#if i'm going to go live abroad for a year it would have been cool to go all in and leave for the us

[moinsbienquekaworu]

I'm sorting & checking files for past exchange students and man I do wish I'd had the grades + motivation to go to the US. Traveling to the UK is complicated but less than taking the damn plane over a whole ocean, y'know?

#like man i am never going to see my mutuals at this rate 😔 #i mean that's not the main thing it's more a nice bonus #but like. taking a holiday to the us is a bigger thing than the uk if you live in france #and now i still have to bother with visas and i don't get the european scholarship #but i'm just going across the channel #if i'm going to go live abroad for a year it would have been cool to go all in and leave for the us #but alas. grades not good enough. and my parents aren't rich enoug for that #and i don't think i want to be in a country where the sociopolitical situation is.... like that. #also i can't drive lol #wow i have a ramble tag now

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA if I told my friend to stop telling me about his achievements?

I'll refer to this friend as Jason for simplicity's sake. Also, we're both autistic, in case you think that changes things in some ways I haven't been able to see.

Jason (21m) and I (21m) have been friends for about 6 years, we met each other at a school that's well-known for being hard to get into and stuff. He finished studying there and I didn't, I never learned how to study so I struggled there a bit. I messed up my papers so I also had to restart, making me be 1 year behind him. That solidified in his head that I'm an idiot.

I know that's a bold claim, but he has made it clear that that's what he thinks, specially when he said that there's nothing wrong with me not being smart because I am the most emotionally intelligent person he knows. Nowadays I'm better about it, but before, my intelligence was the only thing that made me me, so, of course, that hurt; I just went along with it, tho, because I didn't want to seem annoying or something.

I started uni some time during the start of the pandemic, things went alright, but then they wanted us to go back irl and I wasn't confident enough on the whole having learned anything that I decided to stop and go back later just one semester in; though what convinced me was that I was incredibly suicidal and figured it'd probably be best if I took a break and came back after some therapy.

Now, Jason had some self-esteem problems regarding intelligence himself around this point, thinking that he was lesser because he struggled in places were his other friends didn't. I refrained from telling him I felt the same before because I knew it would be dismissed or worse, seen as me telling him that he was indeed lesser by having similar problems to me *because* I am dumber than him.

Instead, I told him he was obviously smart, here you can imagine what I said. At this point I became the person he would go to to talk about school, when he struggled to reassure himself, when he did good to celebrate with someone who wasn't one of his other friends that might've seen that as something not worth celebrating. Occasionally he talked down to me as if expecting me to not understand certain concepts, but I ignored it because my emotions weren't important at the moment.

Now, I became a neet for almost 3 years and felt like complete shit about it the entire time, and Jason kept coming to me with the most recent news about whatever's going on in his life. I tried to not complain about my life and be supportive of him, but it started to get more and more grating the worse I felt and the better life went for him, paired with the occasional mention or allusion to me being dumb, I stopped talking mid conversation until I cooled off and could reply to him again.

I got a job fairly recently, Jason came with news about how he might go study abroad and I just can't stand it. I'd like to tell him to stop talking about this kinda stuff until I'm in a better place, maybe after going with a therapist that doesn't make me feel like shit and I go back to school, but I know he just wants to celebrate with someone. I'm happy for him, I truly am, but it's difficult to not compare your life to others, and right now I really am not the happiest comparing myself to him.

TLDR; I'm salty that my friend is living a better life than me and wish he would stop talking to me about his achievements until I feel in control of my own life.

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[booburt]

Hi, I've been wondering for the photography AU what general time period it's set in, what type of camera(s) does Koby use (it looks like a canon to me but seems to make polaroids, at least that's the surface level observation I can make from my extremely limited knowledge on cameras), what type of photography he personally enjoys and the type he usually does for work (if he does it as his profession too). What does Koby aim to capture with his images, the casual mundane life of an average person, an unreal, etheral sight in a place the average person can't go, Luffy's luffiness, etc? Also what's the general budget Koby has towards camera equipment (doesn't need to be that exact, just a general "he's broke" or "He spends all his money on lenses" would suffice)? My questions are kinda vague here because I'm going to research more about photography later. Thanks in advance :D Oh yeah and also does Koby travel, if not what's the general landscape of his nearby area. You don't need to answer this since I'll probably make it up but it'd be good to know.

okok i wrote this all in the few free periods i got earlier take what you will ^_^

also a doodle i did ages aaaaago with a bit of slightly illegible info in my awful handwriting (sorry)

actual answer vvv

- its a modern au!! so set like. now!

