#and we got to see him heal!!!

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

Sorry don't mind me I'm just still in shock that the Kenobi series is real

#star wars #kenobi series #we got that. we truly got genuinely authentic true-to-the-heart-of-the-franchise star wars media #with my BOY obi-wan!! and anakin!!! and ewan and hayden!! and we got to see obi-wan have a relationship with leia (!!!!!!) #and we got to see him heal!!! #i just...i just can't believe it like we are living in the era of the final big chapter of their story #we're still freaking out about rots from 2005 sure but we also have something new that is made for *us* #we are this star wars generation and we got to be here for the last chapter of the entire 6-movie saga. it was made for us #i'm losing it #little 11-year-old me who journaled as a made-up star wars character...little 9-year-old me who wrote her first fanfic about star wars #little 13-year-old me who never forgot about how the clone wars series never got an ending and wished that it could have (and it did) #little me who watched the original trilogy on vhs and fell in love with it. who freaked out when vader said 'i am your father' #little me who made up a parody song about star wars and still remembers it to this day (it's called 'yoda was a puppet') #(it started as a rip-off of the veggietales song 'jonah was a prophet' and evolved from there lol) #little me who was OBSESSED with obi-wan and always related to him but thought i'd never get to see any more of him #and now my dream's come true #and i just feel a lot of things about it #all those younger versions of me got what they wanted. i got to witness something worthy of being that final chapter as it happened #i've never been happier to be a star wars fan #obi wan kenobi #kay has a party in the tags #kay can i just catch my breath for a second

[moeblob]

So does he, Gallagher.

#honkai star rail #hsr blade #gallagher #i based this off of how many times i used funny soda man to help be a healer with his poppin soda pop in SU #and then blade constantly just being blade as usual #its normally him saying unnecessary to my actual healer but #i kept forgetting gallagher heals and i kept healing when i didnt even need to so TECHNICALLY yeah it was unnecessary #but the amount of times blade was the recipient...... #i cant use like most of my newer units in story bc i cant ascend or i run out of leveling mats so i just #get them and toss them into simulated universe for funsies cause i can match their levels better #so thats where i tossed gallagher and he is genuinely fun to play as ? like i love his punches and kicks to start the battle #funny soda man is funny (to me) and im really behind in plot still #but last time i tried to play it on my laptop and got a kickass cutscene my laptop lagged and i couldnt even see it RIP to me #so now that its like ... me trying to play it on desktop ? #i mostly get on desktop for comms and if i do much else i feel like im slacking off even if i would take a break anyway #one day i can play more story plot stuff and actually meet the funny guys #also in case you know me for Not Having Boys in HSR i need to point out #i did pull Gallagher however same 10 pull got a 4 star girl copy for someone i never use and she is at e4 now cool #and i didnt even think of the irony as i started this i just like drawing blade and i wanted to draw gallagher #so when i already had the dialogue planned and am drawing i was like OH WAIT haha im funnier than i thought #(no i am not but we can pretend)

[ruporas]

can’t talk about it

[ID: Black and white comic of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. The comic starts with the sounds "thud, thud, click". Vash, mid-action of peeling an apple, turns to the sound, noticing who it was that entered, and says, "Oh, Wolfwood, you're back." He resumes back to his apple in the next panel as he speaks, "Where'd you go? You snuck out of bed quickly this morning..." Wolfwood's hand then enters the panel, hovering over Vash's cheek and Vash looks up as Wolfwood asks, "Can I?" Vash responds, "Not going to talk about it?" while using a hand to gently hold Wolfwood's hovering hand and presses a kiss to his inner palm.

Vash then gets up fully, setting down the knife down on the table and the apple onto a plate, He leans into Wolfwood as Wolfwood explains, "Had to meet someone. Nothing interesting to talk about." Vash kisses Wolfwood's left cheek and a hand moves to cup his other cheek while muttering, "You're being vague." Wolfwood says neutrally, "If yer really that curious, keep askin'. We  can talk about that instead of doing this." Vash leans back and responds, "Let's talk after, since... You look so tired."

