#feel myself slipping

[k1nky-r0b0t-g1rl]

I can tell when you look me up and down and silently judge me for dressing fem.

I can tell when you talk to me less while I'm obviously dressed like a girl.

I can tell how much you hate me casually mentioning my being trans.

I can tell how much you wish this had never happened.

Voting against me isn't support.

Jokes about hating anyone like me isn't support.

Saying you support me but not "my ideology" isn't support.

Sometimes I wish you'd just disown me...

#amity's writing #lil vent as a treat #not in the mood for yearn writing today but still needed to write something #hope its not upsetting #kinda sick of it tbh #feel myself slipping

[riacte]

Brief crash course for HBomb94 (not Hbomberguy!) + Hermits for those unfamiliar with him:

H is a MCC player and the Sands of Time VOD reviewer. He’s a core member of the MCC community and he’s why players say “Hi HBomb” before SoT

H teams with the hermits frequently to the point it’s a meme: H collects the hermits (he’s teamed with most of the MCC hermits— False, Ren, Grian, Pearl, Cub, Gem, Scar, Impulse) and he gets adopted by the hermits

In MCC, he’s known for having the “H factor” which states his presence boosts his teammates’ scores. He’s a fantastic leader and he keeps the morale up.

H is in Iskall’s Vault Hunters series— this is probably his most direct link to HC. H was invited after Ren met him when they teamed in MCC9, so yeah, that’s part of the Blue Bats’ legacy.

H is a big fan of Hermitcraft and he’s watched many hermits before— there’s more of his fanboying in his watch of Grian’s HC7 world tour

H sometimes teams with hermits outside of MCC in various e-sports events, but most of the team ups are in MCC

H was the one who predicted False popping off in Dodgebolt back in August 2020 when they hadn’t met yet

H was the team leader for MCC9 Blue Bats (H, Fruitberries, False, Ren) and he truly believed in all of them as a team even though False and Ren had gotten 9th like three times in a row, and they had an amazing legendary underdog victory. Probably the best MCC hermit victory ever (but I’m obviously biased haha).

Since then, H has teamed with the hermits many times, and they’ve won multiple times (Blue9 with False and Ren, Aqua20 with Gem, Aqua29 with False and Cub)

He played in irl MCC Twitch Rivals with Scar, Gem and Impulse (and possibly met Tango there in person)

H is a huuuuuge fanboy of the hermits in general and he’s always so proud and happy to team with them. He’s like “IT’S ME AND MY HERMITS! :D”. He’s vocally supportive and encouraging of the hermits in MCC (even when they were underestimated and seen as cannon fodder).

While H is an honorary hermit, it’s a different way from, let’s say, Skizz, because H isn’t in the Life series / Empires, he’s not a builder / redstoner— he’s like the MCC / SoT guy. He’s beloved among the MCC hermits, and the hermits and H are enthusiastic about each other.

Sands of Time and Decked Out have been frequently compared to each other, Grian even mentioned to H at the end of MCC18 that he got his ravager dodging skills from Decked Out 1

H being on HC is very exciting not only because H is a big hermit fan, he’s also not on Life series / Empires like the rest of the guests, so he has less of a connection to Tango personally, but they still invited him ^_^

#hermitcraft #hbomb94 #feel free to correct / add anything #i had to stop myself from making this about blue9 but i think it slipped thru #decked out open day

[betweenblackberrybranches]

Trying out new pens is fun♡

#fnaf sun #sundrop #dca #daycare attendant #my art #i feel good about doing something traditional and inconsequential again #i love making small drawings like that #i need to be carefull i feel myself slipping into a creating content > making art that is really fun mindset again. #not that i dont like what i make but it stresses me out too much :( #im just a little guy i need to be more nice to myself

[womenstruation]

do you ever think about how crazy it is that we are told to ignore and never engage with feminism for fear that we are "groomed" aka so we remain blind to our oppression.

Before I knew what so called sex work was, i knew SWERFs were evil, before I understand what surrogacy was, I knew those women were just homophobic, conservative bigots and before I even understood why my sex wasn't just my sex, why being female meant i had to fill in this role i hated, i knew TERFs were mean, ugly, jealous fascists.

