#and it’s okay to have insecurities too

[yourqueenb]

Feeling another random burst of self confidence (probably due to lack of sleep honestly) so have a heavily made-up eye reveal I guess? 😂

#this is from my bridal makeup trial back in December #and tbh even though it’s not exactly what I wanted I still really liked it and the overall look looked good in my engagement photos #we’re gonna change a few things for the day of but yeah #no one asked but I actually like my eye shape for the most part #I feel like they can look kind of sleepy or a bit too small sometimes in photos where I’m not wearing as much makeup #or any at all #but I still like them especially since they look like that less often now #maybe it’s bc I’ve kind of grown out of that and I haven’t really noticed until recently #or maybe it’s just bc I’m getting a little better at taking photos lol #either way if you’re a teenage girl or a woman in her early 20s and you have these random but prominent insecurities like me #I just wanna say that you’ll get past them/grow into them #maybe it’s just those awkward teen years or maybe you’re not completely comfortable with how you look or taking pictures yet #but it’s okay you’re beautiful in your own way #and it’s okay to have insecurities too #everyone has them whether you realize it or not #I def still have other things I’m insecure about #but it’s important to talk and think nicely about yourself even when it’s hard #so that’s what I’m doing here #I’m gonna try to keep practicing that from now on #hopefully I can keep it up bc I really do think too negatively about myself sometimes

[uncanny-tranny]

Shoutout to all the other adults who have acne or any other condition of the skin that you are expected to outgrow or "just deal with."

Adulthood isn't this magical time where everything just disappears, and the reality is that these skin conditions are largely genetic. It isn't your fault (nor your skin's fault) that you are an adult with different skin than other people. In fact, it's neutral (and even, dare I say, good!).

#positivity #body positivity #acne positivity #i have skin redness and acne still and it actually is a neutral thing at worst :3 #in fact it makes me feel better because it gives me the (false) notion that i am genetically more like him than anybody else :) #he has the same unique features i do :) #and it's helped me appreciate body moles and non-ski slope noses and boney features #as much as people like to pretend that body image is shallow (it can be) it's still not a moral failure to be insecure #we live in a society after all and it's inevitable that society's messaging can become like a malevolent growth in your brain #it's okay if you have a hard time with the reality that your features are neutral at WORST. it's hard to swallow that pill sometimes #but no matter what just know that you are lovable and you are loved. as you are too #do what you want forever dear reader #oh hey the 'him' that the tags didn't include is my dad! not some Mystery Guy lmaooo

[stuckinapril]

The whole “be responsible not for other people’s feelings but to them” distinction is so so true… at some point you need to realize that other people’s insecurities really are their responsibility & dimming or contorting yourself to make them feel better helps neither you nor them. Firstly, bc they need to realize what they’re doing and grow up. And secondly, bc you’re not just compromising on a one-time thing. You’re comprising on who you are as a person. I don’t want to look back when I’m older and stay stuck wishing I held my ground despite people’s projections or asserted my presence more or didn’t apologize so much for who I am. I really just want to own everything (the good and bad) & continue doing what makes me happy

#This is something to bring up to the therapist for sure bc im not perfect on this yet #and i think that’s also another thing im learning to be less hard on myself for — just realizing im 21 and that having insecurities or weak #Spots still is literally okay. Making mistakes is okay. I beat myself up for this too much #I am not a horrible person for being young & learning how to live & no one will make me feel otherwise #This goes in the other direction too in the sense that I need to stop being apologetic of my accomplishments for fear of #Triggering other people’s insecurities. That is not and nor will it ever be my responsibility #I’m always going to be graceful w other people’s emotions but I’m no longer going to overcompensate bc it helps no one #And is not a marker of love for me to do so

[faeriekit]

Health and Hybrids (XVII)👽👻💚

[I can't remember the original prompt posters  for the life of me but here's a mashup between a cryptid!Danny, presumed-alien!Danny, dp x dc, and the prompt made the one body horror meat grinder fic.]

PART ONE is here PART TWOis here PART THREE is here PART FOUR is here and PART FIVE is here PART SIX is here and PART SEVEN is here PART EIGHT is here PART NINE is here PART TEN is here PART ELEVEN is here PART TWELVE is here PART THIRTEEN is here PART FOURTEEN is here PART FIFTEEN is here PART SIXTEEN is here and we're limping into part 17...

💚 Ao3 Is here for all parts (now featuring mediocre mouseover translations, only available on a computer)

Where we last left off... Two! Words! In! English!!! And a television? Hardcore!

Trigger warnings for this story:  body horror | gore | post-dissection fic | dehumanization (probably) |  my nonexistent attempts at following DC canon. On with the show.

