#i feel like i dont amount for shit

[clouvu]

Nothing in the world belongs to me But my love, mine, all mine

#genshin impact #arlecchino #peruere #clervie #ouhhhhhhhh im never gonna be able to emotionally recover from watching that animated short #ever since it came out a couple days ago just thinking of these two makes me feel like my heart is physically being ripped in half #i cant stop thinking about how Clervie was the only person in Arlecchino's life that she truly loved #like dont get me wrong Arlecchino loves her children in her own detached-fucked up way as much as any person with her amount of trauma can #but Clervie meant so much to her that even just her presence alone kept Arle's curse at bay #and it seems that no one other than Clervie herself has ever been able to break this unemotional/detached wall that Arle has put up #and maybe no one else ever will #DONT GET ME WRONG I still fw arle x other female harbingers like that shit is still peak #but oh my god the idea that arle never moved on after clervie's death and will never love anyone the way she loved her makes me want to SOB

[incorrect-riordanverse]

It's really disheartening that Rick Riordan stance on the war I understand that he wants to be neutral on this stance but in my opinion by becoming neutral he only worsening the issue as many Palestines are dying that are mostly children, how the majority of Israeli are supporting the Genocide of Palestine, and how the government is trying so hard (but miserably failing) to justified the genocide. I will hold him accountable for what he said on this issue as during this period the choice is basically "you are with us or against us."

Part of me wishes he will realize what he said was wrong and understand the bigger issue that plays at hand. I will criticism for his actions as how can a man who promotes LGBTQIA and representation of minorities and disabilities in his books turn a blind eyes to Genocide of people. However we can only wait and see on his next move.

One last thing about your previous you said you don't group Riordan with other authors where do you would group him with? Also this is more on an opinion base answer but many people are boycotting companies that support Israel there as been another post on Twitter on boycotting authors. Rick Riordan happens to be one of them. Do you believed that he should be boycotted with other authors or he should be properly educated and apologized for his previous statement? If you believed he should be boycotted what do tou have to say to those who might have the mentality of "separate the art from the artist"

thank you for this ask, and i completely agree with you! it is extremely hypocritical of him considering what he preaches for in his books. i think he’s convinced he has properly addressed the apartheid by using very vague language that can be applied to anything, and in doing so, he’s addressed nothing really.

your first question on who i would group him with— probably other authors who are doing the exact same as him in their virtue signalling. i always like to link my other blogs to each other, so i don’t think it’s a secret that i have a red queen account and i’m pretty passionate about that. unfortunately, victoria aveyard is another fantasy author who has literally wrote a whole four-book series on the uprising against oppression but is now playing neutral in her address of the apartheid. rebecca yarros is in the same boat, although i haven’t read ‘fourth wing,’ fans have said there are large themes of oppression within the book. so if i had to group riordan it would probably be in the ‘i-like-to-write-about-it-for-profit-and-praise-only’ group.

in terms of boycotting, i think that’s a great idea! i would also like to remind everyone that the percy jackson tv show is coming out in a little over a month, but disney is a huge industry financially supporting israel as well ($2 million in funding), which is obviously far more damning than a poorly written address by one person. there is a boycott happening for disney as well— and the pjo show will be released on disney + . i implore everyone to not watch it on that platform!! personally i will be pirating it online (idk if i’ll get into trouble saying that here but lol oh well), because im pretty sure the boycott is only for withdrawing financial support, not simply consuming media.

i feel like separating art from the artist only works if that artist is… like, dead, and you’re using that art and its values as a historical insight to how the world was during its time. you can still like a piece of work that has a problematic artist, you can engage with the work (to an extent). but separating art from the artist barely works because either:

to engage with the art is to support the artist in some way, so that artist is making money based on your interaction with that (particularly in the case for singers and streaming of songs)

that artists’ views and values are so rancid that it’s literally embedded within the text itself. to ignore it is harmful.

