#i am an anxious mess

[kirrileemusic]

I am literally so bad at talking to people I don’t know 💀

#omfg #i am an anxious mess #i do my best but oh my lordddd

[sugar-snap]

I have questions, BigHit.

Are there going to be Bangtan Bombs when they go in, like you did with Jin and Hobi?

Since RM and Tae are going in the same day (according to people 👀) are they going in at the exact same time? Like, at different locations? Are the boys going to see them both off? Are they going to split it up? Or is it a different times so at least they can all go say goodbye to them?

I don’t expect to see Yoongi anywhere, I know why he’s not even letting us know he’s alive. I don’t like it, but I totally get it. Now, I want to think the rest are going to be able to go and see RM, Tae, Jimin and JK off like they did with Jin and Hobi. I need to know they’re going to see them off as usual, and that they will all be there for each other

Are Hobi and Jin taking off to go see them off?

Basically I need at least a picture in someone’s IG of all of them together, some in uniform, some not, seeing each of the remaining members off. Yoongi won’t be there, I know. But the rest have to be there

Are we getting pictures of the boys in their haircuts? I need to see them with their hair short like with Jin and Hobi. I need that closure. Even if it’s for 18 months. I need to see that to make sure it’s real and it’s happening. Otherwise, they will still be “out there” in my head. It’s going to be fucking hell for 18 months.

Also, ARE YOU BURNING THROUGH YOONGI’S SUCHWITA??? He did say he filmed a whole bunch, but at this point, we’re going to run out of episodes and he’s just gone in, basically. What are we going to do for the 19 months we have left of this????

#basically #i am an anxious mess #the state of me because of these 7 boys 2 months in is fucking unbelievable #especially when I fought against it so much #but I love them too much now #min yoongi #kim namjoon #kim seokjin #jung hoseok #kim taehyung #jeon jungkook #bts #bangtan sonyeondan #bangtan #this is bighit

[whirling-ghost]

the real reason I don't get the tram very often isnt because I don't live anywhere near it but because I'm going to spend the entire journey panicking that I didn't tap my card properly and I'm going to be given a hefty fine

#yes i should buy paper tickets but i made it to the stop with no time to spare #and ive never used the ticket machine which makes using one scary #why is public transport so awful #this used to happen to me all the time on the bus #the panic not the fine #i am physically capable of transport but not emotionally #i am an anxious mess #actuallyautistic

[crabrat]

Now I was gonna post but a little thing called anxiety happened so

#I am an anxious mess #owl house season 3 #anxiety #i’m tired

[teacoff07]

Hi, this is my first post here. This is a piece I did for Christmas. I hope everyone has a great rest of the year! 💚💙💗

#dimileth #fire emblem three houses #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #my first post #I'm an anxious mess #byleth eisner #how does one tag #desperately in love #am i doing this right?

[just-an-anxious-mess]

#just an anxious mess rambling #mentally i am unwell #bad coping mechanisms #i feel like crap #drinking away the pain #it was either alcohol or sh again #i went for the less destructive one #depression memes #sh meme #bad coping mechanism meme #memes are how i cope #i wish to self-destruct #self-destructive memes #that therapy appointment feels so far away #my life is falling apart #if i attempt again the ambulance wont get here on time #so i will try my best to cope other ways #alcohol numbs everything for a bit #i cant even fucking make myself dinner without being in agony #it hurts just to exist #it's like a constant reminder sign that i shouldn't be alive #if i drink enough i wont remember to be depressed and I'll actually manage to sleep for more than an hour #sami talks too much

[soriastrider]

guess who is once again adding thousands of words to what was supposed to be a finished chapter...

but, i think i'm finally almost done editing, so hopefully i shall be posting a new portal au chapter in the next few days :) it's nice to be messing around with the portal boys again, i missed them

also i'm almost done with alien au chapter 11, so the next step will be editing and posting c10. which is a 9.2k+ word monster as of now. wish me luck lol

#aaah i hate editing long chapters... #it takes forever #at least in part because i am an anxious mess and i reread things a million times before posting them lol #siigh #anyway #i am happy to have writing time again :)

[ferahntics]

Little alt drawing to this!