The panel pans to a close up of Wolfwood's downcast eyes, bags heavy underneath his eyes. He doesn't allow Vash to sit in that moment for long though, then saying, "Yer not helping, Spikey. Being all slow with it... I could fall asleep right now." He moves his hand to start unclasping Vash's coat, starting from his collar. Vash with red cheeks, responds briskly, "Oh, shut up. I'm worried about you. I can't be worried?"

The final shot shows Wolfwood's back to the viewer while Vash's softened expression can be seen as he holds gently onto the side of Wolfwood's face and a hand firm on his waist. Wolfwood responds, "I'm fine, seriously," pausing for a moment before continuing, "Is it okay to still..?" Vash responds, "Yeah, it's okay."

The next image is a shot from later that night after the previous comic. Vash and Wolfwood are now in bed, half naked. Wolfwood's buries his face into Vash's chest, his arms wrapped around him, while Vash is petting at his hair. Vash reminds him, "Hey. You said we'd talk about it." Wolfwood pauses for a moment before piping up, "In the morning? I'm sleepy." Vash says, "Okay..."

The next two pages start from the morning after. Wolfwood is already fully awake, pulling on his outer jacket as he says to Vash, whos' still bundled in his blankets, "Breakfast is on the table. Make sure to eat it. I'm going to grab some things in town and then we're leavin'. Got it?" Vash says, "Mh." Wolfwood responds, "Good. See ya in a bit." The dialogue starts to shift into Vash's inner thoughts now, as he gets up and eats toast, thinking, "Wait. Weren't we supposed to... talk about it?" The next shot then shows him fully up, meeting Wolfwood in town. He carries a half worried expression with him while Wolfwood slides on his glasses for him. A quick panel shows Wolfwood's tired expression from the night before and quickly juxtaposes with Wolfwood in front of him who's smiling gently, the shades covering his eye bags. Wolfwood asks him, "Still not awake yet?" Vash pauses, his thoughts stirring, thinking, "Oh. I guess I was getting ahead of myself... thinking you owe me that kind of honesty." He smiles at Wolfwood and responds, "I'm awake!" His thoughts continue, "Maybe one day, you'd trust me enough to share your burdens."

The final image shows Wolfwood pulling at Vash's cheek and Vash complains, "Owwwww why..." Wolfwood quickly says, "You were thinking something stupid, right? It's all over yer face." Vash mutters, "Nooo, I wasn't..." END ID]

#vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #Theyre both thoroughly exhausted tired individuals -- vash having to fight this lonely battle for over a hundred years and getting dragged #back into inevitable situation with knives after a 2 years hiatus of being a gunslinger. they both need so much Rest and comfort in this #department... .SIGHS. BUT I JUST THINK ABOUT WOLFWOOD . AND HOW... LITTLE He has existed on no man's land. how majority of his years being #alive is being used as a weapon and to kill when him at his very core is the most giving and selfless individual ever #badlands rumble inspired me a bit but i do think wolfwood gets dragged into occasional tasks from the eye of michael while on his duty of #guiding vash -- or i think that one chapter where we got to see other members of eom -- there's like a clear division within the eom too #i think.... so i figured similarly to vash but not to the same amount -- there are people that look for wolfwood too. but most of the time #it's probably wolfwood that has to look for someone else and take them out. i feel like it happens ever so occasionally. #evidentially these two don't talk enough canonically but they always know how to express things properly to affirm that they're okay #they have the worst time ever sharing burdens - can't willingly burden the other and has neeever asked for help or reprieve in their #desperate situations... vw is a huge case of right person wrong time syndrome so they just. in the time they get to spend together -- even #if romantically - they don't have enough time to heal to get over that kind of hurdle. They've just never asked for help in all the years #they've been alive -- they don't even know how to and its just aughhhsgskg #and well! they don't even need to ask! because they'll be there for each other anyway at the end of the day -- company and presence alone. #ruporas art

[poirott]

A HAUNTING IN VENICE (2023), dir. Kenneth Branagh

#a haunting in venice #poirot #hercule poirot #agatha christie #kenneth branagh #filmedit #perioddramaedit #filmgifs #ahauntinginveniceedit #*edit #words to live by! #ken's poirot is both beautifully fragile and strong #he's been through a lot #but is on the path of healing and recovery #he's back to being hercule poirot #even though there's this feeling of melancholy #when ariadne asks him how he'll live his life #i also got the sense poirot will be ok #we see he's working on cases again #and buzzing with energy <3 #it's both an end but also a beginning #for ken's version of poirot <3

[garbomode]

izzy's not the only character that's suicidal but he's the one whose entire arc was focused on him getting better. that's why it feels bad.

