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bat-the-misfit · 1 year

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i always dream that i'm burning alive bc of my erythromelalgia. it's my brain's dumb way to say "hey you're in the middle of a flare right now wake up bitch"

HOWEVER today i woke up from the same dream but i was completely normal, no flare

bitch the brain is weird

#my mom said it's bc i'm always quick to anger #but in my dream i was scared not angry #like i was trying to run away from the fire #me and many people #in the end the fire got us and i felt the pain of burnt #it makes sense the anger thing especially with everything that happened these past years #i feel so many emotions but the only one i tend to show is anger #i transform all these emotions into angry outbursts (hello my fellow people with inferior Te lmao)#but the fact i wasn't angry in the dream is what make me disbelief that this is about my anger #i also thought about the “passion” to live the “flame” inside of us to make us want to live #i used to compare my will to write stories as the “flame” in my heart and that it died after all these shit happened #but again i don't think my “passion” will come back bc i wasn't happy in the dream #ok enough scary shit #i may be used to have this nightmare but i get scared every time #but this one was weird bc i got no flare!!!#like what the hell!!!#well aNYWAY #tio morcego tá tagarela

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that-sweet-jester · 1 year

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I've yet again fallen into the superhero AUs

For those interested in checking my AU👀 pt.1 pt.2

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ranvwoop · 4 months

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that was genuinely just the most waste of time ever. i liked the part where the super solid evidence was two contextless voices, "transcripts" handled by himself only and distributed via pastebin, and his mother

#vwoop.noises #dream situation #< For blacklist. I am going to get weirdo tag searchers on my blog now #But remember everyone. He was just so so so scared.#Truly it was the allegations' fault that your favourite series had a bad ending :(#I did not watch the padding Idc about his twt beef.#I have made a moral judgement abt tag searching. Stay safe etc etc But don't send me angry anons pretty please #But if you're looking at stuff for information. Well that's okay

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best-enemies · 22 days

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I've reached season 5 on my CSI rewatch and I'm a few episodes past "Swap Meet", where a woman is murdered after attending a swing party with other couples from the neighbourhood. Near the end of the episode there's a moment that made me jump from my seat:

(Grissom walks up to Sara and takes the seat next to her. He's holding two cups. He hands her a cup of tea.)

[INT. POLICE DEPARTMENT - BRASS' OFFICE]

Erin Brady: Everybody fantasizes about other people. (She glances at Grissom.)

Even you, Mr. Grissom. A neighbor, a friend ... girl at the office.

[INT. POLICE DEPARTMENT - HALLWAY]

(The door opens. Paul Brady walks out of the hallway. Erin Brady walks out into the hallway. Sara is sitting in the hallway chair watching them. She watches as they meet and kiss.)

(Grissom walks up to Sara and takes the seat next to her. He's holding two culps. He hands her a cup of tea.)

LIKE!!!!!!!

Right after Erin ends her sentence with 'girl at the office', the first time Sara and Grissom meet again, he brings her tea. This might be an innocent interaction but to me it seemed like a nod to this relationship they have where both are into each other, know about the other's feelings, but can't/won't do anything about it (although Sara has kind of given Grissom an ultimatum). I don't know if it was intentional - I'm guessing it is, because I picked it up immediately. I might or might not have squealed in delight.

#csi #gsr #i'm very Normal about them btw i don't think about them 50 times per day or anything #need to talk more about these two here #because im obsessed about them in a Normal way #sara is like. my dream wife. i totally get grissom being in love with her for years and barely holding it together #i would not though #i'm 1000% sure she's bi. but the writers have been cowards so far #also she and i dress THE SAME. yes i love 2000s clothes so what #i could talk about her forever she's everything to me #and grissom. oh grissom. i also get why she's been in love with him forever #i mean what the FUCK went down in san francisco did they hook up and sex was so good it scared them #and now they have to live with that tension and they're scared of crossing that line #nah i'm guessing with these two they just REALLY clicked. like. they were an instant match and they knew it #but grissom didnt want to lose focus on work or whatever and they lived in separate states you know #but oh my god i totally get sara. grissom is such a silver fox. he's like one of the hottest old men i've ever seen in my life #you know what i 100% get tumblr sexualizing old men it's completely valid i'm in this now too #he has this LOOK. whenever he's angry at a suspect. and he looks angrily at them. i'm chewing on my keyboard just remembering it #and his smirks #AND THE WAY HE LOOKS AT SARA #im losing my mind #i love all of gil grissom but seasons 4-5 jesus fucking christ #ok enough with the sexualizing i love him as a character SO MUCH. he's absolutely fantastic #one of the things i love the most about him is that he doesn't judge people. whenever the team is confused about someone #or this persons' lifestyle #he's always trying to understand them and not judge them #like a true scientist he wants to understand the nature of things and people #and he's such a sweetheart i love him so much #like there are so many things i love about him i can't fit them all in the tags. same for sara #they're a perfect match for me

