#honestly tho i dont think it's that deep. it's just how i have started to see things aaa

[defensivelee]

I can't stop clenching my teeth this is becoming a problem... I really need to bite someone

#this is completely nonsexual nonviolent #i say this with nothing but love but i want to sink my teeth into the ppl i love very much #i don't want it to hurt #i just want to do it #i don't know what i would get from it #but it would make me very happy #im not sure why... i think it's a bite that means nothing at all #honestly tho i dont think it's that deep. it's just how i have started to see things aaa #my crocodile days

[weixuldo]

Linecook Anakin HCs

pleaseeee i cannot get this idea out of my mind (maybe i’m just tryna romanticize my job lol) also lemme just say this list is hella unorganized ( just like my brain lol)

warnings: cursing, ani is a typical horny young adult, smoking; weed

Muscular arms, veins!!

Beautiful blue eyes look up at the screen to see the next meal prep (you imagine those same eyes looking up at you like that if you ever get him on his knees)

He always finds something to compliment you on (even though there’s not much room for expression due to the standard comply uniform)

He’s almost always working cause he wants money and honestly doesn’t mind the atmosphere of the kitchen. 

Plus weed isn't cheap and he likes to smoke :)

On breaks you’ll often see him out back smoking a cig or a vape (depending on his mood).

“You know that stuff is bad for you right?” 

“Yea, i dont really give a shit tho”

You roll your eyes, “well don’t tell me I didn’t warn you when you’re carrying around an oxygen tank in thirty years”

He sent a play sad face your way and exclaimed “That’s so sweet, you’re looking out for my health”

“You’re so full of shit Skywalker” you say as you go back inside.

Though, after that encounter you notice he started to chew a lot more gum and smoke a lot less

He flirts with other waitresses too, but you are definitely his favorite

Reaches stuff on the top shelf when you can't. 

“Need some help princess?”

Winks at you from behind the window

Before you got to know him, you were a little afraid of him

He’s honestly so good at his job that it’s scary- he rarely messes up an order and if it's messed up it’s usually ‘cause someone rang it in wrong.

He’d be messing around one minute then barking orders at people when it got busy- he was always so focused on whatever he was doing whether it be cooking the meat, tossing salads, making desserts, etc

You used to see him roll his eyes or talk shit to other waitresses when they didnt do something right. 

“There’s a button for that ya know-”

“You didn’t tell me no onions”

“Ring it in if he wants it that way- I got too many orders to keep up with the shit you’re tellin’ me”

But he seems to be nicer to you…

“Hey Ani- could I get no tomatoes on this please”

“Sure thing, sweetheart”

“There’s my favorite girl” he says when you walk into the back. 

Some servers get jealous of his blatant favoritism (he takes longer on their orders when they’re nasty to you)

The other cooks get along with him fine

You can often find them goofing around in the back

But they think he’s waaaaay too handsome for his own good.

“Why you workin’ here when you could be on the cover of a magazine?”

“He’s here cause Skywalker’s got terrible manners and no game” another cook laughed.

“the fuck I dont” Anakin responded as the rest of the cooks all laughed along. 

His coworkers like to tease him when they see how flirty he gets when you come around. 

Nicknames include: “Pretty boy”, “player”, “heartthrob”

The heat of the appliances mixed with the rush of the night end up giving him a sheen of sweat and a warm blush to his pretty face. 

Ngl, this man would get greasy by the end of the night…

Dried food, condiments,and oils staining his black shirt

By the end of the shift he would have a lingering smell of char from the grill as well as a combined smell of all the food in the kitchen and his own musk from his sweat.

But the blend of labored scents mixed with his cheap cologne and deodorant made for an oddly enticing aroma.

You would joke with him during closing about how bad he smelled, though deep down you knew you liked it. 

“Yea, well we can’t all be in the front smelling like daisies and sunshine” he joked. 

He thought you smelled nice? You had worked a full day too- there was no way.

You insisted you didn’t smell much better than him but he shook his head, “nah princess, I could breathe you in all day”

That may have been a little creepy coming from anyone else, but it was anakin… the hottest guy in the restaurant, the talented cook, the guy you had a huge crush on. 

He’ll saunter into the back while you’re rolling your silverware and chat with you

“Ugh, I’m so ready to ge the fuck outta here” he sighs.

“Tell me about it, today has been so long” 

“Have you atleast made decent money?” 

“Yeah”

He laughs

“What’s so funny?”

“I don’t know why I even asked if you made good money- I should know the answer to that when talking to a girl with such a pretty face,” he says, before slipping back into the kitchen, leaving you with a heavy blush. 

He loves when you’re on ice for side work because the ice machine is right by him in the kitchen 

He likes to watch your ass as you bend down to shovel the ice- if he’s lucky he catches a glimpse of your lacy panties as they ride up your hips. 

When it’s not busy he carries the bucket for you and revels in all of your adorable “thank you’s”

His least favorite side work for you is when you are assigned to the front house because that means you’ll be spending most of the night in the dining area rather than in the back with him. 

Asks what you’re doing on your day off. 

“Probably gonna get high with some friends”

His eyes widened, “you smoke?!”

“Occasionally”

“Weren’t you the one who told me i’d be toting around an oxygen tank?” he quipped and you rolled your eyes. 

“Chill out pretty boy, I mainly just do eddies”

“And you never told me this?!” he grabbed at his heart with a dramatic expression. 

With the new info he spends the next few days working up the nerve to ask you to smoke with him sometime. 

Lucky for him, you’re closing on Saturday and so is he. 

After you check out all of the other servers and do your side work, you head to your car but Anakin calls your name before you leave the kitchen. 

He invites you to hot box in his car before you go and to his surprise you agree (you had a rough night, so why not? plus he is your crush after all)

You get into his car and unbutton your top a bit, it was hot in the restaurant today. 

He turns on the AC and steals a glance at the lacy bra you have on. 

After passing around a blunt the two of you are getting up there; maybe it’s the delirium or maybe it’s the weed, but he is looking finer than ever

you can’t help but hold the blunt between your fingers as you lean across the center console and press your lips against his

he sucks in a breath in surprise before he returns the action.

soon you’re on his lap, grinding on his growing bulge as he runs his strong hands through your hair and all along your body

tbh, you don’t even care that you have open shift tomorrow- this is worth being sleepy

#anakin is so hot #line cook anakin #anakin needs a hug #hcs #anakin hcs #anakin x fem reader #anakin x reader #anakin #star wars #star wars x reader #anakin x you #restraunt #restraunt au

[h0n3yj4y]

Mean!Mike x Fem Reader

Nsfw - aged up Mike to 19 👍

Warnings: smut, rough sex, cursing, mocking, degrading, chocking, light slapping, Master/Daddy kink (both cuz why not), overstimulation i think, climax denial, licking lol, he yells at u a lil, idk what else to put but u get the gist 🤭 its a bit of a slow burn, theres build up to the actual rough sex so yea

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You and ur boyfriend Mike where in his basement watching a movie that honestly neither of u were paying attention to. Why? Well, a certain someone was slowly inching their hand further up ur thigh.

Mike loved doing this, in public places, around friends, just to see ur reaction and how easily wet u got over him trailing his hand up and down ur thigh, occasionally tightly gripping it which would make u gasp, that would make him smirk at u. He'd have a cocky smile, proud of himself.

But this time Mike had other plans than just lightly teasing u like this. Instead of stopping, he kept going, until he reached ur clothed cunt, you were only wearing underwear and one of Mike's oversized sweaters, so it was very easy access for him. He softly rubbed a few figure eights which made u let out a shaky breath due to the sensation. U turned ur head to Mike who was still looking at the movie, pretending as he wasn't doing anything but oh but he knows what hes doing to you.

You started to squirm a little, getting impatient, softly whimpering. "Did i tell you you could move, slut.?" you then heard ur boyfriend say in a stern tone as he pulls his hand away and looks down at you with an intimidating gaze, a gaze that would make u melt and obey his every command. You looked up at him shyly and shaked your head "n-no..." - "No what? Hmm?" - "N-no...Master.." you look away from him feeling a bit embarrassed, you liked this all too much tho.

