#i know i think women are pretty

[theskywaslookingback]

if you dont mind talking about it, do you identify as an asexual lesbian now or aroace? both?

I don’t mind talking about it.

The short answer is that I identify as queer.

The long answer is that I have complicated feelings in regards to my own sexuality and gender.

Some days I’m pretty comfortable with calling myself a lesbian because I’m majority female presenting and I don’t feel much dysphoria about being perceived as a girl (most of the time) so it’s comfortable. Some days I don’t feel comfortable with calling myself a lesbian because I don’t know if I have any actual attraction to speak of, either romantic or sexual. Some days I don’t feel comfortable calling myself a lesbian because I don’t feel like a girl (I know non-binary lesbians exist and are valid, this is a very personal complication, not how I view others). Some days I only prefer asexual, because I’m pretty sure that’s the most correct. Some days I wonder if I’m actually demisexual, or gray ace, because while I wasn’t clamoring for sex I also didn’t really hate it either. Some days I know I don’t want anyone or anything at all to touch me. I never want to call myself aromantic because I’m worried it will make me broken (again, personal, not universal). Some days I think I might be bi because I’ll think a man is pretty. Some days I wonder if I might be a gay trans man or gay and agender or gay and non-binary.

The long answer is, I don’t know. How I identify could change from one day, or even one hour, to the next. If you asked me tomorrow I might even have a different answer for you.

So, both? All? None of the above. Not allosexual, I’m pretty sure. Not cis, I think. Maybe aro. Maybe sapphic. Maybe gay.

Definitely queer.

#anon #statement ends #sorry i know that’s not really an answer but i don’t have a good answer for you #i could try and give you the bullet points of…well me i guess #i know i think women are pretty #i know that i don’t like kissing with tongue #i know that i don’t mind sex in the moment but immediately after it makes me want to vomit #i know i don’t really like to be touched or held by other people #but even saying ‘i know’ is disingenuous #because it could change again tomorrow #i just get older and learn more about myself is all #and sometimes i wish I’d had the words to explain myself to myself as a teenager #but i really don’t know what would have changed #and more importantly i don’t know if i would have wanted it to

[anotherpapercut]

genuinely it will never stop baffling me how people will wear twilight shirts and talk about team Edward vs team Jacob and then the same people will be like "I'm not basing my personality off of a piece of media (harry potter) made by a transphobe 😌" like good that's great! so you can excuse racism but you draw the line at transphobia? good to know

#remember when twilight came out and there were news articles about the quileute tribe and also if you read the books with your eyes #you know that theyre extremely like INSANELY racist #i remember reading them at age 10 and thinking 'wow this author hates women and native americans' #and i was right bc later i found out shes mormon 😐 #begging you all to take racism and especially pretty extreme racism against natives seriously lmfao

[rubydubydoo122]

Why is it that Batman’s ok with Antiheroes if it’s Catwoman or Talia Al Ghul, but when it’s the Red Hood, suddenly he’s beating the shit out of him

~Jason Peter Todd at some point

#jason todd #batman #batfam #red hood #bruce wayne #catwoman #selina kyle #talia al ghul #Jason: how are you going to call me the emotional one when your actions towards my moms prove that you think with your member #Jason: they deserve so much better than you #jason: seems pretty sus to me #dc comics #Bruce: It’s not the same #Jason: why? is it because they’re women? #Jason: Talia’s killed people and you had a baby with her #Jason: Selina has stolen from you and you still proposed #Jason: I just wanna know why it’s different. that’s all #Steph: let him speak his truth

[sergle]

