#and not look at my multi for a bit

[magebcrn]

Gimme a sec to let out some shit in the tags.

#I feel creatively stale right now #and i look at this multimuse and i just kinda #idk #i feel ashamed or as if i'm not adequate #it's nobody's fault #i think i'm just going nuts because i haven't had to do anything because i don't start again until tomorrow #and i'm just #losing my mind a little bit #idk how to describe it #but i feel like nothing i put out is super interesting #and i kinda wanna just focus on a brand new muse #and not look at my multi for a bit #i'll get over myself but #eh #i'm just goin' nuts here #anyhow #i'm done for now #i just needed to get my feelings out #and again #i'm always here to talk and whatnot #just feelin' creatively drained

[drama-nonsense-v]

10 BL boys I want carnally <3

Thank you for tagging me to do this @blneobin <3 I'm a little behind on this but i FINALLY have time today to write it so here we go! I've had so much fun reading all the one's I've seen thus far~

Keita Machida - Kurosawa (Cherry Magic Japan)

I absolutely ADORE this man. Attentive and kind and he's ssooo pretty. He is 5'11" (180cm), I want to climb him like a tree, thank you. I would do anything he asked. I have watched this show so many times in the last 6 months since i first watched it, its a little ridiculous. (eepy Kurosawa...oh how i adore him)

Khaotung Thanawat - Ray (Only Friends)

I love this man so much it hurts. I adore everything I've watched him in thus far but there is a /reason/ Ray is pictured in my about me on this blog. I related to Ray so much and his and Sand's scenes....oh wow... I have so many edits and gifs saved in a folder on my computer of this man, I am unwell about it (someone should recreate their dancing in the parking garage scene with me...)

Nut Supanut - Solo/Way (Oxygen/PitBabe)

I adored Nut in Oxygen (is it a little stiff, yeah, but i still liked it) I am a sucker for puppy like characters like Solo and hes just so incredibly Handsome. And Way is just...oh my god. Nut is legit the one of two reasons I started watching PitBabe. (Obsessed with the fact that Way is still kinda Puppy coded. He can take his frustration out on me, I'd consent to that)

Jimmy - Peun/Mohk (Vice Versa/Last Twilight)

I enjoyed Vice Versa and Jimmy immediately caught my attention when I watched it. And now with watching Last Twilight, many of my friends know just how UNWELL I am about this man. Mohk is so kind and attentive and he's so so handsome I cannot handle it. I made so many people watch the clip of him getting angry with August. When he got super quite? Lost my mind. (Look at him...look at his arms, are you kidding me??)

Ja Phachara Suansri - Leo/Punn (Don't Say No/Be Mine SuperStar)

THIS MAN IS 6'2" (188cm) THAT'S NOT FAIR. HE'S SO TALL (i'm a little jealous...) Ja is so pretty and him just throwing around First in Don't Say No like he was nothing? I lost it. The scene in the pool in Be Mine SuperStar where Punn and Ashi are talking and then Punn stands up? I was UNWELL (Punn is also another Puppy coded character and I will forever be a sucker for it)

Perth - Ae/Kanghan (Love By Chance/Dangerous Romance)

When I tell you some weird things came out of my mouth when I was telling my friends about Perth, I wish I was kidding (@darkroseespeon can attest to that). He's so incredibly ridiculously handsome and his smile is absolutely infectious. He's another that I would do anything they asked. (cue to me just repeatedly saying "he's so pretty" as i was trying to find a gif...)

Nat Thewphaingam - Nawin (Laws of Attraction)

I was living with some roommate when I was watching Laws of Attraction and they had a good laugh watching me LOSE MY SHIT when this man came on screen. I was immediately obsessed with Nawin. The bgm, the bloody tank, and the brass knuckles? I was a gonner. Truly in love with his antics and i would give a lot to be under him. (do you see his arms? the lighting? just...HIS FACE?)

