#i dont anymore but its nice to have that validation

[sharkneto]

How long do you think it should take between chapter uploads on Ao3?

As long as the author needs

#if i have a whole long fic written out i like to have something come out ~once a week #people don't have to wait too long between chapters and i get a steady drip of Validation lol #but thats not always the case - life happens. things have to be written and sometimes they dont cooperate #so that week is sometimes two sometimes a month sometimes three #and sometimes its a year or more for people #it's nice when fast chapters happen but fanfic writers are doing this for free and sometimes things just get in the way #pro tip? if youre missing a fic and it hasnt updated in a while and youre craving new content? #comment on it. #not a ''loved this when's the next chapter comin?'' comment #but write something you liked from the chapter - a moment some dialogue the feelings some part made you feel #if an author is struggling to finish something that little reminder that people like it and *why* can be *huge* #as time stretches on and interactions slow to a trickle it's really easy to get disheartened about finishing #''no one is reading it anyway its been so long I'm not good at writing anymore i dont remember what i was doing with this'' #so give your favorite authors some specific love and that might just kick things into gear #idc if its been a month or three years - i almost guarantee the author will still get your love even if its been years #and you don't know what their life is like - maybe that comment is just what they need to sit down and finish it up #sharkneto speaks #ask response #ficblogging

[rab1darachn1d]

bsd trans/queer headcanons for trans visibility day!!(PLS FEEL FREE TO ADD UR OWN I LOVE SEEING PPLS HEADCANONS)

-I see Dazai and Fyodor as both agender in a "im not exactly cis but i also dont exactly give a fuck anymore" Dazai more so because he has a hard time figuring out gender n shit like that and Fyodor bc he cant be bothered to think about that stuff(IM PROJECTING<3)

-I think Nikolai would be genderfluid or gender queer or would not care for labels at all and would use literally ANY fucking pronoun(Maybe hed feel like labels n shit were too constricting??? idk my tranny brain clung so hard to his whole "feeling like a bird trapped in a cage")(IK ITS NOT INHERENTLY TRANS IM NOT TRYING TO MAKE IT TRANS PLS DONT COME AFTER ME I HAVE A WIFE AND KIDS)

-Chuuya and Kunikida are transmasc. no explanation needed(i could go on for HOURS dude you dont understand)

-Nonbinary Gin ofc ofc, how they present depends on the day and i dont think theyd care about pronouns(I believe its canon they prefer to be seen as masc in the mafia for safety reasons?) I could also see them as gender queer

NOW HEADCANONS THAT DONT HAVE HARD REASONING AND I JUST THINK ARE NICE<3

-Lippmann being genderfluid or genderqueer

-Albatross being nonbinary(uses they/he)

-Akutagawa being unlabeled and doesn't care much about pronouns(he has worse things to worry about so i dont think hed give it much thought?)

-Kouyou being transfem

-I could see Atsushi testing out abunch of different labels(he was never taught abt queer stuff in the orphanage and so now hes just tryna figure shit out)

-Rimbaud being gender queer

-T4T Ranpoe guys you dont understand how happy they make me I HATE THEM

-Agender Tetchou and Pangender Jouno is funny to me, it wouldn't be on purpose itd just be a very funny coincidence

-Transfem Lucy and Anne being inspo for her transition makes me sob(I LOVE LUCY I NEED TO TALK ABT HER MORE SHES SO <333)

-following that T4T Atsulucy brings me joy, they could share their experiences "not feeling quite right" when they were both in the orphange

-Trans masc Sigma who will dress both masc AND fem(too all transmasc who dress fem and all transfem who dress masc you guys r so valid<33 your choice of clothes does not dictate your gender and violently bite those who say it does<3)

-Kenji would identify as male but would use any pronouns and not care how people perceive him, I dont think itd bother him as long as everyone is happy and no one fights over it

AND THOSE R ALL I HAVE HAPPY TRANS VISIBILITY DAY<3 REMEMBER THESE ARE ALL HEADCANONS AND SHOULDN'T BE TAKEN SUPER SERIOUSLY I JUST THINK THESE ARE NEAT AND MIGHT MAKE SOMEONE HAPPY

#PLS DONT FIGHT THANK YOU #bsd #bungo stray dogs #trans visibility day #trans #headcanons #bsd dazai #bsd fyodor #bsd nikolai #bsd chuuya #bsd Kunikida #i aint adding all the characters god damn #nonbinary #agender #gender queer

[visionthefox]

The thing that I liked about Dark Sun's intro kinda hasn't been maintained in his next appearances(as they made him more of a general jerk), but his reaction to New Moon specifically was interesting, Dark Sun is a Sun who tried to make peace with Moon but Moon refused and kept hurting him, so he snapped and destroyed him, he's a Sun who was left to languish by everyone and rather than swallowing it and wearing a kind face he went "If you never cared about me like you said, then I am not going to pretend I like you just to make you feel better about leaving me to rot", he was intimidating but you could also see exactly what led him to this, and Dark Sun by that point was also aware of dimensional goings-on, he's seen how often Suns are abused by Moons, or Eclipses, or really most of the people around them, and that probably only validated his feelings of apathy more, his insults towards Moon in his intro were less like teasing and taunting and more scolding and criticisms, not making fun but more chastising flaws, and that's what I liked, Dark Sun is basically the worst-case-scenario, when a Sun is pushed so far by all the abuse and neglect that their inherent kind nature is destroyed, and what's left is sharp, apathetic intellect that has no care for the people who hurt them and who isn't shy about saying so, though in his later appearances he started just throwing insults around which to me felt a bit off, I liked it when the stuff he said was more like scolding, because I feel like most Suns are way more aware of what's going on with people than people think, they see and are aware of people's character flaws, but he's normally too nice to address those flaws or issues until he's pushed to an outburst, Dark Sun just has no filter and says those things in the most blunt, patronizing way possible because he's fed up with being nice, if he has a problem with somebody he'll say it to their face in the most hurtful way, which feels more calculated and pointed than just pointing at somebody and going "you suck", that's what he did when he met New Moon, talking about how Moons are a certain way and how it leads to problems, not just insults but observations delivered in a scathing way, its what helped make him seem so scary and calculated, that's what I liked anyways idk if that made sense

