#and i thought this will liberate me

[hippiecana]

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#personal #maybe some tw #so #my future husband and me had to take care of his grandpa #no one else in the family wanted to help konda situation #when he broke his hip he never walked again #and ot was downhill form there #long story short it was a nightmare for all three of us #he forgetting and making stuff up #and forgetting that he cant walk #vs us putting up with tantrums confusion and constant picking him up from the floor #i could not even look for job bc i had to make shure every half an hour that hes safe and not eating his own poop #he died a few days ago #1.5 year was a nightmare #his last month was hell #i wished everyday for him to go #mostly from egoistic points #i could not hear his screams for much longer #he was rotting alive but i wanted him to go bc i could not take the smell anymore #and i thought this will liberate me #his funnersl is tommorow and i feel i am breaking apart #not bc i miss him or anything #i trully did not liked that guy and i only wanted to help my fiance #but i still wanted to do my job and take good care of his grandpa with him #and i cant stop feeling that i made his last days awful (he did not wanted to eat so i forcefeed him and did the same with the pills) #and that i sucked at my job #and for some reason too i feel im not needed anymore #and thoughts of dissapearing from the living world came back to my head strong and loud #delete later

[sherokutakari]

Okay okay okay but like

Everyone out here talking about Crowley's hinted at memory problems. How he remembers Heaven and making the stars, but not working with Saraqael. How he remembers going into battle, but not with Furfur. How he doesn't seem to remember Aziraphale in Eden, even though it turns out they met at the Pillars of Creation. How he knows what it's like, looking where the furniture isn't. Memory fussing. Clearly something Heaven Does.

But no one is talking about that Heaven's memory wiping was only mentioned once directly. And only in reference to Gabriel, who was explicitly not being cast down to Hell, but demoted.

Like some Cherub-turned-Principality, which could be either a promotion or demotion, depending on what Angelic Hierarchy you subscribe to?¹

What if the reason Crowley and Aziraphale's meeting in Eden seemed so first-meeting-ish not just because only Crowley's memory was messed with?

What if Aziraphale's memories had been also?

Neil said that these two had known each other for a LONG time between the s2 meet cute and the beginning of actual time/their meeting in Eden.² Surely Crowley would have given his name at SOME point if that were the case. And we know Aziraphale had a hard time switching from Crawly to Crowley, so even if he assumed his newly Fallen friend had intended to choose a new name, there's almost no way he *wouldn't* have just called him by whatever name he already knew him as. Why does he wait for Crawly to introduce himself, instead of just referring to him as Raphael, or Baraqiel, or Kokabiel, or Jophiel or whatever your favorite Proto-Crowley Angel Name is? And why does it seem like they don't even know each other, even a little bit?

What if they knew each other super well in Heaven, and after the Battle, both had their memories mucked about in, and both got Demoted??

What if in Eden they were meeting for the first time again, and they still ended up choosing each other over Heaven and Hell????

What if nothing the powers of Heaven and Hell can do can keep these two Inefffable Idiots apart????

Please help I'm .__o.>-<

#Good Omens #Good Omens 2 #Ineffable Husbands #bls im finally breaking my moratorium on go2 spoilers for this thought #someone with better words help me braaaain #like i feel like im just barely tickling the edges of a theory here i can't quite pull together #hhhhj #Good Omens Spoilers #Good Omens 2 Spoilers #go2 spoilers #Spoilers #links to tiny numbers will be provided in reblog #bc this site eats posts with links #liberal use of italics

[uncanny-tranny]

As long as young people have no recourse, resources, or autonomy, infantilization will continue to be a political strategy in order to control marginalized folks. Because young people are seen as literal property, it is a useful tool to apply that logic to other groups even if they are not children - when an adult is infantilized it is not only a revocation of their autonomy and personhood, but is a reminder that so long as there is a way to utterly control somebody, it will be utilized no matter if it "makes sense"

#politics #youth liberation #as a trans man specifically when i am infantilized it is because that person integrally sees me as forst and foremost property and that is.. #...not unlike the way they would see children. that is such a HUGE tell to me because it shows that there is a group of people who... #...are (or ought to be) completely owned and possessed... #...when i have been infantilized it was because i wasn't seen as an equal human being... #...and realizing WHY that was being done changed how i thought about this