#absolutely zero context once again cause I am very shy and anxious sharing things KJHSDKG bare with me #i just dont know if i should draw it or write a fic about it or just talk about it in pieces like with kirby ocs #let me know tho cause i have LOTS of things to say #also i just wanted to mess with markers jkfdshgds #mine #my art #pokemon #giratina #risa #fan character #pla #pokemon legends arceus

[citadelofswords]

there is one beautiful, beautiful thing that my meds do for me and it is this

me without meds: oh my god we sent our friend so many messages first without her messaging us first we're so needy and annoying maybe she actually hates us and is just too nice to say anything about it

me on meds: huh i'm being a little annoying right now maybe. oh well. probably no one cares.

#star child speaks #this doesn't work for everyone of course. in no way am i like this is the universal antidepressant experience. #just you know. it's nice to not be a spiralling anxious mess all the fucking time.

[lavenoon]

Can I ask for a preference for the DCA boys? Sun/Moon/ Eclipse. And if there is a specific AU version you fancy?

Oh, sure!

For the preferences I'm uh. Between Sun/Moon I refuse to choose? I see them as a set, Do Not Separate, and it feels unfair to choose between them. I'm very enthusiastic about healthy sleep, and own unholy amounts of glitter glue and other craft supplies, so it really just works out for a match. I love Eclipse too! Though I see him as separate*, not as intrinsically linked into the set, and given that Sun and Moon are the "originals" they win out over Eclipse**!

*Depends on the interpretation, of course, but if left to my own devices

**This, too, depends on the interpretation, as I've been known to simp for the Police Chief and perhaps a teeny tiny bit the Bounty Hunter in @naffeclipse's Syzygy in Dedication/ Sleuth Jesters

In regards to AU preferences that's already one point then, though uh. I've kind of made half a brand out of being entirely insane over also Naff's Cryptid Sightings Sun/Moon/Eclipse - all three just one being in this one, and big dangerous cryptid soft for one human is simply too much of a weakness.

Them being caretakers is always a plus, because I love the trope of caretaker confronted with being taken care of, does not compute (literally, in their case) and also just. Animatronic existence and the conflict it creates (not necessarily fighting, but the surrounding circumstances in the world, misunderstandings, getting to know each other and growing closer while exploring and appreciating differences as well as similarities, and how these intertwine) is my favorite, though as long as it's human and non human interaction I'm going to be fascinated tbh. As a queer neurodiverse person accepting and cherishing differences, and taking the time to truly understand the other is simply my bread and butter

I suppose I should also say I like my own AU boys too? I mean, obviously, I created them! Though honestly, there are so many versions and interpretations of the boys and I'll eat them all up, I'm really bad at choosing, so I suppose the bottom line of all this is...

#answer let luce #eiffelfeller #my issue is I am slow to read and also easily get overwhelmed #so I am eternally distraught over the fact that I will never get to see/ read everything that would bring me joy #I am more hesitant to approach human/ humanized aus #and. dirty secret. vampire aus somehow do not get me. something about animatronic vamps just makes brain go ? and thats it #WHICH DOES NOT MEAN I THINK EITHER CATEGORY IS BAD AUS #these are very subjective; obviously; they're my preferences! #I'm not dunking on anyone or any specific au #just what I noticed towards what I gravitate #I don't even want that in the main post because I don't want anyone to feel personally addressed #can you see how I'm an anxious mess? #<- refuses to choose between two fictional characters because that would be unfair to one of them #moon is my icon simply because im the sleep wizard #but just because my brand isn't crafts doesnt mean i cant also relate to sun #im rambling. lets post this because i need to get lunch gfhdjs

[redwayfarers]

Let there be damage ensued and tabloid news In that kind of love

#ffxiv #nero plays ffxiv #gpose #nika perseis #artoirel de fortemps #wolship #wolartoirel #nika x artoirel #ffxiv wol #hyur wol #if you look at nika's thumb for long enough i will combust so please don't #the amount of trouble i had with his hands is immesurable #if you told me 30% of gpose is posing hands i wouldn't believe you #but here i am #posing. fucking. hands #anyways. haha they again #when i get a hang of expressions it's over for y'all #jk jk #i do think it's fun tho #and they are in love so #you just know artoirel's an anxious mess sometimes and he will not show it but he will Hug Husband about it #and for the first time in his life nika senses others' distress. revelation. #i love them sm

