#are treated the worst by society

[existennialmemes]

No I am not an atheist. No I do not worship any gods

I worship Silliness. Frivolity. Nonsense.

I worship that feeling deep in your chest when you're struggling to catch your breath because you physically cannot stop laughing

I worship Fun. Joy. Pure, unadulterated human expressions of Happiness.

So I must worship Nature. The sunlight, the air, the soil, the water, the plants, the animals, the creatures who are neither.

Because I cannot laugh if I cannot breathe.

If I have not eaten. If my water is not safe.

So I must worship my Community.

The hands that plant the seeds that grow into the fruit that I eat, as I bask in the sunlight. The Little Universes who pluck the berries from the vine, package them, travel with them

I cannot worship the bright taste of strawberries on my tongue, if I have forsaken the souls who brought them

When you cannot laugh. Or Eat. Or Breathe. When your days are numbered.

So are mine. Because we are intertwined. If I do not fight for you, I have forsaken the Divine.

No, I am not an atheist. No I do not worship any gods. I don't think that's the “righteous” thing to do. I am a hedonist

I Worship Me and You

#poetry #my poerty #hedonist #naturecore #spirituality #obviously it's not just about food #it's about the fact that everything my food my clothes my devices my furniture #everything is made by people #we need each other so much #but the people who literally physically do the most keep society functional #are treated the worst by society #that is true blasphemy

[br1ghtestlight]

i do have more feminine clothes and sometimes i feel bad i dont wear them more (apart from them being summer clothes) but like..... when i go outside dressed more feminine people treat me worse?? and im in a more vunerable position for harassment etc and in general people are just assholes to me. doesnt happen when im dressed normally

maybe some of that is just the general attitude i give off and some of it is misogyny but either way idk why i would willingly subject myself to that. but i also feel BAD bcuz i have all these cute outfits i never get to wear!!!!! Have men considered being less shitty by any chance

#women are always treated terribly in society but if you've never experienced anything else you might not even notice #not that people are particularly kind to me or more respectful they just leave me tf alone #there's nothing attractive about me #but teenage boys are always the worst. Just in general #trans people do we have thoughts? why would i go out wearing my cute lil outfits when i know im gonna get treated worse #and possibly harassed. not everytime but still there's a risk #at what point does it become worth it idk?? #at various points in my life i have experienced various things but considering that im more independant now and almost always alone #there's a higher risk yknow #txt

[uncanny-tranny]

Honestly, I always find it weird how many instances I've seen of cis people wanting a token trans friend who, in reality, is self-loathing enough to hate their own existance and see cisness as the ideal. It's almost like a power-trip fantasy to find a trans person who despises either the way they are treated or their existance just to prove to themself that the only existance that's meaningful is a cis one.

And you can tell which cis person wants to meet token trans people if you don't give them the satisfaction of being the self-despising trans person, or even if you aren't completely self-hating.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #internalized transphobia #i don't blame any trans person if they are still dealing with internalized transphobia #but i find that some cis people are only interested in hearing the goriest parts of internalized transphobia #as though it proves that cisness is the ideal rather than society treats trans people so poor that we internalize that treatment? #and it's weird the pressure i used to put on myself to be the Token Transsexual #because i thought i'd only be valied by the majority of people if i wanted myself dead too #and that's a tortuous way to live. it isn't the ninth circle of hell it's its own damn circle #i definitely don't think that this is inherent to being trans but it is also not an experience separate from transness #the shame and self-hatred come from the fact that not only are you under scrutiny by others but your existance is seen as questionable... #...at best and at worst it is a social contagion meant to be squandered from society by any means. it can be hard to navigate that #because trans existance is as joyful as it is scary. it is a two-sided coin for many people #i don't want to scare people with this - i don't think every cis person you meet will be like this #i don't think there is threat in every atom against trans people. i think our world is just a complicated mess #and that is a part of life sure - but this is a mess we *can* clean up #i dunno i'm just rambling and waffling and raving

