#negative shit

[abra-ka-dammit]

Very sorry about your cat. He lived a really good life with someone that cared abt him and I’m sorry you had to endure that

Thank you. It was hard. It still is. I miss him terribly and still cry for him every day. Taking one of my cats, who are my whole world, from me in such a painful way is the cruelest thing fate could have ever done, and I dont know if I'll ever really move past it fully.

#stupid shit #negative shit #pet death mention

[complementary-oxymorons]

it would be nice to have testosterone it would be nice to have the drive to work on the things i dont want to do it would be nice to be able to be nonbinary without forcing myself to be uber-masc it would be nice to learn to trust people it would be nice to be better at art it would be nice to learn to accessorise and dress nicely it would be nice to stop existing

#clemont babbles #negative shit #why do academics always send me into such an awful spiral? what the fuck is wrong with me #im no fucking boy genius im always a borderline disappointment #halfway there but never making it and yet everyone seems to see the smoke and mirror of wasted potential #i hate school so much but i need it to get a better job but why get a better job when i have nothing to live for #no partner; no one in their right mind would ever want me like that #my love is mine to give and i give it to my friends #and even then it literally took 3 maybe 5 years for me to be comfortable with rey #and for kade it's like 5 maybe 6 #'social skills are pretty important' trust me mr wong i know #but why would i ever let people in when i dont trust their political standings and dont know how acceptable my existence is to them #god if you exist out there #why did you not grant me the courage to die in 2012 #thirteen wasted years; two of them in a ''''depressed'''' haze #my discords so populated with unfinished plans and fickle step by steps #i should buy a ticket to see kade at least once in my life before i disappear

[homiro]

Complaining machine timeee

I'm still thinking of all the money I had to give away for this year of perpetual misery and awful professors who don't practice what they preach and honestly I'm just tired? I can't hold hospitality jobs or retail jobs because honestly that shit wears me down and because I have the reaction of smiling when I'm stressed out or nervous they always make me deal with customers and I can't deal with customers. Honestly, can't. One day of dealing with people feels like a year and by the end of it I just want to disappear. And now I'm too qualified for this type of job anyway lol and not only that, they only give you three month contracts and then you're on your way because they don't want to raise your wage and with my qualifications I have to lie about my academic "accomplishments" between inverted commas because at this point it just feels like a bunch of wasted time and money for nothing. I don't have any real talents and I am too mentally and physically ill to do anything that requires interacting with people and selling them shit. And they won't hire me for factories because I'm too fucked up physically. My back is literally an S and if I bend over for more than 10 minutes I'm fucked and straightening up makes me feel so much pain it feels like I'll pass out. I'm just tired of existing like this in this body and in this life and in this mind lol anyway, yeah, rant over.

#homiro says some shit #negative shit #don't hit read more if ur sensitive to negativity #suicide ideation ment #yeahhhhhh it be that way

[foxgirlpauldrons]

something something the old internet being mainstreamed into this super marketable fad makes me miss when my tumblr used to be a single gif of a spider that somehow escaped the post box for like 3 years and youtube channels that I had to search for manually because i didnt know how to subscribe

I miss when the internet was this weird ass place but now those weird places have been paved over with parking lots and costos

#yip bank #negative shit #maybe its my nostalgic memory of my childhood wishing for things to be simple again but who knows

[riinoaheartilly]

..

I feel like I've been annoying everyone lately and that it would be best if I just shut up and left them be.

#negative shit

[trekkies-unite]

I love when my IRL friends don’t invite me to plans they are having

Feels great

#heavy on that sarcasm #idk #I just feel like everyone’s bonus friend #the friend that is around but you really don’t have to interact with #Its hard to accept that I will never be someone’s favorite person #back on my bullshit #negative shit

[needmoreexpresso]

When you know you're on the edge of falling apart. But it's the first day if school. You don't want to stress, burden, bother or worry anybody with your problems or you don't trust anybody enough and you can't get professional help because then you'd need to open up to your already overworked parents. Yet you still being burnt out, quite depressed, anxious with separation anxiety towards few specific people and a lot if other stuff need to get through all the shit. Making yourself believe that if you talk to others they'll leave.