You felt Mike grab ur chin and aggressively turn your head to face him "Look at me when im talking to you bitch!" you flinch a lil at his sudden raise of voice. "I-im sorry Master, it wont happen again..." - "Good girl, it better not."

You were used to Mike getting aggressive like this when it came to doing intimate things, it was all part of him asserting dominance and you loved every part of it but tried not to let him know, though we all know he does. You were terrible at hiding when you really liked something, he could easily tell.

"You know, i think a lil slut like you deserves a punishment. You'd like that wouldn't you?" hearing those words come out of Mike's mouth made u squeeze ur thighs together tightly, it was so fucking hot. You completely forgot that he still had his hand resting on ur upper thigh, so he felt u press ur thighs together. He smirks "Guess that's a yes huh? Thought so."

He took his hand of ur chin as he pinned u down on the couch, both hands above ur head. His other free hand roamed down to ur dripping cunt as he removed ur underwear then raising the sweater over ur stomach for better access and view. You tried to get away from his grip but he tightened his grip on ur wrists, making u whimper in pain. There was no chance of u ever getting away from his grip, he was way stronger than u anyways.

Mike notices that and smiles innocentlg at u "Aww, did i accidentally hurt my lil baby?" he asks u with a lil pout "y-yes, a lil bit" his innocent act goes away very quickly after u say that, his facial expression drops to a stern one. "Well suck it up cuz there's more where that came from and i promise you it'll be way worse if u dont obey, ok Bunny?" you quickly nod, obeying him and trying ur best to not disobey him or do anything that will upset him again. Though u kinda want to provoke him, you love when his voice gets all deep and serious, it has a nice rasp, its very, very hot. You love it even more when hes rough with u like this, its a feeling like no other.

As you were drifting off thinking of how hot and amazing ur boyfriend is, u feel 2 fingers being shoved inside u, making u let out a loud moan as u arch ur back, not really expecting him to start off so harshly already.

"uh- uh, did i tell you that you could moan whore? You better stay quite or else, ok?" u bite ur lip and nod. He starts to pump and curl his long digits in and out of u, hitting ur sweet spot everytime without missing. This is making u go crazy, u don't know how longer u can stay quite.

As ur trying super hard to keep ur mouth shut, you see Mike lean down towards ur clit, looking at u with a devilish smirk as he starts to swirl his tongue on it at a painfully good rhythm. This is what brakes u, u cant hold it in anymore. You let out a loud moan, the overwhelming pleasure being too much. You feel urself getting close causing u too grab at Mikes hair and throw ur head back.

As u do this Mike suddenly stops, he takes his fingers out of u and takes ur hand off his hair as he then hovers over u and leans in ur ear, proceeding to then choke u pretty harshly making u gasp and grab his arm as he then whispers "What did i fucking tell you, hm? I told u to not make a single sound or even touch me, right? So why did you fucking do it you whore? couldn't obey a simple rule that Daddy gave u huh?" he sternly and angrily says in ur ear, nibbling at it a bit harshly, a shiver runs down ur spine, being very intimidated and extremely aroused.

"I-im sorry Daddy, pls it just felt too good, i c-couldn't help myself..." u stutter, Mike tsk's at u as he leans away from ur ear, making eye contact with u. He slaps ur cheek, not too harshly but enough for it to sting a lil as he then grabs ur face "pff, how pathetic. Well, i guess u give me no choice but to harshly fuck ur tight lil cunt, i bet you'd love it if i fucked u dumb, like the good cock slut u are, isn't that right Angel?" that all made u squirm and close ur legs in arousal. You shyly nod ur head but that doesn't satisfy Mike.

"Oh c'mon, us ur words slut. You have a mouth right? Then use it." he shakes ur head a lil as u then stutter out a "y-yes Daddy, p-please" - "Good girl, now be a good slut for ur Master and bend over for me won't u" he places a kiss on ur lips passionately making u smile as u then obey as u turn around and rest on ur elbows, ass up infront of Mike. He slaps ur ass harshly and u let out a quite moan, not expecting that and it hurting a lil but feeling good.

You hear Mike unbuckle his pants as he takes them off and his boxers, throwing them somewhere in the basements floor. You then feel the tip of his dick press againts ur entrance in a teasing way, making u whimper, wanting him so badly.

"Aw what's wrong Bunny? So desperate to have my cock deep inside ur dripping cunt? Ur so wet for me, you know that right?" - "yes M-master please, i want u so badly please. I need ur huge cock deep inside me now" u say with whimpers as u sway ur hips, trying to get some friction, so desperate to have his huge cock inside u.

You hear Mike chuckle "alright Angel, if u say so" u then feel him shove his cock deep inside of you very harshly as he holds onto ur hip with one hand and the other goes to harshly pull ur hair to throw ur head back. You let out very loud moans, the pain and pleasure feeling amazing but also very overwhelming.

You try ur best to not be very loud but its literally impossible at the pace he's going. Mike's pounding into u hard and fast, having no intentions of slowing down. U keep letting out loud moans until u feel 3 fingers being shoved in ur mouth, followed by a harsh pull of ur hair.

Mike leans close to ur ear as he sternly whispers "Shut the fuck up whore, u wouldn't want anyone hearing us now would u? But now that I think about it, you would like it, you'd love for people to know who you belong to and how I make you feel. For everyone to know ur Daddy's lil cock slut." All u can muster out are muffled moans as he starts to go faster and harsher making u roll ur eyes back. Mike rests his head on ghe crook of ur next, biting down harshly making u mewl in pleasure, he then licks the spot he abused since he drew a bit if blood.

U ghen feel a knot forming at ur lower stomach so u try to tell Mike that ur close and u succeed but what u didn't expect was Mike coming to a stop and pulling out of u all of a sudden, letting go of ur hair and taking his fingers out ur mouth.

U moan in confusion and frustration, just being denied ur climax. U are about to say something but Mike then flips you around so that you are laying on your back, facing him. He then shoves himself back inside of u, picking his fast and harsh pace back up, making u arch ur bike and let out even more louder moans. Before you can let out another moan you feel Mike's lips against yours as he kisses you harshly, getting u to shut up or to at least muffle ur slutty moans.

He pulls away for a sec "God shut the fuck up already whore, ur so fucking loud." don't get him wrong he loves hearing ur beautiful moans and how u moan out his name but u were seriously being so loud, u were gonna get eachother caught. He goes back to kissing u, this time choking u a bit to make sure u stay quiet enough.

U loved how his hand perfectly wrapped around ur neck, almost feels as if it was fit to belong around ur neck and ur absolutely living for that.

As Mike continues his fast and harsh pace, u feel a knot form at ur stomach meaning that u were close again. "Mmm M-mike im close" - "Hold it, don't u dare cum yet" u whimpered in agony, u dont think u can hold it, it was too much. "You'll cum when i tell u." he growled, burying his face in the crook of ur neck. U felt him kiss ur neck and nibble at it, licking ur sensitive spot whenever he would suck on ur neck which made u go crazy. U loved the sensation of his warm, soft tongue trailing along ur neck, especially on the places he's marked.

You felt his dick twitch inside u as he says "Cum for me baby, now." - "y-yes Daddy mmm, cum inside me pls, fill me up" u were on birth control so it was ok for Mike to cum inside u. You then let out a loud muffled moan as u clawed at Mike's back, cumming all over his cock as he then let out a moan of his own, climaxing inside of u, filling u up.

You both road out ur highs as he then pulled out of u, both of u catching ur breaths. Mike hovered over u, looking u up and down, smiling down at u, placing a soft kiss on ur lips. You sighed in relief, smiling back at him and cupping his face as u caressed him comfortingly.