(long post! aww yeeaaa!) oh yes yes makes perfect sense! is why I LOVED him too! the fact he wasnt really "evil" just- done! he was done acting nice, he was done hiding his dark side, and his dark side is just "I dont give a fuck anymore" I loved that, as you said, "Dark Sun just has no filter and says those things in the most blunt, patronizing way possible because he's fed up with being nice" THIS THIS THIS! I loved how, in no way , he made Moon a target , never put him in any danger! but only took his info in a way.. I believed he WANTED to meet a Moon to scan him, feels like something he do, like a Like a doctor or a scientis !! that takes away an bird, study it, but let it free, he could have Kill Moon! but why? when is more easy to step out.. and as you said "he's seen how often Suns are abused by Moons, or Eclipses, or really most of the people around them, and that probably only validated his feelings of apathy more" this is soo important because is a truth. theres this universal view of Sun as the "stupid" one, even Swap Eclipse said when talking on his Lunar "the dumb one" this is just hurtfull! and I dont think Moon is aware , is why he called Dark Sun "evil" because he wasnt aware that.. there's a limit to an abuse! "his insults towards Moon in his intro were less like teasing and taunting and more scolding and criticisms, not making fun but more chastising flaws" - is importat as well, Moons do love to tease, push buttoms, is why BloodMoon is the way he is, he is also a Moon! is why Eclipse loves to twist the dagger when he can.. is why most Moon's dont get to live long, they bite too much, Suns? docile, quiet, they look down an say "im not mad, im just dissapointed" theeen they do make him evil,, but so far- Im hopefull he is only acting on, and if meet with , say, another Sun? he would be more kinder, I bet he would be kinder to Lunar too,, I want to believe it! imsure many are EATING his actually evil self, for me, I like it better when is moraly grey.. I liked it better when he only looked after himself because no one would have cared for him..

#sams #tsams #ask #the sun and moon show

[shanesbluechicken]

Ooh, for sure for sure! Cant say im 100% emo myself but its not always dark and edgy or whatever stereotype emo has (though yeah ive seen a fair share of my own and thats completely valid)

I was thinking the reader be an anti social but friendly kind of emo. They wear dark clothing, but not all the time or all of it because they still do farming and wearing dark clothes make it hotter and make them sweatier. They dont wear eyeliner (it smudges when they sweat :/) but they do when its a non farming day. An emo in style but a lil softie in heart

I was imagining the headcanons start with shane assuming the reader to be cold and rude because of their appearance but started warming up to them after he realised how nice they were (and maybe add a few dating headcanons in the end if u could)

Thanks again!! Love ur writing sm ^^ -🦝

Shane with an emo s/o

Tysm for the info!🤗

It's based on this ask

TW: heavy language

Gender: neutral

Yes, first time seeing you he was quick to judge to say the least. You definitely stood out with your dark clothes and the even darker makeup and since he didn't know you personally, Shane kinda automatically put you in a box.

Much to his surprise the other town members didn't even seem to notice the fact that you're the extreme opposite of...well, Pelican Town.

It's not that he didn't like your style (he even thought that it suits you well), he simply wasn't familiar with the scene or the people in it. He remembered having some emo kids back in school, but he never interacted with them, only hearing gossip from other class mates who were just as clueless as he was.

In the first week he almost didn't even recognize you without your usual aesthetic, but he already guessed that it must be kinda in the way of work. Black clothes absorb the sun light after all. He had the feeling that something was off, but he couldn't quite place his finger on what.

One evening you entered the saloon wearing your whole attire. Clothes and makeup were spot on and when you took a seat near his corner, he caught himself admiring your eyeliner. Shane could not understand how in the name of Yoba you managed to make it look so...pretty. He banished the thought the second it appeared in his mind. Or tried it at least.

But now he knew what felt so off the last couple times he saw you in the town square, wearing a plain t-shirt and plain pants. This style, YOUR style, completes you somehow. Now you were in your element and fuck, he was staring again.

It didn't take long for him to realize that all the stories and gossip he heard all these years ago were nothing but bullshit. He wasn't better than all these judgmental shitheads tho, considering he put you in a box as well.

You were the nicest person he has ever met, giving out gifts without expecting anything in return and going out of your way to help others. He should have known better.

And now that you two are dating he makes sure to make up for all the times he treated you crappy in the beginning.

Shane loves watching you get ready, taking in every single minute he spends with you. He loves to sing along with you to your playlists when you do chores together. It's not much singing on his side, more mumbling to be honest.

You tried showing him how to put on eyeliner, but he can't even make a straight line :'D

You've tried rubbing your style off, because please his JojaMart jacket can't be considered a jacket anymore. This thing consists of more holes than material.

"Black would suit you so much, I bet."

"No."

It does.

Shane also often times uses clichés to make jokes, but nothing that would genuinely offend you. For example when you'd find a pretty, black stone in the mines and show it to him.

"Look! It's so black!"

"Like your soul?"

Masterlist

#sdv #stardew valley #sdv shane #stardew shane #sdv headcanons #stardew headcanon #sdv imagines #stardew imagines #stardew valley imagines #sdv x reader #stardew x reader #sdv shane headcanons #sdv shane x reader #stardew shane x reader

[elipheleh]

advance warning im going to be complaining about behaviour of some people on rwrb twitter and crossing lines and/or parasocial relationships so. feel free to skip. its also not super concise/coherent because im tired and annoyed.

tl;dr - the actors are strangers. you cannot joke about with them on social media in ways you would joke with your friend. they do not know you. you do not know them.

under a cut because it’s a bit long & i’m tagging it so i don’t want to clog the tags.

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theres a certain group of people that i see on rwrbtwt who act in a kind of… invasive parasocial way specifically towards nick galitzine and it’s getting really frustrating. (it’s plausible its also at taylor zakhar perez but im not seeing that personally so i can’t say.)

it’s things like screenshotting his old tweets & posting them and tagging him in the tweets where they’re joking about it. and then when he deletes the tweet they call that out & laugh about it or cry about it because from their pov it was innocuous, but they laughed at it and drew attention to it. not because they want to be cruel but because they would do similar with friends (where it would be okay, depending) and have a parasocial relationship with him that makes them think its okay to act similarly.

the most recent one was posting screenshots of accounts in his insta following & not necessarily mocking him for it, but being overly familiar about it (very easily could be read as mocking though especially if you’re sensitive about it). then they are drawing attention to him unfollowing the accounts, which was likely because he’d seen the tweets because they continue to tag him in stuff. they laugh about it and don’t see it as a bad thing but are crowing about getting noticed & getting him to do something. they’re proud of it and of it being proof he’s lurking on social media. and not seeing that they’re why he’s lurking and not posting stuff.

