#i'm hoping that just writing thru things will be helpful in fixing some of the plot holes

[cyanocoraxx]

I jus wanna say that I've read thru all yur fics like..a while ago and haven't gotten the chance to say it until now - but I absolutely love how you portray metal and the others. I've read and reread every fic a couple times and auug just...wow is what I have to say

I stumbled upon the fic with Metal like hiding in the dark first about..a few weeks ago? But reading everything afterwards got me through a pretty tough time, the stuff you write is such a pleasant specific in exactly what I want to read about and I thought I'd never find it but I did! And I'm so glad it exists too :] I'll have to read through everything again and give more in depth compliments but I love love love how you show each character dealing with their problems and how some things persist even though they're out of it happening further, even through that all they're managing it the best they can and they're helping eachother with the stuff they struggle with [i.e silvers ear, mechas sight, neo being mute]

I love how they all have their own ways of showing affection towards their siblings too, the way Neo quietly lingers and watches to Silvers jokes its just auaughhg such a breath of fresh air

I DO wanna ask though it was in my head I think in chapter 16?? or so of Damage, where Neo is apologising to the badniks - was one of those responses a reference to Whirl by any chance? It me stop for a second when I read it hshshsh / pos

okay firstly i'm so very sorry for the late reply, you sent this 4 days ago and i was at WORK for 4 days and wanted to take the time to sit down and respond properly <3

thank you. i can't say it enough so just imagine that i'm on my knees sobbing with the biggest eyes right now because the fact that you took time to send such a lovely message is so uplifting and just EPIC..........

in regards to the pleasant specific thing, a lot of the things i covered/cover in my stories are things i see not being addressed in others and i want to try offering something that isn't discussed as often or as in depth as it should be. i often find that, in many stories, a character struggles with a personal issue, disability, or other hardship and then some hero comes along and makes it all just fine or is able to hold their hand through it 24/7. reality doesn't work that way and i wanted to reflect that in a lot of ways.

yes, neo can speak to mecha in their coded language, but not to other beings without sign, which not everyone understands either. being able to speak to mecha is a plus, but it doesn't make neo's life easier. it's frustrating. it's isolating. it means they may need to depend on mecha sometimes. but when it works out and someone can communicate with them freely, it really works out, and there's that spark of hope and community. silver is deaf in one ear and can compensate in some ways, but it trips him up spatially and internally as it should. mecha's ptsd comes up a lot, as it should - yes, mecha has a support system in her family, but nobody can outright "cure" her trauma. it's something she will carry with her, some days are better than others. silver's grief at experiencing loss at a young age isn't fixed by having his brothers come home safe again. it was traumatic and frightening for a young being like him, and that's something that changed his outlook on life and mortality. he was comparatively lucky that neo was able to be repaired, and he knows that. he feels strong empathy for anybody who lost someone who just. can't come back. then we have the other side, which is mecha's lack of empathy and initial emotional flattening. a lack of empathy doesn't mean a lack of compassion and i wanted/needed to explore this. mecha is undeniably one of the kindest characters i created and she can't feel the depth of emotion that others do. wanted to challenge the notion that a lack of empathy means you're inherently a bad person, because by all accounts, mecha wants to do what is right and good and makes sense. neo's psychosis lingers and he worries about coming out of remission. silver's adhd-like mind moves fast and with emotion. MANY THINGS!!!

i love so so much that you picked up on the different kinds of affection as well, it made me VERY happy and i did a little dance to myself!!!!! silver is very physical and verbal, neo is very protective and banters, and mecha tries to understand by speaking and listening closely.

and YES. i fucking love whirl. i don't remember the exact refs i made when writing but there's a couple of transformers bits here and there.

writing the original fic was a long process. i originally started back when i lived in a phsyically/emotionally/financially/you name it-abusive home. i had just come out of a months-long psychotic break caused by the stress, discovered i was a system, all that fun stuff. through the course of the fic i escaped, lived with a few different friends in different cities, went thru the whole trans coming out thing, and by the last chapter i was sitting in my own home with my pet rats on my lap and we were all safe and happy - with c-ptsd, scars, and other shit still with us, but we were finally okay. it really was like coming home and it was the perfect time for the story to end. i think, in a way, writing the brothers pulled me through and to hear that it's helped others is so lovely. i'm so glad. i hope you feel better, and if not, stay resilient, be kind to yourself, always. my inbox is always open. <3

#asks #long post #thank you endlessly #comments like this make me undescribably happy

[lastdayscominclose]

sept is coming

look I'm don't expect anyone to read this hell, I'm just writing this to have my last days somewhere.

My name is Marc, will go with Marc. It's not Marc but for now it will do. My full name isn't important.

So, hi I'm Marc and these are my last days. Recently a string of events from Dec 2022 until now has driven me to decide to end things. Why am I coming to Tumblr about this? well, I wanted to write down my last few days somewhere so people know how I truly felt.

So let's just start with what we are here for, mom I love you and I'm sorry you might have to bury another son. I know it's not fair, I gave you as long as I could but I just don't want to be here anymore. At some point you gotta let me go, all these close chances with death I've had since birth is a sign.

Ada, I love you more then anything and I'm sorry to do this to you but I have to go. These last few months with you and nowing that I might end things have been the happiest I've been in a long time. I got to be with someone that truly cares about me and do the things and go to places with someone that wants me. Know that it's not that you aren't enough or that you couldn't help, it's something with me and no one can fix it not even me

Brittany, you know why I'm here, because of you. You hurt me twice and while I'm over it, you don't get to ask anything of me now. I owe you nothing and I hope everyone hates you and never forget that you're why this happened. You don't even care that I am going to, you just care that people will hate you and guess what, I hope they do now.

S.Lee, you're the brother I had and lost and then found in a new form. I love you more than you know. You're the Hiei to my Kurama. The best friend I needed and I'm sorry I'm going to let you down.

KK and Nics. I love you both dear sisters. I'm glad we fixed our relationship and that things are better between us. I didn't want to go and things not be fixed. Understand it's not your fault and please don't do anything rash. I'm gone and there's nothing to do anymore but let me rest.

Kaya, I'm sorry things aren't going to pan out like we wanted and that I told you everything that's going on. I hope you find peace when I'm gone. Tell Nay that's it's going to be alright.

10, you're my best friend, I'm glad you found your path and got better, you needed to find your path and I'm happy you found it. You know how I feel about you, there's nothing more to say about it

And to anyone that need to hear from me. I'm sorry this is happening. And while I love you guys I have to do this. I feel like there's a hole in me and something is chipping away at me trying to pull me apart. It's trying to burst thru and before that happens, before I become a shell of who I am I have to do this.

I've tried drugs and therapy, so I think it's time for me to go.

#Suicide

[prolix-yuy]

I adore your Sex Worker Frankie AU and I was wondering if you could walk us thru the timeline of when each story takes place. Thank you, and thank you for sharing this exquisite filth with us!

Ahhh Nicole, you've hit my weakness. My Achilles heel. The result of building a larger story out of a oneshot and needing to start grounding things in facts (don't worry, I still love that you asked!)

Because I am notoriously bad at timelines, I am going to commit and actually write this down!

So Something New is set post Triple Frontier, about a year after Colombia. In this AU the boys end up staying together instead of splitting at the end of the movie, though there probably was some time spent apart before things felt anything close to normal between them.

Some Other Night is about a month and a half after their "session." They've been seeing each other between the two stories, but this was a more significant weekend away.

Something More "starts" a few weeks after the second hotel weekend with the beginning of her repayment to Pope. I'd say that she was buying them drinks for about two months, and then the BBQ was about 4 months into their relationship.

Now for the tricky stuff - this is where I bit myself in my own behind by just throwing out rough timelines for things, but like I said, I'm committing!

Post-military service (and me assuming a roughly similar timeline for all of the boys getting released) is when they all began working for Pope. Benny would have started first, convinced Will, and then Frankie followed after Pope wheedled him for long enough. Tom wanted nothing to do with any of it.

The boys worked for Pope for about 3 years, and each peeled off somewhere in year 3. Frankie got canned for the coke, which also coincided with him losing his pilot's license.

This is when the (slightly augmented) events of the movie come back into play. Pope, even with his business, was still working as a military advisor and saw an opportunity for all of them to make some really significant money. He'd tried to help the boys before, but that was only a short-term fix. Here was an opportunity for something long-lasting.

We saw how that all went down.

Post Colombia, they returned without Tom and Frankie experienced a bad relapse. This is when he started going to therapy, and Will hooked him up with a mechanic's job. Like he said to Ms J, "since then it’s been…not exactly better, but easier?" And Ms J does make it easier for him many days.

I hope that helps! There are little moments that overlap and bleed into each other story-wise, but those are all the big touchstone moments. Thank you for the ask Nicole, and for motivating me to finally wrangle this timeline !

