if you dont mind talking about it, do you identify as an asexual lesbian now or aroace? both?
I don’t mind talking about it.
The short answer is that I identify as queer.
The long answer is that I have complicated feelings in regards to my own sexuality and gender.
Some days I’m pretty comfortable with calling myself a lesbian because I’m majority female presenting and I don’t feel much dysphoria about being perceived as a girl (most of the time) so it’s comfortable. Some days I don’t feel comfortable with calling myself a lesbian because I don’t know if I have any actual attraction to speak of, either romantic or sexual. Some days I don’t feel comfortable calling myself a lesbian because I don’t feel like a girl (I know non-binary lesbians exist and are valid, this is a very personal complication, not how I view others). Some days I only prefer asexual, because I’m pretty sure that’s the most correct. Some days I wonder if I’m actually demisexual, or gray ace, because while I wasn’t clamoring for sex I also didn’t really hate it either. Some days I know I don’t want anyone or anything at all to touch me. I never want to call myself aromantic because I’m worried it will make me broken (again, personal, not universal). Some days I think I might be bi because I’ll think a man is pretty. Some days I wonder if I might be a gay trans man or gay and agender or gay and non-binary.
The long answer is, I don’t know. How I identify could change from one day, or even one hour, to the next. If you asked me tomorrow I might even have a different answer for you.
So, both? All? None of the above. Not allosexual, I’m pretty sure. Not cis, I think. Maybe aro. Maybe sapphic. Maybe gay.
Definitely queer.
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AS PROMISED.
Songs I am considering as titles for this fic
I am translating here part of these songs that I find relevant - to some it'll be just the chorus, to others it'll be almost the whole song. The bolded bits are the ones I like the most as potential titles from each of them
1. Amor Distrai (Durin) by Carne Doce
"Tonight I just want to fuck
And not make love,
Love distracts
From finding out every possibility to satisfy me
I want to feel in one spot
I want to feel the whole thing
I want you wild,
And a new way to moan
You look great
In a new way to fuck
And don't turn off the lights
And don't close the door
And let's find out what excites me, what excites you,
What to do to make it better
Because I only come like this,
Loud and clear"
2. Garoto by Carne Doce
"Boy, I get it, let's not pretend
You want me and can barely wait
And I want you too, it's plain to see
I looked at you with that look
Easy
Costly
Gluttonous
Vulgar
Hungry
Eyeing you up
I can already feel myself get wet"
3. Me Beija Com Raiva by Jão
"Throw your whole truth in my face
And before you leave I catch you, stop
And kiss me angrily, kiss me angrily..."
4. Pilantra by Jão & Anitta
"Lie to me, run from me
We swear it doesn't count
In this way of ours
But it's not because I hate you
That I can't kiss you anymore"
5. Escorpiano by Jão
"After trying everything
Kissing anyone I found in the world
Drinking in parks, calling and hearing you on mute
I know...
After I swore to forget you
Lied to myself until I was convinced
When I managed to not think only of you
Then you show up
[...]
'Wish you well' my ass
I'm gonna fuck you up
You will remember me
'Wish you well' my ass
I am not your friend
But you made me like this"
6. Quem Te Fez Rainha? by Lupa
"I closed my eyes to not see you
I crossed my arms to not want you
But my lips tremble from hearing you arrive
My feet take me somewhere else
My bones scream for you
[...]
Everything I did, everything I wanted
Everything I am, everything that's left
[...]
I loved in secret so I wouldn't hear
I cleaned up my dreams so I wouldn't remember
But this knot doesn't want to be untied
The ground starts to quake
My bones scream for you
Ah, if only I wasn't crazy for you..."
7. Tangerina by Tiago Iorc & Duda Beat
"My destiny
Suicidal desire
Divine death
Sweet tangerine..."
8. Hater by Carne Doce
"You are my favorite coward,
My pet hater
Who loves me in reverse,
Hates me with adoration"
(that's just my favoritest from each, you can specify different bits in the comments if you want)
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The names of Gintoki and Tsukuyo’s children
Art by 温度計
I’ve been thinking about the names of Gintoki and Tsukuyo’s children and I know it’s the typical shippy stuff and I should be doing something productive BUT ANYWAY please listen:
It’s fanon that they’ve twins since Red Spider arc. Preferably a boy and a girl.
Tsukuyo and Gintoki’s names are based on myths/legends (Tsukuyomi and Sakata no Kintoki respectively).
Therefore, their children’s names should be based on myths/legends that are siblings.
After some research I came to the conclusion that the two gods of Japanese mythology that fit the best are Haniyasu-hiko and Haniyasu-hime for the following reasons:
They’re the children of Izanagi and Izanami, one of the most prominent gods, creator deities of life and death, paralleling Gintoki and Tsukuyo’s ties to those elements as hardened warriors and protectors.
Haniyasu-hiko and Haniyasu-hime are siblings. One is known as the God of courage and strength while the other is the Goddess of love, devotion, and spirit, embodying both Gintoki and Tsukuyo in their desire to protect the people they care about.
They were born from Izanami's feces, so apart from having a deep meaning it’s also a poop joke lmao
Since all names have little variations in Gintama, I would change the previously established names to (sorry if I mess up the kanji) Haruhiko (春彦) and Hanahime (花姫).
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