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quite frankly, it’s invasive and gross behaviour. i expect they would find it incredibly weird if a stranger went through to find tweets they made 5 or so years ago & then screenshot and sent it to them. why is it okay because he’s a celeb? they’re quick to talk about how you shouldn’t talk about certain things just bc they’re famous but will be fine about doing this.

i think the worst thing is they have talked about how nice it is nick has openly talked about his mental health & anxiety struggles and then do this kind of thing with absolutely no regard for how it might be affecting him. i know i would be finding it very difficult not to delete all my past tweets if that was happening to me, i definitely wouldn’t be wanting to tweet more.

and it’s just conjecture, but the fact he’s deleting the tweets & unfollowing the accounts makes it look like it is affecting him. they’re actively making social media an inhospitable place for him to be and then complaining he doesn’t tweet anymore, or that he’s rebranding/archiving insta posts.

if you really want to act like that, which is your choice, dont do it publicly. do it on private accounts, in a groupchat, in a private forum. if you’re determined to get validation from the numbers going up, don’t tag nick in your posts. let him avoid stuff.

#elio is being negative #nick galitzine #rwrb #nicholas galitzine #idk what we tag him as #anyway. if youre doing this maybe reconsider your actions #idk if anyone here is doing that… on here or twt.. but it’s really annoying me #icr the account but it was vibes of like ‘just girly things’ or whatever #there’s another conversation about calling him pet names incl babygirl but that might be me being an Old and misunderstanding #so im not going into that. but its filed under parasocial relationships anyway #this is a sideblog so i cant reply directly etc etc ill copy it into a reblog

[actualbird]

I guess I'll call myself 🔥 anon??? Idk lol. I changed my writing style with that first ask, but whatever. This is important, so who cares.

Anyway, I get it. I come from a family of artists and academics and teachers. My childhood dreams were to be a painter, a marine biologist, or someone super smart with a well-paying job. After that, in high school, my dream was just ATAR. Get a good ATAR score. Be good at learning and be told, "Yeah, you could go to university."

It's a year or so after that goal was set. I'm moving down to general classes and doing things I love more. My business cert is no longer there just to say "I have a certificate", it's because the teacher is one of the nicest teachers I've ever met and I like the class. Take IT because it's easy. Do human biology because you think the immune system is fun. I'm younger than you, sure, but one of the best things I've learned is exactly what that old saying says.

"Jack of all trades, master of none

but better than a master of one."

I'm having the time of my life. Will I end up getting higher education? Probably. Because I want to. Is it okay if I drop a course halfway through and never pick it up again? Is it okay if I have to ask teachers to slow it down?

Totally.

You don't have to be good at school to be good. I'm awful at it, and gifted kid burnout destroyed my life for a while. But I have friends and family who love me, and slowly, I'm learning to love myself, too.

I wish you all the best.

hi again fire!anon i

fully teared up reading this JKHSVJFHDKSDFKJSD

you might be younger but my gosh youre a whole lot wiser than i was when i was at uni age.

youre right and i agree with everything you said. i guess im just still stuck in that weird portion you mentioned of set academic/career goal -> set academic/career goal -> set academic/career goal that now that im in a place where i can start wanting things that are a bit more outside of the usual goals i had before. it's scary as fuck!!! i wish somebody could just tell me what to do instead!!! but i absolutely believe in the essence of doing things because you love them

while im not in class anymore, im a notorious hobby hopper. i learned how to crochet for funsies and i dont anymore but i still loved doing it, i have on and off durations of being obsessed with origami, i keep wanting to learn basic html for website building but keep putting it off because im worried im not smart enough to be able to handle it but honestly, when i have the time and motivation, i should just do it.

im like you in the sense that gifted kid burnout also ruined my life a bit, i think it uh....still is up til now, probably, judging by how badly 90% of my life's decisions are still made on the basis of whether or not i can get A Good Grade At Task HVSLBDFJSDJFK. but eventually, i hope it lessens its hold on me. i think one of the hardest things about going from student to adult was accepting that i cant Get A Good Grade At Life. absolutely mindboggling to me. can someone else please tell me what to do and if im doing good at it? please? i dont think i ever stopped being a student vying for validation. or rather, i havent stopped yet

itd be nice to stop. and just do shit cuz i like it. the idea sounds heavenly to me like a clear day. maybe things will be okay ;-;

i wish you all the best too, fire!anon. thank you <3

#life would be so much simpler if somebody told me what to want and how to get an A+ at it #but i guess itd also be a lot more miserable too. i have to learn to want on my own some day #fire!anon #asks

[my-castles-crumbling]

dancer anon here

reason for wanting to stay connected to being a girl: i feel good when i present feminine sometimes, I don't know why, while i dont feel like a girl or connected to that at all, i enjoy feeling pretty, and that kinda fuels the "cant not be partially a girl" because i like my feminine attributes (such as my breasts and eyelashes (i really like my eyelashes, they make me feel pretty)) but i tend to like my feminine attributes more when im alone and only /i/ can see myself and think "damn. im pretty today."

ballroom q: i tend to do more follower than leader now but i get to dance with my favorite dance teacher someitmes and shes really nice :D my favorite dance is paso doble (i do more latin ballroom than standard lol, but i do enjoy waltz the most out of standard dances lol (its the first dance i did with leader steps :DD)

correct pronouns: ik that its not really making a big deal to ask, but since im not out to many poeple outside of my friend group. i also dont want to correct my friends because im afraid it will reach someone outside of the group and theyre going to question it because in my school the majority of the students aren't really,,,, allies ig

neopronouns: have considered, didnt fit, so they/them is my go to because it is the one i feel the most comfortable with

confronting my friend: i do sometimes feel like confronting them about it, but its kinda scary because i hate confrontation because of the toxic friend i mentioned, so i dont think im gonna do anything about it (for now maybe?)

trauma: i am 97% sure i dont have any trauma relating to masculine people? however, my memory /is/ actually trash, so i could have just forgotten. the most likely thing that caused the fear would probably be the dance teacher with cold hands, because i hated his classes because they made me feel like dance is an obligation and i have to do everything /correctly/ even though i signed up because i enjoy dance. i also had to dance with him and his hands were cold and i dont like physical touch if im not initiating it (which is kinda why i dont dance with anyone anymore - a combination of physical touch, sweaty hands, and the close proximity. im even scared to dance with the little children i sometimes help dance with, because i dont know if they feel comfortable with physical touch which makes me feel icky)

also its not really something happened to me, its fear of something that /could/ happen (SA, etc)

also i still see that dance teacher around at the studio sometimes. he still scares me, but less? and when i talk to him sometimes, my brain tries to tell me im overexaggerating how much i dislike him, which i may be doing, but he /did/ ruin one of my favorite dances for me, so...

agender label: i do feel comfortable with the agender label, i believe, but ive never really met anyone else using it so i think i ust want to know ppl who also use it

you are also a wonderful human!!!

on another note, i am genuinely in tears thank you, you are so kind <3

Hello again!

