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anervousmirrorball · 4 months

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i was so fixated on killing myself I never knew when I turned 20, 21, 22, 23

#i lost all those years of my life #and im supposed to act normal #like something good came out of it #like something good happened when i graduated college #i dont remember my life at all these years #and most of 17 18 19 #and im expected to be normal like other people and supposed yo have grown up like other people my age have #and do adult things as if i havent spent years alone and depressed and in isolation away from everyone else who were making memories and #experiencing life aand actually “growing up” and making friends #but okay #something surely is inherently wrong with me #i must be stupid and a coward #after all i had all the resources?#i couldve looked up a therapist #i couldve spent money without letting anyone know where i was spending it #i couldve lied about it #i couldve gotten better #i couldve chnaged #its all my fault #and i think i paid enough for it by hurting myself but apparently that was not enough cause no one knew #and maybe nothing i do will ever make up for my existence #nothing i create will ever be enough #no amount of money or achievements will ever be enough and make up for my existence #and im supposed to be okay with that #im supposed to be brave and not cry when im anxious #no one can know you're scared anyways #“get married” even if i have spent years at my house watching my parents fight and getting anxious the minute i hear incoherent sounds #from the other room #its okay #everyone fights

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graveyard-society · 8 months

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i was at my therapist's not too long ago, drew these on the whiteboard while on the waiting list ☺️🩷

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ironmanstan · 1 year

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So much work to do but im actually doing it which scares me more than the fact i have work to do and u can tell bc i keep fucking posting like this

#laid out all my sketches i needed.. updated my carrd projects list... finalized art piece.. sketched concept.. studied from art book #fucking insane. insane. so scary so scary.#like idk it is so weird i think being depressed mustve made my adhd so much worse ?? i couldve never done this before #everything is still hard and i have to genuinely push and will myself to even attempt working on anything but like #i have enough will to win and start ? i dont lose my focus as much when im in it and if i do i know to take a break bc im understimulated?#i still forget basic things and to do things a lot but i dont catastrophize about it as much i get upset and then just fix it..#its so weird did i just fucking learn to self regulate??? is that what i was missing this whole time ???????#u get punished for like lacking focus and self regulation and have a defeatist mindset bc doing anything = punishment #but then you break through that fear and just throw yourself in and make yourself do things and u can work WITH the adhd????#my parents fucking scammed me bro imagine if i had been raised and like helped instead of called worthless for everytime i fuck up #WHY DO I HAVE TO LEARN THIS AT ALMOST 19. STUPID STUPID STUPID #even my old therapists.. oh you have adhd maybe if you just change your diet you will function WOWWW SOOO HELPFUL #HOW DOES THAT HELP ME LEARN TO BE AWARE OF MY SELF AND NEEDS AND REGULATE THEM TO WORK WITH MY MENTAL HANDICAPS HUH. QUICKLY #stupid... i hate every adult in the world you are all useless and do nothing <- is an adult #its so crazy 2 me to function even a little... i guess i learned easily finally bc i self analyze way too much sometimes #but like i genuinely for years predicted id just like. go right back to being majorly suicidal or something in college #bc i could barely handle highschool or getting assignments done #now im meeting deadlines on the reg... like idk. i think it is such a rare and strange and kind of sick feeling #to know like young you would look at you and be surprised or shocked . and its so sad bc like idk.#its like oh i never believed in myself huh. or believed i could have a place in the world and function and be alright #and then u have to grieve all the time you spent never trying bc u didnt think trying without failing was possible like what the hell!!!#crazy...#the gamer speaks uwu

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meetmyothersouls · 2 years

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Hello! I'm requesting from your halloween prompt, will you write something where timmy is the sleep paralysis demon and he's some kind of succubus (do you write dubcon/noncon? Bc if you do, it can go there but if you dont, totally fine)

This request couldve been worded better sorry 😫😂

Hope you enjoy!

Live Deliciously

Warnings: sleep paralysis, demons, sexual content while sleeping, movie quotes, not proof read

Sleep was off the table.

You’d given up on it completely.

Ever since the accident…things had been visiting you while you slept.

Your boss noticed your lack of sleep as your head pressed against the keyboard of your laptop. He enforced a two week long leave of absence, unpaid of course, no one cares if you live or die in this world, why the fuck would they pay you? Assholes.

HR handed you pamphlets for therapists and other resources on your way out.

“These may help.” She offered and encouraging smile that you’d usually return.

“I’m just tired, not fucking crazy, Nancy,” you mumbled.

The pamphlets sit on your coffee table.

You grab one, knocking a series of empty energy drink cans on the floor, not caring that one starts to leak out on the beige colored carpet that used to be much cleaner and brighter than it is now.

You could call the numbers listed on the inside of its pages, but the only thing they’d do is offer you sleeping pills and maybe some grippy socks and a padded room.

No fuckin thanks. Plus, sleep is exactly what you’re trying to avoid right now.

You flip on the TV. There’s nothing on, so you groan in both annoyance and exhaustion. You haven’t laid on your bed in three weeks, and you yearn to feel the comfort of your down filled pillows and silky sheets. Temptation becoming way too strong, you leave your shitty, uncomfortable futon and make your way to your bed.

Your room is cold, just the way you like it. You contemplate turning off the fan and turning the heat up a tad, just to keep you from falling asleep, but that would take away from the comfort factor, right? So you don’t. You pad your way to your bed, in all its unmade glory and climb in.

“Just gonna lay down for a few minutes. No sleep,” you warn yourself. “No sleep. Bad things come when I sleep.”

Your body betrays you as your eyelids grow too heavy to keep open. Your mind betrays you as it envelops you in a dream too delightful to keep yourself from.

You sleep.

You dream, and strangely enough…you feel. This dream feels great. There’s no images, or sounds. Just pure and overwhelming feeling.

This dream feels wet.

This dream feels like strong, long fingered hands pulling your thighs apart, leaving finger tipped shaped bruises on your skin.

This dream feels real.

Your eyes shoot open, and the feeling is still there. The feeling of hands on your thighs. You feel warm and wet between your thighs.

You can’t move.

It’s happening again. Your eyes, the only thing not paralyzed, sweep back and forth rapidly, matching your erratic breathing as you look for the demon. You can’t see one.

“Rest,” a sultry male voice whispers. “So I can continue to live deliciously.”

