#broke me dude

[deezneezz]

fashion jamil that also semi turned into a summer outfit!☀️ i really wanted to draw him smiling genuinely and now i dont know if i can ever go back--

#jamil viper #twst #twisted wonderland #hehe spot the easter eggs #my art #dude those patterns broke me #also self indulgent dimple cause i love dimples man #let my boy smile!!!!!!!!!!

[thisisadonaldduckblognow]

all the rise boys get done dirty on characterization by fandom in different ways i think. (not ALL the time every fanwork etc etc these are just like, trends i tend to notice?) every fandom suffers from losing character nuance.

- leo i’ve talked about plenty on this blog, how some of his canon traits (genuine belief in his skill and cockiness, capacity for joy, his manipulativeness whether for good or ill) seem to get watered down or wiped off the board and supplemented with generic sad boy. his struggles with purpose and identity and not wanting to fail somehow morph into “he hates and completely holds no value for himself”

- donnie’s canon personality gets blurred out and largely replaced with whatever list of Neurodivergent Traits. and i think there’s such a fine line to walk between exploring a character that’s been word of god confirmed as on the spectrum and overwriting what’s canonically there. it’s a hard needle to thread. it also feels like a lot of his canon emotiveness gets left off the table for some reason. bc he does have his moments of flat/deadpan delivery, but a lot of the time he’s honestly very emotive. he has the passion of a theatre kid and the vindictiveness of... also a theatre kid. and the mind of a scientist.

- raph loses so much of his rowdy teen boy energy it’s kind of wild? like interpretations sand off that he’s also impulsive and can be reckless and dumb and LOVES fighting and roughhousing and isn’t the most eloquent person. suddenly there’s this pitch perfect soft boy big bro who would never hurt a fly and always says the exact right supportive thing and singlehandedly raised his 3 brothers (which simultaneously sands off all the nuance of splinter’s issues emotionally connecting with his sons and how that affected all of them). and like i LOVE raph, he’s so full of love and care and anxiety, he clearly has learned to put a lot of work into being aware of his strength and size. but there’s a difference you know?

- mikey is like. where raph gets overparentified by fanon, mikey gets over “family therapist”-ed IMO. the impulsiveness, the goofiness, the powerful emotions including a VERY powerful temper, the flat-out dumb teen boy choices... they get ignored. suddenly there’s this only very sweet and earnest boy who has read a hundred psychology books and runs group family therapy weekly or something. he is crying in his room bc leo and raph are arguing about something. which is so. he IS very sweet and can be very earnest and is full of love! he HAS come in with his opinions and unsolicited advice a couple of times and life coached for the greater good. but there’s a difference between what he does in canon and the role he gets in fanon.

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #idk this is not a very eloquent rundown its very hard to explain exactly my vibe #ig the long story short is i feel like a lot of their most interesting and fun qualities get left in the dust #mikey as family therapist is getting under my skin the most rn i think its just so. #for as much as it seems like his brothers try to shelter him (esp raph with his overprotectiveness)..... i just dont see it #i dont see his brothers and definitely not his dad putting their issues on him like that... #him dragging donnie into that one dr feelings session and dragging draxum into a new moral alignment were different #than 'yeah everyone tells mikey their stuff and he has to do the labor of helping with it' #like it just doesnt vibe for me #i think he is very emotionally OPEN on all levels compared to his family #i think he is more likely to share when HE struggles #i dont think raph or leo is sitting with him at 3am like 'it all started when i was 4 and accidentally broke a plate' or what have you idk #it's all so ymmv i do just scroll past stuff i dont vibe with i dont drop hate on it i just #idk dudes its so hard to see the appeal in some of the choices made

[unexpectedbrickattack]