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[wickedhawtwexler]

tomorrow i really REALLY need to look at the plot for my nanowrimo novel because that starts sunday and i have not looked at anything related to my novel in like three weeks <3

#i have a ton to write bc i did all that crazy planning in may/june #and did a bit of writing last month i think? #but i need to refamiliarize myself with things #or else nano 2020 is gonna just be fluff about my main characters #which wouldn't be BAD but like. i'm hoping to advance the plot at least a little bit lmao #i'm hoping that just writing thru things will be helpful in fixing some of the plot holes #maybe i'll figure out how i'm going to end the series asldkfj #the gist right now is 'big action sequence. bad guys defeated. reunion scene. happily ever after. the end <3' #but how do we get to that point? who knows!!!! #m.txt #nanowrimo

[andsheloved]

fake dating is such a GOD TIER TROPE please write a lil drabble using fake dating with either loki or bucky! 🥰 and really mess with my heart here pls im going thru it tbh

love u <3

mia!! my love!! i am sorry to hear things are wonky for you!! i'm sending all of my love to you!! just know that i can 100% confirm loki is sending all of the hugs and kisses your way as well!! mwauh!! i hope it's okay i went with loki on this one, i have something very fun planned for bucky with one of your other requests!! i tried not to mess too much with your heart, but your wish is my command!! i hope you enjoy this my friend!! i love you!! mwauh!!

pairing ~ loki x gn!reader

word count ~ 1.6k

warnings ~ mild angst with a fluffy ending, mentions of reader working in a lab, madeline can't write short drabbles anymore apparently

prompt ~ trope #7: fake dating

He spoke your name with such affection as he referred to you, it seemed as if he had already said it that way countless times before.

His hand seemed to be consistently fixed on your lower back, his comforting warmth shooting sparks through your spine each time you found him guiding you through the bustling crowd.

And his lips, smirking, ghosting over the shell of your ear as he whispered some private quip meant only for you, threatened to melt you where you stood.

But it wasn't real. You had to keep begrudgingly reminding yourself.

It never was.

You scoffed to yourself as you thought back to when the team had explained to you the plan.

It was unusual that they had even asked you to venture into the field in the first place, but you couldn't help the secretly thrilled smile that crept onto your lips as they brought you into the conference room.

Loki had often visited you in the labs, and you saw Bruce and Tony often, but seeing all of them, heroes and gods and assassins, all in one room, you found yourself just the slightest bit overwhelmed at the thought of yourself trying to find a place amoungst them.

"Hey," You heard a voice call to you barely above a whisper, and you turned instantly.

Your timid smile grew when you saw him.

Loki quietly cleared his throat before gesturing to the chair beside him.

"Thank you" you replied, trying, and failing, to conceal the grin that threatened to split your cheeks.

You could barely hear anything but the constant thrumming of your own heartbeat until you heard Steve at the front of the room finally speak your name.

You quickly straightened yourself, did you hear him correctly?

"Well," He purred, "I'll finally be getting to see you beyond that lab of yours" He added, winking at you as he did.

It took immense effort not to slam your hand on your chest and gasp for air at his comment, but you fought the urge.

Wasn't this always what you wanted? A chance to be with him?

Of course it was, ever since he had been dragged into the lab by Thor on that mundane Tuesday morning, it seemed that any green solutions you found yourself mixing, or any golden sparks that appeared from Tony's equipment, had you smiling a bit more.

This was finally a chance for him to see you, not just in a lab, but really see you, and maybe for more than just a passing glance.

You shook your head at the memory, silently cursing your naivety for thinking this would go over smoothly.

You watched him as he elegantly weaved through the crowd, making brisk conversation with everyone he passed, throwing you the occasional glance to make sure you were alright.

You held your glass close to your chest, you breath hitching as you watched him gingerly grab the small flash drive from the pocket of a larger man as he laughed heartily, Loki patting the man on the back before turning again to you, a wicked smile on his face as he sauntered in your direction.

You sighed in relief, it was over, and you should have been relieved, but the sudden thought of the night ending had an undeniable rush of discontent flooding through you.

"Enjoying the party, my love?" He hummed, his arms swiftly snaking around your waist as he began to sway to the rhythm of the soft jazz echoing through the large ballroom.

You wanted to allow your arms to softly drape over his shoulder, to allow your body to lean into his touch, but you couldn't.

You found yourself flinching from his wandering hands, gently batting them away as he looked at you confused.

"Don't-" You noticed how the words seemed painfully caught in your throat, but you managed to sputter them out anyway. "Don't call me that."

"Darling, it's finished, we can rela-"

"Please" You almost begged, and as much as you tried, your tone still seemed to strain as you spoke. "We should get going" You smiled weakly.

He nodded, offering you his arm as he continued to smile, "As you wish"

You reluctantly weaved your arm with his own as he led you to the exit. An unshakable feeling of dread washed over you as the large doors drew closer.

You almost jumped when you realized how close his face was to your own.

"You looked lovely tonight, my dear."

If you hadn't known any better, you would've thought you were dreaming, but something about the indisputable feeling of the heat of his lips on your cheek grounded you.

He was kissing you.

In front of everyone.

In this crowded ballroom, as you journeyed together towards the exit.

He was kissing you.

And as he pulled away, it felt like sand slipping through your fingers.

This wasn't real. It was all just an act. That was all.

You had never likened yourself to a princess before, but as you finally set foot on the not-so-glamorous concrete sidewalk outside of the venue, you thought you could understand Cinderella a little more.

"The night is still young," He finally spoke, you found yourself amazed at his casual tone. "So, where to next my darling-"

"Please," You swallowed, "Don't say that."

His brow furrowed as he looked at you, still guiding you away from the building until you finally felt far enough way from the building.

"Did I-" He sighed as he pulled his arm from your own, fully turning to face you, "I shouldn't have done that, and I am sorry, I took things too far-"

"No, no," You interrupted, "It's not that, it's just," You hated how your voice trembled as you continued, "It's over, you don't have to call me that anymore."

"Darling?" His head was now tilted in confusion.

"All of it." You whispered, "The mission's over, you don't have to-" A choked sob bubbled in your throat before you could continue.

It was over. The phrase echoed in your mind, in some twisted, strange way, you had thought it would bring you comfort, once the mission ended, you would never have to day dream about him ever again, you had lived it, but as you quickly glanced behind you at the glittering building where you had left, you felt the sharp knife of grief for something that never was, twist deeper into your stomach.

"You don't have to call me any of it anymore."

You fought the urge to pull away as he leaned closer to your cheek, whispering in your ear once again, "What if I don't want to stop?"

It was less of a question and more of a statement, his words felt certain, almost rehearsed.

How you wanted to just grab him by his cheeks and pull him into your lips, but you knew that this was the better option, by stopping this all now, you were sparing yourself worse heartbreak later on.

"It was only a mission" You replied in a feigned chuckle, but you barely had time to add anything before his lips were suddenly crashing into yours.

Your eyes widened at the sensation, but as your body betrayed you, you felt how your eyelids fluttered closed as he deepened the kiss, pulling you impossibly closer to him by your waist.

"Say it again..." He muttered between kisses, "Tell me it was just a mission..."

"It was only a mission" You repeated breathlessly, feeling how your cheeks had suddenly grown damper from tears. You had no idea how long you had dreamed of this moment, but now that it was here, hidden in the shadow of deception for an assignment, you wished it never came.

He pulled away from you abruptly, his breaths uneven, "Tell me what you felt tonight wasn't real... Please" He urged, "Tell me and I'll stop, but please, tell me the truth."

For a moment, you only stared at each other, your hushed sniffles sprinkled within the pregnant silence.

You could have sworn his eyes had grown just the slightest bit glassier from when you had both left the event, and although you tried to shake the feeling that maybe he could have been feeling the same, you couldn't. The idea that he could have been wanting this as long as you had stirred something unintelligible within you.

Your lips seemed to screw themselves shut, even as you attempted to pry them open to speak, you couldn't, so you only reached for him, brushing your thumb over his cheek as you gently pulled him closer.

You pressed your lips to his once again, and even as you couldn't speak, you poured everything you could into him, it wasn't just this night, you felt all the late nights in the lab, all of the nights he had helped you clean up non existent messes until the wee hours of the morning, every hour he had spent in silence reading in your room, exchanging favorite quotes and lines, every smile, every brush against your skin, all of it, all at once. And suddenly, all of your late night doubts and spiraling thoughts dissipated.

It was real.

Maybe it always was.

You slowly pulled away from him with a soft smile,

"So, where to now?" He let out a soft chuckle as he now cradled your face in his hands,

You only responded with a confused hum, you knew you were both supposed to be getting back to the tower, and you could almost groan at the thought of all the paperwork you were certain was already laying on your desk.

"I've spent God's know how long waiting for this, and the night's just begun, so, my love, where are we off to?"

You thought for a moment, looking out into the empty streets and the endless night sky ahead of you, and turning back to look at him once again, you smiled, "Anywhere."

i am so soft, oh gosh, i hope you enjoyed this my friend!! i've very much not written this trope before but i am obsessed with it and so so so happy you sent this in!! i hope i didn't play with your heart too much, you know i am an absolute sap for happy endings!! i am sending all my love to you my friend!! mwauh!!