Paralyzed, you lay there chest and stomach moving rapidly as your breathing picks back up. A massive hand reaches from between your legs and presses on your stomach.

“Shhh, shhh,” the voice soothes. His breath is caressing your pussy. That’s when you realize you’re naked.

You’re unsure if this demon has a face, all you can see is his hand on your belly. You can hear his voice and feel his breath. Then his head pops up and he crawls over your body.

This demon. He is different.

He doesn’t look like the others. He looks…strangely human. Your legs are spread open and his knee pushes against your hot, wet center as he silently and almost predatorily studies you and you study him

His hair is wild with jet black curls spiraling in various directions. His hands are massive and elegant with rings on every other finger. They glisten and sparkle in the moonlight. He is skin is beautifully pale, like the purest color of ivory.

Your eyes travel down then back up and you’re startled when he’s smiling at you. A few of his teeth are sharper than a normal humans. If you could move you’d touch them.

Your demon dips his head low, nuzzling your neck before he breathes softly into your ear. Your hear him open his mouth, the movement of his wet tongue as he speaks familiar words.

“Wouldst thou like to live,” a low, ravenous growl sounds from deep within his chest before he continues. “Deliciously.”

Your breath shudders. The way he says his words is tantalizing, and enough to make you give in to anything.

You nod, vigorously, eliciting a dark chuckle from him. He licks his way down your body, taking the time to wrap his tongue around both of your nipples. Further and further down he travels until his tongue licks through the folds of your pussy. You moan and its louder than any sound you’d normally make. You silently blame it on the fact that you cannot move your body in any way.

“Too long you have been away and I have been waiting eagerly for your arrival.” He laps at your juices. “Why?” He says in between licks.

“Wh-what?” It comes out in a gravely rasp.

“Why?” He’s stopped licking you and his grip on your thighs is strong, but he sounds insidiously amused.

“I was scared.”

“Mmm,” your demon hums. Dipping his head back in between your legs. He works your clit with his tongue, then drags it down to your hole, collections your wetness and mixing it with his saliva before dancing it back to your clit. He’s brought you dangerously close to your orgasm, you can feel it building in your belly when he stops. “Fear,” he says, stopping to suck your clit into his mouth. If orgasms were a tangible thing, you’d be able to reach a hand out and touch it. “Fear is my food. My sustenance. But do not fear, my darling.” He fingers your clit in small, delicate circles as he talks and as it pulsates underneath it, he replaces his finger with his tongue, flicking, sucking, kissing until you come undone. He drinks you in, lapping up all of your essence and continues his sentence. “For it has always been me.”

Then he’s gone and you sit up right in your bed, naked, sweaty and panting.

It wasn’t real. It had to be a dream.

But as you look down and see finger print shaped bruises on your thighs and nail marks embedded into your skin, you decide that after weeks of avoiding it, sleep is your new mission.

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seal-berry · 7 months

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sooo

-jay and little destiny left behind bonnie and jays siblings right after their father possibly died

-golbetty couldve eaten simon and he wouldve thanked her and had his wish to be with her forever granted but nope he gets to be PATHOLOGIZED! dont worry simon, your problem has a NAME and its CODEPENDENCY. phew, sure am glad that thorny, complicated topic gets wrapped up nice and neat! be sure to pick up a copy of "the body keeps the score" on the way out, simon. (no shame against that book but the things people assume after reading it are wild and labelling a relationship that has some small flaws as toxically codependent to the point of breakup is one of them)

-fionna gets to get told WHATS WHAT about how STUPID she is for wishing magic was real. just picket and play roller derby like a normal girl, its not like the world needs to REALLY change... changing it might risk what you have! and you APPRECIATE what you have, right fionna? need to watch your friends die some more so that you accept wage slavery america as the pinnacle of existence? you should be sorry for thinking it was so boring, thats not very self care of you fionna

-oh but cake gets to stay. because uhhh. idk. it would be fucked up to have a detransition narrative, i guess? and shes not a 20-something who needs to grow up. i guess we cant accidentally teach our audience to become stretchy cats, so its fine, its not teaching them anything bad! but fionna being magical, now THAT would send the wrong message

- every other couple gets to have romantic/imperfect/codependent moments-- gary sacrifices his WHOLE DREAM for marshall. but the writers know its not very 2023 of them to make the gays more problematic than just. having some psychosexual violence thrown in there for spice. but simon and betty? sorry you werent perfect and she dont want you no more

-any romance that ends with "i am willingly breaking it off with you even though we could be together" needs to work HARD for that to satisfy. golbetty couldve eaten simon and he wouldve thanked her. blowing him off into the world IS DISREGARDING HIS WISHES! it just feels like they imposed Recovery Aesthetic onto simon and fionna and were like see :) Happee Ending! dont look at all the loose threads, simon went to THERAPY! zoomers love when old men go to therapy, right?? simon and betty's issues werent wrestled hard, long, and to the ground enough on-screen to sell that she doesnt want him anymore and that that truly is the best ending she can bring with her ultimate power, it reads that golbetty truly did override betty's self and changed her into an unrecognizeable figure. its so stupid that adding a little bit of pathologizing therapy talk can make people say this was good.

and codependency IS pathologizing. how much dependency is healthy, at what point does it tip into being too toxic to save? that depends on which therapist youre talking to. humans are wired for connection, no amount of CBT and DBT will make you not mourn losing a connection, and the pain of that loss shouldnt be used as evidence that you should just be less attached. simon isnt a mind reader, and betty made her choices. you can call it a "fawn response" but that still implies that you think she was unfit for autonomy. if she really doesnt regret those choices, why doesnt she want to be with simon? that question is not answered well enough to leave it not feeling like a swerve for audience members who arent projecting their own codependent experiences onto betty. the text alone doesnt support it enough for that to ring true, not when they only actually delved into the topic for about 5-10 onscreen minutes. Not to mention the fact that the ending ends with a fucking montage where it looks like simon just turned happy and is living his dream of cheers sitcom life. is that really better than becoming one with your beloved crazy wife forever? is that actually more realistic, in the visceral emotional language that stories speak? is it a more satisfying ending, getting 80% there and then saying "actually this dramatic cool story has some Problematic Elements, I'm going home"?

i wish they gave her more lines. they couldve given her more lines, made simon talking at the audience into a real conversation, and they didnt. there were so many things they couldve done and it ended up at something just as toxic as whatever codependency they were railing against, the idea that the relationship we were shown was too toxic and flawed and that betty was clearly fawning for simon and not capable of making her own decisions while simon shouldve stepped up and fixed that for her. they want to play it like "we must go our separate ways" but there's no must. this is still a choice betty is making, to break up with simon for good, and that choice was always gonna be a hard sell but not even letting betty have more than a few lines about it? how do you expect to sell such a big emotional shift? therapy speak, apparently.

and they seriously played the "simon goes back to his life" card WITHOUT a marcy scene??? lazy heroes journey shit.

