#god if you exist out there

[complementary-oxymorons]

it would be nice to have testosterone it would be nice to have the drive to work on the things i dont want to do it would be nice to be able to be nonbinary without forcing myself to be uber-masc it would be nice to learn to trust people it would be nice to be better at art it would be nice to learn to accessorise and dress nicely it would be nice to stop existing

#clemont babbles #negative shit #why do academics always send me into such an awful spiral? what the fuck is wrong with me #im no fucking boy genius im always a borderline disappointment #halfway there but never making it and yet everyone seems to see the smoke and mirror of wasted potential #i hate school so much but i need it to get a better job but why get a better job when i have nothing to live for #no partner; no one in their right mind would ever want me like that #my love is mine to give and i give it to my friends #and even then it literally took 3 maybe 5 years for me to be comfortable with rey #and for kade it's like 5 maybe 6 #'social skills are pretty important' trust me mr wong i know #but why would i ever let people in when i dont trust their political standings and dont know how acceptable my existence is to them #god if you exist out there #why did you not grant me the courage to die in 2012 #thirteen wasted years; two of them in a ''''depressed'''' haze #my discords so populated with unfinished plans and fickle step by steps #i should buy a ticket to see kade at least once in my life before i disappear

[the-kipsabian]

saw a take so fucking rancid on twitter i almost deleted the entire app from my phone jesus fucking christ

first of all ao3 is an archive site. this is like going to the library and saying "oh i dont like this" on every piece of media you find that you dislike and thinking they should be stamped with some sort of a marker just cause you didnt like it

you can always click back and leave. fic writers owe you nothing to explain themselves and their creations. if they have mistagged or miscategorized fics, then i understand, however there are report tools for that instead of yelling at the artist tbh

im not saying free works arent necessarily above criticism. but this is just. fucking wild. its common courtesy to just enjoy stuff (or fucking leave if you dont, the back button is free) and if the artist specifically asks for critiques, then give one - constructive that is, shitting all over someones work is not proper criticism, mind you

i just find it fucking wild people are treating art and archive sites as social media these days like this and everything needs to be policed and ~catered to the algorithm~ like. no. ao3 doesnt have an algorithm. you should be able to fucking tell what you like and what you dont like and steer away from that kind of content and let people fucking be with their art. they dont owe you anything (except trigger warnings i'd argue, but i know some people disagree with that as well for some reason), and imagine how much more energy you'd have if you only engaged with things you liked and spent time looking at instead of going to places where you dont enjoy yourself. let alone spending time telling other people you dont enjoy what they enjoy. what a fucking life

#like what the fuck #where is the common courtesy of fandoms these days im just fucking asking. its ridiculous #the back button is free. shutting your fucking mouth is free. constructive criticism when people ask for it is nice but only then #these are fucking basic level fandom engagement things #am i old or are people just this fucking awful now that these guidelines dont exist anymore #im just. ough #sorry i had to get this out. idk as someone who has never left unsolicited advice for anyone and never gotten it back it just #it fucking grinds me that people are like this now. like fucking wow #ive been here for almost two decades soon and i still know how to behave. yall better fucking learn #im gonna go back to video game sorry i really needed to yell for a hot fucking second #if you choose to reblog this dont fucking clown on it okay. god #night is an absolute mess on main

[kitamars]

so kiss me and smile for me

#AND YOU THOUGHT I COULDN’T DRAW FLUFF #god. #i need to draw them in love to balance out the angst of their sheer existence #they’re everything to me #love them sm #vash #vash the stampede #wolfwood #nicholas d. wolfwood #vash x wolfwood #vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #ok bye

[fumifooms]

Kaka compilation

Because everyone is sleeping on him. Witness his greatness!! First two Kaka colored icons were colored by me, lineart by Ryoko Kui though!

Kaka & Kiki are kinda like Laios & Falin… Kaka being stoic and giving repressed energy like early Laios, Kiki being cryptic and always smiling and kinda soft-looking. Autism siblings 2, ostracized and othered as kids and have a deep bond due to sticking together through it all, though unlike with Laios their parents are very loving so Kaka developed family as a big value more than Laios (bc asides for Falin Laios doesn’t care much about it).

In the gnome festival comic you can see Kaka is more emotive than he seems! Full with a :3 face, and he’s the one crying at the end. He’s insecure about his legs and being tall… It really got to him. Conceal don’t feel. In the gnome festival comic you also see him sensing others’ gaze on him and that something is off unlike Kiki, again Laios-like in the way that judgement from others gets to him more than her.