Ji Sub - Jae Won (The Eighth Sense)

OMG one, this show is so important to me. Two, Ji Sub is a meal I could eat every day. I don't even have much more to say than that. He's just so handsome and he had such sad eyes... Jae Won, once they're finally boyfriends, is so sweet I just adore it so much. I love this man. (He was so cute in this scene I cant...)

Us Akkarachotsopon - Tay (Kinnprosche)

Tay is fully the embodiment of my never ending delima of do i want him or to i want to /be/ him???? His fashion sense is glorious and I will never be over it. The minute I start talking about it, its hard to get me to shut up. I would give ssoo much to take care of Tay and love him like he deserves. (Where the post that's like "i'll do anything for a boy with big brown eyes" or something like that. Also, this shirt?? I need it.)

Kiseki: Dear to Me

Am I cheating a little bit by talking about all four of them? Maybe. But I have made SO many people who are not into BLs watch this show FOR A REASON. I love it so much and I love all of them so dearly. AiDi and ChenYi's fashion? IMPECCABLE I'm obsessed and want to recreate some of their looks so bad. All their scene once they're finally together??? unbeatable to me. omfg. ZongYi and ZeRui's kitchen scene?? In shambles. SHAMBLES (I have a stuffed animal I named ZongYi cause he's so precious to me...and I want to get one to name AiDi)

Aaaahhh this...took me way longer to write than anticipated. Though part of that time was looking through endless amounts of gifs. to which, thank you to the gif makers, y'all make my day (haha xD) I have no idea who hasn't done this yet, (@mb-bls idk if you have or would want to?) but if you see this and want to do it, tag me so I can read it!!!!

#aaaahhhh thank you again dear for taggging me!!! #this was soooo fun #Its a bit ironic that the first real post i make myself on this blog is this one lmao #very on brand for me imo #I just kept looking up and down my list of all the shows I've watched thus far and picking characters/people was suuuuch as struggle lmao #There's definitely a couple of patterns that are easy to pick up on when it comes to who i gravitate towards haha! #multi bl #mutuals my beloved #<3 #ironnoises

[grimfantas]

you can call me heartless all you'd like, but it won't bring her back and it won't help you heal.

#tails the fox #shadow the hedgehog #sonic x #based on a roleplay I had with my partner. who writes an extremely incredible shadow #I write my thoughts here because Sonic X ending has me terribly fucked up #considering how young tails is to be suffering from grief I bet it's especially difficult to handle a kid who has no clue how to process it #who had to make an extremely unfair choice to kill someone he loves. and then to take it out on his big brother #Taking out his anger and insisting on blaming someone for cosmo's death... it's very heartbreaking. #Imagining if Shadow had come back and Tails had not finished grieving yet. there already soooo much anguish #Exploring grief in art is very very fun but there is something so gutwrenching imagining someone so young have to figure out how to deal #with that. younger people often acting out and not realizing how unfair they are until time has passed and not understanding #multi faceted perspectives etc. I know its a bit odd to go crazy about osmething like this over Sonic X but something about Cosmo and Tails #just hit very hard and I care about them very much. tails is huge favorite. i care about him so much #I probably shouldn't dwell on the sad parts of sonic x too much but that last scene tails has with sonic stuck hard #Can't imagine how strained it might feels for the next few months. and Sonic just takes it. Can't even look at Tails or answer him. HMMMM #anyways im done being chatty in tags I will delete my thoughts later as per usual. hehe. Sorry <3 #sonic

[hollow-keys]

Sometimes I see the Doctor being tetchy, arrogant, mean and/or a bit of a cunt and go "Yeah, that's them," and sometimes I'm like "The writers have lost their grasp over the character, huh/He would not fucking say that."

