#idk it’s just very upsetting

[shushhme]

Ngl I am still thinking about the conversation on racism in spn fandom

#sorry for bringing it up again #but also I’m not bc this should be an ongoing conversation #ppl really were like ‘racism happens in the real world and this wasn’t even that bad! plus alot of ppl really like that fic so! get over it #and then the gas lighting like anyone upset about BAB references is over exaggerating #idk it’s just very upsetting #and I keep thinking about it #probably bc I saw it from some ppl I really didn’t expect #but tbh that’s on me #I really should know better by now LOL #🙄🙄🙄 #we cannot escape we cannot come out

[gardenofnoah]

cw: implied sexual trauma, panic attack, intimacy struggles

You don’t notice it happening until it’s buzzing under your skin. Loud and unavoidable, the only thing you can pay attention to is the irregular flutter of your heart and the way it seems that all the air has been vacuumed from the room—

“Hey.”

You blink, and Katsuki is no longer above you. He’s not touching you at all—you turn your head to find him next to you, propped up on an elbow and only worried.

“Too much?”

The panic flares at the question, because what if this is the last time? What if he’s tired of this?

Your exhale is shaky—your laugh is forced and sounds out of place. “No, it was fine, I just—“

“Oi—“ he says, gently, “tell me the truth.”

The truth burns your eyes and keeps them on the ceiling, away from his. You nod, helpless and resigned to whatever comes next.

“What’s goin’ on in your head?”

You feel the tears spill over before you can catch them. You swipe them away with the back of your wrist. It’s still numb. “I’m just sorry. I didn’t mean to ruin it.”

He grunts a little in acknowledgment—a displeased, ugly sound—and then there’s movement that finally draws your eyes to him. You watch him cover himself with your duvet—all the way up to his chin.

“S’it okay if I hold you?”

He reaches for you and you let him pull you in. His hands stay above your shoulders and pointedly avoid your neck—cradling your head, letting you hide in the curve of his throat. His pulse is steady and constant against your forehead—or you imagine it would be, if it wasn’t muted by the fabric.

“Nothin’ is ruined,” he murmurs against your hairline, “s’my job to keep you safe.”

Your chest shudders against the cushion of the blanket and you feel a little guilty about crying all over it but Katsuki keeps you there, tethered to him. The ringing in your ears subsides, just a little. Just enough to hear the panic in your own voice.

“I promise I want it. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m sorry—“

“Hey, hey,” he shushes you, careful not to tighten his arms around your shoulders. “Nothin’ to be sorry for. S’too much today—that’s all.”

It’s quiet, then, save for your sniffling. He keeps his mouth pressed to your hair, and his arms wrapped around you. There is a noticeable absence of his fingertips tracing along your skin—you don’t feel them there at all, and it’s on purpose. He’s considerate and it makes you anxious.

“Can hear you thinkin’.”

“I just—“ you inhale, trying to be brave, “I don’t want you to leave. I know I can’t—give you this—“

“Oi,” he gruffs, a little sharply, “I don’t give a shit about that. M’not a barbarian.”

You feel the expansion of his lungs as he draws in a slow exhale, and lets it out against the crown of your head. “Don’t think so little of me,” he murmurs, tone laced with hurt.

“You’re right,” you whisper, because he is, “I love you.”

“Love you.” He kisses it into your skin, soft and barely there. “Always will.”

#i have beat this horse to hell but I really do love writing about struggles with intimacy #because ~i~ struggle with intimacy and I write for me ya know #but idk i think it would be hard for him!! he just wants to care for me and keep me safe and i have a tendency to self sabatoge. #if you can believe that. #he just wants to help and he knows that what happened before him is not his fault of course. but it upsets him when I project onto him #which is like. a very human thing? #i have been thinking about that post from the other day a lot about believing the people that love you #bakugou katsuki x reader #bakugou hurt comfort #bakugou comfort #bakugou fic #mha fic #bkg it’s the little things

[nocek]

as promised in previous part they've got to have their couples cosplay! and doggos too! obviously!