#been rotating this in my brain the past couple days #and yeah that's not the story they were trying to tell. still comes off that way though #went through all that just to end up in the same place he started (dying for ed) #side note i wish we got to see ed actually healing too #he's the main character babe where's His “i deserve to be happy” arc #anyway. him saying “i wanna go” and ed saying “finally” felt the same to me #but ed got to come back #and izzy got to be happy for like a week and then he died #yeah maybe i'm extra upset about it because i projected onto him so what #ofmd #izzy hands #ofmd season 2

[sunforgrace]

he sat there on the ground and cried. for cas. cas told him he loved him was taken away and he buried his head in his hands and wept

#AND THEN THEY TRIED TO PRETEND LIKE IT WAS FINE? and after the widower arc #it wasn’t even as nearly fucked then this time all their friends got thanos snapped and we don’t even get canon confirmation that they were #brought back. even with covid not even a vo or offhand mention or reference #jack is god and in every drop of rain or whatever. #sure yeah whatever they beat the final boss and got over the protagonist angst of it all but the world was still the same it just wasn’t a #chuck story which only ramped up to being The Big Problem in the season 14 finale. #cas was stabbed by an angel blade and dean broke while wrapping his body for the funeral pyre. ALONE. and was. not doing well #and you tell me it’s whatever after he sat there in that dungeon refused to answer sam’s calls and cried during the complete and total end #of the world. that he just bounced back from that and died and drove around heaven for decades in a few minutes and smiled while americana #electric guitar played on some bridge #cas helped oh that’s nice I guess smile now I have GOT to go drive my car around. because I did not get enough of that in my time on earth. #unlike my time with cas which I am satisfied with and in no need of closure. perhaps a conversation. looking upon him to see him alive and #well. healing some of that trauma of the last time I saw him. a reunion hug maybe even which has become tradition. CUT THE CAMERAS deadass #he’s going for the face touch. no this we cannot possibly have time for we have to play carry on wayward son twice #sorry. it has been three years. sorry. it’s just so funny buddy your ass did NOT escape the hamster wheel

[friendly-alien-fucker]

Yes I know he's hot yes I know it's nice to imagine him being a beast in bed but...I just can't stop thinking about how vulnerable a relationship with Thomas Hewitt would be...

Like my man's got seven flavours of trauma, to even get him to the point of actually feeling safe enough to touch let alone be with you is a long journey. And I'm convinced once you get him to this point, realistically, soft is all he'd want to be with you.

His entire life he's been seen as the strong guy, as an animal, and he's worked in a slaughterhouse long enough for him to actually view other people as animals. Not to mention that he's surrounded by people (especially Hoyt) who indulge this behavior. Who praise him for it. (Also yes praise is not a kink with this man, it's a requirement.)

With you he'd want to just be...human. To kiss and be kissed, to experience gentle touches and to actually believe the positive words said about him. And maybe he doesn't yet but he so, so wants to. (God, that scene where he gets out of the basement with the mask and luda tries to touch his face and he just...turns away)

Another thing I've been thinking about that's been pulling on my heartstrings is that because of his trauma, if he ever did get rougher with you and you were to actually scream in bed, this man would be horrified

Because at some point the screams of humans and the screaming of animals stop sounding all that different and never ever wants to think of you this way. Not you. Never you.

Just ugh.