#The twins are so autistic swag #A falin just as chilled out and smiling and a laios who never stopped repressing #They’re so neurodivergent and they’re allowed to just exist I love you Kui. Kaka is just literally me #I looove characters that are hard to know and hard to read/easily misunderstood. They’re my favorite thing #LOOK AT THE WAY HE SMILES THE WAY HE BLUSHESSS HE’S PERFECT and I would take a harpoon to the chest for him thank u #I do love Kiki too btw but I’ve been seeing her in fancontent and posts way more than Kaka so I had to give him some spotlight #But also Laios is my fave of the Toudens so this very much checks out #Their pre-Flokes story would be interesting to analyze too #Dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #kaka floke #Kaka #Kiki and kaka #floke twins #As you may guess from my new-ish icon I am in my kaka era #ALSO I SWEAR TO GOD STOP BEING MEAN ABOUT HIS NAME #KA IS A SYLLABLE IN MY IRL NAME. YES I WAS BULLIED AND CALLED KAKA AS A KID. MY NAME ALSO MEANS UGLY STUFF IN A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE #KAKA’S A PRETTY NAME I’LL DIE ON THIS HILL. IT’S NOT WEIRD IF YOU DON’T MAKE IT WEIRD #Oh also another laios falin parallel: they both sort-of-date the same woman

[junotter]

All the jokes about Ken and horses are good but I just wanna say it's such a good parallel to how actual young men get swept into misogyny and the patriarchy.

Like they're told to believe it means men get to be cool and manly and have this power but with that comes extremely rigid commands of what they can be as a man and a cycle of self hatred for never matching those gender roles perfectly. Patriarchy tells men that if they just do exactly what is expected of them, then they get all the "cool stuff" that comes with. That doesn't work though when there's only a small group that actually gets that power, but men will keep trying to fit into those roles in hopes that they can.

In the end there are no horses or the myth men are told, it's just endless cycles of self hatred and ingroup fighting.

#barbie #barbie movie #barbie spoilers #ig #ive got a lot more on how barbie looks at feminism and the patriarchy cause god they did it #not to say there isnt faults such as very little conversation about intersectionality #but i can also understand the impossible task of talking about EVERYTHING in one movie #not everyone will be happy and thats fine #anyway i think something barbie did really well is fight this battle of both wanting so deeply to love (romantically or not) men but also #not dismissing the fact its mens job to solve their problems themselves #that even if women need to be the front runners of breaking the patriarchy men cannot rely on them to solve their own problems completely #also just god im so glad this wasnt a girl boss slay movie #women deserve respect and love and life regardless of accomplishment #we should not have to be ceos and presidents and world problem solvers to gain equality #i can also understand if nonbinary people feel left out/disconnected from the movie #but as always gender abolition and acknowledging the gender binary (ie the one societially impossed) go hand and hand 👍 #just incase cause idfk terfs dni the barbie movie is not for you #barbie literally states constantly that her gender has nothing to do with (non existent) genitals so f off

[suburbanbonfire]

me as an intermission sports reporter: hey so like what the fuck

#what happened out there #can you tell me in simple words what the fuck im looking at #ouughhghhhhhhhhh didnt even watch overtime i knew where we were heading #gonna lie on the floor with my cat #while i question the existence of god and he tries to figure out what a washing machine is #we are the same #rambles

[ganondoodle]

me: finally im able to cope with how much i hate totk and can fuel that energy into other things :)

nintendy: the shiekah tech just dissappeared and no one knows why or cares enough to investigate it lol. lmao. its gone bc the calamity is gone or something even tho it literally isnt bc ganondorf is right there haha lol, stop asking, why do you care. just forget it existed and look at that sexy goatman and glue instead!! glue! isnt that wild?? also its totally a direct, 100% same universe and exact same characters, despite them act totally out of character, sequel to botw-

