seasons when I was already part of the fandom and could enjoy week after week.

14. Favorite villain (plot wise)?

I think Chuck is the best of the best. Because when we look back, we now know that all the other villains were thanks to Chuck’s machinations. Plot wise that’s amazeballs! I mean, the fact that we always thought (or hoped) that God was on the Winchesters’ side just to learn he was the villain all along. Chef’s kiss!

15. Do you think they should end the Lucifer plot line?

I think they squeezed the freaking Lucifer plot line as much as they could… until it got to a point where I was sick of it. Everything related to Nick and Lucifer in season 14 was stupid and boring, to say the least. The plot line should have ended when Dean stabbed Lucifer. Although… I would have liked a better closure for Sam, but I’m good. As long as I don’t have to see Pellegrino again, I’m good.

16. Who do you think has gone through more trauma (Sam, Dean, or Cas)?

I don’t like this question and refuse to answer because trauma is NOT a competition (either in real life or in fiction). Trauma is trauma and it affects people. Something Sam went through was painful to him and that same thing may be less traumatic to Cas, but that doesn’t mean the repercussions and the suffering are less real for Sam, just because Cas suffered in other ways that may have affected him more. Trauma is personal. All I know is that the three of them have gone through A LOT and that’s why they deserve peace and happiness. Period.

17. What’s your favorite Supernatural episode?

There are more than 300 reasons to love this show. I mean, it’s almost impossible to choose ONE episode out of so many that I love. But for the sake of this question, I will answer with a very personal choice. My favorite ep could probably be 12x22 because of the moments between Dean and Mary. Dean needed a moment to finally say what he had been repressing all his life. All that hate mixed with all that love. He needed to let it out. And it was both gut-wrenching and beautiful to watch. I always cry when I see it (and I mean gross sobbing for real).

18. Do you like case episodes?

I like them most of the time. I don’t enjoy them so much when they air because I would like the plot to move forward, but it’s the case episodes where we learn more about what’s going on with our characters (their internal emotional battles) through other characters and subtext. It’s an interesting exercise, and that’s why I end up liking most case episodes in the end.

19. Who do you relate most to in TFW?

For people who have been following my blog for some time, this will come as no surprise. I relate the most to Dean Winchester.

In fact, I AM DEAN. I can find in my life every single thing about Dean’s journey. I came to accept my sexuality thanks to Dean (first as bisexual, and later as demisexual once I became more educated). I have felt worthless and like I don’t deserve to live or to be loved, just as much as Dean. I have felt like a burden, like I’m here just to help/please others, and if I’m not doing that, then I’m failing at life.

I get why Dean lashes out and hurts the people he loves even though he’s so afraid to lose them. I understand why Dean builds huge walls to protect himself from being hurt and what he needs to grow. Because his struggles are my struggles. And now I’m crying, so I better move on to the next question.

20. Why do you like Supernatural?

I like Supernatural because I’ve been able to learn about myself thanks to the characters. Despite being a genre show, the personal journeys (character arcs) have been so real and relatable that I truly think this show is a masterpiece. The fact that I’ve grown as a human being thanks to an ordinary TV show is incredible. I don’t think there will ever be another show like Supernatural in my life.

21. If you could bring back one character and kill off another who would they be?

I would bring back Charlie. The original Charlie. I mean, I know we have seen lovely Felicia Day again thanks to AU!Charlie, but I couldn’t connect with her the same way I did with the original one. Probably because not even the boys have been able to connect with her the same way, either. They see her and they will always see the little sister they lost. It’s hard to think of AU!Charlie as her own person if she always reminds you of the one you lost. ETA: I forgot who I would kill. I guess no one. I mean, if Lucifer were still around, I'd kill him. Or Nick. I just got tired of his face.

Wow! This turned into a very long post, but I had so much fun.

I tag EVERYONE who would like to do this as a way to pay tribute to our wonderful show. Much love to y’all!

#tagging game #supernatural #21 spn questions #spn fandom #destiel adjacent

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A Gray Day in Purgatory

WHAT DOES YOUR SHIP MEAN TO YOU? DESTIEL

Prompt: An episode you think best depicts their relationship. (Used all ten minutes of purgatory screen time as inspiration)

I was thinking about whose perspective I wanted to right in but the theme here is what does the ship mean to me. I knew right away purgatory was where mine was taking place. So who better than Benny Lafitte my narrator. So here we go onto the story under the tab.

Benny Lafitte died a long time ago and then he got his head chopped off by his so-called family. He belongs in purgatory with all the other monster sons of bitches running around here in their eternal damnation. Doesn’t mean he don’t get real fucking sick of it.

He hears the stories the rumors. Way back when little Eve was thrown down here for her sins. God gave her an escape hatch, the leviathans never let her through. Course probably never happened God wasn’t a thing, he wouldn’t have made such a terrible monster. Benny would love to jump back into the real world kill his old man, avenge his Andrea.

He’s been hearing some new rumors lately, a human and an angel crashed landed in this hellhole. Now Benny doesn’t believe the whole angel bit no matter what his running mates are telling him. Ain’t no such thing as an angel just what lives in the bible.

Benny watches his teammate, Florian french revolutionists he may have been, he is not a good fighter he has the brains. His lover Pablo old Mexican royalty from the Spanish invader days. Benny rolls with them nothing interesting most days just chopping away. They were both older than him but so dumb you wouldn’t guess it.

But he sits back and watches something shove Florian against a tree. Pablo is on his way back to them he can hear it. But this man must be that so called angel. Very pretty smells something fresh even if he is covered in dirt. Heart pounding steadily pumping that so called angelic blood. Sharp jaw, stubble, green eyes like a pretty gem. He’s got a presence alright he is commanding the forest like he owns it.

“Where’s the angel” is growled out of those pretty lips and Benny is taken aback.

“You must be the human,” Florian growls and he put it together faster than Benny. This man can not be a regular human but Florian’s head is gone and Pablo comes seconds too late.

This newcomer is tackled and Benny watches the struggle. If this really is a human than he can bring Benny out of this hell. He rushes forward and sees the betrayal and shock in Pablo’s eyes but he swings. Better off dead than moping over Florian for the rest of his undead life.

Benny learns very quickly that this newcomer is indeed a flesh and blood human. He is, however, one stubborn mean son of a bitch. Benny also learns his name is Dean.

“What’s your angel's name?” Benny asks as they settle down for the night. He’s met with a piercing green gaze and lips curled in anger.

“You don’t gotta know he’s my angel we’re gonna get him and get out” Dean growls hands curling tighter over Florian’s blade.

Dean isn’t looking to play nice or make friends that much is overly apparent to Benny. So he raises his hands and rolls over. Dean grunts and does the same. Clearly, he forgets what Benny is because Benny hears Dean’s whispers as if he was shouting them in Benny’s ears.

“Dear Castiel whos ass art around here somewhere. Get your feathered ass over here. I got a way out now dude and if anyone is gonna know about an escape hatch made by god” Dean trails off and sighs. “Whatever” he finishes it with and Benny purses his lips.

Never took Dean for the religious type but that was no regular choir boy prayer. No Dean was praying to his angel, his angel Castiel. Benny has never heard of no Castiel. But then again all he ever heard was Lucifer. Benny has gone and got himself stuck with a crazy human because there ain’t no such thing as angels he is as sure of that as he is that the gray morning will come in purgatory. What he wouldn’t give to feel the sun again.

Dean is relentless in his search and nothing Benny says seems to be convincing him otherwise. Dean stops whispering his prayers realizes the futility of that. He doesn’t even wait for Benny to pretend to fall asleep. Benny would sure like it if he did, it is too raw to see those hard eyes raw with emotion as he prays to his so called angel.

“What is your Castiel even the angel of” Benny drawls staring at his human huh wonder when he started thinking of Dean like that.