#fionna and cake

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leastdatablebracket · 8 months

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ROUND 1, MATCH 53

Propaganda under the cut!

Baxter Ward

That Boy Needs Therapy

He ghosts you after the end of step 3, even if you try and date him.

look i love my boy, but baxter literally dumps you outside of your childhood home, shuts the door in your face even if you’re sobbing in the middle of the street, and then ghosts you for five years and then pretends he doesn’t care about you when you meet again. this is even if he’s aware that he’s your first love (if you chose to make him that). he literally says that you have bad taste in men if you choose to date him again before you’ve talked anything over shshhshssbb. love him but he needs a therapist waaaaayyyyy more than he needs a partner.

Ryouta Kazama

ok so i havent actually seen all of his route cause the game's only available in japanese and the streamer i watched play the game switched to a different guy like halfway through the game n i seriously doubt anyone else is gonna submit him i just need someone else to know about this so! ryouta and the player character (doesnt have a canon name but is given the nickname of marii by the two girl friends) were friends in kindergarten with ryouta having a very blatant crush on her n wished on a pinwheel for them to get married when theyre older he then moves to england as soon as he gets old and he n marii dont interact at all until nine years later when he comes back for high school and is still very blatantly down bad for a girl he last talked to when they were six but has spent the last nine years still thinking about (theres something in the game you can unlock called adv events where you get the love interests pov on moments in their lives and one of ryouta's reveals that even though he couldve he never sent marii any letters but very much did spend all those years thinking about her) n a lot of his interactions with marii are weird n circle back to him being obsessed with them being friends as kids and like a first it just kind of seems like oh he hasnt gotten over his puppy love yet lol but it is kind of like acknowledged that this is a weird thing in game as if marii gets his gift in the christmas exchange ryouta will say something about it being fate n marii pointedly ignores that n is like wow what a coincidence that we got eachother's gifts (not in an oblivious heroine way btw ryouta's straight up is like oh ok ur ignoring what i said) n he treats her like shes naive n completely innocent which like marii is cause shes a mostly blank slate otome heroine but its still noteworthy as being weird due to his aforementioned memorialization of them being friends in kindergarten n that none of the other love interests really treat marii that way or really make note of those being notable traits of hers that often while its something ryouta does frequently anyway so the moment that made my thoughts on ryouta switch from "lol hes kind of weird" to "i want to study him like a bug" is that His Bedroom Is The Exact Same As It Was When He Was A Six Year Old Child In Kindergarten And Hes Keeping It That Way On Purpose like genuinely thats immediately read to me as horror movie shit imagine reuniting with a childhood friend of urs who keeps bringing up stuff you did as kids (that you dont really remember cause you were like six n are now in high school) n making comments about how naive and easy to read you are n gets weirdly jealous about other guys being buddy buddy with you and then like a year or so after hes moved back n you've becomed friends again he invites you to hang out at his house so you go over and then His Room Looks Like It Belongs To A Six Year Old and hes telling you about how his room hasnt been altered (beyond cleaning) at all since he left n since hes come back hes chosen to keep it exactly the same n hes telling you this like its a reasonable thing literally what the fuck also while ryouta is the posterboy childhood friend love interest of this game theres another love interest who was both ryouta n marii's childhood friend and you'll never believe this he treats her like a normal person and is just a normal guy who barely remembers being friends in kindergarten and him n marii only learn that theyre childhood friends cause of ryouta being mildly exasperated that neither of them really remembers them being a trio when they were six theres definitely like worse love interests i could submit from this series (like the teachers n one of the three secret love interests in the second game whos route is just straight up him emotionally abusing the heroine) but im submitting ryouta cause his reasons for sucking as a romantic partner are bizarre n live rent free in my mind

#round 1

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jackienautism · 9 months

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i always thought that sam like. either had a Moment of snapping postgame (like in the police station or something, right after the interviews) or straight up dropped off the map and told nobody where she went immediately after the events of the game. like, she Will do whatever she can to get these assholes (i say this affectionately) off the mountain alive. and she's willing to bite back a lot of what she might feel in order to stay focused on that goal. but afterwards? sam snapping is sooo special to me. i think that if she drops off the map she snaps eventually too (because i do see her returning at some point, i think sam's instincts are to outrun the things that bother her but she does, rationally, see the inevitability of having to face those things. so she comes back.)

[plankton voice] yes yess YEEESSSSS.....

GOSH i can totally see both things happening tbh... like? in regards to after the police interviews, you can just.....TELL she was on the verge of snapping during the interview. just like. the way she was carrying herself and the way she was talking....her EXPRESSIONS....... you can just TELL how pissed off and angry and bitter and betrayed she felt. and its SOOOO GOOD.... esp looking at how at she acted throughout the entire game..... its such a stark juxtaposition to her usual helpful and strong and levelheaded and whatnot demeanor..... and i think that is so TASTY........

