#and it broke him in the end

[fandomsarefamily1966]

"I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror

It must be exhausting, always rooting for the anti-hero"

#the lord of the rings #taylor swift #anti hero #I actually think about this a lot #how Frodo doesn't really see himself as a hero and blames himself for his 'failure' #and how even seventy ish years later #people are still debating over whether or not he should be considered a hero #I myself don't really think of him as an anti hero #mainly because anti heros do bad things for a good cause #and Frodo doesn't fit the typical hero mold #but that doesn't make him an anti hero #it just makes him more grounded and relatable #he tried his hardest to do what he needed to #and it broke him in the end #and more often than not he needed someone's help to get the job done #and that's not something we should be ashamed of #this got really long I'm sorry #but my point is I love Frodo and I wish people would understand him better #and I wish I could hug him and tell him he did the best he could #my poor baby #😢 #💔

[heybiji]

dandelion casually dropping traumatic information while insisting that instead of killing the problem wizard they simply burn his tongue

#dungeons and dragons #dnd #dnd character #dnd oc #dnd art #dandelion treehollow #warlock #drow #all he does is talk... and talk... and talk #they did not actually burn the wizard's tongue it's cool #instead dande used his disguise magic to look like a sexy vampire and promised the vampire larper wizard the dark gift if he behaved #love when dande gets to put on a show because he says wild shit like i hate when people beg for their lives it makes me want to act out #dande had a wild episode #start of the episode: gets to pretend to be a sexy domineering vampire #end of episode: screaming and sobbing in pain after the curse-bomb in his head went off because he broke one of the curse-rules #where he can't sneak away from the party because the last time he did that be betrayed them big time #it's complicated... and delicious #also right before that the paladin was telling him he needs to find god LOL because he's worried about dande's soul #and dande blew him off saying he has plenty of time he's not gonna die (again) #only to then be convinced he's being killed by the curse in his head...... #embarrassing.................

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Mushroom body

(for @mikkeneko)

#SVSSS #shen qingqiu #mushrooms #body horror #better drawn mdzs #<-tag for higher effort art. At times like this I really wish I chose something else. #What is an October raffle for if not to end off with a little mushroomy body horror? #This one is inspired by my massive disappointment upon discovering that sqq's 'mushroom body' was just....guy shaped. #Come ON where is the fun in that? Why are we being kept from Fungi Amalgamation Monster Loving? #It's not going to stop Luo Binghe! SQQ could be a shapeless lump of slime and LBH and would still be over the moon for him. #Thank you *so* much for the prompt! I had so much fun. I love mushrooms and doing research was a delight! My citation list is long! #Broke my style a bit but I think it was a good choice. I have been trying to practice non-dot eyes more and its slowly coming along! #Also huge congrats mikkeneko for winning Twice In A Row!! #Your odds were a little over 1 in 1000! Lucky you!

[tianhai03]

felt like drawing kiryu how i dressed him up in gaiden... i havent drawn him in like 2 years i think. feels good to be back 🐉

#yes i put the hockey mask on him because of jason. yes im never taking it off. i love the mask so much #its like rggstudios knew that i got into friday the 13th recently and so they made that an option in the game im forever grateful #anyways. the game's great. im like 10 hours in and im still on chapter 2. i almost went broke multiple times bc i bought too much clothing #for kiryu to wear. 10/10 i cant wait for the ending to absolutely fucking destroy me emotionally <3 #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #kiryu kazuma #allyart #god i wish i didnt have work so i could play gaiden all day. its so fun..........................

[guinevereslancelot]

what was with cameron house md she spends 90% of the episode saying she wants their patient to die bc he's a genocidal dictator and her colleague husband says "babe it bothers me for ethical reasons that you want our patient to die :(" and she said "hm maybe you're right :/" but when it comes down to it the genocidal dictator lays a finger on her in an aggressive manner and chase instantly commits medical malpractice to murder the guy and then when he tells her she LEAVES HIM bc boo hoo he's a murderer now like GIRL he killed a man for you!!! he's wracked with catholic guilt!!! he's being crushed beneath the weight of his sins because he chose his devotion to you over his devotion to god!!! he literally could not get any sexier at this moment in time!!!

