#hes very personal to me <3

[yewphoric]

OC Overview: Jenais Oesis (he/him)

[Image Description: A digital drawing of a high elf seen from the shoulders up. He has a disheveled appearance, with messy, shoulder-length blonde hair. His eyes are orange with pale yellow sclera and dark eye bags. He is wearing a black robe with a frilled red collar. He is looking towards the left, and he looks tired and annoyed. End ID]

It's high time I introduce my favorite OC to everyone, and properly!

This is Jenais Oesis, an Altmer necromancer living in Skyrim in the time of the Last Dragonborn.

Under the cut is a basic overview of his backstory and some trivia! I am also tagging this with his OC tag (#jenais oesis), where you can find shitposts I think relate to him and art, as well as any other time I've talked about him on here!

He's an Altmer born in Skyrim (Falkreath specifically), and the first born of his family

His mother hails from the Summerset Isles, she's the daughter of a mid-ranking Thalmor official. His father is a first-generation Skyrimian (is that what you call people from Skyrim??), coming from a small, somewhat insignificant family that fled Summerset in the unstable years following the Oblivion Crisis

Because his mother chose to marry a poor man from Skyrim, even if he was an Altmer, her family disowned her and Jenais has no connections to Summerset

His parents opened up a tailor shop in Falkreath, and Jenais was initially raised with the expectation he'd be taking over that business when his parents got too old

However, Jenais showed an incredible proficiency for magic from a young age

He was good with conjuration especially, having a natural talent for understanding how it worked and how to use it

His parents fostered this, buying him books and staves to practice with and placing upon him high expectations

They were also able to get him into the College of Winterhold, but he had to wait until he was at least 15 as they considered him too young to join quite yet

Jenais just bid his time until then, practicing mainly conjuration but dabbling in the other schools as well

He had been six when his younger and only sibling was born, his sister Aureline (she/he)

Jenais had been a boy with quite an ego over his natural talents and intelligence, but it was Aureline that shattered that. As soon as she was able to understand what magic was, she was amazing at it

Far better than Jenais was, and she was proficient in all schools. She put serious effort and time into studying as well, something Jenais had never done (because he assumed he'd always be better than anyone without studying), and began to excel quickly

His parents also fawned over Aureline much more than him now, buying her things and demanding Jenais give her his magic books so she could study

It seemed like everyone had stopped paying attention to him totally. Unfortunately he had built his ego relying entirely on what other people thought of him, and now he was seeing himself as worthless because he wasn't as talented as his sister

He became withdrawn and moody, and the night after he turned 15, he stole off in the night to make the journey to Winterhold alone, assuming his parents had forgotten

The journey was arduous and he was robbed and attacked multiple times, but he arrived at the College three days later with a singular tome to his name and a broken arm

He passed the entrance exam with flying colors, and after a week or two of showing up his classmates, he felt like himself again and quickly made many friends

(I won't go into it but I changed a LOT about how the College works for my purposes, so basically imagine it as operating more like an actual university)

The most important of friends he made were: M'irr (he/they), a Dagi-raht Khajiit studying conjuration like he was, and Eriod (they/them), a Dunmer/Nord studying restoration and alchemy. M'irr was about his age, and Eriod a little older, acting almost like an older sibling to him

Jenais spent some years there in peace, learning all he could, until eventually Aureline came to study alongside him at the young age of 12

Aureline's presence once again rocked his world in a bad way, as any attention that Jenais once had was now totally focused on his prodigy of a sister

The lack of attention and jealousy was too much, and over the next few years he closed himself off and became bitter and mean to push people away and lost all his friends

Basically instead of being able to fully be happy for his younger sibling he got jealous and petty. He has severe Gifted Kid Syndrome as well and can't handle the idea of not being the smartest and the best, especially without trying, and all of this took a toll on him

Eventually he decided that the only way he could surpass Aureline was to enter a field of magic she never would and that he would be good at: necromancy

The College tolerated necromancy in secret so long as laws surrounding murder and soul-trapping were being followed, but Jenais wanted to go all the way

So, over the course of around 4-6 months, he murdered a total of five students for his experiments