One's inconsistency can be pretty fairly laid at the feet of the writers not having their vision set in place yet (AKA early installment weirdness), wonky values (see: abandoning Susan being framed as "for her own good," also wonky values is always gonna be a problem because there are always writers with wonky values) and also just, character development (but that's covered under "Yeah, that's them"). However, at the end of One's run onward, the Doctor feels like they have a solid foundation.

However after Sarah Jane leaves, the Doctor starts to feel meaner again in a way that feels off. Jabs at Leela for being a savage (where he wouldn't insult Jamie, who had a similar pre industrial, rural background) and a bit of a running gag of him just not listening to people (this improves near the end of his run before he regenerates). Five gets this as well to an extent after Castrovalva and it only really reverts after Adric dies.

And like, sure, some of this I do think of as in character (see: him getting mad at Adric for wanting to go through a CVE to get home but then calming down and apologising) but some of it (see: telling Adric off for getting in the Total Survival Suit and losing control, not considering that Adric just didn't know and was doing his best) feels off.

Of course, it's difficult and subjective to decide what is in character for the Doctor in general as they do change between incarnations, but I do think that the Doctor isn't the Doctor if they aren't trying to be good, you know? Sure, they can be tetchy, mean and arrogant but they always have their hearts in the right place and try to be kind.

Also this is all very "if I recall correctly" because I don't exactly have a lot of citations off the top of my head, this is just the vibe I've got as I've been binging the series.

#this is a bit of a sequel to my post about one's characterisation #more of a multi era look into my thoughts on the doctor's characterisation #rambling #the doctor #doctor who #classic who #📨

[m-eltdown]

#this time of year is always so weird and i’ve been slamming boundaries down left and right lmao #decided to do a multi layer tarot reading a lil bit ago to see how the energy’s feeling #i thought my desk looked pretty after i was finished so tahdah #222 #999 #777 #mine #my post #my photo #tarot deck #tarot cards #tarot #tarot reading #intuitive readings #card reader #spirituality #crystals #quartz #angelite #altar #my desk #purple #tapestry #the empress #the lovers #room decor #bedroom decor

[bravevolunteer]

it is..... getting very close to One Whole Year Of Consistent Michael Brainrot.

#*i first added him as a muse in january 2022 BUT i was only primarily focused on him for about a month or two #before i ended up in other rpcs for a bit (he never left my brain) (he was like a sleeper agent trigger word) #but. yea it was around this time last year he gnawed at the bars of his enclosure and i am still fucking here huh #sitting here like 'no that can't possibly be true i remade my multi in LATE december last year' yeah i spent the beginning of the month #redoing all my bio pages pretending i wasn't doing this Just To Write Michael Again... and look where we are now JKDSFHJK #i'm so sane i'm so normal i'm so sane i'm so normal #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job�� and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc #also fun fact the multi ALSO got shadowbanned when i tried to remake it. tumblr does not like michael

[sentofight]

ooc. u know since i started teaching i think my grammar is getting..........tiny..........tiny...weeensyyyyyy eaaannyyyy better. i know how grammar works but then i write my brain: *slides arabic structure here because it can* and then you have arabizi*

#ooc.| faty speaks #[i know i still do it but (verb have) in a past sentence my brain: gotta use the past form of the verb too duh #[modal verb carry the tense so no need to say something like they didn't had it should be have... #[me: its easy. brain: lmao ok i cant apply it because whatever~ whaaaatever~~~~ #[sTOP IT ZA.CK FAIR STOP IT!!!! YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO WWHATEVER ME NOW NOT EVEN IN JP!!! I WARN YOU BRAIN #[never mind me im just little bit emotional. remember when i used to write am instead of I .... yeh. same. #[i give myself pain because i can #[LISTEN. IM TINY BIT PROUD. AT LEAST I MAKE SENSE NOW..........RIGHT?...RIGHT??????????????????? #[we passed the your and you're stage too. luckily i didnt get them mixed up. it is the there and their for me XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD #[help me..im suffocating because of past memories waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!! #[let me not open my old multi muse blog and look at my writing sobs #[oooh c r i n g e ~~~~~~~ #[yehaw i wanna bother wars suddenly weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[bbygrl-agenda]