"You ok baby? Need anything? Did i hurt u?" Ah yes, anytime u and Mike have harsh sex, he takes good care of u afterwards. Getting all worried and asking you if u need anything every 5 seconds. You loved how caring he was afterwards, he was truly the best. "Im ok Mikey dont worry, u didn't hurt me at all" you smile reassuringly at ur worried boyfriend. "You sure? Please tell me." - "Yes Mike im ok! don`t worry so much, i will be ok, though i don't think i'll be able to walk for awhile."

Mike laughs and kisses ur forehead "Yea i know u won't be able too, gonna have to carry u around like a baby" - "oh fuck off" - "Love you toooo" you both share some laughs and sweet sensual kisses and hand holding. Mike then gets both of u cleaned up, giving u a new pair of underwear and a mute green sweater of his to wear.

U both then go to his room as u fall asleep in eachothers arms. Feeling safer than ever and so very loved.

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A/N: AAAAH this is my first ever ff so plsss don't bash me if its kinda bad. I finished writing this at like 2am im so tired guys. (⸝⸝o̴̶̷᷄﹏o̴̶̷̥⸝⸝)

Anywho, i hope u enjoyed it! I don`t write a whole lot but i might write some headcanons or imagines for Mike or/and Miles in the future. Might do other Finn characters aswell like Richie and Boris. Uuuu maybe i will write some Will Byers stuff and Byler stuff aswell! Who knows we will see, anyways good night now, take care luvs <3

OH ALSO IF THERE ARE ANY SPELLING MISTAKES PLS TELL ME SO I CAN FIX EM, THANK U BYE BYE💛🌻🌼🌾

#mike wheeler #mike wheeler x reader #mike wheeler x you #mike wheeler x y/n #mike wheeler smut #mike wheeler is hot af and u cant change my mind #god the things i'd let this man do to me #I mean huh what #Sorry got hacked🤭 #Mike wheeler is so pretty #finn wolfhard #finn wolfhard x reader #miles fairchild x reader #Finnverse #boris pavlikovsky #richie tozier #boris pavlikovsky x reader #richie tozier x reader

[wonderland-x-showtime]

I'm sorry if I submitted a request alr or if reqs r closed - I'm forgetful with things like this - but could I ask for some rui x reader comfort where reader is someone who gets along with basically everyone at school well and Rui feels like he isn't deserving of them as a partner because he's not as emotionally open or "normal" as them? So, reader asks him about not spending as much time next to them at school as he typically does which causes him to just break a little and cry.

Thanks in advance, you obv dont have to do this tho!

RUI WITH A MORE POPULAR READER

THIS IS SOOO BITTERSWEET poor rui frfr…,,, sorry this took so long! like i said finals is literally this week and I’m more busier than usual! and don’t worry, you haven’t submitted a request until now! also, i didn’t really understand what it meant by "reader asks him about not spending as much time next to them as he typically does”, so i went with my best guess and though that maybe you wanted RUI to just.. slowly avoid reader subconsciously as he also subconsciously held himself back during the Halloween event in wxs when TSUKASA gets injured by one of his inventions? sorry if this is not the case, please let me know and i will rewrite it. hope you enjoy the show!

KAMISHIRO RUI (神代類)

when you first started dating, RUI was honestly surprised. of course he didn’t doubt your love as just a simple prank on him, but he did overthink a lot bit since he’s well aware of both your social status’

you’re incredibly popular and loved by many people in school while he’s.. nobody. he’s a weirdo, as others would put.

you knew that and you still loved him despite the rumors spreading around that he might plan on blowing up the entire school, why? he genuinely believes he’s ruined your social reputation just by talking to him. despite all the rumors and weirdness he brought, you genuinely loved him.. right?

he doesn’t open up to you about his concerns as he was afraid you would realize that he’s right and leave him. instead he treats you in the best-RUI way possible.. although he’s a bit dumb when it comes to having a romantic relationship.

slowly say by day, the constant overthinking about how much he thinks he’s ruined your social life has taken a negative toll on his mental health and thus subconsciously led him to avoiding you more around school. it hurt him doing this but knew you’d be better off without him

this devastated you greatly, but you weren’t ready to give up on him. one day you finally corner him (NOT LITERALLY LMAO) and desperately ask him why he’s been avoiding you many times during the weeks which eventually led to months.

while he wouldn’t really cry at any situation, this one led him to slowly break down a tiny bit as he still tried to smile a bit, although it was very wonky and just sad to look at. he’s a quiet crier, so he whispers gently and tells you everything he’s been constantly thinking about. your reputation, his reputation, how he feels like a bad curse that’s ruining your reputation.

in the end though, you comfort him with a hug and a pep talk (or just a simple pep talk if you’re uncomfortable with physical touch) that you don’t care how negatively he affects your social reputation. if anyone dares to ask why, you will by staying by his side no matter what. you chose him as your boyfriend for a reason.

eventually this calms RUI down as he apologizes for crying a little bit in front of you, feeling very embarrassed by it. you tell him it’s fine, and he thanks you, thanks you for everything you said specifically. he knew you meant it deep inside your heart, and eventually he was able to return back to the same old RUI after that moment of vulnerability he had

while after since then he’s been less concerned about his reputation ruining yours, the thoughts will still be in his mind no matter what. it’s not like it’ll go away the minute you told him how you truly felt about him, but it’s mostly in the back of his mind now. he tries now to be more open to you privately about his feelings, knowing he shouldn’t keep you in the dust anymore.

#WAHAHA! WONDERLAND X SHOWTIME HAS APPEARED! ✨ || writing~ #pjsk #pjsk x reader #project sekai #project sekai: colorful stage #wonderland x showtime #wxs x reader #rui kamishiro x reader #kamishiro rui x reader #rui kamishiro #kamishiro rui

[zyonsay]

boy, havent opened tumblr in a fat minute

hyd zyon!!!! ^_^ man when lando won i remembered you, and thought about you probably freaking out abt it lol

hope you've been doing well!!! what's your opinion on this season so far? im in shambles cause fernando kinda just.,., gave up. completely devastated. spiraling. rotting. sad and bothered.

still absolutely in shock at mclarens performance tho, the difference between this season and last year's is vrazyyy im so proud of the team honestly

i dont think ill start being active again BUT i wish you and all anons the best!!! love you!!! have a wonderful day/night ^_^ yall are so cool and awesome and thank you for letting me borrow your multiple ferraris and for helping my grandma with the groceries

btw WHO is joost klein.

🧼

I LOVE WHEN YOU LEAVE A WHOLE PARAGRAPH IN MY INBOX OMG

I actually missed the Miami gp so i didnt see bro win but trust me I WAS TWEAKING (in a good way)

Im honestly pretty happy with how the season is going at the moment. I love how the competition is a bit more active, even though i love seeing my husband on p1. McLarens performance is awesome and im so ready to see an Oscar p1. (Manifestando 🕯️)

I hope you‘re doing alright <3 i also kinda took a break, everything got a bit too much. I think i wont open my reqs for a long time. It started feeling like im just writing to push out more works and not because i actually enjoy it. And constantly writing smut really made my motivation disappear. I wanna start writing more self indulgently!

SOO, Joost Klein is a dutch musician who represented the Netherlands at Eurovision. He‘s really chill and kinda goofy and i LOVE THIS MAN OMG. His songs sound very happy go lucky but they usually have a much deeper meaning. His most recent one „Europapa“ doesnt seem that deep and more like a fun song but i actually cried when i read the lyrics.

IF YOU WANT ANOTHER RECOMANDATION, i really love Ski Aggu. Him and Joost had made a collab before, but i also like his other music. Its mostly chill party music, but again some of them are sad as fuck.

#zyonsmail=͟͟͞͞ ✉ #welcome to zyons rubber room #joost klein #justice for joost #joostice #bubble #dear soap anon

[lovestruckaphrodite]

Hey! I got a req, so I do a req

@smexyanimepotatosstuff here you go luv, hope you enjoy it!

~~1st person pov~~

⏳payback⏳

it's been two weeks and 4 days. 18 fucking days in total since I helped Eraser Head.