[tunarath]

imagining that they are using sign language as they speak with each other here, and that's how the party finds out that ilu is hard of hearing

#she doesn't bring it up herself. she feels a bit ashamed of it to be honest #can't imagine how githyanki society as a whole has treated her for her disability. and others #i don't know if githyanki have their own sign language? maybe they had to learn the common sign language #which. very considerate of pepaw to do i have to say #she is his baby after all. gotta show his affection somehow #heartwarming: worst dad in all of the planes accommodates his daughter's disability #ilu

[solvicrafts]

What gets me about certain people being so fucking pissy about Bob not writing much about Eilistraee (until the last fucking trilogy where EIlistraeans featured heavily) is that

a) Bob basically built drow culture up from almost nothing, and Eilistraee came after he started writing Drizzt

b) no you guys really don't understand. I own the first 4 modules drow appeared in. There's... not much there. And it hasn't aged well.

c) and the Big One: he has a specific vision for his specific characters when it comes to the narrative he wants to explore, from sexual abuse to religious trauma, both of which are fucking complicated and for most people just switching deities isn't enough to fix that.

I have religious trauma that I still struggle with to this day and probably will for the rest of my life to some extent, and it's fundamentally different in nature from what most people would probably expect, and the thing is even though I am happily polytheistic and very enthusiastically into it, I still struggle a lot with certain things because every time I get into my religious practice I have to actively force myself into (or out of) certain things because my whole relationship to religion and spirituality is complicated and messy.

It would be easy and frankly incredibly superficial for Bob to decide to just have them all convert to half-assed Neowiccan ~woo~ drow Jesus Eilistraee to *~*save their souls*~* and call it a day

BUT HE DIDN'T DO THAT

Partly because she wasn't his creation and other authors were writing her at the time so he really couldn't, and partly because it's a shitty message to send.

Sometimes people benefit from converting to a new religion or following a new deity. Sometimes people don't.

I benefited from gradually converting to my religion, but it's come with a whole different set of complications and hasn't been a smooth journey for me.

Just going from extensive religious trauma to switching deities does not fix your problems, and for a lot of people it realistically can make them much worse.

but also

you don't have to be saved by a deity in order to have value as a person

#I fucking WAS saved by a deity and while I'm grateful it wasn't an easy ride #and in fact the way certain people in my family treated me was very emotionally abusive #to this fucking day on a journey that's taken me 19 years I STILL have issues with this whole thing #there are some people I may never speak to again because of how they treated me over this #for a Lolthite drow I could easily see them struggling with switching to a new deity especially one like Eilistraee or Vhaeraun #who are NOT seen very positively at all in the society they were raised in #and for a lot of people the fear of being found out and punished is more than enough to prevent them from seeking out a new deity #to say nothing of the already existing religious trauma that would also just as likely make someone hesitate to embrace a new religion #and speaking AS a religious person I do not at all agree with sending the message that traumatize people need to be saved by a god #or by a religious fanatic #my case is extremely unique and while it more or less worked out in the end it was frankly hellish at its worst points #and it cost me a great deal in terms of my relationships with my family and my ability to trust other people #because the way society frames belief in the Greek gods as some distant thing in time like #'haha these people were so STUPID. they believed in gods that turn into swans and stuff' #has absolutely led to a situation where paganism is only cool and okay if it's the woo crystals and sage Neowiccan aesthetic #but actually being a historically based polytheist is conflated with mental illness #and it's damn near impossible to challenge when most modern people have NO understanding of polytheism and take everything literally #as someone who has had to FIGHT just to continue EXISTING as a polytheist I am still FIRMLY against the idea that people NEED religion #in order to have value as people or to heal #yes for SOME people it works. for others it doesn't. AND THAT'S OKAY

[rosenecklaces]

the rage invading my body every time i remember the illyria we got... SJM really left her racist ass and white feminism rampant on this people like woah

#without any subtly just raw characteristics to form The Worst patriarchy #as if the whole of prythian humam realm and including NC aren't fucking misogynistic and treat women like shit including abuse them #how could i at 21 understand more the separation of a society and it's population better than the bat boys and emerie... #sarah isn't only an asshole she's just straight up white trash refusing to know better outside white rethorics #illyria #illyrians

[rexaleph]

I feel like I've typed and deleted so many cranky posts abt all kinds of stupid shit these last couple weeks. so i'll just say work has truly got me like lol. lmao you motherfuckers.