★★★★★ (5-STAR) Seungmin

#skz moodboard #seungmin #skz seungmin #purple moodboard #5star trailer #stray kids #stray kids moodboard #5star moodboard #stray kids 5star #purple-min #I haven't done this in 6 years #I hope it looks ok on the new multi-image post format #a bit rusty in my moodboard making skills... please be kind #bbygrl-content #board:mine

[raayllum]

Your destiny is already written. / My return to this world is inevitable. 

#watching this whole bit is just me screeching #the key of aaravos #LIKE THE OCEAN RUNE EVERY TIME AGAIN. REALLY #the way s4 wants us to think about this episode So Bad it makes it look stupid #2x08 #arc 1 #if there is longing on the mirror of my heart #mage boy #screencaps #'makes no damn sense. compels me though' #4x04 #arc 2 #multi #parallels #s5 speculation #loosely

[reploidbuddy]

Me: So I got this multi-chapter fic right

Brain: Uh-huh

Me: Focuses around Silver and Espio starting as complete strangers with flaws and issues they gotta work on.

Brain: yeye

Me: Like I’m trying to be casual in the writing so I don’t want big world-saving high stakes objectives or like big adventures.

Brain: .....mhm....

Me: So like the fic is gonna have a lot of focus on them talking and bonding and trying to help each other grow

Brain: .......MMMHMMMMMM

Me: But it also feels weird because of the lack of Big Adventure™ and other things I had in other fics, like even if the story grew clear enough to start writing, it feels I don’t even have a genre I can name?? Like even even "adventure" doesn't feel right.

Brain: .

Brain: Romance. Your genre is romance.

#guess im writing Espilver now huh #this is a half-joke post in the sense that it took me a whole ass month to accept that maybe I did wanna write them that way for this KCBKS #instead of like 5 seconds #not in a “shipping bad” sense but rather “I'm such a big platonic writer usually wouldn't it feel weird to not go platonic?” #espilver #rambling #rep n brain #did a bit of exploration of the ship like looking at what their relationship can be like and re-watching the Rivals 2 cutscenes #me likey how they act toward each other it seemed to me it was rooted in respect and trust and me likey that #there's also the element that I like to explore different relationships with Silver like who he’s closer to in the particular fic #like with Knuckles in At Hope’s End and Amy in Where Home Is #and while I still want to explore him and Espio as only friends I think Romance would be nice to explore bc I haven’t tried to write- #-romance in YEARS like I don't remember when's the last time I tried #Where the Water Narrows #anyway I hope my readers won't mind a fic with Espilver as a central thing bc uuh that's the next multi-chaptered story they're getting KDB

[scarletspider2the2ndpower]

“Kaine,” Web of Spider-Man (Vol. 3/2024), #1.

Writer: Steve Foxe; Penciler: Greg Land; Inker: Jay Leisten; Letterer: Frank D’Armata

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Web of Spider-Man #Web of Spider-Man vol. 3 #Web of Spider-Man 2024 #latest release #Scarlet Spider #Kaine #Kaine Parker #RAAAAAAAH KAINE MENTION 🗣️🗣️🗣️ #and it’s more than just a panel cameo!!! and he continues to have his spooky stealth suit!!!! #absolutely wild that I finished my read-through all the way back in December 2022 #and now I’m over the moon because I get to update two of my blogs today #as for what’s actually on the panel: does my love for Kaine mean that sometimes I wish he could have his own independent stories #solely focused on developing his character? sure #but I’m also fascinated by where they’ll take Ben and Kaine’s relationship since the last time they were together #outside of a big multi-reality Spider-person fight Kaine got stabbed (I wonder if they’ll bring that up at all) #and I think it’s sweet that he’s trying to look out for Peter in his own way/have a bit of sympathy (feelings of responsibility???) for Ben #(and if you couldn’t already tell I’m just so desperate to see Kaine I’d almost forgive Greg Land’s art hahaha) #anyway love the begrudging stumbling backwards into responsibility #it’s very Kaine