Dean flinches at that and opens his mouth and shuts it again. “Don’t use his name” Dean snarls.

“What do I call your pet then hmm? Cas, Cassie, feathers?” Benny begins listing.

“None of those Castiel is his name. Cas is for family, Cassie is for his siblings, and he ain’t my damn pet” Dean snarls with that rage only priests can manage up Benny knows that for sure. Wonder who else gets to call that angel Cas if the guys' siblings were not family.

“Didn’t take you for a religious follower brother” Benny decides on finally.

“Cas? I’d follow him anywhere” Dean says and looks at his bloody hands with wide eyes like he just noticed them. “You call him, angel you don’t get no other title” Dean snaps and sighs.

“Alright brother I’ll back off,” Benny says and goes to stand.

“Thursday” Dean mutters and Benny stares at him. “Castiel is the angel of Thursday’s the fourth day,” Dean says clearing his throat.

Benny smirks and nods before sitting down beside Dean again. He is lost in his thoughts and Benny is content to be silent for the rest of the night. If angels were real Dean deserves something better than the angel of Thursday, nothing interesting happens on Thursdays.

Benny follows him and sighs as Dean tortures monster after monster growing more desperate every time to find his angel. And then they’re told the stream up north.

Benny tries to make Dean rest for the night but his human presses Florian’s knife to his throat and demands they keep going. Benny concedes he’s starting to think he’d follow Dean anywhere. This so called angel doesn’t deserve any of Dean let alone his faith.

The grey breaks through the black and they come over a ridge. Dean sprints forward yelling out Cas. The man in the trench coat in kneeling but Benny hears loud and clear in a voice like gravel, “Dean.”

The man stands and Benny is off to the side. Dean hugs him tight and arms don’t raise to meet the first act of affection Benny has seen give. Does this man not realize how lucky he is to have Dean.

He tries once again to make Dean give up on his quest to bring this man who calls himself an angel with them. Dean won’t relent and this angel gives in. Benny is starting to wonder who is following who.

They walk in silence Dean who would trudge ahead head swiveling eyes wild is slower paced with Castiel. Eyes glued to him a slight smile on his face. Well, Benny could have never understood how much Dean loves his angel until he watched Dean hug him tight and demand he come home.

They are jumped by a goddamn rugaru nasty little bastards. Weapons go up and Benny watches it speed towards them when it collides forehead to Castiel’s hand. Benny has to look away and sees Dean with a bowed head already as a blinding light shines through the forest. The rugaru looks burnt like a husk and Dean slides right back up to Castiel.

He starts chatting Castiel up about grace usage and being connected to the home base all the way in purgatory. Castiel starts mumbling nonsense about heaven being aligned in some ways with Heaven and Hell despite common human perceptions and he just keeps going.

Benny is kind of awed by it the energy in the air. Castiel really is an angel. He just used bestowed by God's power to wipe out a monster with no effort. Dean wasn’t shocked he was well aware of exactly what he fell in love with.

Benny is shocked by it all of course. This angel has some blue eyes but they’re swirling with some otherworldly Benny feels like a flea under that gaze how Dean can stand it he don’t care to know. His skin is pale that's for sure but Benny passes by him and touches his hand. Even covered in dirt there is no sweat, skin cold to the touch. He can hear clearly ain’t no heart pumping the blood is dead. But it smells pure like something ain’t never lived. He can hear the angel ain’t breathin’ like he got no reason to.

Benny was a fool to think Dean could have ever been an angel. Dean shines like the sun something you look to for life because he is alive he is thriving in purgatory. No Castiel looks out of place so holy the world seems to have color where he is standing. A shine in a blue-white tint. Dean is drawn to it they’re drawn to each other. Moths to flames. Dean, while the prettiest, nastiest, most righteous son of a bitch Benny has ever met, is not an angel. Castiel with his stone-cold persona, his voice that invokes attention, and that power radiating off him he is a lot bigger than that body he is in and everybody knows it.

Strong too Dean almost fell right into a river with a siren calling but Castiel picked him up around the waist and the water spit the siren out onto the land his eyes glowing. She curses and spits but Benny cuts her head off. Dean stops his futile struggles and seems to relax back against his angel before Castiel lets him go.

Dean starts to laugh when they settle down for the night. He speaks of his brother of his home and Benny realizes Dean was never his human. Dean ain’t following Castiel and Castiel ain’t following Dean. They’re walking side by side and this Sam kid is right there with them or he will be when they get out. Castiel keeps up his instance that he will not be able to pass through. Benny wishes it would get through Dean’s very thick and stubborn skull.

It only seems to anger Dean when the angel mentions leaving. He clings and he rants and he yells. Benny is sick of the bickering and the angel does not like nor trust him he could not be less subtle. Dean doesn’t seem to care about that. But Benny makes a comment about Cas slowing them down and Dean threatens him.

Benny sighs again as Dean says they’ll take Castiel if it kills all three of them. “And if it doesn’t work” the angel begins again, holy mother mary he is worse than Dean.

“Then I will track Crowley’s ass down and I will use Benny’s blood and I will rip that portal to purgatory back open to pull you out” Dean snaps and turns eyes wild.

“Dean the leviathan, I already” Castiel begins.

“I will do whatever it takes to bring you home with me so you better hope it works” Dean interrupts and grabs Castiel by the trench coat. “Because Sammy is probably up there planning something dumb and I wouldn’t be half surprised if one of your million siblings is planning a prison break” Dean smirks and the angel winces at the mention of his siblings.

Benny thinks about Andrea and his love falls short. He can see in front of him a couple that will last the ages, stories will be and have been told about the hunter and his angel. Two souls connected even if that angel don’t have no soul he glows bright enough.

Benny was sure they were in love, of course, watching Dean kiss his angel like they were sealing a deal made it clear to him. Dean was resolute in his goal to drag Castiel’s ass home with him. To Dean’s brother which Benny thinks that three for them is family. Not a crowd but the Winchester’s which just so happened to include an angel.

They see the portal and Benny has this fear that Dean will lob off his head or Castiel will smite him. But Dean promises him trust Benny has earned and he nods to Castiel and then nothing.

Benny wakes up in his grave and Dean hands him a blood bag. He sighs and breathes in real air and looks up at real stars. “Where’s the angel?” he asks and watches Dean’s smile die and his eyes fill with tears.

“H-uh, Cas didn’t make it” he whispers head down words held down by grief. Benny don’t believe that they were tops an hour from the portal. Maybe it really didn’t work for angels.

Dean clears his throat and Benny is watching a grieving man try and smile. “Dean I know it is hard to lose someone so special to you” Benny begins.

“Not the first time I’ve lost Cas. Let it go Benny” Dean says shaking his head and moving on from the topic. Benny knows for certain that Dean is never moving on. Benny has never been so sure of two peoples love for each other as watching those two fight back to back, talk and bicker, sit in silence always connected. He heard Dean’s prayers and he watched Castiel hold Dean close while he slept.

He knows Dean isn’t going to give up on his angel ever. Benny also knows Castiel ain’t no delicate flower no way that angel is dead and staying away from Dean. Castiel, he’ll be back and Benny knows it will be straight back to Dean.

One way or another Dean and Castiel are made for each other and they’re going to be together.

allshipscreationchallenge|Rainbow820 ↳ Prompt: An episode you think best depicts their relationship. Again I used all the purgatory screen time here. There was not full episodes worth.

#allshipscc #SPN #Destiel #Benny Lafitte #Outsider POV #Purgatory #Season 8 #No Beta

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Fighting For You (Cas x Dean)

Word Count: 2009

Summary: Cas comes face to face with Michael while he is in control of Dean’s body. Will Michaels words break Cas?

Characters: Cas x Dean, Sam (Mentioned), Jack (Mentioned)

Warnings: Angst and some blood.