Over that time, M'irr began to suspect him of being the one responsible and was working with the masters and the Arch-Mage to investigate

His other ex-friend Eriod had also been suspected, because there were rumors with decent evidence that they were a vampire

After the 3rd victim, Eriod confided in a small group of friends that they were a vampire, but not responsible for the killings

Unfortunately Jenais had lost almost all of his morals at that point, and his 4th kill was to frame Eriod. They were forced to flee and go into hiding following this

And his 5th victim was M'irr, only out of panic because M'irr had caught him at last

He was arrested very publicly and Aureline turned his back on him

After Jenais' arrest he felt genuine remorse for all he'd done, but it was short-lived because knowing he now had nobody in his life that cared for him allowed him to embrace his new path

He eventually broke out of prison and set up camp in some crypt, feverishly studying necromancy day and night for years to become the best he could

His ultimate goal was lichdom, and possibly taking revenge on everyone he felt wronged him

In 4E 201 he crossed paths with Ragnar, the Dragonborn, and after being forced to work together despite conflicting morals, goals, and personalities, they would eventually become extremely close friends

Ragnar pretty much became the only person Jenais cared about, and after his death, Jenais continued his path to lichdom in order to protect Ragnar's remains forever, as a way to show his dedication to him

SORRY HOW LONG THIS GOT and sorry the end got really vague as compared to his early years, I've thought a LOT about his early years and not as much about what he's up to in 4E 201. He is also my most developed OC ever so there's a lot of stuff early on I left out but is less important

I will be updating this with more detailed information as I think of it! aaand as a final thing I'll list a bit of fun trivia:

He is trans, aro, and gay! His aromantic identity is very important to him (and me <3)

At first his rancid personality was an act, but he faked it so hard he made it and it became what he was genuinely like. How Ragnar had the patience to befriend him is beyond me

His favorite foods are seared slaughterfish and mammoth steak, but he's terrible at cooking

His hair would look very nice if he put any effort into his appearance whatsoever. He'd probably be rather handsome but he spends too much time necromancing to care about appearances anymore

Lastly, he struggles with his conscience all the time. He's a very complex character I've put a lot of thought into and it's hard to explain it here concisely, but though he is undoubtedly evil, he's not fully without morals. He often feels extremely guilty for his past actions, but manages to ignore it and convince himself he's in the right every time

#ive been writing this for 2 hours LMAO #its so hard to be concise about jenais i thought about him constantly for like 2 months straight #i still do tbh #ok now for tags #yews ocs #yews oc intros #<- thatll be my tag for these starting now to have em all in one place #jenais oesis #<- its also linked in the post but yeah thats his tag on my blog #uhh idk what else to tag this as #tes oc #skyrim oc #altmer oc #hes very personal to me <3 #also i will Always take questions about him #any excuse to think about him..... i will owe you my life if you do

[sysig]

Two skeletons in a trench lab coat (Patreon)

Bonus:

He’s very careful! Everything was fine before you interrupted!

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #FJdlsafjdsf Handplates fuzzes my brain #I cannot tell you how weird it feels to draw Gaster with the Lost Soul head after all this time away haha #It drops me back into the person I was when I first read Handplates - for better or for worse. It's a very strange feeling #Even drawing Sans and Papyrus again sends me back! Not as strongly but certain little details stand out #Sans' eyes especially... Very strange feeling #Anyhow! Since Fellplates sent me back down the rabbit hole and I've gotten back into rereading lightly - still not a full commitment! #Maybe soon tho 👀 I feel like I always say that haha #But in the meantime thinking of the pre-Plates Handplates time period <3 Since that's the one I'm still most familiar with haha #I love when they're still growing and learning ♪ Scaffolded baby talk! Twin language! Love 'em ♥ #And fearless* mischievous little troublemakers hehe #They're so cute <3 I love the little ways they interact as young'uns - like when Papyrus will just lift Sans by his arms lol #I'd been thinking about and then had to go read the one of Sans as a the blanket/coat tickle monster and then - this ✨ #''Excuse me sir I'd like One Ticket to the R Rated movie I am an adult Monster'' lol #Probably another one of those moments where Gaster is just *nervously sweats in Dad* lol - stop being so cute! #Also there's no particular meaning to when I use WingDings for his text :P Just convenience and if I remember to lol #Comics where he talks a lot are not convenient XP I have enough trouble editing on this paper ugh I will Not miss it when it's done #Even attempted this comic in as few pencil strokes/erasing as possible and it was still a pain to work with! >:0 Rude #Doubly so that I've had a Handplates comic idea for past like - year lol - and /this/ was the first one I finished pfftbl #To be fair to the other I do want to at least attempt making it a look-alike hehe ♪ You know how it is with Ideas™ #I can't be too mad about it haha ♫ It did turn out quite cute after all :3