#my homophobic coworker is in a rough spot bc everyone hates her #she was complaining to me and its like how the worst people should still have their needs met by society #they shouldnt treat her like that! #anyway i told her my shit and boy did that cheer her up lmao #big old hearty chuckle #i didnt even know the extent of it at the time - she'd love the insult to injury part

[vivienna-vivid]

Y'all, I'm so emo over Yudhisthira today.

#oc; yudhisthira (lancer) #nasuverse; unsorted #nii-sama...... #he tries his best but he always fails #he wants everyone to get along. he's merciful enough to not want harm to his enemies even at his detriment #he'd rather take the L and be hated than his own brothers oh my godddddddddd #he is TRULY going through the worst case of Oldest Sibling Syndrome plus being expected to be THE just and good king #bro his idea about the highest form of dharma is legit just leaving society and becoming an ascetic in the woods #HE NEEDS A BREAK #put a forest boy in society and tell him to be the ultimate just king and he transforms into a nervous wreck #and the fact that he remains kind....🥺 #the pandavas and draupadi going through their worst flop era and despairing as they climb up that mountain #but yudhi still finds the power to treat a random dog so kindly #im going thru it frfr #yudhi-niisama is best niisama even though he makes so many mistakes and hates himself for it #vivien talks #yknow what im tagging this under the mahabharata tag too. fuck it. #mahabharata

[death-rebirth-senshi]

There is such an obsession in every mass effect game including Andromeda to take the Asari down a peg somehow, with deconstructing "Asari superiority" and it's like...you forgot to show the Asari ever doing anything! You have to take them down a peg from shaking their asses in clubs? That's not low enough?

#are the asari great diplomats or not? #do they do nothing or do they rule with an iron fist? #are they accommodating or extremely superior? #we don't do this with the salarians or turians #it just comes across as 'those uppity bitches' in every iteration #'we've deconstructed Asari superiority' WHERE'S THE ASARI SUPERIORITY #meanwhile they're heavily sexualized and a lot of people tend to treat them as a walking sex joke. #IN UNIVERSE THEY ARE TREATED LIKE WALKING SEX JOKES #but no we have to keep knocking them down a peg #Turians having a military society is cool and fine #Salarians kidnapping other species for uplifting is fine #I don't even hate the concept of Asari hoarding Prothean tech it's just. Done in the worst way possible #and 'all the aliens have secrets!' isn't remotely interesting

[wretchedspecimen]

i would be so powerful if i could let go of wanting to be perceived as attractive by others

#but alas. #i blame white supremacy #<- i’m joking but i’m also not joking because sometimes it feels like i’m constantly trying to fit into standards that were quite literally- #not meant for me #i don’t know why i’m saying ‘it feels like’ when that’s actually the way society is 😭 #and the punishment for not fitting those standards is being treated like shit at the very least- #and having your safety threatened at worst #it’s just uagh. #they should invent a world that is not antiblack that would be great #rant over thank you for coming to my ted talk

[stromblessed]

Mizu, femininity, and fallen sparrows

In my last post about Mizu and Akemi, I feel like I came across as overly critical of Mizu given that Mizu is a woman who - in her own words - has to live as a man in order to go down the path of revenge.

If she is ever discovered to be female by the wrong person, she will not only be unable to complete her quest, but there's a good chance that she'll be arrested or killed.

So it makes complete sense for Mizu to distance herself as much as possible from any behavior that she feels like would make someone question her sex.