~flashback kinda thing~

It all began on a seemingly ordinary afternoon when i was going about my daily routine. As i walked down the busy streets of Musutafu, i noticed a commotion up ahead. Curiosity piqued, i quickened my pace and soon found myself at the scene of a crime, the villain known as timekeeper running away, laughing.

Eraser Head was already engaged in battle with Timekeeper when i arrived. his stoic demeanor and seemingly calm actions were evident as he tried to neutralize Timekeeper's powers.

As i watched the intense struggle unfold, a surge of adrenaline coursed through my veins. i couldn't stand idly when it was obvious that he didn't know how to defeat him! With a newfound sense of purpose, i approached Eraser Head cautiously but confidently.

"Excuse me," i called out, catching Eraser Head's attention amidst the chaos. "I think I might be able to help."

Eraser Head turned to face me, his expression a mix of surprise and curiosity, tho that was hardly noticeable through his deadpan expression. "How could you possibly assist me?" he asked, skepticism evident in his voice, tho he kept it quite monotone.

i took a deep breath, gathering my thoughts before responding.

'do i really want to do this?'

"I've been studying Timekeeper's abilities for quite some time now. I believe I have a theory on how to counteract his powers."

Eraser Head's interest was piqued. He motioned for me to continue, and i explained my theory in detail. i proposed that by disrupting the frequency at which Timekeeper manipulated time, we could potentially weaken his control over it. a simple high-frequency video on youtube, like a dog whistle would work

He listened intently, weighing the possibilities. Despite his initial doubts, he recognized the potential value of my theory.

"thank fuck,'

With no other viable options at hand, he decided to put his trust in me, knowing it might just ruin this, or finish this.

"Alright," He said, "Let's give it a try."

Together, me and Eraser Head formulated a plan of attack. While Eraser Head engaged Timekeeper in combat, I positioned myself behind a trash bin out of sight, getting ready to start the audio. The tension in the air was palpable as we executed their plan(almost flawlessly.)

As the phone emitted its disruptive frequency, Timekeeper's control over time began to waver. His movements became sluggish and erratic, allowing Eraser Head to seize the advantage. With a swift and decisive strike, Eraser Head incapacitated Timekeeper, rendering him powerless.

The battle was won, thanks to my help. Eraser Head turned to me with gratitude in his eyes, tho at the time i couldn't really see it through his deadpan smile.

"I couldn't have done it without you," he admitted, a hint of admiration in his voice. "ill pay you back soon."

~~okay back to reality~~

he said he would pay me back, yet here the fuck we are, more than a week later

honestly, i should have left him to deal with that fucker himself, rather then risk my life to help him

i sip my coffe on the couch, thinking of how dumb that really was. i could have done nothing, but no, i had to go and play hero

knock knock knock

i dont think anyone was coming over, nobody has texted me recently or anything

hesitantly, i go to look through the peephole

there, at my fucking doorstep, stoop nonother than himself, Eraserhead

'Speak of the fucking devil himself'

i open the door

"hello Eraserhead, come to pay me back?" i say with a glare looking at him.

he stands there with a deadpan look on his face. hes wearing a full black outfit, with the exception of a silver bracelet on his left wrist. is hair is up, and it really looks like he doesn't want to be here

"yeah, i guess. you should be grateful you didn't die, i shouldn't have to pay you back for your reckless actions" he says, monotone

"those 'reckless actions' saved you from a battle you couldn't win on your own. you could have died without me. you, should be grateful i helped you.'' i say with a scoff

hes seriously acting like im in the wrong here? you are the one who waited two fucking weeks to come here, and now you act like its my fault and that i did something that wasnt right?

"yes, and i thank you for that, which is why, im asking you for dinner," he says monotonously

my world stopped. like froze. what in the actual fuck just happened?

"uhm- im sorry, what?''i say, purely confused

why? why is he giving me attitude on minute and then fucking asking me out the next?

"go to dinner with me. as a thank you" he says nonchalantly

"okay okay, wait. so, you, Eraserhead, are asking me out?" i say, looking at him

"well, not necessarily, unless you want it to be like that," he says with a shrug

"huh. wow, uhm okay..." i say "When?" i say, sighing softly

"whenever you want, im free tonight," he says with a shrug

god this is so soon, too soon, if im being frank

"okay. okay, wow. pick me up at 7, tonight. ill be ready then"i say, running a hand through my hair

"alright, where something nice yeah?" he says, waving bye before walking away

i wave back, closing my door behind him

holy fuck.

that was fast. to fast. way too fast.

how did this even fucking happen?

one minute hes lecturing me for saving his ass, next hes fucking asking me out?

i check my phone

2:19

i have roughly four and a half hours until our date

is it even really a date?

no, its not. its just a dinner. with a S rank pro hero. whose life i basically saved

wow, alright

you got this [name]

its not like its new to you. just a dinner. with a hero who has most likely been with like alot of other girls.

but wait no its not like that. nope

no way he would ask me out like that. he's a hero, he probably has standards higher than the Tokyo Skytree for fucks sake. hes a very expressive man. dull, yes, but expressive. if he wanted me, (which he doesnt) he would say so. right?

~~timeskip bc its been 4 FUCKING HOURS IM SO TIRED OF THIS~~

it is currently 6:43 and im not even done getting ready.

my god this is bad

i finish getting ready as fast as possible. no im serious, i think i broke a record.

(you pick what your wearing lovelies)

i hear the doorbell ring, and i run downstairs faster then fucking sonic, opening the door and stumbling slightly

"woah there, hi" he says, grabbing me slightly so i dont fall

"hi. sorry bout that, heh"i say, standing upright again

"its fine, shall we?" he says, handing his hand out for me to take

i nod, smiling softly, taking his hand in yours, walking to his car

as we drive, the beginning was sorta awkward, but it evened out, talking and laughing he drives us

we get to the restaurant (you pick, idrc, could be Dennys if you want tbh) and get seated, ordering our food (we got the same thing as him, jus to save time ig)

talking about his job, or his cats, or my job, and my pet(s). turns out, hes not as bad as i thought. he talked about his students and his cats. maybe one day ill get to meet them

"huh, never thought i would actually enjoy hanging out with you" i say, laughing slightly, taking a bite of my meal

"i know, crazy right? That im an interesting person" he says with a small chuckle, us both finishing our meals soon after, leaving the restaurant, and starting the drive back home

he drops me off at the door of my house, smiling softly

"thank you, Eraserhead. i had fun" i say sheepishly, looking own. suddenly the floor is looking really nice

"please, call me Aizawa, and i did aswell" he says, smiling softly, looking down

"do you think that maybe...i could have your number?" i ask, looking down. yeah, thats a real nice floor...

"yeah. of course" i say, and we exchange numbers

"again, thank you Aizawa, ill see you next time i suppose," i say, leaning in and giving him a soft kiss on the cheek, before turning away and going inside the house, flopping on the couch, all giddy like

outside the now closed door, he brings a hand to his cheek in which you kissed, before turning and walking back to his car

okay holy fuck im done. i know this is bad, and kida rushed, but this thing took me 4 fucking hours. sorry it seems so rushed, im having massive writers block and i am going to jump fr/j anywyas, hope you enjoyed ig.

#mha #mha x reader #mha x you #my hero acedamia #aizawa sensei #aizawa x reader #my hero academia aizawa #aizawa shota x reader #bnha #bnha fanfiction #bnha x reader #bnha x you #boku no hero academia

[not-catgirls-hornyposts]

I think its finally time to say how just a few days were enough to get me chewing on dog chewstick...

Well yeah am a puppygirl now.

It started after the hypno accident, I was about to collaps, I made myself ready to sleep amd wanted to say good night. Adrenaline was slowly fading and I looked through discord. Nearly everyone was asleep except 3 people on a puppy server. One was a handler, two were puppys. It was cute how they played so I just joined. Our handler put us into a cage, a big one with blahaj inside etc. We started playing a bit. Didn't even noiticed that I was ko and fucked up. I just wanted to play with them. It released stress. It was funny. I loved playing with them. It was so funny when I started crawling under blankets etc and yeah. I even thought like a dog. Didnt realised that. Loved it tho. It came abruptly to an end when the third one didn't answered anymore. I tucked her in and took care of the other one... hell if I know what that would start... well I would have done it ig. Anyway we went back to sleep. Was late. Not for her tho.