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[fartoo-sensitive]

better homes and gardens

eeep i'm not sure about this one, i was super excited when i started writing it but it didn't turn out how i wanted it to;; i hope it's good for y'all<3

word count: 1220

warnings: canon typical violence, possessive and morally questionable reader, allusions to sex

character(s): bo sinclair x gn!reader

"now what are you doing?"

bo pulled the already filthy rag from his back pocket, wiping his oil and muck stained hands on it. "i'm not explainin' everythin' i do to ya, y/n. i know you don't give a shit. get the hell out of my hair." he went to flick the rag at you, but you jumped away just in time.

you rolled your eyes at him, walking back over to the counter and pulling yourself back up onto it. "fine, i didn't wanna keep you company anyways!" you yelled at him.

bo ignored you and went back to working on the truck, that disgusting rag stuffed back into his pocket.

it was a deathly boring day in ambrose. lester was busy with work, vincent was working on a couple of sculptures, and bo was fixing up his truck after a run-in with some rowdy young adults on their way to a football game went south a couple weeks ago. you'd decided to keep bo company but even the magazines you had brought along and the music he was playing weren't enough to keep you occupied.

you reached over and plucked a lollipop from the dish you kept on the counter, unwrapping it and popping it into your mouth. you picked up the old copy of better homes and gardens from beside your thigh and started flipping through it again. maybe you’d find some inspiration on how to fix up the living room on your second look through it.

a soft ping from behind you drew your attention away from the glossy pages and you looked over your shoulder, seeing the tiny screen of your cell phone lit up with a notification saying you had a message from lester. you had forced all of the boys to get cell phones once it was clear you were sticking around; not only did it make it easier for them to contact each other, but it was for your peace of mind. you also liked being able to talk to vincent without being in the same immediate vicinity as him, and spent many nights on the phone with lester when bo was at the station late. you reached back to grab the phone, clicking through to open the message.

girl comin thru. 5 mins maybe.

you typed out a quick reply, thanks, les!, then relayed the information to bo. “we’ve got company comin’.” you shook your phone at him, the message thread still on the screen though he was too far away to see it.

bo looked up from the contents under the hood of his truck, nodding at you once before going back to what he had been doing.

a few moments later, the door to the station was pushed open and a girl who looked to be in her early-20s walked in. she saw you on the counter and waved. "i was told to ask for bo?"

you gave her an easy smile in return, your arm lifting and hand pointing across the room to where the man was standing. "he's-"

"that's me." bo had taken a - new, clean - rag and was wiping his hands, walking into the main part of the station with his most charming grin on his lips. he held out a now mostly-clean hand for the girl to shake. "pleasure to meet ya, miss."

a glint came to her eyes as she stared between bo's hand and his face that had the smile you'd put on dropping almost instantly and a knot forming in your stomach that only twisted and frayed when she wrapped her dainty fingers around his and let out a chiming giggle.

"what can i do for ya…?"

"missy. my name's missy." she smiled a sickly sweet little thing up at bo, and you could see from your place on the counter he was eating it up. the knot grew thorns.

bo led missy over to his truck to talk while he was working, and she explained to him with her big sad doe eyes that she'd gone over some scrap metal in the road that tore up her front tires, and she'd just be so grateful if he could help her out.

"i don't have a whole lot of money," she said, batting her eyelashes up at him. "i'm drivin' 'cross the state to see my papaw, and all the money i saved has been for gas and the like. but i'm good at other things," she trailed off, bringing her hand up to whisper her fingers over the arm of bo's shirt.

"well, i'm sure we can work somethin' out. pretty lil thing like you can't be stuck out here." bo smirked down at her, allowing her fingers to graze to over his bicep.

by this time you'd seen enough. the knot was a blackened stone, covered in barbed wire, rolling through your chest and clouding your thoughts. you hopped lightly down from the counter and made your way to where the others were standing, too distracted by each other to notice you creeping up behind the girl.

the switchblade lester had gifted you the previous year for christmas was heavy in your pocket, whispering to you to do what you had to do. who were you to deny it? you slipped the blade from your pocket and held it up the side of the girl's neck, then, without a moment's hesitation, pressed the release.

warm blood soaked over your hand, and it felt good. you had the brief thought that maybe you understood why bo liked his dungeon so much. the girl struggled for only a moment before gurgling, coughing out a bubble of blood, and collapsing onto the floor. you smiled down at her, using her back as leverage to yank the knife from her neck, then looked up at bo.

"goddammit, y/n! what in the fucking shit was that?" he yelled, walking around the body to get in your face.

you shrugged, wiping the blade on your shirt then closing it and putting it back in your pocket. "i didn't like the way she was talkin' to you."

bo let out a half-strangled laugh. "you're a real piece of work."

"she was lookin' at you like you're cattle at an auction," you griped, crossing your arms.

"and you didn't like that?" he took a step towards you, that infuriating smirk coming back to his lips.

"you're not for sale," you said, turning your face away when he brought his close to yours. "you're mine."

bo was so close you could feel his breath on your face, the lift of his mouth as his smirk deepened. "if i'm yours does that make you mine?"

you finally looked at him, arms falling to your sides but a challenge still present in your eyes. "what are you gonna do if i say 'no'?"

bo clenched his teeth, a growl coming from deep in his chest. "guess you'll just have to find out." he grasped you roughly by the hips, leaning down to shove his shoulder into your stomach and toss your upper body over his back. he turned without another word and walked with you down the stairs at the back of the station.

the knot in your stomach was gone and replaced with a ribbon of fiery anticipation.

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[toobusywritingimagines]

i'm just so in love with your works! like how you beautifully express the feelings of characters and make it so much enjoyable to read. i feel the lack of Kaminari content, so maybe could you write something about him? his s/o was being bullied because of how she can't control her quirk very good. Kaminari didn't even notice what she's been thru, until one day his s/o tells him that she wanted to leave u.a. so on the next day, when he hears others talking shit about his love he stood up for her.

Thank you so much for your kind words 😊 I hope I did well enough on this for you! I didn’t specify a quirk because I know some people have their own ideas for what they would have so I wanted to leave it open to the reader, I hope that’s okay 😊

Request are still open, I’ve been loving the My hero academia request!

He was already going through so much, you really didn’t want to burden him with anything else. I mean, you were in high school now and you still didn’t have a complete grip on your quirk yet. You were lucky to get into the UA support class, something you wanted to do since you were young as crazy as it seems. Most people want to be a hero; you didn’t want to be in the spot light, you wanted to help them from behind the scenes.

Getting into UA was one of the best things that happened to you, not only was it an amazing program but you got to meet the most amazing person, Kaminari. To other people he was a goof, and well, he was a goof around you too but he was also the person who made you smile, the person you could go to when you weren’t feeling the best and just needed a hug, and the best person to sneak out with you to go on late night food runs.

Plus, you got to see a side to him most didn’t. You were the one he came to when he was worried about training, the one who held him when he was exhausted to the point of not even wanting to eat, the one who he confided in. You knew he was having a rough time, that’s why you didn’t go to him with your troubles at the moment, you didn’t want to give him something else on his plate, you wanted to be perfect for him.

But it didn’t help the fact that you were getting more stressed, and your quirk was getting more out of control because of it. You were always self conscious about how little control you had to begin with, but when it started causing problems in class, enough that your teacher pulled you to the side to talk about it, you lost most of your confidence.

Then the whispers started, you were able to ignore them at first, hearing the phrases about “how did she even get in here?” And “can’t she just figure it out already” didn’t bother you, it wasn’t until you were alone one day, just trying to eat your lunch, your quirk had gotten out of control, causing your project you were working on to become destroyed. You were upset, but trying to hide it and control it so you wouldn’t do any more damage.

Then you were approached by the girls who were at the head of your class. “Y/N, do you really think you will be successful with that quirk of yours?” One of the girls laughed “I don’t really need to use it for what I want to do so yes…” you whispered not wanting to start anything, but she scoffed and the other girls giggled behind Jeff causing you to look up “I can’t believe you even came here, one of the best schools excepted someone who can’t control something they’ve had since they were little. Why does Denki even put up with you? You must be giving him something to get him to stay” she laughed, causing you to look down in shame. “I’m trying” you whisper, hiding your face “Trying isn’t enough.” She said with a straight face “One day, he’s gonna see that too” and then they were gone, and you never felt more alone.

It was a couple days later, you and Denki were sitting in the grass, eating lunch. He could tell there was something you wanted to share but didn’t push it, waiting for you to come out with it on your own. When he heard you sigh he looked at you, to find you looking back at him, and you just blurted out what you had been thinking since the girls came up to you “I think I’m going to leave UA. It’s great but everyone here is at another level than me and I just think it’s time for me to go home” when he didn’t respond you broke eye contact and start packing up your stuff “I’ll talk to you later, I have to talk to a teacher” and you walked away, not allowing him to say anything. He was shocked (lol pun not intended), where was this coming from. He thought everything was going well. He wished he had more time for you but he didn’t think that was a factor in you leaving, or was it? God, he had to find you.

When he was rushing to your classroom he saw girls he recognized from your class, slowing down to ask if they had seen you he overheard them “Good, if she leaves then we can stop having to fix our stuff so much, I feel like that stupid quirk of hers just destroys everything.” One of them said, “Yeah, she has the control of an elementary school kid, she needs to leave, plus with her gone you will have that shot with Kaminari you have been waiting for”

He couldn’t believe his ears, you were struggling with your quirk? He knew you had said that it could be hard to control sometimes but, why wouldn’t you tell him? He’d ask you later but for now, he had something else to take care of.