short king and his shorter kings

#pizza tower #pepstavo #peppinoise #i sketched it out WEEKS ago #but w me almost finishing this godawful comm i felt compelled to do something for Me #i cannot wait to finish; i have a couple of forms sitting there collecting dust but im too overwhelmed w this shitty comm- #-to even attempt to tackle those. i need to scrub my brain and start fresh. but after i finish it lmao #anyway hey. hope everyones okay and vibin #dont take this seriously but also. heehee. #in hindsight i feel like i need to bump gustavos head up a lil bit but weh #not too compelled to fix it. #additional context that i think is fun; gus is just a touchy dude and he finds all kinds of reasons to pick peppino up #and every time peppino is like SO flustered and shocked bc itll be in the view of customers #like some sports team wins and its on their tvs and ppl are hootin n hollerin #and like people will notice and keep cheering and its alot hes like oh my GOD u cannot keep doing that im going to explode and then die #noise will do it to prove he can do it and then his back snaps in two bc he weighs like 80 lbs (36kg) #but for like a brief moment of time he is facefirst in tummy and hes ecstatic #theo it is not funny to be rushed to the er bc u broke ur back #also suggestive (but funny i prommy) #but he absolutely would be that like girl who needed a neckbrace from having her gf accidentally sit on her face too hard #hes like ouuuuhhghh....that was worth it. how long will it take to recover doc bc i wanna do it again :) #meanwhile. i think if that happened peppino would literally go into hiding. ur not finding him. #it would literally haunt him that he nearly killed this rat w his fat ass #as if this is not the way both gus and noise would like to go out. it would be peaceful for them i think #anyway #runs away cutely; see u in two weeks maybe

[somewhatsentientspellbook]

Part of me would love to see Bells Hells bring Relvin with them to the big battle with the Ruby Vanguard - if only to get a moment where he and Liliana reunite. Where they lock eyes for the first time in decades. A moment where they can see the grey in their hair, the lines on their faces, and the way they hold themselves like they haven't had anyone to lean on over the years.

Liliana would be forced to confront the past she thought she'd left behind. Of course there was a chance her Ruidusborn daughter would follow in her footsteps, but Relvin was just a man! He should have stayed far away, in Gelvaan, where she wouldn't have to think about him too hard.

Relvin would be forced to confront the woman he believed was his future. The woman who promised to stay with him, but disappeared because his whole self wasn't great enough to be her other half. He had spent decades wondering what had become of Liliana and her quest, and here she was.

She'd look at him and realise just what her single-minded goal robbed her of: a lifetime with the man she fell in love with. And he'd look at her and realise that he hadn't lied when he told Imogen her mother was dead... because the woman he knew died the day she left her family behind.

#liliana's the kind of lady to say “i broke the world for us” #and relvin is the kind of man to say “no... you just broke me” #their story is so fucking depressing and i feel so bad for their whole family #but especially relvin! the dude probably saw enough of liliana in imogen that he felt like there was no point in trying to get close to her #because if he wasn't enough for the woman who chose to be his wife - why'd he be enough for the woman who didn't choose to be his daughter? #critical role #cr3 #cr meta #bells hells #imogen temult #relvin temult #liliana temult #ruby vanguard

[c-t-r-l14]

This Audio Is SICKENING.

Ya’ll—I don’t even know where to begin.

When I tell you that I physically FLINCHED upon seeing Alex’s face in the thumbnail, the way my heart started beating, the way I started SHAKING while putting my AirPods in—you guys would’ve thought that I’ve gotten some terrible news or something. And—I don’t even know what’s CRUELER—the fact that Saku posted this audio on April Fools day, making us go back and forth between “is this cannon?” or “nah, this is definitely a joke!” Or him making it all lovey dovey at first, giving us a false sense of security—waiting for us to finally let our guard down so he could get ready to strike. But I do know that it broke me, and made me feel for listener even more.

I think one of the biggest reasons why it broke me so much was because we can see how much listener blames themselves. How much they think the breakup is all their fault.

And you can see how much its impacted them.

You see the thing with Alex is that he is really, really bad with communication. He’s rather quiet about how he feels, and doesn’t voice it out loud. A person like this—who doesn’t talk about their own feelings, who’d rather stay silent—usually are alone with their own thoughts. And that’s when things get rocky, especially in a relationship. One of the things that I noted in the break up audio (besides all the gaslighting, manipulation, and reality distortion), was the fact that Alex has had that argument on his mind ever since it happened, and not ONCE has he said something about it until the day they broke up. He was alone with his thoughts the entire time up to that point—mulling over the argument, his feelings, his future—and I feel like him doing this, instead of actually talking to listener to see how things can work out deadass lead him to believing that they couldn’t be together, which lead him to not tell them about the job offer until the very last minute. I wholeheartedly believe that if he sat down with them, and told them—“hey, I know you said sorry, but I still feel like shit because you made me feel this way,” if the thoughts got to be too much, then maybe things would’ve been better. But he didn’t—and just like listener, he assumed the worst, and on top of that— gave up without even trying to fight for the person he claimed to love so much. Instead, all he did was make excuses, act hypocritically, gaslight them, and blame them for everything—all the while not realizing that there was a whole bunch of things HE could’ve done better too.