harry potter is my all-time favourite example to use, because jkr is the scum of the earth, and her views are entrenched in her work. a lesser known example is sarah j maas and her books (she’s also not as dogshit as jkr, but then again, its not hard to be a better person than her). i’m not going to bag on these people for liking things by problematic people (would be hypocritical of me), i just think it’s cowardly not to address it when you come across it, or at least admit to it. to simply write things off as ‘separate to the artist’ is like purposefully turning off your critical thinking skills.

on whether boycotting or an apology is enough— if riordan did apologise and used specific language and not the nonsense he had in that blog, expressed his remorse for his ignorance and then actually did or said something to support the people of palestine then, yeah. that’s fine and that’s how we learn ig. but he should educate himself, too many activists, people from the arab community and especially palestinians are expected to be all-knowing and to educate everyone else on an already draining and personal tragedy. it’s been exhausting for me, i can’t imagine what they’re going through. if riordan (or anyone) needs to be educated, he should do it himself, and (at least in my opinion) i don’t think the info is very hard to find now. it’s just about weeding out the misinformation.

i think boycotting is a good idea as of now. it can serve to be a catalyst for self reflection for many people. also, as much as i hate most online discourses, talking about it online needs to happen. i don’t want these authors to forget, for a moment, about the ignorance they posted online during a time of international crisis.

#sorry if this is so messy. its 3am where i am rn #i finished two exams today and my brain is deaddd #but ty for this ask! #i have sooo many opinions about the whole ‘separate the art from artist’ and when to boycott something #because usually im actually not a big fan of boycotting. i just dont think it works most of the time (at least recently) #boycotting as a way of ‘canceling’ someone is something i think is a bit silly for instance. #esp when people gonna forget about what that person did in like. two months at most #but i feel like this issue (especially for corporations funding millions of dollars into genocide) is big enough to warrant a call for- #-everyone to abstain financially from things #like it isnt someone saying some dumb shit online. theres a whole country being wiped out. #unfortunately so many corporations fund israel. an insidious amount. so just do ur best to navigate thru it #riordanverse #incorrect riordanverse #rick riordan #hoo #heroes of olympus #percy jackson #pjo #trials of apollo #toa #ask #anon #free palestine #percy jackson disney+ #pjo tv show #rewriting

[bitchyfop]

over 60% of Americans are living paycheck to paycheck

the entertainment industry is actively contracting

and the streaming bubble is bursting like the dot com bubble in the 90s

what in the absolute hell made these guys think that NOW was the time to hide their content behind a paywall

jesus tap dancing christ

#watcher #im a few days late i only just saw what they're doing #this is an INSANE amount of business mismanagement holy shit #its a shame cause i like shane and ryan #but im pretty casual so i dont feel betrayed im just baffled i thought they were smart

[camelspit]

quick what are popular keeper characters that you dislike/have neutral feelings on. need to know for science.

#most websites would probably have 80% of their responses include fitz #so im curious about what itd be on tumblr dot com #ill go first. i dont give a shit about dex. which like? i feel a decent amount of mutuals know that by now #kotlc

[doomedpuppetyuri]

wheeeee splatoon fandom stop making me want to leave it for good challenge impossible

#this is about smollusk #literally just say you don't want to use it/its pronouns at this point #the amount of people i've seen use he or they #it's really not that hard #and like it makes me feel like shit as someone who prefers exclusively it/its pronouns #like #sure gives me a lot of hope for how you guys would handle a real person going by it/its(sarcasm) #gaige talks into the void #sorry if i sound bitchy im just annoyed #i dont like to rant i really dont my anxiety-riddled ass cannot handle it #im just #frustrated #and sad i guess #because of how much splatoon helped me come to terms with my identity #anyways #see ya #im done talking #splatoon #smollusk #side order spoilers #obligatory just in case #splatoon 3

[safety-pin-punk]