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

i wanna know more about svsss menopause

They synced their periods together too well. Now they are synced through their perimenopause years.

#Poorly drawn svsss #svsss #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #shang qinghua #mobei jun #ask #I truly think that the peak of the SVSSS (peri)menopause era is just them commiserating over the experience of it. #Not pictured here is Liu Qingge barely suppressing his hormonal rage. He would have it *bad*. #I think Liu Mingyan is the only person who does not have a bad time with menopause because she takes estrogen supplements. #Which sounds like a trans headcanon but I think regardless of cis/trans status she's researched this and is prepared. #I have developed a sense for what menopause is purely by exposure to the various complaints I have overheard/been told. #These are all very specific and yet very common stories. #I do not know what the overlap is for SVSSS fans and people (not just women) going through menopause. I hope this is funny to SOMEONE. #It's an untapped market of potential! Too many young'uns in these woods. #Synced periods this. Ovulating that. Where's the menopausal homicidal rage? #Come on! Ripping off your clothing in a sudden burst of heat is *SO* SVSSS core!!! Make perimenopause sexy!!! #Anyways. Please put your menopause headcanons in the comments/tags <3 I'd love to hear them. #Thank you joblessmonday for following up with an ask and giving me an excuse to release this train of thought.

[orcelito]

ok, i cant resist the urge to make a post about it after all, especially since it's related to a post i made prior

one of my favorite moments in trimax is By Far this part in chapter 35

[ID: Two pages from Trigun. The first starts with Wolfwood thinking, "Now that I think 'bout it, it may be one of the major differences between our species." That deep rooted dear I felt on the ship…" He thinks of Vash crying blood and, swearing, wonders, "Is he the one who can save humankind? That monster?" Wolfwood is briefly shown in resolution before someone calls, "Hey, Wolfwood!" and he looks up with surprise.

Vash sits with a smile at the edge of a rooftop, backed by the Fifth Moon and its prominent crater. Vash asks with a smile, "Just coming back now? You're a bit of a night owl, huh?" Wolfwood looks taken aback and wary. End ID]

Right Here. Vash is just sitting there, smiling like normal, but he's got the backdrop of the damage he caused on the moon set Perfectly behind him. it's a glaring reminder to Wolfwood of who exactly he's dealing with here, and that TERRIFIES him.

& the fact that Wolfwood still remembers that moment of crying blood as a moment of true fear. because for all the cheer Vash shows in the average moment, Wolfwood just recently saw him nearly lose control Again (at the Dragon's Nest). the second time he witnessed it, & the third time he would know about.

Vash is a walking atomic bomb with multiple charges. even with how cheerful & kind he is, he's shown Multiple Times that he does not have full control. he is decidedly something different, something Hazardous to humans, and Wolfwood knows this very very painfully.

for all that Wolfwood loves Vash, he is also terrified of him. and at this point in the story, that terror is potent enough to nearly eclipse his affection for Vash.

leading to some of the next most iconic pages:

[ID: The next page starts with Wolfwood standing behind the sitting Vash, his expression hard and the moon bright behind him. Vash seems sad and has one eye open. A close-up focuses on Wolfwood looking down.