[spacedlexi]

when u want to like a character so so bad but theyre a cop so its impossible

#sorry even if theyre hot my first thought will always be 'cop' and it kills all desire #slams head thru wall #vi arcane i want to love u so bad......but i look at u and see COP and its over for me 😐 #and her cop gf 😐😔 #before anybody gets mad at me im just sad 😔 shes great otherwise like she fits my fave types but this wall is insurmountable #she grew up in the SLUMS and they make her an ENFORCER??? die #she was wrongfully imprisoned for like a decade and they make her an enforcer 😐😐😐😐 #after finishing arcane i went to read her lore 😐 #felt so Liberal 😐😔 weh weh both sides bad type beat #girl its not too late please dont be a cop and cait pls leave the force PLEASE i cant defend you like this #anybody else trapped in this torture prison abt her or is it just me please tell me im not alone in this #every time i see her on my dash it pains me so much like physically mentally.... #its ok at least i have my other vi who fights ex military with her gf to avoid becoming soldiers in a pointless war :) blink blink #it speaks #only posting this bc i need to know who else is suffering over this.............. it cant just be me

[jasontoddenthusiastt]

Imo Jason is “irredeemable” by default because I don’t see what he needs redemption from.

#I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this before but joining this fandom made me fucking hate the word ‘redemption’ #no person I’ve seen who is in love with the concept knows the who what where when why or how it should work in a story #apparently it isn’t just themes and tropes anymore people don’t understand the proper use of the word ‘villain’ #kelseethe #also hilarious: Jason should recieve sensitivity training HR style from Bruce ‘I’m the government and children are my cronies’ wayne #if Jasons headstrong/‘answers to no one’ attitude towards vigilantism is what makes people think he's villainous #I hate to be a broken record but the baddie you’re describing is Bruce #nobody thinks he’s a villain for only trusting in his own methods/self and repeatedly isolating himself #and on top of that gaslighting and hurting people around him in attempts to do what HE **thinks** is the right thing #you people always thought *him* heroic not problematic for all these traits #the only difference is Jason isn’t psychologically abusive & controlling #yet he’s still the bad guy just cause he liberally kills folks in the crime business. #l'd argue goth ham war is the b*tman story to remind you of everything that makes Bruce authentically himself #Idk how to tell you that Bruce mentally compromising/crippling his son in a twisted attempt to ‘save him from himself’ #is perfectly in line with slitting the same son’s throat because he couldn’t stand to see him avenge his own killer #and yk what a redemption arc could be interesting for someone like Bruce #because he rarely questions or doubts his choices esp wrt Jason. no matter how morally dubious they may be #I think it would be quite fun to witness his extremely restricted worldview be challenged/shattered he deserves that humbling experience

[pikaglove]

Everytime my uncle sends me a conservative post on fb messenger, I respond with a bg3 meme because he's not going to understand it. Here are some I have sent so far:

He only responded to the goostarian one saying lol

#bg3 #baulder's gate 3 #bg3 memes #bg3 shitposting #Baulder's Gate #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #astarion #tav bg3 #the emperor bg3 #orin the red #conservative relatives #i accidently sent the goostarian meme twice but hey he thought it was funny #he started to send me these a month after I posted a vague meme about the economy #it wasnt even a liberal meme it was just saying the economy hurt me #like we barely talk lol

[i-drop-level-one-loot]

Need a work appropriate shirt that says "I don't want to talk about God, thanks"

#moved to an area i thought would be more liberal #nope lmao #ive had more comments about my body than ive had since i first started puberty #and lately men have been asking me if i know jesus #like?? #sir #im just trying to live #here for a paycheck #not to remember my religious trauma thanks #and i know that a lot of people think the term “religious trauma” is like #exaggeration #or something #but actually #the churches i went to as a child were not always safe spaces

[voidedjuice]

Siege alter who, instead of going for the king of victoria stuff, is simply Vina, leader of the glasgow gang

The sighs of kings keeps just being a cold slab of metal with a long backstory. The Victorian state is corrupt and oppressive. Instead of becoming King, what matters to her are the perfectly ordinary people she cares for and wants to protect, so that's what she sets out to do

6* brawler guard who gives abyssal hunter style bonuses to the other glasgow members, that make them actually good and viable :)

personal copium time: she and reed meet up and decide that the whole system needs 2 go yesterday. glasgow and reeds dublinn join to lead a revolution ^v^ tarans are granted proper rights & their language and culture are protected :) everybody happy

