#i don't even have the book yet

[gouinisme]

i'm literally so so so so scared

#i might dm for the first time next week #i'm so so scared #i don't even have the book yet #by next week i mean sunday so i have a little over a week #but given i have 3 exams next week that might not be enough idk #for SIX PEOPLE #it was almost 7 cuz my friend's little brother invited his COUSIN #WITHOUT CONSULTING ME #but my friend knew that was probably too much for me so he asked me and now the cousin is out of the euation #but like bro #don't invite someone into a game without consulting the dm??? especially when you've met the dm like 3 whole times??? #i'm not actually mad at him cuz like he's a middle schooler he doesn't know but still bro dont do that #wait will i have to adapt shit given it's supposed to be like. a horror campaign and there's gonna be a middle schooler at the table? #and by table i mean discord server #i don't think so but i guess i'll ask #i've watched horror movies with most of the people at this table so i know they're not squeamish but idk about him

[egophiliac]

still absolutely losing my mind over Lilia

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #sebek: wow we're so lucky to see lilia-sama at his fighting prime. so commanding! so powerful! #lilia: (straight up stuffs a frog in his mouth without breaking eye contact) #seriously though i did not think it was possible for me to enjoy lilia even more. and yet. #'dragon eggs need love in order to hatch' #ten year old me: gasp. i knew it. #the IMPLICATIONS though! #forget true love's kiss we have true love's baby dragon over here #also twst. twst please. i do feel i need to call you out a little bit on malleus' age #i don't really have a problem with it i was just. surprised. #i mean i GUESS the description of dragon ages was vague enough that malleus being under 200 doesn't inherently contradict it #it could've been clearer okay :( #that said it is true that the younger malleus is the more hilarious his whole world-weary immortal schtick is #'ah...you are all as infants in comparison to me. ' - malleus (age 19) #also lilia being a foundling does explain him not knowing his real birthday. so i will forgive (1) birth-related shenanigan. #auuuugh the parallels between lilia and silver #brb i need to go roll around on the ground and mutter to myself for a while

[bittersweetyrn]

big fan of essek thelyss, not the fanon interpretation, which is either "smol bean, tiny fragile elf who's a sweetheart and basically a child" or people mistakenly calling betrayal of one's home country a "war crime" and then proceeding to be flippant about it anyway, but the real Essek

pretentious motherfucker that committed treason bc he though he was smarter than everyone else

learned to float literally just to impress other rich people

canonically neutral evil

basically head spymaster of his country and master of lies but sucks shit lying to his friends

stayed bitchy even after his redemption arc

"there is nothing I would love more than to not be around you all for the remainder of this day"

a space wizard that crushed someone with telekenesis just to show off (the person was already dying)

sexy feet, nice ass, overall hottie

fell in love with a traumatized wizard of his enemy country and it was mutual despite all the betrayal

faggot

gave away state secrets to enemy wizard bc he though he was sexy

discovered time travel with his boyfriend

proceeded to say they shouldn't use time travel (bc now he's a good boy) but was willing to sacrifice everything and help if his bf wanted to use it

once confessed he had such a bad fight with his dad that his dad ran into the demon caves and never returned (essek doesn't feel bad about this at all)

young for an elf but still 120 years old, he called his bf "young man" and flexed on him about how much more evil he is

#anytime I imagine him stealing the beacons its set to the music from Sinbad where eris steals the book of peace #the way people say “he's basically a teenager!” to excuse his actual evil acts #characters are evil and its cool #very much “my guy didn't do that! he did a bunch of other shit tho” #he is all these cool things yet unfortunately the dice were never on his side 😔 #I only have the most correct opinions on essek #I literally don't even critrole anymore but he is my bitch ass wife #critical role #essek thelyss #essik theylas #ask me abt my fic series “I sensed we loved each other without knowing”

[fearandhatred]

the very first thing i did in 2024 was go insane aka i slept at 7am and among other things i drew these! they're unrefined and only two panels of a much larger thing i'm doing but since that'll not be done any time soon i thought i might as well post these first

panel 8 of panel 2

#fearandhatred #fearandart #me drawing the first panel: girl how do you draw hair. girl how do you draw wings. girl how do you draw the universe #some person out there might be able to guess what the larger thing is (it's based off something else) just based on the colours #also i haven't gotten around to finishing the panels that include having to draw their faces yet. for reasons #don't ever ask me how i draw aziraphale at this point i don't even use references for him just pure luck and a prayer #also “among other things” includes doing two more panels and writing 2k words of a fic and starting the perks of being a wallflower (book) #and also having breakfast #and then going to sleep and waking up at 4pm #good omens #good omens season 2 #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #crowley #aziraphale #good omens fanart #good omens art #art