A/N: I had this posted on here a while ago under another name but I did some rewriting and thought I’d share it again :) I know we’re past the Michael storyline now but I hope you still enjoy it.

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The sound of Cas's shoes echoed off the high walls when he stepped inside the old empty warehouse. It seemed like it had been untouched for years, the windows were broken and the ones that were left were covered in dirt or spray paint. Graffiti was scattered across the walls and the floors were cover in rubbish left behind by drunk teenagers. His eyes scanned the room before settling on a shadowy figure in the corner of the room, they were covered by the dark and Cas couldn't make out the details of the person. He tried not to get his hopes up. Most of the time it just ended in disappointment but part of him couldn't help it. He thought maybe, just maybe it could be him. He pleaded to whoever would listen. Please, let it be him.

The figure finally turned around and walked into the beams of light that were cast across the floor from the broken window above him. The temperature in the room seemed to drop, Cas's heart dropping with it. The face he recognised all too well. It was Dean. As much as he wanted it to be him Cas knew it wasn't truly Dean. Dean's usual casual flannel and jeans had now been replaced with a black suit. A black vest and red tie decorated with gold hung over a white shirt. His bright green eyes that Cas had stared into so many times before were now glowing blue with grace. The soft expression Dean always had when he looked at Cas was a stone cold glare. This was not the Dean Cas knew.

"Hello, Castiel." A sly grin spread across his face as he spoke.

"Michael," Cas said coldly.

"I really didn't expect you to show up," Michael admitted.

"Either did I."

"Well, then again I know you can't resist any chance to see your lover boy." Michael teased taking a few steps towards Cas.

Cas drew himself up to full hight. He knew what Michael was trying to do. He was trying to break him and Cas had no intention of letting that happen. He had fought too hard to get to this point only to be broken by his older brother.

"Or am I wrong? I mean I don't know what's going on up there." Michael pointed to Cas's head before continuing. "But up here? Oh boy, it's just Cas this and Cas that ALL the time. Honestly, it's like he'd die if he stopped thinking about for more than a second. Cons of sharing a body I guess."

"You're not sharing a body. You're in control, Dean has no choice. No say." Cas snapped, his hand tightening into a fist. His nails dug into his palm so hard he was surprised it didn't draw blood.

"Now, now Cassie no need for that tone of voice."

"What do you want from me, Michael?"

"Well, I thought maybe it was time to finally fill you in on the plan for this world," Michael stated turning his back on Cas, to examine the wall behind him.

"I don't give a damn about your plan. You'll be gone before you get to do anything. I'll make sure of it." Cas threatened.

Michael spun around, the movement so quick Cas only saw a blur before he had hit him full force in the stomach. The blow knocked the air out of his lungs sending him stumbling backwards. He gasped as he hit the floor. He started to cough as he tried to regain his breath.

"What is your problem with authority Castiel?" Michael hissed. "Did no one ever teach you respect?"

"I learned that free will is an option." Cas spat back.

"I had a good chat with Lucifer before he took me to this world. He talked about how you droned on about that whole "free will" thing all the time. It's an illusion, you'll never be truly free. It is time you learned that you are a soldier Castiel. Nothing more, and you will never be anything more. Not even to the Winchesters."

This wasn't Dean. No matter how much it sounded like him it wasn't Dean. Dean would never say anything like that. But it sounded so much him like him.

"I mean you don't really think they care about you, do you? They just keep you around for protection. A personal attack angel. What is better than an angel to protect you from all that is evil in this world? Especially when it is blindly devoted to you. I mean they'll probably abandon you soon, you're powers have been running a bit low lately, haven't they? You're starting to become more of a burden to the Winchesters."

It wasn't Dean.

"And that whole "you're our brother" thing is bull. They don't give a damn about you and never will. You are not family to them, and they are not yours. Your family is in Heaven. You know, your brothers and sisters that you turned your back on and let die out. Do you know how many Angels are left? You killed us off Castiel. No one can make more except for God and there's no sign of him. All so you could save one human. I mean you said you did it all for heaven but it wasn't. It never was. It was for him." Michaels words were dripping with venom as he spoke.

It wasn't.

"Screw. You. You're lying! You know nothing about the Winchesters or my relationship with them."

Cas tried to push himself off the floor only to be met with Michael's shoe against his cheek. The kick sent him back to the ground again. His face stung from the force and a drop of blood trickled down his face from the cut that now ran across his cheek.

"You're broken Castiel! They are manipulating you and you don't even know. I mean they are better friends with the King of Hell than you. Do not get me started on Jack either. He is Lucifer's son, not yours. He only accepted you because he was defenceless and would have died without you. He will leave you once he can survive on his own."

"Dean!" Cas cried trying to ignore the words coming from Michael but it was getting harder. Each word hit him harder than the last. They picked at everything that Cas had feared since he fell all those years ago.

"Dean!" Michael mocked Cas's desperate voice just like Lucifer had done when it was Dean crying out for him.

Is this how it had felt for Dean when Cas had let Lucifer in? Had he felt as useless as Cas did now? Cas suddenly felt consumed by guilt. His stomach twisted in knots, the urge to cry suddenly taking over. He had never meant to hurt Dean that much, he had just been trying to help. Now karma was catching up.

"Do you really think Dean actually loves you? He has the pick of practically every girl he sees, so why would he settle for a broken angel? Even if he did you know what heaven would do to him. The love between a human and an angel is forbidden. They would kill him. You could never be together."

Cas kept his eyes trained on the floor. He wasn't going to let Michael bully him into giving up but he was afraid if he looked up if he saw Dean's face he'd break completely. Hearing those words come out of Dean's mouth was breaking him. Whether it was Dean or not he didn't know how more he could take.

"What too scared to fight back? Maybe you are a Winchester after all because not one of you seems to be able to fight against the ones you love even when they're possessed. Be it by an angel, demon, the devil himself or archangel!" Michael gestured to himself at the last part.

Michael grabbed Cas by the tie forcing his head upwards. Taken by surprise Cas looked into eyes almost forgetting why he had been looking away. He could see the rage burning in his eyes and he flinched away. Cas had only seen that look in Dean's eyes once and he never wanted to remember it. Dean could have killed him that day. He almost did.

"So the threat of losing it all doesn't scare you but Dean Winchester does?"

Cas finally managed to push himself off the ground, Michael didn't try to stop him this time. He pulled himself up straight trying to hide what he was truly feeling from Michael. He rubbed his cheek smearing the blood from the cut across his face.

"Dean doesn't scare me and either do you and I won't sit here and be bullied into giving up on him. So if you're going to kill me just do it."

Cas closed his eyes and waited to feel the all too familiar coldness of an Angel Blade pierce his chest. Instead, he felt the weight of someone collapsing into his arms. He felt their hands gripping his trenchcoat trying not to fall. His eyes instantly snapped open and he collapsed to his knees, the sudden weight sending him off balance.

"Cas." Michael panted.

Except his voice was softer now and sounded more broken, cracking halfway through the word. He was weak, barely able to stand and just about in control. Cas remembered the feeling, how weak he'd felt when he took control again. How defenceless he felt.

"Dean? Dean is that you?" Cas asked desperately pulling him into his lap.

"Cas I'm so sorry. I thought I was helping, I just wanted to get Sam and Jack back. I thought we could trust him but he lied. I should have know better." Dean cried his hands twisting into the front of Cas's shirt.

"Dean it's okay. You did the best you could." Cas reassured him. "You helped but now we need you back. You have to expel him."

"I- I can't. I'm not strong enough."

Cas could tell that even this was taking everything Dean had. If he even tried to expel him in this state it wouldn't end well. Dean's eyes snapped shut for a second and he brought his hand to his head. It almost seemed like he was in pain.