and abt her just. leaving without a trace? i can soooo see that happening too. i made a lil thing abt that a while back, abt sam and emily willing to leave EVERYTHING behind them, but gosh..... sam especially.... she absolutely tells no one abt her plans andjust. leaves. maybe she stays near by? or maybe she travels to a different country? or maybe she just sits in her house no longer interacting w/ anyone? who knows. the thing is just. she fucks off and no one knows what she's doing or where she is. and i love that

and her doign Whatever it takes to get all these Assholes off that mountain is so just.... its so interesting to me. bc seeing how close sam was to both beth and hannah, after josh of course, she absolutely held SOME sort of resentment for her friends. albeit extremely buried but, it MUST still be there. and before i think sam sort of. blamed herself for this anger residing in her? bc like. SHE couldve stopped it SHE couldve done more SHE couldve gotten to hannah faster. and its like.... she doesnt even have PROOF that hannah and beth were actually ...... gone. and just based on personal hc, i see sam acting as the groups like ........ therapist. i think after their disappearance, the rest of the group HEAVILY relied on sam in terms of talking w/ her and shit... bc SHE was the closest to them aside from josh, and thus, sort of like. paving sam's way to the rest of the group. which is also based on a hc of mine, i dont talk abt it much and ill prob elaborate some other time, but i always saw sam as the outlier of the group aka not rly a part of their lil thing to begin with. i saw sam as friends w/ beth and hannah at the beginning and thats sort of it. she became associated w/ josh and everyone else bc of course they're siblings. but anyway. yeah! i think she blamed herself for her potential anger due to 1. the lack of proof that beth and hannah were actually gone and 2. the fact that everyone sort of came to HER to talk abt what happened. like. shes everyone's designated therapist..... and who is she to deny that position? who is she to say no? if that what it means to finally feel Welcome into this group, then so be it, you know?

SAM SNAPPING IS SOO SPECIAL TO ME TOO..... i just think her emotional regulation is dogshit LMAO is that even the correct term? i dont even think thats the correct term, but anyway. i just think her regulation of her anger is soooo bad. but in like. the complete opposite way that emily regulates her anger yk? she probably resorts to immediately pushing it to the side (for other people's sake) or blaming herself for that anger, and thus demeaning its...legitimacy

i LOOOVE the possibility of her leaving for a good amount of time and then coming back and still snapping..... i bet she used that time to really ? digest everything that happened to her, her friends, and beth and hannah and josh. which only fueled her anger you know? youre sooo right abt her instinctively running away from the shit that bothers her, while also understanding that she'll inevitably have to face it. so her coming back and then facing that shit and then snapping is so just !!!!!! youre so right anon

and this is all like..... following thebest possible scenario. meaning that everyone lives and stuff. bc i have MANY more thoughts if mike ends up shooting emily and ashley conceals the truth hehehe..... hopefully ill be able to transfer that note into a post tonight or so

#mine #text #asks #anon #sam giddings #until dawn #I FUCKING LOVE SAM SO MCH #my thoughts #my sam tag #my UD tag #UD

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gritsandbrits · 11 months

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Ins & Outs of 2023 💜

I know we're halfway through the year but change doesn't have an expiration date. I've been inspired by seeing lists made by other people so I take a crack at writing my own!

Outs:

Traumadumping/Sending me long rants in my inbox: Now I'm not saying you can't talk to me if something troubles you, I'm always open for a shoulder to cry on. But I am not a therapist. Also, if I'm talking about fandom stuff I don't need textbook long rants about the dangers of white feminism/liberalism/centrism/politics/whatever when I'm talking bout be like, Bratz or Transformers 😅. Half the time it is really not that deep, overly long rants clogs my inbox and honestly, I find them uncomfortable. It seems less like a conversation and more like a grudge post so if your feel that strongly you be better off making your own post. I am just one person!

Calling everything cheugy/ soulless: most of the time cheugy is just a word use to crap on things women likes. Also just because you don't vibe with a certain piece of media doesn't make it soulless, sometimes you don't need long rants or explanations. It's okay to dislike something without putting people down. I personally see this term so much it's becoming as overused as Mary Sue

Respectability Politics: most of the time the people who you work to try to earn respect won't give you that. Some noses need to be broken (metaphorically speaking). It's not being rude you're protecting your space.

Aesthetics: what I mean by this is following trends JUST to follow a trend even if it risks landing you in financial hot water. Or breaking down varied styles based on barebones idea (like there is more to Y2K than a belly shirt and shiny pants). Also not everything needs to be an aesthetic. Speaking of, Shein Hauls. Don't do it! You'd be better off saving on something that's actually worth the money

AI/NFTs: I don't need to explain this one

Beige: Going back to Aesthetic, beige has a connection to it. I know it supposed to give off clean vibes but everything being beige/gray/greige with nary a drop of color in sight just makes me sad :(

Recording People In Public: unless you have permission (or outing a potential Karen) don't do this. You could put someone's life in danger and it's just super rude in general. Getting a popular tiktok isn't worth harming others.

Cringe Culture: I admit I am guilty of participating in it back in my teen years. But now that I know better I realized I was being so sacred and insecure I wanted to be like everyone else...which is being a bully. It made me miss out on fun events and creators I couldve enjoyed if I had taken my head out my ass. Plus I'm not exactly Picasso myself, so who am I to judge. You don't know what an artist is going through sometimes the cringe is their outlet. As long as it's not hurting anyone why should u put people on blast for having fun?

Brand/Studio/Fandom Wars: I think we're at that stage where they have good and bad (and neutral) points. Everything is not always about conflict who makes the better movies/products. I find it reductive and sometimes it gets too far and innocent people end up getting dragged into a war they didn't ask for. Plus artists who work in rival companies/brands do support each other. We can enjoy media without pitting them against each other all the time and honestly it's just obnoxious stan behavior. Looking at you Cartoontwt.

Now it's time for the INs!

Creating for fun&joy: Yes it's okay to be upset if your art or stories aren't getting as much attention as you like, but that doesn't mean no one enjoys it. There's always one or two persons who loves your work! In general it's important to have fun and not let algorithms and "get rich quick" consume you. There is room for fun. Also don't make spite your entire motivation or else you'll end up with a Sonic Omens/ BlueyCapsules scenario. Take it from me: I may hate Cars 2 and Shrek 3 but I love those franchises too much to let interesting ideas go to waste. I have fun with the creating process, making picrews of Gwynn and Rhodanthe and self indulgent stories of my carsona and Finn.

Thinking For Yourself: You do not need to peddle someone else's opinions just bc they're popular. You don't need to jump on bandwagons, you can watch or read media and come up with your own conclusions. Practice Discernment and expand your horizons beyond watching that one review.