So, there's four things I wanna address here:

With the pronouns/friends: Yes, it sounds like it might be a good idea to think more about the pros/cons of this. I still completely think that you deserve the respect of being gendered correctly, but if it's not safe for you to be pushing this,(secrets being shared, an unsupportive space, etc) then it might be a good idea to step back until it is safe to bring it up again. Remember though that you deserve to be supported and loved unconditionally and using your correct pronouns is something that should not be a burden to anyone.

Being agender: Have you considered finding people on here who identify similarly? It could be cool and validating to find a community of people who feel the same way. I know for me it was super exciting to find other nonbinary/genderfluid people.

Being touched: Okay, that makes sense. I definitely get not liking to be touched by people, especially people who give weird sensory input.

Ballroom: Oh, damn Paso Doble? I only know the very basics but it's SO different and cool! Respect <3

Lots of love!

#ask #asks #ask cas

[aropride]

i am losing it the tiniest bit .

googling like "my mother treats me like a child" or wgatever just brings up like ppl talking abt their mothers not wanting them to grow up or not giving them enough freedom which is a valid problem and one i have but it is a completely different problem from the one im looking for information on which is that i am a 20 year old man and my mother babytalks at me like a four year old on a regular basis. its drivng me fucking crazy but i dont want to argue and she wouldnt listen anyway she'd probably just be like "i dont do that" which .okay. but like holy fucking shit it is SO annoying and demeaning and WEIRD.

and like i can handle it when she treats me like. a teenager. like whatever im 20 close enough i dont care. but when she treats me like im 10. or 7. or fucking 4. its like. what the fuck is your problem.

and like okay i was thinking abt this the other day bc i was talking 2 my dad like just hanging out and he was treating me like a Person and like. idk i feel like when he had kids he was Expecting and Excited for us to turn into little people with our own thoughts and free will (maybe not the transgender communist thing i think that was a bit far but he's always been supportive in terms of like. me being my own person otherwise).

and my dad volunteers at church with some of the kids like 9-12 age range, and a lot of them have rough home lives and 'act out' cuz of that and he's very patient with them and helps them with what theyre going thru and generally just acts like theyre little people. because they ARE little people. like he genuienly cares for those kids and is always like... taking them to the park and stuff but also like, being character witness for their parents' custody battles n shit like actually helping and suppotying them.

whereas my mother volunteers at church with babies and toddlers and its almost like she sees them as pets. and will complain abt them being annoying or MEAN if they cry or dont want to play with her. like she's nice to them but she will complain abt it as if theyre trying to spite her

and i feel like she didnt become a parent bc she wanted to raise a small human i feel like she just wanted a pet. and shes been better with my sister but when i was a kid the second i was like 6 and developed some free will she kinda like. Moved on from me LOL. and stopped caring abt me outside of like. buying food. wire mother type shit. idk it's just really obvious that my dad cares abt these kids as people but my mother cares abt them for only as long as they dont upset her or do something she doesnt want them to. if that makes sense

and idk its like. i am 20 years old. im not going to go back to a 4 year old with no sense of the world outside of u because I AM TWENTY YEARS OLD. I HAVE LIVED ALONE IN SCHOOL I HAVE GONE TO THE DMV I HAVE WORKED A JOB I HAVE DEALT WITH MEDICAL EMERGENCIES ON MY OWN . i have had to make my way through every single social problem and mental health problem and shit since i was SIX bc thats when she stopped giving a shit about me. im not a child anymore

but i think its also part of why im so fucking bad at Being An Adult. bc she never taught me how do to any of this shit bc she was busy pretending im still a little kid. and now im too anxious to figure out how to do things on my own and i dont know how to ask for help and everything is very overwhelming and she tells me she wants me to get a job but doesnt help and she acts like she wants me to leave but she doesnt tell me that or help me leave and i am SO FUCKING SICK of living at home but i dont have the money or the skills to get out

and she's NEVER helped me with adult stuff either . the only thing i can think of is when she took me to the bank bc i needed her signature to take her off my bank account . otherwise my dad has been the one to help me with college applications + college stuff in general + finances + jobs etc etc . whereas my mother ACTIVELY LIES TO ME ABOUT THOSE THINGS TO TRY TO STOP ME FROM GETTING MY OWN DEBIT CARD !!!!!!!!!!

and it's this fucking exhausting mix of signals where she's like "u need to get a job u need to learn to drive u need to do this and that" but also she Literally , not exageratting , treats and talks to me like i am a child . i am so fucking sick of it it's unreal . i am going to lose my fucking mind .

#text #neg #really long post abt my mother U dont have 2 read it im just going fucking crazy

[enden-k]

the implication that one person's headcanon can ""make"" the entire character gay ????? wild but not in a good way. most of these characters are aro and ace spec to me but hell I still enjoy seeing varying headcanons. like characters are not a cumulation of everyone's fanon?? i can go and check out some nice romantic zhongchi and kavetham on this blog, sigh delightedly, and then turn around and think abt them with queerplatonic or platonic interactions or what have you. these guys are like putty to me and even if i have favorite ways to enjoy their characters that doesn't mean they're limited to that. :/ sorry you received a rude nonsensical anon in your inbox :(

its alright, their yapping went into one ear and left the other. im just amused they come yell at me as if that changes anything like oh no. this ask opened my eyes. suddenly i am not gay anymore. how could i ever make gay art i enjoy for myself.

i agree with you. i like to explore relationships when i see interesting dynamics, both platonic and romantic. hoyo is known for using certain tropes to imply shit that is open for everyone to interpret how they want. every interpretation is valid and i respect it. just bc i enjoy zhongxiao (as example) i dont yell at artists who hc them as family. i adjust my online experience to my comfort and i dont bother people who hc or enjoy stuff i dont. bc i know manners. some people should try that.