The next day started early with nearly no sleep. The only sleep I had was after relaxing with pup play. So I started the day verifying that everything from the Hypno stuff went back to normal. After that, I started to puppyplay a bit, I just came into a chat where it was kind of starting. I just joined. Then someone there noiticed me and asked me if we wanna play together. I nodded, did not expect what was about to happen. Suddenly this person wrote lewd stuff, half a page for each woof I made and asked me to get into her dms. I was hella confused and my thinking was switched off. We continued there, she wrote stuff I didn't even understood anymore, confused me more and more and BAM I was in puppy space. And kind of nonverbal too :3

So she decided to go and I was still puppy, not really understanding whats happening and wanting to play, like chasing a ball or cuddle or anything. So I started to wander around on discord. Went in the hypno server which is always active and got bullied there, not in a nice way. Which made me really sad. Appearently my mind thought: Hey, lets just go deeper into puppy space. So yeah, I went very deep. Then I wandered around again, good idea hm?

Well this time I went to my gf and was there. She needed to sleep tho, so I let her sleep, waited till she heard the emergency dream (I honestly feel really bad that I didnt gave her one) and told her that I love her and let her sleep. Then I wandered around AGAIN

This time I went to Kira which first just.... I dont really remember but she played with me and panicked cause she didnt understood what was going on. After some time I got normal again.... well normal to the point that I was both dog and human, gained Phantomtouch and felt like a dog. She was worried and thought someone had hypnotised me. I dont really understand it myself, probably that this sudden erp surprised me, confused me enough that I hypnotised myself? I guess one of that things. This feeling was weird, but till now everything went down again. But I miss my tail :3

Well thats how I became a puppygirl

[borderline-gays-club]

02/11/24. 11:20pm

I can’t fully explain why but I feel a type of sadness that feels very complicated. I think it’s a general sadness related to too many things to really list. But I can’t help but grieve all my years I lost. I kno I say this a lot but tbh I don’t really know how to process all the years ive wasted.

im frustrated. im angry. im anxious. im sad. im devastated. im hopeful.

i just feel like im starting over again. and again. and again. and again. im just tired of having constantly changing selves.

im honestly so envious of ppl who are firm in who they are. i want that so badly. i want to b able to say this is me! take it or leave it! ive had selves that felt that way, but eventually they transform into something else. like that person never existed.

im tired of constantly being deep in this work. i want a break but i cant afford one.

i kno this is just me rn, im sure itll pass, but i want to run away. just for a bit. or maybe forever. ill just exist online. going place to place. a nomadic life alone. i just want to run…

i kno im romanticizing that life. i kno its not what i truly want. im just tired and kinda want to disconnect from my everyday life for a little bit. moments like this i want to admit myself to the psych ward. but i kno its just bc i want to leave my stuckness. i kno that place is hell…im lucky ive never been admitted.

anyway im just sad. tired. wanting change so bad but feeling so stuck. everything around us is falling apart. how can i not b sad? we all got this opportunity to life and we have to survive this hellscape of a place. no wonder suicide rates are going up.

this will pass tho. my will to live is too strong. i dont want to kill myself. not at all. hope is practice and ive really been holding on

#actually bpd #bgc #bpd #bpd thoughts #quiet borderline #actually borderline #bpd shit

[mummer]

If the show does go on long enough to do the anthology idea, how would you like them to handle it? Blackfyre rebelion is the most obvious point to right after, buuut I feel like that would be wee bit too similar to the Dance, on the surface level anyway. Wonder if there is a way to do Dunk and Egg stories before actually showing the rebelion.

honestly my concern about expanding house of the dragon to other targ eras (if they want to make something on the same scope/the same genre conventions as got & hotd) is purely marketing based. like from hbo's perspective. the only f&b stories i think could maybe Work As A Show would be mmaaaaybe aegon's conquest (i have gripes with this idea but it's at the very least marketable, tho iirc it already got pitched and rejected), or maegor's reign (go full gothic horror with it you COWARDS). jaehaerys' era is too longwinded and not enough big stuff happens to justify a big franchise tv show (rip rhaena desperate housewives). as much as it pains me, you really need a war! but either way, they can't exactly go... backwards in time right? how confusing would that be for 20 million casual viewers? they already had to spend like a hundred mil marketing hotd. hotd is the GOT prequel, and then hotd: the conquest or hotd: the cruel would be... the prequel to the prequel? how do you sell that or communicate the timeline clearly? it would all be under the same title so how would they differentiate the eras? idk how they would pull it off, though it's not impossible i guess

so what seems like a better root is a post-f&b story (which has the additional challenge of not having any previously fleshed out grrm lore, just some even lighter barely-there outlines)-- aegon iii's reign + the rogare crisis would be sick as hell but also wouldnt fit a prestige franchise tv show, it's just too pedestrian. daeron i + dorne is kind of anticlimactic, baelor CANNOT carry a show, etc. so i think the 1st blackfyre rebellion maybe starting with a season of aegon iv is probably the most likely (though balancing out the sides so the blackfyres arent obviously The Worst would be difficult, i feel). it would benefit from syncing up some characters with dunk and egg which iirc is already p deep in development. anything after that conflicts too much with d & e and would be better covered there, until basically robert's rebellion lol (sucks to suck, jaehaerys ii) and i dont think grrm is interested in doing a show about that even though it would probably be the biggest bang for hbo's buck. like a bajillion bajillion dollars instantly. sooooo it's kind of a bizarre situation for them and i do not envy them

#this is not like a slight on casual viewers god i wish that were me #this is an unhingedly long post extrapolating about franchise marketing i apologize. #hotd #like i completely understand making a tv show about the dance. 100% best option out of all the histories. would be my first pick too #but what i dont get is making a targ *anthology* series and then starting with the dance. in the middle. and then hopping randomly #across the timeline to something else. obv hotd (the dance) will be in production for like 6 more years so theres no need to think about it #too much now but im so curious what direction theyll go to #esp if dunk and egg is already in like season 3 by the time they're done with the dance

[zenosanalytic]

Paintbrush, Plasglue, and Holy Clippers: Skeletons Part 1

I have painted the Unquiet and Restless Dead >:3

My initial plan after The Goons was to start painting Orcs and Goblins to continue the skintone practice into greens and blues, but 1)I didn't have enough minis to really do that justice and 2)I saw some Really Cool Skeletons sculpts while out gathering goblinoids and I just had to try those first uwu uwu Here they are in their Baxes

And Here they are finished(and under the same image-editing I used for the last post; looking at these on my pc there's some definite distortion -I'm thinking maybe the Sharpen or HD function?- so I'll try to figure out better settings in future, or just a better lighting setup >:T)

I, again, didn't have the time to do this in one sitting; it took me from the 5th of October to the 16th.

My first idea was to batchpaint these, but 1)I hadn't used any of these bone colors before so didn't really have a preference and 2)6 is way too few for that. So my second idea was to do a color-test: paint each of the three sets in a different base, use one shade on half of them and another shade on the other half, and then see which ones I liked. But again: six isn't really enough for that either |:T |:T So so, in the end I just decided to go Hog Wild: The two WizKid "Deep Cut" minis I painted in a Vallejo mixture I cooked up, and the rest I based each in their own color. I actl HAVE good notes and process pics to share on this one, so I'll break this up into probably 2 posts. In this one I'll cover what I'm calling "The Wight", who really just needs to get some sleep c'mon guys!, and its Inevitable Odd-Couple Platonic Unlife Partner, The Champ(sword and shield).