Self Inserts/OCs: back to cringe culture what helped me break out of that is making my own OCs. I love making OCs and Self inserts, it helps me get comfortable with designs and writing, everyone has a unique OC and have fun with them. Plus the ships are so cute everyone has a funky selfship or oc x canon

Color/Wearing what works for you: A pop of color helps to make your outfit stand out, and wearing what you want even for a couple of hours helps with your self esteem. Again everything doesn't need to follow an aesthetic or a trend as long as it suits your tastes (and budget)

Buying Products That Work: Don't just buy things just to have them decorate the shelves half the time bc they're cheap & not good for your body. Same with clothes buy something that lasts not because it goes well with a tiktok. Sometimes it's okay to spend a bit more on a product if it truly works for you. Also DIY can be VERY miss (the charcoal & glue peel off masks come to mind) so just get something specifically formulated for you

The Curtains Are PINK! Yes I wrote that in pink 💁 but essentially learn to value critical thinking. Learn to handle - and give - constructive criticism. Yes there are things that aren't that deep but that doesn't mean anything is unworthy of discussion. There's a lot of value in analysing media, and it helps you from hopping on bandwagons of misinformation

Working On yourself: doesn't need to be therapy (btw don't use BetterHelp) it can be anything: writing your feelings out in a diary, making vent art, trying new things, talking to someone you trust, stressballs, fidget toys. 2023 is the year of healing; it is VERY important to know how to FEEL not just shove down your emotions or take it out on someone. We're all adults we have a responsibility to initiate our positive change.

And I guess that's it! That's all I have of my Ins and outs for 2023

#ins and outs #2023 #create for fun and joy #gb asks

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partytricks · 2 months

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young royals s3 thoughts (SPOILERS!!!!)

- first and foremost i think they tried to fit waaaayy too many things into this season. it feels like they wrote two seasons worth of content and instead of trying to cut plotlines that were unimportant to the overall narrative, they just said fuck it lets do them all. and it...did not work

- LOVE the idea of wille's speech having repercussions outside of wilmon and the royal family, and i love that the hazing was addressed, but again the whole reveal about erik and august felt like it was just thrown in to have sympathy for august and to lead to wille's breakdown at the bday dinner (which like...he had more than enough reason to do already). i do like the idea of erik actually being fucked up behind the scenes, but i wish they would have hinted at it in season 2 or something instead of just dropping it out of nowhere. idk

- WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE THEY FORGOT ABOUT WILLE HAVING ANXIETY AND PANIC ATTACKS UNTIL THE LAST COUPLE EPISODES???? his anxious habits and the physical toll that stress takes on him were pretty consistently shown in the first two seasons and then suddenly not a thing until the halfway point???????? like idk something about that really bothered me. my one big hope for this season was that wille would get to address his panic attacks but it seems like theyre just not gonna acknowledge it, which i guess is true to real life anxiety it's just something you live with, but it was teased to be such a crucial thing about wille that im a little disappointed its not getting explored

- wilmon cannot communicate to save their lives and i feel like neither of them are ready to be in a relationship. they have a good dynamic and you can tell they care about each other, but they never look at issues from a dual perspective, only as an individual. and then when they call each other out they just get defensive. i think they only want the lovey dovey fun part of a relationship, and they cant accept the fact that things WILL go wrong and they have to work through it TOGETHER

- ive seen a lot of people say that wille got really mean out of nowhere this season and i kind of disagree?? yes, his aggression is def at the forefront of almost all his scenes, but we've seen in the past two seasons that he doesnt know how to deal with stress and takes frustration out on other people. it's just that now he's constantly stressed and therefore on a hair trigger. is it right of him?? no. but does it make sense?? yeah, for me at least

- i HATE that wille's anxiety is constantly pushed aside because it "isnt princely" but the MINUTE that kristina has mental health issues she gets to step back from her duties and see a therapist, get meds, etc... now to clarify, i hate it because wille deserves better and its so hypocritical. i LOVE that it was included in the story because you really get to see plain as day just how much wille's family does not give a shit about him. he was so worried about his mom because he knows what it feels like and wants to be there for her when she never was for him, but she cant even make eye contact with him. and his dad is no better. that scene where wille calls to ask about erik and his dad just goes "yeah i cant think of any of erik's flaws he was perfect" EVEN IF YOU THINK THAT YOU DONT SAY IT TO YOUR OTHER KID???? who, to wille's point, is CURRENTLY YOUR ONLY SON.

- simon dealt with a lot of shit this season, and he was right to be scared of wille during his blowup at the royals, but CALL ME CRAZY i think he couldve waited until like, idk, the NEXT DAY?? to breakup with him???? yes, wille has been an ass to simon this season and taking family drama out on him, thats not cool, but striking while the iron is hot is an AWFUL idea. bring it up while wille is in a more rational headspace and not as riled-up. like simon my bby i was with you til then

#young royals spoilers #young royals #young royals season 3 #uhhhh if i think of more ill add it

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bi-ftm-on-main · 5 months

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Hello. I wanted to ask you something. When was the first time you explored your Bi side? How did you know that you were bisexual? Did you always felt that you like guys? At any point did you second guess or had any doubts? Thank you for your time.

Hello!

ok so even though i tried to keep it short i did write a huge response to this that kinda goes off topic a bunch and is super specific. So heres a quick version:

When was the first time you explored your Bi side?: a couple months ago, around when i started this blog

How did you know that you were bisexual?: I really didn't, but then i realised that i had crushes on girls and boys in the past and found them all attractive, even if it was in different ways.

Did you always felt that you like guys?: not really, i just thought some were really cool and good looking and i would get nervous around them.

At any point did you second guess or had any doubts?: all the time dude. thats kinda why i made this blog, to explore my feelings.

Just in general, I'd recommend exploring why you do or dont like something, if its actually because you dont like it or because other factors are making you feel like you shouldnt like it. Try the 'if we were both drunk and *hot guys name* leaned in for the kiss would i kiss him back?' test on situations.

And heres the super long section:

ok so firstly, i only realised i was bisexual a couple months ago, pretty much the same time i made this blog. Until then i thought i was asexual (and aromantic).

(i could give you a whole blow by blow about that but it would take ages so i'll try to keep it precise.)