#reply #also first time in all the time here that i got an asshole in my inbox so its all fine LMFAOOO

[unknownarmageddon]

they only possible way they’d get married, in my opinion, is on a bet, and also while drunk, and also, they’d both forget entirely so technically it didnt happen

but also, i do like to think, i think they certainly daydream, or like think about it like, “man… married life with him would be so nice..”

but yk, what they’re picturing doesnt often like, end up being compatible to their life; yk, multiverse kross, like nm’s gang, or au hopping in general, marriage is kinda pointless, since, i hc that, once they left/lost their aus, their code is no longer attached to a place with time, so they’re not gonna really age, or get old, time is very finicky when youre between worlds outside of the frame of each world’s set reality, yk, your drum has stopped beating, the sun wont set anymore, cuz the sun is gone, yk, clock is not valid, either the batteries are gone or it’s broken and gone entirely

so, yk, theyre going to spend life together anyways, and regardless of status, i mean, theyre still each others

in most aus, too, we tend to make them beings that are just beyond marriage, or wholly seperate from marriage as a concept, so it just wouldnt hold any importance to them

and in modern aus, the chance is much higher, but not by much, because either, a, criminals, hiding, etc, b, theyre just unable to afford it or dont care for it still, and c, i think marriage would, if they considered it as such, be kinda Heavy? it would be putting a title, something that, socially, is a Big Thing, it carries meaning, and i just think, to them, it would just be like adding weight, unnecessarily, to something thats already big and important

plus, marriage is too much of a Normal, Civil thing, a Regular thing to do that its far too foreign for these two freaks, let them fuck and kiss and hold hands and then shrug when people ask if theyre married or dating or whatever

tldr; kross wouldnt Not get married, its too cishet for the trans gays

OHHHH NO THIS IS THE FUCKING REALEST THING EVER ACTUALLY holy shit dude this is everything

i like. don’t even really have anything to add you’ve fuckin said it dude

marriage is absolutely like. it’s too domestic for them. it’s not a Big Thing that they care about like. they have so many other things to worry about, in really any au, marriage to them is just like an unnecessary title i feel like so who cares. like it’s not necessary enough to them or their relationship that they would put effort into trying to make it compatible because. theyre together already

and i dunno i keep trying to think of more things to say but it’s basically just restating what you’ve already said so just yeah. yeag. so fucking real dude

#answering asks #chair asks #chair!! #chair i need you to know how real and true everything about this is dude like good lord #marriage being too cishet for them is one of the statements of all time dude holy shit #the only time it would happen is like the thing where an elvis impersonator can marry you in vegas but they would be so drunk they forget #about it the next day #/silly/silly /hj

[florenceisfalling]

gripping [redacted irl person] by the shoulders.

it does not matter how many r/egg_irl astolfo memes you pull up quite literally asking for random people (including cishets you just met???) to figure out your gender for you. the other queers are not going to feel safe around you when you spend your entire time on campus harassing people, misgendering transmascs in romantically/sexually charged ways, and getting a trans woman (who you Also misgender!) kicked out of her fucking housing. using "i wanna be a girl but im still cis though 👉👈" doesn't come across as endearing anymore when you tell younger transmascs that you wanna make them your gf and have kids with them, or when you used to tell everyone you were a cishet dude and literally fucking ran to physically chase down lesbians you'd never spoken to walking alone at night, or when you. I REITERATE. got a fucking trans woman kicked out of her dorm while calling her a man!! force her to switch to different housing by calling the fucking campus police on her because youre sad!!! and then lie saying she called them on you!!!! the only reason i felt bad for you and was nice to you was bc i thought you were just a sad maybe-autistic maybe-ace person who needed friends (and then maybe-trans maybe-woman maybe-lesbian) but your college experience seems dedicated to making life as hard as possible for every autie, trans person, woman, ace person, lesbian, and various mixes of the above you encounter - and then fucking lying and threatening everyone you consider your "friends" to get what you want after they repeatedly ask you to stop. i had enough of this when my exfriend fucking molested a girl and then said "i think i might be a transbian" as a poor attempt at an excuse (as if tgirls get away with that shit? as if they arent horribly scrutinized??) until all his cis guy friends forgot abt the girl's trauma and then went back to "nvm im a cishet guy :)" once everyone was chill with him again. i am fucking beyond tired of it now that its someone pulling the "i think i might be a transbian too" after fucking up so bad you couldve made a tgirl homeless and openly misgendering and mistreating other tgirls and sexually harassing other queers and refusing to spend any time around trans people (except for those you perceive as cis women - of course, including trans people who don't pass to your liking). stop asking me to decide whether your egg needs cracked or not and start treating trans women (and everyone else, too, what the fuck is wrong with you??) with respect and maybe you'll get some satisfying advice (since you didnt take mine) but at this point everyone is either scared of you or fucking hates you and theres not a single trans person ive met on this campus who has anything to say about you other than "oh yeah, that person stalked me/my friends". like sorry if im a little hesitant to validate you (AS IF YOU DESERVE IT AFTER CALLING SECURITY ON A TGIRL TO KICK HER OUTTT MY GOD I HATE YOU) but you also said "oh dont worry im ace :)" after sending weird sexual shit to someone (after they asked you to fucking QUIT) so youre not new to using your identity as a shield and now turning around and talking abt how you MAYBE are HYPOTHETICALLY a tgirl teehee but you cant decideeeee doesnt change the fact that your actions suck ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!! EXPLODE

#serious transphobia/sa/harassment mention sorry

[wtfuglydemon]

i keep seeing posts of people talking how you need to understand that people, your friends and loved ones like you more than they show, how you need to learn that people like you even outside of when youre speaking and stuff like that, its not like im going to argue that you dont have to learn that but in my head it keeps going "its easy to say that"

it feels a little lonely when people can just, learn that? its not easy, in fact its outright impossible for that to happen for me and others when its the whole symptom of your permanent mental disorder, i know its not the objective in those posts to be exclusive or even targeted towards people with disorders because for some people, it really is as easy as keeping that in mind but if i may add

Please also show your friends and loved ones you like them if you know they have this problem, you cant put all the work on the other persons shoulder all the time because sometimes it is not their fault for thinking that way, i cant speak for other people but i lived isolated in a family that outright said, in my face, how they hate me multiple times, but still do nice things to me from time to time, i still live through this i simply do NOT understand the concept of people truly liking me because of the environment i live on, because im my head people who hate me are still nice to me and everyone is like this, unless im constantly being reminded and receiving that affection and actually seeing that they talk about me to others, my brain is not built to understand this concept no matter how much i try

screenshotting nice things they said never works because what if thats not valid anymore? what if they changed their mind? what if they hated me the whole time?

asking for that reassurance feels fake and forced because who would say the actual truth to a question of "do you still like me?" if the answer was "No'"?