- koby uses sony cameras primarily but yes he does have a few canons (nikon confuses him)

- he has a seperate polaroid camera!!! he usually prints digitally from sd though

- for type of photography, he started with a passion for ocean and landscape photography, mostly beaches and any scene with water in focus. he also has an interest in portraiture but his love for portraiture only comes to play when he meets luffy. cheese cheese cheeeesyyyy because luffy smiles and hes IMMEDIATELY enamoured. anyway, he starts to study and practice portraiture in depth because of the pretty boy he met in maths class and eventually works up the courage to ask him to model for him. they get super close and eventually start dating; luffy likes how dedicated koby is to his work and how cute he is when he blushes.

-SORDY got carried away with the sappy lovey stuff. koby sells his landscape/wildlife photography at local stores as a side hustle thing haha. but he doesnt really do it professionally, he much prefers to keep it as a hobby / simple income.

- koby aims to capture the beauty of colour! he loves vibrancy when shooting with a softbox or some other source of light he will usually use something to change the hue rather than plain old bw on a simple white bg

- following on he HATES shooting black and white photos unless theyre negatives because idk i think he would think it looks cool. what a guy

- with luffy photography he just likes catching luffys smile or just luffy in general; whipped dud!!! he thinks he is gorgeous

- ahahhhh budget budgettt. lenses are fucking EXPENSIVE!!! he uses a 50mm that helmeppo got him for his birthday one year (rich kid stuff. he knew koby likes photography and searched Best Lense For People Pictures and bought the first one he saw) the 50 is canon as consequence so koby uses canon for loofy pics. he has an 18-55mm he uses as well.

- he is broke yes. koby does have a minimum wage weekend job to pay for living expenses but all in all that boys pockets are empty. luffy is the breadwinner (miss rabbit with the one zillion jobs) he works about 4 different jobs and is happy to pay for anything koby wants despite kobys adamant NOs. like i said he gets helmeppo to pay for a bunch of stuff and helmeppo pays on his dads card LOL.

- koby does travel! mainly by train or boat, not often does he go to an entirely different country but he has previously a few times. when he does go abroad he takes luffy with him!!!! (he looks pretty in the snow. he likes taking pictures of him in snow)

IM SO GLAD SOMEONE LIKES MY AU ENOUGH TO ASK ME THIS MANY QUESTIONS LMAO i had fun answering all of this !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#kobylu #cobylu #kobylu photography au #booburt stuff :3

[angie-j-kay]

Right, so I seem to have found myself in a Situation... as I sometimes do. I'm about to become the family librarian. And I'm not entirely sure how to do that. Or where to start.

For context, the husband and I spent several years living abroad, and just returned home in September. I started unpacking our storage unit yesterday.

Um.

We had over 2 dozen milk crates of books packed that had been intended for library donation 7 years ago, but never got sent off. And now they're still here, and I'm unpacking them. Hundreds of books.

And we came home after 7 years abroad, with our suitcases packed largely full... of books.

And my Mum-in-Law has cheerfully returned... all of the books we'd wanted to keep that we left in her safekeeping for when we returned.

If that wasn't enough, my husband's grandmother passed recently, and Mum, as executive of the estate, has asked me to take... a lot of Grandma's books.

Science. Philosophy. How-to manuals. Textbooks. Classics. Religious texts. References. Children's books. The list goes on and on and on.

------------------------------------------------

Here's where it gets interesting.

We live in a very heavily religious, conservative community. What few public libraries that are functional around us are either censored by local governments, defunded, being forced to ditch their physical books and "go digital" due to budgets, or just freaking outright closing. Even the one bookstore within an hour's drive is being forced to sell more toys and movies than books, just to stay open.

It has been suggested that since I technically spent a summer helping my hometown's library build a card catalog back in the 90s, and we live in a house that's way too big for us, that it would be super-cool if I turned this collection of approximately a zillion books into a library that the children and adults of the family (and our friends) could have access to. Just kinda be the caretakers of the collection.

I am 1,000,000% down for this. We have kids in the family not learning jack in their public schools, and both my husband and I were teachers when we were abroad, so we want to help. We have cousins who homeschool and are always desperate for study material. Absolutely. I'm in.