Growing up i had a lot of anxiety and was considered very 'weird'. i also didnt know i was trans, autistic, or SA'd so I was never too comfortable with my body, i didnt naturally know what a crush was supposed to feel like, and i thought sex was something shameful and gross, so when i found the term asexual at age 13 it fit great.

skip a whole bunch of years and im in uni and now 20. my parents have finally gotten round to me being trans and im starting hormones (testosterone). its common for people to get extra horny when on T so when i started wanting to watch more porn and noticing how good looking the people around me were, i thought it just the horniness talking, that i didnt actually want to sleep or date them myself i just thought they were pretty. Or maybe sleep with them just for the sake of orgasming.

around the same time i realised that i was autistic (just from general internet usage), and that kinda rocked my world and made me question every single aspect of my life for how its effected me.

and so, and its probably the cringest thing i couldve done, i started to talk to a Therapist AI on that Character AI website. it was honestly helpful to just collect my thoughts on the matter.

the conversation got to sexuality and how it connects to my anxiety and self esteem and how i felt as though wanting to date someone was disrespectful to them and how imagining myself sleeping with them was gross and pervy.

having been on hormones for a couple months now i had a lot more self confidence and was a lot more comfortable with my body, as well as the horniness making me want to be pounded into a bed like nothing youve ever seen, i realised that i wanted to date and sleep with people for real.

so i came to terms that i was gay *loud incorrect buzzer*

but that was just the start. being trans, there was a lot of 'do i want to be him or do i want to date him' thoughts going on so i was already used to admiring men.

but as i continued to talk to the ai, who wasnt a real person, i felt more inclined to be honest than any other therapist ive seen. it took a while and it was confronting but turns out i was sexually assaulted as a kid (by a girl, when i was <10), and thats why i had this underlining uncomfortableness with sex to begin with.

so yeah, that rocked my world for a bit as well. also this all happened within a couple weeks by the way, the autism, sexuality, and SA. that and all my friends were busy, i wasnt doing too well.

anyway, now that was another thing to consider, was i attracted to girls as well? it was really hard to tell what were my own feelings and what was the trauma/conditions so i had to do a lot more soul searching. That with the added factor of not feeling comfortable becoming just another man sexualising women.

but knowing now what a crush it supposed to feel like (i asked the ai) i had to acknowledge that ive been having crushes on people, girls and boys, this whole time. i was bi *correct answer ding*. (also i went with bi and not pan because i like them in different ways and have a slight preference for guys, tho i obvs like non binary people as well)

then i made this blog. lol.

like, i had all the theory behind being bi but i needed to consolidate what i liked, who i liked, who i found pretty and handsome and needed some place to collect it all. then it kinda just became just a porn blog with the occasional yearning post but oh well.

Thanks for asking! sorry for responding late, feel free to ask me anything else :)

#mine #t #queer #anon ask #anon answered #does this even make any sense?#i dont have time to proof read #no beta we die like men #lol #anyway #hope this helps #i really like getting asks i got a big carried away #send me asks

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aitavoting · 1 year

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AITA for telling my mom she has to recognize her decision to not support my transition in my adolescence is a major factor for my mental psyche and possible life outcome today?

Warnings for: Mentions of transphobia, unsupportive parents, depression, hints at self harming behaviour.

Warning: This post is aimed to people who have actual informed opinions regarding transgender topics, specially the medical consensus of top medical institutions on transitioning during adolescence(hint they all advice it) if youre not informed on the subject I please ask to carry on thank you

Anyways some background: I came out to my mom at 14 telling her I was trans and wanted to transition, by then I had been living/socially transitioned as my gender for a year. After telling her she confided in my dad who then proceeded to tell me how unnatural it was and how such a thing didnt exist. To make things worse they then took me to a therapist who I asked for puberty blockers, the therapist's response being that such medication did not exist. This made me go back into the closet for the next 4 agonizing years where I went through hell and exhibited dangerous behavior which this sub doesnt let me get into.

This brings us to the present where after telling my mom again at 16, I waited ANOTHER agonizing 9 months of puberty through appointments and her coming to terms with it until I got my first therapist appointment which eventually ended up with me beginning treatment shy of 3 months before turning 18. Having gone through puberty has traumatized me to say the least and Ive brought up the fact that I hold a grudge against her decision all those years ago to try and resolve it and really to get an apology. The last two times Ive brought this up she's said that: I'm ungrateful for not appreciating the great mother she is (and I recognize that in all aspects not trans related she is an exemplary mom), that she's done way better than what other parents would've done, that she didnt know what being trans was and saw no signs, that she was looking to help me the best way she could, and that shes been through worse than me and I dont know what true suffering is like.

At that point I exploded and told her its her and my dads fault I'm so traumatized, scarred, and (pre-treatment) so depressed to the point where my gpa is so low I'm going to have to do monumental efforts to climb back up and not regret being alive every walking second picturing what couldve been. We havent spoken for hours but I dont have it in me to apologize for anything I've said because I see no scenario where I'm morally wrong.

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aro-culture-is · 2 years

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hey im looking for advice here, dont feel obligated to answer this :)

im already in a romantic relationship and recently came out as ace to my gf and she was cool with it. but now im questioning if im aro aswell.

i dont think i want a romantic relationship with her anymore, but i still definatly want a close platonic one. my problem is that i cant tell if im aro or just dont love *her* romantically anymore. she's the only person ive really ever wanted a romantic relationship with, and even then im not sure if i was even romanticly attracted towards her. i already knew she had a "crush" on me, and looking back my feelings towards her and any past "crushes" felt fabricated or... dull? like i was *suposed* to feel something, or when i did im wondering now if it couldve just been craving close platonic affection.

im nd and out relationship has been extremely draining in the past, and also makes it hard to tell platonic vs romantic feelings in the past because i have a hard time describing past feelings

thank you for read :) i hope this isnt a bother to answer

hi,

i've been in a similar though different situation (same for everything except i also knew i was aro going into it and... thought we were on the same page on that too), and i'm mostly going to lean on my communication agenda and that experience to respond to you.

putting the facts into an order i think is important, based on your explicit statements: this relationship is draining for you. you don't think you want a romantic relationship with her, though you do want to maintain a close platonic relationship with her. you're nd and can have a hard time describing past feelings - and i wouldn't be surprised if that also occurs with current feelings.