I have a goal to make a zine by the end of october

Current ideas include spooky, actual punk stuff, or some research/science stuff

We’ll see what actually happens and how far I get

#this goal is entirely encouraged by the amount of not sober I am atm #i dont drink often and also im 5’2 so like fuck it hits hard #but also #dj gig = party right? #idk but like it was fun but also I am fucked and Im gonna feel like shit tomorrow lolololol

[klonoadoortophantomile]

uhhhhbbhhhhh shitty art dump cuz i kinda hate posting art individually 👍

#and by that i mean i just feel worse abt not tagging things when its just one drawing #and also i feel like the rambling is more proportional to the amount of art #<- what the fuck am i even saying #scribbles #ocposting #gif #outfits in the gif r from some outfit memes ive had saved in my photos since like 2020 btw #i think the creators username was like hometownrockstar or some shit i dont really remmeber #the images are super crusty idk why theyre like that but its funny to me so idrc #some of these r ocs some are existing characters But Furries #and also suitcase is there lol #outfit in the fourth image is based on fleetway amy….. #idk what to say abt these sorry #again ive been like weirdly embarrassed abt the shit i draw as of late it sucksssss #especially cuz i know no one actually gives a shit either way. but my brain still wants to give me shit over it -_- #is that smthn ppl say idfk anymore #bright colors #eyestrain #ALMOST FORGOT TO TAG #kinda just in the second to last one i think but yea

[natjennie]

anyone else out here a middle child saddled with eldest daughter responsibilities?

#a bumper sticker that says 'middle-child neglect and eldest-child duties' #i want to believe it started when my older sister moved out but. lets be real. it's always been me. #i am genuinely acting care-giver to my chronically ill younger sister while my dad watches basketball on the couch #and my mom doesnt get out of bed. #like. my mom is pretty sick too and works all day and does most of the housekeeping too #so i dont blame her at all. #i mean i guess my dad works all day but. for real king you can't get up off the couch to support your daughter crying and heaving #no that falls to me. yeah yeah I'll get her a drink and make sure she takes her meds. #what's that? yeah I'll rub her back and run a cloth under the sink and bring her something to eat too. #oh? yes fine I wont take a gummy so i wont sleep because she's in a flare up and needs them more than me #to be clear!! I'm not blaming her either like clearly she feels like shit and she feels guilty all the time #i just. some amount of help from anyone else. or at least maybe. idk A DAY I can rest when i feel like shit #but oh- no- she's coughing up bile again. yep I'll come bring a bucket.

[todo-morira]

Also like. People saying that he should've responded from a friend perspective, does he really? Maybe somewhere along the lines quackity realized he didn't want to be friends with someone's who's continually made racist jokes (one of which being giving George a Trump flag for Christmas. Which when you're Mexican, can feel targeted), and was accused of grooming. And guess what? Quackity wouldn't have owed him a response.

Why? Because he's a real human being with real feelings.

#idk #i feel like i gotta remind mfs that these people are in fact real and not scrunklies behind a screen #havent yall had a friendship so bad you just had to cut it off? we dont know what their lives are like #again #not from here #its just kind of insane to me #the amount of white folk ive had to cut from my life because they said stupid shit and i just couldnt keep doing it is insane #dream mention #anti dream #IG IDK IM NOT FROM HERE #revolving thoughts #grooming mention #dream critical #grooming tw #racism mention #racism tw

[13eyond13]

one of the lesser talked about fun things about intentionally reading more books is finding new stuff to be a bit of a hater about tbh