Wolfwood thinks, "So easy to pull the trigger. So easy to remove half the problem." Another close-up with bright lighting obscures his face but for one eye. Then Vash turns around curiously and asks, "What's up?" Wolfwood sits behind him and says "Nothin'. Come on. Let's go." Vash seems surprised as Wolfwood scolds, "Don't get yerself tangled up in every little skirmish ya see. It'll be pointless if ya get yerself killed before ya meet him." End ID]

the manga frames it like Vash doesn't know Wolfwood was pointing the gun at him, but I think he did know. he's freakishly perceptive over and over again throughout the story. he HAS to be in order to survive like he has. he'd hear the movement of the gun & sense Wolfwood behind him...

he'd know. i really think he knew.

but he doesn't do anything about it. there is zero fear in his face. he turns to look at Wolfwood curiously, a bit confused, but not afraid. he never once thought that Wolfwood would shoot him. there's full faith and trust there in that moment.

Wolfwood pretends that nothing happened, & Vash lets him. they both move on, not talking about it, because they never talk about Anything of substance like this (not until much, Much later).

overall, it's just such a great example of their relationship's development. Wolfwood's fear & Vash's trust that he won't act on it... it's just. Man.

(EDIT: people have made some good points about how Vash's expression when Wolfwood points the gun at him shows that he probably did know and YEAH that's a good point! & probably why I was so certain he knew lol, I just hadn't realized it myself)

#speculation nation #fanny reads trigun #fanny's trigun analysis #trigun #vashwood #trigun spoilers/ #granted a lot of this is personal interpretation. some ppl might assume vash had no clue & like. that'd be a fair assumption #i just think Vash is very very perceptive. and i like to think he knew & just didnt do anything about it #because he never once thought that Wolfwood would actually shoot him #sometimes a friendship can be two buds who sometimes point guns at one another #(read: wolfwood points a gun at vash and Makes vash point a gun at him) #& then they never talk about this Ever <3 very healthy communication between these two for sure #anywyas im still making my way thru the original manga rn in my reread. but here have this moment bc im obsessed with it #might have smth else to talk about too. the geo-plants thing is intriguing me. but i'll make that post later. #EDIT: image descriptions written by princess-of-purple-prose

[filmnoirsbian]

I know I'm so many airline inflight supervisors' worst nightmare bc I have a mohawk and my nails are never uniform compliant and I never hesitate to call out and encourage other flight attendants to call out and I never check my work email and I never pick up extra trips. However. None of that matters when on almost every flight at least one passenger tells me that I've made their traveling experience better. I know a lot of customer service employees hate customers (sometimes for good reason, sometimes just bc they hate people), but I always try to make flying (already a stressful and expensive experience for most) easier on my passengers than it otherwise might be and that energy has never failed in its return. "Our airline was voted number one in customer experience this year!" Yeah you're fucking welcome and can u believe my bleeding heart-patterned nails didn't prevent me from helping that happen?

#it's really just a couple of inflight supervisors who i know have me on their shit list but they can't do anything bc i toe that line #and i was just thinking abt the man last week who pulled me aside during deplaning to tell me that i was clearly a very kind #hearted person and he and the other passengers could tell and i made their trips better by being there <3 very sweet old man #the supervisors can get stuffed <3 I'm the people's princess #tcp #work stuff

[lilacjunimo]

seeing Echo’s ears for the first time in a long time made me feel like a Victorian man seeing a woman’s ankles

#the bad batch #the bad batch season 3 spoilers #the bad batch spoilers #tbb season 3 spoilers #the bad batch season 3 #tbb season 3 #echo bad batch #arc trooper echo #tbb echo #so scandalous #but seriously #why does he wear that thing on them #for the aesthetic??? #for fashion?? #how does it help?? #I need to know the purpose for hiding his ears all the time #mind you this question is very #does this look Jedi to you #to me personally

[noecoded]

i like it better when u cant keep warm

#oughi love asmo so much idec if this looks nothinglike him. its asmo to ME........scemos emos win forever #written 2 be just kind of cute on socialmedia butsuchh a narcissistic asshole in person like every 2000s emo band member #i think he can be very charming and sweet for crowds though ofcourse so his likability is still rlly high… #theres more but i cant even say.i feel sick thinkingabotu him i hope u guys udnerstand the img #i didntdraw very much bc i was soo sleepy but now ill just game a little :3 #asmo #mine