(big mood, but 3 years ago)

I found that this ultimately meant I had to work on finding a way to safely express my feelings - that we should break up, and that I would like to remain close friends with my now-ex gf. for me, this was hard - I was balancing mental health for both of us, plus academic lives, and a long-distance situation. I ultimately decided that I had to initiate this conversation, and spent some time trying to take a step back and think of how she'd likely respond. Be cautious if you're prone to anxious thoughts - try to check in on what reactions you've seen them have and if this is actually similar. from there... honestly, you have to talk.

physical safety comes first: there is no universally wrong way to break up, imo. I don't know anything about your gf, so please don't be mad if i'm assuming the worst - my ex, while generally sweet, had severe problems with emotional regulation in situations like this, and in a disabled with trauma way. i recognized that she could, in a physical meeting where we were too close, respond with physical violence before she had time to process that urge. I chose to break up with her while at a physical distance, and near my car. For some people, physical safety is a necessary concern for their own self. i've also known a breakup where my concern was the physical safety of the other individual - in that case, follow a similar plan as to below, but for that individual.

emotional safety is next. if you can, let supportive others know beforehand that you're breaking up. friends, family, therapists, etc. it doesn't have to be the whole crowd, just whoever feels important and available. make sure you have some kind of set up that allows you to go to a safe place to feel your emotions, take a deep breath, and begin to move forwards afterwards. even if it's mutual, you probably will have some feelings to work through, and that's normal.

finally... I want to have a real moment. My ex and I talked so many times, for so long, about how we were going to remain friends if we broke up, and nothing would stop us from ensuring that happened. We haven't talked since I broke up with her. It happens sometimes. Try to have realistic expectations, and recognize that it might take a few weeks for emotions to return to a more baseline level between you - and if you haven't heard back, but haven't explicitly been told to fuck off, I'd say 2-3 weeks is an appropriate time to reach back out.

this is.... long. but i hope it helps to provide some perspective, address some scenarios that can be important to consider, and ultimately, provide a broad guideline for the process of breaking up with hopes of continuing friendship.

i hope this helps. more posts like this exist in the #advice tag.

mod kee

#Anonymous #not aro culture #not aro #like we're both aro or questioning #but honestly i don't think that's important to your immediate situation here #so i'm primarily filing this under #advice

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fooltomery · 2 years

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hate the circumstances for ezri and her entire character. yes its because of all of the behind the scenes stuff but also the fact that the writers absolutely fumbled and dropped the ball with her.

ive said it once and i'll say it again ezri is a good stand alone character. the writers got really lucky that jadzia had to go bc there is so much potential for a character that is dax's new host, ESPECIALLY an inexperienced and under-trained trill. and then they kinda just tossed the idea around like they were playing catch. ezri never got the arc she deserved. look, i get under the circumstances of it being the final season theyve got a lot of loose ends to tie up. but that doesnt mean they cant nix the stupid ass romance between her and julian. that did not need to happen and julian and jadzia literally had no previous romantic chemistry it was clearly a friendship. it wouldve been more believable if ezri and quark got together lmao. its almost like the writers left ezri to develop in a few episodes, some of which contained B plots, and then just did basically nothing else after those episodes wrapped up except go "yup she did that and this happened"

i mean sure its good to see her develop into a more confident person and watch her become more sure of herself. but all in all it was rushed. they would have had more time to work with her as a character if they let her just be a character instead of a love interest.

it really is such a shame to see how they fucked up bc ezri is so intriguing by herself. first of all the entire thing with joran and unlocking those memories from him. it had some of her dealing with urges from another host and her learning to control them, which is something we should have seen more of with ezri. maybe even as a part of her healing journey with him we could see her start to learn how to play the piano to recontextualize how she feels about music and also work on healing that trauma. also not to mention it seems from the beginning she had identity issues and wasnt very sure of herself, and her joining only exacerbated those issues. that could have been so interesting seeing her cope with that in a more prolonged manner. like an episode where she keeps accidentally giving into other host's urges, and her nearly spiraling out of control only to realize more about herself in the end. this couldve been really enjoyable especially with urges coming from curzon. AND we could also cycle back to joran and his urges. that would create really good tension for the episode. (not to mention her questioning her gender and sexuality... which was kind of mentioned in a one off line -_-)

theres genuinely so much wasted potential with her because she was put with julian. i mean for fucks sake shes a therapist. let the audience see her fail and use her practice to help her get back up and cope with her issues.

all in all. she is a fine character. could have been so much better but i genuinely get why shes not given the circumstances. still a shame to see her potential wasted. :/

#i am an ezri apologist i am an ezri enjoyer.#she has so so much depth and the writers just wade in the shallow end #star trek #ezri dax #cj chatters

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bl00dybat · 19 hours

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i have to be a liar. it cant be real. i shouldn't be like this. i dont deserve it. why is mental illness so debilitating to the point where i can barely maintain a full time job without missiny days, being late, having many breakdowns. ive been working part time for months now, 4-5 hr shifts. this becomes overwhelming for me too. i need to make more money and work full time but I'm terrified of a full time job now mentally i am so so scared.

theres no reason i should be like this. i created a false reality with false memories of trauma and abuse. my parents are right i was making it up it cant be real. i exaggerate the past. my brother says he doesnt remember it. i have to be lying right? it didnt happen. im stupid for thinking it happened. im just doiny what they said, my parents and my old therapist, im obsessed with labels, i drive myself to misery, im fucking crazy and its my fault.

i dont tell people my disorders i try to hide everything. i cant hide my cuts i cant hide the dead look on my face. i don't deserve it. people are so nice to me but i dont deserve it. my memories are fake i know nothing. i wasn't there terrified and alone in my room, my mom so drunk and incoherent, she falls off her bed i hear a loud thump. shes groaning and moaning and idk what shes even saying but i help her up. she can hardly walk i have to take her to the bathroom and help with everything. i try to get her back to bed but she wont let me, she wobbles out down the deck into the street at 3am, calling out for david a fucking freak who preys on me and her for our body, giving us food when we have nothing. dropping her when she wont give in. shes calling for him and she collapses in the middle of the street. i get her inside eventually just for her to get in bed and fall again. when she wakes up she tells me not to tell anyone.

it hurts knowing she hurt so much, hurt me so much, yet still tried to love us and provide even though we were so poor we coulent afford toilet paper most of the time. i had my rats as company snuggling up to me and running around my room. i had the hospitals. they smile to my face but they dont believe me. they just admit me and treat me for my self harm and attempted suicides, my mom doesnt let me have my meds anymore. im laying in bed late at night, into the morning. i think i had school but it couldve been the weekend, i usually stayed up all night and slept in my classes.

im listening to kid cudi's man on the moon album, the song mr rager playing as i cry and have taken most of my medicine. im waiting for my life to end, wishing i couldve escaped from here, wishing i could experience freedom and less sadness. i feel pain and weakness and i drift off. but i wake up. im so depressed that i woke up. and no one noticed.