When I talk about something bad I've experienced, Baked In to my experience as A Woman, I am not "making my little cousins feel like shit for being women", because I am talking in a space with, allegedly, adults. I am not bringing my problems to children in the first place. That said, I don't HAVE to make my baby cousin feel bad, because she's already experienced sexual harassment in her life, and she's only 8, and doesn't even understand what any of it means yet. And everyone in her family can try to instill confidence in her, and never talk about our bodies in a negative way. But she can still feel like she's too chubby, because she still goes to school, and talks to other kids and their parents, and still sees ads, and still watches tv. We can be positive, but we can't fix the root of the problem. And I don't HAVE to tell trans women that "pain is a rite of passage", because that's not a Rule being enforced (by me), because I've already sat and listened to my friend complain about constantly shaving as a Baseline necessity and how it hurts her skin and she has to put makeup onto fresh cuts on her face because going out without a full face of properly feminine makeup would make her life worse, and being anything less than thin and lithe makes her "less feminine", and ALL the things that can make her "more feminine" are behind a paywall. And I can try to make her feel better, and I can hear her experiencing the tenfold version of problems I relate to, but I can't fix the root cause of her problems by just telling her not to complain. Forcing happiness as a core personality trait for women is not the Girlboss Feminist move that you think it is, and no amount of gender euphoria in the world will make you immune to systemic oppression.

#sergle.txt #you cunts learned the term 'toxic positivity' years ago and forgot it instantly #putting a bandaid on a fuckin severed leg is what it is #do i wish i wasn't a woman? no #do i feel pretty in a dress? yes #have i suffered? OH MY GOD YES #do i think any woman alive today has lived without suffering in these ways? NO. #unless she is being raised by wolves. in which case. good for her. #again I am still flabbergasted by that post having used trans woman as a last ditch effort scapegoat. #like. shocked. as if ANY trans girl's problems are because other women complain abt the way they're treated. #she's got her own problems bitch!! and they are directly correlated to my problems!! #it's like. it's infantilizing almost. the way the dickheads in that post went from ''kids'' to ''trans women''. #adult women who know how gender works. #condescending.

[toytulini]

listen im ace and im pro kink at pride and whatever, but the way some of yall are wording your posts in response to the backlash against it is uh. really taking me back to the ace shitcourse era.

yall know theres nothing wrong with being a "virgin", right? that its not inherently shameful to have not had sex, to never have sex, even if youre not ace, even if you do want to have sex someday, like, its fine that you haven't had sex?

maybe if your problem is that theyre trying to police your behavior and shame you for expressing your sexuality, you can say that? instead of resorting to "haha stupid virgin gets no bitches" like my god. do you not hear how fucking regressive that attitude is? i know, i know, youre "joking".

get a better joke

#toy txt post #god im going to regret this post im gonna regret it so much i can feel it in my bones #let it flop..........pls #internalize my message let it sink in and understand what i am saying and then let the post flop #i say. knowing the ppl who need to see such a message are the ones who will make me regret this post and regrwt not having #1 million bajillion disclaimers #virgin is in quotes bc its a bullshit made up stupid purity culture concept anyway and quite frankly i hate even seeing the word #disclaimer: the previous sentence is not me saying that it is a slur for asexuals. it is me a single individual saying this specific word #grosses me out to read and see everywhere when its a stupid bullshit binary made up or at least historically largely used #to shame largely women and i dont know why we're still using it in 2023 #and ive just been. seeing such an uptick in this whole like. attitude? lately and like #im ace im minorly sex repulsed. mostly about anything sex at me bad. other adults sex at each other consensually? go wild #i like to think im pretty chill about it. i try to be. i think its fine ig to be like 'my meat is huge i fuck so much so good' #like okay not my thing but good for you. love that for you #but then some of yall have started turning it back around back to. 'haha your meat so small and shriveled you get no bitches' #'haha stupid incel virgin' like okay. didnt realize we all went back to fucking. middle school but okay #god im gonna run out of tine to get ready for my thing writing this stupid post UGH evil #but like idk we've kinda circled back to being like haha being a virgin still is stupid and silly and shameful #and if im quite honest. i do think the acecourse played a part in that bc i felt like we were making good progress in like #hey guys is fine to not have sex ever if you dont want to its fine to not want sex its fine #and then aphobes went fucking rabid on us and splintered and destroyed online communities all over but especially on tumblr #and so many aces went back in the closet we stopped talking about it we stopped spreading awareness and now this stupid goddamn like #and now this stupid bullshit attitude is back where its like funny to call someone a virgin as an insult but like no bro trust me its okay #its okay for me to do it bc im a hot queer person with huge meat instead of a cisstraight frat bro with huge meat #? like you know the issue was the behavior right? not the fact that it was straight dudes saying it? its bc the thing being said was shitty? #you know you can dunk on the puritan bitches trying to police your behavior at pride without getting us as collateral damage right #stop making me read that stupid ugly ass word ur not cool or funny #whatever #if you come on to this post to start shit i will not only block you but as many of your mutuals and followers as i can find. i will scroll #i will block this entire fucking website if i need to do not test me. i am exhausted and the acecourse ate up all my tolerance in 2015.