Librarians of Tumblr.... NOW WHAT???????

Where do I start once I have set the boards onto the milk crates to make shelves? How do I sort these? I'm not loaning them, folks will have to come here to read, and I'm willing to set up a coffeemaker and cups for them. But... I'm kinda starting to panic here.

Halp.

#librarians #library #writeblr #homeschooler #books #librarians of tumblr

[aditheursula]

Current Special Interests

For the past few months I have been obsessed with the following and will share more about these things as I continue to post

DayZ - I have been watching streams by ChocoTaco and BenFruit and others and have really gotten into maps like Oshima Island, Sunnyvale Chernoplus, Deer Isle, and Namalsk. I love it. I wish I had people to play with. It would be great to base build with others on Deer Isle.

Astrocartography - learning about travel lines is really cool.

Brazil - since I started learning Portuguese last year I have been really into everything Brazil, mainly because of how it is changing with Lula in office. Also, I found out I have ancestors that settled in Recife.

Brazilian futebol - I support Botafogo. Why? They're not Flamengo. They're better. Also, why not?

Leaving the United States - I'm adamant about this one. Things are not going well here. I'm applying to jobs abroad with no luck yet I'm not giving up.

Electric mopeds - I would really like one if I lived in a city setting.

Public transportation - Again, I would really like this if I lived in a city setting

Walkable, liveable cities - I would like one, por favor.

#current special interests #special interests #autistic #actually autistic #neurospicy #dayz #astrocartography #brazil #brazilian football #futebol #moving abroad #electric mopeds #public transportation #walkable cities

[thisisarcanereverie]

#12 💔

Marc spector

(I don't know if this how you request, I'm sorry)

As Light as a Feather (Marc Spector x Reader)

Hey! Here is a fic from my 500 follower celebration prompt list (here is the link)

(here is my ask box) (For requests!)

You have no idea what you were thinking, loving Marc Spector.  

You’ve known Marc all of your lives, you fell in love with him in high school, pined after him since he was in the Marines and you were in university abroad, and accepted that he would never love you back when he came back from the Marines. 

So why did you stay?

It wasn’t like he was nice to you, he was a goddamn prick. It wasn’t like he went out of his way to talk to you or looked at you like you were the only girl in the world, he ignored most of your messages and when you asked him and almost never made eye contact. Even when he brought all this mystical, god, deity, avenger level shit into your life and turned it upside down, you still stayed. 

It wasn’t like this was the first time you asked yourself why you stayed, why you kept in contact with him when he clearly didn’t give a shit two ways. You even booked an airplane ticket going back to America one day, a one way trip. 

But then Marc would always do something. 

Maybe he would text you first, or ask you how your day was. Or perhaps he made you laugh so hard he made you cry, maybe he laughed too. Sometimes you would catch a glimpse of something in his eyes that gave you hope, however false it was. 

However, that was before Layla. 

 You respected her, she knew of his DID and loved every part of him, even the parts he never showed you. You were thankful that she did, and for some reason, her arrival into your life both broke your heart and cleared the fog in your mind surrounding him. 

He didn’t love you. You weren’t sure if he ever did. 

Maybe it was toxic codependency on both of your parts, you had never not been in each other's lives and with Layla around…maybe it was time to start. 

You had renewed the plane ticket until after the wedding in Cairo, Marc’s and Layla’s wedding. 

You were just one of the few witnesses invited to the vows, the rest came for the celebration. The weather was warm but cooled at night to a more comfortable degree. Layla had been beautiful, an overall simplistic look but with various glittering jewels adorning her. Making her look like she was plucked from the stars. Meanwhile Marc had been handsome as ever, his hair combed back and in a simple button up with slacks and a kippah on his head. 

Overall it was a very casual vow reciting, but the fun didn’t begin until the reception. Dancing and drinking underneath the moon and its glow. You didn’t stay long however, slipping away unnoticed back to your hotel room to get a night's sleep and prepare for your departure tomorrow, feeling bad that Marc had rented out your hotel room until the end of the week. You promised yourself you will pay him back once you’ve settled in your new life in Boston. 

At least that is what you had hoped. 

Marc hadn’t noticed you left until the third day after when he had gotten a call from the hotel saying that the room had been unoccupied for a while. Which he then texted you about and you told him you went home, you just didn’t say where home was. 