"Cas I don't know how long I can keep control. You have to run. If he killed you if I had to watch my own hands do that to you. I couldn't live with myself."

"Dean I don't want to leave you like this."

"I'll be okay Cas. I'll make it back, I promise. Tell Sammy I love him will you? And make sure he doesn't do anything stupid. If he gets himself killed, I'll kill him again once I get back."

"I will." Cas nodded tears burning his eyes.

Cas reluctantly went to stand up again but just as he got to feet Dean grabbed his sleeve. He pulled Cas back onto the ground next to him. Cas was confused for a second before Dean gently wrapped his hand around the back of Cas's neck and pulled him into a kiss. Dean's lips barely brushed against Cas's before he pulled away again. Cas sat there, shocked. He tried to speak but the words were trapped in his throat.

"Go." Dean smiled weakly at him.

"I won't stop fighting for you," Cas said finally.

"You better not."

Cas turned his back on Dean and within seconds he was gone with nothing more than the faint sound of wings. Once Cas was gone Dean got to his feet, he was barely able to stand and the ground felt like it was swaying under his feet. His vision blurred and within seconds everything around him went black. He fell, his head hitting the floor hard.

"Now Dean you know we can't have that." Michael's voice echoed in his head a sarcastic edge to his words.

He was in control, and Dean wasn't getting it back anything soon.

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orionsangel86 · 6 years

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14x02 - Episode Review - Without the Bells and Whistles

Bucklemming colour me impressed. This episode was a rich character driven story that left me full and satisfied and that is something I NEVER say about Bucklemming. I am amazed at how character focused these first two episodes are and truly hope that Dabb keeps up the momentum among writers. It is a change of pace with the show, and a change of focus, but it is WORKING so far.

As always with BL episodes there were some pacing issues and clunky dialogue in parts, but damn Dick Speight Jr is doing a fabulous job making the show look beautiful. As with 14x01 there is a lot to discuss, though I will try to be brief as I have a desperate need to write a separate post about Cas because my angel had me in tears in this episode and he needs an essay written about him in it.

Without further adieu, a long review is under the cut.

Michael and the Bait

Firstly Jensen did spectacularly in this episode. Such a drastic difference from 14x01 and I’m not sure if that’s because of Dick being a more hands on director or Jensen finally making a choice but he has settled into the role and plays Michael as a sinister psychopath on a mission. Michael has far more personality in this episode. He is more interesting to watch and managed to hold my attention unlike in 14x01. This makes me happy.

So what’s the deal guys? Michael spends this episode focusing on his monster experiments, brags about owning Dean, and then just leaves? Obviously that’s not what happened. The clue is in the key moments:

“Why be the hunted, when you can be the Hunter?”

“Rule no.1 you can’t have a trap without bait. Rule no.2 Once the trap has been sprung, you don’t need the bait anymore.”

Michael’s plan has been set in motion. The scene with the vamp girl being foreshadowing for the bigger picture, the bigger goal. Is Michael going after the hunters? If his plan is to make a world where Monsters are in charge, then the hunters need to be eradicated. It makes sense. It also therefore makes sense that you would set your sights on hunter central – the bunker. So Dean was let free so Michael could keep a watch on the bunker and it’s residents through him. As far as the rules go, if Dean is the bait, then releasing Dean is Michael not needing him anymore directly. The trap itself is the mystery, but I suspect we will find out more about exactly what Michael has done in 14x03, and it will most likely all have to do with this mysterious scar. I don’t think Michael is hiding “in” Dean so much as has an “open connection” to him where he could jump back in at any time without Dean’s consent. But we shall find out soon enough I’m sure.

Mary x Bobby

Obviously I support this ship, but I support it even more seeing as they have now paralleled Mobby to Destiel in two episodes in a row.

“My FBI is a little rusty”

This week, Bobby is our Cas mirror and Mary is our Dean. The fond pat on the back was the only hint we got that this was romantic, but like with 14x01, I ask you to try to find a single viewer who doesn’t see “something there” between this generic heterosexual couple? They are continuing to show their relationship through nothing BUT destiel parallels and it continues to delight me that this is now the shows go-to way to portray romance.

On a slight side note, Bobby being from an apocalypse AU world, he is the classic hunter right now who only sees in black and white, and the way he went for the vamp girl even after she tried to explain how she had never harmed a human. Bobby’s take on things this season will be an interesting one as it’s a continuous theme in this show to explore what makes a monster, something that dates back to John Winchester days (the ultimate black and white hunter). Also his understandable suspicions about angels making the dynamic with Cas a potentially interesting one. I wonder if this Bobby will ever utter the phrase “family don’t end with blood”?

Nick – It’s a chicken and egg situation

*sigh* I’m still not won over, and I probably won’t be. I expected this episode to be Nick heavy, and the flashbacks irked me because I simply don’t care. But I get that they would be necessary for a general audience. My lack of care is my own issue. It doesn’t matter how much Mark P acted his arse off trying to give us a decent performance (his first in years), I’m still not gonna be a fan. I’m still gonna skip those scenes in subsequent re-watches but that’s just me. I just don’t find it interesting even if he is being embedded into the story in a way that is paramount to the plot and the characters own struggles and development. I will acknowledge that importance and move on. I suppose the take away from Nick’s role in this episode when not specifically tied to Castiel (which I will yell about later) is whether or not he murdered his wife and child before he was possessed by Lucifer. The set up in the episode, the scripting and the direction implies that yes, he did. Though that could be a misdirection.

At the beginning of the episode, when he was asking Castiel what would possibly make him say yes to Lucifer to begin with, he had seemingly forgotten all about the brutal murder of his family, until Cas reminded him. Perhaps he had just repressed the trauma to the point that he had removed it from his mind to save himself further torment – but then murderers do that as much as grieving widows. Interestingly of all the things we learn about the murder case, we never actually learn Nick’s whereabouts, only from Castiel saying “you weren’t there” which is entirely unreliable because how would he have known other than from reading about the case himself? We know Nick’s neighbour is jumpy around him, so what did the neighbour actually see? We know his wife and child were killed with a hammer – an extremely intimate murder weapon and one that has been meta’d before in relation to Demon!Dean. Strangers don’t murder people with a hammer. It’s the weapon of crimes of passion, of extreme emotional connection to the victims. There is nothing cold and detached about a hammer. People who pick hammer’s to kill seek out the mess and extreme violence that they cause. It’s horrific and so much more gruesome than a knife or a gun. To kill an infant with a hammer? Even worse. To then see Nick murder the neighbour in the same violent attack, it is very easy to assume that he was the original killer as well.

If we assume Nick was the killer what does this mean for the canon of the show? Is this how Lucifer picks his vessels? What does this say about Sam? Who had to consume gallons of demon blood before he could contain Lucifer, Sam who had to be “corrupted” from a young age to prepare him? Was Nick already corrupted enough thanks to his apparent violent streak?

OR was this new kill with the hammer a result of what Cas called Lucifer’s “influence”, the “damage on his psyche”? Did Lucifer create the monster? Or was the monster already a part of Nick? If the season is going to continue the themes of previous seasons in exploring the shades of grey between men and monsters, then Nick is a key component. Is he the innocent victim of the devil? Or is he a tormented killer, who just so happened to get what he deserved? How would this affect the boys? If they are already struggling to find compassion towards a man wearing the face of their abuser, how does this potential new bit of information fit into that story? Perhaps, if Nick really is the killer, once this is found out it gives the writers an easy way to ultimately have him killed off without any guilt of tormenting and villainising an innocent. My money is actually on this theory. Plus it gives me a reason to continue hating him for the hell of it. But hey, that’s just me.

Castiel – The Angel with Too Much Heart

Oh Cas. What DON’T I have to say about you in this episode? I was amazed by Bucklemming’s dedication to Cas as a character and devotion to getting him right for once… I feel like I have slipped into an alternate universe because of this.