Here's my Tired, Tired Corpse

My vallejo bone-recipe: 3parts Yellow Ochre(mustard yellow), 2parts Dark Sand(a dark beige/ivory), and 1part Off-White(honestly really close to the housepaint of the same name). I, sadly, didn't have an ivory at the time X| X| X| The "part" here is just 1 brush's-worth of each paint; each drop from the bottle is WAY MORE PAINT than you'd need for just two models. Vallejo's Off-White was WAAAAY Stronger than the other two colors so fyi

I really want to try out Vallejo's Ivory(which I, in the Future, have Now >:> >:>), but I REALLY liked the result of this mix; it's a nice, yellowed old-bone look. I shaded Wight in Earthshade and Champ in Sepia(both citadel shades)

Again: I really love both of these -___- the sepia on this base gives good shadows and a "clean" bone look, like THIS is a skeleton that CARES about its Appearance(which I also feel fits the vaguely charismatic, 'Party Time!' pose it's in XD); while the Earthshade gives strong, deep shadows and really Grunges up this skeleton that has Given Up on undeath, Quite Honestly, and just really wants to lie in its tombdust and Rot in PEACE why do you Adventurers keep COMING HERE?!?!

Weapons Next. I wanted Wight's sword to have a ice-enchanted look to it, so I figured I'd try out some dark blues I had: Beowulf and Cloudburst from Army Painter, and Dark Prussian Blue from Vallejo

I did a few swatches of them on the tissue I use to clean my brushes; Beowulf was too bright, DPB too dark, and I liked the look of Cloudburst(tho: thinking about it now, I prob could've done a Really Cool gradient of Cloudburst from the hilt to Beowulf at the tip. Something to try in future ^v^ ^v^). I followed that up by lighenting DPB with the LEETLEST BEET of offwhite, and picking out some edges and nicks in the sword with it. Here's how that looked.

Neat!

Champ's sword I painted in Vallejo Black-Green, and then Stippled using a long-bristled drybrush with citadel Gauss Blaster to look like an old, corroded Bronze sword(which: I dont think pre-industrial tech could actl MAKE bronze swords that long without also making them super wide and heavy[I mean: idk if INDUSTRIAL tech can], but this is a fantasy world, they have magic, It's Fine), and I quartered its shield in Red and Yellow ala the stereotypical Saxon/English pattern, painted the outer ring and boss with Vallejo black, the interior with APSP Dark Wood, its straps(and its sword's hilt) with APSP Ruddy Fur, and then used val black and a detail brush to sketch the joins

They came out a bit thick and sloppy unfortunately, but I think it's Fine u_u u_u u_u

Next I did the Wight's rotting flesh and hair. First I tried a mix of Vallejo "Basic Skin"(Yikes :|) and Dark Sand, washed in citadel's Soulblight Grey shade, which created a Gr8 old, bloodless, dead flesh basecolor. Then, to give it that Fetid rotting look, I went over THAT with a dark green shade, Citadel Poxwalker, which TOTALLY killed the effect; it applied too evenly and was just too intense(and blue) a green for the look I was... looking for X| X| So: I went to the hobbystore to look for alternatives, found an AP speedpaint called "Rigor Mortis" which sounded promising, picked up another green citadel shade called "Kroak Green" which was yellower and paler than poxwalker, covered with Rigor Mortis(gr8 dead flesh color), washed in Kroak, and it looked AWESOME. For good measure I went back with Poxwalker and a detail brush to darken the most recessed places and really liked how it turned out. Wight's hair I painted in Val Green-Black mixed with black to darken(I think it was 2-to-1 but I didnt write ti down X| X| X|), washed in Soulblight to give it that faded dead-hair look, which looked stupendous, then applied Poxwalker which, oddly enough, worked JUST fine with the hair.

All that was left at this point was to do the metallics and the bases. I used that Tabletop Minion's technique for old or corroded metals again, drybrushing Army Painter's Evil Chrome(NOT a speedpaint) on Champ's sword, and APSP Broadsword Silver on its shield-ring and boss, and APSP Enchanted Steel(a sort of blue-green-silver?) over Wight's sword. Both worked well but I was REALLY blown away by the subtle sparkle in Wight's sword

I think these photos capture the sheen on Wight's sword pretty well, but one of the edits I did smoothed out Champ's sword-closeup WAY too much to get a good idea of the bronze >:T >:T >:T

As to the bases, I did a three-tone gray stone using citadel opaque paints: Mechanicus for the basecolor, a dry brush of Dawnstone on top of that, then a lighter drybrush of Celestra on top of THAT. I shaded it with Nuln Oil(citadel black shade), touched up the Celestra dry brush, and then varnished!

Ok ^v^ Tomorrow I'll cover the Mooks of my Undead: the Soldier and Miner Skeletons

#zA Paints #zA Hobbies #Minipainting #Skeletons #Bonetones #Our Staff #WizKids Deep Cuts #Nolzur's Marvelous Miniatures #Army Painter Speedpaints 2.0 #Citadel Paints #Vallejo Paints #Hobbyposting

[dreamslesbian]

Regarding your question about the Dream slander.

I could go into great detail how the smp only started to pick up when George asked Wilbur to join OR maybe point out that the lore was started by Tommy.

The smps success and complexity is because Wilbur (with the others members - namely Tommy, Quackity, etc.) made the smp as popular as it is by making it a story. Lets not pretend that the bulk of the story wasnt made by Wilbur.

I could also point out that Manhunt was made by Wilbur. Ya know that one thing that Dreams mostly known for? And before you start screaming about that highly defensive take your sperm on a greenscreen did on twitter. The one where tommy pointed out that bullshit. Dont bother. I saw it - I laughed. Its amusing to see how deep in denial this guy can get.

The smp overall is a good metaphor. How Dream is the ungrateful "bad guy" in all of this. An arrogant kid. A little main character syndrome brat. And all the other beautiful nicknames Wilbur has given to him.

Its sad that most the viewers dont pick up the subtle changes even the cc have make. Most of the members know who Dream is, they know his face and his history. Heck if you do some digging, which I admit is difficult since Dream pays people to erase any negative shit about him online...boy oh boy you will find shit on this man. But I understand, youre a dreamstan and you will ignore any negativity towards him. Just a hint, your boy has made some messed up shit that made even BBH cuss him out.

Its honestly annoying to see how much you praise the guy. Do you really think he would of reached anything without the other members? Without Wilburs lore and manhunt? Where do you think he would be without them?

I know where he would be. He'd be explaining to me why my watch doesnt connect to my iphone.

Also dont ask me to start linking proof, his who mess ups happened over 8 months ago. Heck, way over 8 months. I dont wanna go digging to find and explain everything.

this is by far the funniest shit anyone has ever sent me like full on joker speech, unprompted. its beautiful. if i may tho, could i maybe interest u in some therapy? you seem to desperately need it </3 also thanks for proving the point that most c!dream antis are cc!dream antis !! most wouldn't go this far just to prove that point so ty ☺️

#kole answers #cc!dream neg #dream neg #discourse #u r like a silly little clown i almost feel bad #everyone point and laugh !

