#feels weirdly IC

[amoderndreamletdown]

you never realize how much a band has shaped your life until you become nostalgic while listening to them

#it’s such a comforting feeling #fall out boy #as it is #set it off #mcr #my chemical romance #black veil brides #ice nine kills #weirdly enough #waterparks #the academy is #blink 182 #the brobecks #idkhow #green day #weezer #bowling for soup #linkin park #5sos #paramore

[flowercrowngods]

they tell you about school and they tell you about work and they tell you about taxes and responsibilities and ideals you have to reach. they don’t tell you about baking chocolate cookies from scratch at the ungodly hours of 11 at night and sitting on your kitchen floor while watching a home decor competition show while you get to munch on a cookie that tastes like the hot chocolate you used to make when you needed a reason to live as a teenager. they don’t tell you about getting to eat another cookie while you think about capturing this moment in a mason jar and shipping it through time to your younger self who gets scared so easily by school and work and taxes and responsibilities and ideals. your younger self who wonders if there’s still comfort, still good things, and if you get to claim them for yourself at some point or if comfort is always a question of dependence. they don’t tell you about that, when for years we do nothing but dream about moments like these

#i’m weirdly emo about these chocolate cookies i made from scratch. i’m not someone who bakes. this very much feels like magic to me #love #🤍 #but also it’s just so crazy how we all vividly remember thinking ‘when i grow up i can have as much ice cream as i want’ #like. what do you wanna be when you grow up? i wanna be someone who can make cookies for themself just because. #isn’t this it? isn’t this the dream?? and i didn’t even have an outstandingly good or bad day today it’s Just A Day. and now i have cookies #idk idk it’s my first time being alive okay?

[tennessoui]

You have to have water fic titles because you're drowning in wips, huh?

:0

(On one hand i personally found this very funny and I did do a little huff huff of genuine laughter—)

(On the other hand I did do a little quick calculation, and over the 2 years I’ve been writing in this niche of a fandom, I’ve published 60 fanfictions on ao3 and of that 60, 48 have been completed, which leaves me with 12 work in progress fics on ao3—OUT OF 60!!!!!! 12 fics out of 60 that are works in progress !!!!!

12 !!!!! Out of!!!!! 60!!!!!!!!!!)

#asks #obikin #80% is a damn good range !!! #and again i laughed at this ask #and I feel like the asker didn’t mean any harm or anything but s joke #and I laughed at the joke!! #I appreciated it 🤭 #but also I just feel like we’re getting weirdly insane and obligatory about wips #when I’m trying my fucking. best #I’m moving this next week #like 5 of my teeth hurt and I’m terrified of the dentist because they’ll ask more for so much up front #so everytime i drink ice water or even hot #soup it sucks #and not to speak for #others but also I’m side their metaphorical teeth hurt #I’m sure their Life is Life-ing #and I want 48/60 to be enough #cause I want to publish another fic tomorrow (a wip even!!) and have it be 48/61 #and have everyone be like chill about it. cause it’s #something I’m excited to post #idk #this ask tore me 50/50 as you can see through the tags 3 people read etc etc

[austerulous]

Okay, so this is less a plotting call and more of a general interaction call. Like this to let me know you’re interested in writing, plotting, asks, comfy with me sending you aesthetics that make me think of your muse, etc. All that jazz. ♡

#i've made a smidge of progress with ic stuff today #i was originally planning to work on a post bomb and then drop it all at once but that didn't come to fruition #i'm feeling super rusty for only being out of the game for a couple of weeks #and also weirdly anxious? #i'll be doing another follower clear-out this weekend #i plan to go hard on it because my count keeps going up and it isn't sustainable #not when i want to activately engage with all of my mutuals #this isn't a ' like this to stay moots ' post by the way #i'll be deciding that and there are a few factors to it #in meantime i'm really not keeping up with the dash or replying to dms #i'm still easing back into the swing of things #i hope you're all well ♡ #thanks so much to those of you that have beared with me #◈ — ooc; puffin speaks

[redhotarsenic]

FINALLY. AFTER 10,000 SLUTTY, SLUTTY YEARS. CEPHELIOS REFERENCE SHEET!!!!