I know I'm at my breaking point. I have kept bottling shit up. I'll probably worsen my sleep schedule and get an insomnia if i keep doing this. And well. I won't touch those blad€s if they won't. The world is so fucked up and under all that, school and All of those "friends" i share classes and the other studies and being a therapist/online mother to people put pressure, stress and other stuff on me so much that i feel lost.

My heart feels like it's going to break, it's sad and in pain. I've been panicking for days straight. A day seems to start out great. Until it doesn't. And the rest if the day it's just holding on to tears while lying to everyone saying "it's not important", "forget it", "it's nothing", "just tired", "school stuff being a bitch" etc. Yea i feel bad about it, but I won't stop it. Because I'm not going to put more weight on their shoulders. Like a good mother i am. Or try to be. I feel like I'm truly a horrible mother for hiding all this away. A horrible lover for being like i am. I know they tell me it's alright and that I'm a good mother and a lover. But it just doesn't feel like it. I guess I'm just used to being alone. Being neglected and left to die after all those betrayals and backstabbings and hurtful people.

I know this doesn't seem like much, but I'm getting tired. And i want a break. A break where i could just relax with those people. Without needing to listen to another story while I'm having a breakdown.

#depressing shit #tw depressing stuff #tw depressive #tw depressing thoughts #burnout #stress #therapist friend #anxitey #anxienty #burden #sorry to bother #negative shit #negative symptoms #life is shit #life is so hard #life is pain #suffering #tw anxiety #tw anxious #tw anxeity #masking #lying #im hurtin #in need of help #in need of cuddles #in need of advice #in need of support #in need of love #tired #mentally tired

[happyherringbonkpickle]

#actually boderline #borderline problems #being borderline #actually cluster b #depressing shit #cluster b #actually bpd #boderline personality disorder #bpd #parenting #mummy issues #mentally unwell #daddy issues #borderline personality traits #trauma #childhood #neglect #negative #mental health #heartbreak

[daisy-mooon]

Tony Stark: I have to babysit Peter Parker. He's a bit annoying. I guess he's alright.

Carol Danvers: Everyone clap for Kamala Khan right now or I'm blowing this fucking building up with you all inside of it.

#not tony neg i think his flaws are interesting #but lmaaoooo Carol is ride or die with this shit #carol danvers #kamala khan #ms marvel #captain marvel #tony stark #peter parker #the marvels #the marvels (2023) #shitpost #marvel #mcu #marvel cinematic universe #1k #2k #3k #4k #5k #hitposttag

[throesofincreasingwonder]

You know what? I want a whole post for this:

Sex Repulsion is not the same thing as, or an excuse for, Sex Negativity

non-negotiable!

I am a sex-repulsed asexual. This means that I am uncomfortable and repulsed by the idea of engaging in sexual acts. This does not mean that I have an excuse to be repulsed by other people's sexual attraction or the right to police how other people engage in or express sexual acts or attraction.

Young queer people need to learn the difference between sex repulsion and sex negativity, and actively work to unlearn sex-negative attitudes. Asexuality, even sex-repulsed asexuality, is and should be fully compatible with sex positivity.

If you are uncomfortable with the idea of other people feeling sexual attraction or engaging in sexual acts that do not involve you in any way, that is not sex repulsion it is the cultural Christianity and you need to seriously work on that.