Then weeks passed by, then months, you had settled into your new life in Boston and paid Marc back for the hotel room. Made new friends, even had a few flings here and there, you traveled, you just did whatever you wanted to do when you wanted to. 

And yet somehow you still missed him. 

After a year, maybe two, you had a night out with friends, where you ended up meeting Johnathan Levy. He was a wallflower that stood out amongst the array of people, you could easily tell it wasn’t his scene. But you don’t know what came over you, but the next thing you know you're engaged in conversation with him at the bar. You learned he was a professor, and when you told him you were also thinking about getting your doctorate and following the academia lifestyle he gave you helpful tips and asked if you wanted a smoke. You said yes even though you didn’t partake in the habit, coughing as the toxic air filled your lungs. Your eyes water in the corners as you could hear him laugh beside you. 

Safe to say you put out the cigarette and just talked to him while he smoked. 

You talked about literary topics such as the French writer Emile Zola to Freud's findings in the Psychological field and how those findings would be taken today. The list went on, and before you knew it, it was three in the morning and you were the only one left of your group. Taking out your phone you saw messages saying that they all went home and called an uber, they would’ve offered but apparently didn’t want to ruin the mood between you and who they had deemed “the Hot Nerd”. 

Johnathan had walked you home that night, seeing as your apartment wasn’t too far and you both wanted to talk more. The more you talked the more engrossed you became and the faster time flew and the next thing you knew you both had circled the blocks a few times before actually stopping at your apartment building. You were tempted to kiss him, see what it would be like. But you stopped yourself, not wanting to scare him off. You both exchanged numbers and with an offer to attend a lecture he was giving, you parted ways for the night. Something about him was…different. He wasn’t like the typical men you went for, strong men with attachment issues. He wasn’t like Marc but at the same time he was? You both connected, but in a different way. For you it had always been one sided and you talked but you knew that if you had met Marc today, he would have nothing to do with you and you with him. Sure the attraction would be there, but the things you loved about him, the way he taps the eraser head against the desk if he was struggling with something, or the way his crooked smile looked underneath fairy lights, or how his favorite movie is a cheap knockoff of Indiana Jones. Things that made Marc….Marc. But with Johnathan, he was bookish, with a full beard and a head full of wild pepper hair. Glasses on the bridge of his nose, but in a way similar to Marc, you could tell he had a few secrets to him. 

But what would you know, you only met the professor tonight. However as you stared at his contact in your phone you couldn’t help but smile as you made a mental note to request the day he was giving a lecture off. 

You go to unlock your door when the knob turns easily opening to the entryway, a cold feeling quickly replaced the warm and fuzzy ones from earlier. You slowly reach for the small taser in your purse before cautiously opening the door wider and turning on the lights. You pull the taser out and crank it up to the max setting, letting the loud zapping sound resound through your place threateningly. 

“Try me,” you said with false confidence, “I’ve been waiting for a reason.” 

“You should get a better lock.” 

You whip yourself around and go to taser the person behind you only for it to get knocked out of your hands and kicked aside. You stop for a moment only to stiffen as you recognize the curly brown hair and hooked nose. 

“Marc?” You said before punching him harshly in the arm, “What the FUCK man, I could’ve killed you!” 

He gives you a look. 

“Fine,” you roll your eyes, “You could’ve killed me…with a goddamn heart attack, why in the hell did you sneak into my apartment?”

“You weren’t answering your phone.” Marc said simply, you gently pushed him aside to close your front door and make your way to the kitchen to brew some tea as Marc casually scanned your apartment. You could see his fingers dance over the spines of your books on the book shelf, most of those you haven’t read but keep around to one day get to. 

“How long have you been here?” Marc asked. 

“A year,” You said plainly trying to stay busy so as to not look at him, “maybe two.” 

“What are you doing here?” You asked him while you went to grab two mugs from your cabinet. 

“I told you,” Marc said, “you weren’t answering your phone.” 

“I changed my number about six months ago.” You said, “I sent you a text from the new number, so either you didn’t bother to read it, haven’t tried to contact me in six months, or you lied.” Once you place the mugs on the counter as you went to grab your array of teas from your tea basket, “either way it comes back to the same question as to why you are here?” 

Marc went silent. Out of your peripheral view you can see his jaw clench and fists tighten. 

“Do you know a man by the name of Arthur Harrow?”

“No,” You said as you grabbed the boiling kettle from the stove, “why?” 

“I’m looking for him.” 