#you ever get the passage of time so weirdly distorted that it feels like it’s been weeks but it’s only been two or three days? yeah. #anyway. she is very tall and very morally ambiguous. ‘the means justify the ends’ #space angel lady that can conjure ice cold fire #and when I say ‘she’ I actually mean ‘this is the closest human approximation to whatever her race’s concept of gender is’ #art fight #reference sheet #oc art #my oc #cephelios

[wr0ngwarp]

uhhhhh fuck it have a non-canon-compliant GTI munna design for fun. my beloved mentally ill nihilism girlboss

#pokemon mystery dungeon #gates to infinity #pmd gti #munna #pmd munna #pokemon mystery dungeon gates to infinity #some girls seek the apocalypse at their own expense to COPE /j #AUGH i need to replay gti. man #btw shoutout to munna for being one of the only characters in pmd who has definitely killed people #also i say in the image ''wont thaw or heal'' abt her ice scars but like #i feel maybe psmd era theyd start to actually heal and resemble regular scars... #not totally gone but the cold is no longer there yknow? #also side note but i ended up goig for a kind of more tapir-y look for her bc like #drawing on-model munna and musharna is weirdly difficult for me? #idk man its just easier for me to make pokemon look like actual creatures LMAO

[vizthedatum]

I am having perhaps the worst IC flare I’ve had since leaving my ex-spouse today.

And weirdly, I’ve been more productive than I thought I could be: did more lab work for my health today, went to work, had a work meeting, went grocery shopping and got flowers (!!), cleaned a little bit, ate (!! (It’s been hard to eat)), and made it to almost 5000 steps.

I’m lying down now.

My nervous system is also a lot more regulated. My most recent ex is so angry at me and called me a selfish traumatized insecure person.

I don’t think I’m upset at them necessarily nor am I too bothered. I feel really firm in my stance because I tried my best too. While being potentially pregnant.

There’s nothing I can do in this matter. I know that hurt was doled out from both sides.

I feel at peace about it even though it’s not ideal. I am still grieving but I know I need to focus on this potential pregnancy and also my own health in general.

I think I feel peace about it because… as long as I’m true to my own boundaries and how to protect myself, then I’ll be fine. I probably shouldn’t make any more emotional statements to them - it’s not productive or helpful anymore - we aren’t in a relationship so it’s moot point - and besides, we don’t see eye to eye.

#ic #interstitial cystitis #healing #neurodivergence #queer #self love #prose #heartbreak #feeling more regulated #in pain but okay weirdly #chronic pain #lying down

[penofdamocles]

I've been on top of 3 different mountains today and I think I would rate the 1 I'm on right now as 2nd in terms of overall experience and 2nd in comfort but 1st in view enjoyment. I'm definitely biased though, the stars came out a bit ago and I can enjoy being anywhere with a night sky this clear and bright. Though I guess that 'anywhere' tends to be out in the middle of nowhere, light pollution and all. That's alright, it's nice and quiet, I think I'll actually zap home and grab my magic guitar, I could make a pretty sick light show out here, maybe record it. Or I'm feeling alright enough that I might do a performance, if anyone wants to come out here to do that and stargaze. I feel fairly safe enough in my content's exposure in my circles to just kinda put the coords up; I'm nowhere special, on an Earth with nothing in particular, away from civilization, though I still politely ask nobody causes trouble outside this little spot.

[cliffsideview.txt]

#If argued with I'll ask a little less politely. #I should do some flying soon too. There's so much empty space. Lots of room for tricks. #Feels weirdly nostalgic out here. #No Strings (ic)

[mazojo]

I stand by my point that Kana is the best character in Oshi no Ko but y'all are just not ready for that conversation

#Kana with that one butterfly meme like "is this..... delusion? SKSKSKS #I love her so much kana supremacy she and Melt the best the only ones ever the Reston thin fucking ice #I've been re organizing my oohs no ko ss and I have many questions and no answers #what happened to Ruby's school friends?? did we just... wrote them off the plot? they were kinda cool #idk I hope all the tied ends get fixed in the end because Oshi no ko is a very weirdly paced story I still dont know how to feel about it #overall. like I dont dislike it or anything but its... weird. its a weird story #I love kana tho protect at all costs she has done no bad ill die on that hill #oshi no ko #kana #aqua

[dust-of-embers]

Just finished watching Stranger by the Shore, I feel like cackling.

All I’m imagining is Zen Wisteria telling Hanako that he’s a bottom so can he hurry up, it is priceless.

Jesus fuck this doesn’t feel like it should be a movie??? I’m gonna check if the manga was more episodic, I assume there was a manga, cuz Sakurako showing up really seemed like the beginning of an arc of the story that would involve 3-4 episodes… pacing people, pacing.

Also! What is it with gay anime with un-awkward voice acting and cat symbolism??? Sasaki to miyano and now this?! So many cats! Makes me wonder why A Whisker Away wasn’t gay, it could’ve been a commentary on gay anime cats (this is a joke)

Anyway, I’m gonna go rewatch Akagmi No Shirayukihime with that sex scene in mind and cackle some more!

#also ‘can we have sex tonig-‘ ‘no’ is such a hanako thing to say… #the lesbians were fun #I feel like their appearances were weirdly timed #once again #pacing! they seemed so much more like they’d show up sporadically during arcs to make sure emotional communication works #but i guess not #sakurako what in the fuck was that request #you ask you ex to kiss you in public in front of his new boyfriend?? what was going on in your head when you thought of that? #this anime was like if yuri on ice was about parental issues and being gay rather than figure skating and being gay #and also had weird pacing #Mio’s lack of understanding for subtleties is oh so very Viktor Nikivorov (I can’t remember how to spell his last name) #stranger by the shore #toilet bound hanako kun #jibaku shounen hanako kun #I feel like I should tag those #akagami no shirayukihime #and that

[boxwinebaddie]

Hello my dear I just wanna say that I am NEVER getting over how awkward and endearing Raven was on the Hate like (Marj voice) BLESS HIS LITTLE HEART our sweet boy oh my god and him meeting Curb was so incredibly perfect just UGH I love him sm

hello, my beautiful computer wife!

listen!!! LIST!!! EN!!! when i said Try Not To Fall in Love with Raven Challenge: Level Impossible i meant that!!! he is SOOOO CUTE

and i am not sure who read it ( or who wants to lmao ) regardless you will all be spared my screaming and i'll drop it under a readmore <333

( edit: i wrote so much i had a lot to say about hate!raven the loml )

i...could talk about offstage!raven for several days, months and hours.

like he is made entirely of boyfriend material and its 100% upcycled.

tbh, the concept of the hate is deeply funny to me because when it happened kyle was so stressed out like uGh!!! this is going to be the WORST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME like??? Why Me dude?!! ike broflovski, you are So lucky i love you enough to go on this hate with the DEVIL rn...please kill me with so many hammers. :////

and ravenstan was just like aaAAAAA EEEEE KENKENKEN IM GOIN ONA DATEDATEDATEEEEEE<333!! EEE!! :3 laughing smiling kicking his feet oh my goddddd like kyle dreaded it all week and stan was so nervous and Excited. i just Know he gushed all abt kyle to that old farmers market man for like 45 minutes and held up the line <333

also???? not kyle being like wOW I CANT BELIEVE THIS STUPID CELEBRITY ASSHOLE STOOD ME UP WHAT THE FUCK!!! DIE!!!

and it was deadass raven ripping his room up trying to find his airpods like AAAA WHAT THE FUC and just being like fuck im fuckin Late gotta gogogo!!! and just grabbed his stupid gaming headset and did like two shots out the door smh ( stan chronic late disorder smh )

got there almost crashed into a fire hydrant and freaked out, couldn't find parking, paced outside the door for like five minutes like idk idk i cant do this im gonna turn around and then being like n no i can do this u can do this!! ahdklhdsa called kenny bc he was having a stannic attack and almost threw up in the hallway from stress oh my god help

he is.....the luv of my life, truly. i would take multiple bullets 4 staven.

also i know this chapter was kind of chaotic and seems out of left field, but its REALLY important to the plot progression and the char development because up until this point, we have only seen ravenstan in public settings/around lots of people, lots of eyes on him and specifically through the jaded eyes of jersey kyle and his narrow perception of ravens character as a blown up celebrity.