#arknights #the stuff with the glasgow members burning their notebook of king vina & her gangs heroic exploits bc they realised shit sucks actually #+ the attention brought to the special excalibur sword just being a regular sword made me think that maybe #we arent going down the 'ok but this time the king is a Good guy so the monarchy is fine uwu' route #well see though. i would like it #siege wondering what it means to be king. characters claiming to serve victoria when what they mean are the specific interests #of whichever duke theyre serving those lowly commoners be damned #i think itll be interesting especially when we reintroduce reed and her version of dublinn to the story #the one character fighting for the liberation of the oppressed without any dubious side stuff like eblana has with that one duke #well. thats just my thoughts. anyways.

[luvbug724]

obsessed w jeanee Actually. she drove hours in the middle of the night for him. she organised a heist for him. she blackmails a university for him. she was willing to break into the nest w brute force for him. she was willing to rob a hardware store to do it. she seriously contemplates climbing over barbed wire fences to get to him. she handles diversions and distractions with grace for him. she has the invasive curiosity to want to know all abt his little knick knacks. she resorts to violence when someone tries to stop her from getting to him. she prays for him. she talks to him softly when the only feeling in the room is rage. she pushes his hair out of his face. she checks his pulse obsessively. YEAH………… are we all seeing this rn

its so wonderful to me too because like this is RENEE. renee, who is a bad person trying very hard to be good. there was a post going around maybe a month ago how empathy for everyone circles back around into empathy for no one i can't remember any of the specifics but it rlly did something for how i see renee because shes a protector. its defensive. its safe. she knows the limits, she knows the point of no return because shes been to rock bottom and clawed her way up but she's willing to do whatever she needs to to get jean out of the nest.

there is a big difference between cradling allison when andrew hurts her vs actively threatening eau, going on the offense to make sure jean leaves safe with her. there's something insane to me abt how a few months of texting and calling jean could push her to that point, the point where she needed to be talked down off the ledge before the plan was more natalie than renee because this was something she absolutely could not fuck up. she knew that her efforts would be worthless if she didn't create a plan that couldn't backfire, because the punishment for jean trying to leave and failing (and i'm sure that message to renee would be used against him) or leaving and coming back would be 1000x worse than whatever they could do to him from a distance.

and then when she has him in his arms and she knows he's going to be safe, he'll be okay as long as she can get him to abby, she can let herself be kind again.

#IT DRIVES ME INSANE #like helloooooo?????? #i genuinely am not sure if this makes sense or if its just wordvomit but DO YOU GET IT #it may not be love yet but it IS something worthwhile. you know #they havent even known each other for that long!!!!!!!! #i said a few tags back that renee's actions arent lesser if theyre based on romance and like i know its been maybe 2 hours since i said it #but i still agree!!!! renee i think doesnt get her due diligence for her motivations. in the pursuit of like the strong independent #woman archetype i think we've neglected the fact that you know. a woman can be motivated by romantic feelings and it doesn't make her any #less strong or liberated #having a connection with a person isn't a weakness #feminism is so nuanced! there is no one size fits all! restating this idea for the third time this post but there is no weakness in love #even though misogyny has made it so easy to get reactionary with it and claim that any show of strength isn't motivated by it at all! #do u catch my drift. i can say it a different way a fourth time if necessary i dont think i can verbalize my thoughts well #hm ok thoughts to chew on! #back to my shitty hockey novels while i wait for tsc to drop! #jeanee #asks

[the-hawkeyes]

-- it will never bring you back

#kiera tag #ffxiv #ffxiv screenshots #ffxiv gpose #i wanted to try to do a sexy one but then a sad thought entered my brain and wouldn't let me go #mourning the death of her husband #killed by garleans at Carteneau #fought to liberate her homeland and push the garleans out #for all the blood she spilled #he is still nothing more than bones #and that is the way he'll stay on this star #her grief is deep #but she is comfortable with it now #looking at the new ring on her finger next to the old one

[susieskinner93]

"Growing up feeling that something about you is different but you don't have the words to describe what that is, but then...freedom."

For me, this captures the whole thing brilliantly because I felt the same, and it took me years to figure out that actually there was nothing wrong with me.

Yes, the journey to that realization was tough, but when you find the words to describe how you feel and who you are for the first time? It truly is euphoric.