And we can see how much it took a toll on listener—considering the fact that they were ridden with so much guilt that can’t even sleep well at night.

I can feel how much they hate themselves through Alex’s words as he tore into them, and this is honestly partly Alex’s fault, because he reduced them to a mistake they made. Dream Alex (who will now be referred to as DA from now on) was taunting listener—and throwing the words Alex said to them during the break up back to them. He kept on reminding them of their mistakes, and that THEY are the reason why he left. He kept on reminding them of the worst parts of themselves—and that’s high key what Alex did during the break up too. I feel like we all need to acknowledge that what DA said to listener in this audio is most definitely not a reflection of the way the real Alex would talk and act—simply because DA is a figment of listener’s imagination. And since listener is filled with so much hurt and heartbreak right now, of course their own guilt and self hatred is going to distort how things operate in their mind. So, let’s not take the things he has said at face value.

Listener has a lot to work on. Their trust issues left a wound that ran deeper than they initially thought. In a way, they are too much in their own head as well—and do end up going to the worst case scenario, and this behavior stems from the trauma they sustained from their former partner. This leads them to do irrational things, like invading Alex’s privacy and accusing him of stuff that only happened in their head.

Both of them have a lot of shit they need to work on. Alex needs to learn how to actually talk about how he feels, learn how to take accountability for the things he’s done wrong, and maybe grow a damn backbone, and listener needs to go get some damn therapy, get their trust issues sorted out, and learn all the facts before they come at people with any assumption they might have about them. I feel like this dream was kind of the point where listener realizes that they simply just can’t let their relationship end like this, because through this dream sequence, they realize that there was still a lot of stuff that was left unsaid, and are now seeking for some closure. I think now it’s the best time to go for it, considering that Alex apparently didn’t go to NYC and stayed in London instead (this is still very much unclear). And I am hoping and praying that his ass has the same nightmare listener had as well. Listener can’t be the only one who has a wake-up call (pun intended).

Their downfall was caused because these two idiots don’t know how to convey their emotions to each other properly. They could’ve had it all if one just actually opened their damn mouth to speak, and the other would just simply think before they open theirs.

This confrontation can go two ways: they cut each other loose and go about their own lives, or they find a way to make it work, (granted that they are BOTH willing to work on themselves).

Do I think their relationship is a lost cause? I don’t know. Something tells me that this probably isn’t the end, and a part of me (as much as I talk shit about how much I want listener to be an absolute bad bitch and leave him to drown in his regret), doesn’t want it to be the end.

With this being said, I still don’t like Alex. It’s gonna take much more than a damn walk down memory lane with a bizarre, brutal, dream version of him to get me to like him again.

Oh and by the way, Saku if you’re reading this—sleep with one eye open tonight.

Masterlist

#zsakuva alex #zsakuva #alex zsakuva #why did the beginning make me miss him a lil!?? #this audio was so damn sad bro #poor listener dude #I still don’t like Alex though #sakuverse #They are both hurting #as much shit as I talk tho #I want them to end up happy together #this shit actually broke my heart

[scintillyyy]

the thing is that there are interesting ways to play with the idea that thomas and martha weren't the perfect parents that bruce will always venerate them as on account of they died when he was 8 (i feel like the ones i'm most interested are the throwaway lines that imply they might've sent bruce to boarding school + the idea that thomas was maybe a little too focused on prioritizing his work over family), however dc seems to constantly go for ~but did thomas cheat on martha?? was he imperfect in his potential unfaithfulness???~ (they do this for a lot dad characters in general i feel like) and it's just overdone and tiring and i hate it so.

#i genuinely think their go to when trying to interrogate if a dead father figure had flaws is to be like “oh he might've cheated” #stop stop i beg u #(this is also why i generally don't like secret siblings because it feeds into this tendency) #also i will defend melinda and meili bc it's not their fault they were created by tt #but the absolute flipside to this is the idea that the dude in question would never dare have a relationship that wasn't his one true love #'even though i knew he would never love me he only had eyes for your mother i was totally cool being a pity fuck dw' #anyways i would fix melinda by having her actually be zucco's daughter #or by having john and meili be in a relationship and then he broke up with her for mary. let's get messy.