I know not eeeveryone who's into TCM loved The Beginning, but it's my favorite movie of the franchise and I could go on about it for hours

#its one of the movies where we see the slasher actually being presented as a PERSON #as someone who's been put down long enough that they loose their sense of self #and how working with the meat of animals and probably killing many yourself will desensitize #you to the death of actual humans #how you slowly start to see the two as one and the same #and how if Y/n ever got with him and tried to heal him #that would be A LOT to unpack #💚original post💚 #just...many thoughts #if any of you have some too lmk cuz i really need people talking about this movie #tcm #texas chainsaw massacre the beginning

[running-in-the-dark]

I've got an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow, and I'm getting my conch piercing swapped out for a shorter one. that's gonna be stressful 🙃

#annnd I will absolutely take my lorazepam for the second one... yeah it's unnecessary yeah it's dumb but. I'm SO scared #and I haven't even thought about taking any in ages. so it's alright and I don't mind #I will do things to make things I want to do but am scared of easier for myself so that I can do them at all #and that's fine #I'm so hoping she'll say the piercing is healing well... it doesn't hurt at all and I've been careful with it and I've cleaned it #(almost) every day like she said #but there's a bump and it still gets pretty gross and. well I'm just hoping it's fine 😬 #I kinda keep going from 'I still want as many ear piercings as possible' to 'I don't want to get a piercing ever again in my life' and back #though at this point.... I'm thinking I definitely should not get any more in my left ear since it keeps being difficult (the slight hearing #loss and the tube and then I got a middle ear infection... maybe it'll eventually be fine again but right now it's not looking like it 🤔 #but whatever maybe I'll get more in the right one. I could. if I wanted to. we will see 🤷) #also it suuucks that I now have to drive 30 minutes to get to my psychiatrist's office but I like him a lot so I will not look for a #different one #personal

[le-artpotat]

Metal manipulation

#ngl i was a bit disappointed we never got to see him as a vampire #on a different note: #the fact that the vampires can regenerate by drinking blood means that his eyes would've healed right? #i like to think so #bsd #bungou stray dogs #fanart #my art #bsd tachihara #tachihara michizou

[jacqcrisis]

I died laughing at the reverse shot. I know the intention is for the PC to be shocked at being played, but Ronan had to buffer for a minute cause he's known this whole time and he can't believe Astarion admitted it on top of the other part.

That's the real shocking bit. Ronan's spent this whole time assuming Astarion doesn't actually like him all that much. He's frustrating, commanding, stubborn, calls out Astarion's bullshit, doesn't let him get his way most of the time, and all of Ronan's good qualities and caring actions generally seem rebuffed or taken with an air of suspicion under the guise of fawning gratefulness. Ronan likes Astarion a lot, very much wants to help him with his plight (both to help the guy and gain glory from smiting a vampire lord back to the grave) and was fine with the way things were but to hear there's any form of reciprocity is almost as shocking as waking up on a mind flayer ship.

So of course he fucking hugs him

He's a happy dragon man.

#ladies and gentlemen: we got him #that hug was more gratifying than the cringey ass sex scene #i accidentally saved over my quick save so i could go back and see what all the dialogue options had #extremely sad day #im happy with the choices picked though. ronan did ask if astarion was even attracted to him #astarions about to regret all that because now lizard man has an excuse to be even more touchy #also ronans hands are so goddamn big. fantastic. love that for him. #this all came after protecting the portal where cleric mans build literally shines #i had an idea of what that looked like to his companions #cause mostly hes in the back healing and buffing or just smacking a few people with his mace or a guiding bolt #but there? it was probably a stark reminder he is a holy man and proponents of darkness and the undead will get grinded into dust #anyways i fucking loved this. made my Sunday morning #bg3 #also you know i love emotional hand holding

[apocketfullofhobbits]

can't stop thinking abt how the fact that declan mattered so little to his father that the asshole couldn't even be bothered to keep the memories of the day his son was born was supposed to make up for declan's whole shitty childhood

like hey kid u know what u just weren't worth the pain. do u feel better abt it now.

#like. for years he made declan feel like he didn't matter. #and then it gets confirmed #and that is somehow the emotional resolution? #trc #declan lynch #the whole getting rid of memories storyline was so unnecessary #such a poor attempt at artificially increasing the poor meow niall factor #like. it's like saying to every kid who got fucked up by the divorce 'oh but u parents suffered more! suck it up' #his parents lacked the emotional maturity to go through the break up and take care of their child at the same time and that's okay #happens all the time #it's okay to say that they fucked up. #u don't need to shift the blame to the child for refusing to see all the love he was supposedly showered with #yes he did that. because it's easier for a child's mind. #the conclusion wasn't supposed to be 'omg my father loved me so much i just refused to see it! now that i see it im happy and healed' #it's 'yeah my father was an asshole and my feelings abt it were valid but he was also a complicated person who did love me in his own way' #'it just wasn't enough to make him a good father and it wasn't my fault' #oh and i am forever mad abt the moth scene at the end #why are we making it abt niall? again #i have had enough of this dude #all that needed to be said abt him was said in dream thieves #he's just not intresting enough to keep bringing him up all the time #this is niall lynch hate blog

