#and i like to shut off my thinking brain

[static-radio-ao3]

hello my most beloved mil<33

one thing i want to know about you is how much do you love me??

but also, what are your top 5 favorite comfort movies, pls and ty 👐

hi kayyyyy <33 ty for indulging me

for your first question, i actually don't think the measurements have been invented yet so i'm currently unable to quantify that for you but trust that it is being worked on by leading scientists worldwide!!!

as for top 5 comfort movies:

pitch perfect,, i am one of the top 10 worst people to watch this movie with, i WILL quote the entire thing and also sing despite my lack of vocal talent

pride and prejudice (2005)

flipped

(getting a little niche with it now but) there's this german movie series about time travel (so technically not a single movie but im counting it as one anyway) ruby red, sapphire blue and emerald green and they're quite bad but also . so so good.... my sister has them all on dvd and the third one doesn't have english subtitles but my knowledge of german is passable and I've seen it enough times that i can just . follow along

EDIT: PENELOPE!!!! PENELOPE!!! CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT

> inbox me one thing you wanna know about me

#objectively most of these movies arent very good #but i dont need movies to be good to be fun #and i like to shut off my thinking brain #ask game

[livwritesstuff]

thinking about this again so here's a part 2

Eddie wakes up to rain. Heavy rain, the kind that keeps the morning sky dark and bounces loud off the roof and the walls and the windows.

The rain didn't wake Eddie up. What did it was a pair of big, warm arms wrapping around him and pulling him in close.

Steve’s arms.

Objectively, this should be a good thing, and past versions of Eddie (even twenty-four-hours-ago-Eddie) would be goddamn irate with him for feeling anything other than vehemently positive about it.

He’s feeling bothered. He’d gone to sleep last night feeling bothered because Steve had sacked out approximately three seconds after they’d hooked up for the first time, and now he’s being woken up by Steve’s big arms pulling him in close and that has Eddie feeling bothered all over again because this isn’t how he thought this would go at all.

“G’mornin’ Eds,” Steve mumbles, the remnants of sleep in his voice.

And then he has the audacity to press a soft kiss onto Eddie’s bare shoulder.

"Y'know," Steve says, "I was gonna ask if you wanted to go to the diner this morning, but…sounds like it’s kinda fuckin’ gross out there. I can make us something if you want.”

Eddie sits up, suddenly feeling like he’s been left outta the loop on some part of this because Steve doesn’t even seem surprised to wake up and find Eddie still in his bed.

If there’s anything Eddie hates more than feeling bothered, it’s feeling like he’s left outta the loop, like there’s a piece of all this that he’s missing.

"Uh, what are we doing here, Steve?" Eddie asks, and he regrets it the second he sees Steve's face turn all hurt and confused.

"I don't —" Steve starts, pushing himself up on his elbow into a half-seated position, "What...what are you talking about?"

And isn't that choice of words just completely ironic?

"Oh, now you're interested in talking? Or are you gonna fall back asleep the second I start to-"

"Wait –" Steve interrupts, his eyebrows furrowed, "Are you all pissed off because I fell asleep?"

"I'm not pissed off," Eddie mutters, fiddling with a loose string on the edge of the sheets.

"What the fuck did you want me to do?" Steve argues, "Break out a deck of cards and suggest a round of poker? It was late! I was tired! I don't know how else to say it, man. You, like — you did a good job. Really had me beat, or whatever."

And, sure, Eddie allows himself to sit with that notion for a second before he shakes his head.

"I needed you to talk to me!” he exclaims, "We fucked, and then you fell asleep, Steve! Like it was just a fuckin' hook-up to you or something."

That confused look is back on Steve's face, but instead of being laced with hurt, this time it's just plain bewildered.

"What — Eddie," he says, "We talked."

Huh?

“Huh?”

“We talked,” Steve repeats, “Before we…you know, and I said that I like you and I said that I’m not really into the casual thing anymore, and you seemed pretty on board with all that, man, I dunno.”