[ratchetonsteroids]

(spoiler!) earthspark got me like:

(thanks to @dragonformers-cave for inspiring me to draw more!! go check them out PLEASE their art is so cool i could never)

#earthspark spoilers #btw #lol #dragonformers #!! #also finally im like... alive #this scene BROKE ME dude #im like gonna for sure draw more es dragonformers #god #earthspark megatron #earthspark twitch #twitch malto #es megatron #my art #like dang ive only been reblogging stuff as of recently #time to get my big boy art pants on #hhhh #definetly expect more art coming #my bitch ass on a grind rn #transformers #maccadam

[fieldclover-leaf]

nobody follows me here so i can freely scream into tbe void :33

i'm constantly plagued by that scene from RoTS with ani and padme on the balcony on coruscant.... they're so genuine and so silly and padme is So Excited to start spending the rest of their lives together,,, and it all goes downhill so fast ,,, truly doomed by the narrative . anakin does everything he can to potentially prevent padme's death but it ultimately plays out exactly how his visions showed,, and the dichotomy of padme dying in white and brining new life to the world, while anakin is ultimately experiencing a rebirth into someone who will bring mass destruction,,,, and how the paths eventually converge down the line and return balance to the force i am so fucking emotional over them all the time. bwah

#anakin skywalker #star wars #padme amidala #they loved eachother so FUCKING MUCH i just want them to be happy :((( #my partner got me on the whole 'watch star wars in chronological order' train and clone wars into ROTS broke me dude. it broke me #he wouldve done anything for her. he tried to do everything for her. he was her everything. his efforts to save her drove them apart #and its all palpatines fault. fucker

[hanzajesthanza]

Geralt: From now on, we will be using code names. You can address me as Eagle One. Yennefer, code name: “Been There, Done That.” Fringilla is “Currently Doing That.” Regis is “It Happened Once in a Dream”; Dandelion, code name: “If I Had To Pick a Dude.” Milva is... Eagle Two.

Milva: Oh, thank the gods.

#edit i changed it from triss and yennefer to yennefer and fringilla for more book accuracy #it pained me to do so but i imagine him speaking to the breakfast table in beauclair here #yennefer isnt present so she cant hear him say this and also his heart broke when he said it #i just wanted to make this post so i could say that for regis and geralt it happens in dreams. anyways #incorrect witcher quotes #also this is unrealistic because geralt would not remember or hang out with triss #much less mention their thing in front of yennefer #this is a difficult post to make when like a third of the most important characters are children or young adults #i could have said shani or coral but shani was once and coral is dead #i like how regis is named before dandelion and yet dandelion is ‘if i had to pick a dude’ like regis does not count as a dude #nonbinary flag fades in behind me from thin air 🥲 #gerlion #geregis #not tagging as the others because multishipping is less common there #the witcher books

[bawltongue]

#jonathan davis #jon davis #korn #nu metal #metal #his fucking dance #i cant do this anymore #hes always done the little boppy dance when he has the bagpipes ojt dude #watching him do this in real fucking life literally…when i think pf it. #shivers down my spine broke my brain i love this band so much #also dont even get me started on ths fucking fit i cohld write a 76 page essay on it alone #holy gods hes so fucking talented and beautiful beyond comprehension its actually infuriating #video

[stinkypeanutbutter]

WOAHHS JUMPSXARE !!!!

Also angst art ??? 🤯🤯 ( yes he’s shirtless cause I wanted to add rib lines 💥💥 )

#Woahhzers dude !!!! #Gay people aren’t real guys #He has rib lines cause he’s skinny 💔 #Same ngl #art #theu sre sosoosososo silly guys !!!!! #IM TOO BROKE FOR FASTOASS 💔💔 #Someone give me spoilers pslpslspslsls #cinderella boy webtoon #cinderella boy #chase hollow #buddy #webtoon

[bisexualelphie]

julie e os fantasmas (original julie and the phantoms) was so wild. like, what do you mean the boys were crushed to death by a truck? what do you mean julie has committed more than one crime? what do you mean the main triangle consists of a rockstar with a closet dnd player vs a my chemical romance revenge era rejected song? what do you mean the ghost love interest was a menace to society in life and public enemy number 1 in death? what do you mean he was tortured more than once? what do you mean there was a dude trying to enslave ghosts and this plotline only lasted two episodes????