[frecklystars]

Just finished a bartending shift and I’m so excited to use this money for more Barbie tickets. Looping Ken's gorgeous song I'M JUST KENNNNN (♫ AND I'M ENOUGH. AND I'M GREAT AT DOING STUFF ♪) about to jump into the car and drive to see the barbie movie again, because why the hell not!!!! I haven't felt this safe around any F/Os in so long, Barbie and Ken are fucking holding my hand through all of the bullshit and loving me so fully and making me feel somewhat like a person again

#MY NAME'S KEN! (AND SO AM I!) PUT THAT MANLY HAND IN MIIIIIIIIIIINE #I haven't felt any joy from F/Os in so long UNTIL BARBIE AND KEN 😭😭😭😭 #KEN SINGING ABT HOW HE WANTS TO BE LOVED. OH I'VE GOT U BABYGIRL #MY HORSEGIRL BOYFRIEND I'VE GOT U............... WE WILL FIGHT FOR EACH OTHER 💪 #love notes #LOVE NOTES 🥺🥺🥺🥺 IT'S BEEN A YEAR SINCE I'VE USED THIS TAG #I have ship tags for them too!!!!! SHIP TAGS 🥺🥺🥺 #my god i just feel a LITTLE BIT like myself again when i see this movie. im so relieved im still... here #im still Me im still Here im just!!! healing!!!!! that spark inside of me isnt dead its just Healing!!!!! #that part of me... that star in my heart isnt burnt out its just overshadowed by trauma #just imagine one year from now i hope im back to being myself fully again ;_; #this is the first time in so SOOOO long that i've felt so happy and safe with characters 😭 #thank you barbie and ken......... #oh here are my ship tags im so happy with them!!! #💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́- #(that's for ken!! i'd want him to fight to protect me ;w; like in his song) #💕♫♪ ♡ You're the pink in my cheeks 🎀🌸✨♡ #(that's for barbie!!!!) #im wondering if i should make crush tags for the other barbies and kens...

[savagebisand]

I saw it be said a few times that Boeing is mature and whilst that man is a lot of things that have me questioning if I'm like... Mentally okay to have such a carnal desire for them. Mature is not one of the traits I'd assign. This is a man who is literally playing games with not just one now but two of his exes. He's spent what months? years maybe? being Tops go to call when he doesn't want a lonely night, the second he feels threatened of his security in Tops fucked up life, he makes a move on the so called threat aka Mew. He's master manipulating. Everything he says is double edged and eery and unsettling. Just how much does he pull strings on Top? You see it in how he talks to him, how he touches him.

Boeing doesn't care for Tops boundaries, he may have even been the start of Tops issues with fighting for his own boundaries being respected. Boeing does this thing where he keeps Top coming back to him for more, and he lords it over him. How long has it been, are you still sticking to the three month rule? He knows exactly the power he has and by god does he wield it. Sabotaging Tops other relationships so he can keep number one spot. Deceiving Mew so easily into believing it's a revenge that won't bite him in the ass, that he's a friend and not a wolf in sheep's clothing.

And as if that's not enough, he then next episode targets Sand again, purely because he hears about how Sand has moved on. Kinda like how he doubles down on his position in Tops life because he thinks Top can finally move on with Mew. Like he's terrified of someone replacing his legacy as The Best Option. Boeing likes pulling puppet strings, he likes keeping people stagnant in a place he can leave them and come back to peck at what's left later like a vulture. And the worst part is he does it because he needs attention.

There he is simpering to Mew and Sand about how he thinks he can be a better boyfriend than their current partners. Using Mews history against him, spinning this tale where Top is selfish and Boeing is "The Good Guy", then using his own history with Sand to delude Sand into this vision where he's blameless and just wants him back bad enough he's willing to be "The Bad Guy".