I dont even feel comfortable showing that affection and love first because if they dont do it first maybe im making THEM uncomfortable if theyre just dealing with me and dont like me/dont like me anymore

I could say others but that its to say, some people are simply not built to understand this, due to trauma or other factors, putting that work on them is making them internalize a fear for themselves forever and only keeping our vicious cycle of loneliness, sometimes you need to remind your friends of that love and give them the appropriate support, because some of us with mental disorders cant do for ourselves, our brain is wired to never believe such things.

#lovetxt #mental health

[schizopositivity]

how do you deal with knowing you need medication but not trusting the pharmaceutical industry?

i.e. “they just want to make us sick so we keep buying medicine, it’ll just harm & give me brain damage”

i have a few different ways i can answer this, so ill just say them all so you can have options on what feels nice for you to think about (also i wanna say this is a totally valid fear and you should never be ashamed to express this idea to the people in your life).

•the pharmaceutical industry is highly regulated, everything must be approved before going out to the public through clinical trials that prove the med is more affective than placebo.

•most meds are adminsitered by drs and pharmacists, who are real people that usually care about helping other people and theres so many of them, you would think if any had a reason to doubt meds as a whole they would say something or quit.

•there are countless real testimonies of real people saying how meds have worked for them and improved their lives.

•for me personally meds were life changing, specifically antipsychotics, i couldnt function or surivive well without them, since being on them for years i have such a greater quality if life and thats why i stand by meds.

•not all meds are needed for your whole life. ive known plently of people who have been on antidepressants or different meds that over time didnt need them anymore or even drs suggesting they stop them because they can be fine without them. if they wanted to keep you on meds to keep you sick they wouldnt do that.

•some meds youll just have to be on for the rest of your life, not because they dont work, just that the symptoms it helps with will always be there and will always need managing. some people need to be on medication to even just survive, if it werent for the meds theyde be far worse off. and for me ill always be schizophrenic, ill probably always need to be on antipsychotics because they improve my life a lot and without them i wouldnt be able to function.

•not all meds cost money. it really depends on your income level and where you live but for me, im on my states low income free insurance that covers the cost of all my meds. i have not paid any of my own money for medication. i wish meds could be free for everyone obviously but sadly the reality is its not. but not all people on medication (especially in other parts of the world) pay for their meds with their own money.

•this can be a dangerous mindet to have and hold true, because where does it stop? this mindet could lead to you not taking antibiotics for an infection and it getting much worse, or not taking life saving meds, or not taking meds that prevent things form getting worse, or keep you from getting vaccines for preventable diseases. i say all this not as an abstract i know people personally who think this way and reality hit them hard during the pandemic (like someone i know irl didnt get the vaccine and then got sick and had to be hospitalized for weeks to stay alive, if the industry wanted them sicker they wouldnt create or give out vaccines for free).

i know it can be hard to believe in something like this, but your health is the most important thing, and if meds can help you than thats what matters. not all meds work the same for everyone so if you do start meds make sure to meet with your perscriber regularly so they can change doses or change meds to find the right fit for you.

#answered #tw meds #medication #pharma #big pharma #big pharma consipracy #tw big pharma consipiracy

[whatthefuckisasweep]

season 4 spoilers for wwdits but i really love the direction the writers are going for nandor and guillermo, and I can kinda see their thought process maybe (knowing we have 2 seasons coming up)… AN ESSAY

Firstly, I dont think nandor and guillermo are gonna end up together at the end of this season. i think guillermo is going to be genuinely happy with freddie in some capacity! and he kind of needs it!

in terms of character guillermo starts out timid, in a clear power dynamic, with very little self respect. hes subservient and softspoken, and weve seen him become more unhinged, which is amazing. he complains a lot more. and theres still this level of subservience, but only at his own benefit. he doesnt fucking care abt their feelings anymore because they never cared abt his. finally, we see guillermo being selfish loudly. and what does that get him? during this season, he has so far seen 3 people after his affections. the guide. nandor, as his best man. and freddie, his boyfriend. also his family, if you want to count that. guillermo needs, as a character, to feel wanted, because he has never felt that way. now that hes wanted more than ever, he’s probably gonna overdo it and its gotta come crashing down so it can level out. i love how hes already BICKERING with nandor and nandor’s TAKING it.

in other words, he’s gotta gain a little respect and get drunk on it, then learn how to stabilize in the middle… with maybe some help. Only then can he balance love, family, and himself: when he understands what hes worth, and that he doesnt need constant validation to know someone cares. I think that also boils back to his desire to be a vampire, to be someone else, to be cool and wanted. i think he is slowly realizing and learning he doesnt want to be anybody else by guillermo de la cruz, human vampire slayer. thats his arc. The next two seasons might deal with him going too far with this ‘new’ guillermo, and then realizing too late that hes hurt people he cares about, and the guillermo de la cruz he really is would help his found family. I predict that the Nandor and Guillermo dolls he made might remind him. :)) I dont really got a clue what happens to freddie. havent seen enough of him to gauge if he might stick around… if guillermo genuinely got over nandor i think thats honestly great for his char! but might change at any moment considering the show has 2 seasons more at least!!

nandor on the other hand… ough. his search for love is honestly so perfect, and i love how they are setting it up with the djinn and marwa and guillermo. nandor being nice to guillermo is amazing. hes starting to give guillermo respect and not even laughing along with the others as much. this already is huge char development. but like, really think about it: laszlo & nadja… now Guillermo and Freddie. Nandor is gonna feel like everyone has someone but him more than usual. Hes gonna wonder why he doesnt feel the same way everyone else feels even with a wife. it makes life even more meaningless. I mean, first guillermo abandons him, he cant be human, now he cant even be happy with a wife? So whats wrong with him? What does he need? Hes gonna wish everything he could ever want into existence… but still feel like a shell. Being nandor, he exhausts all options before facing the truth… and It forces Nandor to understand hes under appreciating things in life that make it better or meaningful (guillermo lol). Thats his arc. And not only that, but hes beginning to show more emotions. I feel like as the season goes on, he might reveal that hes really hurt by guillermo “leaving”. i think it might end with him realizing he has messed up with their relationship and that he might… have feelings for him that hes repressing. (maybe therapist laszlo helps?) he might see/hear some of guillermo’s personal and home life and realize he knows nothing abt him and feel… regret? And i think its needed to get him to find that life has meaning: to make others you love happy, is to make yourself happy.