#and i know sometimes im probably just not properly picking up whatever the writer is putting down but whatever it's still fun #to actually know what you think about stuff like the highly regarded classics and extremely popular hyped up things #here are a few writers im a bit of a hater about w my opinions now btw #neil gaiman: does not do it for me at alllll #have read the graveyard book and american gods and hated almost every minute of both #in american gods i just found the aesthetic ideas and characters completely unappealing and in the graveyard book #i thought it was dreary and not well described enough... kept feeling like it was too bare bones in some way to picture things properly #i was like 'hmm i wish this was one of his graphic novels instead bc i'd like to be able to see what's going on here a bit better...' #also his humour just never lands for me and i do not often get his references either #ray bradbury annoys me in a similar way to neil gaiman but also somewhat oppositely like where #the way they write characters and plots and ideas and the stuff they care about gets on my nerves in an almost identical way #that i don't know how to define except to say i had a bit of a 'same energy' experience reading Something Wicked This Way Comes #and some of neil gaiman's stuff #but unlike neil gaiman i think that ray bradbury attempts to describe things unusually so much and TOO much #to the point that it takes me out of the story in a different yet similar way #to how the lack of description in neil gaiman's stuff does #what else have i become a bit of a hater about or did not get the appeal of lately? hmmm #oh hp lovecraft hahahaha #least scary stories ever god everything he's scared of is so dumb #like even aside from his extremely racist takes and fear of the 'exotic other' his fears about being cosmically insignificant are just like #yeah and? whats so scary about that hahaha i literally just dont get it #also the amount he writes dialogue in heavy accents annoys the shit out of me #p

[sonknuxadow]

they werent lying that knuckles series barely has knuckles in it

#i pirated that shit Btw just so we're clear. also gonna talk about it a little bit in the tags #nothing too spoilery but also might not wanna read if you want to go in knowing absolutely nothing? idk #anyway he WAS a main character still he was present for a decent amount of the first couple episodes #but the amount of screentime he gets just starts dropping after that . hes barely there at all in the second half ??? #and it feels like theres a lot of scenes mostly focusing on wade and his problems and not near as many for knuckles and his whole deal #overall it feels more like a wade show with knuckles in it than a knuckles show with wade in it. which sucks #and human characters having plot relevance isnt the problem here i dont mind human characters at all i think they can be really fun #its the fact that the human characters are taking over the story and spotlight when the show is called knuckles #and all the marketing makes it look like knuckles is the main focus #and i also would have preferred if they just went with a differnet character to be knuckles' human friend #because i dont particulraly care about wade. and the knuckles (and sonic and tails) i know would not be friends with cops </3 #well at least the story wasnt knuckles training wade to be a better cop like a lot of people were expecting but thats like.the bare minimum #also aside from the issues relating to knuckles' screentime (or lack of screentime) i thought the ending was unsatisfying #regardless of all that though there WERE some parts i enjoyed or found kind of funny or whatever. because knuckles so cutesy as always #knuckles being a cute little guy is the most important part of the show actually #and i liked the parts with sonic tails and maddie even if they were only there for like 5 minutes #(i really wish those three had gotten more screentime. i feel like they could have easily worked in at least one more scene with them) #and its a minor thing but the opening sequence is cute. was honestly expecting just a title card or something #overall the show is just . kind of okay i guess. not the worst thing ive ever seen but still disappointing ? idk how to explain.. #my expectations also werent very high in the first place #so maybe im being a bit more generous than i would have been otherwise. idk #and i definitely would not recommend this to anyone who already dislikes the sonic movies . youll probably hate this more #like people who thought the human characters got too much screentime in the second movie would lose their minds if they saw this

[icewindandboringhorror]

Hrmm... Revising my game and I feel like there's still sooo much writing left to do, for something that probably won't even amount to much, so.. I do want to narrow my focus more (especially given my health problems seeming to get worse/less energy the past few years), but I'm not sure how would be best to...

I currently have 5 characters as the Main ones with full planned questlines and such, with each character having 6 quests you can do for them. But I haven't really started the writing for the 5th main character. So then I was thinking, if I were going to write 6 full quests worth of content anyway... is it better to allocate that time on just doing a Complete 6 Quests for ONE single character, OR would it be better to do something like.. choose THREE side characters and do 2 quests for each of them? So that people have a wider variety to interact with and sort of sample around (of course with the idea that, once the first version of the game is released, IF people actually care about it enough to make it worth the effort, I would then add additional content to complete those 3 characters stories as well)

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SO... If you were playing an interactive fiction sort of game centered around talking to & doing quests for a cast of characters (like there's no larger plot, more it's just about interacting with people, every character kind of has a self contained story, the focus is just learning about them and the world and exploring the area) --- Which would you rather have?