Funny how Boeing only starts caring if he still stands a chance when he thinks his position is threatened as Sands most important ex. He's still got his little revenge plot with Mew in the works but he wants Sand on his belt too. Also, all this man does is talk about his exes. He tells stories of the past where he and Sand played quiz nights at the bar, where Top took him wakeboarding and made him a pro. Constantly trying to undermine what his exes newest partners may see as special time for them because oh hey btw I did that first. The sheer audacity to bring up dates Sand and him used to do whilst at the same time he was prioritising Top over Sand? As if they're like fond memories?

Boeing presents himself as this true friends stab you in the front archetype but he's just a lost, lonely man desperate for even a shred of someone's attention and value. And that's kind of sad actually. Like babes move the fuck on? Get a life outside of these men's business and stop bothering them?

We love Boeing because he steps on the scene and emits this mean girl Regina George energy where you're like oh this vindictive little bitch is truly a supreme conniving pussy slaying cow. But when you peel back his layers it's like you are the most pathetic man to ever breathe sir. How hard is it to just move forward in life?

Boeing is that smart and that pretty and that good at pulling strings to get to high places and he wastes his time circling the flakey little meal that is this group of men. He literally invented gaslight, gatekeep and girlboss specifically for his exes and even Boston would shake in his leather studded cunt serving boots at the sight of Boeing. And yet, he's insignificant. He means nothing to anyone. He's indisposable at any time and he Knows it. He knows one day Top will say he no longer needs Boeing to play ghost of his past still haunting. That Sand will eventually see why Boeing was never the right one. So he claws for control by removing options. Because he'd never be a first choice all on his own.

I'm obsessed with him, I crave him carnally and viciously. I'd do truly wicked things to that maleficent poisonous man. But he better leave Sand tf alone. It's about time someone tells Boeing they want someone whose actually willing to change for them, to see past what is so say "not enough" within them to make Boeing truly loyal or commited, to choose someone who genuinely tries rather than someone who clings to falsified memories of a past with a significance that didn't and doesn't exist.

And yes I do want Sand to be the one to say it because my biggest fear is that Ray will go in all guns blazing when he overhears Boeing making a move on his man, take over the situation and then Sand will lose his chance to get closure and put autonomy back on Boeing for his part in the downfall of their relationship. If ray interferes, it's a loss of a chance for sand to make a point that he chooses ray no matter what in a way Ray can witness and feel the significance of. Because Ray knows but he's still learning that Sand will choose him over everything and he needs to hear Sand of his own volition, let go of such an important part of his past because Ray is the future he picks.

Top got the chance to clearly tell Boeing he picks Mew and now I need to see Sand do the same for Ray without Ray "forcing his hand" to use Rays expression from the ep when it came to making Sand make a big choice the first time around.

#only friends the series #this is such a weird fear for me bc i know sand would pick ray now over boeing #bc it makes no sense for sand atp in his growth to go back to boeing anyway #he just managed to get ray to let him love him whilst being a better version of himself #then hes gonna settle for bare minimum boeing anyway? nah dont make no sense #but im still fearful of how this goes down when boeing has been shown to have such a strong influence and grip on sand #to the point sand removed blame from him for going to top and views him as the one who got away #and also bc i really dont want impulsive mode ray to make the choice for sand in that split second #it takes from a key moment we could see ray heal by standing aside #still hearing sand say fuck that i cared once but it will always be ray

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

revelations: lonan hallowed bodies gender crisis

#the way this novella got……. so much BETTER WITH THIS #when I realized lonancore is actually pink flower petals & pearl necklaces #everyTHING CHANGED #those aesthetic posts I rb to the side blog #LIKE PASTEL PINK??? ACTUALLY HIM #(he also gives bloodshed and sharp knives but PASTEL PINK???) #that post of vintage christian perfume bottles is HIS GENDER #seeing that was like yeah this makes a lot of sense #TAKING YOU WITH ME BABY #we always do these things together lmao love him sm <3 #I just had a really great conversation with a friend today about this & I’m excited #anyway hallowed bodies is going to be soooo fucking good #processing religious trauma & identity & queerness & aesthetic through this man??? W for me L for him (as usual) #BUT ALSO W FOR HIM #BUT HOW FRUSTRATING IS IT THAT #HARRISON REALLY NEEDS HB LONAN #AND LONAN REALLY NEEDS BB HARRISON #like if they met RIGHT NOW (which is so plausible since they’re in THE SAME CITY at THE SAME TIME) #they would heal each other #but of course they overcomplicate things as always and we end up with them trying to drown each other in feeding habits #and by them I mean harrison #Harrison has no chill in feeding habits #he says: I want to kill you NOW and I’m going to use your fear of water against u #like ok on one hand king shit on the other hand get thee to a therapist