[beescake]

yea i very much agree with ur take on sollux in his relation to older technology, u get it

please id love if youd share some more of ur analysis on his character (as well as ur art bc that shit is 👌👌👌)

either way, thanks for feeding my brain worms

im glad it resonated!! :') always happy to explore his character, he contains multitudes!!!

i think i may be out of sollux analysis for now, in the sense where i don't have anything new to add that hasn't already been covered in these posts? (please add if there's more...)

why i like sollux (lackadaisicallexicon, 2014)

comprehensive sollux status guide (syblatortue, 2016)

bioware machine (lime-bloods, 2016)

fridgestuck (LaureledEevees, 2017)

mary sue (3d-gla22e2, 2019)

favorite sollux trait (3d-gla22e2, 2020)

doom-bound static (gendertrickster, 2023)

however i will say there's another thing i really like abt him:

his Range!

he has a v flexible face.. even with his neutral expression, you cant help but read a tinge of melancholy/pensiveness to it.

he deters people from getting too comfortable with him by acting crude, but no matter how unapproachable he looks you can't help but wonder if he's ok. seems like he's never content with himself.

just like karkat, anger gives him purpose = something to care about & react to. without it he can appear aimless/uncertain.

it's especially interesting when you compare him to aradia, who despite having endured a lot of shit, ends up enjoying the freedom of expanding her worldview, riding the unpredictable tide of the narrative and observing the changes. sollux... doesn't.

he doesn't like watching major things progress in a way he can't predict. the lack of certainty actually overwhelms him.

and it's pretty clear why; imagine the only reassurance you get after unknowingly killing ur gf is that "it needed to happen". the only way to appease that sort of emotional turmoil is by intellectualizing those events as inevitable and out of your control.

(hs, A6I5)

when you’re just a tool for the author, trying to sit out is just feeble self-preservation until you’re needed again. if you’re not called on stage to help/assist in some way, it feels like your presence spells doom (either you or someone else will get hurt). so you avoid Events as best you can.

#ask #anon #homestuck #sollux captor #2023 #vioart #i love expressive characters eheh my fave emotions to draw are actually anger and incredulity. vry cathartic for me #im also super relieved the prev analysis was received well ngl it was like. splitting my chest open it was . very personal #largely bcs my appreciation of him is weirdly abstract? seems as if i had to come up w sm conceptual meaning just to say i like his vibe #but rlly i was just working backwards frm that conclusion like wow this character looks cool lemme think harder abt why i like it #i may have sounded a bit callous too.. but truly he is 1 of my top 3 faves alongside karkat & aradia. i brain them regularly in rotation

[mueritos]

started a new job recently as a research assistant for a gay Latinx professor in my grad program, and while I definitely don't have the time to be doing my own research, working with this professor on his book projects has been so affirming and healing. i'm working on a book he hopes to publish soon that is full of interviews of gay and trans Latine men...and it is so fucking awesome. I feel so seen by the words I am reading, and I feel tears spring to my eyes looking at the photographs of these men. They look like family members, distant cousins, and family friends. They look so happy and full of confidence. I see myself in their eyes, recognizing the "fish" shape in our eyes that is so distinctly tied to Latines. One of the men in the book is a pup! And it is so beautiful seeing his smile as he holds his pup mask.

I have met very few queer latines. I don't know what it's like to have the tio or tia that has some secret aura to them, that "no se habla" vibes where everyone knows they're queer but just won't acknowledge it. Hell, this professor I'm working with is the first gay Latine man I've ever spoken to. I wish I had a community of gay Latines. I hope I am able to access that one day :)

#muerto talks #just rambling #reading thru this manuscript has me feeling some intense emotions #ive always been the person other queers look up to #and i always wish i had someone i could look up to #this reminds me that when im back home for the summer i should totally connect my emotional support gay professor from undergrad #i have never felt such acceptance and joy man #life be good when you have an older gay BIPOC man in your life #LIKE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ADOPT ME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE #this makes 3 gay male professors i know that i look at with very big round and wet eyes #my research professor is also a gay man and im like so captivated by him in class #i be on cloud 9 when i say something in class and he continously references it #LIKE YES I WON!!! #I WON!!!!