The wedding might be his wedding — but if its Guillermo and Freddie, he might realize he feels… jealous. He might realize also that he has to let it happen for Guillermo to be happy, and FINALLY, FINALLY THEN, we can see Nandor doing something COMPLETELY SELFLESS for someone else. To a MAJOR disadvantage for him. Thats what his character NEEDS. Maybe that wont happen, but I sense thats what they are coming to: that hes gotta be selfless. Might have something to do with the djinn and guillermo too?

That means i kind of predict that s5 will be sort of nandor’s pining while guillermo kinda goes off on his own and becomes kind of a real asshole. its a role reversal situation. might go too far and then s6 is kind of this recovery where they both realize they dont wanna be anyone else but themselves together, and retain the best traits of both assholiness and sweetness. Together. Possibly in a relationship. Possibly not? But honestly as long as they go through these beats as characters and grow, Im gonna be happy. Especially for Guillermo if he sticks with freddie, because getting OVER nandor is actually such a powerful statement for his char tbh.

ALSO GONNA THROW IN ANOTHER RANDOM PREDICTION: big blow out fight between them <3

Thats all. Super long but THOUGHTS ALL STORED IN BRAIN AND NEED TO GET THEM OUT. I might be so fucking wrong but-

#wwdits #spoilers #guillermo de la cruz #nandor the relentless #nandermo #long post #my thoughts #IM SO SORRY THAT THIS IS LIKE AN ESSAY #BUT WAAAAAAH #I LOVVE THIS DIRECTION??? #these are all predictions #i may be so fucking wrong #lol #i mean its wwdits so its comedy and ridiculous so it all could be random

[girlwithfish]

Body image appearance discussion. tw for eds and dysmorphia and shit. and self harm and also sex tmi shit. idek. im contemplative bear w me

like basically i never was pretty as a kid or growing up. like idk i guess conventionally attractive people or if ur just "objectively" pretty ppl comment on that a lot if ur a girl like family members but i never really was complimented like that. if anything ppl just tore my appearance down in my family unintentionally or intentionally and i was bullied for my features as a kid and ppl commented on my nose a lot soooooooooo. i feel my really low self esteem just falls back into the whole like trauma of feeling like i shouldnt even exist bc of how i was raised and guilt instilled in u and all of the feelings of alienation socially and bc of my appearance and ethnicity and just who i was. i wasnt really pretty as a teenager either and when i was 18 and started actually exploring sexuality more idk i still felt like im not really pretty and its why i like never believe anyone who compliments me and i dont really get complimented on appearance much anyway so. and also the disordered eating borderline anorexia phase i had when i was 12-14 where i would like take ice baths and restrict and write my goal weight it was kind of fucked up ngl like i didnt rly damage myself physically like i didnt lose much weight but ik the mindset was very damaging and i just like did not feel good bc i had no energy bc i was starving myself LMAOOO anyway that definitely still carries w me even now even tho im better w it but still very much struggle w eating but thats more a depression dysfunctional thing i guess. and when i started getting more sexual i guess like i equate sex and love a lot sometimes i even feel like i cant be pretty but at least im somewaht attractive body wise and im good at fucking like is that crazy idk like sexual validation makes me feel loved and i dont feel like i am actually pretty or pleasant looking or nice looking so the most i can have is like my body is ok . and when i was a kid i used to want to cut my vagina lips off lmaoo cuz i iddnt know what outies were lmfao and shit and ive been having intrusive thoughts like that lately just bc im like really depressed and not having any sex and my relationship is not intimate anymore and i havent even masturbated bc ive been too depresse and i also think masturbating as a girl is kinda annoying like i wanna be in BED not like do it in the bathroom bc i have a big ass rabbit vibe that looks like an alien gun. like if u have a dick u can just jack off in the bathroom or something and its quiet yk???? but like w a vibe its ANNOYING. like i need to be completely alone and i live w someone so like thatsh ard. if i had a dick i would jack one off in the bathroom LMAO. im sexually frustrated and shit and feel like if im not sexual at all im just like ugly and something idk. But also not evne in the mood for sex bc im soooooo depressed. and also im very physical in romantic relationships but not w anyone else idk what thats all about. My mentality has always been if theyre being physically affectionate w me theres no way or little chance they can be mad at me. also i really hate porn and od not like watching it i havent really in yrs cuz i just didnt care for it after i started having long term partner sex cuz im crazy like that like i dont evendesire looking at other ppl when im in a relationship. yk. and i kinda disagree w porn just cuz ive seen waht it does to straight men and u hear so many stories. and it makes me uncomfortable to see ppl have sex i realized. i only like seeing myself have sex LMAOO. im like sexual but in a private way. and i have a weird relationship to sex and my body and shit. idek. its cuz im like ed core also not white also unconventional looking and idk was a late blooemr sexually a little so. IDEK. but yeah im trying to have a healtheir relationship to how i view myself but its fucking hard

[weirdcat1213]

trigun bookclub time :D volume 2 thoughts

chap 00.1

-vash's method of meditation is the only one that's valid in my eyes/j

-3 seconds of meditating vs 3 hours of training...huh...i wonder...why is that...and what...that says about him...