[cerise-on-top]

hi! how would Valeria and Kate react if their wife’s got hurt because of their work, both of them working highly jobs and it ended up catching up to their s/o. hoe you are doing well and drink plenty of water! thank you!

-🍒

Hello! Both of them would be absolutely distraught, but would go about it in different ways!

Valeria’s and Laswell’s Wife Gets Hurt Because of their Job

Valeria: Whoever hurt you will wind up tortured and eventually, once she thinks they’ve had enough of their miserable life, will wind up dead. Naturally, the first thing she does is check up on you, see if you’re alright and well, that’s her priority. You’re the love of her life, there’s no one else in this world she wants to see do well. You’ll be admitted to the best hospital nearby and will only get the finest treatment. Once you’re stabilized, that’s when the hunt begins. Whoever hurt you won’t get too far since that bastard’s life will be on the line. Regardless of where they might be hiding, Valeria will find them and show them that death is actually a kind of mercy. She has pretty much everything at her disposal, everything money can buy, this sucker won’t know what hit them. If it’s revenge they want, then revenge they’ll get. Valeria promises you that their head will be on a silver plate. She’s not very good with words when it comes to comforting someone, but she will have that person killed in the most cruel ways she can imagine. In fact, she’ll take the pleasure of torturing them upon herself. Once she’s done, she’ll take some days off, which is surprising since she usually can’t afford that at all. You’ll be under her direct care for those days. Anything you want you’ll get. Afterwards there will be a slight shift in her demeanor, Valeria becomes more protective over you. Sometimes she might even assign some trusted people of hers to watch over you since she can’t afford something like that happening again. While she can’t always take some days off, she’ll try to be closer to you anyway. Always texting you, finding excuses to come home for a day maybe. She just really needs to make sure you’re okay, she wouldn’t know what to do with herself if you died.

Laswell: Laswell will try to be a bit more diplomatic about it at first, trying to coax whoever hurt you out of hiding. This person will be held accountable for their crimes against her world. Naturally, she rescues you first, gets you to the nearest hospital and won’t leave your side until you’re stable again. If it takes you a while to wake up again, she’ll leave to find the fucker and make sure they swim with the fishes. She has a pretty large, efficient network and will find out who it was fairly easily. Once she knows who they are, she won’t hesitate to find out all their past crimes as well, if they hurt you then they must have done some other awful things as well. Once that phase is over, she’ll go to their home herself and have them arrested, put in the worst prison imaginable where the inmates are treated especially badly. She won’t kill them, but she wouldn’t be surprised if they wind up dead anyway. Laswell usually isn’t an evil person, but she does hope that person dies during their time. Their sentence will be as long as possible so there’s no chance of them ever seeing the sunlight again either. Once all of this is over, she, too, would take some days off to spend with you. You’re a priority above all else, so Laswell will want to be there for you, no matter the cost. While she usually isn’t, depending on how severely you got hurt she might become a bit overbearing, a bit overprotective. That overprotectiveness will last for a few months, afterwards she’ll try to give you some space again. However, she’ll always be keeping a closer eye on you, always texting or calling you every once in a while to make sure you’re okay. If she needs to, she’ll put you under her protection officially, but the situation needs to be dire for that to happen. Either way, she’ll be keeping you safe.