You lost it, you forcefully set down the hot kettle back on the stovetop and let out a dark laugh. 

“You’re fucking kidding me,” You said still not looking at him, “So it wasn’t the fact that you felt fucking shitty for not noticing until a year and six months after I left to realize I didn’t live there anymore and that it took you six months to realize I wasn’t fucking talking to you either.” 

“I’ve been fucking busy!” Marc defended loudly, “so sorry if I hadn’t fucking noticed you weren’t hanging on me every minute of the day. If you haven’t gotten the memo, my mind has enough to deal with without adding you into the mix!” 

Tears you swore you never would shed fell on the apples of your cheeks again, leaving hot trails in their wake as shame and anger filled you. You always hated that you were an angry crier. 

“See this is the reason why I left,” You said before looking at him, “You cross my mind every day, but I only cross yours when I’m in front of you.” Your stomach felt heavy and your mouth filled with cotton. You sighed and rubbed a hand over your face, not caring about your smeared makeup, “Just leave. Just forget me, it should be easy enough.” 

“What the hell is that supposed to mean?!” Marc asked loudly as you pushed past him to get your pajamas ready for after your shower. You ignore him as you set the clothes on the counter beside the sink and exit the bathroom. “Answer me! What the hell is that supposed to mean?!”

You continue to ignore him as you make sure that your windows are locked, knowing that once you get your shower and pajamas on you won’t have the energy to make sure your home is secure. 

“Fucking nice,” Marc sighed fustratingly, “fucking silent treatment isn’t going to work on me (Y/n), it hasn’t since we were kids.” 

“A lot has changed since then.” 

“Yeah,” Marc said, “Like your taste in guys.” 

A newfound anger surged through you as you whip your head to meet his eyes, taunting and dark. 

“If I recall you liked those muscular dumbasses, meanwhile he looks like he belongs at the bottom of a book avalanche.” 

“Oh! You would know wouldn’t you!” You exclaim, “because you just know everything about me!” 

“Yeah I do,” He said arrogantly, crossing his arms over his chest. 

“Fine dumbass,” You said crossing your arms, “Pop quiz. What’s my favorite color?”

“Red.” 

“Drink of choice?”

“An Old Fashioned”

“Favorite Book?”

“Don Quixote” 

“My first love?”

“Jensen Kidman from freshman year.” 

“Wow,” You said, astonished eyes wide and arms still crossed, “wrong.” You move past him, “every single one of those is wrong.” 

“Fine!” He said, throwing his hands in the air, “but don’t act like you know everything about me either!”

“Your favorite color is white, your drink of choice is whiskey straight from the bottle, you don’t have a favorite book because you had a lot of difficulty reading as a kid but your favorite movie was a knock off Indiana Jones film called Tomb Buster because that was one of the things you and Randall bonded over together about and your first love was and always will be Layla El- Faouley, your wife.” You open your front door, “Is that all or do you want me to recite Steven’s and Jake’s as well?” 

Marc stood there astonished until you saw guilt invade his eyes and shame weighed down his shoulders, as he made his way to the door slowly. You don’t look at him as he trudges past you, as you were about to close the door he stops it, his eyes looking as though they see right through you. 

“What were the answers?”

You sighed. 

“My favorite color is Green, my drink of choice is wine, and my favorite book is Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen.” You go to close the door again when he stops it. His eyes widen as he searches your face. 

“And your first love?”

A pause.

“I think you know.” And with that you close the door, making sure to lock it and put a note on your fridge to call your landlord tomorrow and have the locks replaced. You rub your hand over your face before going about your business and just as you had predicted, as soon as you took your shower and laid down in bed, you were out. 

Your heart was broken, but this wasn’t the first time, you would be fine. You knew that, but for a while you were going to be anything but. 

But you will live, and as you laid down in bed and sleep enveloped you in its sweet embrace, for the first time in what seems like ever. 

Your body feels as light as a feather.

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[o-avosetta]

Re: Coral Island 1.0

I've been playing Coral Island again after stopping earlier this year to wait for it to get to 1.0. It's been just the experience I hoped it would be.

I've already written about how much it feels like home, how refreshing it is to play a game so very clearly and lovingly inspired by maritime Southeast Asia. It feels even more so now, maybe because of where I'm playing.

I'm on December break, so I happen to be playing from my family's town, where I really can walk down to the beach and hunt for fresh urchins at low tide if I want. