#financial means

[lightbluetown]

i hate that hbo max is only available in a small number of western countries but it is kinda amusing that the only way i can consume ofmd is through piracy

#ofmd #our flag means death #the one show i'd like to support financially grrrrrrrr #edit: check the rbs to find a great resource if you're in the same situation!! #🏴‍☠️

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[xdelouloux]

sometimes i really love being an adult bc like if i was 17 and asked my mom for 7.99 to support one website slam dunking another as it goes down in flames she would roll her eyes and tell me to save my money for better things but now that im 28 i have full autonomy over my money i can just. spend 7.99 because i think a joke is funny and it made me laugh

#also i love financially supporting tumblr bc that means we get to be weird here #tater talks

[bixels]

WIP I whipped up in class yesterday. We'll see how far Tulli and I get on this.

#wip #mlp #the grand galloping 20s #my art #personal #we're seriously considering opening a patreon so we can do more ambitious things like this for the au #supporters would get their names in the credits #financial support would mean we can do more stuff like this. paintings animations etc. #tulli helped w the bgs

[uncanny-tranny]

Your fears that you don't have a body that will transition "well" are, sure, understandable, but there isn't truly such thing as a body that's unworthy of transition. Perhaps your changing body won't suit everybody's taste, but would you rather live for yourself or for the whims of random people who don't care about your happiness as long as they're attracted to what they see?

Transition is for anybody who wants it. It's okay to be fearful. It's okay to be uncertain. But it isn't the end of the world. You are in control, and if you choose to transition to any capacity, it should be at your behest. You and your body are worthy of transition. I hope you are able to seize transition and do what you truly want for yourself.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #have been seeing a small resurgence in some trans spaces that there is such thing as an 'untransitional' body #there are people out there who cannot transition for medical/financial/social reasons but that isn't what people often mean #kill the person in your head that says you need to adhere to cishet standards. it's okay to be trans and *look* it if you want #transition because it makes you feel happy or fulfilled. transition because it is something *you* want #while yes it's complex because appearing trans can be dangerous i ultimately want people to have the freedom to make decisions solely... #...on what *they* want y'know? #i have seen this idea that some people just aren't 'able' to transition because they won't 'appear cis' for years now and it's heartbreaking #like i used the whole 'i don't look cis' against myself because it's impossible for me *to be* cis... #...i will never be non-trans. i will never not be a transsexual and i used to hate that about myself... #...because i was taught that being trans is bad. i was taught that looking trans is a curse that nobody should EVER inflict upon themselves #and that the goal was to essentially distance yourself as far away from transness as you can #and it's okay for people to not want to 'look' visibly trans. it's neutral. what was harmful was the idea that TRANS was bad #there's a huge difference between 'i don't want to be visibly trans' and 'i think being trans and looking it is bad'

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

ed 🤝 stede

going on a personal journey and bothering some poor fishermen about it

#“poor” as in financially but also they are victims of having to put up with ed and stede's bullshit #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2 #ofmd 2 #edward teach #ed teach #edward teach born on a beach #stede bonnet #stede fucking bonnet #gentlebeard #blackbonnet #s1e01 #s2e08 #txt #j #mine #og

[transjudas]

I love you.

#ofmd #ofmdedit #ofmdaily #ofmdsource #ofmdblog #ed teach #stede bonnet #edward teach #blackbonnet #gentlebeard #userkristi #usereena #userklou #alivedean #i think everyone who has giffed the against the wall scene should be financially compensated by djenkins #our flag means death

[senseearly]

One thing that I always think about post-dungeon recovery Mithrun who got home is that people were probably used to talking about him while he was still in the room.

Misiril's squad used to that when he was still in their care. Questions towards him were quickly redirected to others when he wouldn't (couldn't) answer their questions -- where was the rest of his squad? what happened to the demon? how did he even end up like this? Asking or talking to Mithrun is a pointless effort. So they stopped doing that.

And Mithrun, he's gotten used to this set-up, not like he could bring himself to care.

When his caretakers and visiting family started doing it, he continued to be apathetic to them (although, the numbness from this large, gaping hole in his chest makes him think that he used to care).

The caretakers would do their duties, but behind his back, they would probably gossip about Mithrun's chances of recovery. Others think there is still hope, a lot of them think this is going to be permanent. Which is good, at least to their business, because Mithrun's brother pays a lot to make sure he is alive. And Mithrun...is not in the state to do that himself. They at least try to whisper when they're around Mithrun, keep their voices low or mention him under an alias or a codename. But Mithrun knows they are talking about him. He is the elephant in the room.

His visiting family is less nice. They take one look at him and weep -- not out of worry, or pity, or sadness -- but of shame. There is no way they can show him to others anymore, they bemoan. There is no way he can represent himself as a member of the House of Kerensil, they cry. He's just like his brother! And, once upon a time, that comment would've hurt Mithrun, a stab right into his heart. But all he feels is a gaping numbness that cannot be filled (It used to be full, he can't help but think).

I wish he had died, someone from his family said while he was within earshot. And Mithrun, barely alive but still breathing, cannot bring himself to care.

The only person that I think would be delighted to see him alive, at least, is his brother. I can see him visiting Mithrun whenever he can (at least in elf time terms). Talking to him as if he can respond, asking him about things when Mithrun can't bring himself to answer. At some point, Mithrun's brother stopped talking to him when he visits; instead, he would just sit next to Mithrun and watch the birds and the flowers. He would drink tea and Mithrun would do nothing.

But once in a while, Mithrun's brother would tell him, I'm glad you came home, I'm glad you're still alive.

#and then when mithrun ends up going back to the canaries #mithrun #mithrun dungeon meshi #mithrun of the house of kerensil #one thing that i always think about is how mithrun's brother is one of the few people in mithrun's recovery support group #lke where tf was his parents #his friends?? #not to like villanize mithrun's family but the way they treat their eldest and not appear in mithrun's recovery scenes are telling #they honestly would be that type of person whod look at their own son who is disabled and think oh its so much better if he died #because they think being disabled means being unable to live #which is SO UNTRUE #mithrun's brother while not being physically there is so important to mithrun's recovery #not just financially but by just showing that he cares #evetually mithrun's support group would grow to include canaries + melini people but #i just keep thinking about mithrun's quote that they're lucky there are people who love them #it is so true #and it matters to me that he knows/realized that #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers

[oooocleo]

Is there even a site left to post art? Seriously here i really like posting my artwork and creating a safe community why this app decides to follow down the rabbit hole of A! and ruin everything?

I want to be more hopeful that it won't last and get sued those who illegally use our pieces. :/

i think anything being posted publicly (bar perhaps on very niche places no one else will find u either) is probably getting scraped, which is supported by the kind of weak 'We Will Try To Stop Unauthorized Data Trawlers' lines we get fed - even sites that have explicit anti-AI stances like Pillowfort can't promise that ur images are fully protected

i'd assume paywalled sites like patreon/subscribestar offer a smidge of protection just bc the ai people don't want income to flow anywhere else than their own pockets? as for lawsuits, ye, i hope they tread on the toes of some other shitty corporation with an interest in protecting their intellectual property since they have the $ to throw at this problem

when all the platforms we post to are owned by corporations that are only interested in shortsighted financial gain/dont need to respect their userbase, this type of behaviour is to be expected... as i mentioned previously though, i have hope that the bubble will burst like it did w/ nfts, that people will realize theyre swallowing shit and it turns out not to be as profitable as the profiteers hoped (at which point theyll turn to the next exploitative grift)

#cleo talks #margaretkart #the whole ai debacle unfortunately contributes to a general downward arc in quality of media #but tbh.. im fortunate to not have to rely on financially motivated corporations for my livelihood #(private clients are often more generous than say wotc lol) #so im sad about the state of the world but at least theres that #look to individuals and smaller communities #and Begging ppl to put their money where their mouth is #just bc boring ass Marvel is using AI doesnt mean there isn't still incredible creative work to find elsewhere

[magnetothemagnificent]

Non-ADHD and non-autistic disabled people whose only idea of ADHD and autistic people is shaped by media depictions of a nerdy white boy or a quirky goth girl with low support needs: "Yeah ADHD and autism are destigmatized and we should ignore people with ADHD and autism in favor of real disabilities. I am very smart and progressive."

Lateral prejudice towards other disabled people will get us nowhere.