#ganondoodles talks #ganondoodles rants #zelda #totk #im just fucking!!!! at my limit!!!! #what the fuck do you mean #the calamity is the equivalent of ganondorfs farts trying to wake himself up and you say lololo is gone so the techs gone #then why do some parts still exist huh??????? #fuyking clowns #all the threads leading organically into another game WOOOP NOPE CUT THEM ALL WE DIDNT MEAN TO GIVE IT MEANING LOL #what is ancient energy and whys there a big concetration under these regions including hyrule castle? oh my god is it bc gan is there an- #NOPE forget we ever said that haha lol lmao even #can you really blame me for feeling like im being laughed at #like totk is mocking me bc i care about botw and thought theyd take up the interesting things they set up in it to expand upon??? #and no instead they backpedal like oh no we accidentally made it seem interesting quick get the iron out we need to FLATTEN this bitch #and they keep making it WORSE by insisting that its totally 1000% a direct sequel #just fucking say its some alternative bullshit again #i am begging them to let soemone else direct the next game #bc when the guy makes accidentally good lore he needs to immedaitely flatten all the good stuff when it comes to a sequel apparently

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Feeling Fruity

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#Poorly drawn MDZS #MDZS #wei wuxian #lan wangji #jiang cheng #Almost didn't upload this one tbh but it does make for good narrative flow so... #Two handsome men out of a group of three? You have evoked the primadonna girl that slumbers in the hearts of all teen boys #wwx really said 'I think LZ's the kind of handsome fellow to be able to get free fruit' and 'JC could *never*' #wwx's efforts to befriend lwj with fruit might not have worked on him #but full disclosure; *I* could have my friendship bought with fruit #My god. I would do anything for someone if they handed me a nice mandarin orange #wwx's flirting is *so* interesting b/c it really is just flirting to flirt (and maybe charm his way into getting free stuff) #His Ideal date is that he just hangs out and flirts with a cute girl with absolutely no intentions to do anything past that #Shout out to the aro and/or ace people out there who like to flirt! We exist! #Poor poor lwj...you have fallen for someone who is not gonna see you that way for a long time

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 119

Another divine twitch chat Au? Another divine twitch chat Au. With a bit of a twist. 

Billy would like to say it is in fact not his fault. It’s really not. Who hits someone with magic they obviously don’t know how to use? Well okay maybe he had done that before, but it’s not like he ever did it around other people where they could get hit! 

But someone was an idiot and now he’s here, as his normal ten-year old self kicking his legs while sitting in the Watchtower as the others argued. Apparently the League thinks he’s been de-aged, which is good as his secret isn’t out. 

The uh, issue is that something about the spell might have um, partially manifested the gods- or as he called them the Mediterranean Magic Men, if only because of how annoyed it made Zeus. Now everyone can see the chat that’s usually only visible to him and apparently it’s concerning. 

He doesn’t see how it’s an issue, Zeus has been silenced for the next hour and Hercules has been dying of laughter for the last three. Oh, wait, it might be from Mercury’s constant attempted flirting with Flash. …Or the fact they’re trying to convince him to commit a crime and he’s honestly down for doing so seeing as he’s a homeless ten year old who is down for getting clairvoyance and super speed for the next thirty minutes in exchange…

#prompts #dc #dcu #divine twitch chat #Billy has gone past panicking and is just *yep this might as well happen* #The MMM have somehow convinced half the league that Marvel was made from their magic and mortal blood a couple years ago exactly #“Why yes this is their funky magic creation child isn't he great we're still trying to get him to curse someone but he's still just a baby” #The league are all sobbing and freaking out because wtf why is Marvel now a- wait he came into existence 10 years old #What do you mean No please explain #Oh god the gods are ignoring them and bothering the poor baby marvel- #M-marvel why are you listening to them- DO NOT GO BACK TO EARTH JUST TO KICK A COP #SOMEBODY GRAB THE MINI MARVEL #How did this feral gremlin become Marvel?! #The MMM: Ah yes we're raising him so well look at how they grow :) #captain marvel #shazam #justice league #mediterranean magic men #Whenever the MMM talk or do something they're partially visible like colored ghost-mists lol #It's all over once they realize they can interact with the world again #Time to pick up their funky lil dude and go on a run through the watchtower #The champion of magic has to be pure of heart to deal with the gods' shenanigans

[starry-bi-sky]

I'm having incoherent thoughts about clone danny again from the clone/clone^2 au (when am I not?) but more specifically I'm thinking about his reaction to finding out he's a clone. The standalone clone au digs into that a little more than clone^2, which is more focused on Danny and Damian's relationship. But neither (so far) really get into Danny's issues about finding out he's a clone after 15 years of thinking he wasn't.

Because he resents his parents for not telling him for so long. He resents the way he found out; through a trivial school project rather than a sit-down talk. He resents the fact that, apparently, they had meant to tell him sooner. But forgot. He resents the fact that they never told him because finding out feels like something was stolen from him when it had the chance to not be.