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velmashaircut · 4 months

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Bofoi leg crumbs

#was not expecting another webcomic chapter but I’m not complaining 😭😭😭#it just came out so obviously no translations yet but Bofoi looked evil af this chapter #and child emperor looked scared shocked angry this chapter #so maybe metal knight revealed he’s the one causing the robot invasion #since I think something bad is happening to child emperor at the end of the chapter #and if he’s the bad guy #you know what that means #MY MAN DRIVE KNIGHT IS INNOCENT ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#LETS GOOOO #WHAT DID I SAYYY #acc half the time I was accusing him of being evil #and I still think he is tbh just cause metal knights evil doesn’t make drive knight innocent #but #one could dream #translation isn’t out so I could be wrong lmao #one punch man #opm

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theflyingfeeling · 5 months

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...😫

#so i called my landlord the other day about the cannabis smell #and he called the police to ask what to do when the smell comes in strong #and he was told that i should call the police (so basically the emergency number) when that happens #and they'd send the police to inspect the situation _while_ the smell is still strong #but i'm too much of a wussy because i'm scared they'll get angry at me for calling them about something like this 😭#because i made the mistake of reading some bulletin board discussions again and they were all like 'nah the police have better stuff to do'#and anyway now i've also started doubting myself because whenver the smell comes (which is still pretty much every single night)#i'm first like ewwwww that's definitely cannabis #but then when i try to brace myself for actually calling the police i'm like 'but what if it's not and i'm overreacting'#because the more i try to smell it to become 100% sure it's cannabis the more vague the smell becomes :S #i also already had a weird dream about the neighbour i think it is bullying me bc they somehow found out i had called the cops on them 😥#so yeah i guess i'll just move out instead :)#or sit in my apartment with all the doors closed every fucking night

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phantom-does-a-thing · 1 year

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uh. Cannibalism fic that I wrote in like an hour because I was encouraged.

#ough im normal about this #the idea of william in a muzzle is making me insane rn #I dont want to write anymore rn #and I know if I wait until the morning i would never finish this #this is a one time like I have the energy for this rn fic #but yeah. William in a muzzle #amybe at one point I would write more of everyones reaction to like hey wtf #bc I want Tide to see him in the muzzle and I want him to be mad and disappoiinted and angry at William and at the people keeping him #because they put William in a muzzle and they take the muzzle off and William wants it back on #because hes scared of doing it a gain. Scared of what the might imply. He wants the muzzle back on and he makes his own ebcause #he doesnt trust himself #rambling #phever dreams with phantom #my writing #phantom does a thing #phantom posting #jrwi fanfiction #jrwi #jrwi pd #cannibalism

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rottingcompost · 4 days

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Genuinely find it kinda hilarious how i hate stockholm so much as a city that the dreams that have bothered me the most lately is ones that involve me being there. Nothing even happens it just pisses me off so bad in the dreams. Last time it happened i was trying to get a train back home but they didnt ket me biy a ticket for my city, and i instead would have to go to the other slightly larger town in my county which is an hour and a half by car to my city, and i got mad because a store i went to in the dream only had chocolate covered nuts and knock off dr pepper for some reason. Even then i onoy had to speak to one stockholm person in that dream and that was honestly enough for me to almost lose my shit and rip them apart with my bare hands at the train station.

#ramblings #like okay i dont hate it that much #but i really dont like being there eother and its so big and its a maze and im scared of getting lost #its generally the way people there speak that i cant stand and most of the time the attitude of people living there that annoys me more #if i could erase one city from sweden it would be stockholm just because of how it invades my dreams and makes me angry lol

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pezpenser205 · 22 days

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3am monday morning mood

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stickbug-made-entirely-of-spite · 1 month

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I just woke up naturally at 07:30, why would the universe cast such misery upon me?

Now I'll be forced to stay awake for a whole day :']

The only thing I remember from tonight is that I had a dream where a wasp landed on my elbow, and it startled me awake 💀👌

I also remember that, while in this brief moment of dream-panic, I had enough time and care to contemplate whether it was a wasp or a bee.

It was fear.

