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chibitantei · 1 year

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@jesterofinaba asks: ∗ 33﹕ have you ever been in the middle of drama in the rpc ?

𝑬𝑿𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑰𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹𝑺𝑬𝑳𝑭 . — Munday meme, me dudes | Open

Heedle hoo-

This one’s a two-fer. Contains salt about a certain group verse and RPer that if you know, you know.

I was part of a group verse that happened about a year and a half ago and it was absolutely dog shit. On the first day or second, an IC RP chat channel was added, and I want to say that’s the event that would lead to its eventual downfall. People would use it to have their muses trauma dump all over the place and it did not help that group’s premise was pretty angsty already.

P5 was at the center of the angst maelstrom and my experience in group turned me away from wanting to interact with P5 blogs. The association between P5 and group has faded since then, but I’m still a little hesitant when it comes to interacting with P5 blogs in general because of this.

Besides that, it was poorly run with only two (yes, two) mods who refused to accept more because they didn’t want to “ruin the surprise”. It didn’t help that the head mod kept the other one in the dark for a lot of the details. The downtime between story events quickly fell off schedule so I’d sit for two months, enduring the “semi-canon” chats and see absolutely no story progression whatsoever. It didn’t help that people would be pinged for minor shit like a ball pit being installed.

I left before the last, major boss battle group would ever have and I was told that mods made some decisions that screwed over some muns and their muses, along with having the worst gimmick ever, so I’m glad I left.

Then there was an adult/minor ship between the head mod and someone else’s muses that basically killed it and I’ve never been happier that it’s dead.

This doesn’t cover all of my salt for group and a particular event I hate that happened, but I have another main character to talk about.

This person I used to write with was fine and dandy at first, but when she announced she was single ship, I noticed that her characterization took a bit of a turn. Interactions with her became restricted because her muse would only care about two specific people. She had some godmoddy headcanons and assumptions like “he has canonically made everyone question their sexuality”, which would completely ignore how other muns would characterize their muses.

When we’d talk about characters, she’d act like her opinion was best and correct. I didn’t want to argue because she’d probably say I was wrong, and she already did when I brought up that one character cared about his fiancee.

95% of her blog was responding to her special friend (the one she was single ship with). I’d like her starter calls and send her memes, but she hardly responded to the memes I’d send despite e-begging for them. Of course, the special friend was the exception. For all of my threads with her, it was always her turn to respond.

Eventually, I became tired of how she would never respond to my stuff and made her bias very clear that I stopped trying to interact.

We still talked a bit on discord, so it was a surprise when she ghosted me out of the blue.

She had the brilliant idea to copy and paste a starter we plotted together and that she made for me, changed the tenses, the name and a line, and gave it to someone else.

Her cute ship with her partner had a plot that made me uncomfortable because it looked fucking toxic and she was acting like her muse was just a little quirky while he was being controlling over who his boyfriend could see, she backpedaled on her headcanons, making her characterization inconsistent, and acting like she had the biggest galaxy brain when it came to writing a blank slate character was cringe.

#Ask Status: Answered #jesterofinaba #ooc: outta coffee #drama cw #you all will not be ready for the long group hate post #gotta get it off my chest

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simplywylan · 9 months

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i have an acting workshop soon and i am terrified bc acting is my worst area when it comes to musical theatre and its so so hard for me to find and portray emotions bc i dont understand them and im so scared im going to make a fool of myself

#just thoughts #gotta get it off my chest #i do be scared #cant act to save my life #emotions mean vulnerability and that isnt something i particularly enjoy

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the-phantom-peach · 8 months

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Meeting the Light Dragon ✨🐉

[tagged as spoilers!]

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spontaneousspirit · 2 years

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///vent.... again

Just tried out for a talent show, feelin BAD-

feeling REAL BAD

My social anxiety hasn't been THAT bad this past year, but DEAR GOD, my throat started almost literally closing, and I was so off key, and getting the audio for my song was a mess, I know the judges were lying when they said it was good, I know it, and I just hope I can try again on Wednesday-

#vent post #sry #gotta get it off my chest

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coolnonsenseworld · 8 months

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(this is part of the calendar 2024 lore, now on pre-order, to know more check out prev posts)

April was Keith's idea of relaxation. He enjoyed parks, the feng shui of them, nature's ability to thrive despite and against anything happening - the silence of it. Watching Keith wind down and relax when he is a strung wire most of the time, would definitely make Lance feel all lovey-dovey and clingy (as he tends to get) and when he’d worry he is disturbing, Keith would comment this is exactly how it should be - the constant yin to his yang, and the yang when he feels yin.