And yeah, sure, Eddie sort of remembers that.

He definitely remembers when Steve pressed him against his closed bedroom door, and maybe he’d also been speaking at the time, but they’d been so close together and Steve had kept doing these little glances down at Eddie’s lips and there’d been this intensity in his eyes and Eddie had been pressed against Steve Harrington’s closed bedroom door.

There hadn’t been a single coherent thought in his brain, obviously, and yes, that included comprehending any of those words Steve might have been speaking so everything that had come out of Eddie’s mouth in response had been yes, yep, uh-huh, you betcha.

Eddie feels heat rising in his cheeks and by the looks of the amused smile making a home on Steve’s face, he’s not blind to what Eddie is currently realizing either.

“Fuck,” Eddie mutters, “I’m a fucking idiot.”

"Maybe," Steve allows even as he starts to pull Eddie back into his arms, "Breakfast?"

#steve is like: dear god pls let me tell robin about this she thinks i have no game #steve: i need her to know my game is so good it completely shut your brain off #eddie: don't you dare #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #might clean this up a tad and post on ao3 if i'm feeling it

[im-his-druidess]

@small-sinclair more Band AU Vincent Sinclair? 👀

I swear any picture of Peter Steele reminds me of Vincent Sinclair 😩 it's just engrained in my mind at this point

#I think I have a problem #I see a big man and my brain shuts off like windows 97 #Vincent Sinclair #House of Wax #Peter Steele #type o negative #house of wax 2005 #slashers #slasher fandom #Peter Thomas Ratajczyk #Type-O Negative #music #Gothic #metal music #the cryptid posts

[piecanl]

Do you think Tubbo would recognize the path Bad is going down, because it's one he's already walked down on?

This self-destructive behavior coming from a broken heart?

He hasn't seen Bad at his best, before the eggs got kidnapped. He's seen him a victim to grief more than a father. It's why the blue staining Bad's being isn't out of the ordinary.

But suddenly he starts carrying flowers to remind him of the love he lost, suddenly the void calls out his name even louder and suddenly Tubbo sees himself in the older demon.

And it's scary, because suddenly he sees what he has become, how it affects others.

And for the first time of many, he sees Bad walk down a road he's paved. For the first time of many, Bad is the one repeating Tubbo's mistakes.

#the parallels between soul hunters make me SOOOOO ill you hav no idea #i needed to get this out of my brain I might've misscharactarized Bad on the way and If I have sorrayyy..... #their fascination or connection with death #their undying loyalty to those they let in their circle #the switch of their perspectives on resolving conflicts after both Purgatories #the self-sacrificial mindset when it comes to the eggs #the fact they're some of the most trusted people with the eggs #Bad is openly trusted by parents while Tubbo is silently trusted by the eggs while they're both simultaneously safe spaces for the kids #Tubbo has been there for a lot shorter than Bad which lead to him following a lot of previous islanders' including Bad's steps #but suddeny he's been trust into many tragedies and now he has his own path people may fall down in #JUST AGH #i feel like I'm going in circles #i don't know #i dont think they'd ever openly discuss their weaknesses infront of eachother #but I also don't think they'd ever outright shut off a conversation over grief they share #qsmp tubbo #qsmp badboyhalo #soul hunters #soulhunters

[aeb-art]

cringe is dead or whatever so… here's a super rough comic about geo getting smooched at a new year's eve party o7 (the mall toons of course belong to @8um8le)

happy new year, go kiss a robot xoxo

#2023 #stellar city #sc mall toons #sc geo #sc tele #sc hydro #sc pyro #sc ash #self insert #self ship #wish you all a lovely 2024 xoxo #making geo's clouds explode like a bomb went off lmao #i made the little icons go with their nicknames not their models entirely bc i wanted a television for tele bc i thought it'd be funny #idk why but my favorite panel is just them on the couch i think it's so cute #okay now that i've rambled… i'm like extremely nervous about posting this idk i can't shake the feeling that it's wrong somehow #like i'm indulging to close to the sun idk i'm gonna schedule this so i forget about it by the time it's up #okay i need to go make my brain shut up bye #geo.exe has stopped responding