#girl what are you doing...... #also just in general she did not deserve him honestly he was so good to her and for WHAT #just to be abandoned at peak devotion and guilt and hotness 🙄 #girl get OUT of my way i'm stronger than you #if she cared she could fix him or make him worse but i could love and support him no matter what 😌 #his muder is a part of him and its SEXY #robert chase #house md #malpractice md #i know the actors broke up irl or whatever but wtf..... #i should have ended my rewatch w their happy lil wedding at the end of s5 #s6 everything instantly goes to shit #and stays shitty #chase should be happy fr #he's supposed to turn into house basically but they should have made him the well adjusted version of house #like how nightwing is the well adjusted version of batman #anyway i have no real point here i just lowkey dont like cameron bc of this arc #also her obsession w house is so weird i wish they hadn't made that a thing #this has been a shitpost #anyway she left chase at the absolute peak of his sexiness wtf....... #anyway since this apparently needs to be said its not that deep this is a silly post if you send me hate messages i wont answer #i block and ignore anon hate bc i am too busy touching grass to be rude to strangers over a tv show

[jurassic-cunt]

i feel like if vane found out flint was gay, he would feel personally victimized that flint expressed no interest in him. like even if vane had no interest in men at all he'd be like why doesn't he want me ?!?! i'm the hottest guy on this fucking island! my shirt is always off and i oil up my chest every morning

#actually that's probably why vane was rolling around on the floor with him #he overheard flint and miranda #if eleanor hadn't broke up their fight they would've ended up hatefucking #black sails #flintvane #jurassic-cunt

[myuminji]

"Since when have we been so different?"

#thrwoign up again #when I tell you that tears are his shards of heart that broke when he realise he can't save his brother #HE'S A CRYBABY. HE'S NOT STRONG. HE JUST WANTS IT ALL TO END. BUT IT WON'T AND IT UPSETS HIM. AND HE CAN'T DO ANYTHING BUT TO CRY AND CRY A #i'm nor oaky #trigun #trigun stampede #vash the stampede

[lunee-bat]

Guess what I had art block and made a kid for my notp and now the art block’s fixed and I got a free au out of it

(there’s more weird art under the cut)

Common whizbang w

She’s a cervitaur bc I’m embracing the cringe and thought Lucifer’s wack genetics would meet up with Alastor’s and remember Charlie’s and say “let’s square the hooves on this one!!” so here we are

Anyway,,,enemies to coparents shenanigans,,

They’re trying their best

I promise,,

#hazbin hotel #alastor #lucifer morningstar #and kind of #platonic radioapple #??? #barely #but i think the platonic radioapple folks might like this #so i’m trying that tag #idk in my works alastor’s aroace and nonamorous #and lucifer’s anybodybutalastorsexual/romantic #but they’re smashed together by some magic accident that made this baby happen #so platonic radioapple’s the closest tag ig #idk helpp I’m the new kid here #oh also #alastor hates that number 2 dad mug #lucifer made it for him and he’s only using it bc the baby broke the oh deer mug #i almost lost my duolingo streak bc i was so invested in typing out all this lore last night #nope #didn’t think of a name for the baby by the end of typing this #it’ll come to me just you wait guys

[ryllen]

as much as ridiculous he is, I appreciate Pen who found me passed out after 3 AM in the middle of desert & brought me home

a l s o, smart kid fhsdhdhsh

#fsdhdh i literally forgot the kid was there in the first place he really knows how to not get tangled up in adults fight #my time at sandrock #mtas #mtas pen #mtas logan #mtas builder #mtas andy #mtas unsuur #mtas justice #i broke up with unsuur just so i can read his friend status dialogues #HE IS TOO BORING WITH ONLY HIS ROMANCE LINES like HE HARDLY TALKS ABOUT HIMSELF ANYMORE #he is already very flat THE ROMANCE LINES ONLY MAKE HIM INCREDIBLY FLATTER THAN FLAT #even Pen ENDED UP MORE INTERESTING to listen to THAN UNSUUR FHSDH #i keep thinking the way unsuur runs or holds our hand and walks LOOKS LIKE TOYSTORY WOODY FSHDHSH #h e l p that man #Logan really lock on target on us SCARY fshdshd #he can't be fooled he knows the game will be over if he ends us first fhsdshd