Also - both shirt and hoodie are Keith's (he has way too many hoodies with quotes). Lance took the hoodie for Keith, but Keith insisted he won’t get cold, so he wore it himself. On the way home Lance funds Keith the biggest sushi serving he could find on the menu, and, believe me, nothing lights up Keith's eyes like a table full of rice and algae. Lance just watches with a soft smile. (Keith does end up getting cold)

#klance #laith #i dont wanna jinx it but im 12k words draft deep #not danceau danceau is third on my list im sorry #but if i dont get hex off my chest im gonna deteriorate #im so lost in the narrative ToT i missed writing so much #i just want to listen to chill songs and make up silly banter #speaking of chill songs i was today years old when i learned RY X full name #i was actually checking his date of birth bc his songs are so sensitievely dramatic i thought he is pisces #he is not #but now that x makes a lot of sense #you gotta check him out now its imperative and you are welcum

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kimquatz · 1 month

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i love........... my OCs!!!!!!!!!!

#my ghost hunters...... my fanned trolles......... epic #gotta make a post abt it every now and then to get it off my chest. just so you know. so you remember. i love them.

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silentgrim · 2 months

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in the nicest way possible y’all are delusional if you think ts4 will get better within the years it’s literally been 10 years with 76 packs and counting worth around $1,200 AND COUNTING plus bugs with each pack release/patch and no foreseen fixes or refreshes… let’s come back to earth for a second

#this sounds very bitchy but i just had to word vomit this #get it off my chest #but let’s be real #if ts4 had any plans for improvement shit would’ve been done a LONG time ago #but instead we’re getting 5 dollar packs left and right #with bugs attached to them #the new bugs piling on top of the old ones #lack luster shallow content #it’s just right there in our faces #and for those who say well ts5 might end up being the same shit #well it goddamn might be #but feeding into ts4 will get better trope must be so draining imo #it’s been 84 years #she’s too oxidized we gotta let her go 🫡#chatter

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lightningfiction · 11 months

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I'm not going to talk about the loneliness of switching countries. Of counting your possessions and deciding which ones you want to carry into a future you have been picturing for years without knowing what it'll look like. I'm not going to talk about the dozen timezones you have set in your phone's World Clock, and how you need to scroll down a screen to know if it's okay to call the friend you grew up with. I won't talk about how everyone seems to know everyone already, and they use words like The Maritimes that you've never heard before. I won't talk about that because I've loved this loneliness and the way these new words feel in my mouth, I suck on them like hard candy until they dissolve, leaving flavour traces on my tongue. I hate these extreme distances between us yet I love how expansive our love has become, ballooning across the surface of a planet, a planet—do you know how astronomical our friendship has to be to be able to do that? I will start measuring my heart in lightyears.

What gets messy is the return home. The way old landmarks have been torn down, new ones built, and the shape of an uncouth neighbourhood becoming a manicured topiary. The way my old phone number doesn't receive text messages anymore so I can't access the parts of my life I walked away from. The way my bloated city is empty because my friends have flown the coop. The way I clutter my old room in the same old way, and go slowly mad in the burning afternoons, because being home, doing nothing, invites the same dangerous ennui I was trying to escape. Comfort creeps up on me and I start to doubt the decisions I've made, the path I've chosen for myself.

Will I make it out there? When my room is so soft, so messily me, so easy to hide in? Will I lose everything I've bet on my one little, irrelevant dream? The future is devouring the industry I want to work in, the oil companies are slow-roasting the places I want to call my new home. Will I survive? Will I be okay?

I don't want to talk about switching countries, immigration, going away and coming back and leaving again, and the way my identity keeps fracturing, hyphens like cracks in ice.