(and of course it would be stated up front which characters have only partial questlines, so people don't expect them to have full quests like the others and then get disappointed, or etc. etc.)

Basically, is it better to just focus in specifically on having one fully complete questline? Or for there to be a few stories that are not complete yet, but have more initial options available?

#I guess I just feel weird about investing too much into characters if possibly nobody will like them. so the idea of being able to sample #around a wider variety opens up the option of like 'hey even if neither of these 4 are your favorite - you have 3 other options soon too!' #or whatever. BUT I also am very anti-the trend of releasing half finished games or shit like that where people preorder and then #the game sucks on actual release and isn't fully playable or good until 5 updates later #HOWEVER.. those are giant companies with hundreds of employees and millions in funding. I feel like it's different for someone #if they're just like ''hey I am getting zero money for this and doing it entirely on my own in my free time and before I do like 50+ hours #of work on top of the 100+ hours of work that I already did - I would like maybe to at least see some proof #people are interested in this - so I'm releasing the game with like a small amount of the originally intended content removed #that I still have planned out and hope to add later and the game is still entirely done and completely functional #except for just a few quests I might add later.. sorry'' etc. etc. ??? like I think that's different. but maybe some people dont see #it that way and would still be like 'grrr.. how dare there be unfinished options..>:V" idk #And the nature of the quests is such that it's not weird to have it be partial like.. again.there's no major plot. it's not like the quests #are leading up to some dramatic thing and having them half done would make it feel like a cliffhanger. It's meant to be very casual just #chilling and doing little tasks and such. And last thing to clarify I guess - by 'side character' I don't mean taking some unimportant bac #ground character and forcing them to have quests. I mean like.. originally the game had 8 full characters and I thought that was #too much so I cut it down to 5. So I still had everything planned for all the side characters too. Id' just be like.. re-giving them #quests and focuses that were already planned from the beginning but that I got rid of.. former main characters banished to the side lol.. #ANYWAY... hrmm... hard to decide... It's just so niche I think. I feel more and more like I should just get it to a 'proof #of concept' state and get it out there to interest check rather than invest in it soooo much for nothing. Because I really do not have the #tastes other people do or interact with games or have interest in things in the same way. A lot of the stuff that I love (slow. character #focused things with basicaly no action or plot where its' just about getting to explore a world and learn about #people in a casual low stakes setting but ALSO not romance) I think people find very boring so... lol... #This year as I try to pick the project back up again after abandoning it for like 3 years I keep looking at stuff and going.. ough... #yeah... cut this maybe.. I should cut that too.. I should make them a side character.. remove this.. blah blah.. #Though I did ADD a journal and inventory system and other things that like People Expect Games To Have so.. maybe #that will count for something.. hey..you can collect items.. it's not just 'talking to elves for 600 hours simulator'.. are you #entertained yet? lol.... When I was making my other tiny game for that pet website and I gave it to the play testers and someone was like #''it should have achievements so I feel I'm working towards something concrete'' I was literally so blindsided like..??... people WANT that #in games..? is the goal not simply to wander aimlessly &fixate on world/character lore& make your own silly pointless personal goals? I did #do them though because it IS fun to make up little achievement names and such but.. i fear i am out of touch so bad lol..