#shitpost #dream #dreams #dreams are weird #Wasps are tiny angry plagues sent to torment me specifically #waking up #Shit scared me yo #someone put me out of my misery #Put me back to sleep #i beg of thee

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swagging-back-to · 1 month

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i had a nightmare i was in the zombie apocalypse with my sister and she decided to pull off to the side of the road and 'wait out' the hoard coming right to us to get high and completely dismissed me the whole time I was begging to just keep moving until we got eaten.

ive upgraded to literally having nightmares about the night she did that at the rave. bc she ACTUALLY did that btw. she fought me for a whole hour about leaving while a guy with a gun was tweaking out LOOKING FOR US and knew we were on that bridge.

#sister posting #she let me down so bad and proved herself so untrustworthy it even manifests in my dreams #literally sad.#i still see her stupid wide eyes giving me side eye when i was begging (irl) and just not even responding #btw i was over 2 hours away from my house in a city with no one to call and with no one i knew #at literally 1 am #and she was pulling this shit #literally get so scared when i even remember it #like i could not have chosen a worse person to go through that situation with #it makes me so angry to think about #esp bc i was LITERALLY just begging her to move from that spot and to go to a fast food parkinglot #yknow #a lit place with plenty of witnesses instead of a dark bridge right next to a dark ass park with 3 males walking around?#but no #she genuinely fucking refused only until her bladder was full and then she wanted to leave immediately #but the whole hour and a half i was begging clearly scared out of my mind she didnt do SHIT #no seriously i hate her #i hate her for this shit

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theloveinc · 4 months

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the ideas i'm having right now vs. my ability to express them and myself

#im the one in the toilet btw #i just have to be like this for a second i promise i'm not looking for anything and will likely delete this in the morning #but damnnnnn ... i guess to put it nicely (toward myself). i am not where i want to be with my writing at all right now #and i'm so FRUSTRATED #i reread something of mine the other day and i was just like. yuck. i hate myself.#and it's probs just a weird extension of this whole... dysphoria thing im going thru right now but #YEESH I WANT TO EVOLVE #i feel like a big fat caterpillar ready to become a butterfly but idk how the hell to make my cocoon #part of me thinks im in the cocoon but......... it's been a long *ss time in here if so lmao #anyway thats just to say i have two ... or three bomb *ss ideas that i just can't put on paper right #and im not really satisfied with the dabi thing either even tho. i really wanted to be #and it sucks bc all i wanna do is be on here BUT I'M SCARED #hence why my ask responses have been. ok i wont lie. nonexistent #but i think abt my ideas every day and then just fold them up and put them away bc i think if i wait they'll get better #AND THEY NEVER DOOOOOOO #arggggggggggggg its making me so angry #but that's all #hopefully i can write this idea out soon and be free #cuz thats my dream #among bettering my writing along with myself #but hehehe im probs just tired #sorry to be a downer!!! i go beddy bye now #caitie blabs #delete later

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cheekblush · 1 year

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just woke up from a horrible dream about my chemistry final tomorrow 😭

#it felt so REAL i woke up with my heart racing bc i was so scared 😭#immediately checked my phone bc i thought the exam is TODAY but no today is sunday the exam is tomorrow i need to calm down 😩#i took a break from studying yesterday & just relaxed the whole day & clearly my subconciousnes is now making me feel guilty for it 😞#i hate when my worst fears creep into my dreams like please let me sleep in peace i'm already anxious enough 😭#i genuinely was so scared the exam was today & i'm completely unprepared bc there's still so much i need to study 😭😭😭#in the dream i showed up to the exam & there was a delay bc they didn't print out enough copies but some students already got theirs #so i asked someone if i could look through their exam paper & i was absolutely mortified when i didn't know a single answer #so then i started to feel nauseous & talked to my teacher outside the classroom saying i was feeling unwell & he got PISSED #we always have to sign a paper right before the exam if we feel healthy/fit enough to participate #so i guess dream me thought if i told my teacher about it he would be understanding & let me leave but he got so angry 😭#he said he saw me flipping through the exam paper (which obviously isn't allowed) & that's the only reason i'm feeling unwell now #then i confessed that i didn't have much time to prepare for chemistry bc of all the other exams which made him even angrier #then he basically humiliated me in front of the entire class telling them i'm retracting my exam participation in a joking manner #he kept saying i have to repeat another year & making fun of me... i was crying so much in front of the entire class 😭#he wouldn't answer my questions anymore & then another teacher came & told me to leave & that's when i woke up in panic 😫#usually i never remember my dreams & i'd rather it stays that way instead of having such horrible dreams 😭😭😭#i hope this isn't a bad sign & that i'll manage the exam tomorrow.. i'm honestly so scared i just want to pass 😔#the dream was honestly so scary.. i could see my teacher's face SO CLEARLY & all the little mannerisms he always does...#like he always has to turn everything into a joke.... ugh this is so unsettling please please please let me pass this exam 😞#just a few weeks ago he gave us these really difficult questions for exam preparation & even our chemistry aces were struggling with them #when i asked if the exam will also be so difficult he just laughed 😭😭😭#he later clarified that the exam won't include such difficult questions but like why use them for exam preparation then????#everyone was so frustrated & discouraged after those questions #all the other teachers just revised all the study material with us & gave us questions that really prepared us for the exams #i'm seriously terrified of tomorrow now... i'm so scared i'll just be staring at the exam paper & not being able to answer anything 😭#okay let me calm down.... i wrote a whole essay in the tags 😭😭😭#☁️