-hes bad at chess hes like me fr fr

-yey we love a day without casualties :D

chap 00.2

-the bit about us taking shelter on technology but still not knowing what the future holds...yeah that feels timeless now huh

-vash don't go there! oh no he has earbuds he cant hear me (that would literally happen to me tho)

-i love that panel where no one says anything after the girl is like "yeah i can give you pocket money." nice representation of the irritation people feel towards that kind of people. they arent mad just really tired of that bs

-oh man thats actually pretty horrible (page 23)

-"and i think of nothing but love and peace" besides that we know your head is empty but we love you so its ok

-yeah vash show her the real world

-interesting that he makes her see the chance of her dad dying (he didnt know what was gonna happen) which makes sense cuz she cant run from the truth anymore but its also interesting cuz if we was able to not see it he would. he hates seeing people dying and yet he watches and makes others watch. i dont think its about "if i have to, you have to as well" but more about her seeing the consequences of violence (what her father did) and the cycle of hate so she doesnt repeat it. idk.

chap 1

-rem coming out of his coat....hm....

-weird man coming

-YEAH SEND HIM TO HELL >:D

-if rem is holding him back you say...hmmm...i will go back to that later

-well thats creepy

chap 2

-my boi is in jail nooooooooooooo

-you can feel the size of the ship with one panel nightow is ridiculously talented when creating big spaces, like the sandsteamer shot in the last volume

-..... :c

-my babygirl :c

-i like he started the flashback angry as hell and then it turned into sadness cuz even if he makes knives pay nothing will bring rem back

-also the literal ship crashing into his memories what if I [redacted]

-SEE LOOK AT THAT SHIT! SPACE FEELS MASSIVE AND ITS LITERALLY JUST THE PLANET AND THE SHIP

-aaaand hes angry as hell again cuz the memory finished with knives. interesting

-dont look at me with those kind eyes, we saw you

-YEY ITS DIABLO TIME :D go get em

chap 3

-aw cmon :c

-and there goes the arm

-hey >:[ dont call my girl milly an idiot

-ugh you can feel how fucking stressed out he is ahhhhhhhhh

-ah yes, we love seeing how right knives is...

-huh, i wonder if knives is smiling cuz before he was like "nah she was stupid like the rest" but since she got to correct the ships's trajectory he got a bit of respect for her in the end

-is monev vs vash supposed to be like david and goliath? hm

-my god thats fucking beautiful

-also i dont think thats a ghost but maybe like her presence? like vash is remembering her and her kindness

-AH I HATE THAT I HATE THAT. THE CHAPTER IS CALLED FRAGILE, ENDS UP WITH VASH CRYING AND THE "rem" IS SO LITTLE THAT IS ONLY MEANT FOR US AND VASH TO BE AWARE OF IT WHAT IF I CRIED A RIVER AHHHHHH

chap 4

-oh meryl...oh honey...sweetie...

-the scars appear :D yey :D

-meryl is kinda asking him "arent you tired of being nice dont you want to go apeshit" but not really and i like that

-yknow what meryl is right pls go away and live a quiet life pls, ik whats coming but just thinking about it....

-yee ik the reason why but still >:v

-oh....oh i actually forgot about that...oh

-"rem didnt sacrifice her life for a world like that" im tearing up actually and idk why...its been a hard week

-lmao hes so mad at vash

-yeah hunt him down babygirl >:D

chap 5

-....metal >:D

-they deserved it btw

-huh thats actually kinda nice of him i forgot

-ofc he would blame vash for that, then again vash makes all of us at least a little bit soft i think

chap 6

-i love you vash that takes his sweet time to process traumatic situations, yes that was scary

-vash saying "im the deathwish" means a lot to me as an mcr fan lmao. i will think more about that later tho

-HES HEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

-YES YOU ARE A PRIEST OMG WHY AM I THIS EXCITED

-THEY MEET, OMG THEY ARE MEETING! AMAZING!

-STOP BLUSHING BRO LIKE AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

-WHY ARE YOU TOUCHING HIS CHIN LIKE THAT YO

-"go home or go to hell" oh im getting that on a tattoo one day actually, so metal

-...cmon, me me big boi

-THAT SMILE, THAT DAMN SMILE im gonna jump off my local cliff

-vash in the beginning saying he can read people and then wolfwood comes and READS HIM LIKE ITS NOTHING

chap 7

-"is that a friend of yours" he looks so offended lmao

-ahhhh that must be so scary, he already has knives to worry about but the fact not everyone can see legato makes his job harder ahhhhh

-bye baby ily (hes my son that i only share with a couple of other ww enjoyers)

-CAN YOU STOP BEING GAY FOR 2 MINUTES

-OH THAT PANEL IS SO GOOD (also even more princess coded, like looking at really from a castle idk)

-GUYS GUYS MY WIFE IS HERE

-i keep forgetting hes missing his little arm :c

-lmao wolfwood is right, i wouldnt go to a church all the way there :b

-yeah and shes hot while teleporting all over the place

-ok but shes really fucking cool, despite wanting to kill my comfort character, yknow how these things go

-OHOHOHOO THAT PANEL WITH VASH FOCUSING IS AMAZING

-YESSSSS, SO METALLLLL

chap 8

-aaaand...there goes my wife

-ahhhhhh he looks so little :c

-OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HES COMING, HES NEAR

-idk ww :c idk when will it end

-OH WOW OH SHIT I FORGOT ABOUT THAT

-yeah right i dont like this part :b (its not bad just personal stuff)

-ok he do be looking pretty tho, i wonder if its a family thing

-YEAH MERYL SMACK THAT MF

-im a ball of rugged paper and my feelings are nothing...thanks nightow ily

-oh wait...he actually thought that was the end...thats so fucking smart nightow...wow i never considered that....

-aw babygirl :c but i cant even imagine how that must feel, how much hate he feels towards knives rn

-i think besides the "he called me by my name" meryl and milly let him go cuz they just felt he was going to matter what, like you can feel vash and his unstoppable energy on those pages

-oh hes so fucking pretty

-WAIT I NEVER NOTICED THAT BUT YEAH THAT WAS ON STAMPEDE EP 3 HOLY FUCK, THEY SAID THE SAME THING

-knives just fucking reads vash like an open book its incredible and it makes me so sad cuz vash cant escape, he cant hide nothing, not in front of knives

-he cant be knives without the good old gaslighting >:D

-the yelling throughout the page is amazing

-vash is crying noooooooooooooooo :c

-NO. STAY AWAY FROM ME, EVIL PANEL THAT HAUNTS MY DREAMS

-also :c

-im not too sure of what happened with his legs but ok sure

-im afraid my babygirl cant give you an answer ww, i dont think he knows

-.....why is the world so mean to him :c

#trigun #trigunbookclub #AND IK WE'RE JUST GETTING INTO TRIMAX #BUT IT STILL HURTS