“Excuse me, do y’all know Y/N?” He asked, seeing there heads snap up at his voice “Oh, not really, she isn’t that important here” one giggled. His face went blank at that “Actually, she is the most important thing to me, so if you would, never talk about her again. She’s amazing, she deserved to be treated as such, not bullied out of the school. If she is having trouble she needs help, not whatever it is y’all are doing. You will never be great at something with attitudes like that, now if you excuse me, I need to find my girlfriend” as he turned around he saw you standing in the door, tears threatening to leave your eyes. “Denki…” his arms were around you in a second “I love you” he whispered in your ear, “if you are having trouble we can work on it together, okay? Don’t be afraid to tell me things, I will always be here to help you”

#kaminari denki #kaminari imagine #kaminari scenario #denki imagine #denki scenario #kaminari denki imagine #kaminari denki scenario #kaminari fluff #kaminari x reader #my hero academia scenarios #my hero academia imagine #bnha scenario #bnha imagines #boko no hero academia scenario #boko no hero academia #boko no hero academia imagine #bnha kaminari #bnha kaminari imagine

[kkulmoon]

Freaking Dumblr :(( absolutely good for nothing. Didn't send me a notif, if i didnt check your blog and scroll thru i woulda miss it >:( tumblr fite me!!

And yeah!! I do scanslation, been doing it since i was 12 😂 it been a while. I used to own a pretty big group too but then I quitted cuz dramas in scans are abundant and i rather waste my times on something else. Nowadays i'm pretty much do work for whichever groups that need help. I would tell which group it was but... that would reveal me 🤫

Okay things i love about myself part 3/10: I like my height. I'm 150cm so i am very short, and i used to HATE being short cuz i get tease a lot but now i learn to love it cuz i get call cute while hiding my evil side hehehehe 😈

Hehehe they says "be careful what you wish for" and I wish for PAIN!!!! I lost my shit over them all the damn time but blood sweats and tears.... i will never get over it.... THREW ME STRAIGHT BACK INTO MY VAMPIRE PHASE THAT I THOUGHT I GOT OUT OF AND I HATE THEM FOR IT

Hmmm, do i like the current version of myself? In some part, i do like how much I've matured. But i do wish to change a few things, maybe able to articulate my thoughts better. The way I say things tend to be from A straight to C instead of from A to B to C (does that even make sense?) So people misunderstand me oftens, and I may cause some unintentional hurts so I want to fix that in the future. What about you?

I'm glad you had a productive and healthy day!! Joon would definitely been proud 😤 i spent my day trying to win back my kitty's affection cuz she recently got a surgery and is wearing the collar of shame and is hating everyone 😭 she won't let me pet her just stand up and sashay away, what a brat >:(

I swear we're both writing novels and taking up people's timeline 😔 #sorrynotsorry.

Question of the day is: what are some of your pet peeves? -Valley's Lilies @valley-lilies

i sent a petty email to support about it and they fixed it so now i am happy lol, well until next time it happens 😔srry about having u scroll i rb a lot 😭

OH DAMN 12??? wow, what was i doing at twelve 🤔?? nothing productive i know ;(( oohhh i am srry about the drama that must rlly suck ;// i have so much love for scanlation groups tho especially the ones who share their conversations on the manga. then you must speak japanese, right?

awwww you’re so tiny and fun sized uwu, i’m literally almost 20 cm taller than you 😳, short people rlly are cute tho at least all the ones i know, except for this one kid in high school who i played soccer with, he was sooo annoying like pass the goddamn ball once in a while 😠O.O you have an evil side  you say? what is it you’re hiding 👀??

anon valley’s lilies you lost some rights after putting me through the mental torture that is joon in a crop top but you’ve earned them back cause bst was just WOW SUCH A COMEBACK!!! hey i’m telling you, you never truly get over ur vampire phase, NEVER 🤪i still go back to it once in a while and they pulled it off so well, such a visually pleasing cb, you know that joon scene with the smoke ,that was when joon being my bias was CEMENTED for eternity ughhhhh

oh yeah you’ve definitely matured if you’re able to look at the way you communicate and find flaws... and yes it does make sense, i mean you know what B is in your mind, it might even seem so obvious that you don’t mention it and end up at C directly, or at least that’s how things have appeared to me. hmmm i want to change my behaviour, like conceptually i know what i should be doing but actually getting to it is a big hassle, i have a tendency for self destructive behaviour in certain areas of my life ;(( i’ve gotten much better but there’s still a way to go, like saying no, i NEED to start saying it more often, i’m way too lenient at times 😩

namjooning activites are the most healing, plus i am interested in learning how to pick mushrooms cause we’ve gotta a lot were i live. speaking of healing, what are your favourite healing activities? awww poor kitty ;((( she’ll come around, all cats have attitude problems according to me lol. i hope she’s feeling well, despite the collar ;))

folks you heard what she said, typing novels i shall continue to do lol 

#valley's lilies 💞 #asktrail #anontrail

[transannabeth]

[1] hi! so i've hit a weird point in my writing where i /hate/ everything i write. i've never had that happen to me and was wondering if you've ever gone thru a period like that, and if so, how you got past it? i'm really frustrated bc i stopped dead on two fics i was writing and haven't been able to pick them back up for weeks now. i tried writing something else in a different fandom and got a handful of pages in, but read it back over today and once again absolutely hate it.

[2] also do you mind if i send my ask to some other writers in the pjo fandom (since i mainly follow a lot of writers for the pjo fandom)? i know sometimes people don't appreciate it when someone asks the same question to different blogs. thanks! i hope you're doing well.

well you’ve tried my first suggestion! that was going to be to try to write something else. first thing i want to do is promise you that you think your writing is worse than it is. i know it doesn’t always help, especially if you’re in a spot like you are, but it’s always good to remember 

then, since you’ve already tried writing through this and it didn’t work, i recommend taking a few days off. close all your documents and just do something else. i personally recommend reading a book. something new or reread an old favorite. and then try to pinpoint what you like or don’t like about it. if you don’t like something, how would you fix it? even if you do like it, maybe think about how you’d do something different. that usually helps me. i also have some go to books and movies that i revisit because they make me want to create.

another thing you can do is find a friend and just talk about your writing. talk out the plot, tell them about things you’re excited about or really want to explore. maybe they’ll ask questions that you can answer. it’s a way to keep thinking about and developing your story without actually writing it out 

and lastly, you could send the fics to a friend. it doesn’t always help to have someone else read it and tell you it’s good, but it’s always nice and (to circle back to the beginning) your writing is almost always better than you think it is!! 

i definitely don’t mind if you send your ask to other bloggers! i hope you find some advice that helps!! <3

#answered #not pjo #writing advice #Anonymous #Thanks from the Argo!

[boxwinebaddie]

can we have an uncle nina mental health update? :)

yes, of course, my love, my light! you are sooooo STINKIN' cute for sending this, oh my god! seriously, i know it's lame of me, but the fact that as a silly little person on the internet and in this large vast universe ( me, not you, you are an angel not of this earth, darling ) care enough about me to check on me <333 *soft, glistening eyes emoji* if you were a chapstick in the pcu, you would probably be birthday cake ( because you are so, so, SO sweet and also i am so happy you are alive, thank you for being born ) or something equally as honey-ied and candied!~ mwah mwah mwah MWAAAAH!

but, my dearest, darlingest, nonnie, i am happy to report that i am doing...much, much better! :) <3

last week, i actually called a national holiday entitled "be nice to nina day" because i cried three times from stress and my roomates were very, very lovely to me, haha.

i cleaned my room! which is...actually a very, very big accomplishment as is being alive! so anyone whose room is clean or...if you are breathing and with us, you have done so much, have come so far, and i am very, very, VERY proud of you! i did a lot of chores -- currently i am reinventing my living space!

i am a thrift store fashion girly, so i bought this little clothing rack i just set up!!!! ( is it...perhaps...too personal that i am posting pictures of my room...tbh i think even posting on my tiktok with my face in it for five seconds in a story is probably not a good idea but!!!!! besties i am CUTE!!!! i think omg help crying hkdlash ) i feel like my taste in clothing and decorating tells u everything u need to know about me also say hi to my beautiful cat the pep mascot!!! gods angel!!! she has no braincells but my god her heart is huge and she is so so pretty and angel so we love her so much! my super best friend!

doing fun makeup! wearing zany crazy deranged girl things! been out thrifting and on roadtrip adventures! my friend and i are hanging out tomorrow and shes making me DINNER! beautiful legend! icon! masterchef! i am stoked!!!!!! nina touched grass! crazy!

i bought frozen costco salmon and made sashimi...which i had to have my roomate cut for me w/ his fancy sushi knife...i am...useless in fact and so scared of knives help...AND IT WAS SO GOOD! *giiiiiirrrrrllll dinnnnneeeer* currently having a glass of box wine! TRUE TO MY USER NAME I AM A BOXWINE BADDIE! BALLIN ON A BUDGET! UR EMBARRASSING AUNTIE! UNCLE! bleached my roots ( my hair is fried but listen im embarrassed would yall still love me if i had bangs IM DISGUSTED but my...ends...good luck charlie sahdlkhsa )

im going to try and answer some comments ( which...if they are extra zesty its the box wine help ) answer some of these ask memes at some point ( GUYS I LOVE THOSE LIKE IF U WANT A ONESHOT @ ME I AM HAVING A BLAST FKN PEP STAN AND KYLE ARE SO MISERABLE I WANT TO LAUUUUUGH HSKHDSL ) and.....hopefully write more of pep 13....

which....oh my god i love pep 13. i suffered thru all of 12 for 13. i love u 13 ( i also love 13 in house md...olivia wilde kiss me on my mouth challenge ) im so fkn excited to write it but U KNOW! HEALING ERA UNCLE NINA SO PLEASE GIVE ME SOME GRACE AND TIME...which u all have!!!!! seriously i held off on responding to comments bc they have been so sweet and kind i like actually cry every time ( gonna hold a be Mean to nina day bc u guys are too nice to me ) *happy tears emoji*

but....tldr: yes i am doing much better, taking care of myself, fixing my envrionemnt, relationships, my life as a whole...and finding in this peace that i am...getting excited to write again.

sorry i know none of this was terribly relevant, i just wanted to vent and if you are curious about me! maybe this is funny for you, haha! but i love you very much, i hope you are doing well too, darling!

i'd say i hope i heal...but i think i'm going to be just fine soon.