I must remember that winter will come again, in some form or way. The water will freeze over, again. And I will see my reflection, again. Whatever it has become.

#my soapbox // things i gotta say #non fiction // reality is a kaleidoscope #writing #writeblr #writers on tumblr #had to get this off my chest really #unedited

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thisisparnianagain · 5 months

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"Um-?!"

"Atsushi-kun, didn't you think for a second 'How did Dazai-san turn into a vampire with his nullifying ability?'"

"WHY DID YOU LICK MY NECK-"

#gotta get these off my chest #thought of this one when i saw the sskk vampire bite the first time lol #fanart #dazatsu #dazai osamu #nakajima atsushi #bsd #myart #bungou stray dogs

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sleepyconfusedpotato · 1 year

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Mama I made it !!!

My OC ship got into the top searched on Pinterest even though I never posted anything there !!!

LFGGGG ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

A win is a win ✊🥲

#Just gotta get this off my chest #Pinterest is basically just Google but you can post stuff too #Pinterest is a search engine #and it's doing it's job #anyway this isn't a rant or smth but more of a 'a win is a win'#ngl pinterest comments are different breeds from Tumblr or Twitter or anything really #some are very nice and cute while some are... not really nice. OCs are not accepted very much by the pinterest users #cuz pinterest isn't a home for fandom. It's basically just google lmao but people can comment on the pictures.#But I rlly do appreciate people commenting and crediting me on the comments+directing them to tumblr. So Im really really grateful for yall #and I think the watermarks are pretty doing its job if people are not crediting me properly #anyway #A WIN IS A WIN #I know I made it when my arts are being reposted without credits or just casually browsing pinterest and like “wait... that's my art” 😂#artist struggles #sleepy's thoughts

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sysig · 8 months

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Care for your sparring partner (Patreon)

Bonus:

#Doodles #Wander Over Yonder #Commander Peepers #Sylvia #Wander #Everyone asking Peepers questions that just skirt that line: The Series lol #Shoutout to Autumn for directing my attention this way and encouraging my brain to think about this A Lot lol #Drawing Peepers sliding around 'cause he just throws himself into everything ✨ That's it that's the whole thought lol #I haven't worn a binder for long enough to lose my breath so apologies if this isn't quite how it goes but y'know - *gestures at The Vibe*#He would overwork himself to the point of nearly passing out if it meant he could keep fighting the way he wants to pfft #Sylvia's rough and tumblr and she can be mean but even she won't kick him while he's down! Mom friend activate haha #She's grown a lot <3 #Also getting a bit easier to draw her >:3c She does have a fun design :D #Her mouth is the most fun haha ♪ It really reminds me of Moomin! Cute cutout shape :3 #''Why are you fighting with like five coats on'' ''Dysphoria'' ''Ah''#Notice how he covers his chest when she brings up his ''tank top'' ♪ She just goes on giving him a lecture and he's like ''Did she notice''#She didn't lol especially if that bonus is any indication #Weeks/Months/Years later and she's just like ''So that time we were fighting he was- He wasn't- :0000'' Lol #Bonus Wander brushing her comb ♪ Gotta take care of his best friend/steed! Probably just knocking the dust and dirt off haha #Their discussion would probably be silly hehe you know he'd ask and then /she'd/ ask #''Did you know??'' ''I don't make it my business to pry into other's personal matters-'' ''First of all that's not even a little bit true''#It's just all about respecting boundaries! All the way around :) Respect the sanctity of the relationship whether it's friendly or combative

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thefirstknife · 10 months

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Some important stuff in regards to the harassment of developers came from Bungie today. They won a lawsuit against a guy who repeatedly harassed a community manager and his family (not fully confirmed in the official document, but people are fairly certain this is about A_dmg and his family). This is a twitter thread from the lawyer who went into some details about the situation. The court document is also available to read (featuring some of the horrific harassment tactics that were motivated by racism and also used racism as part of the harassment so be advised if you want to read).

This isn't just a win for the individual community manager and Bungie, but also has potential to set a bigger precedent in the future. It's basically the first time this has been done to this extent and some ruling in this case made it clear that companies can pursue this sort of legal action in the future if their employees are harassed and threatened. This is HUGE because the protection of employees in the gaming industry has been abysmal otherwise. This case will allow for the company to file a lawsuit on behalf of their employees in cases of harassment.