#actually disabled #ableism #lateral ableism #autistic people face disproportional police violence #especially if they're not white #I know people who have been severely hurt socially financially and mentally because of their adhd and/or autism #there's a literal anti-vax movement of people who think autism is worse than polio and measles and shit #adhd and autism are not destigmatized #just because a handfull of privileged adhd and/or autistic people managed to succeed and mask very well #doesn't mean that's the majority of the adhd and/or autistic experience #there's a reason autism was classed as a schizophrenic disorder for a long time #because the outward symptoms of autism and schizophrenia can be very similar #parents of adhd and autistic kids talk openly about wanting to murder their children and some even succeed in doing so #and people sympathize with them #autism and adhd can manifest in auditory processing disorders and communication disorders #which to a non-professional appear indistinguishable from physical hearing impairements and neurological disabilities #adhd symptoms can be so similar to brain cancer that I know someone who died because his cancer was caught so late #actually autistic

[theteethofgod]

a prominent queer film theorist was called out for plagiarism, faked his suicide, and was discovered to be alive because he posted nudes on an alt acc. yet I’m the one with imposter syndrome.

#shout out to james ‘im the only gay in film studies’ somerton #i hate you terribly #to be clear i mean prominent in terms of sheer reach and financial gain. bro has contributed nothing to the field

[marzipanandminutiae]

one hard part about being a single thirtysomething who wants kids is that you want everything to have happened five years ago

dating? getting to know someone? building up a relationship from square one? torture when you're already on "I want to be someone's wife and have a baby" in terms of life stages

if I had my way- and please nobody take this in a tradwife sense; I'm a left-wing lesbian who loves her career field -I'd be married and pregnant with my first child right now. instead I'm almost 31 and facing down two years, MINIMUM, of dating someone before I can even think about that sort of thing. and that's IF I get into a relationship like tomorrow, which is unlikely

"there's no hurry" okay and I get that, but my mother had me at 39 and now I'm having to think about all the attendant issues of parents in their 70s a decade or more earlier than most people. AND my parents are relatively healthy. what if I or my future wife aren't so lucky? can I saddle a hypothetical child with that in their early 30s or sooner?

I just. can I get a time machine or a soulmate AU over here, please?

#personal #dating #millennial #realistically I'd probably adopt a somewhat older child if it got too far down the line without marriage and financial stability happening #(when possible I mean) #it's not totally hopeless and I know that #but. hnnnng. I'm impatient.

[sometiktoksarevalid]

#cc #art #marketability #art advice #i feel like this can relate to writers too #there are niche markets for both writing and visual art #and “write/draw for yourself and you'll eventually find your audience” can be good advice #but that audience can take a while to find you #and if you don't have financial support (spouse or other family who can handle bills while you write/draw/paint) #you don't always have that time needed to find the audience for your passion projects #and even if you do find them it doesn't mean that audience will be big enough to support you enough to pay your bills #“we need more weird art!” artists need to be able to pay their bills first bcoz weird art doesn't always pay

[thirdactkerfuffle]

Thinking about that scene towards the end of Persuasion, when Mrs. Croft is talking to Mrs. Musgrove about engagements, and how "very unsafe and unwise" it is to get engaged if you have absolutely no time frame on when you'll have the financial means to be married.

And it happens within earshot of Captain Wentworth, who's spent 8 entire years feeling salty with Anne because she dared listen to a parental figure tell her that exact same thing.

His quick lil peek around at Anne, to see if she's also hearing his own sister unknowingly call his earlier point of view idiotic, is pure gold.

#he could've proposed after he had the financial means to marry #and she would've said yes #but he's got enough pride to give the elliots a run for their money #persuasion #books #jane austen #captain wentworth #anne elliot

[gonkaccino]

#hacks hbo #hacks #ava daniels #funniest way to fumble christina hendricks #if only she was aware that despite being financially successful ava is still a bigger loser than the average broke service worker #maybe then we would've gotten ava compromising even more of her morals for hot mean women

[spoiledlucky]

What's up loser? Afraid you'll relapse tonight? You should be.

#cash domme #financial drain #findxm #gooner #paypigg #finbrat #finslut #findomm #financial dominance #tig ol bitties #mean domme #curvy domme #curvy body #pathetic loser #loser humiliation #beta boi #greedy giant #spoiled #SpoiledLucky #goddess worship