[meatexe]

dating someone who is close to their family n cares abt their relatives is so strange

#not bad!! #its very sweet n very endearing n like their best trait but its so strange to me its like a completely different world #like i literally think tht empathy center in my brain is completely shut off #one of my aunts died like 5 months ago n i think i said to my mother ‘dang that sucks’ #i did not even go to the funeral #i didnt hate this woman? i just. didn’t care #maybe i have trouble conceptualizing death maybe thts the problem #idk but somethings fucky in my brain me thinks

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

~ inseparable opposing images ~

#i will never shut up about how poignantly fascinating alex’s relationship with the way he presents himself to the world is #and i feel like it’s so well highlighted with these two photos #his ability to put his sunglasses on and look cool and unreachable and like he’s just stepped off the pages of a magazine #and then the softer and quieter vulnerability that’s behind that facade #i feel like getting that glimpse is a potent reminder of how much he needs that facade to protect himself #how it helps keep safe the more sensitive sides of him that are the reason he’s wound up in the public eye in the first place #aghhhh #i could honestly write a whole essay about this stuff because i just find him so fascinating #but i won’t because no one needs to watch me descending into yet another endless ramble in my own tags #it’s becoming a habit lately #i guess that’s what being stuck in bed ill for weeks on end will do for you #far too much time for my brain to think #alex turner #alex photos #arctic monkeys #lulu posts

[autisticlee]

sometimes I have autistic realizations that hit really hard.

I'm listening to a podcast (science vs) episode about meditation and what it does/how you do it/if it works. first there was an example of a meditation for mindfulness and focusing on breathing and how it feels. I was thinking how that seems pointless because i'm always aware of how it feels to breathe: my chronically stuffy nose, asthma, ribcage/back hurting if I breathe too deep/etc. but I already knew I have to think about breathing more than most people or I might accidentally hold my breath, and my chronic stuffy nose is very annoying to deal with.

then this part i'm at now talks about how most people go through taking a shower without really realizing they're doing it, like they arent feeling the shower sensations and just go through the motions. so mindful showering is feeling the water on your skin, feeling the temperature of the water and how it changes, etc. "being present, knowing what it feels like, knowing you are there and alive and having that experience..." and that's what mindfulness is.

the thing about me, due to being autistic, i'm basically practicing mindfulness 24/7 against my will. my sensory units in my brain are on constant overdrive and I cannot turn them off. i'm aware of every sensation and feeling and sound and etc at all times and can't ignore them.

the big realization this gave me is that...I'm profoundly aware of being alive and present. i'm overly aware of what i'm experiencing at all times. while most people can use mindfulness to ground themselves from overwhelm and anxiety caused by every day life worries, I GET anxiety and overwhelm from mindfulness-like experiences.

how do i tune things out and turn off my brain? I need an anti-mindfulness method that isn't dissociating out of my mind 😅

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #mindfulness #any other autistic people feel this way ir have this experience? #I feel like mindfulness could help the autistic people with low sensory feeling and need more stimulation #but for the ones who are always overstimulated and have high sensory experiences its so pointless #ive had it suggested to me so much and it always sounds so absurd to focus deeply on things i cant ignore...... #its exhausting to be unable to ignore them so making me focus more on them would possibly throw me into a panic attack? #brains are interesting #i dissociate a lot and its always the first thing people suggest. but i think one reason i dissociate is #my constant unintentional mindfulness i naturally do that i cant shut off 😅 #sometimes the way to turn it off is to dissociate to hell and back lmao

[thesherrinfordfacility]

About whether aziracrow saw each other during 1967-2008: in S1Ep1, when Aziraphale is eating at a sushi restaurant,and hears the sound of a miracle,he turns to his left (before seeing it's Gabriel), with a happy smile. I think if they hadn't been in contact for 40 years by that point, Aziraphale would have reacted to the idea of Crowley appearing with a little more surprise?

had to rewatch, but very true, @canarybell, its a very casual, practiced reaction!!!✨ id forgotten all about this bit!!!