#pavitr prabhakar #gayatri singh #pavitr x gayatri #spiderman #spiderman india #spiderverse #across the spider verse #atsv #it's not the last one in this series #fear not #and i guess it's really easy to guess who will be cosplaying Kakashi XD #and who will be very very upset that somebody dragged a pack of doggos across the multiverse just so they can cosplay a bit #but since thats a bit longer comic idk when i'll post it #so far it was 2 weeks of nothing and then 2 posts daily #please keep your fingers crossed for my weekend productivity

[lazylittledragon]

i'm going to scream i got accused of being a transmisogynist by someone on twitter because of this specific part of my t4t steddie art

#ramble #the thing is 99.9% of people thought it was VERY funny #i've had 1 person genuinely have a problem with it and it was because i kept eddie transmasc #basically they were upset because i didn't make them both transfemme bc i just. didn't want to #twitter hasn't learned that not everything is for you and if you don't like something you don't have to interact with it #and just because you don't like something that doesn't mean it's Bad #and also sometimes queer things aren't made to be understood by everyone #it was specifically because they thought it made them into 'just another straight couple' #as if that isn't a MASSIVE erasure of trans people's queerness #trans people in m/f relationships doesn't make them any less queer or somehow inferior to gay relationships #it boiled down to 'but you could've made them lesbians :((' YEAH BUT I DIDN'T #idk it was just absolutely infuriating trying to defend myself without saying 'idk what the fuck you want from me at this point' #anyway transfemme stevie is very big on twt but i didn't know whether to post it here or not #but i might if people want to see it because i love it a lot #twitter would die if they saw the olden days when we called them genderbends and there wasn't any trans content at all

[iguessitsjustme]

Something I find fascinating about Wandee Goodday is that no one has kissed yet (I know Ye and Cher have kissed but...) Like not a full on make out session despite having an established couple in the show that they could be using to show us kisses. But we get no kiss sex scenes from Yak and Dee and soft, somewhat chaste scenes from Ye and Cher. We all know both couples are fucking. But the lack of kisses where normally the show would have one couple more active in that department tells me how important kissing is to this story.

Dee has stated that it's silly but he doesn't want to kiss unless he loves that person and is serious with them. But the entire show is respecting the no kiss rule which tells me that it's not silly. The entire show is respecting Dee's boundary here. And yes, Yak and Dee have come so close to kissing so many times, but they haven't. Dee has always pushed him away and Yak has always respected it when he does.

It makes me wonder what's going to happen once the main couple does eventually lock lips. Will that open the floodgates? Will the audience get to see both couples kissing then? Or will it continue to withhold that specific moment of intimacy. There's something the show is saying about the expected parts of intimacy being taken for granted and also deserving of privacy and that's up to the people in the relationship.

Kissing can be an act of love and desire, but what the show is saying is that it is not a requirement for those things. I can be completely talking out of my ass here, but something about this is really sitting with me. Not only do we get Plakao as ace representation, someone who wants a partner to cherish and be cherished without sexual expectations, but we also get the show reinforcing the ideas that love comes in all forms with so many different acts and different people are comfortable with different things. And all of that is okay. And all of those boundaries are worthy of being respected. Regardless of societies expectations for what it means to be in a relationship and be physical, whatever is right for you is right and isn't that just beautiful?

#wandee goodday #wandee goodday the series #wandee goodday series #i've been thinking about this since last week #but then we got those scenes with ye and cher this week #which is a whole other discussion that i'm sure it will take me a whole other week to really process lol #but there's something about ye being tired and cher being insecure but obviously the love is still there #idk but i will be so entirely shocked if gmmtv tries to convince me that ye who is head over heels for cher #would even entertain the notion of cheating #when he's probably just stressed about his brother and his gym and their finances and that's affecting how physical he is #when he's clearly normally very touchy and cher likes that despite his protests #so when that stops and cher doesn't understand why i can see how that can cause some pause #but those two displayed good communication this episode despite cher following ye #cher was comfortable enough to tell ye he was upset and what he thought was going on #but if this show tries to convince me that they actually have issues because ye is cheating then i will simply refuse to believe it

[domokunrainbowkinz]

One thing that caught me off guard about guardian was how thirsty zyl was, like for 90% of volume 1 he was a thirsty little flower begging for just 1 chance with sw 😭