[laniidae-passerine]

I made my post about Dean Highbottom and then as I was writing my tags realised that his Hunger Games counterpart is Haymitch. and now my head is in my hands and I don’t think I’ll ever recover

#IM GOING TO CRY. I am part of the system I never wanted anything to do with it #I killed so many people without laying a hand on them. I never ever asked for this. I tried to say no. my hands are still bloody. #both turned to drugs to cope. both had a mentee who reminded them of someone they hated so much #(snow reminded the dean of his old friend. katniss reminded haymitch of himself) #both knew exactly how the games worked and all of its consequences because one made it and the other lived it #both lived in the shadows of the past and never really got out from it #but in the end one of them chose to be cruel to the children who they were asked to mentor #and the other loved even when it was killing him #god. twenty three years and they never managed to drown the fire out of him. his heart broke again and again #but he held onto those shards even as they made his hands bleed. and then one day two children appeared and pieced it back together #and some of it was missing and always would be. you can’t undo twenty three years of alcoholism and pain and grief and self loathing #but a lot of it was still there. far more than he ever even believed could have survived #Haymitch I love youuuuuuuuu I will always love you #and Dean Highbottom you were kinda cringe and lame. guynobody ass bitch. do better #haymitch abernathy #dean highbottom #thg #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #abosas

[magnusbae]

dream, the entirety of s01 

#what do you mean im reusing my own jokes just a step further #come on that crazy bi broke out of prison #put his jailor out of commision permanently #then proceeded to yeet into a different dimension- started an epic quest to get his STUFF back- ended up on a road trip to hell- #humiliated satan in front of their entire kingdom- then saved the world from the crazy son of his og jailor #then went to deal with his own crazy son #not to forget had a walkie with his sister gotten roasted and went to reconnect with his bestie anD LATER WENT TO BLOODY SAVE HIS EX #he didnt rest for two minutes look at him #dream of the endless #thesandmanedit #sandmanedit #The Sandman #Morpheus #Lord Morpheus #dream #buns.edits #buns.all

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Fishing Interlude

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan sizhui #lan jingyi #ONE HUNDERED (+6 bonus) COMICS BABY!!!! WE MADE IT! #There's still at least 200 more to go at the rate I'm going but still! Triple digits for a comic project feels worth celebrating. #I'm no stranger to setting myself on projects but this is certainly the most adventurous and long-term one I've undertaken. #The aim was to be done by the end of September (whoops (I also took a few breaks to post other stuff)) But I'm still having fun! #Thank you all so much for joining me on this journey! I have a celebration announcement tomorrow! #Sorry this one doesn't really feel like a 'comic 100'. It's sandwiched between two comics that were supposed to be 'comic 100'... #I love how excited Jingyi is to be in the garden. And I will never miss an opportunity to have them fish. #Slowly...I am setting up my punchline with all this. I promise it's leading somewhere. #Lan Sizhui didn't fit into the frame for panel 3 so I like to think he dove in after a fish #Afterall that's were lan zhan is in this comic. Under the water. Hunting. LSZ is just following what his mentor taught him. #Sorry I broke Jingyi's characterization for this punchline. He's one of the biggest wangxian shippers in canon. But fishing comes first.

[c-t-r-l14]

This Audio Is SICKENING.

Ya’ll—I don’t even know where to begin.