#julie e os fantasmas #julie and the phantoms #julie and the phantoms og #this show shaped my entire personality #it was my childhood #i didn't realize how wild it was until i watched it as an adult #the one with the creepy teacher is particularly crazy #he actually breaks into julie's house and finds a way to physically torture GHOSTS #i love the remake but the original shaped me y'all don't understand #and i love luke but daniel is just so iconic #i wasn't lying about him being a menace #the dude broke into a hotel (by pushing the lobby guy and running) and caused chaos just to get his idol to listen to his band's music #and somehow got a hamburger out of it #and not only is he (all three of them are #but demetrius targets daniel specifically) being chased by the chief of the ghost police #he also completely throws 500 years of ghost laws out the window by causing a rebellion with just one story #“i never followed the rules when i was alive i'm not gonna follow them now that i'm dead” he took that seriously #also julie thinks cheating at school is wrong but she has no problem with breaking into places or potentially injuring thalita #her pettiness knows no boundaries lmfao #they truly are meant for each other 🤩 #too bad he's dead #daniel every two episodes: i could make her worse #while he doesn't know that most of the crimes julie commits are of her own volition #i love my angsty little criminals #juliel #julie x daniel

[omgeto]

Incoming... long lost love ex!geto who comes to see you for one last time—on the night that he's going to die.

#this is going to be angsty as hell but LIKE THEYLL BE FLUFF IN IT TOO #BUT ANGST #SINCE IT'LL BE SCORNED!READER #since geto just up and leaves you 10 years ago #the hate fucking will be insane #BUT SINCE THE LOVE IS STILLL THERE AND NEVER LEFT THIGNS GET ALL SOFT AND MUSHY #AND THE CONVOS THAT YOU'LL HAVE THE REMINISCING THE DISCUSSION ON WHY U BROKE UP #ALL THAT GOOD JUICY STUFF #DO U GUYS WANNA SEE THIS SHIT? #IDK WHY IM REALLY ASKING SINCE IM GONNA WRITE IT ANYWAYS #ITS GONNA BE MY BEST WORK YET #LIKE AN ACTUAL FINE CRAFTED PIECE OF WORK #THAT I PROOFREAD AND STUFF #AND LIKE PUT ALL MY EFFORT INTO #its the classic 'when he's mean to everyone but you' trope #or the classic 'you know I'll always love you even when you hate me trope' #and readers all like FUCKKK YOU DUDE #since yk I always have to make my reader a bit of a meanie #but then its the 'when you wanna hate him but you just cant' #so... yes #here's a big #★ — emptalkshit!

[volatile-shorty]

i stole this joke from two other people. its game night

#who broke it. #diamonds droog #clubs deuce #hearts boxcars #spades slick #Problem Sleuth #pickle inspector #ace dick #midnight crew #GODDD so many dudes #docart #fanart #i dont think dd would actually have one but the word juul is so fucking funny to me. #kin art #i guess. if you squint

[hcnnibal]

For another data point: I’d trust A2 with my life and I spend SO much time around hunter types and grew up in a hunting family

im kinda in the same boat, i spend so much time w bowhunters and archers, theyre kinda strange and standoffish at first but literally everyone ive ever shot w has been nothing but kind and lovely and sweet to me

#which i had not expected #being a visibly queer visibly trans asian person in an aggressively republican sport #but its been like 3 yrs in the scene and #most of the weird stuff i get is from women actually #the big burly dudes just think im their little buddy w the pink bow #they give me rides spot my shots call my shots v generously talk shop w me give me pointers etc etc etc #help fix my fence lol #flocked around me and all offered me their spare releases when mine broke and split my lip in the middle of a competition

[finnmash]

okay s2 episode 11 was actually so good. BuT CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE SCENE WHERE FINN YELLS MOTIVATION TO MASH AN DHE GETS EVEN MORE MOTIVATED?????

my finnmash heart cant do this. WHYD THEY HAVE TO DO FINN!!!! finnmash canon guys please im hajime himself (LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER

#mashle #mashle magic and muscles #finnmash #finn ames x mash burnedead #finn x mash #DUDE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH #that scene broke me. please they need to be canon #no more I HATE MASHLE YAOI.