#we as asexual people have got to have a talk about this because the shit i have been seeing is NOT okay #asexuality #sex positivity #this is largely intracommunity allo people can engage w/ it but don't be clowns #original post #500 #1k #PLEASE STOP TAGGING THIS AS 'CULTS' YOU CAN CRITIQUE A RELIGION W/O CALLING IT A CULT I AM BITING YOU #this barely even mentions Christianity like someone does not need to be in a cult to be sex negative. and also not all religions are cults #please be normal #other than that y'all have actually been very normal abt this one so far thank you #2k #5k

[abra-ka-dammit]

bojji's ballooning didnt go as well as i hoped

the stricture is severe. it's down the entire bottom 1/3 of his esophagus. bc it was so severe they did it in smaller increments than usual, and during it saw tissue that looked suspiciously unhealthy. As they went lower they reached a hole that should theoretically be a continuation of the tube into the stomach but it apparently looks so unusual that they werent sure that was actually the ORIGINAL hole and didnt go further down. the doc told me quite frankly theyve never seen one so bad and shes not too optimistic for it ever being usable again even after multiple balloonings. but im not giving up yet.

since its so bad, they need to spread them out more than the 2-3 days it would normally go, and bc they could see the thin tissue stretching where the original tear was, in fear of risking re-tearing the original injury they most likely will need to do the future one(s) by more surgically invasive means, in order to go up from his stomach rather than down from his mouth since the downward route became anatomically unclear. this is all of course assuming nothing goes wrong in his recovery from this first one.

when i asked this morning the doctor had said a secondary ballooning baselines around 3k, but i guarantee the more invasive version costs more. i heard 3k ("or less, depending on the exact situation") and thought yes! i have the space for that with my brother's help. not feeling as confident anymore.

hes being constantly watched at the emergency vet overnight, longer if he seems to be on the downward trend. but he cant eat or drink for 48 hours so even if he can come home after theyre gonna help me out and give him fluid injections to keep him hydrated (he was, naturally, kinda dehydrated. happens when u can barely keep water or anything else down)

i was so stressed out i went into walmart to physically buy things instead of just doing drive up pickup like the no-spoons-having ass i am

i got my other cats senior kibble. its probably about time.

i got more pate in anticipation of bojji's 2-days-after food trials, and even some sodium-reduced chicken broth to mix with it instead of sink water to make it soupy, as well as some churu lickable treats for. treats.

i got fucking spray so i can clean up the spots bojji food-yakked on my bedroom carpet

the surgeon who did the procedure tried comforting me about the unsettlingly bad news by telling me nobody could ever say i didnt do everything i possibly could to save him but that just makes me feel worse

like whats the point of all of it if he still dies

he made the specialist vet office love him immediately with his sweet face and gentle behavior, just like he did the ER vet. now he has even more animal-loving hearts crying out with love to cruel fate, to please spare the boy: he is an angel, yes, but not yet for heaven

#stupid shit #long post #negative shit

[complementary-oxymorons]

it is deeply, deeply funny to me that i was able to hold on and even enjoy my internship, which was a wholeass 9 to 6 EVERY WEEKDAY, but the instant i have school and homework pile up i just immediately think of killing myself

#clemont edison lastname chinesename you are TWENTY FUCKING FOUR this year #YOU SHOULDVE BEEN GRADUATING UNI BY NOW BUT WHAT DID YOU DO #oh hurrdurr i genuinely wouldve booked a hotel room and hung myself if i had to retake As again or immediately go to poly #stupid where did that get you #two and a half wasted years doing nothing but playing overwatch #which yknow #was used as an arguing point by your dad to prove you didnt have depression #dogass motherfucker thinks hes soooo experienced and hes the only pitiful motherfucker in this family #ill kill him one day i swear #negative shit #i need to also kill myself like for fucking real

[ccorinthian]

fuck you ageism fuck you life ending at 30 fuck you makeup industry forcing us to feel bad about a natural process fuck you hustle culture fuck you instagram fuck you youtube fuck you glorification and deification of youth fuck you who make people feel bad for not having "achieved anything" in their 20s fuck you people who peaked in high school and try to drag everybody down by insisting it's all downhill after 19