[ofswordsandpens]

"the Gabe and Sally dynamic in the show is abusive" and "the way they've portrayed Gabe in the show is distinctly different from his book counterpart and fans can criticize that" are two discussions that can coexist

#I understand that this is hard topic to navigate #but me saying that /they've changed Gabe and that's consequently altered the dynamic he has with Sally in way I don't like/ #is NOT me saying I don't think what they've portrayed onscreen is non-abusive #or that I WANT to see him abuse her??? #its just the guy in the show while clearly controlling and abusive (emotionally and financially so far) #...I don't believe he's the guy who's presence was so horrid and disgusting MONSTERS avoided him #I wouldn't call him /Smelly/ #in the book his abuse (all forms) is much more overt #(and just to be painstakingly clear: abuse doesn't have to be overt to be abuse) #but the guy in the show does not have the same presence as the guy in the book #book Gabe is menacing #he growls and he threatens and both Sally and Percy have developed very specific responses to deal with it #I've seen one take saying that people can't recognize the abuse in the show because its not physical (yet?) #but even disregarding the physical abuse entirely #if you compare the book scene and TV show scene of Percy arriving home and he and Sally readying for Montauk #there is a pretty stark difference in tone #and in how both Sally and Percy interact with Gabe #in the book Sally goes out of her way to avoid /provoking/ Gabe and asks Percy to do the same until they can leave for Montauk #and Gabe is just itching for any excuse to keep them home #and imo if Book Sally had said the things that show Sally did to Gabe #Gabe wouldn't have let them gone! #and again im not saying that the show's depiction is nonabusive #or unrealistic #im saying its simply /different/ than the book #and im upset that it doesn't feel like dynamic depicted the book #and no book sally is no simpering wilting flower #but she's also not what they depicted in the show either #pjo adaptation #sally jackson #pjo

[tapakah0]

#I've read it. #**** you just read fluff chaos and little amount of angst and here BUM #It took me almost 2 hours to read just one chapter I don't know why but no regrets at all #With all these emotional ups and downs #I have one novel that I hold on the very top of the angst stories (I haven't read that many books #stories and fics and can judge only withing that little I have) #but if mnmc keep going like this this I need to widen my place on top... #I've cried over Mojo again #The same scene and here we go again. how. #And then this one SORRY I CAN'T PUT IT INTO WORDS #The way they triet each other #they both go through hell #All little details about their emotions #Their differences yet so many similarities #I don't like the angst is placed out of nowhere but this fic was BORN IN ANGST #I WANNA BITE BIG MAMA'S HEAD OFF #FOR THE GOD'S SAKE LEON KILL HER FRIEND #YOU WANTED LEO JUST TO BE SAFE BUT WHAT'S THE MEANING IF HE'S NOT #AND IT'S SO DARK IN THEIR CEILING THAT LEON COULDN'T EVEN SEE WHAT'S GOING ON WITH LEO #SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED AT ONE TIME #I DID COUNT WITHOUT JOKES HOW MANY TIMES I DID CRY DON'T JUDGE (I AM HARD TO CRY ON SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T CATCH MY ATTENTION I GUESS MY AT #ENTION IS CAUGHT WELL ENOUGH) 4 TIMES. 4 F***ING TIMES #FOR THE GOD'S SAKE I WANNA SEE CLICHE WHEN THEIR BROTHERS JUST BOOOM CRUSH EVERYTHING AROUND ON THIS AIRPLANE AND SAVE THEIR BROTHERS I WAN #A A CLICHE #I DON'T WANT IT TO BE THE END OF THE STORY WHEN LEON DIES HOW HE WANTED FROM THE VERY BEGINNING #I AM NOT OKAY OVER THE WAY HE TREATS THESE KIDS #OR LEO SUDDENLY A BOOST OF POWERS AND TELEPORTS THEM #ANYTHING #JUST NOT DEATH #AT LEAST NOT LIKE THIS