#okay but tell me honestly #it is more heartbreaking to entertain that after 1967 they never spoke to each other until 2008 #or that 1967 they just pretended that [whatever tf happened in s3's 1941 scene] never happened??? #like aziraphale *is* cold towards crowley in 2008 i dont think that can be disputed? obvs lets himself get tempted to lunch as an excuse #maybe it was bc of the armageddon bombshell? idk but aziraphale just seems so shut off and crowley seems so desperate to connect #things that make my brain go whrrrrrrrrrr #good omens #ask

[shortnotsweet]

Pearl of the Realm [Part 1, 2]

inspired by Twitter posts about Lucerys showing up to court in this pearl lingerie set and blowing Aemond’s virginal, incel mind to absolute smithereens, bringing him to his knees in a public space like the loser he is. I don’t know which Lucemond Twitter account talking about this specifically caught my attention, so lemme know/tag them if you do bc they got the gears in my brain TURNING ok I went into a trance and when I awoke, Luke dripping in pearls appeared. As he should. Also, fun fact, the reference pic had white pearls but I used Tahitian/black pearls instead, because Team Black, and also they’re generally more rare.

@twincomets i present these pics as proof. I swear it happened and got confirmation that there is, indeed, a god in this universe! how exciting

#lucemond #lucerys valeryon #aemond x lucerys #house of the dragon #aemond targaryen #my art #in my mind this is absolutely scandalous and the cogs in Aemond’s repressed catholic brain go ERROR DO NOT COMPUTE #like he fully shuts down for twenty minutes while Luke prances around in his couture jewelry set he calls an outfit #i used these gorgeous reference pictures and all and i prefer the white pearls for effect #but since wardrobe is supposed to make a statement i think it would be fitting if the fabric was a color of blue green #but the pearls themselves were black just like his mother’s dress #so a bit of both to show his ahem heritage #after Aemond’s brain comes back online he is frothing at the mouth #Aegon is laughing his ass off #the pearls were a real pain to color in tho #i never want to draw circles again

[monstersinthecosmos]

not for anything but friendly reminder that ~fandom discourse~ about where women belong (or people you perceive as women) is misogynistic as fuck. or what they're allowed to say, or what they're allowed to write about, or what they're allowed to enjoy.

next time you see someone having a tantrum and vaguing, especially if their posts from week to week completely contradict each other, perhaps analyze if the common denominator is "a gross woman said something and now i'm mad" without otherwise adhering to any actual principles.

#like i wonder if someone consistently preaches that we need to respect each other's headcanons #but they are specifically bothered by women & people they assume are women #and they keep specifically complaining about how ANNOYING GIRLS are the ones with such STUPID ideas #if maybe that person is just a fucking misogynist LMAO #and maybe we shouldn't give them the time of day :) #but what do i know lol im just a dumb girl with my dumb girl brain #anyway sorry guys i hate posting vagues i think it's really immature but like how much of this do we fucking tolerate #and can you please stop reblogging him bc tumblr's block & mute functions are terrible #if i'm not vague about it does it still count as a vague? #i hate public drama but like he didn't want to resolve it in private either and won't shut the fuck up haha sorry #but i also fucking hate bullies so #:) #also in b4 fandom clique conspiracies start floating around #if you act like a misogynist dickhead and get blocked by a bunch of people #it's not a cabal of mean girls ganging up on you #maybe you're the problem lol #knock it the fuck off aren't you tired of this it's been a year man #get a life.

[shima-draws]

How do you feel about your kieranpon au gaining alot of traction lately? I've seen it talked about in several discords, and of course all the new art on the tag?