BUT SURPRISE HES ACTUALLY JUST CUTE AND PATHETIC LIKE SKHDKHKSLD he is soft he is an Angel everything makes him cry its so unserious HE LITERALLY LOVES PLANTS SO MUCH i know he was rambling abt suzie and that whole time he was ohhhh god oh god shut up shut up stop talking about that u fucking Idiot!!! AAA

when he said ~scientific~ w/ the finger tip wiggle and his eyes sparkling w excitement i was crying baby!!! at least try and b cool!

meanwhile kyle was just like...uh google...HELP! what do you do when you are on a #hate with your arch nemesis, but he starts being really nice to you??? and looks like a small puppy with very big eyes when he smiles...and gets you a really dorky plant that reminds him of you...and you kind of want to throw up bc hes kInDA cuT e? EWEW

its the way kyle literally had no interest in him when he thought he was an arrogant confident celebrity d-hole but the SECOND he starts displaying stanley marsh boyfail behavior hes like ohhhhh my god....wait what the actual fuck why is he so LAME???? why did he make his finger into a gun and then shoot me and then almost fall and then say sorry and wink ...thats so...why is he kindaaaa...why do i kind of want to......whats hAPPENING TO ME??? HELP???? kILL ME

he got reverse rizzed fml kyle likes em pretty and pierced up and pouty and poetic and little pathetic what can i say...i respect that

okay, i got distracted this got really long??? BUT I WAS WAITING TO WRITE THAT PART WITH CURB BC ITS GONNA BE SOOOO ;-; <3

the way kyle was like haha Stupid hes gonna bite ur hand off!!! and curb was just like immediately in LUV with him and stan was holding him like a baby and singing to him in spanish and curb licked his nose... jersey was FKN shook like IS THERE ANYTHING U CANT DO

also idk if you guys caught curb in rm5 rub his face near the phone just listening to raven talk but...its serious CURB! LOVES! RAVEN!

that man is srsly just a mega fione bad at everything boy rockstar disney prince its his spanish speaking soft boy singer boy siren song... like he sings and all the little plants and animals swoon

...its also working on kyle...allegedly...hes fighting the raven bias dawn spawn allegaytions so hard...alexa play i wont say im in love

live laugh the ravesey hate and raven trying to b cool but accidentally actin a fool bc hes nErvoUs and it...working on kyle...too well tbh.

ANYWAYS I LOVE YOU, RILEY! THANK YOU FOR READING RM6 IN ALL ITS CHAOS AND CRINGE AND SUPPORTING THE DORKY AWKWARD BOY RAVEN AGENDA...HE IS...DOING HIS BEST...RIP.

-uncle nina, boyfail father

#thank you for sending this i love you #i am still feeling not good things about chapter six i feel like it was weird or weirdly recieved i think im just anxious #BUT YALL HAD TO SEE RAVEN NOT DOING HOT BOY THINGS AND ACCIDENTALLY DOING HOTTER BOY THINGS #OR SO SAYS JERSEY KYLE GETTING #RIZZEDBYRAVEN #TALKING ABOUT LOVE AND PLANTS AND RAMBLIN #UR HONOR THEYRE NOT ON A HATE ITS A LOVE #they dont know that but i know that #im sorry if you were attached to Cool Boy Raven #u can call him whatever u want but at the end of the day he is just Boy Fail Stan in tiny sexc skin tight lead singer boy pants #and hes really nervous he really wants it to go well he thinks its going so bad i love him oh my god hes like oh god he hates SUZY OH NO #he HATES me & kyle was like shut up and put my new stupid plant on the windowsill flower boy and was like sIR YES SIR #amazing...style world domination...pathetic puppy dog plant dad anxious punk rock angel ravenstan world domination #but literally bc i have never seen someone exhibit more bottom behavior...im sorry its just true im right argue w ur mom #also evil dictator jersey kyle developing a heart and sweating and the ice around his cold dead heart melting domination BUT! LITREALLY! #BC I LOVE BORED DETACHED ONE NIGHT STAND MANEATING THROWS BOYS OUT ON THE STREET AFTER HE SLEEPS W/ YOU TY U! NEXT! SEXY SUCCUBUS KYLE #legend and icon! take em out like trash new jersey! #but raven is is our eco king so...reduce reuse recycle baby ;) #ANYWAYS! BYE! IM DONE NOW SOMEONE TAKE THE KEYBOARD AWAY FROM ME