I felt so indignant toward Mizu on my first couple watchthroughs for this moment. Why couldn't Mizu bribe the woman and her child's way into the city too? If Mizu is presenting as a man, couldn't she claim to be the woman's escort?

However, this moment makes things pretty clear. Mizu knows all too well the plight of women in her society. She knows it so well that she cannot risk ever finding herself back in their position again. She helps in what little way she can - without drawing attention to herself.

Mizu is not a hero and she is not one to make of herself a martyr - she will not set herself on fire to keep others warm. There's room to argue that Mizu shouldn't prioritize her quest over people's lives, but given the collateral damage Mizu can live with in almost every episode of season 1, Mizu is simply not operating under that kind of morality at this point. ("You don't know what I've done to reach you," Mizu tells Fowler.)

And while I still feel like Mizu has an obvious and established blind spot when it comes to Akemi because of their differences in station, such that Mizu's judgment of Akemi and actions in episode 5 are the result of prejudice rather than the result of Mizu's caution, I also want to establish that Mizu is just as caged as Akemi is, despite her technically having more freedom while living as a man.

Mizu can hide her mixed race identity some of the time, and she can hide her sex almost all of the time, but being able to operate outside of her society's strict rules for women does not mean she cannot see their plight.

It does not mean she doesn't hurt for them.

Back to Mizu and collateral damage, remember that sparrow?

While Mizu is breaking into Boss Hamata's manse, she gets startled by a bird and kills it on reflex. She then cradles it in her hands - much more tenderly than we've seen Mizu treat almost anything up to this point in the season:

She then puts it in its nest, with its unhatched eggs. Almost like she's trying to make the death look natural. Or like an accident.

You see where I'm going with this.

When Mizu kills Kinuyo, Mizu lingers in the moment, holding the body tenderly:

And btw a lot of stuff about this show hit me hard, but this remains the biggest gut punch of them all for me, Mizu holding that poor girl's body close, GOD

When Mizu arranges the "scene of the crime," Kinuyo's body is delicate, birdlike. And Mizu is so shaken afterward that she gets sloppy. She's horrified at this kill to the point that she can't bring herself to take another innocent life - the boy who rats her out.

MIZU'S ONE MOMENT OF SOFTNESS AND MERCY, COMING ON THE HEELS OF HER NEEDING TO KILL A GIRL TO SPARE HER THE WORST FATE THAT THIS RIGID SOCIETY HAS TO OFFER WOMEN, AND TO SPARE A BROTHEL FULL OF INNOCENT WOMEN WHO ARE THE CASTOFFS OF SOCIETY, NEARLY RESULTS IN ALL OF THEIR DEATHS

No wonder Mizu is as stoic and cold as she is.

And no wonder Mizu has no patience for Akemi whatsoever right before the terrible reveal and the fight breaks out:

Speaking of Akemi - guess who else is compared to a bird!

The plumage is more colorful, a bit flashier. But a bird is a bird.

And, uh

Yeah.

I like to think that Mizu killing the sparrow is not only foreshadowing for what she must do to Kinuyo, but is also a representation of the choice she makes on Akemi's behalf. She decides to cage the bird because she believes the bird is "better off." Better off caged than... dead.

But because Mizu doesn't know Akemi or her situation, she of course doesn't realize that the bird is fated to die if it is caged and sent back home.

Mizu is clearly not happy, or pleased, or satisfied by allowing Akemi to be dragged back to her father:

But softness and mercy haven't gotten Mizu anywhere good, recently.

There is so much tragedy layered into Mizu's character, and it includes the things she has to witness and the choices she makes - or believes she has to make - involving women, when she herself can skirt around a lot of what her society throws at women. Although, I do believe that it comes at the cost of a part of Mizu's soul.

After all, I'm gonna be haunted for the rest of this show by Mizu's very first prayer in episode 1:

"LET" her die. Because as Ringo points out, she doesn't "know how" to die.