[incorrect-bkdk-quotes]

For your character opinion bingo, what do you think of bakugo, if you haven't already?

i have been WAITING for this ask JUST to say that- literally nothing anyone can say about Katsuki Bakugou will ever matter to me, because I have seen so many shit takes about this character that now I only care about my own opinion of him.

he is blorbo he is insane he is one of the best embodiments of growth in this story he needs to go to therapy he's my comfort character i want to see him get better he needs a hug he needs to sit down and understand + accept his flaws he needs to be kinder to others he need to be kinder to himself. these are all true statements and if any of them are contradictory, well humans are, by nature, contrary.

he's good okay. He's Good.

#this isnt even active discourse at this point i think but he's such a real character #he's NOT all good and perfect and can do no wrong his actions have at times been Bad af and he's got a bunch of flaws ok #but he has grown up - is growing up - in front of our eyes and he's what we can all be if we just. commit to bettering ourselves. #he does need to embrace vulnerability and HIMSELF acknowledge that he's actively trying to become better? like it'll be good for him? #anyway I care him and i want to see him heal and be happy ok #HE NEEDS TO BE MORE HONEST WITH HIMSELF OK BYE #bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #bakugou katsuki #bakugou #katsuki #bkdk #kacchan #dynamite #dynamight #ra replies

[katyspersonal]

3 for Aldrich, Aldia, Willem & Laurence

9 for Maria

11 for Micolash & Aldrich

24 for Laurence

(Asks from this ( x ) meme)

3) What first drew you to this character?

As for Aldrich, I vaguely recall finding out that he checks the traits I like the most? He was one of the characters I've learned about through fandom and not on my own, and I think this ancient meme about summarises it:

Also:

@val-of-the-north SHUDDUP you're basically so horny for Laurence/Logarius/Snatchers that you can't even picture them in your mind in any way but being naked!!!!!!! *casts the stone back at u*

With Laurence, like with Mico, it was the very first glance at the character in Youtube compilation with boss themes and concept art image. I did not know the lore yet, but the design and the music made me imagine Laurence as sort of aged, sagely librarian. I could not imagine back then that his boss fight would be him being a "helpless abhorrent little mewmew" as kids call it! Heck, I thought he'd have dialogue despite the monster form x) In a way, my first impression was not wrong, with the cut content of him actually talking even in a beast form, and implication of him being a son of Cainhurst cut content librarian NPC! I have intuition for cut content before having information, hahaha!

I have nothing to say about Willem. It might be a memory gap thing, but I swear at some point I feel I was turned off and then booted back up with liking this character already installed in my system x) As for Aldia.... ugh for fuck's sake... yeah, it was this legend:

I was absolutely floored by this stupid vid even without knowing any context, but I also instantly liked this character. I didn't even know his name yet, but the voice acting and long yapping about philosophy already pulled me in XD (Also unironically, this video is precisely how I give relationship advice fhfhdds)

9) Does this character remind you of anyone you know? Does that affect how you see them?

Yeah, I know this person. I know them very well. I know them more than anyone else. Someone who was misguided (by their destructive influence mentor figure, by their own foolishness and past history, or combination of both, who can tell anymore?) into committing awful things, then despaired over their sins and attempted redemption but also failed in some way? This person is me. At some point I've found myself in front of horrible truth about my past life and personality, and knew I was guilty and sullied forever. That it was over for me as a human being, but that didn't matter, and I could only keep people safe by locking myself away and trying to serve something better.