[bass-alien]

2 interviews down, 2 more to go this week

#I am an anxious mess but I know I’ll survive lmao

[silenthillbunni]

🐁☁️🌫️

#sorry gnna sound like a shit person now but im not feeling well i just need to rant #nothing good ever happens to me. every aspect of my life is a mess. im constantly miserable w nothing to pull me out of it #it's been getting worse nd worse for years nd if it keeps getting worse im not gnna be able to take it much longer #ofc there are sooo many others who have it way way way worse than i do. so i feel weak nd pathetic for being so affected by it when i know #it could be literally sm worse than it is now. like i get that. i know im not nearly as bad off as many ppl are #but idk still it's rlly tough to have *nothing* that makes me keep going. the literal only thing is that i dont kms bc i dont wanna hurt mom #bc im poor so i cant do ANYTHING. i cant go anywhere. not the cinema not concerts not to the mall not to the bookstore not an amusent park #i cant even go to cafées bc i dont have any money at all to spend on that #i have no friends to hang out w. even if i couldnt afford going anywhere i cant even just take a walk or sit nd talk to them bc there r none #my sisters havent talked for me in over a year #and like yada yada i dont have anything to pull me out of my misery bubble. no friends to comfort me no family to hang out w #nothing to do or nowhere to go. hell i havent even been able to eat for 8 months so i cant even like eat smth yummy nd watch a movie lmao #i cant even read bc of the constant noise! i cant go out into the forest bc there r always subway construction work or choppers or gun shots #i know im 'focusing on the negative' but what am i supposed to do when theres nothing positive to focus on lol????? #im always physically uncomfortable bc of pain nd health issues nd im always anxious nd stressed too so like... yay #and. this is where i sound mean but like after years nd years of nothing good happening to me... idc for others anymore like #when they talk abt their loving relationships and their kind friends nd them going to concerts im like.. wow !! u get to be happy!! i dont!! #im just envious nd jealous nd bitter bc why cant i have ANYTHING good???? not just ONE fkn thing? #other ppl get to have multiple things but i get nothing????? #and its not exactly like i hate them or wish illwill on them im just like wow kinda dont feel sympathy for u bc u have sm things #i've never had :))) nd u can never understand how awful it feels to be deprived of it so idc :))))

[roebeanstalk]

I'm at the anxious/avoidant phase where I won't leave my room out of fear of seeing my roomie and I'm also trying not to make any noise at all 8)))))) stopstopstopstopstop

#this too shall pass #as they say #blah lol #sorry for being an anxious mess again but trying to at least show up somewhere as i am lol

[einstetic]

i'm not tired, i'm exhausted

#my head is full of sooo many thoughts and i'm feeling way too many emotions right now #i struggled with my thesis today again after a few months break #yesterday a guy i'm kind of getting to know asked me a question that hit home when we were talking about the effects of past events #“'last time when cuddling and i gave you a kiss you tensed up completely for a sec. was that you being shy or being uncomfortable. ' #i didn't even realise it and now i'm feeling extremely anxious about my subconscious acting out when i am in fact feeling comfortable #background: he knows my history of unpleasant events concerning intimacy/sex and he's very mindful about it yet challenges me in a good way #but now i am a mixture of extreme exhaustion experiencing high levels of fondness and yet feeling extremely agitated #and having constant minor flashbacks and i really don't know what to do or how to merely exist in this moment now #not going to bother anyone with this and my thoughts as they are having a good time and that also goes for the pretty nice guy i mentioned #so i'm on my own in my own company #maybe some music crying and ice cream straight from the tub would help haha #thank you for taking your time to read this mess love you and have a nice morning day or night #literally no one cares emma

[emjiroki]

I'm conquering my fear of driving and actually made it to the grocery store! (With my husband in the passenger seat of course) BUT I DID IT! I feel like I'm on top of a mountain!

#it seems so silly but after my accident i meber thought i would get here #and im really proud of myself! #am i shaking and sweating YES but i did it! #ramblings of an anxious mess #em talks 👄