#my art #scribbles #guardian #zhen hun #weilan #zhao yunlan #shen wei #镇魂 guardian #镇魂 #I have. some other doodles in my head #I’m so tempted to just read the rest of it in Chinese I can’t wait until august #but I just know my brain is gonna overheat if I try….. #very upsetting how 10 yrs of Chinese school did not make me 100% literate #to this day idk how tf I finished mdzs in Chinese I was on sum shit back in 2018 LOL

[freshcut-chetney]

"The Bad Kids shouldn't have said X" "The Bad Kids were too bloodthirsty" why do people watch a ttrpg actual play if they're gonna get mad about a very obvious combat encounter that has been building up for an entire season? Who gives a fuck if TBK killed TRG, they're NPC's and the cast was obviously leaning into the bit because of the absolutely silly way K2 died in the previous episode, sometimes you say and do silly or fucked up shit while playing d&d with friends. This doesn't have to be a moral quandary some people want it to be.

#this obsession with making characters talk their problems out or redeeming bad NPC's is so boring tbh #like idk. maybe go watch bluey or some other kids show if you want people to talk things out #it's really not that deep. trg wanna bring about a rage deity and fuck up the world and they had to be stopped #'but they didn't have to send ruben to hell' please stop Emily was having fun ffs #not to mention it was funny and a very teen thing to do #'fabian shouldn't have said he was gonna skin ivy' have y'all never heard of intimidating an enemy #it just all sounds so dumb when you boil it down to 'people are upset at how a board game was played' #fantasy high junior year #fhjy spoilers #fhjy

[shima-draws]

I recently stumbled across a theory that Bee isn’t even the ORIGINAL Bee, she’s just a robot her father created to replace the real human Bee who presumably died years and years ago (Bee did say in the birthday episode that she got really sick one time, so there’s actual canon evidence to back this up). Honestly I really dig this one bc the angst potential is huge, it really fits into canon so well regarding Bee’s general behavior and how others view her. And her being a robot is already so isolating for her, but imagine if she’s just a replacement--that’d probably make her feel even more out of place than anything, which is why she connects with Puppycat so well.

Also tying this into the reboot, if the Bee that Puppycat babysat for a day was the original human Bee, that would make things SO sad. Imagine being on the run in a “monstrous” form for years and finally returning to one of the planets you feel safe to hide on...only to find out that the girl you once looked after is dead and has been replaced with a robot. And that robot is well aware that her entire existence is a feeble attempt at preserving what once was, that she’s not human, that she’ll never live up to the original human version of herself. Oof.

Maybe Puppycat originally decided to stay with her out of pity, but over time grew to really care about her as her own person. And I feel like Bee would definitely appreciate that 🥺

#I LOVE this idea tbh. Also Bee knowing that she's a replacement and when she refers to the time she got sick #She really means the original human Bee that got sick and passed away #Bee and Puppycat #BAPC #Bee #Puppycat #BAPC Lazy in Space #Bee and Puppycat Lazy in Space #Also this validates my Bee/Space Outlaw ship which was previously invalidated by the new reboot. LMAO #And this theory provides even more fuel to the angst fire AND ties Bee and Puppycat even closer together. #Puppycat would probably be upset on Bee's behalf at how she's a 'replacement' but he also grows very protective of her #Bc he knows what that's like. He knows what it's like to live a lie #Shima speaks #IDK I just really vibe with this one. And it COULD be a probable thing in canon too like there's no real evidence to dispute it yet

[transformersandturtles]

I’m gonna regret posting this but who cares I have the brain rot of Pokémon and MK1 I needed to draw something I’ve had artblock for a Christmas art piece 😭 (click for better quality hopefully)

I got bored and decided to draw Johnny Cage and Kenshi from Mortal Kombat as Pokémon. Kenshi is a Lucario, specifically Mega Lucario atm, and Johnny is a Shiny Standard Form Meowth (With Alolan Meowth’s pose though I tried so hard to get the pose I wanted to work but everything kept looking bad so I gave up)

This was just something fun I wanted to do, I don’t think I’ll do any other characters besides MAYBE Reptile/Syzoth