[hotjaneaustenmenpoll]

There needs to be an "Austen adjacent men" bracket. So many hotties in Austenland (and other properties I guess) and no way to rank them.

it may not be a full bracket but your wish is my command - here are some austen-adjacent men to vote on...

curse my spelling mistakes *Mr Nobley

#hotjaneaustenmenpoll #austenland #the jane austen book club #becoming jane #Paging Mr Darcy #I'm not sure Tom Lefroy quite fits here but I think that might be my anti-Becoming Jane bias getting in the way so I've included him #also I haven't seen any of the hallmark Jane Austen films (curse them not showing in the UK yet) so I have no idea if Sam Lee is worthy #But I liked him in reign and step up 2 so it's an educated guess he is #This is also why none of the new sense and sensibility men have been included in the main bracket as I don't think it's released even #in the us until Sunday #I'm not holding out much hope it'll be good but I do think it will be fun! #jane austen #hugh dancy #will kemp #bret mckenzie #jj feild #ricky whittle #james mcavoy #mini poll

[me1och]

Made some Starkid patches (with a bonus Owen) instead of prepping for exams and wanted to share them here. Very happy with how they turned out!

#owen carvour #t'noy karaxis #uncle wiley #wilbur cross #ted spankoffski #nighthawks #starkid #hatchetverse #time bastard #black friday #tcb #spies are forever #saf #the tinky design is very much inspired by the black book illustration #owen turned out kinda messy but well he's owen so that rather checks out #worst part about this? i don't even actually have anywhere i'd want to sew them on just yet #mel says stuff

[writeouswriter]

Girl, help, the book authors are trying too hard to be "hip" with the fleeting "teen lingo" and trends again, immediately dating their works before they're even released

#eye twitching seeing certain modern slang in for real published books unironically #tiktokian slang that is out of date within weeks #it's a pet peeve of mine but so is modern books mentioning tiktok or stuff at all esp. when not relevant in general #god it pulls you out of the illusion #turns it into this very set in stone time frame rather than letting it just be or resonate on its own which is fine sometimes if natural #you can't avoid some mentions of some things when setting it today but in these cases it's so forced #hello fellow kidz.jpeg vibe in book form #books #this isn't even specific to ya books i've seen it in adult books as well #booklr #petty as i am i once stopped reading a first chapter excerpt for mentioning spotify by name on page 1 i'm sorry #this other book though oh they've used online phrases and boomer insult 3 times and brought up tiktok twice it's on thin f-ing ice #ignore me i'm petty but don't ignore me because this is a legit problem in the media industry #don't even get me started on text speak in the dialogue or texting sections yeah #it's not quite as bad if it's some fake variation of an app or just generic about being online but mentioning by name oh i'm gonna explode #most times anyway #i have yet to see it handled well #this was about slang though so tangent but !! gaah

[syl-stormblessed]

guys i'm over 70% of the way through Night Watch right now and.....god I don't even know what to say. i still have 1/4 of the book left but i think my life has been changed.........they're waving the flags of Ankh-Morpork and singing the national anthem at the barricades because they are fighting for the city. they aren't rebelling against the city, they're fighting to fix it.....they're fighting for truth, justice, freedom, reasonably priced love, and a hard boiled egg..........the government is trying to name them enemies of the state but....that's just not what they are. they are The People of Ankh-Morpork, and they're rebelling against the injustice that's become ingrained in society, not against society itself...........

#this might be a little incomprehensible but i just have a lot of feelings. and i'm definitely going to have more once i finish it #i'm not the same person that i was yesterday afternoon #i know i kinda said i'd keep everyone updated but i just don't think i can #i'm not even done with it yet but now i know why this book is so beloved. #and i'm not. even done with it yet. #i'm pretty sure i'm gonna cry at some point ngl #vin speaks #vin reads discworld #discworld #night watch #gnu terry pratchett #terry pratchett #the glorious 25th of may

[bloggingboutburgers]

I get what you mean about fandom being lonely for us sex repulsed!

What works for me is engaging with the few fandoms with canon aro and ace characters, there are usually lots of aspec fans there and it's nice to be able to talk with them and discuss the media's themes.