HONESTLY I’m super flattered and happy to see it’s getting so much love 😭 This isn’t the first time an AU of mine has blown up and it always takes me by surprise. Y’all are so sweet, I’m so glad you’re enjoying it enough to want to make content for it yourselves!! It’s the ultimate compliment to an artist to create something that other people get into and start talking about. Makes my heart all fuzzy and warm 🥰

#Shima answers questions #Kieranpon AU #Shima’s AUs #I’M SUPER GRATEFUL. Like. You have no idea #Every time somebody mentions it or draws something for it I’m like. AAAA?? MY AU?? MINE?? 😭💖 #IT JUST MEANS A LOT #Especially since like. This is just how I am. My brain never shuts off so I’m always thinking of new stuff #New ideas and AUs and characters and whatnot #It’s just nice to get a reaction for that. To have someone appreciate that my brain is always on creative overdrive haha

[da-proti-toku-grem]

venting in the tags again bc i'm literally shaking right now wtf

#god i hate it so much #my exams start on monday and i'm not even halfway through everything i need to know for my first exam #i've had all the holidays to study but i just can't concentrate on anything #i've been in my room all day every day (except the days i spent w family like christmas and new year ofc) #and seemingly i'm studying all day #my family thinks i spend all day studying #but the only thing i'm capable of doing most of the time is stare at the things i have to do w/o having any idea of wtf i'm doing #my brain won't shut tf up and telling me stuff that i know are not true #but i just can't #i feel like i've been having an anxiety attack non stop since this monday #not very bad most of the time but it doesn't really stop yk? #and i feel like i have a weight on my chest that i can't really take off #i've been going to therapy and we've come to the conclusion that the cause of my anxiety overall are my studies #(not counting my social anxiety that's been getting worse every day to the point that i don't even want to go out with my best friends) #which doesn't really surprise me but it's just Too Much #i just want to drop everything but since idk what i'd do if i quit this career i chose to do my exams #bc maybe they are useful if i do change my path #but i just can't find it in me to focus and study because my mind is racing all the time #i just want to lie down and cry but i don't even have the strength to do that #i just feel so weak and miserable ever since i started uni and every day it gets worse and worse #my mind just screams at me saying #'stop complaining all the time. no one cares. everyone goes through stuff like that. you're no different. stfu and study like everyone does' #and i know i could do it if i tried but i just can't #why tf is it so difficult to be normal and do what i'm supposed to do for once ffs.... #venting #maca speaks

[greenlanterncrops]

really, really do not understand why everybody’s so insistent that jason todd would not be a red lantern if he were to get a ring

people making lantern aus will put him in the sinestro corps, in the star sapphires, and now he's got a green ring for some reason, and okay? that’s fine? like i’m not about to gatekeep - you should do whatever you want! but the fact is the dude is, like, textbook red lantern

his entire character arc mirrors that of the red lanterns almost 1:1 - right down to the being killed, brought back in a sort of unconscious state, and needing to be dunked in a magical pool to regain their memories/minds

sometimes the most obvious answer is the right one

#jason todd #hate that i'm being forced to talk about bats on this but i saw the dark crisis writer's tweets and just #?????????? #so many misconceptions about the red lanterns and it makes me sad bc they're my favorites! they're so interesting! #but everybody seems to think they're just out of control maniacs who love violence for no reason! #it's disappointing and BORING like they're so complex #but people just see 'rage corps' and their brain shuts off after that #jason's entire thing is being Unavenged and the red lantern corps' entire thing is seeking out people who need vengance #red lanterns are explicitly only drawn to the 'pure' rage that comes from victims #atrocitus straight up says the rage of abusers isn't attractive to the red light at all #red rings ONLY go to those who are pissed for the right reasons #almost all of the red lanterns are victims of some violent crime or the other #most of them were being murdered or worse when the red ring came to them #that's WHY it came to them #they don't just seek out anyone who's pissed enough #they seek out people who are helpless and angry and give them the power to avenge themselves like! #you couldn't pick a better group for him to fall into if you tried! #not that i want it to happen because i'm morally opposed to the idea of bats with rings but still!! #the way every bats-as-lanterns thing i've ever seen bends over backwards to put him anywhere BUT where he obviously should be #baffles me #truly #and again i'm not trying to tell people they're wrong #you can do whatever! have fun! #not trying to rain on anyone's parade #but the star sapphire thing being big for him is just like-- #yeah it could work but it would also be some real horror movie shit lol #the star sapphires are far and away the most disturbing of them all imo