If you saw this on Insta or TikTok no you didn’t (if you somehow did my friends posted it 💀)

#mk1 2023 #mortal kombat #johnny cage #kenshi takahashi #johnshi #maybe??? idk #Pokémon #mortal kombat 1 #my art #I just thought it was cute #also the fact JC doesn’t have earrings deeply upsets me so now I headcanon that he does have his ears pierced #I am very normal I promise #no I’m not #seven’s nonsense

[eebie]

#i personally feel like it's somewhere in between #like sexuality and gender i think it's where you decide to choose what label your experiences/feelings fall under #it's decided between the two people in the relationship #like intimacy can exist in every kind of relationship and it's upsetting to hear people say it can only happen in romantic ones #if i were in a relationship with someone i trusted Who had an intimate relationship with someone else #if i really trusted that person i'd have no problem with it Unless it very clearly started to affect our relationship #i don't think i'd call myself a very jealous person #maybe a little envious but not jealous lol #i think restricting intimacy to one person isn't very. healthy? i don't know #like there should be other people too. support networks #we're a social animal yknow ? #it can't be possible for one person to fulfill every single need #that's an unhealthy expectation that can put a strain on many relationships i think #there's a reason spider webs are made from joined threads of silk #they don't dangle from a single piece They'd get blown away in the wind #reason why i bring this up now is bc i just discussed this with my parents who hold very traditional views #idk how i ended up being so different from them LMAO #thanks steven universe i guess!!!

[coolcheese51]

woy posting. i cannot contain the sillyness sorry

#woy #wander over yonder #im sorry i just finished watching it and it made me so ill im never gonna be the same #lord hater #sylvia the zbornak #lord dominator #commander peepers #emperor awesome #im still figuring out how to draw them. sothis may look very uhm idk i wont like it in few days because ill learn how to draw them and #be upset #thought sylvia is very easy to draw...... same to peepers but i need to draw peepers as best as i can sorry #hes my little meo- (gets hit by a truck) #My art

[tmascfaggot]

yknow. sometimes it's hard to not feel like i'm too late to kink stuff in particular. namely when i see ppl like 5 years younger than me engaging in stuff i've fantasized about for years and years and years. i know it's not true and there r ppl who get into it way later it's just the nature of being in spaces like these sometimes

#and also i have jealousy problems #that i work through and manage! #like i'm not upset. not really. just a little sad that i don't have that. tknow? #sex has always been a point of extreme anxiety for me so that + autism + other mental concoctions means #i never rly had the same experiences with sex as my peers #and now that i've had like. Some. not many but some. i thought i would feel better but i still feel that fear #and i probably will until i'm in a comitted long term thing with someoen #cuz my brain needs the security #i can engage on here just fine. i love slutting around online #but irl it's very different for me #idk. i don't know what i'm getting at here it's just a thought #i was very very repressed for a very long time and trying to move away from that leaves me w/ a lot of thoughts #signal broadcast 📺

[the-woman-upstairs]

It’s just…so painful to watch Armand readily submit in order to obtain the love he so desperately craves. And while it’s most assuredly a manipulative tactic, it’s still one borne out of fear and desperation. He cannot lose this person he’s come to love and so will become whatever they want, do whatever they want just so they’ll stay with him. But it won’t be enough. No matter how much he acquiesces or seeks to control (himself, others, the environment), he won’t be able to make Louis stay with him in the perfect life, perfect self he built in the hopes of finally being loved. It will all crumble with Armand left alone in the rubble of what he created, the author of his own abandonment.