In 14x01 Cas was physically beaten, and in 14x02 he is emotionally beaten. I can’t help but wonder if this spells gloomy foreshadowing for Cas in the coming episodes. I want to write about this in depth as this episode is a fascinating insight into Cas’s psyche and his character arc going forward BUT I am leaving that for a separate post so in this review I will just sum it up:

Consider what happens to Cas in several points:

He overhears Bobby saying “angels ain’t known for their veracity” about Jo – that he doubts she was telling the truth. Cas shrugs it off and “tends to agree with him” but the awkwardness is obvious. This isn’t the Bobby who saw Cas as a son after all.

He is told he cannot go along on the mission to save Dean because his “angelic presence would be sensed by Michael” therefore his grace has rendered him useless.

He is made to relive his own possession by Lucifer “you were in a lot of pain, and Lucifer saw a vulnerability and he exploited it” though not talking about himself, the implication is obvious to anyone with a good memory of previous seasons.

He is made to relive another dark chapter of his history when his grace was stolen and he was human. Cas gives Jack a heartfelt positive speech that does show he is in a better place now “I had Sam and Dean, but I had something else that was extremely helpful. I had myself. Just the basic me, as Dean would say without all the bells and whistles” (which btw is so so good for human!cas meta) but the truth is actually far more depressing than Cas lets on, and the pain of what happened at that time, how Dean kicking him out of the bunker only encouraged the view that without his grace he was useless and unwanted by Dean – hence jilted lover.

He is surprised by Nick trying to “snap” him to oblivion which could easily be a trigger for Cas bearing in mind Lucifer has blown him up before via that very gesture.

He had to relive his “greatest regret” and what he did to Jimmy and his family. “You’re just a stone cold body snatcher, you’re no different from Lucifer” and you can SEE how much that pained him. How much Nick twisted the knife at those words.

He was told by Jack that he wanted to meet “The only real family that I have left” which is a slap in the face to poor Cas who sees Jack as part of his own family (and his reaction to that line is heart breaking).

Then the worst thing, he is made to face the possible conclusion that Dean may have to die to save the world. “Dean doesn’t matter” oh boy. No hate to Jack who doesn’t really have any real reason to put Dean ahead of the world, but to Cas, who is in love with him? Yeah that’s the killing blow right there.

Right at the end Jack says “Do you think he’d want it any other way?” and Cas KNOWS Dean wouldn’t, because they have been in that situation before as well, and when that happened Dean asked Cas to take him out. So he had to relive that painful moment as well. One that he refused, and because he refused to fight Dean, got beaten to a pulp after proclaiming that he would “be the one to watch you murder the world”. I have no doubt that Cas would still take that view over the alternative.

So Cas was emotionally beaten all episode. Forced to live through his worst moments and biggest regrets, and then have to face the fact that putting Dean above saving the world just isn’t right and he needs to prepare himself for that eventuality. If this episode and the last have told us anything, it’s that Cas is once again in a pretty low place. That much beating, both physical and emotional, are going to have an impact, and I am now really concerned about where Cas disappears to in episodes 4 to 6.

There is so much more to discuss, specifically in relation to what his view of his grace as “bells and whistles” could mean for human!Cas meta writers, not to mention the basic fact that any argument now about Cas hating being human just isn’t true. He still had himself, and he still believed in himself even when human, and even if he didn’t back then, he does now. He doesn’t see that period of his life as a total negative. That is HUGE.

Summary

A+ episode for Cas development. Amazing as that is being a bucklemming. It has also left us with lots to speculate and theorise which is always a great thing - keeping people tuning in. The Michael!Dean mystery as well as the Nick mystery probably won’t get revealed any time soon, but are enough to have people talking about them for a while.

Sam was still very much in Leader mode, though didn’t really get to do much this episode, but the way I see it, 14x01 was for Sam, 14x02 was for Cas, and I fully expect 14x03 to be a Dean heavy episode (which is fair since I am sure we are all missing him by now). Jack is also one to watch. His inner turmoil is textually acknowledged several times over and seeing as he is basically a mini Cas, the possibility that Jack could decide to do something drastic is probably very likely. I wonder if we will see Kelly’s parents again any time soon - I kinda hope not as I reckon that would spell certain doom for them.

It was a strong episode, and I enjoyed watching it (other than the Nick stuff). Probably my second favourite Bucklemming episode if I was to rank them all now which is very impressive (11x18 will always be top imo).

That’s all for now, as I am in the mood to write some Cas stuff. As always if you read this far kudos and please reblog and comment and send me asks as I love all that stuff. :D

#supernatural #episode review #castiel #spn meta #spn speculation #spn spoilers #season 14 #14x02 #my meta #my review #my thoughts #my poor angel #mirrors and parallels #michael!dean

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havenoffandoms · 6 years

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My love, my life

Pairing: Sabriel

Summary: They both knew this was crazy. Gabriel had been especially surprised when Sam had ‘proposed’ – if you could call the casually spoken I think we should get married a proposal at all.

Warnings: none

They both knew this was crazy. Gabriel had been especially surprised when Sam had ‘proposed’ – if you could call the casually spoken I think we should get married a proposal at all – considering that Dean would not be there to celebrate it with them. The archangel had been even more surprised when Sam had told him that he did not want anyone to be present.

“It’s not about them, Gabe… it’s about us. You are mine, and I am yours… I want there to be no doubt about that. So, let’s get married”

Gabriel had hesitated. Not only did he have the inkling of a suspicion that Sam would regret not inviting his mother, Cas and Jack – and most importantly his brother – the broken archangel also knew that marrying a human would mean going against Heaven’s most ancient laws. He had told Sam about his concerns, not wanting his lover to regret his spontaneous decision later and resent Gabriel for it. Sam had been categorical on the matter.

“Gabe, we are not even sure if we will manage to get Dean back. I don’t want to wait any longer, I want this. Dean will understand, so will the others. They’ll forgive us, but I would never forgive myself if one of us died and we never got married… please, just trust me on this, okay?”

“What about Heaven, Sammich?” Gabriel had offered weakly, feeling all resistance fade from him.

“Well, technically all Heaven forbids is the creation of nephilims. We are two males… there should be no ground for worry, right? We can’t have a child… and you’ve been having sex with other people for what, centuries now? Surely Heaven doesn’t care if you decide to commit to sleeping exclusively with me for the rest of my life?”

Damn this beautiful moose and his infallible sense of logic. Damn his law student instincts that managed to find what could be considered a fucking loophole in divine law. Sam made it extremely hard for Gabriel to say no.

“Do you know what Sammich, why the hell not. What could go wrong, eh? It would take more than the threat of a fricking apocalypse to dissuade a Winchester”

Gabriel had fully intended the sarcastic undertone; however, he could not help the small smile that appeared on his face at the sound of Sam’s happy, albeit slightly dumbfounded guffaw. The hazel eyes lit up as he met Gabriel’s golden orbs, and it made the archangel’s grace stir contently at the sight.

“So, we are doing it? We’re getting married?” Sam asked, his voice hopeful and pleading at the same time, almost as if he feared that Gabriel would change his mind last minute. The archangel offered a reassuring smile.

“Yes, Samsquatch. Let’s do it”

That’s how they ended up here. At the edge of a cliff overlooking a rough sea in the middle of nowhere, Gabriel had not been precise about their location. Sam was actually not entirely sure if the archangel had not just conjured a romantic, but imaginary setting. The sound of crashing waves travelled all the way up the precipice, a mere rustle by the time it reached Sam’s ears. The noise was soothing and contrasted with the picture of the agitated sea in the background. Not that Sam paid much attention to the scenery.

He had eyes only for Gabriel.

“You did not bring a priest as I can see…” Sam commented casually, trying to hide the fact that he was very much nervous about the whole ordeal. He was getting married … to the angel he loved. After Jessica’s death, he had never thought he would ever love someone so much that he would want to bind himself to them for the rest of his life. This was a big step, and Gabriel knew this.

“You have an actual archangel of the lord standing in front of you… really if that doesn’t do the trick, I don’t know what will” Gabriel reasoned, his voice dropping an octave as his eyebrows wiggled suggestively, “I could easily change into a priest outfit if that’s what you’re into, Sammich”

“Gabriel!” Sam punched the archangel’s shoulder disapprovingly, blushing at the implication. Gabriel merely giggled adorably.

“You are far too innocent for your own good, Sam. Now, before we begin” Gabriel clicked his fingers and before Sam knew it, he was dressed in a smart beige tuxedo over a white dress shirt, while Gabriel wore something that looked like he jumped out of a Picasso painting. It hurt Sam’s eyes to look at him, but the whole ensemble was so clearly Gabriel that it warmed the younger Winchester’s heart.

“Wow…” was all Sam managed to whisper in an awe-struck voice.

“I know, quite impressive I can pull this off, right?”

“You are… you look really handsome, actually” Sam confessed almost sheepishly, feeling his cheeks flush. Gabriel merely smiled tenderly at him, taking both Sam’s hands in his as he stood on his tip toes and placed a lingering kiss on the taller man’s lips. Sam let out a content sigh.

“You’re doing this in the wrong order…” Sam joked.

“Who says? Hollywood?” Gabriel countered wittily, winking at the human before him. This was the time both of them had been waiting for, and neither really knew how to begin, nor what to say. Sam decided to break the awkward silence that had settled between them, broken only by the crashing of the waves on the beach at the bottom of the abyss. Clearing his throat nervously, the older Winchester struggled to find the right words.

“Uh… Well, Gabriel” Sam addressed the shorter angel, shooting him a pointed look, “uh, I never considered myself a very poetic person, so bear with me if I sound over-the-top-cheesy or whatever…”

“Just go with what feels natural, Samsquatch” Gabriel advised gently, tightening his hold on Sam’s hands which gave the younger Winchester comfort. Sam nodded, offering the archangel a grateful smile. This was harder than he had expected. He knew exactly what he wanted to tell Gabriel, but he could not bring his brain to formulate this in a coherent sentence. Damn, whose idea was it to have vows?

Oh yeah, that’s right… Sam’s goddamned idea.

“Gabriel…”

I’ve never felt this strong

I’m invincible, how could this go wrong?

No, here, here’s where we belong

I see a road ahead

I never thought I would dare to tread

“… you saved me from myself. You really did, and I don’t mean the demon blood, or the PTSD because of Lucifer, or anything like that. You helped me get over Jess’ death, something I never thought would ever be possible. You made me feel like I was strong enough to face my demons. You taught me to love again, and for that… I don’t know how to thank you, or how to show you how grateful I am. I… I guess what I’m trying to say is… I love you, Gabe. And this, as crazy as this wedding is, it’s what I’ve always dreamed of. It’s something I never expected to have, so thank you for giving it to me”

Gabriel tried hard to blink the tears away that were starting to well up in his eyes. Nope, he was stronger than his human emotions. He was an archangel, for God’s sake, he could hold himself back surely. What a warrior he made now, huh? Would certainly made all the other angels laugh if they saw how pathetic the once mighty Gabriel looked like in this instant. After all, was he not the broken archangel Gabriel, who had fled all his life, who had been defiled by Asmodeus in so many ways, who was about to marry a human…

Gabriel would tell all these angels to get screwed nice and deep.

He allowed a single tear to run down his cheek, wanting Sam to see what effect he had on him. It was a sign of trust, and of vulnerability. Gabriel found he did not care what his family thought about him. There was a time where that might have been the case, but Sam had changed this. Sam gave his human side a meaning. Sam had fixed him piece by piece, and even though there was still a lot of work to be done on the whole Asmodeus-trauma front, at least Gabriel knew that he was not alone.

And he would never again be alone.

I held you close to me

Felt your heartbeat

And I thought: I am free

Oh yes, and as one are we

In the now and beyond

Nothing and no one can break this bond

“Samuel William Winchester… nah, screw this. I am not one for soppy love declarations, so I’ll keep this short and sweet, just like me” Gabriel smiled as Sam snorted. The sound his amused moose made was like music to his ears. “You are not like any human I’ve ever met before. True, I’ve met many, and you might argue that I have met a lot of humans who resemble you. You would be correct in assuming so, however… none of them ever had such a bright and appealing soul. From the first day our paths crossed, I have felt my grace being drawn to your beautiful soul. Fair enough, it was distracting at first, especially since I could track your every move… which for the record, I never did”

“Liar…” Sam smirked.

“Alright, maybe a little bit… just to make sure you were safe” Gabriel admitted, not able to look sorry if he tried, “today, I realise that I would not have it any other way. The attraction my grace felt towards your soul, this bond we shared… it was what kept me grounded when Asmodeus… well, did his thing. You say that I saved you, but sugar believe me when I say that were it not for you, I would not be here today to get married to this giant handsome moose”

Sam rolled his eyes at the last comment, but Gabriel noticed the moist eyes and the agitated fidgeting of Sam’s fingers as they rubbed the back of the archangel’s hand nervously. Sam was trying to hold back. He was trying hard not to show any emotion, and Gabriel understood. That’s the way Sam had been raised, and he had learned from being a hunter that showing your weaknesses could get you killed. The teary smile that came from the taller man was all the archangel needed to see.

“Not soppy, huh?” Sam managed to croak awkwardly, chuckling slightly as Gabriel smacked his arm playfully.

“Yeah, well you ain’t exactly an emotionless Scrooge either, pumpkin”

“Do you have more cheesy nicknames like that in your pocket, angel?” Sam teased, pulling a seemingly offended archangel close to his chest and wrapping his strong arms around his waist so Gabriel could not move away. Not that Sam could ever hope to restrain an archangel, but Gabriel always melted in his embrace. It was the younger Winchester’s ultimate weapon.

“I actually do, Samshine. In fact, cutie pie, I believe I can come up with more cheesy nicknames than you own plaid shirts, and that’s saying something considering you could put all the lumberjacks in the world to shame with your collection, sugar cane. Also, honey, how about we put a stop to the soppiness and get down to the actual ceremony, puff pastry? You think that’s a good idea, sugar?”

Gabriel rejoiced in the disgusted look on Sam’s face, trying to fit in as many stereotypical nicknames in one sentence as he could. Despite the younger Winchester’s protests, Gabriel did not relent, making his lover cringe with the sheer amount of fluff that was thrown his way.

“Okay, stop you made your point. Let’s just move on to the actual thing before it starts raining” Sam suggested, shooting a sceptic look towards the sky almost as if expecting the downpour to hit them any minute. Gabriel merely tsked him.

“Have some faith, sugar. I won’t let it rain on our wedding”

Before Sam had the time to come up with a clever remark, Gabriel placed his index over the taller man’s lips, effectively shushing him. Golden eyes bore into hazel ones, nothing but love and adoration reflected in them. Sam felt like he would melt into a puddle at Gabriel’s feet. The archangel interlaced his fingers with his lover’s, and not before long, Sam felt a pleasant warmth envelope him like a cocoon. He knew from experience that it was Gabriel’s grace reaching out for him, but this time it felt stronger, more intimate. Sam could see the shadow of Gabriel’s wings as he gently brought them to successfully shelter him and their owner from the wind. It all felt so right, and Sam knew instantly that he had made the right choice. This is where he wanted to spend the rest of his days.