[to-thelakes]

darlin, i definitely feel your bi panic about madani and frank cos SAME

as much as i can remember it was in season 2, madani was talking with a pretty woman who was working in the lab and all i thought during the scene was “BI PANIC BI PANIC, ladies why don’t you just start kissing”

jdsndlkfnwk sorry about the rambling i was just thinking about it since i’ve watched it and wanted to share 💘

never apologise for rambling!! i absolutely adore the rambles, i am a big rambler myself. it's honestly a problem

But FR, like dinah madani is bi, i don't make the rules, it's just fact. and her and frank?? the bi panic of the two of them on screen makes me lose my mind, like which one do i pick?? which one do i want?? (the answer is both) but they both just absolutely scramble my brain.

also, okay, the thought of those two like together has actually rotted my brain so badly recently. i don't think or it doesn't seem to be a popular like fanfic ship or like something that many people (at least from what i've seen) seem interested in but dinah x frank kind of just makes my brain melt a little.

obviously, i am a kastle girlie at heart. him and karen are just- 🫠🫠🫠 but i am nothing if not an incredibly self-indulgent woman and the thought of like frank x dinah x reader (bc i am whore) has literally rotted by brain. it's insane how bad it has been. like i've become actual feral for the thought of them. (feral to the point i have written a 13k smutty one-shot of frank x dinah x reader, whoopsie but we don't talk about that)

my brainrotting for those two aside, i am so glad i'm not alone in my bi panic over madani and frank because they make me absolutely FERAL and i just, i love my men and women emotionally damaged and slightly immoral <3

#ruby rambles #dinah madani #frank castle #the punisher #nmcu #i feel like im going insane #like i'm withdrawing off my meds (by choice) and so i feel so shitty but all my energy went into that one-shot #it was insane #i've gone feral #i think i need to be sedated #or i just need frank castle back on my screen #whichever comes first #i need to shut up #but these characters actually rot my brain

[squirting-sub]

Seeing my dom tomorrow and apparently we'll be trying piss play the other way around. She's been wanting me to pee on her during sessions, but my body would not cooperate. When I wanted to masturbate a while ago, I had to pee in my undies in exchange. It worked because my bladder was very full and I recorded it for her (she didn't ask for that). Yesterday, she said how she watched that video so many times already because it turns her on so much. I sent her a photo of me in my wet undies I took that day but didn't send, so she told me to wear that thong tomorrow. She also told me to drink plenty of water and asked me what she can do to help me (force me or gently encourage?). I suggested we go back to me having to ask for permission to use the bathroom for this occasion so she knows when I do have to pee and she can decide if she wants to start the session.

Needless to say, I am nervous! I feel a lot more comfortable being on the receiving end. No doubt I will be as well (she said she'll give me plenty to drink so my bladder will be nice and full) but stilllll. Peeing on another person is easier said than done when you've been conditioned not to your whole life.

#really hoping there will be impact/pain play as well #i miss hurting and having my brain shut off #might have to bed Daddy to hurt me #i think she'd like that #lesbian nsft #dyke nsft #wlw bd/sm #sapphic nsft #lesbian bd/sm #lesbian d/s #wlw d/s #sapphic bd/sm #wlw nsft #sapphic d/s #sub original #piss play #piss kink