💚👻👽👻💚

Danny can raise his head now.

Only a little. It still hurts his neck for a while after. But his arms and his head both rise, now. His fingers curl, now, too.

The result is that Danny can now watch and change his own television channels. No more news! Now it’s all Food Network, all the time, baby. The result is that sometimes the doctors tending to him get distracted by various pasta dishes, but also. Danny is also distracted by various pasta dishes.

And roast chicken.

And fried potatoes. Every potato ever, actually.

…It makes eating his oatmeal a more awful ordeal.

“Aw, dyrling, na þa sæd egean,” the lady says to him, spoon at his lips. Danny weakly moves his arm towards her, but only manages to hit her elbow with the heel of his thumb. “Inne cwic tima, gise? Hiere þa læce.”

Danny is pretty sure his face is a nightmare to look at at the moment, but he still makes the world’s saddest expression at the lady, because she hasn’t blasted him or hit him or even sedated him yet, and he needs something. Anything.

He’s pretty the lady makes an equally sad look under her medical mask, but Danny is hungry and he’s tired all the time and he’s sad and he wants a cheeseburger. Or fries. Or…or anything at all!

Danny’s look gets progressively sadder, and the lady gets progressively sadder to match, and then they’re both just looking at each other so very sadly until a doctor physically has to cut between them to reach for Danny’s green-speckled blankets.

Ugh. Great. Now he’s cold too. He can’t quite muster a glare, but the doctor gets an extremely stern squint from him for their “help”.

The only response Danny gets is a half-strangled laugh. That is not the response Danny needs. He needs immediate respect and a Nasty Burger number two special.

And a new blanket.

“—Eall dæg?” the doctor asks the woman, but not Danny, and then he has to listen to everyone talking about him in a weird language without even pretending to ask for his input. It’s extremely annoying, and Danny half-considers falling asleep to avoid it. His gaze slides back to the television. He’s just as capable of ignoring everyone else as they are. He bets it sucks. He hopes it sucks.

They talk for a while, but then the lady takes the oatmeal away—and hey! Danny’s eyes widen and sting from the stretch. Uh. Maybe he didn’t think this one through. He’d still thought he’d get lunch out of this.

Um. He would like to continue to receive meals. But he’s watching her walk out with his oatmeal, which is the only human food that’s ever been given to him here, and…

Danny’s stomach cramps. It’s probably just anxiety.

He wishes he’d eaten the stupid oatmeal.

The doctor stays with him, setting the blanket into a laundry bin and checking over Danny’s body (ew) (gross) (nasty) for whatever they have to check on him, and Danny tries to go intangible at least four times during the check only to get oWOUCHOW jerks inside his core. At least one time, he flickers invisible. Not much, he thinks. Probably just an arm and the chunk of his torso.

The doctor pauses. Danny waits for things to (start to hurt) get worse.

“Mæg Ic?”’

…Danny doesn’t move. It hurts to breathe. Every time air scrapes through his nose and mouth, it burns a little more.

The doctor doesn’t move.

So they just.

Wait.

“Mæg Ic?” the doctor asks again.

They move very, very slowly. They touch him, and his—skin—and they rotate him to check underneath him. If they find something of whatever it is they’re monitoring him for, he gets wiped down with something gooey and wiped clean, and sometimes he even thinks they bandage him.

Danny wishes he had a bath. A whole, real bath. Where he could wash his own hair. And wipe off whatever this goo is.

When they’re done, the lady comes back in.

The sound of the door latching shut makes Danny flinch. Is she going to punish him? She walks to his bed. With her medical mask over her face, Danny can’t see if she’s visibly mad at him or not. She doesn’t look mad though…does she?

She stands to his good side, presumably so that Danny can see her. The oatmeal is back—it looks kind of gloopy, though, like it’s been badly reheated. The lady shows something to the doctor, who makes an irritated groan, and then they start talking to each other again. She cuts off to show him something, though—

Danny blinks. She’s showing it to Danny. He…looks down at it.

It looks like a mustard packet. It’s a black packet with yellow streaks, with writing on it with those letters Danny’s never seen before coming here, and it takes his eyes a second to focus on the package before realizing that there’s a little bee and pot on one end of the packet.

Oh. It’s honey?

Oh!

…Oh!!

Danny jerks upright, and, OW, and he definitely scares the lady and the doctor who rush to settle him but there’s honey?? Flavor??? His food can taste good again??!