Before I add some of the more heinous stuff about this situation below, I want to say that the majority of reactions to this are positive. People are happy that this happened as it did and a lot of people are excited about potential big influence this will have in the future to combatting harassment of this type in the gaming industry.

Extra details and thoughts below (racism tw):

This started because the community manager highlighted a black content creator, Uhmayyze, who is himself a victim of harassment more often than not (usually of racist nature). He is most often harassed because he is unapologetically positive for which people have continuously sent him awful shit and comments. Because he enjoys the game and isn't jumping on the hate train. Just recently he commended Bungie for a ban wave and had hundreds of people hound him on twitter for his comment, including Gladd who started it by specifically replying to Uhmayyze and putting him on blast (warning for a lot of gross comments, including photoshopped screenshots of fake discord texts to make Uhmayyze look bigoted, nsfw images, r slur, suicide baiting and so on). This is important because the incident of real life harassment was fuelled over a community manager highlighting a content creator that is himself being harassed and despised online for the crime of... being positive. And you know, for being black. This situation isn't an isolated incident. The community, including other content creators, are absolutely horrible towards this one person that they feel, I guess, does not follow the content creator NPC questline of hating Bungie and Destiny.

So of course, at some point, someone from that crowd will feel confident and justified taking things further. How dare Bungie promote this person they hate. How dare they focus on a positive creator. They're clearly biased and don't want to listen to criticism, only to "toxic positivity" streamer. How dare a community manager highlight this creator. It's a personal slight to them, and "proof" that Bungie is bad and evil and "ignoring criticism." There's someone out there (and probably not the only one) that hates this creator and the game so much they were willing to harass and threaten a community manager and his family in real life.

The community manager was first harassed by phone with text messages and voice mails featuring racist bile, including apparently a voice mail telling him to "convince Bungie to create options in its game in which only persons of color would be killed." This is the worst part for me and super concerning in general, as well as showing the dedication of this person to racism, motivated by his hatred of a black creator (which also, by proxy, technically makes the streamer being harassed as well). Absolutely ghoulish behaviour.

This escalated to also harassing the CM's wife and resulted in doxing them; the harasser somehow found their address. Most of the reports on this will say that the asshole "sent them pizza" which doesn't truly capture how horrific the incident was. First, it's a random guy who has your address which is concerning enough given that he harasses you by phone already. Apparently the pizza was made to be "inedible" and the delivery was instructed to bang loudly on the door upon arrival to maximise discomfort. The order was also deliberately made to be paid on delivery to create as much pain for the victims as possible. The harasser also kept track of the delivery and then called the family again when it was done to tell them to "enjoy the pizza." The family immediately contacted Bungie who contacted the police and provided the family with protection. There's no telling how this would've escalated had they not been in the position to call Bungie and had Bungie not reacted to them asking for help. It's absolutely crucial here that Bungie is the type of a company willing to immediately assist in this situation.

Immediately following that, Bungie organised a long and expensive manhunt to identify the harasser and bring them court. That's where most of the expenses went; finding the culprit and protecting the employee and his family. This is the money Bungie earned back by this court decision because they could prove that the expenses were caused by a person harassing and threatening their employee.

This is a big win overall for the whole industry. It's Bungie setting a precedent on how a company should protect its employees. No matter what people think about Bungie or big corporations or whatever, this is how you can use a lot of money and power to make sure that your workers have rights to decency and safety. That's huge for the rights of workers and worker protections. I hope it becomes a standard and that any future harassment is prevented altogether or at least punished accordingly.

Naturally, the commentary on the news from a big part of the community is super positive. Unfortunately, there's also a part of the community that has a lot of really awful shit to say about this. The comments on twitter are littered with people who are using THIS specific moment to yell about Bungie being a greedy corporation, how the money they won should be used to "fix the servers" and "make more pvp maps" or how Bungie will greedily put this money "into Eververse" or "into Marathon." There's comments about how time was uselessly spent protecting an employee who should expect harassment anyway, instead of working on "fixing the game."