[winderlylandchime]

He was on a roll today! He didn’t want to stop. Havent even started the ep and we are like 3 cigarettes in and 4 pills down. He had an audience of one (to his knowledge) to entertain and he delivered. But he was stressed. It started with him coming back inside and going ‘okay i think I’m ready.. i could be wrong tho’ honestly this is a mood ngl, ‘do you think Brian buys him alcohol..or does he have a fake id? Idk whats cuter. OH MY GOD HE IS DRUNK AND CARING ABOUT HIS EDUCATION! Why am i finding this cute?..my dream is for brian to tell justin he loves him. Seriously dude wtf has to happen for you to tell him’ I swear i deserve an award bc he says stuff that would usually get a reaction from me but i have to be normal about it and it is hard! ‘Oh god, how weird do you think had to be to film blow job scenes?..his hand still acts out! How is he gonna do in school? Oh Brian can’t get enough of him. SIR’ ‘..oh my god MIKE HAS THE SAME WAY OF DEALING WITH PROBLEMS THAT I DO..remember when i dyed it purple for that girl who said her favorite color is purple..and then she never talked to me again?*long pause* honestly i dont blame her that was a bit *waves his hands around* much.’ ‘..brian actually cares about Teds weird addiction enough to show up for an intervention? See! And he got him a job! There is potential here somewhere just let me uncover it!’ ‘Oh Justin is drawing again, dude it’s okay just take a deep breath, count to ten, shake your hand a little and do it again. That’s what my therapist told me to do…although i was 12 and it was bc i was scared to make friends…oh no his hand is gonna be a problem isn’t it?!’ He is now having a moment bc he feels bad for Mikey but he is conflicted with his feelings..’i need him to listen to Bri Bri and quit his job. Oh my god JUSTIN IS STILL HERE?! OH GOD THIS IS PAINFUL TO WATCH. So what if he lost control?! HE IS CLEARLY DISABLED TO SOME DEGREE! Would you kick a handicapped person out of school bc they can’t attend gym class?! Oh i hate this guy! How about you HELP him meet the requirements somehow?! You see he is talented and instead of HELPING him as a teacher, you are gonna spit on him bc he’s disabled?! OH FUCK THIS GUY! FUCK HIM ALL THE WAY TO HELL. I need a cigarette again. Pause this shit bc i am not okay’ he is currently outside pacing back and forth mumbling while smoking and i am learning so much about him bc of qaf, this is actually insane. ‘Okay turn it back on. I’ve calmed down now (cut to justin saying he is dropping out) I LIED I AM NOT CALMED DOWN WTF YOU DONT LET PEOPLE WIN WHEN THEY MAKE YOU FEEL BAD ABOUT DISABILITIES!..oh i love all of their reactions! But Brian is about to have a stroke if Justin doesn’t stop’ ‘WAIT THAT WAS LIKE WHEN BRIAN DID IT IN THE PILOT! okay that was cute! The way Bri Bri stares at him and then he dried his face. Fucking adorable, i almost forget that im mad that he dropped out..(and we are at the computer scene) OH MY FUCKING FUCK CRISPY JESUS HE GOT HIM THAT COMPUTER! THAT IS NOT NORMAL FUCK BUDDY BEHAVIOR BRIAN! Oh this fucker cares so deeply for him and everyone else but doesn’t want anyone to know. CMON JUSTIN STOP BEING A LITTLE BITCH AND TRY IT! Oh that’s messed up Justin, he isnt trying to fix you, UNLIKE THE TEACHER HE IS TRYING TO HELP YOU FIND WAYS TO DO YOU THING! Oh he looks like he just watched a puppy get hit (he now got sad at a fake scenario he just made up about the puppy)..OH HE DREW A PENIS NICE’ 1/2 of 2x05

Oh he drew a penis, nice. DEAD.

Anon you are so brave and strong for not telling him the things that you should not be telling him.

Your brother has gone straight (pun intended) queer theory to disability theory. He needs a full honorary degree. I love him.

#ask winderlylandchime #dear sweet anon #queer as folk #a straight man watches qaf us 2000 in the year of our lord 2023

[thisdreamplace]

What do you think of confrontation? All of my life I have been scared of expressing myself when something bothers me. I always remained silent. When I found the law, I was relieved because "oh, I don't need to express anything, I can stay quiet and just imagine things changed and everything will fall into place" i felt comfortable with that, but I knew deep down that there were many times where I wanted to speak, but felt like it was useless or was going to "ruin" my manifestations. I usually have moments where I wish I had reassurance but never feel the right to ask for it. Watching Dylan James was a safe space because he talks a lot about non-confrontation and I think he's right about most of it but... confrontation is normal I guess and may be needed??? Idk.

The point is, I recently had a discussion with my "SP", with him it's been a never ending story of on and off communication. He always ghosted me and then I would "manifest" him back, blah blah. Yesterday I was so triggered and this time instead of keeping it to myself, I basically told him everything that I was feeling. And like, yes it didn't solve anything, but it felt so right to finally defend myself. To finally feel like I had the right to speak. I ended up apologizing because I recognized it was all a response coming from a trigger. I did not regret saying what I said tho. What I did feel bad for, was because I started the drama out of nowhere because I was spiralling, I honestly had no real motives. He ended up getting mad and like, it does make me sad, but at the same time why would I want something to do with someone with whom I can't express myself with? I get it that maybe I could see this from a different perspective, but... right now, in this moment, what I know for sure is that I don't want this kind relationship in my life. I deserve better. I also deserve to be better for myself and find more validation within rather than waiting for someone to give it to me.

This felt like the beginning of me being more true to myself.

okay by the end of this i was SCREAMING YESSSSSSSSS ANON YESSSSSS. all of this.

i had a similiar experience last year, actually, creepily similiar. because i too, was like, always really into dj and his perspective on things. and then suddenly i was like well wait a minute. what if i did speak my mind and start standing my ground ? i think its such a slippery slope. because i think some people can do the non-confrontational thing and thrive. but for me it made things fester inside of me, resentment would grow, and i would kind of just gaslight myself along the way about how i need to be more understanding of bs. anyway, for me it began with a friend though. and it was hard and difficult, and it didnt go the way i wanted it to because just like in your case, they reacted more defensively than openly. and sometimes, i get waves of "did i truly handle that well ? was it right for me to open up and finally say how i feel ?" and im like yeah. absolutely. for the exact same reasons you realized. i also don't want to be in relationships where we can't have open communication and actually be open enough to want to move forward together. and funny thing is, after that whole thing collapsed, i literally met someone who knows how to have healthy communication, to the point where i was challenged and i had to, and have to, actively work on being a better communicator and being aware of my triggers. knowing how to express them well, rather than shutting down or feeling too scared to because of the conditioning of my past. and theres so much space held for me now, for expressing myself authentically and openly. that sometimes i dont even know how to act, LOL its been wonderful but so terrifying at times. and i absolutely love it tbh. its so beautiful here and its lovely to be experiencing so much love like this.

i guess i say all this to say that you absolutely did the right thing. following your heart, being true to you, will always be the truest and most right thing. and even if that includes confrontation, then so be it. you will see how there are people in the world who are going to hold space for you and be so open to the way you authentically express yourself. now that you finally realize it, the world is realizing it too. what a lovely beginning <3

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

god the patronizing hand wringing i've read worrying that if izzy is 'redeemed' in season 2 then all the haters will turn on the show and accuse it of changing its plans to pander to izzy's fandom favoritism. and like, no, probably not! if the writers decide to go in a direction where izzy starts to do better and heals, i currently trust the writer's room to figure out a way to do it that serves the narrative in a satisfying way. idk what could be the catalyst for that kind of growth and change, but i couldn't have predicted most of season 1 so i'll let the big brains on the show figure out if that's something that could work.

i'm more worried about The Discourse if he doesn't get that. certain izzy stans have so wildly reinterpreted the show to make him into who they want him to be, someone's bound to feel betrayed if he continues to be a villain. like i look at the way people complained about infinity train season 3's villain arc for simon, who was imo more sympathetic than izzy, but was given every opportunity to be better and instead doubled down every time until it killed him. so much blame was heaped on grace, who started out in the same place as him, but did put in the work to start doing better, for not trying harder to help him. (how shocking that the black girl who was having a rough enough go at having her own worldviews shattered and confronting and recognizing harm that she'd caused that couldn't be undone was criticized by fans for not also correctly managing the feelings of an angry white boy who decided that any change in opinion was a betrayal to him.)

all that is to say, are izzy stans going to be okay if their guy isn't given the redemption, or in some cases, the hero's vindication they think he deserves? or are they going to blame other characters for not trying hard enough to help him find a way to do better?

i mean, there probably WILL be some people complaining if izzy gets redeemed. i know i take a very firm izzy-critical stance and have gotten into a few arguments w izzy fans about it, but in a fandom this big there are people who are unhinged in all sorts of ways. i dont doubt that SOMEONE out there will get real pissed at the writers if izzy gets a redemption

i am torn tho whether i want an izzy redemption or not. for story purposes ive talked before abt why i think a bad ending for izzy would be interesting to see from a STORY perspective (and also a personal taste perspective), but like you said, if any writers' room could do an izzy redemption arc justice, it's this one. if i think there's something to criticize in ofmd i will criticize it (i have an entire tag for it), but im not gonna like. harass the writers just bc they didnt kill off my least favorite character. nobody with any braincells would do that.