Kind of like another bird in this show:

#blue eye samurai #mizu #akemi #kinuyo #bes #women are birds okay they are BIRDS #the let me die line is so SCARY AND SAD like a part of Mizu wants death but she cant? she doesnt know how?? excuse you show??? #when all these other delicate birds are dying all around her #akemis character gets more and more gutwrenching upon subsequent rewatches because whenever she says her life is in danger #NO ONE BELIEVES HER - certainly not other women #because shes rich and pampered and that means shes safe and is worrying about nothing right? right????? #and it turns out that all of akemis instincts were right and she was in danger the ENTIRE TIME #also I need to make a post just for kinuyo because I am sad

[remove-the-stairs-bitch]

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#Many people with nothing are the most wealthy. #The inverse can apply to those with much. #There's a good reason that it's said that the rich cannot get into heaven. And it is superiority/pride. #The poor can more easily make it into the pearly gates because they understand their fellow man's struggle. #The rich while capable of empathy have to practice it instead of simply having it. #Wealth is not money or personal gain / not what you have while others have not. #Wealth is not enviable or even visible. Wealth is what one has to offer a society. #And this is not to say that the rich are not wealthy. #Even Jeffery Bezos had good moments / even Musk has his times. #Hybrid vehicles / easy grocery shopping / modern infrastructure / even things like Tylenol were made by the rich. #But there's a certain type of goodness in a person that can only be found when they're at their lowest. #Pain is not always bad / believe it or not. #It's a chore to get through #and I never found it fun or exciting or helpful in the moment. #But when you go through the worst pain of your life #that's when you start to see the best of yourself and others around you. #The rich does not receive empathy #For the rich do not appear to deliver empathy. #Ensure that no matter someone's financial status you treat them with decency and dignity. #I don't know a lot of things. I just had a thought and it spiralled. Take what you will of this #but in context.

[genderqueerdykes]

being cisgender is just not an option for a lot of intersex people.

i was never given the option to be cisgender anything. every part of me that deviated from what a girl or boy "should" look like spelled trouble. because i dressed and acted very masculine, before puberty, people called me a bulldyke, a butch lesbian, a "girl pretending to be a boy" and "not a real boy". i was never "feminine enough" to be a woman.

after puberty hit, i started growing a beard, and my shoulders and chest got broader and more square. my body became more "masculine", so suddenly, i was labeled as a "boy pretending to be a girl" and "not a real girl". after I started testosterone, i haven't stopped being called a faggot, a fairy, a sissy or a pansy because i'm not "masculine enough" to be a man despite being a bear.

there's no winning in the eyes of a society that's so focused on binary this-or-that choices. i had no hand in the matter, this all happened way before I started testosterone HRT. in fact, even when i was placed on estrogen HRT to try to "correct" my intersex traits and symptoms, i still wasn't gendered or seen as a cis woman. i was still the same tranny bulldyke. no matter what i do, my intersex and transsexual traits will always be weaponized against me; whatever sounds the "worst" at the time, or whatever invalidates what i want.

in order to liberate trans people from this struggle, we must also liberate intersex people, for our struggles are virtually one in the same. our fight for body and identity autonomy is shared. it will always be impossible for me and other intersex people to be viewed as cis anything while white American society remains focused on pointing out the "differences" between men and women, instead of embracing the similarities we all can and do have.

intersex and trans people owe it to one another to disassemble these dangerous attitudes and shut them down when and where possible. it's not only trans people who face this struggle- intersex people deal with never being able to pass or be clocked as their actual gender from birth a lot of the time. people MUST understand that women and men come in all types of bodies, shapes and sexes, whether or not they chose to look like that. and whether or not they chose doesn't matter, they deserve to be treated with dignity and respect, which means being gendered correctly despite how they look or sound.

