#i don't want to be here

[p1nkribbxns]

am I really that fat? like why does my father always comment when i say I'm hungry or when I get a snack? why does my mother ignore when I'm clearly struggling. I know she noticed the blood stains on the thigh areas of my white shorts. its like they don't even care and I don't know how much longer I can take it. I have no friends, nobody who would call me their best friend, and getting up for school is exhausting. I don't want to do this anymore.

#suic1de #i don't want to be here #i hate my body #i hate it here #self h@rm #cvtaddict #i want to cvt #st4rv1ng #st4rve me #light as a feather #meanspø #thinspø #anor3c1a

[bunnygirllover45]

Jing yuan dragged me back to this hellhole.

#chrona.. rambles abt shit #I don't want to be here #this game stresses me so much #but my husband calls for me #Ruan Mei my beloved

[battling-my-demons]

I feel like I was set up from the moment I was born. I was made to fail. I have nothing. Nothing good about me. No brains and not good looking and incredibly bad luck. I hate myself. Everything about me is worthless. I am worthless.

#i hate everything #tired #emotional #dysfunctionality #tw selfhate #Selfhate #Self hate #worthless #stupid #i'm stupid #ugly #not worth it #useless #I'm so worthless #I'm not worth anything #i don't want to feel like this anymore #i don't want to be here #i want to go away #i wish i was joking #i wish i was pretty #i wish i was dead #i want to disappear #why was i born #why am i here #why am i like this #why am i alive #why am i the way that i am #i will survive #I'm barely here

[maryjaneszombies-blog]

When I talk nobody listens..

When I try to show people my music they're uninterested

Every move I make feels judged

I'm never doing enough

Being myself is never enough

I wish I could give up now..

#i don't want to be here #i want to disappear #i don't want to exist #my tears are cold #i feel small and unimportant

[mitamicah]

I see a lot of people have made covers of the snippet of Everybody's Waiting (the new JO track)

I may do it too but at the same time I am hesitant given that I am 90% sure they won't see it (since everything else I'd ever made have never been noticed by them - Bojan's big share yesterday included) and if by chance it is getting seen I am not sure how I'd feel having the first thing noticed by them be just another cover

I am probably overthinking things again

#so here's the t in the tags (aka me ranting) #I have not felt great about my art or my contribution to the joker out and käärijä fandom recently #I have honestly felt like an art block is coming #the few things I have been able to create just doesn't feel good to me #and I don't get the same satisfaction of sharing it either #Ik I should be grateful for whatever faves and views it gets but I cannot help but feel underappreciated #which in turn doesn't make me feel motivated to make more #the last few days I have actually been more drawn to playing my guitar and writing songs than creating artwork #so that is what I've been doing #in that regard creating a little cover would maybe be fun #and yet I fear I'd fall into the same trap as with the art #that now I might make something to share with the fandom it has stakes #and in the end the stakes will be too high since I cannot help but compare what I make #and so I will lose interest in making music as well #honestly I feel kind of lost #I have had days I just stop working for half an hour to several hours #falling down an unproductive rabbit hole where I just stare out into the blue or at a youtube video #I don't want to be here #I want to love what I do and love sharing it with you again #but after a pretty productive and somewhat decent january #I now feel meh about it all #thank you for reading my tag novel #I will go now #micahs thoughts #micahs foolery

[elysianymph]

IM TURNING SEVENTEEN IN HALF AN HOUR WHAT THE FUCK

#i don't want to be here #LET ME GO IM STILL A FOURTEEN YEAR OLD

[torifuckingspring]

it doesn't fucking matter

#i don't want to be here #i don't feel like a real person #idk

[hiddenmoonbeam]

period cramps, headache, anxiety. perfectly combined with working in retail this whole weekend

#i don't want to be here #but also not looking forward to feeling lonely at home #please can the new meds start working properly i don't want to feel like this

[vanilla-flavored-icecream]

I'm still at school lmao

#vanilla-flavored-icecream #charkis #i don't want to be here

[femmeidiot]

why am I still here

#I don't want to be here #here being my living room not like on planet earth

[june-again]

maybe school isn't for me

#good morning #i don't want to be here #at all #june shines #the trials of juniversity

[neurodivergenttales]

I have to have background noise on at all times - music, videos, podcasts - because the idea of having to listen to my own mind is too painful

#mental health #mental illness #mentalheathawareness #tw depressing stuff #depressing life #i don't want to be here #actually neurodiverse #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #neurospicy #neurodiverse stuff #its the neurodivergency

[homoashell]

Yuck school

#starr's thoughts #I don't want to be here

[maryjaneszombies-blog]

It doesn't get easier

Just harder

Every.

Single.

Day.

#I don't want to be here #I hate my job #i hate where i live #i have no control #the world is full of horrible people

[xinheartswakeex]

No one even loves me.. so why tf am I still here??

#i'm better off dead #i should've killed myself years ago #i hope i die #there's no purpose for me here #no one loves me #unloved #why am i still alive #better off dead #shoot me #i don't want to be here #fuck everything #personal

[calebs-hangout-corner]

Hey I'm sorry about how negative I've been lately guys, I haven't been feeling well and this is the only place I can really yell about it where I know people won't belittle me for it.

#burtle screms #I don't want to be here #But I'm getting paid for something here so I have to stay #I'm staying a day extra because of that and I'll be coming back on sunday to nobody #because there is nobody in my uni room but me #maybe that will be nice after spending so much time with ppl I can't stand that much