“Sam… I promise you to love you as much as I love candy, and to not hold your obsession with healthy food against you. I will protect you from clowns, and tolerate your morning jogs as long as you don’t make me go with you. I value my sleep, you know. But most importantly, I promise to love you in this life and in Heaven. I promise you that we will always find our way back to each other. You are mine, and I am yours forever and always”

Sam enjoyed the warmth of Gabriel’s grace and wings around him, the comfort making him feel sleepy. His eyes fluttered shut as he took a whiff of Gabriel’s scent, feeling his muscles relax instantly. When Sam opened his eyes again, he noticed the worried and expectant glance Gabriel shot him and the younger Winchester realised he had to reciprocate the vows.

“Oh uhm sorry… I eh…” clearing his throat, Sam regained his composure before starting over, “Gabriel… I promise to love and cherish you until the end of my days, and when I’m in Heaven… If I go to Heaven…”

“Sam…”

“Not the time to talk about this, though. I love you with all my heart, and I don’t ever want to lose you. God be my witness, if he cares at all, if anything were to happen to you I would give my life in exchange for yours. You are mine, and I am yours forever and always”

The two looked at each other, secretive smiles on their faces as their faces came closer, closing the gap between their lips. Their kiss was sweet, yet filled with the passion they held for each other. Sunshine filtered through the dark clouds, basking the two in a halo of light. Almost like God was watching over them, but Sam knew deep inside that Gabriel was behind this. Not that it really mattered.

All that really mattered was him and Gabriel, lost in each other’s embrace. And that was all that would ever matter in the future.

My love, my life

Are the words I try to find

My love, my life

But I know I don’t possess you

With all my heart, God bless you

You will be my love and my life

You’re my one and only

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a-jynx · 6 years

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Mobile Masterlist

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Requests are open, as well as my F.I.T tags! Just send an Ask! 💖

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Series:

Ridge-Wood - Sam x OC

Summary: While on a hunt in the small town, Ridge-Wood, Sam, and Dean find themselves working alongside the deputy at the towns’ sheriff department, what happens when they find out their little partner in this dangerous hunt hides a few details of themselves that could lead to the death of a lover, or family member?

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Trouble In All The Right Places - Dean x OC

Summary: The Winchesters were always the best “exterminators” at things that went bump in the night… At least, they were until that one fateful night, ten years ago when she got away - the one who stole Dean Winchester’s heart. So what happens when Dean finds himself struggling to tell the difference between true love or undeniable lust, once they meet again? Especially when that hunt - along with many to follow it, leaves him looking for trouble in all the right places?

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Black Eyes, Pretty Lies - Sam x demon!reader

Summary: Team Free Will find themselves lodged between a rock and a hard place when a possible case turns out to be more than they bargained for - especially when one specific member falls for the guilty…

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The Roaring Night - Beast!Sam x reader

Summary: Discontinued, but parts will stay posted.

The Winding Road - Biker!Sam x reader

Summary:Queen of the roads, that’s what they used to call little Miss Y/N, well, that’s until she left the Caged Devils, and found herself looking for refuge at Singer’s Auto and Body Shop; home to the stronger, larger, and most likely tougher biker gang in Lawrence, Kansas… The Family Business, the Winchesters’ and their usually loyal followers. So what happens when Y/N finds herself falling for the younger and soon-to-be king Winchester faster then she can say, “son-of-a-bitch”?

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Blood, Tears, and Absolute Fear - Misha x daughter!reader

Summary: Y/N Collins, the most sweetest, kind-hearted, yet level-headed girl you will ever meet.. Well if you ever got to meet her. Falling heavily ill, and leaving her father to run between the hospital and his workpeople begin to question things.

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Steal The Show - Bodyguard!Dean x famous singer!reader

Summary: What happens when the famous singer, Y/F/N Y/L/N, or “Ms. HB” finds herself falling headset over heels for her new bodyguard, Dean Winchester? And just how long can she pretend that there’s nothing there - especially with some heat added to the mix?

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Disappearing Into Hell - Sam x demon reader {Arc 2 of Black Eyes, Pretty Lies}

Summary: The reader soon finds herself in a rough patch in life after watching Sam, her beloved, jump head first into the cage to put away Lucifer… So what happens when she finds herself alone when Dean goes off to do as Sam wished, and the reader has a few secrets still in the dark? And how will she react when her special someone comes back with a little something… Missing?

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The Lost Hunter - Brothers x gender!neutral reader

Summary: The boys knew you talked about giving up hunting, but they never thought you were serious… Well, not until they came into your hometown and learned that you were a well-known cop statewide. How had you given up on hunting so easily? Why didn’t you ever call, or message to tell them you were alright..? But, more importantly… What are you trying to keep from them that such a big secret..?

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The Beast of Kansas - Beast! Sam x reader {On-going series/ NEW!!!}

Summary: You’ve known them for years… You could always run to the Winchester boys for an escape of daily life. With their dumb fairytales of hunting the Supernatural, to their idiotic stories of breaking into the public pool – and getting arrested.

You knew them, or at least… You thought you did. What happens when rumors begin to leak through small-town Lawrence, Kansas about your best friends and their family? How will you and the boys handle new threats? More importantly, will you survive The Beast of Kansas…?

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Drabbles:

What Do You Do - Dean x adopted daughter!reader

Family Always Ends In Blood - Dean x sister!reader

All I Care About - Dean x reader

“Functioning” Alcoholic - Brothers x sister!reader

Daddy’s Here - Dean x niece!reader; Sam x daughter!reader

Cool Dad - Dean x daughter!reader

Should’ve Been Better - Brothers x sister!reader

The Damn Dare - Destiel

Sandbox Wings - Little Dean x Fledgling Cas; Little Sam x older Gabriel

Just A Push & A Shove - Dean x Cas; Jack x Ben Braeden

I’ll Take That Bullet - Dean x reader

Can’t Chain Up An Angel - Sam x angel!reader

Heart Attack - Biker!Sam x reader

I’m Drowning - J2M x daughter-like!reader

He’s A Natural - J2 x platonic!reader

Favorite Actress - J2 x reader {Part 2}

Smooches - Daddy Jensen x pregnant momma!reader (my fav)

My Cup Of Tea - Jared x British!reader {Part 2}

Good Cup Of Coffee - Jared x fiesty!reader

That Has To Be My Favorite Part - Mark Sheppard x daughter!reader {Part 2}

How May I Help You? - Castiel x reader (cafe owner cas)

Flowers... They Bloom. Jared x reader; soulmate au {Part 2, 3}

Help Me, Daddy - Dean x daughter!reader

Who’s The Cutest? - Sam x reader; mentions of your daughter (NEW!!!)

Date Night Terror - Sam x reader; Uncle Dean x niece; mentions of your daughter (NEW!!!)

Requested:

Once An Angel, Always An Angel - Kevin Tran x angel!reader

Lost Among The Flowers - Dean x dead! reader (NEW!!!)

Everything is Missing - Chuck x reader (NEW!!!)

Little Too Aggressive - Dean x reader (NEW!!!)

Fleeing Love - Castiel x Winchester sister! reader (NEW!!!)

Hellbound Darling - Dean x half demon! reader (NEW!!!)

So You Ran? - Castiel x mutant! reader (NEW!!!)

#mobile masterlist #all fics #spn #all the boys #SPN FANDOM #SPN Family #tags are open #will be updated as much as possible #hope you guys binge!

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supernaturalimaginesforthemasses · 6 years

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Gods and Lovers

Word Count: 2.021

Date:7/25/2018

Characters: Dean, Sam, Bobby, Cas, Non-human reader

Warnings: Language, Bit of monster death

Tags: @sammysgirl1997 @meganywinchester @impalagirl94

Authors Note: I’m sorry it took so long to get this out, life is crazy and really really sucks.

Also this is set in season six but in my head they have the bunker already

Summary: Between family drama and the hunting life you lead you deal with many problems, one think you didn’t think would be a problem is falling in love again.