That's also true, sounds like a surefire way! But that also depends on... There BEING such accessible works to begin with (I haven't found many personally truth be told) and that I even LIKE the work altogether too... If there's a canon aro or ace character (never seen a character confirmed as aro in canon, like within the story itself, yet, truth be told, granted I gotta still watch Koisenu Futari but yeah that aside) but that's literally the only thing the work has going for it (and the characters themselves are nothing more than "the aro" or "the ace" and don't have traits or arcs I find engaging besides that) it's still a fairly bland experience...

#legit have found nothing but bojack horseman that ticked these boxes for me yet and i don't engage in THAT fandom fsr sooo #and yes i do have to watch koisenu futari but even then that work doesn't seem accessible enough to have that much of a fandom per se #also i'm not a huge live action OR book only person so... there's that too i guess #idk it seems easier for others overall #it's probably my fault for wanting to have just that much when my brain just... doesn't work right in that sense? #yep here comes the internalized aphobia again #anon

[egophiliac]

couple more quickies, because I gotta work through my Shroud-family feelings before I can even begin to process the Diasomnias, please bear with me 🙇

anyway, I couldn't decide which composition I liked better, so I did both!

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #eyestrain #sorry i know i've been posting too much in this style i just have FEELINGS #feelings that can only be expressed through high-contrast #anyway #i don't know why i never even considered he would go to rsa. of course he would. #ortho is cerberus -> ortho is a Good Boy -> ortho goes to Good Boy school #the math checks out #we have not even seen dreamworld ortho yet and i'm already obsessed. i hope he shows up just in time for a dramatic ortho vs ortho showdown

[spookieloop]

Fighting for my LIFE to not write a fic where Durge and Ascended Astarion approach Enver Gortash to join their world domination polycule.

#Baldur's Gate 3 #Durge #Durge x Ascended Astarion #Durge x Gortash #Like I have to ghostwrite for a living and I'm moving soon so I want to go hard with writing my projects SWIFTLY so I can stockpile money #(basically it's like $1000-$1500/book and I can finish a project in like 15-25 days normally; but IF I FOCUS ALL MY WRITING TIME ON WORK-) #(THEN I CAN PROBABLY HAVE LIKE $3500 TO MOVE WITH AFTER I PAY MY BILLS) #why am I on tumblr when I should be writing #I haven't even played the game yet smh #But I gave my PC to my friends so they'd have a computer #Might fuck around and buy a dedicated gaming laptop once I move and settle in #Like I don't have a lot of time for games; but I mean there's no reason I couldn't make it my work computer #and then write it off at tax time

[wikiangela]

tease tidbit tuesday💀

tagged by @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove @daffi-990 @fortheloveofbuddie @disasterbuckdiaz @hoodie-buck 💖

hi! so, yesterday I randomly opened the doc with the buddie death cast au - which is a fic I started writing last summer on vacation and never got back to it but then made progress lol it's gonna be MCD, which i know is not everyone's thing so feel free to ignore this 🤣 it's basically buddie in the universe of the "they both die at the end"/"the first to die at the end" books so it's gonna be sad, sorry lol (I never even read mcd, idk why i'm writing this but this idea just wants to be written i guess haha) gotta put this weird mood I've been in lately to good use and finally write this 🤣 not sure if I'm happy with this snippet, but it all needs editing, the first two snippets were written on my phone and haven't been edited yet lol

I posted two snippets so far, gonna link them both snippet 1 | snippet 2

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“Is all of this clear, Eddie?” she asks in the end.

“Yeah, sure, whatever.” he says shortly. He should've just hung up immediately. Or cancel this stupid subscription after Shannon died. Sometimes he wonders if maybe people who get the calls and coincidentally get into accidents, for example, just give up and refuse to fight because they think it’s their time. Not like Shannon could do much, her injuries were too severe when they got there, but the point stands. Maybe they get more reckless, thinking it doesn’t matter anyway. 

There’s a short pause on the line, but then Jane speaks up again, her tone softer, more sympathy seeping through.

“I know it’s not easy to accept, if you’d like some help with that, on out website you can find therapists and grief counselors specializing in-”

“Listen.” Eddie interrupts. He’s spent enough time in therapy. He’s not doing it on his supposedly last day. “I know it’s all bullshit. I don’t care. You said what you had to say, I listened, for whatever reason.” he rolls his eyes. He really should’ve hung up, or not answered at all. “Is this conversation over yet?” he asks and is met with another moment of silence. She’s probably wondering what everyone else always is: why is he even spending money on this if he doesn’t believe. He has an answer ready to go, but that’s not what she asks.

“Can I ask you a question?” she says quieter, whispering, probably not allowed to go too much off-script. 

“Sure, why not.” he shrugs. He’s wide awake now, anyway, he’s not in a hurry. Not like he’s dying anytime soon.

“If it was your last day, how would you spend it? You don’t have to answer, just think about it.” she adds quickly, her tone much softer and gentler now. Eddie’s mind immediately supplies a picture of Christopher and Buck, just a casual hang-out, like usual, maybe going to the movies, or the aquarium, or the planetarium, something fun for his kid. And later a gathering with the rest of their family, maybe a barbecue at Bobby and Athena’s, with Maddie and Chim, and Hen and Karen, all their kids, just everyone having fun together. Yeah, that’d be a perfect day. “There’s no harm in spending today just like this, if possible. Just in case.” Jane adds, still whispering. He doesn’t tell her that’s more or less his plan, anyway, for the evening after his 12-hour shift. During which nothing will happen to him, because Death-Cast doesn’t know shit. “Well, lastly, Eddie,” Jane’s voice is back at normal-volume, tone strictly professional but sympathetic, as she recites the end of her script, “on behalf of everyone here at Death-Cast, we’re so sorry to lose you. Live this day to the fullest.”

Eddie hangs up without a word.

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#tease tidbit tuesday #death cast buddie au #buddie wip #buddie fic #buddie #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #my wips #angst #buddie angst #mcd #i don't know how yet but eddie will die in this one bc apparently ive been in the mood to break my own heart lmao #i wanted to say maybe i'd share smth happier tomorrow but i don't think i have any happy wips im actively working on rn??? #there are happy wips in general but im not really in the mood/inspired for those rn #ran out of happy when i finished the natalia fic i guess lol #who even am i lmao what's with all the angst and sad im usually all about fluff 🤣 #(gonna share some more of alive shannon tomorrow!) #btw if you haven't read the books and have questions hmu but also i'll try to make everything clear in the fic lol #but also SO recommend the books they're so good and so sad and I think about them like at least once a week (the prequel wrecked me)

[andtheyreonfire]

goro akechi has been dead for 7 slutty, slutty years

#well. 4 if you say royal takes place in 2019 #persona 5 #2/2 #akechi goro #goro akechi #persona 5 royal #p5r spoilers #it's not 2/2 yet in my timezone. but it is spiritually i think #my brain hurts and i just wanna buy the zine but i gotta finish the assignment uuuuuuuuuu #i think i'm out of it but i can't tell if this source is just. not even addressing why these practices are argued to be abusive #or he's just doing it purposely #''oh it's not 40 hours a week!!! it's an Average of 40 hours a week!!! and it's more like 30-35'“ #''ohh people have called out the past use of electro-shock therapy...don't they know we only used it for dangerous behaviors????'' #''ohhh well if any one was actually abused in these practices they should contact the authorities'' we are talking about CHILDREN #book-licker. i am so tired. why do you mention studies and then not source them in your references. #anyways i should be having my autism times now that's what i mean yeah

[thebirdandhersong]

something hilariously ironic and somehow kind of sweet: this is the first time I've ever received flowers from a boy in my LIFE. this is the first time, and they aren't from my ex-boyfriend (the thought never crossed his mind) or my father or my brother..... the FIRST TIME I've ever received intentional flowers from a boy, it's from boy problem no 2. 😂😂😂😂😂 like what on earth!!!!!

#if i don't laugh about it i WILL cry #this is the second emotionally unavailable engineer boy who is so gentle it breaks my heart #i am floored by how kind of a friend he is. he and another friend intentionally planned a surprise #knowing that i had mixed feelings about my birthday and knowing that friends in the past seldom organized things for it #i have FLOWERS from him!!! dianthus flowers. and a book of prayers!!!!!! #in some ways this too is a gift. #so is the even more ironic fact that he told me a few days ago that he loved me (he meant it platonically). im not making this up lol #you couldn't make this up!!! #from a narrative point of view this is yet another HILARIOUS situation in the ongoing series of romantic mishaps #it does make my heart twist a little but it is light enough that i can still laugh about it! #i have a great deal of fondness for this man and i will not agonize over this the way i did over the first engineer :)