[bnyrbt]

had an idea recently to make one of those blogs like cluster-b-culture-is & others, probably using a phrase gimmick like "xyz culture is" or "that xyz moment when" but regardless of format the main point is a submission-based blog where people just share experiences with a particular disability & specifically the idea i had was to make one of these blogs based around the dimensional model of personality disorders outlined in DSM-V section III. i would probably call it "PDTS culture is" or something (personality disorder trait specified) & instead of "x disorder" people would submit things like "attention-seeking culture is" or "that restrictive affectivity moment" i.e. basing it around particular traits instead of the clusters of traits that personality disorders are, where not all traits are necessarily present in every person with the same disorder. so it would basically be for anyone who struggles with persistent identity or interpersonal issues to talk about their particular issues with more specific language

#sasha #pdts #personality disorder #cluster a #cluster b #cluster c #personality disorders #mental health #this post is sort of an interest check/request for feedback cuz i'm not sure exactly how i wanna structure it #i could go with a phrase-format thing like 'culture is' or 'tfw' but i could also just call it pd confessions or smth #& altho i run a couple culture-is blogs i honestly have some misgivings with that meme format #sometimes ppl take it weirdly seriously & get all prescriptive & end up feeling like fake bisexuals for not drinking iced coffee or smth #just some real creepy bs like. it is supposed to be lighthearted my love. you are a person in a demographic not a representative of a brand

[theultracharmingladynoire]

If I am being honest as much as I do want Ice adolescence, I... don't think it is actually going to come out at any point? We are receiving zero information on it and I just.

#yuri on ice #I am obviously very sad over it if I am being honest okay. but I do see why it isn't going to come out #ESPECIALLY considering the political situation in the world rn it is. yeah #please if anyone else wants to feel free to mourn with me👍 #I really really wish it didn't have to turn out this way but here we are now. I am sounding very pessimistic but I don't know anymore lol #scheduling this to some random ass day #I know I worded this very weirdly and sorry for that but I just am feeling kind of upset about this whole thing okay ESPECIALLY SINCE #That banger teaser had actually been released. We could've had it all but okay

[asinglesock]

had a Costco $1.50 hot dog and soda for the first time today and it was lifechanging

#a sock speaks #food tag #last time I went with H my food anxiety was acting up really badly and I barely got anything #much less go to the food court where they don't serve any food she'd eat #but today I just mentioned that I wanted to go to the food court while she checked out and simply did that. nobody stopped me #and nothing embarrassing happened expected that H was really surprised at how fast I ate (it was bc I was worried that I'd keep her waiting #I also got a dozen croissants that I'd wanted last time but H had said something about a different place having better croissants #but today I got them anyway! #and we went to Kroger and I got storebrand ice cream even though H always gets fancier ice cream! I like this and I'll eat it #and I'm going to try so hard to enjoy it and not be weirdly ashamed of myself #I did spend like $110 on food today which is the most I've ever spent on food in one day #but I'm buying necessities and treats and I'm going to be fed. not going hungry this month. #I love feeling like it's okay for me to take up space. I think some things are getting better <3

[turojo]

If being morally misaligned was bad why is it the only thing that makes him feel alive and give him purpose??

...Wait fuck he has to go face off against some absolutely feral Pokemon to impress a girl; this is school all over again.

#crack. » .004 ✦ #v. main #lvsamine #what first came was some long winded ic post about how he realized he has a hard time connecting to other people-- #and their expectations of him fitting into a predictable and safe norm that while good and healthy for not only him- #and people/region he almost caused eco disaster to .. he feels stunted like putting limits on things that can go so far even dangerously so #and maybe thats where his depression and apathy is from?? and not from years of packed trauma. solitude and ego that #cant discern reality from what he wants it to be? #and all his experiments in the name of science and it 'has no morality' is actually just misplaced creativity and intelligence #and a way to cope with something he cant understand no matter how head smart he is and its unfamiliar and hard #meanwhile futzing with space time and pushing limits till it breaks gives him the dopamine hit and 'purpose' hes comfy with #--but this is simpler/funnier gfdgfd. It came out weirdly written so back to the writing board. later post maybe

[desert-bluffs-and-me]

Disclaimer, I will not be answering bad faith shipping questions from antis/fanpol or similar. Even when you're on anon, the general vibe of your question is obvious. Please stop sending them, or if it's the same person stop spamming them. Honestly if you're preoccupied with what people may or may not be doing with Cecil and Kevin together or any of the kids of NV you might want to take a lil break.

#it's so annoying to see that 1 pop up and out be some weirdly charged question like that #and like I feel I'm being asked because I'm kin but the version of me people ship is another me #if i can separate the two you can separate this reality and fiction too #anon #ic asks