He wheezes— and slaps a stinging hand onto the packet. “Pl’s?” he begs. He’d stopped begging in the old labs, no one there had listened to him—and he’d stopped begging for them to be gentle, to stop hurting him, to let him go. But for food. For food that tastes, Danny might do anything. Anything. “P’lease? Ple’se? Pleese?”

“Pleece?” the woman repeats, baffled. The word doesn’t mean anything to her; she’s only repeating the sounds. But Danny can’t stop begging.

“P’lease?”

“Pleece? Pleace?”

“Please?!”

“Awrite þis,” the woman mutters, and the doctor leaves. “Bist wel. Eom hebbjan eower wist. Es wel.”

And that still means nothing to him, but the lady gently lifts him up until his back can lay on the pillows, and he can sit more than lay. Danny watches in raspy silence as she rips the packet open and dumps the contents into the oatmeal. She stirs with gloved hands, ensuring that the packet is equally distributed. And then there’s a glob on her spoon, and the spoon to his lips.

Danny takes a bite. Tears well.

“Shhh,” the woman coaxes. “Wanian ma?”

Ma sounds kind of like more. Danny opens his mouth, and is rewarded with another spoonful.

He doesn’t start crying in earnest until the bowl is gone. But that’s alright. The lady finds tissues, somewhere, and he gets to look into her human-blue eyes as she carefully dries over and around his still-soft, green-edged wounds.

It’s a very nice gesture.

Danny sobs a little harder.

#Diana: kids like sweets right? Honey? We have honey packets in the caf for the tea drinkers #Closest Doctor: I don't know if it would be too hard for him to digest at this stage— #Diana: look at him. Look at my sad child #Danny: *having several simultaneous crises* #Closest Doctor: ...Okay. I will say. That's pretty bad. Yeah he can probably digest like a teaspoon of honey; lemme go add that to his char #health and hybrids #danny phantom #dp x dc #dpxdc #dcxdp #tw gore #tw medical #tw body horror #dcu crossover #Lemme ✨sprinkle in✨newfound food insecurity trauma

[trash-can-sam]

What happens when your coworker kills your other coworker but both of you are in a relationship (kind of) with the same ethereal woman who had an admiration for said dead coworker.

+bonus Evandrey because it’s funny to me (I’m sorry Eva.)

#pathologic #pathologic 2 #andrey stamatin #yulia lyuricheva #eva yan #evandrey #yulieva #evaandrey #Eva yahn #Andrei Stamatin #see I think that Eva is very okay with Eva being how she is- promiscuous and spreading her love (Maybe a little jealous but more rooted in #self loathing and insecurities) #and she’s like look I’m okay with this whole open relationship (technically we aren’t in a relationship even though I really want to be) #thing BUT why HIM. I have to work with him and he’s by far the worst man I’ve ever worked with (besides maybe his brother because at least #Andrey actually talks but really they’re a package deal anyways) I need to have meetings with him often and it’s horrendous every time #like spread your love it’s noble really. #I wouldn’t expect anything else from you #but maybe give him less he’s annoying as hell #I also think that she’d figure out pretty quickly that Andrey and Peter killed Farkhad #just bcuz like. yk she’s there. she’s seen the already shaky relationship crumble beyond repair. she’s seen them argue in meetings. #she knows the stamatwins are not above murder. especially for art. and she’s clever. #And andrey knows that so he doesn’t try to hide it. she doesn’t have recourse anyways- #the kains (who I think helped cover up the murder) employ her too #and andrey respects her to a degree- he assumes she’ll see reason. #and honesty. Yulia might be upset that Andrey killed one of the only other architects but also she does not miss him that much. #she’s like I don’t agree with this whole murder thing but you are kind of right he had to go he was getting on my nerves #the meetings will be 10x more tolerable now that the twins can’t argue with him about things that aren’t even real #it’s awful but it did drive Eva further into my arms so necessary evils. #my art #sorry for the essay in the tags.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet! #here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress! #you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better' #i Immediately started doing Worse! #i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now! #okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um. #i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually. #love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me. #perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that! #with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!! #gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

[allastoredeer]

wish i see something else than 'whoever is taller leads the dance' when it come to fanart with same sex couples (them actually dancing including) (cough radioapple cough)

AGREED! As a shortie myself, sometimes, you just wanna see a fellow shortie leading the dance. Is that really too much to ask? Am I just a naive, hopeless fool believing in dreams that will never come true?