This is what I mean when I talk about how impossible it is in the current situation to have a meaningful discussion about any sort of criticism or feedback. There's thousands of comments from people who think that this specific instance shows how Bungie is greedy. This is what I mean when I say that none of these people actually understand what they're talking about. You can't make proper criticism when you can't separate game development with a company's legal effort to stop an escalating harassment campaign of an employee. The majority of gamers are simply not fit to offer any criticism or feedback. The idea that we all have something useful to say and that employees at Bungie are obliged to give us their time of the day is simply incorrect.

I genuinely 100% stand by the claim that the recent barrage of content creators promoting the idea that Bungie is "the greediest company in the world that's scamming players and increasing costs out of greed" as well as the idea that Bungie is "abandoning Destiny for Marathon, isn't working on the game anymore and is deliberately ruining it" is the reason for these comments existing. If a big streamer said that Bungie is getting too much money but also not doing anything "good" with it, then any money that Bungie receives (including compensation for expenses they took to protect an employee from active harm) is a result of greed. The nuance of any situation is lost; when you only learn the mantra of "company has money therefore company bad" you WILL end up causing harm for people and you will most definitely not be an advocate of workers rights. That's where we're at right now.

The dehumanisation of people who work at Bungie (and the harassment itself) is a consequence of this crap and other similar crap that's been thrown into the ether for the past year, disguised as "we're just offering feedback." People heard that Bungie is a "microtransaction hell" and that Bungie is only investing in Eververse and Marathon and they feel like this story reflects that; they feel like an employee being harassed is not deserving of proper condemnation and that this isn't important enough and that Bungie is a greedy corpo anyway so who cares about that. They do not understand how companies work, how games are made, the state of the industry as a whole (or the world as a whole), the treatment of employees or workers' rights, and you cannot meaningfully critique a company's business practices without understanding that. And they don't because they think that legal expenses used to protect victims, finding a culprit and bringing their ass to court is money that is being used for game development and that Bungie receiving this money should result in... new pvp maps or "fixed servers."

And there's even seemingly good commentary where people recognise how this is good, but they initiate the comment with "As much as I hate Bungie and Destiny and I think they're awful and greedy and destroying gaming as a whole..." : that's not the time and place. You don't have to excuse your support of a big win for potential new employee protection policies just because those policies are done by a company. Of course it is. Companies are the only ones capable of pursuing this sort of legal action. It's one good way a big company can put their power and money into a good place to actually help people and bring forth positive change. And like, you don't have to tell us how much you despise Bungie before you're "allowed" to admit that this is good news. Sometimes companies do good stuff. It's literally not that complicated.

I hope that this situation will help other employees demand the same protection, that other companies will follow suit and that this will also make potential other harassers rethink whether or not they will engage in this or similar type of behaviour. In the meantime, know that the community is largely positive about this, but that there are still absolutely detestable human beings who should feel ashamed of their reaction to this. They shouldn't feel welcome here. And there's still people doing this to the devs and I hope Bungie takes their asses to court too.

#destiny 2 #bungie #long post #this was a lot and i'm glad it had a happy ending #reading some of the comments unfortunately added to my depression tenfold #as usual the best thing to do if you feel strongly against a content creator or a video game is to leave #simply leaving would've stopped this whole thing #it's why that's my go to response to people who feel super strongly about how bungie is the worst #bro if bungie is the worst thing ever then your feedback will NOT change shit and you gotta go do something else #like if you still enjoy the game and have some criticism that's fine! i do too!#but if your entire online personality is criticism of bungie you gotta rethink your priorities #before you turn into this guy who will owe bungie 500k until the rest of his life #especially if you're a creator with a reach of tens of thousands of people or more. you gotta be careful with what you say #because your words WILL entice this behaviour. there is someone in your audience who will go too far #anyway. wanted this off my chest this whole situation has been super fucked up #and the brunt of it started around the time criticism started getting really bad last year #end of haunted-start of plunder + lightfall showcase which had massive harassment of trans employees online #we have not known peace since then and neither have bungie employees apparently #genuinely disheartening that people can act this way about a video game

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