When I tell you that I physically FLINCHED upon seeing Alex’s face in the thumbnail, the way my heart started beating, the way I started SHAKING while putting my AirPods in—you guys would’ve thought that I’ve gotten some terrible news or something. And—I don’t even know what’s CRUELER—the fact that Saku posted this audio on April Fools day, making us go back and forth between “is this cannon?” or “nah, this is definitely a joke!” Or him making it all lovey dovey at first, giving us a false sense of security—waiting for us to finally let our guard down so he could get ready to strike. But I do know that it broke me, and made me feel for listener even more.

I think one of the biggest reasons why it broke me so much was because we can see how much listener blames themselves. How much they think the breakup is all their fault.

And you can see how much its impacted them.

You see the thing with Alex is that he is really, really bad with communication. He’s rather quiet about how he feels, and doesn’t voice it out loud. A person like this—who doesn’t talk about their own feelings, who’d rather stay silent—usually are alone with their own thoughts. And that’s when things get rocky, especially in a relationship. One of the things that I noted in the break up audio (besides all the gaslighting, manipulation, and reality distortion), was the fact that Alex has had that argument on his mind ever since it happened, and not ONCE has he said something about it until the day they broke up. He was alone with his thoughts the entire time up to that point—mulling over the argument, his feelings, his future—and I feel like him doing this, instead of actually talking to listener to see how things can work out deadass lead him to believing that they couldn’t be together, which lead him to not tell them about the job offer until the very last minute. I wholeheartedly believe that if he sat down with them, and told them—“hey, I know you said sorry, but I still feel like shit because you made me feel this way,” if the thoughts got to be too much, then maybe things would’ve been better. But he didn’t—and just like listener, he assumed the worst, and on top of that— gave up without even trying to fight for the person he claimed to love so much. Instead, all he did was make excuses, act hypocritically, gaslight them, and blame them for everything—all the while not realizing that there was a whole bunch of things HE could’ve done better too.

And we can see how much it took a toll on listener—considering the fact that they were ridden with so much guilt that can’t even sleep well at night.

I can feel how much they hate themselves through Alex’s words as he tore into them, and this is honestly partly Alex’s fault, because he reduced them to a mistake they made. Dream Alex (who will now be referred to as DA from now on) was taunting listener—and throwing the words Alex said to them during the break up back to them. He kept on reminding them of their mistakes, and that THEY are the reason why he left. He kept on reminding them of the worst parts of themselves—and that’s high key what Alex did during the break up too. I feel like we all need to acknowledge that what DA said to listener in this audio is most definitely not a reflection of the way the real Alex would talk and act—simply because DA is a figment of listener’s imagination. And since listener is filled with so much hurt and heartbreak right now, of course their own guilt and self hatred is going to distort how things operate in their mind. So, let’s not take the things he has said at face value.

Listener has a lot to work on. Their trust issues left a wound that ran deeper than they initially thought. In a way, they are too much in their own head as well—and do end up going to the worst case scenario, and this behavior stems from the trauma they sustained from their former partner. This leads them to do irrational things, like invading Alex’s privacy and accusing him of stuff that only happened in their head.

Both of them have a lot of shit they need to work on. Alex needs to learn how to actually talk about how he feels, learn how to take accountability for the things he’s done wrong, and maybe grow a damn backbone, and listener needs to go get some damn therapy, get their trust issues sorted out, and learn all the facts before they come at people with any assumption they might have about them. I feel like this dream was kind of the point where listener realizes that they simply just can’t let their relationship end like this, because through this dream sequence, they realize that there was still a lot of stuff that was left unsaid, and are now seeking for some closure. I think now it’s the best time to go for it, considering that Alex apparently didn’t go to NYC and stayed in London instead (this is still very much unclear). And I am hoping and praying that his ass has the same nightmare listener had as well. Listener can’t be the only one who has a wake-up call (pun intended).

Their downfall was caused because these two idiots don’t know how to convey their emotions to each other properly. They could’ve had it all if one just actually opened their damn mouth to speak, and the other would just simply think before they open theirs.