#cod #cod x reader #valeria garza #valeria garza x reader #kate laswell #kate laswell x reader #fem!reader #I hit over 100k words in my document last night which is so so much #I've written so much for Call of Duty in such a short time it's unbelievable. granted there's one fic I never posted but still #I don't intend to stop now either though it's fun. I'll probably be into cod for a while still anyway so there's that too #besides Valeria and Laswell have me in a chokehold. Farah does too I love them #every time someone requests them I'm very happy. I didn't expect the girls to be this popular though in all honesty #not complaining! it's nice to get to imagine kissing girls. it makes my gay little heart sing #I actually had some art of Valeria and an OC of mine commissioned not too long ago #every time I look at it I giggle and kick my legs a bit #I want her to fluster the everloving hell out of me until I can't speak anymore and am complete mush for her #I know I've mentioned it before but I love women who could absolutely just kill me. and who absolutely would do it as well #cod has some good women. made me realise that older women are also pretty epic #I think I'd melt into a puddle if Laswell ever called me her girl or her wife

[animentality]

I've never read Claymore or anything, but I think it does monster character design better than most manga, or even just, monster media in general, particularly the female monster designs.

not female, but a girlboss nonetheless

#monsters #monster design #claymore #listen i watched the anime a long long long time ago when i was like 13 and i thought it wasnt bad #then i saw just how pretty the manga was and i was like oh #this is a downgrade #a shame #yes yes yes i know theyre sexualized and they all have the same body type but leave me alone #i like women and i like monsters and i still think this is wayyyyy better than what most men come up with for female monsters #like this isnt those men who draw a monster girl who basically just looks like a normal girl except she has horns #this is ascended #hehehe

[jestroer]

dont you just love hot weather

#ive been ill and it was SO HOT THIS WEEK I THOUGHT I WOULD DIE #im just laying in my bed butt naked and its so fricking hot what do you even do........ #i love spring but god i didnt miss hot weather #Gem and Pearl! Struggling for our sins or just struggling just like me because heat was the only thing i could think of while dying of heat #a bit of an anatomy study! mostly just silly stuff i think its pretty domestic to fucking die of heat together #pearlescentmoon #geminitay #hermitcraft #the shorts on gem are like you know the ones women wore under skirts before the ones #court jester's art

[uncanny-tranny]

Finally listened to Dylan Mulvaney's song and?? I don't get the negative hype about it, it was frankly a cute song. Also the "playin' catch-up 'cause we missed the pre-game" made me laugh, it was a good line. Dylan, you've done it again!

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #it just sounds like... a normal pop song. the only problem is the auto tune. i'm not against auto tune but whoever mixed it... #...did not make it seamless. i'm bad at recognizing auto tune but i could hear it #the thing that sucks is auto tune is now like... industry standard but nobody who is responsible for doing it seems to do it right #to me it's justa cute song about learning to appreciate and admire life and the women who helped. like it's pretty normal #i don't even follow dylan i just think she's. a relatively normal person as far as being a former theater kid can get you #if you were in theater or band your normal rating goes down at *least* a tier level. often more than one. ask me how i know. #anyway. listen to the song i think it's cute as hell. i'm always a sucker for songs about appreciation and gratitude

[wizzard890]

#succession #tw: csa #like the constant CONSTANT jokes about the topic where he's the victim #the sudden bedwetting before he was just sent away to school #the feelings of responsibility for keeping his family happy and together and Good we're all Good #his self-loathing around sex and intimacy #the way his siblings refer to his physical abuse in a pretty blase way but everything around When He Went Off To School is vague #the show spends a ton of time showing that his actual memories of his childhood are on two tracks: what his siblings saw and what he felt #his father convinced that there's something wrong with him #some fatal crack that can't be fixed - and roman agrees #and PARTICULARLY in the most recent episode when he reveals he couldn't breathe normally around logan #and shiv goes to ask frank and karl 'how bad was dad' #like I don't think logan was the one who did this specifically to roman #but it was clearly someone logan knew #shiv the girl with the selective memory but the girl who knew not to be around those men #being moved enough by her brother's pain to confront the panicked sliver of a question: did dad do this? and if not - did he know? #logan didn't like women but he loved his little girl #shiv was safe #roman? not so much #'why bastard? why base?' why indeed roman