the thing is tho. while i have no problem with an izzy redemption arc as long as it's well-written, i AM kind of terrified of izzy apologists to having MORE reason to interpret izzy as a poor innocent victim. not that i think the writers would actually portray him like that, but if we're given any actual in-text reasons to sympathize with izzy (instead of subtext and headcanon) you KNOW there's gonna be a huge chunk of izzy fans who will be INSUFFERABLE about it

but then youre right, if izzy doesn't get redeemed there's gonna be SO MUCH SHIT. the people who interpret ed as izzy's abuser (🤢) are already gonna have a hard time when ed ends up in a happy relationship with stede (honestly, what fucking show do they think they're watching?), i dont want to even think abt the discourse that'll happen if izzy isn't redeemed. i was only ever in the periphery of the infinity train fandom, but from what ive heard, the discourse was truly horrific

(also tho it's so funny that u mention infinity train bc i brought up simon in the tags of BOTH of those posts i linked above and then i got an anon rlly coming to simon's defense. i didnt rlly get that deep into the discussion w them bc i dont remember a lot of the specific details of infinity train and please nobody send me anons telling me more things abt what happens in infinity train i dont want to talk abt infinity train but i do agree w ur opinion lmao. simon infinitytrain is a crusty-ass white boy who do i feel very bad for but his story was very well-written. grace infinitytrain my beloved <3<3<3)

#ofmd #izzy critical #ofmd fandom crit #mine #ask #anon #txt #infinity train #izzy hands #if this post is in the izcourse tag no it isnt u just dont know how to use tumblr #og #s2 predictions

[dateamonster]

A weird thought that kind of hung out in my head for a while that is sort of relevant to this blog's theme, but also kind of isn't, but I'm honestly not sure, but I have no better place to dump it into, so whatever. Feel free to ignore this if you're not interested >>

Yautja. Predators. However you want to call them. They have a very particular, hunting and honor-centric cultural mindset. But. What would it be like for someone in their culture to just... not be into that? There are people who are basically entirely averse to romance, in spite of how central it is in our culture, so how would some who is, uh... akynig, not interested in hunting? And how would such a person, perhaps, adapt to another society, lacking this aspect of Yautja culture but carrying across many others?

The worldbuilding nut in me is always excited about those things but it is a very rare opportunity to discuss it in any manner >>

i dont rly know anything abt the predator film franchise so i cant rly add much but i do enjoy the idea of like. alien cultures and what that means for the individuals within that culture.

idk how comparable this is but i was just recently watching a video that was talking abt the ferengi from star trek and how upon their original introduction they were kinda this one note species because their sole characteristic was being a hyper capitalistic culture built around hoarding wealth, but in deep space 9 we start to actually see individual ferengi characters outside the context of this monolithic cultural concept and come to understand that their greed is not like some innate personal trait but the result of the values and demands of ferengi society.

theres def a larger discussion to be had abt the way a lot of popular scifi tends to narrow entire planets worth of people down to singular traits and how thats kind of a major weakness when it comes to like world building and imagining alternate societies, but when thats a thing the franchise is already doing it does open up an interesting avenue of like, how many ppl within this culture actually share this valued trait? how many are just going along with it bc its what you do? how many have so deeply internalized it that even if removed from this society and its rules they would unconsciously mirror it? is there a space for counter-culture in this world?

it seems like itd be harder to analyze stuff like that in the context of predator movies tho since, from my limited understanding, it seems like the yautja were at least originally designed simply according to what would make them serve best as a scary antagonist. i do think its cool tho that there seem to be a lot of fans who are trying to give their species more depth and complexity than the source material affords them. again tho im probably missing a lot of actual context lol.

#ask #predator #aliens #systemsearcher

[eroticcannibal]

Hey Risu I think ud have some sound advice about this... I want to learn to draw n be an artist (digitally) but my brain screams when I try cos I'm new n not good at all and idk how to counteract the brain so I can draw shitty things until I get good.... It's hard to have fun when my brain is saying I'm shit and should quit :( Any advice? (I love ur art on ur art blog BTW... Ur art is good but like, not what I'm used to seeing and it's kinda nice to see how a hobby artist art looks cos I'm so used to more professional artists who take comms on twitter)

I was thinking of doing some of my shitty art to song lyrics (they're some of my fav, I draw my ocs in some sort of pose and then slap the lyrics on top in fancy font text or write it on my drawing tablet by hand) - and just don't care how bad it looks but I'm unsure if I can get my brain to not scream at me for not being enough long enough to do it :(

Any advice would be nice <3 p.s. My art is so bad it's like a kid trying to draw (derogatory but only at me) n I don't really have anyone in my life for support cos if it's not good they don't care :/// (well I have one friend, he's also a hobbyist as well, rarely draws cos he has the same issue of not being good and perfect type deal)

Oh hey its how I feel about my art 24/7 (and how most artists do!) So I will run u through all the things I find helpful

Listen. Brains are little bitches, ok? They LIE. They are MEAN. You need to practice telling ur brain to shut up. Like "hey, thats not fucking nice, I'm not listening to u until u have something helpful to say!" And its hard, cus its you, but with practice it gets easier to ignore ur brain being on one. Treat it like a toddler who is kicking off and calling u mean names cus u won't give it chocolate. "Thats nice dear im busy with my art". Like u gotta remember, for anyone trying to get started with art, it looks like a kid trying to draw because that's when most people stopped drawing. Same with any other skill u stop in childhood. My kid struggled so much with handwriting due to being ND that it switched to typing and guess what? Still has the handwriting u would expect from a small child. Because it stopped writing as a small child. I have the coordination with running and throwing of a young kid cus thats when I stopped doing sports. People who stop reading books young will find it harder to read books for an older audience. U do those kiddy drawings, do lots of them, you WILL get better.

Another thing. Heres a secret. For every artist, the majority of what they produce is shit. No really, all of them. Not just the crap you have to produce to git gud, but like, every amazing piece of art you have seen has like at least 5 fucked up sketches that got scrapped. Whole bits of painting that got covered up. All art is made up of mistakes and fuck ups. And even if u are sat there going wow this is perfect! The artist is DYING because they can see a hundred little mistakes that u cant. Art is all about perspective and honestly the perspective of the artist is the worst one. We are too familiar with the details to see our art for what it really is.

The thing that helped me most tho was when I went to art museums in Paris. I saw so much "good" art and im like. OK. This is technically good I guess? But it was kinda meh. The museum of modern art was the most disappointing cus, and listen I stan modern art ok there was some good shit in there, but there was a fucking rack of skis. Someone gone bought some skis and put them away and thats art. Hello? Oh someone painted some squares and came up with some deep meaning and im meant to be impressed. And then I go outside for a fag and I open tumblr and see some crappy 2 minute MSpaint vent art and u know what? It made me fucking feel. It make me feel like NOTHING in that museum had. Who is fucking deciding what "good" art is? I dont remember being consulted! I dont think I fucking agree that "good" art is good! I think shit art is good! Some fucking ship art scribbles has more meaning for me than the fucking mona Lisa, yknow?

And then I went to an exhibit of Picasso's sketches and doodles. Napkins with little scribbles on and shit. And they were so normal. Nothing impressive. And it was wonderful. I've done better sketches! I promise u u have done better than some of that stuff. Honestly so many artists aren't even "better", they're just successful. And idk but I think success is a poor way to measure arts worth.

There is a genuine magic to a hobby artist just. Doodling what makes them happy. Not for money, not for fame, not for skill, just because they want to. Art for arts sake, yknow?

Also I understand it can be very hard to share ur work but I would encourage u to do so with ppl u trust to give u fair feedback. Feel free to send me what u make I will be more than happy to tell u how great it is