I was told to never engage with them, "block and report" was the mantra. I was told i had to repent if i ever did for fear i too would become the greatest threat to society: a woman who fights for herself.

#feminism #radfem #radical feminist #radical feminism #radblr #radfems please interact #radical feminist safe #radical feminists do interact #being on tumblr at a young age honestly brain washed me #going through block lists; filtering out tags #and if somehow a feminist post slipped through #an actually feminist one and i found myself agreeing #the guilt i would feel was suffocating

[beetroof]

i have watched Granada Holmes today for the first time - only The Read Headed League to be fair, because I just read it, but I absolutely adore the acting choices of Jeremy Brett so far, he has such a charm. Looking forward to more of it :)

#sherlock holmes #i feel myself slowly slipping into a new fascination #reading the complete sherlock holmes #granada holmes

[stuckinapril]

was driving back from my orgo lab today and said fuck it and just cruised around the city at night for like a solid hour while vibing to songs. it was such a nice fucking change from doing every single thing w purpose. i go to the library to study, i work out to keep my body fit and healthy, i monitor my diet to make sure i'm nourishing myself w only the best foods. sometimes i get so carried away that i have to pencil texting people into my schedule (i literally have to set reminders for this sometimes so people don't think i'm being neglectful when i'm legitimately just all over the place w so much going on). but today i drove around for me. i admired the city lights for me. i just wanted to exist for a second. to do something for no purpose other than self-indulgence. it really was so cathartic for me

#when was the last time i just drove around for fun?? it has been such a long time #it feels so uncomfortable indulging myself and just allowing myself to have fun #i try to be present but sometimes it feels so automatic. #i love everything i fill my time w but i need to stop myself from slipping into autopilot #i need to have more fun without feeling visceral guilt for it #was listening to chxrry22 btw #p

[spacebar2]

Various new and old drawings, I also made a revive Philza au where he dies instead of revivebur that I wanna look back into. Techno and Tommy are the ones getting wing hugs by the way (if you can't tell). :]

C! Not CC!, William Gold/ Wilbur Soot isn't supported!

#dsmp #c!wilbur #philza minecraft #space's silly art #man I need to revisit anatomy I can feel myself slipping sobs

[yonpote]

i think ppl saw 2019 to 2022-23 up until the gaming channel return as dan wanting to distance himself from the Dan And Phil branding? and i mean it's partly true, particularly in that dnp™️ were primarily for a teen audience (i know in spite of all the horniness but like tabinof was published with a children's book publisher) and dan wanted to include his much raunchier sense of humor as well as be "taken seriously" for things like his mental health book and the tv show stuff. but sometimes i think ppl saw that as dan like, de-valuing the impact of Dan And Phil when that couldn't be further from the truth ykwim? "the real ones? they know." like phil has always done his own thing alongside being part of Dan And Phil, but for dan, emotionally, he was still trying to establish his identity and not just like coming out as gay but just figuring out who the fuck he is! and once he found something he felt a true passion for, he went for it and is still going for it in his solo pursuits, but the gaming channel coming back as this BIG THING is still significant. i think part of the return (on dan's end) is like. fuck it man, if people aren't going to take him seriously either way, then they might as well have fun and be horny on their silly joint channel anyway

#sorry i keep slipping into dannie-isms i just really like bro :[ #and i relate to him a lot so thinking abt him being happy makes me feel like i can achieve that happiness #me becoming a dannie is actually just me learning to love and accept myself

[nyxaffixed]

I guess since people like my silly au ill try to actually write a fanfic for it. I dont know how im gonna corral my adhd that long, but ill try, because i have so many thoughts about this and it needs to written down before the machinations of my mind turn it to soup.

#wedding bells au #cult of the lamb #narilamb #please brain i dont ask you for much but stay with me for this #dont get distracted #i can already feel myself slipping #FOCUS

[sad-emo-dip-dye]

*sliding my clown shoes out from under the bed* alright guys next month is the Real chapter 108 sskk skk double feature rivalry lover showdown don’t worry it will happen

#it’s the middle of June and July is approaching #I feel myself slipping mentally #I’m so sure it will happen I can feel it in my jelly #bsd #bungo stray dogs #sskk #skk #bsd manga spoilers #bsd chapter 108

[shesunety]

It would be a total disaster if a virus disguised as a pink axolotl were to kidnap me to be his friend for eternity and source to learn from... Gosh, it would be a nightmare come to life! I would be totally unwilling to cooperate!