[keirientez]

#nudity warning #guess whos back from college yipee (i was trembling for the entirety of my first day) #it was nice to be talking to people but having to talk to people drained so much out of me that i slept at 9. which is bizzare #drew the middle one while waiting for my afternoon class. what is there to even say i fantasize about women daily #also i like to think for fem!reborn but young she’ll have those puffy flowy dresses but black. #since if reborn originally followed traditional mindsets and standards when it comes to clothing he went for suits (which he later #-proceeds to expand his wardrobe and goes for crossdressing looks like reboko (one of his alt identities) #but would mostly have clothes following the traditional sense #fem reborn would love vests and formal clothings too i think but if in child form the fandom had reborn originally in an ouji-esque look #with top vest and shorts. so i think those puffy lolita dresses are cute for her #tsuna is just tsuna lol but i referenced her hair from levy mcgarden in fairytail #her hair is extremely iconic for me its so pretty #one reason why i chose her hair for reference is that if you just change her hair color to brown she’s literally tsuna’s fem doppelganger #another reason is that i like levy mcgarden #shes just silly ok i love her #and if youre in the fandom you’ll know her abilities which for me at 14 year old was cool as hell #katekyo hitman reborn #r27 #sawada tsunayoshi #reborn #fan art #genderbend

[sadaroacegirlflux]

my spotify in 2015: here is pretty much every lesbian musician on this platform and troye sivan

me: ok, cool. why though?

me in 2020: oh… i’m queer. yeah, i’m aroace

me about 5 months ago: i might actually be a lesbian. ace lesbian? wait, did spotify know????

me now: fuck labels, idfk anymore, women yes, but like, in an asexual way

no, but since i admitted to myself i like women, i’ve realised how much i love women

#lgbtq #lgbt #lesbian #queer #i thought i like guys #but i never really LIKED guys #i genuinely used to think life would be easier if i was just a lesbian so i didnt have to deal with guys #i call myself gay a lot #pretty sure im ace spec but i dont fucking know #asexual #ace #asexuality #gay #i just really like women

[worflesbian]

I think part of the reason janeway compels me so much is bc i really feel like on any other show she would've been a sympathetic villain at best. like in the last episode I watched she holds a baby while talking about killing it's siblings and it's genuinely only through the thoroughly established context of janeway having to make horrible choices in order to save her crew that we can read that scene as anything but unhinged. and it Does make sense in context bc she's talking about killing adolescent Borg drones to stop them from assimilating hostages, but in most other shows that kind of thing coming from a female character especially would not end up with her being the good guy at the end of the episode.

im thinking about how btvs which aired at a similar time had a whole arc about the pressures of leadership driving buffy to become way too harsh and the consequences of that are she gets kicked out of her own home. avasarala on the expanse does a lot of awful things but being uncompromising and not giving a fuck is like her most notable character trait, she tortures a guy in her first appearance. these narratives have little sympathy for women who do bad things in the name of something greater, either they're punished for it and rejected by those around them or they're characterised as cold and lacking compassion. but janeway for the most part has the full support of her crew and spends the majority of the time being kind and diplomatic, As Well as choosing to sacrifice lives or collaborate with mass murderers when she has to.

and it's conflicting bc although this is almost a one of a kind female character I think part of her existence is due to voyagers unwillingness to challenge the status quo of star trek despite having the perfect premise to do so. everyone wears uniform and adheres to rank despite half the crew being unenlisted terrorists, starfleet is largely unquestioned as an absolute moral good despite the origin of the maquis being designed to undermine and examine that, and the captain is always the hero at the end of the day.