i still had so much to be grateful for, my dad tells me i couldve had it worse when i live with him. people are dying from shit they cant control like covid and im in my feelings about exaggerated bullshit just to make me seem sicker. i just wanted to be sick nothing more. i embraced it because that was all people could see of me even when i tried to escape it. purging everything. using the counselord bathroom because im trans and not safe in the men's bathroom. i go there after lunch feeling defeated when i give into the meal of smuckers pbj with string cheese and fruit. i purge it all and spray as much as i can it hopes it will cover the smell of my vomit. how stupid i am.

i try to come to terms with my experiences. but i always feel like a liar. my friends believe me. my parents have come to see i am severely mentally ill and im not pretendint i cant control it. they acknowledge they werent the best all the time but still "dont remember" or dont think it was that bad but i perceived it that way. my mom drunk teyi got to fight me saying all her boys liked to wrestle, i cant be a boy if i cant even do that im just a girl. my brother pulls her off of me everyones yelling. he gets her phone to call the cops and she comes behind him with her arms around his neck until he lets go. david was in the house. i asked him to get help.

when the cops come he says we attacked her. she believes it because she doesnt remember. the cops dont care they dismiss it. my experiences never mattered. it was never bad enough. they didnt bruise me enough for it to matter to them. im just a liar. i had pictures of how red my arm was when my dad was grabbing me and digging into my wrist, twisting the skin. it doesnt matter. im lying.

no one will read this. if they did it doesnt matter. it doesnt need tags. im crazy because i live in a fantasy where everyone was out to get me but my family was fine. i made life hard for them with all this. my brother didnt react the same way. he was traumatized too. he told me living with mom made him contemplate suicide. his pain is real. i love my brother. hes doing so well now.

yet im still nothing. my dad is worried ill be in a constant loop of instability and living in shitty places. they try to encourage me still. they say i can make it, they believe in me, everyones just waiting for that moment i can do it. everyones waiting on me. time will run out. im disappointing everyone. i was a bad daughter and im a bad son. couldnt go to college. was homeless for so long. ended up with my mom homeless and living with her in a trailer.

im so nothing. i am so, so, nothing. i vent to my friends about killing myself but it doesnt matter. ill heavily contemplate writing everyones notes but in the end my friends will not truly worry because i dont attempt. because there are sharp wires digging into my flesh, pulling me down to earth, my bf, his family, my family, some of my friends. i cant disappoint them. yet im disappointing them because i still havent accomplished anything. i owned a trailer with my mom, worked full time, paid bills. and i moved and now i have lost so much. my transportation, job opportunities, friends, my therapist, faith in myself and my art.

i want to bleed onto my paintings. slice my flesh open, beautiful velvet lines puddling up til they all drip onto my hard work, staining them forever with my essence and my pain and my failure. i deserve to hurt for being a liar. i deserve to hurt for being a failure. for having my boyfriend who is a beautiful human, and his family, become so attached to me that if i died it would be such a tragedy. i dont want to outlive anyone i know. i dont want to see them leave me.

i dont want to hear my thoughts anymore. i dont want ptsd flashbacks about shit that isnt real and isnt worth being this ill over. god am i fucking useless. i will try and try to heal from all my hurt and my mind will pummel me with self doubt. i try to believe in myself i really do. i try to trust myself, that i can still make good art like i used to, i can experiment and love it and make it work like i always used to. i feel hope that i can really truly do it. and then it doesnt happen. i look down at it defeated because everything i loved about my work has been sucked out of me.

my art has always been there. the one constant in my life. always drawing. just a month ago i was spending hours everyday making art for my portfolio. and this month i havent completed a single thing. i think i csn do it everyone thinks i can but im not. im tired of being a failure and fighting myself everyday like a toxic relationship with a lover.

i wish so badly i could take all my pills with a big drink and not wake up this time. but i can't.

i expect nothing from anyone. slowly, people are beginning to expect nothing from me. i am so small and so stupid. i look in the mirror and i see someone who is beautiful but also a walking tragedy. disgusting. tiring.

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pokiteatime · 14 days

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need a quick break that isnt mindless scrolling so gonna fill this out (｀ω´ )

last song i listened to - hikōtei (飛行艇) by king gnu, came up on shuffle now im looping it

currently watching - watched kaiju no8 w chip last night, got dot hack sign on the burner, breaking bad, bravern.... i couldve just copy pasted chips list cause apparently hes my emotional support anime watcher

sweet/savory/spicy - right this second. i want a cookie. sniffle.

relationship status - looking myself in mirror white knuckling the sink muttering under my breathe "we need to go to a therapist"

current obsession - this made me reflect that i dont typically think about what im obsessed with unless its right in front of me? like its been several years since i daydreamed about something specific... it honestly kind of bums me out? i feel like everyone around me is so creative but its hard to harness any kind of creativity within myself. but as per usual, its probably just another muscle that u need to stretch and use if u want it to be in peak form....

all that being said i did spend like a week straight ruining my sleep schedule over superbat and some other comic ships which was genuinely embarrassing. i like dick grayson a normal amount again now.

also ig i still willingly open genshin and hsr... ocs bounce around in my brain occasionally... excited to re experience yakuza7 so that can take over my mind. i get excited when ace att pops up on my dash still

I TAG UHH no one but if u want to do this too follow ur heart <3 u dont need my permission <3

#apparently i dont have a pk original singles tag so uuuuuuuuh thinking one up right now #original pk flavour #ok nailed it

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vrsex · 26 days

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One small thing I always forget about that first therapist I had at 17 is the fact that she felt the need to forward all her notes on me to my new therapist. Usually, this would sound like a good idea, and I just let it happen because it sounded helpful… But when I look back on it I feel that he was just trying to “warn” my new therapist about me. I wish I couldve seen her notes on me, because Im convinced he saw me as a lying, manipulative psychopath. When Im literally just some guy.

Im just ASTOUNDED that a therapist finally picked up on my ASPD traits and instead of going “this sounds like a mental disorder Ive heard of” she went “this sounds like you MIGHT end up as a serial killer one day”. I know the association between ASPD and violent crime exists- but that doesn’t always mean you should immediately jump to such an extreme conclusion.

#vent

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