#im not dedicating hours and days and weeks of my 20s of hard work on my mental health to cope w shit i went through #for some bitches on websites to tell me ill shrivel up and die when i hit 30 unless my life is perfect by then #youre not dragging me down to that mindset and i wont let your doom and gloom about turning older make me feel like shit !! #some of us have to rebuild ourselves from ground up and that shit takes time and thats FINE and if you think otherwise fuck off honestly #ageism is such a disgustingly overlooked aspect thats so ingrained in our culture and you need to recognise it #or you'll just feel worse and worse about yourself with every passing day bc guess what baby you cant go back!! #SICK of the negativity surrounding age on this website get yourself the fuck together honestly

[redysetdare]

Some of you people need to stop acting so shitty over aspec stereotypes because it's starting to get to a point that you are just shitting on the people who experiences match the stereotypes and it's hurting a lot more aspects than it's helping.

#text #aspec #ace #aro #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aplatonics #loveless #loveless aro #afamilial #adding you guys heree too because aplato afamil and loveless ppl get shit on constantly #for embodying the 'doesnt feel love towards anyone' stereotype which is often seen as something aspecs need to fight against #too many of you are more focused on seeming normal to the allos #that youre willing to throw some of us who dont fit the mold under the bus #because we 'make aspecs look bad' or 'prove allos negative stereotypes' #and idk maybe we shouldnt be theowing experiences under the bus because aphobes throw a fit over them #shouldnt we protect eachother from aphobia not try to surpress those who 'cause it' by existing??? #aphobia

[miwtual]

im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

#kai.txt #negativity tw #(sorry these are gonna be a lot of tags. i have a lot of feelings and i dont know where else to put them) #we make gifs and nobody reblogs them #when they do get reblogged all people want to tell you is that your gifs arent good enough to them and rip it to shreds #'you're missing x' 'why didnt you do y' 'if i made this i would have abc' 'hey op ur wrong and this is why' 'i dont like this op' #reposters dont even reblog your fucking gifset but they'll save your gifs to repost later asking for how to do something #that they could have asked you how to do in the fucking first place #we reblog ourselves constantly because nobody else will and maybe to make our work look like it has more notes than it does #to make ourselves feel better about the lack of interaction we're getting #and then when we TALK about this frustration we have. people who are too afraid to say it to our faces #go on anon in our askboxes and tell us how we're somehow selfish for wanting people to interact with the sets #that we spent time on. hours. days. WEEKS in some cases #or we get anons who tell us the reason we dont have notes are because we arent good at gifmaking in the first place #but this is all on anon. because they're too scared to tell it to our faces #they're too scared for us to see that they ARENT a gifmaker and that they dont know how to do it any better either #they dont see us as people doing something we love as a hobby. they see us as content machines that dance like court jesters #im just so fucking tired of the disrespect #and this sentiment goes for more than just gifmakers. graphicmakers. artists. literally any creative hobby shared on this site #we get treated like shit and for what? literally for fucking what.

[stuckinapril]

maybe a bit of an esoteric advice but saving nice things people have said in a notes app entry has saved me so many times. if i’m having a bad day, being hard on myself, dealing w negativity from others etc etc. just whatever it is. i open this page—which is basically a compilation of people complimenting me on certain attributes, sweet interactions i wrote down, or things i’ve accomplished—and it brings me right down to earth. like someone could be saying mean shit about me (whether it be a person or a voice in my own head) & instead of having to go through the mental toil of summoning up positive memories to negate that, i just go to that notes app entry. i read over everything and im like ohhhh ok im not the most horrible person in the world after all. i don’t deserve being told that after all. it’s all written down right here.

#that shit WORKS and i tended to rule out methods like this out of fear of being cheesy #u do what u have to do. #also this kind of thing teaches u to stop leaning into ur negativity bias so often #yes there are bad ppl who say shitty things #but what ab the abundance of good ones? it rly is as simple as choosing what u care about #text