It can work ಠ╭╮ಠ I think Lucifer would be fantastic at leading in a dance. Just give him a chance T.T

#siiiiigh #am I just too sensitive? #do I just get myself too worked up? #i hate a majority of the fandom romance tropes just because of how the shorter person in the relationship is depicted #i have issues okay #i have insecurities about my height #and I do not like seeing them reflected back at me #but alas #its okay Lucifer #you can lead the dances in my head #anon #anonymous #asks #hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #the radio demon #lucifer morningstar #lucifer magne #radioapple #appleradio

[mymelodyisme]

Is this a repost? Yes. Do I care? Yes. Will this get 🚩? MAYBE.

*dabs violently*

#sdv shane #stardew shane #stardew valley shane #Mr tumblr man please don’t look this way 🫡 you don’t see this #lowkey I always wondered if it would get caught by the system so let’s see!!! experiment time children #I’ll never draw his head that pretty again #I’ll TRY #should I put it back in my art tag #HMM #nah cause I DID post it before #oh if you’re unfamiliar with me but have seen like strawberry shane i CAN draw more humanly proportions I’m just silly #no I’m actually just bad and insecure about it but that’s OKAY NOTHINGS PERFECT BABES *DABS AGAIN* #oh I also forgot to add my second motivation #i hope this replaces the wallpaper in my most popular posts on top ya know the three boxes so we get wildly different Shanes in each square #hehe it’s consistent enough in style but all three are so different too

[shirokuart]

Art tips by Shiro if it can be considered that

also works using your own hands for the first one!

#I have more things but I'm embarrassed about giving some idk if will helps but this is okay #I'm just so insecure #this is analyzing my own artstyle tho keep in mind #and my own method too #I know some of my moots that already struggle with that so #ensemble stars #enstars

[awkward-fallen-angel]

EDIT: I'm feeling a lot better. Thank you everyone for the support.

I.... My gender identity was just completely devalued and minimized by a coworker and um...

Can I have some nice words or funny stuff or even just like your thoughts the new ofmd episodes sent my way- because I'm not doing too hot.

#you all are usually so kind about me being genderfuild and what just happened was really bad #a coworker freaked out and when people came to defend me they freaked out on them too #so i just feel really unsafe #and insecure #this was right after a rough session with my therapist too so im just having not okay #I'm sorry to get personal #my life #tw discrimination

[theprinceandthewitch]

TFW you get the biggest Huntlow jumpscare of your life while looking for art in a different fanbase 😭

#I got Huntlow'd bc I was looking up ship art for a game that just so happens to have a character named Willow... #you know even though TOH is dead to me fr fr this time - I will still come online to rag on it's canon pairings #bc oh my god. #its the way people will try to make up shit abt Luz and Hunter's dynamic being unhealthy #especially Lumity shippers bc its like... oh okay... you really want to play that dumb game? I can play it too #Like seriously. the audacity of these clowns is something else. Especially since Luz will literally lie to Amity #for no reason #and Amity has some insecurities with her relationship with Luz that are never properly addressed onscreen. #so i rlly dont want to hear people making shit up abt Luz and Hunter enabling each other #And with Huntlow its like - the writers didn't even bother to show Willow being genuinely interested in him until he got Flapjacks magic #so... #and dont even get me started on people misusing the term trauma bonding when it comes to Lunter... #i just wish the pickme bisexuals would stop going along with this fandoms biphobia tbh

[toytulini]

god I know this is like The Wrong Stance on AI. I know its not about whether the art is Real and Human or If It Has A Soul and how a lot of the arguments against it are the same bullshit arguments people made against digital art like I Know. I Knowwww. but god, I'm really sorry, not to post like one of those annoying poetry bloggers I cant stand (yall are valid, live your truth, theres nothing wrong with what you post I'm just a petty bitch who hates poetry. unless I dont hate it.)

But theres just something about the way AI art will almost certainly never be able to mimic the exact way my pencil leaves an indentation in the paper, the way some of the lines I can never fully erase cause I pressed too hard, theyll have to at least train them to draw with a physical pencil first, and sure, they could train it to draw with a pencil and even erase the exact same piece I drew, line for line, on a piece of paper with a robot arm powered by AI, but they can't replicate. idk. the lineage of lefty bitches in my family, and the way I grew up going through school with my entire left arm silver with graphite, from doodling on my schoolwork. not yet anyway. but I guess I do live for the day we make the ai sentient enough that we can traumatize it by giving it homework after kneecapping its executive functions so it copes by drawing a big tiddy lobster monster. sure