[samanthamulder]

THE X-FILES (1993-2018)

SEASON EIGHT — I will go on record to say this: that I have seen things that I cannot explain. I have observed phenomena that I cannot deny. And that as a scientist and a serious person it is a badge of honor not to dismiss these things because someone thinks they're BS.

#I realised that if I wanna finish all this before the anniversary celebration I need to pick up the pace a bit jdfbskf so here we go :') #txf #tv #txf8 #txfedit #tvedit #the x files #scifiedit #.gif #thexfilesnet #*txfrewatch #this season is actually quite beloved to me. especially in light of what comes after...but also in its own right I'd say! #mulder abduction arc is a fabulous concept that sadly is underwhelmingly executed (and not just from my point of view of I KNOW he's #gonna be fine...) and at this point we are left thinking that william is a normal healthy msr love child so the pregnancy arc is ok too #the show ended here btw. nothing else happened after and they are still standing in scully's bedroom holding william the ??th and smooching #I swear #oh. also. I LOVE john doggett and I love his and scully's relationship; how they come to trust one another over the course of the season #THAT is the ideal PLATONIC partnership actually. professional trust and respect that grows very carefully and eventually #blossoms into a more personal friendship <3 #*saul queued

[mangosaurus]

BUT WHO HAD THE HAIR DYE STOCKED AT THEIR PENTHOUSE, DANIEL???

#this isn't as clean as i wanted but it's DONE and that's what matters <3 #very fond of how brooklynn's expression came out here personally ^-^ i modeled her after one of those cat memes #daniel kon #brooklynn jwcc #jwcc brooklynn #jwcc #jurassic world camp cretaceous #camp cretaceous #fanart #mango art #brooklynn #<<< for my own tagging system #also it took me like. 3 tries to get daniel right #and even now sometimes i look at him like hm ... looks weird #but then i just realize. oh he's just old LOL

[orchid-n-petals]

So I've already shared parts of this on a discord server, but I have to scream about Ketheric Thorm on here as well. Obviously spoilers about the character under the cut! It's a long one.

The entirety of act 2 is about him, right? Jaheira, Shadowheart and numerous other NPCs shit on him for his fickle faith. First Selune, then Shar, then, as we meet him, Myrkul. You hear about his changes of faith on a whim, you hear that he's the person responsible for the shadow curse, he is painted as a villain, plain and simple.

You can figure it out pretty early on that Isobel was resurrected and that she is his daughter; the detail as well that he wants Isobel alive is so on the nose, it gives him away completely but there are still a few questions that remain unanswered, mainly about his faith.

And then you get to the mausoleum and the picture assembles; this entire tragedy, the death of hundreds if not thousands and the complete ruination of a landscape was all, ALL because you had this absolutely wrenched, heartbroken father who had lost everything and nobody answered his grief. He was left woefully alone, the Goddess whose daughter his daughter was involved with did nothing to save Isobel.

Imagine outliving your wife and your daughter. Imagine dedicating your life to fight the Lady of Loss, your Lady of Silver's enemy, and then be left so completely alone and in silence with your grief, with your loss. It's so, so poetic how and why he turned from Selune, and it's so understandable as well; he broke. His spirit completely broke. He couldn't deal with that void of having lost the only two important people in his life, seemingly undeservedly so. He was going mad with this and a lot of his ire was likely targeted at Aylin who, in his eye, represented Selune; she's literally her daughter, after all, and it was implied that even before the deaths of his family, he sort of saw Aylin courting Isobel as Selune taking his daughter from him, despite his service. This relationship was clearly not seen by him as a boon of "giving his daughter to the Moon-maiden".

His ways in the past clearly didn't spare him from tragedy and having to cope with it (which he clearly didn't, he snapped under the weight of his grief). He was clearly angry and unable to do anything, furious and helpless, which is a dangerous combination. A good part of his first change of heart must have been fuelled by a sense of revenge.