You were always different from your siblings, one loved death and pain to much, another was to prideful and the last was to envious, your downfall, however, was that you loved humanity to much, the pure simpleness of it and how it made such meaningless things seem so monumental. You were very young the first time your father took you to see that strange and simple world and you fell in love from the first glance. Returning home, however, was a different story, your mother was furious that he took you on such a dangerous trip and she forbade any traveling for you till you were much older. But after all, you were her only remaining little girl after your older sister was banished, and while she loved your younger brothers she just didn’t have the bond with them she had with you.

You hated the feeling of being confined though and you longed for the adventure of learning of a whole new world, you counted down the days, the months and the years until you were finally able to explore. Your mother didn’t like your plans but she could no longer stop you, and your father embraced your want for knowledge.

Soon you were ready to set out on your quest, you had planned a decade-long trip, planing one year one each of the realms with a few trips home to check in. All those plans came crashing down when you got pregnant, soon after giving birth to your two children you ran away to a far-off realm to raise them alone. Once old enough you let them go their separate ways and you returned home.

You picked up life as though nothing had ever happened, but even as bad as you tried things were not the same, your mother now favored your youngest brother and your father had plans for your older brother. It hurt to not even be truly seen by your parents anymore but there was nothing you could do, you were still welcomed there so you knew they weren’t upset enough to banish you but they were still disappointed. So you did the only thing that made sense at the time, you ran.

You ended up settling on earth and even though you went home once in a while for things like holidays and birthdays it was still not the same. You adapted well to your new life, of course being from Asgard you didn’t age as humans did so you got used to relocating and changing your name often.

Life wasn’t all that easy for you, marrying someone and then having to watch them fade took a toll on your heart but after a while you became numb, you kept doing it mostly out of need for companionship, You’ve never actually been “in love” but close once or twice, you just couldn’t seem to make yourself stay with those ones because you knew it would hurt to much. After a while you mostly just skimmed through life, yes you were there and you still did things but centuries took a toll on to the point where you didn’t feel like you were LIVING anymore, that is until you discovered the monsters that roamed the earth. It was exhilarating and pure adrenaline when you took off the head of your first vamp, it was totally by chance that you killed in the right way but you threw your life into studying up on monsters that were around and then how to kill them. The problem was at that time there wasn’t much lore or myths on things so you started writing down every little thing you saw when hunting, that meant what went wrong and what went right. By the end of your first century hunting, you had written over 500 journals and had honed your skills better than you had ever imagined. As time progressed you eventually met other hunters and were even made a member of a secret society called “The Men Of Letters” and you quickly made your ways up the ranks before realizing that you didn’t agree with the way that they did things, and at some point they’d notice you not aging which would lead to them finding out what you are and then trying to kill you, so once again you ran but not before faking your death so they wouldn’t suspect anything.

More years went by and you now found yourself in yet another hunters community, this one was different though, they cared about each other and treated everyone like family, and you soon grew very close to Mary Campbell but lost touch when she married and "quit" the hunting life, you did visit her once after she had her baby, her little boy was truly a sweetheart and it made you long for the days when your children were small

You never got a chance to talk to her again after that, you heard she had another baby boy and you were going to make plans with her to meet this one too but she died shortly after. You felt sorry for the kids but you assumed their father would raise them the best he could.

Your path surprisingly never crossed theirs until you got wind of something ancient, very very ancient disrupting the monster world. After extensive research, you worked out that this was actually Eve the mother of all monsters that was causing all those strange events.

Because you knew Bobby he called you in to help track her down, this was the second time you met Dean Winchester. He looked skeptical at first about bringing you into the loop but soon warmed up to you once he realized how vast your knowledge was, you knew things off the top of your head that would take him, Sam and Bobby days to find out.

They caught you up on the plan they had to take her out, they already had the phoenix ash that could kill her but they were having trouble finding her.

You went into town with the cover of going to look up things to give you a clue to her whereabouts but really you were going to hide away and use your powers to find her.

You locked yourself away in a private room at the library and closed your eyes, you took yourself forward in time three days, the world was in shambles she had made hundreds of new monsters and thousands of each kind, you had to make your plan work or there would be nothing left for anyone, you started going back in time to see where she had been in those last three days and you got an exact location for 12 hours from your current time so you’d know when and where to strike.

“OK guys it looks like I got a lock on her, she stays in one place for 24 hours and she`s been there just at 12, so we have time but not much so we should get going,” you say as you get packed.

You all took the one car and you remember it being parked outside Mary's when you met Dean for the first time, it looked in a very well kept condition if not better. It was very roomy when you consider you were all crammed into it, Sam and Dean were not small men by any means and with Bobby in the back with you, you were really afraid there wasn't going to be room.

When you arrive at the dinner she's located at Bobby and Cas wait outside while you, Sam and Dean head in. Once inside Sam begins scanning the people in the dinner, noting that everyone seems to be Eve's new kind of monsters you all turn to leave, but they stop you and force you back to the counter before you have a chance to reach the door. You feel a sudden twinge of fear strike through you as she has all your weapons taken away, she starts into a big monolog about why she's doing the things she's doing and you mentally start forming a plan to get you all out of this mess. She and Dean argue back and forth about how things are going to go and the next thing you know she's changed her face to look like Mary. You know both the boys were very little when she passed so you don't how this will affect them. Before you can come up with a plan she has moved around to the other side and placed her hands on his shoulders, you're just about to jump at her and pull her off him by force when she embeds her teeth into the side of his neck.

"Dean!" you scream as you lunge at her but stop in your tracks as you see her start to curl into herself and she slowly disintegrates before your eyes.

You quickly move to Dean to put pressure on the wound before he bleeds out, Cas yells for everyone to shut their eyes, you do as you're told as Dean buries his face in your chest to protect himself from the blinding light that Cas uses to destroy her monsters. Dean looks up and around at the bodies lying around you before giving you a soft smile as he puts his hand over yours on his neck.

" Thank you, hey Cas do you think you could fix me up? I'm bleeding pretty good and I think she turned me." Dean asks

Cas moves over and brushes his hand across his shoulder and just like that Dean's neck is like nothing ever happened. Cas leaves to look for Crowley and you all head out to the car once again.

Back at Bobby's, you all set around having a celebratory drink, they all bicker back and forth over the fact that some think Cas lied about taking out Crowley, after a good 10 minutes of them Bobby calls it a night and goes to his room. Sam remains another half hour before he joins as well leaving you and Dean alone, you move to refill your drink and he follows, once in the kitchen he fills both of your glasses. " Thank you, would you like to get some fresh air? It's a bit warm in here tonight." You ask as you take off your flannel.

" Yeah, that sounds good." He says as he leads the way

Once outside you take a deep breath, the cool night air filling your lungs, you let out a sigh finally relaxing a little. You both continue walking around the yard until you find an old car to set on.

After setting in silence for awhile you speak up. " So what exactly was your plan tonight? Was it just to piss her off till she tried to kill you?" You ask genuinely curious about his thought prosses.

"I was honestly winging it, I did have that as a backup that's why I took the worlds nastiest shot but it wasn't the first plan." He answers.

" But what if she had them kill you another way, or what if the ash wasn't enough because it was diluted by your blood? You could have been killed, Dean." You say.

"Ok, so I didn't think that far ahead but what matters is it didn't happen, not only that but it's not like it would be the first time I died." He answers looking down.

" I've just seen a lot of hunters die in my time and I was really worried that tonight was going to be another one, I wasn't just scared for myself but for all of us, and the way you were pissing her off I thought you were a goner for sure." You say as you down the last of your drink.

" I know the feeling, trust me. But how about I make up for that by taking you out? I mean only if you want." He says shyly as he looks down.

#supernatural x reader #dean x reader #spn imagine #supernatural imagines #deanxreader #spn #spn fluff

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