#heartstopper season 2 #heartstopper #asexual #asexuality #i remember feeling the odd one out pretty much always #but i tried just not think about it? #maybe thinking that ignoring it will help? #it didn't it just made me have more questions later on #up to the point where i felt really down for not having an answer #then out of nowhere i bumped into a post #and it was like i wrote it? #like someone felt and thought the exact same things I did? #i cannot describe the relief #to know that there are people out there and I'm not alone #it was liberating #and seeing this scene literally made my heart skip a beat #this is important #this matters

[thunderon]

*slaps hand on table* alright imma say it: i am bewildered by how many people seem to have taken the idea “John and his Empire are Evil, therefore the opposing side must be Good” and just ran with it.

im not even like, upset, just totally puzzled about the fairly prevalent interpretation that the entire BOE movement is some brave grassroots rebellion with no glaring flaws or moral issues when we’ve seen them use nukes, various forms of torture, and child murder to achieve their goal of…. well we don’t exactly know what they want yet because our only real perspectives of their goals came from 1) a ten page appearance of an ex-leader who has been dead for about 20 years 2) three people who are BOE prisoners of war 3) a BOE memorandum that was like five pages of misinformation about necromancy

so i just don’t exactly get the warm fuzzies about them but somehow people are like “yeah BOE seems GREAT!! viva la revolución! #DownWithJod”. the easy acceptance of BOE as the “good guys” is especially surprising cuz muir seems hellbent on bringing nuance and layers to her novels (which a black/white hero/villain conflict would be pretty out of left field for imho). i mean don’t get me wrong, the houses and john are def not the good guys here, i just don’t think BOE wholly is either.

#the locked tomb #sorry for my poorly phrased ramble here #i dont mean to step on any toes here but…. they just don’t seem like the good guys either lol #interesting group with a defendable position? yeah! black and white good guys? meeeeeh #it’s just surprising to me that people actually seem to believe BOE is here to sing kumbaya and liberate everyone #i hardly make any controversial posts but here i am #this was a two minute spitball post pls don’t think this is a thought out take lol #op

[ipaniceverywherenotjustthedisco]

canon gay characters in kids movies make me bawl my eyes out every single time without fail

#like i was fine the whole movie #and then this happened #and it broke me #this is the future liberals want #and i’m okay with that #i love the gay agenda #nimona #nimona spoilers #kades thoughts #lgbtq

[teyamsatan]

come on barbie, let's go party 🦩 who's going to see barbie/oppenheimer this weekend? 🥰

#i have so much to do this weekend besties :( #but if you've seen it/will see it pls let me know what you thought about it!!! #no spoilers plssss #also the pink eyeshadow is a look and i will be using it liberally in honour of barbie #ೄྀ࿐ andra’s personal stuff ˊˎ

[whywontuluvme]

There's something about dramas like Our Liberation Notes, Call it love, Summer Strike and Tell Me that You Love me that just heal me and provide me with so much comfort.

#i would add my mister to the list too even thought it was a little too gut wretching to watch. #all these dramas hold a very special and very dear space in my heart #something about the slow moving and mundane but raw and true emotions provoked by the characters speak to me #i find pieces of myself scattered all throughout these dramas #please recommend me anymore that you might think id like!! #also the male leads in these dramas are truly the greenest flags #its so hard to find someone who truly understands and speaks my langauge of hurt and pain and love but watching these dramas makes me feel #less alone and that is why i'll cherish them as i continue this silly journey called life #kdrama #kdramas #melodramas have my heart #i forgot to add soundtrack 1 to the list!! #rant #my liberation notes #call it love #tell me that you love me #summer strike #my mister

[byler-alarmist]

If your support of Palestine includes apologizing for SA on the part of Hamas, you'd better block me before I come for your ass

#there is no justification for SA. ever. #you can't rape someone in self defense #raping someone won't liberate one's homeland #and don't fucking whataboutism me about IDF #i am saying that it's never justified no matter with which group the perpetrator is affiliated #i am seeing some very rancid takes and rape apologism in the tag that's making me sick #and before you try to come for me #i am for ending apartheid #i lament the civilian casualties no matter whose they are #and to ppl saying the recent hamas atrocities upon israeli civilians are 'fake': fuuuucckkk you #i'm going to keep my commebts here to a minimum #because the conflict is complex and my thoughts on it can't adequately be condensed into tags #i juat don't want to aee callous treatment of SA for any reason #tw sa mention #tw sa