But then Shar didn't provide any balm to his aching heart either. If you read his letters in Grymforge and in act 2, he is so focused on enacting the will of Shar because he believes that healing lies in oblivion. Everything would be easier if he could just forget, if the damn world could just forget, if nothing was remembered because without Melodia and Isobel, nothing was worth remembering.

Then came Myrkul. Literally the only god who was not only able, but WILLING to give back his daughter to him. Imagine spending your all, EVERYTHING you have to serve two gods who would not give a single shit about the greatest suffering in your life. You were basically nothing, your loyalty didn't matter for shit, everything that was taken from you amounted to no recognition whatsoever: you should simply cope and seethe. Your grief will not simply go unanswered (which is not inherently antagonising) but ignored.

And then comes this supposedly evil entity who can alleviate your pain just like that, snap of a finger and it's a done deal.

I am so serious when I say that I believe Ketheric's main incentive was to extend Aylin's immortality to Isobel as well. You can read in her diary that she feels a taint after having came back, and there are things not even Selune can cleanse, but at this point, Ketheric doesn't care about Selune, vengeance is secondary if not tertiary, he's done that war during his Shar years and what did it give him? Literally nothing.

He doesn't even care about the fact that Isobel is still her cleric. He cares about the single most important fact: Isobel is back. Life is worth living again, there is something for him, and it was not Selune or Shar who gave it to him but Myrkul, and for this singular gift, he would raze the world for the Lord of Bones. Like people can clown on him for being disloyal but the man has the loyalty of a dog bonded to its owner.

He is powerful and is willing to go to insane lengths for crumbs. What is raising a single life for a god? Nothing. It has happened and it will happen again. But Ketheric will go to the ends of the earth to serve the single god who actually listened to him. The one god who didn't ignore him.

He knows that what he does is not the morally upright thing! He is so insanely self-aware that allying with Orin and Gortash and doing this entire plot with them only to then betray them is morally reprehensible at the best of times, he knows that people hate him, etc-etc. He was a Selunite at one point and he's not stupid. He just doesn't care; it could be literal Asmodeus and he wouldn't care as long as he got what he wanted, no matter the price.

He is probably the only one from the three of the chosen who has complete clarity over his situation, he almost sways (if you pass the check during his confrontation), he is not an inherently evil man blinded by power.

But he is inherently loyal to those deserving, and as of the story's standing, completely broken by his grief. In his eyes, at this point, the only one deserving loyalty is the one who actually listened to him. Isobel lives. It doesn't matter that she hates him, that his entire life has fallen apart, that literally nothing else that is good has come of it, because Isobel lives.

I don't think he regrets a single thing. His consciousness might tear at him at the end, but I believe he would do everything over again, exactly as he did, because in the end, his daughter was brought back. Because what would a grieving, broken parent give to bring back their child? Everything. Absolutely everything. And it's such a simply given answer, no second thoughts, no doubts.

Nobody can tell me that this man is fickle. Nobody. This man was willing to burn the world to the ground, create a Boudica destruction layer all by himself for the one single thing he wanted. For any God that would listen.

I don't know, I just have a lot of thoughts about his character.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #ketheric thorm #and I also have a lot of thoughts of how Aylin foils him #I fully believe that he was in the right in the capacity that he switched around his gods when he was literally ignored despite his life's #work. despite all that he has given. I think it's reasonable to expect in the world of gods who actively meddle in mortal affairs on their #whims and make shit worse that in just one single case they would. idk. NOT expect one of their devotees to remain blindly loyal to them #after their prayers go unanswered. like yes; go and try your luck elsewhere because this devotion of yours is clearly being taken for #granted. you get NOTHING out of your worship. you can't even sleep well because your loved ones are dead and you are expected to just what? #deal with it on your own? and remain loyal? why? #some sense of 'honour'? #I really like this depiction of faith actually. I really like when clerics and paladins are given agency and critical thought that hey! #this is actually giving me nothing despite me dedicating my entire life to it! and I have only one of it so why not take it somewhere where #it's actually valued. you know. as a treat. #I *personally* much more prefer this depiction of a crisis of faith than what we got with Shadowheart or Lae'zel; their stories are very #interesting on their own but I think throwing yourself from one end to the other not because you actually have a goal that it could serve #but because you are desperate for a purpose #is a slightly less potent character narrative than having an actual goal yourself. not by much but by a little. #again #PERSONALLY

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

ORV is about enduring the horrors in real time.