-uncle nina in her healing era <333333

#THIS MADE ME CRY #MY ANGEL MY LOVE MY LIFE #THE FACT THAT YALL CHECK IN ON ME IS SOS SOOSOOSOSO SWEET IM CRYING #IS IT THE BOXWINE!!! ID SAY MAYBE BUT ID CRY EITHER WAY U SWEET SWEET LOVELY CREATURES YOU ETHERAL THINGS MY SWEETS MY MINTY CHERRY ANGELS #id die for u feel free to send me anything u want id lay down my life for u #angels among us #mun specific #faq

[rival-ado]

owo I'm curious. But like could order like all the pmd and why you like/dislike each one?

AHHHHHH !!!!! okay hope ur ready for a lot of rambling this might be one of my favorite asks ever fjlsjfJTKFJ

1.) pmd2 !! this is my favorite by far and my first pmd game , specifically explorers of sky !!!!

the story is SO good , the characters are really good and interesting and memorable , theres a lot to do main game AND post game , not to mention special episodes [ theyre ALL so good but i give my life to special episode 5 . ive replayed it so many times ] !!! i could go on forever ahfjsjkfkg . the only negative things i can rlly think about rn are fixed in the later games [ moving in dungeons can be slow and depending on ur type a lot of dungeons can be hell + teammates can be a nuisance rather than helpful ] but !! a rlly big plus is you can make your own missions thru a generator online and get literally any item you want , its super helpful [ reviver seeds are super important to have ] !! i havent replayed it in a while so i might have more to say later but i really could write papers about this game i love it so much alfjskfk

2.) psmd !! the most recent pmd game , and my second favorite !!!

this game has every pokemon gen 1-7 and every single one has a different mission AND theyre all connected to each other . you can get missions from characters from previous games [ grovyle + celebi mission ; __ ; ] . i recommend playing this game last tho if you plan on playing them all !! the story is pretty good and has some rlly good twists , theres post game but not a ton [ unless u want to do every mission ] , you can befriend and play as any pkmn you want which is rlly cool !!! also theres a pushing mechanic which is not only super helpful but rlly funny to me [ shoves an entire line of teammates out of harms way ] . for the negatives ... the characters are interesting but i dont remember them as well , i wish there was more character development . i dont hate the final boss but ... its kinda a reused concept from pmd3 which i wasnt fully a fan of in the first place [ spoilers ? the final boss isnt a pkmn , its just negativity ] . they bring back apples which isnt rlly bad but i sure didnt miss them . leveling up is HELL . i rlly dislike the fact that you have to buy saves for dungeons though , no quicksaves if you have to do something all of a sudden , no saves at rest stops mid dungeon . you gotta buy em and bring em along , im pretty sure its only this game that does it but i hope they dont keep it . nevertheless its a solid pmd game !!!

3.) pmd3 !! gates to infinity !!! i gotta be honest im barely putting this above red/blue rescue team but i WILL bc despite its very big flaws it also has a lot of ups !!

okay this game along with everything gen 5 gets a lot of hate and i can sure see why with this one but i still think its rlly good !!! im actually gonna start with the negatives on this one to get em out of the way but . paradise building does not interest me . no stacking missions [ you cant do more than one at a time ] , the rewards are just supplies that go towards building paradise , the final boss doesnt rlly interest me [ again spoilers same as psmd: its not a pkmn ] , and it just has so many differences from the usual pmd formula and i cant promise that theyre all ..... positive . plus the VERY limited choices for hero and partner [ i wont complain much bc i wouldve chosen the given pkmn over other starters anyways but . no quiz , only 5 pkmn compared to other games 15+ ? oof ] A..... ANYWAYS now that thats over . POSITIVES ..... i rlly like the characters ! the main ones and even the villains have a little development !! [ dunsparse emolga hydreigon ILY ] the story itself is good ; im not a fan of concepts that appear for one game and are never even mentioned later but the entercards [ ? ] are interesting and the frozen chasm recorder thing may have made me want to cry . i dont want to specifically spoil anything but this game can be a little brutal at times too ? leaving friends behind , being chased down by the villains , being split up from your friends , not gonna say the exact scenes bc of spoils but when things get rlly bad and how desperate the hero and partner can get when theyre trying to protect each other ..... [ cries ] . while some mechanics of the game arent my favorite , the story is good and can make u damn emotional .......

4.) pmd !! red/blue rescue team !!! i cant even call this my least favorite bc i have no real least favorites when it comes to this series but i just like the others a little better ahkfjsjfkc

im a little more biased bc this is the last game of the series i played even tho its the original . BUT i still have so many good things to say about it and i would probably recommend this first ? i dont remember there being a lot of characters compared to the other games but they sure leave an impression on you . i also like how the partner is kinda sassy and like , they just met you but would literally do anything for you and believe in you even when you dont believe in yourself . every pmd game has good twists but i RLLY like the one they pulled here . also you spend a good amount of the game being on the run from people you trusted literally trying to kill you which is fucked up but i really like how they played the story . i didnt even play it that long ago but writing this makes me want to play it again smfjkskfj ... the main negatives i can think about are all stuff fixed in future games again [ and you can also do the same make your own mission generator and get items to make the game easier ] . a lot of the bosses are the same type / resistant to the same type so depending on your hero / partner it could go rlly smoothly or rlly badly [ to anyone choosing grass type pkmn . godspeed ] . i think this might be the shortest pmd game and it might be hard bc its the first , but if youre looking to rlly get into the series id go with this one first . if you just want to test the waters id go with pmd2 !!

T.... TYSM FOR THE ASK and these are all opinions of course and its just my thoughts but if you got all the way down here . ily

#I AM ... SO SORRY FOR THE WALL OF TEXT AHFKSJFJ #ill try to put it in a readmore whenever i get to my computer agsin . #i really do have a lot to say about this series .... i just love it sm ; ___ ; #rosepowdr #long post #ado.txt

[anastasiaskarsgard]

Link to my masterlist for earlier chapters or other stuff I've written

His Queen

Part 3

Bri ripped open the letter, amazed it was handwritten and in cursive! Knowing Roman, he had an assistant write it, but she felt a warmth in her chest knowing he’d truly loved her all along.

To My Queen, Briana Godfrey,

(Admit it! That sounds way better than Tucker, have the lawyers change it.)

Oh, and before I get into it, I wrote this myself. No assistants, so fuck you for thinking it.

Bri smiled a sad smile at how they still knew how the other thought.

I have to start off by saying thank you for reading this letter. That means you're at the white tower. I don't deserve you. I've turned into everything I never wanted to become. Everything you made me believe I could escape. You are the light to my darkness and I'm so sorry I disappointed you. I don’t have a lot of time, but I needed a plan in case I fail. You’re the only person I trust with my company, my money, my daughter, my legacy, my heart, all of it. I am an absolute crack head level blood addict, and I couldn’t trust myself when we got overly emotional to keep my head. Because I love you so much, you can make me so upset, and That last fight we got into, I scared myself. I don’t blame you for slapping me, but to hold back from returning the blow, I literally broke my own hand... but this is not what this letter is about.

Peter and my sick half-sister Annie have stolen my daughter. Peter is hell-bent on destroying me because he killed Destiny's trash fiance, and lied about it, so she blamed me and attacked me and I hurt her bad enough to foresee issues with peter, so I broke her neck to avoid problems figuring it was showing her some mercy since she was heartbroken. Annie was there and when I refused to carry on an incestuous relationship with her, she turned on me and told Peter about Destiny. So he came after me and fucking shot me, we fought and I won, but didn't cut his head off so I knew he’d be fine. Well, he calls me and has my kid and won't turn her over, and says he's going to kill me so even though I doubt it, Nadia needs someone to raise her, and if I'm killed it's not my whore of a sister Annie. I need you to find Nadia and take her home and raise her as she deserves. She’s such a sweet baby and she adores you.

Find Shelley and she can help you maybe. She’s in love with this weird old poet and chooses to live at the old steel mill. Calls it Rooster Poop. Can’t make this shit up.