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toonfinatic · 1 year

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Jesus christ i had a dream where i was in my childhood hometown and visited a random grocery store and there was a plush toy section. One of the plush toys was of Duck and it looked exactly like his puppet in the show but it was just his head. Literally his decapitated head. Wtf

#second dream ive had with dhmis character plush toys in it #i guess my brain has decided theyd be good marketable plushies.#i actually have dreams like this a lot. where i just find random merch in weird places. and many times its plushies #waiting for the day i have a dream where theres a plush of Red. then ill have the holy trifecta #dhmis #dont hug me im scared #i dont even know what to say. the cat plush yellow was kinda funny and cute so i drew him #but im not gonna draw this angry birds shaped plush of just ducks decapitated head!! no! fuckd up!!#i was thinking of buying him but then when i realized he was just a fucking head i just left him there......#irl it would make me want to buy him more. id put him on my wall like a hunters trophy

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vampireic · 7 months

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hello medical professionals why do i make up arguments in my head between me and my bf that always end up in us breaking up. why do i do that and why are they kind of realistic and why do they make sense and why won’t they stop????? i cant even think of us being cutesy and nice and lovey because it will spiral into an argument WHY DO I DO THAT PLEASE. how do i make them stop

#i literally get so angry i have to calm myself down and remind myself that it’s literally all in my head and it never happened like HELLO #like is this a sign????????? do i hate him????? i don’t. but like girl who is in my head hating him????#watch me come to the realization i’m a lesbian /j screams #i’ve been so scared of that too like what if i meet the woman of my dreams while my bf is gone……….. what if she makes me realize #like i don’t think i want that to happen but also i kind of do ???????????? i just want to know wtf is up with me and why i have so much->#animosity towards my bf……. am i not over what he did to me last year???? i really need to talk to him face to face #it’s not even about last year all that much but all the times he made me cry the first few months of dating. mf used to make me cry like ->#every other day…………. like damn wtf. i’m actually kind of processing that he really made me cry a lot #seeing him in december will help i think. give me clarity #i’ll ask my himbo friend for advice on monday or smth

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welldonekhushi · 1 year

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Why do I just feel tired of being so insecure about my art when I'm supposed to focus on myself?

I'm supposed to work on myself but every time I see everyone progressing I literally feel more regretful that if I had something better I would have been in the position where they belong to.

I understand there are many artists out there whom I can share my pain with and despite being talented they're so damn underrated and I'd like to give them all my love and appreciation. But how do you expect an artist to draw when all they get is nothing in result. I sound very salty but I'm sorry, I have to let this out.

This is a problem for every artist. The one who is on Tumblr for years and has been slowly trying to work hard on themselves and improve in their content so that people can engage in it, and the one who's been for months. I don't care how talented they are, but still they find a way to get noticed so quickly while drawing the content. Meanwhile the other artist who's been working through the same content for years and yet they don't get noticed. What's this unfair practice?

Slowly I realise I'm so damn stupid of venting the same thing again and again, when I've been feeling like this for a whole month trying to convince myself you're doing whatever you can. But what do you expect, when somebody says ".. why don't you draw anymore?" .. I'm scared to respond.

#tw: vent #i swear i'm feeling so done with myself #idk why but I literally want to cry #my confidence has gone to shambles ever since i'm so devoid of any inspiration #just because i'm so scared that people would just get to know about it and at least make me aware that yes.. you like my art #this is why many many artists just give up drawing for the same reason #if you can love big artists.. why not the small ones who also dream of being big like them?#we only want to feel accepted and not rejected #.. i shall stop being angry because this is all that pent up frustration inside me and I should let it out

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