[screamingay]

someone on here will literally say "encouraging plastic surgery for the sole purpose of conforming to eurocentric beauty standards isn't actually feminism" and 200 other people will come out of the woodworks and chant in harmony LET WOMEN BE HAPPY and WHAT ABOUT TRANS PEOPLE AND BURN VICTIMS as if the post wasn't clearly 1. about womens' self image & insecurities being strongly influenced by the richest and whitest of society and 2. not about trans people or burn victims at all

#ive thought about it a lot and i know the main argument is that it's bodily autonomy and also having it more widely available makes it #easier for the people who really do need it to get it #but like. first of all the industry (and it is an industry) spends SO much money convincing women their bodies look wrong #if it wasnt advertised everywhere and if the expectation wasnt there to look 'perfect' according to the most recent trends #the amount of women getting elective plastic surgery would be drastically lower #second of all. yeah having more surgeons out there means more experience and safer treatments for those who really need it.. #as long as they have the money #and for trans people as long as they have money and/or good insurance and/or all the required medical documentation and/or therapy #and at the end of the day you can criticize just part of something but not all of it. i feel like a lot of people forget that when they #start saying shit online. just stop and think and dont interact with people assuming the worst of them!! #when i criticize the beauty industry im never calling any woman who's ever worn makeup or gotten a facelift evil it's an INDUSTRY #it's systemic!!! #almost reminds me of how criticizing the patriarchy and systemic misogyny as a lesbian will get u painted as some man hating terf #i love men! i dont blame individual men for the system we're all a part of i just criticize its existence and try to work to dismantle it #and i know complaining on the internet is like a little raindrop in the ocean but still. it needs to be discussed i think

[wampabampa]

i started dark urge play last night cause i wanted to take a break from Miz'ri gameplay and man do i literally hate everybody but wyll shadowheart and karlach JSJIVBS

#squish the goober #baulders gate 3 #rambles #bg3 #bg3 durge #i love them i really do but with durge im playing as if it was fr fr me like not as if i was the character #and #GOD THESE FUCKERS ANNOYING AS FUCK #esp gale #the amount of times i shove him and astarion off cliffs because they give me attitude #like nooooo way ur sitting there giving me shit when i SAVED UR ASS #I COULD KILL U RIGHT HERE RN DONT PLAY WITH ME WHITE MAN #They pissing me off sm idek who to romance #also im getting contacts!! yay!! #ive always wanted to have contacts because my glasses i feel always ate up my face #cause even though i dont draw myself with glasses i do infact have glasses and they are black and rectangular and i hate it #but hopefully my new glasses will make me feel better #im kinda iffy on them but i litterally just wanted something new and something to match my wisp concert outfit #which the colors are black dark dark blue and gold #so praying

[tunderilona]

having a bad week and a bad month and a bad year so far everything sucks so much

#and i have to go back to work tomorrow where i will meet no one but my 2 coworkers and then come home #and the next day go to work again and come home and do it forever and ever #idk how much longer i can do it im at the end of my rope #i dont talk to anyone but my 2 coworkers and i also dont go anywhere or meet anyone #also im ugly but like thats completely irrelevant i just feel like im getting reall #y sick of being ugly and looking haggard and like i was 23843839 years old instead of my real age i genuinely feel like i look 65 lately #and that everyone who looks at me (which rarely happens) is disgusted and thinks im the ugliest creature theyve ever seen. #all that AND i also have to go to work and do my fucking boring ass monotonous job which even a well trained cockroach could do #and all while i dont go anywhere ever #and i spend every day in my room alone #bored out of my mind #AND i dont even get paid a livable wage. sick of having to budget every fucking month because i dont make a normal amount of money #no matter what i worked i was never paid a liveable wage every single job ive ever had paid like fucking shit

[rainbowgod666]

Nobody

My headcanon about how pomni becomes starting episode 2

#the amazing digital circus #tadc pomni #look #i dont give an ounce of a shit #but #shes DEFINETIVELY gonna kill someone and feel no remorse because “muh exit pointō” #and jax (who else) goes “girl you killed someone for what amounts to NOTHING and im supposed to be the mean guy of the group like come on” #sooooooo #welcome to the multiverse #pomni #you are uuuuuuuuhhh i hope i dont have to take care of you