The entire security team is trying to find Nadia, so contact them and see where they’re at with it.

you are the love of my life and I refused to ever say so, even though we both knew it was true. I would bullshit and say it’s cuz I was saving you from myself, but I’m not that fucking noble. You scared me more than anything ever scared me in my life. God, it's great to admit I love you. Like I need to make up a new word for how I feel for you cuz love isn’t strong enough.

there’s a pretty poem I saw that reminded me of you;

I’d still choose you.

In a hundred lifetimes,

in a hundred worlds,

in any version of reality,

I’d find you and I’d choose you.

Even though I knew you were going to break my heart again and again.

I’d still choose you.

It’s crazy how happy I am writing you a letter, even with every aspect of my life in shambles, you’re my light.

You get everything. Fuck all of them. You were right about everything. If I survive this shit, I am winning you back if it takes 100 years and I have to spend every cent. This is literally a reset.

I tried to forget your baby girl but I never could. No amount of drugs, money, blood, or bullshit could ever distract me from the constant ache in my heart for only you. You’re the only pussy I ever wanna see again. I ran thru a fantastic amount of pussy after you left and none of them made me forget you for even a moment. I pictured you or I could not get off. It was pathetic. I hope I get to see you again and rip up this fucking letter.

I looked back over this and there’s a reason I have other people write shit up for me. A few requests to seriously consider:

-->Blitzky should take over for Pryce. Not only is he a genius, he's a good guy. He's a bit soft, so you may have to be the bad guy.

-->Get a new nanny. The current one looks good on paper but she's an idiot.

--> Live in the white tower. It's secure and safe and you can make as many floors as you like home.

--> if an animal killed me, it's Peter and he's still a wolf. He’ll be white. Kill him, cut off his head and burn him up in the incinerator.

--> if Annie comes around at all, kill her. She's very manupulative and acts religious and nice. She's crazy and not to be trusted.

-->try and convince Shelley to live in the mansion and have her little homeless community there. She doesn't care about money but she cares about people, so offer it as a safe haven. Make sure it stays stocked in necessities like toilet paper, soap, cleaning materials, etc and write it all off as a charity contribution. Make the whole endeavor a big tax write off, but don't tell Shelley that part. Just tell her it was my dying wish she had a home.

--> the loser she's with has legal problems. Have the legal department solve them so he's got no reason to desert her.

-->if Peters mom comes sniffing around, don't tell her a damn thing. I doubt she will tho, she's a wanted fugitive.

--> don't trust any gypsies.

--> Nadia is very intelligent. She can read minds, influence dreams, and kill anyone or anything just by looking at them. She's dangerous and shouldn't be allowed around animals or people until she can understand the concept of death and consequences. There's no way to control her, I have found.

--> I promised a homeless man I ate that id pay for his sons school. Anonymously pay for Mathew Shandwicks classes, books and dorm at Penn State for all 4 years. His father traded his life without a single complaint so it's imperative you keep my word.

-->make sure Nadia isn't a spoiled brat like me. Teach her about her mother and her father and all the good things about us. Leave out we were related if you can swing it. Just say we were young and loved each other very much. I enclosed a pack of photos of me and Letha for her.

I wonder what you’re wearing... That reminds me; if I’m really dead, you have to be in mourning at least two years. That means all black suits and dresses that cover you up, black nails, big black hats like you just left a Catalina Yacht Mixer or you’re going to a royal wedding. I even got you black lab coats just in case.Don’t half ass this. It’s important.

Also I want “Fuck you” by the Archives played at my funeral, if it comes to that.

Hopefully, you never see this letter because I got everything fixed here, and went and found you and you ran into my arms and we lived happily ever after, and I have a whole lifetime with you... But just in case...

All my love,

Roman Godfrey

P.s. - since you're a genius, hopefully you can fix me or bring me back. I hope you still love me even 10% as much as I love you, because then nothing can stop us.

Brianna stared at the page as her tears fell on it swirling the ink in designs and spirals. She knew he’d always loved her, but it was bittersweet seeing him finally admit it. She took the photos out of the envelope and looked through them.

Looking through the pictures was heart-wrenching. There had to be a way to fix all this! She tried to remember everything she’d learned about Upirs from that dreadful Russian women and Pryce. Luckily they’d been a bit of an obsession for her that she delved into when Roman pulled his shit. Being obsessed with Upirs had distracted her from obsessing over the real issue.

Just as she started to wonder when Mueller and Edwards would be back, as if by magic, the elevator doors opened. They had brought Dr. Blitzkey with them as well.

“Oh my gosh! You’re alive! I’m so happy to see you’re ok and still here!” Bri said as she ran up and embraced Blitzky. “Where is Roman? I need to see him.”

Blitzky looked at the ground nervously before meeting your eyes. “It’s not fixable.”

“No matter. I just NEED to see him. Please?” She begged.

“Okay. He has several severe traumatic injuries so please prepare yourself for that.”

“What happened to him?”

“Some Type of animal attacked him in the old mansion and pushed him out the upper story window, fracturing his spine and neck which most likely left him paralyzed and vulnerable. His throat and heart were then ripped out.”

“Peter.” Bri said darkly. He was going to pay for his betrayal. She would make sure of that.

“I mean that’s the most logical conclusion but after all Roman did for that little degenerate, ” Blitzky muttered.

Bri nodded solemnly.

“Hate to interrupt your happy little party but we have several forms that need immediate attention, to get this shit show back on the road,” Edwards interjected.

“They’ll have to wait till after I see Roman. You lead the way Blitzkey, you two stay here.” She said firmly stepping into the elevator with the doctor. Both lawyers looked furious but did as they were told since they were honestly intimidated by this young woman that had all this piled on her, and seemed unfazed.

As soon as the doors closed she sank to her knees and screamed. The tears came flooding out of her eyes as her body was wracked by sobs. It’s like she’d been hit by a truck. The realization that Roman was really gone finally sinking in.

Blitzky didn’t know what he should do. He was a genius, but completely clueless when it came to social and interpersonal skills. He hesitantly patted Bri on the head like a golden retriever, unsure how long was comforting so he just kept doing it. “You’re strong.”

Bri glanced up at Blitzky through her foggy tears and couldn't help but agree. She WAS strong.

The elevator opened to their floor as she looked down at the floor.

“Well” Blitzkey peeped, unsure of what to do, “this is it.”

“We have to fix him Blitzkey. There’s got to be a way.” she said rising to her feet, as if the little display he just witnessed never happened.

“You’re the boss.” Blitzky said as cheerful as he could muster.

“I’m giving you Pryce’s position. I trust you.”

“Thank you! I wasn't sure if maybe you'd want to take charge.... What will you do? Take over for Roman?”

“Until I can bring him back, I guess I’ll have to. I will bring him back Blitzkey.... If I have to make a deal with the Devil himself.” Bri stated adamantly before setting off down the hall like a woman possessed.

#my writing

[bthump]

Do you think there's possibility for Miura to continue using Casca as a plot-device character between Guts and Griffith? I'm sure she will be healed but I'm not looking forward to the role she's going to play. Miura seem to likes to pull more drama through Casca.

lol so this response is going to be kind of long because you made me want to talk about her story role and speculate a bit lol, so ty for sending this.

I think there’s a difference between having whatever Casca does when she gets her mind back further the relationship between Guts and Griffith, and having Casca function as solely a plot device for the sake of the Guts Griffith story.

By which I mean secondary characters should serve the central protagonist’s story, but they should do that while also having their own satisfying arcs that serve their own characters as well. So a well-written secondary character would have her own arc, her own issues, her own stuff to work through and her own reason and way of developing, and that could still shed light on the protagonist as a parallel, or foil, or simply by weaving their stories together and playing them off each other.

When Casca was an active character during the Golden Age, there were a lot of problems I had with her writing, but she did have her own story. It was a story about being obsessed with first one man and then another, and how much it sucks to be a woman surrounded by attempted rapists, and having emotional breakdowns, etc, so like, not a great story, but she had her own issues, she made mistakes based on those issues, she changed based on her experiences.

Eg when she and Guts slept together they were both using the other as a substitute for Griffith, so at least it wasn’t just Guts using Casca, they were using each other. (And I don’t mean using in a cruel way, just in a there’s-other-stuff-going-on-for-both-of-them-than-just-wanting-each-other kind of way.) That scene didn’t only further Guts’ internal story, it also furthered Casca’s. Ofc Guts’ story was furthered by working thru trauma and starting to recognize past mistakes while Casca’s was furthered by switching which dude she’s obsessed with, so like, still a shitty story for her, but c’est la berserk.

So yeah I don’t think her writing was that great during the Golden Age, but it cleared the bare minimum bar of giving her her own motivation and character arc at least, even though her own story was pretty weak compared her more blatant, main function of serving the relationship between Guts and Griffith.

Then after the Eclipse she became a complete plot device with absolutely no story of her own, only existing for Guts to play off of and project onto.

So I guess what I think is most likely to happen is that when Casca gets her mind back, she’s going to have her own motivations and goals again. She’s going to do something active, based on what she wants. But whatever it is she does is also going to further Guts and Griffith’s story, and lbr it’s still going to revolve around her relationships with the men. So hopefully she won’t be so much just a plot device, and her own choices, goals, actions, etc might even be stronger and more central to the plot than they were during the Golden Age, but Guts is still the protagonist so Casca’s story is sitll going to further his story and his relationship with Griffith.