#I think the adult yellowjackets are the most similar examples I can think of where they're fully sympathetic #but even then I feel you're kind of supposed to think of them as awful people whereas janeway is fully framed as a hero still #and obviously there's more nuanced female characters in serious dramas #but then they're pretty much never the main character to the extent that janeway is #anyway if anyone knows some good examples of morally grey women who don't get punished by the narrative id love to hear them #janeway #ghitlhpu'wij

[stuckinapril]

what age are you scared of?

UGH hate being that girl but im lowkey scared of 25. That’s when you’re officially past your “young 20s” & you no longer have an excuse to fuck up (for the lack of a better explanation). My rational mind disagrees w this & understands that 25 is nothing in the grand scheme of things. My 21 year old brain is QUAKING

#I’m legit looking forward to my 30s tho bc I know so many gorgeous women in their 30s #I think that’ll probably be peak me #My mom gave birth to me then wore her pre pregnancy jeans the next day I think my genes are pretty tight #But 25 is fucking scary to me bc that’s marriage age and at 21 I still feel like such a child #Obviously I’m not getting married to anyone at 25 (fuck that) but STILL scary that I’m in that range #I just know so many of my friends will get married by then #ask

[bookshelfdreams]

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#just saw that tweet abt pink days on the set of the barbie movie & i think it made me realize why it - the marketing etc - annoys me so #'margot robbie went around collecting fines and donated them to charity haha' okay. look. #that's just the perfect metaphor for how it worked for us - me - anyone who wants to align themselves with me - when we were girls #isn't it #because you grow up and you desperately want to fit in with the other girls but you don't & you don't know why #but you're surrounded by things and people telling you what a normal girl is like & little-to-none of it is things you find appealing or #interesting. makeup and fashion and skin care. gymnastics and romance. you're told that you are obligated to be pretty #but prettiness has never been part of your perception of yourself. femininity is an arcane concept #an exclusive club that will never grant you entrance #& the only comfort you can give yourself is deciding that it's dumb anyway. shallow. vain. who cares about looks and boys and all of that #idiots that's who #but this is Doing It Wrong too isn't it? because now everyone who has taught you that you will forever fail at femininity turns around #& tells you that's patriarchal oppression and YOU'RE the bad one by distancing yourself from something that always made you feel defective #'YOU may have never lived up to this impossible standard of perfection but some ppl do and actually it's fine to be like that! #hyperfeminine traditionally beautiful women are the most oppressed group of all & finally we will stand up for our rights!' #'girls can be pretty AND conpetent' but that's not what they're actually saying. isn't it. #because performing femininity correctly is the prerequisite. a threshold you can never cross and you know that. & that's fine #but somehow that's wrong too because you're not supposed to make peace w that are you. you're SUPPOSED to want to do it right #even if you don't and never have and never will #and once again everyone is yelling at you that this club isn't meant for you. if you criticize the barbie movie you're antifeminist #if you refuse to wear pink I'll make you pay a fine #hashtag girlpower #(well im not a girl. not a guy either. and not a secret third thing. just bad at femininity. #bad at being a person. and y'all don't need to tell me you don't want me in your club #I've always known that. i just wish you'd stop expecting me to beg for entrance.)

[cherry-dr0p]

Want some Nosferatu lazy doodles I've done whilst getting little to no sleep and head empty? I got you covered.

I have never seen a more whimsical man in my life. He may be a little insane but he is forgiven.

Everyone talking about the other characters but aint no one talking about how pretty Ellen/Mina/whatever you wanna call her is.

Also the screechy music,,, I dont like. It 100% served the purpose it was most likely to have but I still do not like,,

I-- have no explanation for this one. Just two old guys together.

Yeah uhh, thats all I have. I'll do perhaps do more drawings with actual effort but for now, I just wanted to doodle them honestly.

#nosferatu 1922 #Grr I need sleep #Anyways the movie is pretty cool #Crazy how I never watched it until now #You know what? Even if Ellen/Mina was my favourite I still think that Knock needs more screen time. #Listen listen listen- someone had to say it #women amirite #/pos #I still need to learn how to draw Knock #And Ellen. In fact especially Ellen. #Lazy doodles #You can tell who my favourite characters are LMAO