......annnnd it took a few years of more informed people to (metaphorically) shake me and slap my face into lucidity, explaining to me that I've fallen for the "BPD demonization" that was going far beyond than my individual failure as a friend, and we are always accused of abuse and causing irreversible harm when the worst we do is being emotionally overbearing. I kept losing trust to those friends, telling them that they were enablers who tried to gaslight me into thinking I was not 'that much of a monster', until it was other people with BPD who 'shook me and slapped my face into lucidity'. xd Nonetheless, even though now I know the truth about how society treats BPDs, I remember the feeling of being so monstrous and harmful that I was not even allowed to "touch" people with my dirty hands, how my reality used to be. So, I could write Maria going through this effortlessly, especially considering what she did was more plain and tangible!

In fact... thank you for asking me about this, because I kept wondering why I had such frequent dreams about being Maria, and why the Maria in my dreams acts like abused child that took back control against Gehrman despite my portrayal of the guy being so different. And now the puzzle is solved! That part of me still lives inside, it seems.

11) How did you “fall in love” with this character?

Already answered this for Micolash here: ( x )! As for Aldrich, it was through properly analysing the bigger picture and context of his actions. I've figured that his madness was, in fact, being informed on what was far too ahead of everyone else around him! He, like the rest of the cast, is trapped in the rotting, doomed world in which the only choices are 1) "die with dignity" or 2) commit something unthinkable from moral standpoint for a chance to escape. And will morality of the rotting world will matter in the new world anyways? Won't it all be left behind and be forgiven?

The guy also tried to take everyone else he could with him, like sort of a fucked up Noah's Arc! I can tell that they reused the concept with Rykard, at least, I am glad they know what works xD I'd say that the sadism he experienced upon eating people was either result of insanity (he understood a thing no one should understand), or still didn't exclude the bigger purpose (egotistically revelling in how holy he is helping everyone and doing what no one else dared, which would be like my Laurence). In any case, I have the strongest respect to the courage it takes to transcend the bonds of morality and compassion in order to to greater good. Being burdened with the knowledge of how the world really works, and choosing to push through instead of still being bound... This is why I also like Fauxsefka; learning how this world works, she chose to turn people into Kin so they can't ever become beasts. I am weak for this trope, you don't understand.

24) Do you ever dream about this character? If so, describe a dream you once had about them.

Laurence appears in my dreams only in two contexts: 1) Micolaurence or 2) dreams about finding secret files in Bloodborne that reveal his canonical appearance before beasthood! I can tell the latter comes from my everlasting unsatisfaction with my design for him, because I love it but it doesn't feel "fitting" and I can't identify why!

The former, I think, fandom rubbing onto me x) In two of these dreams, I was Laurence. In other two, I was Micolash. In one of Laurence dreams it was mutual, in the second one I was in love unrequited. In one of Micolash dreams, it was mutual, and in another it was not.. Basically, my dreams allows me to experience this ship from every possible angle. o_o Waiting for more I guess fhhdfsfd

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Thank you for asking! And.. without exaggeration, you've just done quite a psychological work on me by just asking the right thing. I need to think about that, hahaha

#bloodborne #dark souls 3 #aldrich devourer of gods #laurence the first vicar #soulsborne #ask replies #personal #memories #dreams #honestly I remember Maria in my dreams hiding in the closet like an abused bullied child.. that big strong woman reduced to this #and I finally know why it was this way #I'd rather not sully Gehrman with something as dirty as my stepdad of course he deserves so much more and he is his own man #I just don't like the approach of turning characters with their own stories and personality into vessels for my trauma #it feels like frenzied flame: you got infected by it and you have unending need to spread it. to scorch the world in your pain. #I don't think this approach would help my healing but instead make me feel worse by nourishing the trauma #I am keeping it sealed away from the world forever now </3 #see this is why it hurts me so much when gehrman haters accuse me of being insensitive to people that want to project their negative- #-experiences with men and misogyny onto him even if that means twisting the actual story and character. I do have a reason to do it myself #I just choose not to because I personally dislike the idea of making fandomry about myself more and about source material less #I don't want to bring the pain and horrors inside me into something that doesn't have them. some things can stay clean! #the passive aggression between canon worshippers and fanon enforcers is something that cannot be avoided in the fandoms #and I disapprove of the lie about 100% peace and mutual respect between the 'camps'. we will never FULLY like each other #each thinks their approach is more productive for the community. and that's fine!