My guess, based on where she was when she was traumatized to insanity, and where the story has gone since then, and where I think (hope lbr) the story goes, is that she’ll come back and be similar to where Guts was right after the Eclipse. In the last 200 or so chapters Guts grew, he worked at refocusing on his own emotional growth rather than revenge, he made friends, he chilled out, he’s in a much better place mentally than he was during the Black Swordsman arc.

But the story is still about the dark places trauma and desire for revenge take you. I think it would be interesting to shift the revenge theme to Casca. It would kick the plot into gear and make things happen because Casca would have a goal, this way we could bring Guts and Griffith’s narratives back together without having Guts’ development backslide into revenge obsession again, and it would make Casca an interesting foil to Guts - if she’s at the place he managed to work past, she’d be like a reflection of himself at his worst. Now Casca would be able to drive the plot, her goals would be the ones furthering the story, and Guts’ narrative would shift in focus from his own goals (revenge, fixing Casca) to reacting to Casca’s actions.

She would still serve the main story about Guts and Griffith by being the catalyst that brings them back together, by being a dark mirror to Guts, quite possibly by embodying the dark sexual undertone to revenge in a more blatant way than Guts did (bc lbr she’s always been the one to illuminate Guts’ desires by virtue of being a woman and making them hetero), and maybe by forcing Guts into making a choice between helping her and trying to stop her (either for her own sake or because he’s still ambivalent about killing Griffith or maybe both). But now she’d be serving the story by working towards her own goals based on her own experiences and her character, rather than by being a passive mindless object for Guts to interact with.

“What will she do if she does get her sanity back?” The fact that NeoGriffith instinctively saving her demonstrates a very strong disadvantage against her. The fact that the main characters all get to kill their own rapists/attempted rapists/abusers/etc. The way Guts decided he didn’t really have the right to avenge his comrades after abandoning the Band but you know who didn’t abandon the Band? The way revenge in Berserk isn’t always a bad thing, and it could be interesting to explore how it’s bad for Guts because he was basically using it as a form of self harm, but maybe for Casca it’s earned. The behelit which, if Casca is the one to use it, would open the door for more parallels between her and Griffith for Guts to play off of.

So I guess my overall answer to your question is that yeah, I think she’s still going to exist to further Guts’ story and relationship to Griffith, since that’s still the axel on which Berserk turns, but hopefully she’ll at least get to have some agency and motivation of her own while doing it, and if we’re really lucky her own internal story might be more important to the plot now than it was during the Golden Age.

But of course there’s always a horrifying chance that she’ll wake up and just be Guts’ love interest/narrative reward for moving beyond revenge, continuing to exist purely as an accessory to Guts rather than as herself, while something else moves the plot forward, but yk, prayer circle that that doesn’t happen. And like others have speculated with dread, there’s even a chance that she’ll join Griffith and make Guts return to rage and revenge in the worst possible way. I think it’s a tiny chance, like I really don’t expect that to happen, but you never know :/

(also the whole revenge speculation is just my preference bc i want casca to have the chance to get angry about what happened to her, and it seems plausible, but there are probably other routes for her story to go that would bring back her agency and have her affect the plot in satisfying ways.)

#also the dream is that farnese gets to be the one to represent casca's humanity #the way casca represented guts' but with more agency on farnese's side #but that's more wild hoping #ask #Anonymous #a #b #character: casca #theme: speculation #theme: revenge #theme: behelit #arc: f

[eternallybroken7604-blog]

We have been up for 2 days. I accepted years ago that this has to be part of my life. He's a package deal. But I am so tired. I do it with him. Idk y. I don't enjoy it most times. But I'm also afraid and to sleep while he's up. I learned not to the hard way.... A part of me wants my life back. My before life. But I know it will be the fight of my life. And I'm not ready. I sometimes tell myself that this was God's plan. I believe that each of us have at least one person that they are mentally to impact in some way and set in motion a positive path. Or bring a lost soul to God. God made me strong and brought me this man. He had to put me thru it to equip me to be wha this man needs. Maybe I'm the only one capable of sticking this journey out with him and bringing him out other side with me. That's why my addiction is so odd. My husband gets locked up from time to time, and when he's gone, I don't do any dope, I smoke my weed. But with the dope, he does my shots, from start to finish. He twirls the bowl. I don't want to know how. I tried once, he got arrested at the end of an 8 month horrendous, traumatizing bender. Suddenly my person is gone and I've been up for weeks. I tried to do it myself. I had the audacity to tell him about it at visitation, because he has always hated doing my shots. He feels enough guilt over where my life is and where it was. He's scared that bnb if I die, he will go to prison. So I always take sure my prints are on it too. He's not ready to even see that he needs to change. I can see that it weighs on him sometimes. And he will want to do better. But then he has no way to stop the guilt, the pain, self hatred. The high and associated relief are his constant and a very erratic life. I'm aware of all this and more. I'm aware I could be completely wrong and he really is just a piece of shit junkiethat destroy a family by joining it. I can't even fault him for that. My kids adored him. And he them. He had a family finally. He was know where near ready to be a step dad. But he gave it an honest try. Then again maybe I just rrwa lly ne ed there to be a greater purpose beh9nd all this, losing my babies, my self respect, my family. Everything.

I can't hate him for being selfish and out for number one, it's all his life has really ever been. I can see what drives everything about h, I study him cause I have never met someone that level of addicted. I cant explain why his thought processes fascinate me, I have to study them til I understand them. Which is hard to do because it's so complex and I'm juggling moneyissues, homelessness, the hustle, him in general, and the dope. The more I learn him, the more pity I feel and I cant leave. I love him to a fault, but I am not ready to abandon him to his demons. He won't survive it with any sort of sanity. He would argue with me on that but it's the one thing I believe with no doubt, he does need me. I think he knows it deep down. He knows I'm 100% on his side. Even if he dont like how at times. He knows I'm real. Even if he tells u I'm not. It's like his pride and years of telling me in so inferior refuse to allow him to recognize anyachievements, no matter the size. I know this but I forget every time we fight, cause it's his defense mechanism with me, it's about the only thing that works. He will reach I to the depths of cruelty and verbally destroy me. He knows what hurts me too. He has left scars that will never go away. I will never forget his eyes and voices and the feeling of my own pain at things he has said. My first husband beat me, that's not how u hurt me. The act of being able to hurt me, that really hurts. My now husband has gotten physical a few times. I cant hate him for it long because I see how much he hates himself for it. But that pride tho, he wont apologize verbally, but he will show me best he can that he's sorry. He knows I deserve better. He went thru a phase where all the blame was put on me for not leaving when it first started, woth the dope and us losing the kids. I tell myself I pushed him too far. It's no excuse I know. But I know how much weighs on him daily, and when substances are u introduced, well I am the embodiment of a large portion of his pain and stress and guilt. I forgive him because I know he's not mentally able to deal with all that and day to day life without help. To stubborn to ever agree with me but I just k ow I'm right. Cant explain that but it's never led me wrong. I shoulder as much as he will let me. And getting high and drunk and my mouth can sometimes push him too far, exacerbates things.

I knew he was a 'recovering' addict when we met. But he only smoked weed when I met him. I thought all that was his past. I didn't mind weed. I didn't personally smoke when we met. I was a divorced mom to 3. We were all finally happy and stable after my horror of an ex-husband. Idk y I fell in love with this man. But I did. He was my first serious relationship in the 2 years since. I never even missed sex, I wasn't lonely. I didn't miss that kind of love until...I was reminded.

8 mos later, we have a place together with my kids. Then a neighbor moved and offered my husband dope. He hid it for a little bit. But I picked up on his different behaviors and made him tell me. Then I wanted to smoke some too. I'd heard of Meth. But I grew up very sheltered by a pill head. I didnt know that when this gorgeous man told me he used to be an addict that he meant thousands of dollars and many hears of hardcore IV drug use. Herion, bar salts. His drug of choice was simply, more. He named his addiction Maria. He needed that relief so badly that once he discovered its power to 'fix' things, he personified his addiction. Maria has been his stability. Shes lways there when everyone else let's him dow. I can understand the desire not to feel. So badly u wanna die. But I was raised different. U can be weak, but dont stay weak. .