(for @everyonesfavoritebastard)

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #I read a few arcs of ORV a few years back so I am at least loosely familiar with the characters and premise. #ORV dares ask the question: “what if you finally met your beloved blorbo who helped you cope through the horrors - and he *hates you*” #The reversal of what most people feel about some of their blorbos (love them but would never want to meet someone like that in person) #I would love to keep reading orv but it is very long and I already promised to finished like...3 other shows and several books. #my gesture of affection is consuming the media my friends care about. Alas I have none who are into orv to motivate me. #Also hey there raffle winner everyonesfavouritebastard - you gave no prompt at all so I took a random swing based on ur pfp and blog #I hope you like kim dokja! I am terribly sorry if you meant to leave a prompt and something glitched #EDIT: Found out raffle winner everyonesfavouritbastard didn't know it was a raffle. Homie...I'm So Sorry. #Now I *really* hope you like Kim Dokja. #You're so valid; I too would be mesmerized by the beauty of stackedbird's lovely little apple art.

[hollymacycomic]

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#original character #oc art #oc artist #webcomic artist #webcomic update #webcomic page #character story #drama webcomic #narrative art #I'll bury a little personal thing here in the tags 4 myself and 4 you who reads it: #the 'game' or whatever you'd call it where Eli picks Macy up and spins and throws her back on the bed is brought to you by my memory of #my dad doing the same thing with me #he would pick me up off the couch and carry me all the way upstairs with me hanging upside down and then toss me in the air and onto my bed #I loved this soooo so so much. from what I remember he did this up until the point I was too big for him to carry anymore. #which took a few years longer than you might expect because I was (and am) a very tiny creature. #It is probably one of the top three things I miss about my dad. although I don't really rank stuff like that. I love him and I love that he #was the type of person to do that sort of thing. <3

[enbysiriusblack]

james potter could get bitches but he chooses not to (because the bitches he wants, he cannot get)

sirius black could get bitches but he chooses not to (he's so aroace-spec and hates anyone he isn't already friends with <3)

remus lupin cannot get bitches and he chooses not to (head over heels for sirius)

peter pettigrew could get bitches and he does get bitches. male bitches though. my man is gay asf. (please read that in matt berry's voice)

#i am very much against the casanova!remus hc #do not know where the hc is from?? like i think it popped up about 3 years ago maybe?? but i am kindly and personally rejecting it #to me remus is seen as the weird kid. he's so unpopular #love him of course <3 but he is so seen as a weirdo #marauders era #marauders #james potter #sirius black #remus lupin #peter pettigrew

[bevirspnsblmnt]

If Khael had helped Astarion ascend would he have stayed with him? Would he have agreed to becoming his first spawn?

he would let astarion make him way worse than just his first spawn >:3c (ascended astarion and consort-turned-guard-dog khael are dear to my heart, I do think about them sometimes. khael is completely and utterly under astarion's command, he retains a little bit of agency just untill the absolute is defeated and then he would give it up completely. he lives for his sire's praise and to make sure no one ever gets close to him. astarion is caring and sweet with him (all fake and manipulative, of course) and likes to parade him around both as a warning and as a power trip. I think they would be very deadly and ruthless together and that that would be eventually their demise - I can see jaheira/the harpers/wyll needing to hunt them down and put an end to their reign of terror and blood)

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 astarion #khael tav #disegna e bevi #otp: warding bond #tw blood #ascended astarion my bad end beloved #khael would sit immobile and quietly at his sire feet for most of the time and then astarion would just randomly sic him on a poor person #I dont care much dnd rules about this but a feral vampire barbarian I think would be very scary much ouch #I do firmly believe theres no love in astarion anymore n it's all greed possesion and amusement thats why he's still keeping khael with him #idk idk I love bad endings sm I love thinking about them #but they're never endgame for me