Danny Fenton, just fifteen, cloned not even half a year ago, knows what that personal violation of autonomy feels like. He knows what it's like to be cloned and while he loves Ellie, he does, she's his sister, and in this au his twin. But he is still left with that feeling of unsafety after realizing he'd been cloned. Being cloned is violating. The onset realization that it's so easy to get DNA without the other party noticing, and that what was stopping someone from trying to clone him again?

Followed only after with the rest of the inexplainable mix of feelings of being cloned, the rest of that inner conflict and panic that's an ugly mocktail of emotions that range from horror to fear. Trying to imagine what it's like to be cloned from the cloned party, and I imagine that it leaves you with the feeling of needing to crawl out of your own skin with discomfort.

And then he gets put on the other side of it. Danny Fenton, only fifteen, was cloned not even half a year ago, finding out he is a clone. And reactions, I imagine, can vary from person to person. But to him, it feels like something got stolen from him, like someone took a hole puncher and stuck it right into his chest and stole a chunk of himself from him.

It changes nothing about him and yet it changes everything. It's a betrayal on it's own to just find out he was a clone and they didn't tell him for fifteen years -- it shouldn't mean anything, because he's still Danny, and yet it means everything. It's him, it's him, it's about him. It's his personhood. It's about the fact that a load-bearing rock in his identity just crumbled beneath his feet and now there's a rockslide.

Because then he finds out that they used the wrong DNA. Its like pouring salt in an open wound. He's not even related to his parents or his sister, when for years he thought he was. It's the fact that pieces of his identity that he's been so secure in for so long just got ripped away from him in an instant. Then they tell him -- only through his own horrified prompting -- that the person whose DNA they used -- Bruce Wayne -- didn't even know he existed. That they accidentally used the wrong DNA, then didn't tell the person whose DNA they used.

The betrayal of being lied to for years turns really quickly into horror at his own existence. Something very similar to the horror he felt at being cloned and the skin-crawling discomfort that made him feel like his own skin wasn't really his. And then its not. It's actually not. Nothing but his own name feels like it belongs to him anymore -- not his hair, not his eyes, not his heart or his lungs, nothing feels like his anymore and he didn't know what that felt like until it was gone.

It's a question of Nature Vs. Nurture -- where does the line of "nature" begin and where does the line of "nurture" end? What of him is actually his? What of him is Bruce Wayne's? It's not logical, it's not supposed to be. It's a load-bearing wall on the house of his identity being destroyed and now everything else is caving down in on him. What belongs to Danny, what belongs to Bruce Wayne?

#dpxdc #dp x dc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc crossover #dpdc #clone^2 #danny fenton is a clone #its a combination 'oh my god i've been cloned too i know how violating that feels holy fuck' empathy and also the horror of finding out tha #the things you knew about yourself that you thought were unchanging was all WRONG. #its the fact that tragedy is always one step away from comedy. they're twins for a reason. the humor of finding out you're a clone through #a silly school project and the *horror* of finding out you're a clone from a silly school project instead of a proper conversation #danny goes into his room after he's done talking to his parents and he vomits into the garbage can under his desk. utterly horrified #and he calls sam and tucker crying. it shouldn't change anything he knows this and yet it changes EVERYTHING. he doesn't feel like himself #he doesnt feel like himself any*more.* this might be cause for him to do a closet overhaul. something to make himself feel like he's #in control of himself again. piercings. temporary hair dye. *something* to feel like he's in control. #its no wonder why he never wants to tell bruce wayne he exists because he *knows* how violating that feels and he's *afraid.* #it makes him takinh in damian a little more remarkable bc it undoubtedly made #his identity issues worse. but thats a child and a child who needs help and danny is *kind*

[pawprintsonpavements]

My absolute most favorite nimona scene is ambrosius' little outburst in his head in the ufo plane thingy when the director asks him what's wrong

Because here's this dude, descendant of Gloreth, protector of the kingdom who has been basically brainwashed to do whatever it takes to protect his kingdom from any sort of "threat". We see it in the arm chopping scene, we see it when bal is standing in front of him, pleading him to trust him and ambrosius points his sword at bal and then they have that fight-

And yet, in the middle of this whole kingdom wide crisis this little baby is worried about what? About the fact that Bal has a new best friend and that aRM CHOPPING IS NOT A LOVE LANGUAGE.

I love his priorities

I love how completely crazy he's going over this in his head

I love the way the tempo of the scene slowly increases till ambrosius is screaming and then abruptly cuts back to reality

And I love love love how much Ambrosius loves Ballister.