[revenantghost]

Oh no... When you post a fic and it does well enough that you make it a multichapter but that first part was a fluke ahhhhhhhhhh

#I never get more than two comments or so on my weird-ass fics #So I was SHOCKED to get more #And I have trouble with motivation because by the end of a multi-chapter #No one's reading #BUT I THOUGHT I MIGHT BE GOOD #BUT OH NO IT'S AS BAD AND BORING AS I THOUGHT IT WAS #I see a couple comments in my inbox but I think those are good friends #And I feel bad like they're OBLIGATED to read #I'm afraid to look and read them tbh #And I know you only get less interaction as a fic goes on #Oh no I dared have a bit of confidence in myself and it BACKFIRED #WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF #I have the next chapter already written but... oh boy motivation will be fun #I feel bad I turned it into a bland multichapter instead of leaving it as-is RIP #Well at least it has the most kudos out of everything I've written when it was a one-shot? #That's cool #OKAY I NEEDED TO RAMBLE onto the acceptance stage of grief now ignore me #(I have a lot of bad experience from sharing my work and it's especially hard when I care about it that's all) #Yadda yadda

[p2ii]

feel like shit i just want her back (youtube how it was 5+ years ago)

#this isnt to do with the current drama #just my general frustrations on how the app itself is now #and ig the general culture a little bit #psii.txt #currently looking for firefox extentions for the old layout and will prolly make a whole new account just to follow the same ppl i did #when i was 12 cause god this uni application stuff is stressing me out and i am using romantisized nostalgia to cope who care #i hate shorts i hate that it shows random videos in the recommended/search results #where are the animation memes #where did they go? #the maps (multi animator one) the amvs the animatics???

[mars1atlas]

art dump :3

#genshin #fatui harbingers #my art #art dump #sketches #tadc fanart #bit of hoping what the tsaritsa will look like #hehe #multi fandom blog

[bilberrybun]

I was possessed by something and wrote 1,5k of durgetash smut in like two hours. Now the porn is growing plot and idk how to handle that.

#listen I wanted to write some killing and fucking but now it starting to look multi chapter #I need to put Orin in this somehow #I need to put my durge trough religious trauma before they get to fucking on a fresh corpse #I need him to bring Gortash to heel before he lets Gortash take any control #once again I’m loosing the battle with short stories #bitting and killing and gnawing #they are so toxic and codependent and still the best thing that ever happened to each other but also the ultimate demise #and they both know from the start #insane insane

[weirdfishy]

and suddenly i find myself on an unquenchable quest for knowledge (guy who’s been spending hours reading k-idol info pages)

#fishy’s bubbles #insofar i’ve been a ‘oh i just listen to music’ k music enjoyer/fan #like fr. if it gives it vibes idk what you want from me #but now. now i just want to make connections n know faces n ages n debuts n friendships n activity #ig i did drop off on keeping up on my multi-idol/group enjoying so now i wanna know what’s happened since i dropped off #(i dropped off rounds about the tail end of gen 3/3.5 and now we’re a good bit into gen 4 but all im wanting to do is pick back up #n see how my prev loves r doing. it’s funny too bc for the most part i’m not even consciously aware of how certain groups/names are ‘iconic’ #[iconic to me at least- wherein ik them n they’re still popping up here n there] #like i’m p sure i was just listening to ​bts in 2018 #*looks suspiciously at 2017* hmmmmmm why do i think TOPDOGG (or UP10TION) has done a dance video for one of their songs using heeley’s #in a school gym) #anyway it is. so late. The Fruits would be so disappointed in me for how late i am sleeping (i’m so proud they sleep reasonably <3)