I totally do not find him endearing in any way and i totally do not desire to hold his hand! Or listen to his song repeatedly...

... I am totally not living in denial...

#kinito #kinitopet #ignore this #i feel myself... slipping

[cadaverousdecay]

i’m so overwhelmed by things that shouldn’t be overwhelming...

#among them‚ i’ve fallen behind on drscula dauly for the first time this year and it’s stressing me out cuz i really really wanted to keep up #this year that was the one goal i had for the year is keep up with it. last year i fell way behind when my brother died and it was so hard #catching up and the entry on the 30th was a little longer than they’ve been recently and i’ve been busy and also slipping back into depressi #on real bad and i’m just not in the mood for it and i feel like it’s just gonna snowball #and this is such a non issue. it’s a book. that i’ve read before. but still it’s just stressing me out. among other things #like library books that are overdue and i haven’t finished or journal entries i want to write or a letter i’ve been wanting so badly to writ #e and a short story idea that i wanted to write down but is escaping me and fucking. tumblr notifications #these are non issues!!! but it feels like there’s a timer for the world to end again all the same. #ugh #and i should be able to focus on one thing and get it done! these things shouldn’t be hard! they’re even meant to be enjoyable! but i can’t #get myself to do anything lately #and on top of all that i’m not able to fall asleep even with my sleep meds. #what even ever‚‚‚ #anyway sorry for the rant i’m basically fine

[reagomyeggo]

day -checks notes- 13 without imogen temult, i fear i am losing my sense of direction. i wonder these wastelands under a red moon, searching for some way to gain my bearings however i know there shall not be any reprieve for more days to come. i shall persevere if only to see the one with lavender locks once more, in nine days time. i will continue to report any findings i come across worth noting. for now i will do so sparingly, as to conserve energy.

#how is one to survive such a stretch of time without her source of purple-haired serotonin #i feel myself slipping into a delirious stupor the longer i move through the lands of marquet with no source of energy in sight #‘next thursday’ she mutters over and over. ‘i just have to make it to next thursday’ #you look upon this post and call me dramatic but nigh! i am without my lifeblood! #i am very obviously completely normal about her #critical role #c3 #imogen temult #cr c3 #laura bailey #imogen

[paigestrap]

SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT THE FUCK UP ARE U KIDDING ME i need to devour her

#uconn huskies #paige bueckers #uconn wbb #everyday i feel myself slipping closer to insanity #wlw

[wreckrinho]

voidball drawing himself

he feels like a zombie hehgkgvkc

#tawog #fandom #tawog gumball #tawog rob #tawog fanart #tawog au #rob tawog #au #fanart #the amazing world of gumball #rob wrecker #fanart gumball #gumball watterson #gumball #rob gumball #gumball rob #au gumball #gumball au #au tawog #tawog art #tawog roleswap au #roleswap #role swap #role swap au #tawog swap au #swap au #persona #oc #oc tawog #I feel myself slowly slipping into a state of insanity

[spaciebabie]

what if springtrap somehow had enough of his voice box intact to be able to sing to you. would that be crazy or what. his voice wouldn’t be the prettiest, but it would be dark and deep and gentle all at the same time. Imagine having a difficult time falling asleep, and although he’s insecure about his voice he’d sing you your favorite song to help you relax. Imagine if he lets you sit in his lap with him stroking your hair while you rest your head on his chest and nod off to the sound of his voice. Would that be bonkers or what lmao

what if oi strangled you., right now.

#STOP IT- #HOUUUUGH NO NOOOOOOO NOT THE DEEP VOICE ANYTHING BUT THE DEEP VOICE #I CAN FEEL MYSELF. SLIPPING #AAAAAAOOO #OH GOD #ANON WHAT HAVE YOU DONE #WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY WOULD YOU SAY THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #SINGING AS A FORM OF INTIMACY........YOU'RE CRAZY #spacie splains #IM GONNA VOMIT FOR ACTUALLY #save #what? nopony did anything