Also special mention to the scene where right after ambrosius points his sword at bal he goes "you wanna know what she is?" And he and nimona are just so in sync it's beautiful that scene

Also special mention no. 2 to the scene where bal is standing over ambrosius with his sword and ambrosius goes "go ahead kill me too" and bal just goes "if you really think I'd do that then you don't really know me at all" because my hEART.

#the director didnt think twice before stabbing ambrosius tho #god i have to stop talking about this movie #its killing me #i love you guys for putting up with this #ambrosius goldenloin #ballister boldheart #ballister blackheart #ballister x ambrosius #netflix nimona #nimona #goldenheart #also sidenote #can you imagine how happy historians would be #to find out that nimona exists #like they'd get so excited

[meimoons-arts]

Fanart of Asha (Wish) and Star (human form)

"At All Costs"

#asha x star #yes i know starboy is a concept that never came into the movie #but LISTEN i WANTED him so badly #my own headcanon where Asha and Starboy are singing to “At All Costs” to each other #i mourn that this doesn't exists in the real movie #disney wish #wish 2023 #oh god i spent so long on this painting #i had to get this out of my mind tho #please ignore the hands i couldn't draw them right after so many times and gave up but you get the idea #they’re dancing in midair #wish asha #starboy

[queerprayers]

i want to say first of all that i fully respect a community's/denomination's/culture's right to have closed practices. i am not entitled to other people's traditions, and when i am a guest in a space i understand that everything is not automatically for me. and i know i do not have to understand to respect.

and also! when i go to a catholic church and can't receive communion i want to fall on the floor weeping. what do you mean i can't have him he's right there. sorry my baptism was the wrong kind of baptism. i'm hungry and you want me to become someone else before being fed.

#lutheran alert but will NEVER understand closed communion. i respect it. but i do not get it #none of us will ever be holy enough to hold jesus within us but we do every day anyway. and so we are #communion is what brings me to god. to put a barrier of entry on that. to say you have to believe certain things or be in a certain state? #idk it doesn't sit right with me. #again i respect it i have catholic family ik the beliefs/history/good intentions. #but i need to come out as an open communion fan #roman catholicism didn't exist yet at the last supper. jesus said do this in remembrance of me. #everyone who does this has already fulfilled the requirements to be present at the table #i think that was the only hard part of my grandfather's conversion. that he could break bread for me at the altar but couldn't give it to m #i would give anything to watch him preach one more time (he's retired/sick now) #but more than that i would give anything to be fed by him again. to eat with him as our lord commanded #just once. #i will have to be satisfied with the foretastes of the feasts to come that i have received from/with him. we'll have that again

[nem0-nee]

[ CIRCUS MUSIC BLARING IN THE DISTANCE ]

Doodles of the incoming clown- Coming soon to a dumpster near you!!

#twst oc #twst #twisted wonderland oc #twisted wonderland #nemo #lilia vanrouge #malleus draconia #twst yuu #twst grim #my art heh #[rambling yet again ->] #imsorry for neglecting mayuu + her interaction asks BUT HEAR ME OUT- #i needed to fulfill a finding nemo joke /jkjkjk #lets see how long this lasts as a self insert till i make another one.... #but god im so ready to gush about this silly little goober #id say this is the most accurate sona i have so far?!!? #mayuu was too serious and tragic... i'm not that rigid i swear ;v; #but nemo?!?! you can fit the big sad and still have silliness exist #she may look like a joke character #but i swear this girlie has L A Y E R S #but yeah last doodle post for now bc I'm becoming life's stressball #will b opening interactions again after i go through half of my hellish inbox #but if you want a quick response... just hit me with a dm (i promise to reply and not bite) #anyways adios amigos

[pmpwbrrs]

I forgot theyl look like this

o o <– that your random god?

#rain world #rain world five pebbles #silly faces silly hands #Tumblr PLEASE STOP EATING THE SECOND PICTURE i am so tired of you destroying it out of existance . STOP IT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD #finally finishing some stuff i dropped about a month ago #pmpwbrrs #rw

[buhbuhbuhbuhbeanz7654]

worlds cuntiest worsties

#IM THINKING ABOUT. TORCHWOOD AGAIN. HELP #god.... #torchwood #hand on shoulder.... hip out ... elbow up... stare that could kill me.... #gwen im in love with you #jack kick rocks #but i still need him to exist because their friendship is like. the craziest thing