#this unfortunately hits way too close to home for me #let’s not even get into Claudia’s anger at never being enough #iwtv spoilers #interview with the vampire #armand #this is just me speaking from personal experience…but there is definite manipulation at play here from Armand #and I don’t necessarily mean that pejoratively- when you’re desperate for people to like/love you you’ll become whatever they want #or whatever you think they’d want and you give it to them so they’ll want to keep you around #I’ve done it so often with the people in my life- and make no mistake it’s also a survival tactic #you give someone what they want they won’t hurt you #and when that’s how you survive for years and years it becomes the default method of interacting with others #even with normal people who genuinely mean you no harm you revert to that people pleasing mode #as a means of control both external and internal #this is what i see armand doing- his way of surviving that he’s never truly broken out of #armand ceding coven control to Louis and curating the Dubai penthouse for Louis are part of the same pattern of behavior #and even tho it’s ultimately harmful and will only end badly for armand and Louis’ relationship #idk if armand knows how to not exist that way with someone he loves/desires #all of this also ties into louis and daniel #because of course Armand will lose it over Louis finding connection and interest with someone else aside from him #someone HUMAN no less #and I can see Armand taking out his anger on Daniel as a way of expressing his own frustration at still not being enough for Louis #breaking daniel’s mind in a desperate attempt to understand why this human could reach Louis in ways he couldn’t #not saying any of this to excuse Armand and his behavior obviously (I’m very upset and worried over the trial looming on the horizon) #but I do understand this impulse and how you’ll throw ANYONE under the bus in order to preserve your place with loved ones #it’s all horrifying but unfortunately I empathize #like even if Louis is right to walk out on him when he learns/remembers the truth of what happened to Claudia #I’ll probably still find myself saddened by Armand’s fate because I’ve absolutely been there myself #it’s a tragedy of his own making- his fear and desperation birthing manipulative and controlling behaviors #that ultimately result in your own abandonment #god this fucking show

[hawkeyeslaughter]

through heavy , heavy tears : hawkeyes first instinct is to be KIND he’s so much less guarded than trapper and even bj when first meeting people ( even ones he probably won’t like ) he always treats them with respect . i’m going to be physically ill

#i have a headcanon that people were kind of really mean to hawkeye as a kid and this little detail about him reinforces it #he very much gives like . i was weird and left out as a kid but people love me now and i never want to be like those people who left me out #i feel like you see it most heavily with radar but he also does this thing when he steps back when he realizes he’s actually hurt someone’s #feelings . #idk like #he’s not kind ALL the time . like he obviously jokes around a LOT and some of those jokes can be pretty mean and even then sometimes he has #trouble apologizing #but at the same time ( most of the time ) if he realizes something has gone too far he’ll do what he can to express that he didn’t mean it i #in his own hawkeye way #i’m thinking about in ‘ for want of a boot ‘ when trapper calls radar short and radar gets upset about it and hawk’s like #‘ hey you know he’s only joking ‘ in that soft voice #or in ‘ house arrest ‘ when radar gets the platform shoes and hawkeye was like ‘ i was out of line for making fun of you ‘ #those are the instances that come to mind but there’s a TON more #idk i just really love that detail about him #that he’s willing to step back and recognize when a joke’s maybe gone too far #he even does it with frank and charles #mash #mashposting #m*a*s*h #mash 4077 #hawkeye pierce #hawkeye

[quesadilla-day]

hey, wait a minute / whenever you dream, am i in it?

giving the phrase "dream-girl" a whole new meaning with this one ☝️

#genshin impact #nahida #wanderer #scaramouche #scarahida #tw: drinking #idk how to tag content warning #help me #art #mine #long post #this one takes place in an AU where #the raiden shogun h #keeps him #but he is still lonely and bored #:( #and he escapes his guards very often #in order to explore #and sometimes cause trouble #and in this case he was upset with her #and ran off to escape his problems #but lo and behold #the dendro archon will appear to those in distress.... woOooOoooOo #i like drawing her as looking older to match her actual maturity #and i just think she looks beautiful #i mean she looks beautiful either way but this just makes things easier #she is his peer ok #mayne 😭 #🥰🥰🥰

[arabriddler]

kind of upsetting how people with mental illness are portrayed as evil and hurtful when I’ve been mostly hurt by people who aren’t mentally ill and comforted by the ones who are.

#Text #A friend of mine with BPD and very acute depression is so nice to me they make me cry but another friend of mine would get mad at me over #Trival things and idk man. #It’s so upsetting #My brother is autistic too and people keep waiting for him to be upset just so they can point out that he’s violent when he’s the most #Gentle person I know like the only time I was hugged while I was crying it was by him #It’s just. You know ? #ok to rb