#intersex #lgbtqia #lgbtq #trans #transgender #queer #transsexual #nonbinary #enby #transmasculine #transmasc #transfemme #transfeminine #transfem #ftm #mtf #our writing #body autonomy #queer liberation #intersex liberation #intersexual #intersexuality

[strayheat]

looking at dads try not to cry is torture because.

if they don't you can tell Exactly how enormously much it took out of them to walk that thin line and not let it happen

and if they Do you know exactly how enormously much it is for them not to be able to hold it despite trying so hard

#in theory im the same btw id rather die in a fire than let my family see i have emotions #however ive been making a point not to do that so ig that takes my dad crier license away :// #this post was brought to you by me watching a wedding video where the father had to do an 'interview' as did many others and his was the #shortest because he couldnt manage to walk the goddamn crying line for very long and I Was There With Him!!!!!! #its so sad that ppl do that and have that mindset and end up so. emotionally constipated. and society does men the worst in that aspect #thats why i love whenever my guy friends get emotional and Talk abt their feelings and all that #like Yes dude🙏🙏 you should be able to do that anytime and not risk ridicule for showing emotions but since this is the society we live in #here is a safe space 🤲 #anyways society treat men better #straytalks

[infectvd]

Besties I'm on my fourth or fifth(?) full replay of T.LOU2, and I swear every time I replay it with the intention to try and like it more or be more gracious to it, but every time (without fail) it just makes me feel worse about it. Like . . . the building blocks are there, but the way this narrative was put together was Trash and I don't feel guilty for saying that anymore bc I really have been trying to give it so many chances to change my mind over the past three years and look at it from different perspectives, but I always come to the same conclusions.

#🌿 𝐎𝐎𝐂 ── ❝ Due to personal reasons I will be going completely off the fucking rails. ❞ #fr there are things I like about this game. things I love even. #like dina and jesse and the idea of the wlf and scars as alternative views of post-survival societies compared to jackson #but overall it's such a mess to me and a disservice to the original #and the tone it takes is abysmal and loses the magic of the first #the main premise this game relies on is revisionist of the original story and I think that's one of the worst things about it #the entire situation surrounding the 'cure' is different #j.oel killing the doctors was optional because it was so inconsequential until the devs decided they needed a mcguffin for 2 #like besties stop lying to me I was there for the first game lmao #and the implications of the cure being a hail mary with barely a real chance of manifesting versus 2 trying to say it was guaranteed?? #sorry. fuck off lol stop destroying your own original narrative for this lame ass 'revenge bad uwu' nonsense #it's like the devs were so obsessed with creating another moral quandry just to get people talking #and treat the idea of creating a 'conversation' as more important than creating a good narrative themselves #as if THAT was the only thing that contributed to making the first game successful #they went for shock over substance

[girl-debord]

the worst part of it all is that transmascs & transfems can live harmoniously together. but it has to happen in a context where those transfems feel comfortable talking about transmisogyny that they experience & those transmascs are willing to hear it & learn what it's like to be a trans woman in this society instead of getting defensive.

i think that in most cases, trans guys don't enter an existing scene or social group having ever really thought about transmisogyny--in a good or bad way--but if that group has strong connections between the transfems in it and they have a good dialogue going about their struggles, then most transmascs can follow suit and develop an understanding that lets them treat trans girls right. and if, as is often case, that group already keeps transfems isolated & discourages them from talking to other transfems or speaking up about how they're treated, most newcomer trans guys just fall right in line & treat those transfems like shit.

sometimes they'll be totally fine around trans women for ages, but then when they have some kind of stake--a relationship or interpersonal conflict--they'll fall back on transmisogyny because it gives them the upper hand in the moment. don't like what your girlfriend told you about how you've been treating her lately? maybe imply that she's a big scary man who's acting threatening or entitled. feel jealous of the attention that a transfem artist is getting in your scene? try starting a rumor that she's sexually forward & pushy.

if transmascs aid & abet the creation of strong transfem connections in their friend groups early, then they can put this power further out of their reach later, giving their better intentions the best shot--and learning to recognize what it looks like when other tme ppl do the opposite.

#original mediations