But by the time I realized that he didn't recover from his addictions, he fled his former home state and had no access to those things here. He was big on the run big ti.e qhen we met. Hes a hardened city boy. I'm a small town countrygirl. He let me smoke with him. A week later, hes got a needle. I have never seen a pill snorted. I wanted him to let watch him and he did. Seeing the man I love so in thrall to drugs, it broke my heart for him. Women pray to God to see a man look at them with that look. His addiction borders worship. As I write this we are also high with a few friends, he just finished fixing his shot and has decided to ask them to film him. I cant keep going. Thats bothers.me and ill to tore up now to try to figure out my feelings. So I'll wrap this up. My emotions are going every where and I really hate him like this. I hope he watches his video and hates himself. I love him and wint leave him to feel all that guiltalone, that doesn't mean he doesn't deserve to feel most of it. God knows I feel my fair share. I promise myself one thing, I will not live like this forever. I'll keep looking for my way out. I'll keep praying for strength to leave. Or for God to open his eyes. I know better than to preach too much at him. He usually shuts down as soon. as he realizes what I'm saying. But I still try. He doesn't know it yet, cause he has never felt it before, but I love him enough for this. I will win this fight. Even if he hates.me in the end. (Forgove any typos, I'm intoxicated and when I get adamant about a topic, I type too fast)

[faveanimeships]

oooo hi!! can i requests for a matchup? i'm 5'7, straight, blue hair and a big smilee. i'm an INTJ, my sign is aquarius sun leo moon and gemini rising & i belong to ravenclaw. i talk a lot once u know me but some say i can be detached & unpredictable at times. i'm,,,, also weird,,, in a way that i say stuff weirdly without thinking. i hate it when people tell me what to do and i would always like to have my own way. i have a difficulty showing love thru words, shy when i like someone & i would-

stutter around my crush. love science ( major in chemistry) and also naps!! always exhausted but not at night. i like entertaining people with my jokes & i think rhat i have the best humor out here akdjajdjajdjs. my friends describe me as crazy, stupid and smart at the same time, stubborn, creative and a fun person to hang out with lol. i dont have a type i think i can handle anyone ( in the haikyuu world) except um… ushijima? because hes too serious sjjs idt he would laugh at my jokes.. -

thanks!!! i hope i made myself clear iejajdjwjj im sorry its too long u can take ur time :D!! thank uuuuu

if you’re interested in the astrology, personality types, Hogwarts house, please check out the rules!! I have included all the relevant links there

Girl we literally so alike istg also you so tall wat the hell is 170cm (sorry I had to convert TUT)

I ship you with Ennoshita Chikara !!

You’re stubborn, independent, you tend to shift between ‘ideal’ and ‘reality’, you’re creative, original, unpredictable, straightforward, you are determined and versatile. You want a smart boy, you need that intellectual stimulation, you probably look for an ‘equal’ when you’re looking for a relationship, you’re probably clueless when it comes to love and you probably want a reassuring companion who is willing to put up with your whims and keep up with you.

AND THUS, MY GOOD FREN, I ship you with Ennoshita! Ennoshita provides a very calming, assuring and reliable presence in the relationship, he acts as your ‘rock’ when you drift from reality into ideal mode. It is also canon that Ennoshita will probably end up being a director (genius director yeesh), he works in the artistic field where he is prone to encounter all types of weird and I assure you he will NOT be weirded out by you. I think he would appreciate a partner like you since he’s a director, he’s probably away for filming a lot (appreciates your independence), needs different inspirations (in which you are able to provide), and your ability to be original and creative will probably help build his career and push him further and explore different genres. On the other hand, Ennoshita will also help you push yourself further by giving you amazing advice and also be the shoulder to lean on when you’re stuck.

++Ennoshita does well in school and it is safe to assume that he understands most of your science jokes (eg: ARE YOU A CARBON SAMPLE BECAUSE I WANNA DATE U !!! him: yeesh stop) = number 1 intellectual couple #goals

NOT ONLY THAT he also really appreciates your straightforwardness, because he needs REAL opinions about his movie, and you know who doesn’t want to kiss the genius director’s ass and star in his movie?? Yes but you’re different you’d just say “I feel that part’s just weird like??? Wtf is going on” and he takes your opinion seriously = healthy relationship!! Also Ennoshita really loves the humorous side of you he uses your jokes sometimes to ease up the tense atmosphere on set !!! Also Ennoshita probably has an equally fked sleep cycle, so he’s always up at night with you and naps with you during the day uwu

HE TOTES KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH YOUR WEIRDNESS HAVE U SEEN KARASUNO LOLOLOLOL

Things he likes:

1.    10pm walks

2.    Subtle PDA

3.    Holding hands under the table during family reunions

4.    Face to face cuddling + yall talking about your day

5.    Mutual trust

6.    Individual time off, both of you probably need personal space, so yall would take time off to recharge yourselves individually

7.    Ice cream dates

8.    Napping when there’s a storm outside

9.    Domestic things like cleaning the house or grocery shopping

10. Making decisions together

11. Talking to your parents (lets be honest he’s like the perfect son in law)

I will also ship you with (under the cut)

Futakuchi Kenji

He’s stubborn, provocative and an idiot really, he knows how to rile you up, but at the same time he provides you with that intellectual stimulation??? Futakuchi isn’t a big fan of affection but he shows that he cares with his actions (eg: breakfast in bed) he probably denies a lot (like you know, he deliberately woke up at 6am to prepare a breakfast in bed feast for you but he’ll say it’s because he was already awake) excuses we know you’re in love UWU!!! He lowkey loves cuddling but he will NEVER admit it. He also fixes things around the house which is super convenient, your parents probably ask him to fix their stuff, leaky taps, old car, he does it all for free (brownie points) and when you ask him why he’ll probably say “its for practice”. He will tease you A LOT!!!!!!! Because both of yalls are stubborn yall probably will fight a lot at the start, but yall will learn how to compromise and communicate with each other (–=+) so like this also improves your human communication skills.

As an ace and captain from a powerhouse school, he’s bound to have exceptional observation skills. He knows when your off days are and he will stick around to pamper you, like run a bath, give you a hug, less snarky retorts, order uber eats, cuddle with you, etc. He also understands that you need your individual space so just talk to him about what you want, and he will definitely respect that. Overall, a very respectful relationship + fun bantering. Also because Futakuchi loves volleyball a lot he is very likely to join a social team after he graduates, and he would absolutely love it if you support him when he plays.

Akira Kunimi

He’s laid back, indifferent, emotionless, lazy, calm, efficient and smart. He has good observational skills. He knows when you’re down, and he’ll just move close to you. He dislikes loud people but he is a great listener, he might just chuckle at your jokes, but he appreciates them (in his bland life). He loves taking naps with you, and he lets you do most of the talking because he loves to listen to your voice (its defs NOT because it lulls him to sleep), he doesn’t really have a preference when it comes to things, so you’d be doing most of the decision making but unlike with Futakuchi, this relationship is really calm, almost no bickering. Kunimi respects you a lot and looks up to you because you’re diligent and opinionated (unlike him), but because of his love for efficiency and his lazy personality, he might just give you great advice (eg: how to write a simple but academically sound lab report withinin 2 hours instead of 2 days)  (A/N: YES THAT TOOK ME  DAYS TO COMPLETE ONE LAB REPORT PLZ DON’T JUDGE ME)

He’s also a big fan of cuddling and just playing with your hair, holding hands and staying indoors especially during winter. Overall it’s just a very calm and quiet relationship.

I would also ship you with Kuroo Tetsurou !!

- nerd couple 

- bIG NERD COUPLE

- WEIRD INSIDE JOKES !!!!???? SCIENCE PUNS!!!!

- #1 ACADEMIC COUPLE 

- dates: making weird experiments (eg: lets titrate acid and something weird together and calculate the equivalence point!!!!! u: its probably impossible him: TEST THE LIMITS OF SCIENCE), watching khan academy (nerd), talking shit about orgo, trying to create a weird element (sorry hunny not that easy), reading nature (and hoping yalls will be on it), cafe dates + buying apple pie for kenma

- kenma, kenma like your son (u: kenma plz brush your teeth kenma: k kuroo: plz be my wife)

- roasting his academic papers uWU (hahahahahaha) (OFFENDED VOICE: CONFLICT OF INTERESTTTT) (cues kuroo groaning) 

- fun couple, fun amusement park dates 

- not using gloves in the lab >:( (tbh its been a long time since i used gloves in the lab lolol) 

- cuddle bug (loves hugging you so much )

- LOVES PDA

- has normal sleep cycle but is always down for naps (lazy cat kuroo) 

- loves your weird (tbh all academics are weird) 

- roasting each other

YEET I HOPE YOU LIKE IT TUT feel free to send in more requests uwu!!!

#ships #haikyuu!! #haikyuu ships #anon #haikyuu #HQ #haikyuu matchups #haikyuu matchup

[celeryjiaozi]

Hello Iris! I've been in this weird "slump" lately and just overall feeling uninspired?? I love how you seem passionate and pursuing your interests and I wanted to know what inspired you! Like a place or person? (sorry if it sounds weird I'm working on my english)

i feel u pal that feeling is a very familiar one!! i think those kinds of funks are completely normal and to be expected and even ur favorite teacher probably goes thru them. hmm idk if i was ever inspired in the typical sense cuz i started learning chinese by myself around 2 yrs ago (hoenstly its probably still documented on this blog...) out of this weird kind of shame? like feeling very embarrassed and sad that i couldn’t read or write chinese ‘as a chinese person’ and then i naturally started learning abt the history / humanities / politics too. and now i don’t think i am really inspired...i just keep going cuz i’m in too deep now and i enjoy it but can’t necessarily describe why. and also very cheesy but a lot of times i tell myself to learn so i can maybe play a role in fixing the 8,345,485,513 inequalities in the world....); normally i just go with slumps, i think they r usually a sign of needing a break for me and spending some time away from that thing u have been spending a lot of time on. let urself relax!! also it helps to get out of whatever zone u’ve been sitting in and look at/read/watch stuff outside of the categories or genres u like to stick to. dont be too hard on urself i hope u embrace the slump n come out of it feeling ten times better

#answered #Anonymous