#toy txt post #reblogs OFF i dont trust yall to be normal with this one i do NOT want it getting notes #i posted part of this before in a chat to a friend but im feeling it again. so #i havent drawn my big tiddy lobster bitch in awhile i should draw her again #also yea SORRY im sure this is The Wrong Feeling To Have About AI but also sometimes im a little grateful that i dont think my style is #smth a lot of the ppl coding ai to make art find to be worth trying to replicate except maybe as like a fake progress shot on a piece #which is smth i used to be really insecure about. how unfinished all my art looks bc it isnt to the point i cant fucking watch #like speedpaints and shit bc i just start feeling stupidly insecure about all the points in the video where I Would Have Stopped and been #like. im not touching it anymore i dont want to ruin it #and ive been insecure about my inability to really do digital art with like a stylus and shit like the way i do it with a pencil #and i know that is just me needing to Practice it but being too frustrated by it #anyway i know its just a Tool and its Fine and the problem is the art theft and the labor problems of it but liiiiiiike #i just. #im sure there will be unique things and usages of ai as a tool and i genuinely hope that ppl can figure out a way to make one that isnr #isnt* just full of stolen content bc theres unique fuckin shit about like digital art programs u can write stupid poetry that you hate #about it. or stupid poetry that i hate. cos im the poetry hater. listen. i cant stress this enough: its fine. youre fine. keep posting your #poetry and reblogging shit that speaks to you. im just a Bitch okay Ignore Me #i should go draw bokrae like. eating a computer about this #the real reason for that graphics card shortage was bokrae ate them all when she was in the mood for a crunchy snack

[arcanaaa]

@scarletbellatrix asked: ♡

Send ♡ to see what my muse thinks of yours | Accepting!

●●●●○ | ATTRACTION ●●●○○ | AFFECTION ●●●○○ | INTEREST ●●●○○ | LOYALTY ●●●○○ | TRUST

#ask tag #scarletbellatrix #OKAY. Okay. Listen. Here's The Thing. #Aside from Mira; Cana also had a Huge crush on Erza (like fucking DUH?) but it never developed into anything more for a lot of reasons. #god im gonna need to make a whole fucking headcanon just for Cana Erza and Mira's friendship dynamic because theres /so much/ to unpack #because I can see Cana expressing interest-- but it completely missing the mark because. well. its erza. lmao. #and Cana backed off because OOPS WELL guess this means Women are off the table Forever goodbye <3 #but its more than that #i imagine when they were younger they all held deep connection with each other #but. again. it all centers around her own insecurities and worthiness #and to make matters worse She was the first to become S-Class at such a young age #and that is a resentment Cana /never/ truly got over or reconciled with Erza with #its a little different with Mira because their relationship is closer #I feel as though Cana and Erza were doomed to have a fast friendship in their youth only for it to crumble due to distance and misunderstand #and it is mostly Cana's fault but also Erza's too in a way #god im gonna have to write a fucking thing for this JUST YOU WAIT

[wriiothesleys]

i have a self shipping question but it might be considered rude idk

#i fully understand and find the ‘NO SHARING’ aspect of self shipping incredibly valid #but like……..wouldn’t it make you feel quite miserable? #like any time you see someone post a ss commission or their lore wouldn’t it upset you? #i often get this way with canon x canon ships so i couldn’t imagine #adding peoples self ships on top of that too? #i am not trying to be rude because i understand on one hand #but the other has me feeling like if i didn’t ‘share’ my f/o’s i wouldn’t be able to stand #any kind of social media kshxjdjsj #and TRUST ME i also get the insecurities and possessiveness when it comes to my faves #i am just. curious. #sorry ksjxjdjhs #if anyone wants to chat abt it i am all ears #okay wait also let me add #that i have distanced myself from people who self ship with my faves before (for reasons of my own) #and have had it done to me too #is that the same thing i suppose?

[oetscop]

btw if someone taking your order like. gives you several options to pick for smth and you just say like "whatever it comes with" you are like one of the most annoying customers on the fucking planet

#tongue #insecure customers piss me off so bad 😭 #reading a like pet peeve thing on a subreddit sparked this #the day that i quit this old fart replied 'coke zero or diet coke whatever you got' when i asked what drink they wanted #and i said we have both #and she was like 'yeah whatever one' #BITCH PICK ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!! #WE HAVE BOTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #that and people who start every single item with 'is it okay if i get' #i want to say no so fucking badly #'is it okay if i get a big mac' no. its okay for everyone except you #we're actually all laughing at you right now too #you should probably leave before we call every person you went to high school with to make fun of you

[enbyshads]

once again comparing two characters from different franchises simply bc they have the same vibes

#i promise these make sense #at least to me #thats all that matters idc #okay but like cmon #both blue coded characters who have insecurities but often try to hide them by being overconfident #and both of them had questioned their place on their team at some point #AND they both sacrificed themselves too but fortunately didn't die #and i guess theyre both very queer anyways #bat talks