This confrontation can go two ways: they cut each other loose and go about their own lives, or they find a way to make it work, (granted that they are BOTH willing to work on themselves).

Do I think their relationship is a lost cause? I don’t know. Something tells me that this probably isn’t the end, and a part of me (as much as I talk shit about how much I want listener to be an absolute bad bitch and leave him to drown in his regret), doesn’t want it to be the end.

With this being said, I still don’t like Alex. It’s gonna take much more than a damn walk down memory lane with a bizarre, brutal, dream version of him to get me to like him again.

Oh and by the way, Saku if you’re reading this—sleep with one eye open tonight.

Masterlist

#zsakuva alex #zsakuva #alex zsakuva #why did the beginning make me miss him a lil!?? #this audio was so damn sad bro #poor listener dude #I still don’t like Alex though #sakuverse #They are both hurting #as much shit as I talk tho #I want them to end up happy together #this shit actually broke my heart

[brother-emperors]

this is a scrapped scene from Trikaranos & originally it joined a standalone series of comics from Pompey’s point of view, but it got scrapped from THAT set too because I decided they both needed to be weirder and worse and this is kind of vanilla ngl. however I’m still kind of fond of it in some kind of way, and it’s been a second since I’ve posted a comic! also I wanted to draw it. so I did.

for context: Crassus cut his hand open helping Pompey out with something in a previous scene! for more context: the answer to Pompey’s question is a reliable (business/political) partner. that’s about it!

⭐ places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app / tip jar!

#the hand wound was replaced with a thigh wound and conversation changes currently cuts Pompey’s question out entirely #and replaces ends with the ‘I can give him something that no one else can’ because the answer to the unspoken question of what #comes into play later with a really thorny scene #drawing tag #tris homines #Komiks tag #OOF. that was like stretching muscles or something. every time I do an ides drawing my brain wants nothing to do with #dead Romans at all and it takes a minute to break their that wall. I think last year was the worst one lmao it was 2 months #before I wanted to do anything and liked what I did. this was more like. I’m sleepy. I want to draw uptight men in suits get totally undone #and there are no suits in Ancient Rome #BUT WE DID IT. we broke through the wall. I’m going back to drawing men in suits. #anyway crassus’ hair is a little longer here and he’s going to cut it down but he kind of looks like his dad and I’m going to just #aughghghghh

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

as someone who's been a big nerd for a bunch of hbo content since i was a youngin', i feel like it's just so bleak and depressing to scroll through max now and see how much vapid, stupid reality tv stuff is in this catalog. i miss hbo getting to have its own streaming service with just hbo content on there!!!

the news that the strategy is to basically cancel everything that doesn't appeal to "middle america" (i.e. diverse storytelling and honestly maybe just thoughtful scripted storytelling at this point) is not a surprise, but gosh, it's still such a gross bummer!!! blahhhhhh!!!!!

#i feel more strongly than ever with each day that jesse armstrong chose to end succession when he did just so he could dodge all this #and more respect to him for it!!!!!!! #i remember when the news first broke that ofmd was going to exist i was really excited that it was associated with hbo #for the flight of the conchords connection etc. and just the general prestige #and now i'm just like ha ha ha sob goodbye #dollsome's deep thoughts

[frodo-of-the-nine-fingers]

nieyao being trapped in the coffin for the rest of forever (or like 100 years) is infinitely less upsetting to me than lan xichen being trapped alone in his room/life without them for the rest of forever. like nieyao were always going to end up in that coffin together, they were always going to be the end of each other, but lan xichen didn’t have to end up alone like he did and yet

#and this is why he's denied dying w them which on a surface level is like oh good he was spared but was he really #did he actually WANT to not be in the coffin w them #the answer is no! #he broke the oath too but they loved him too much (derogatory) to let him die w them and he's going to regret that for the rest of his life #which is a bummer but is the most (naratively) satisfying ending for him i think but OUCH #⚰️ #nieyao #3zun #sry it's *checks clock* 2am and i have family coming into town in 12 hours and i *screams*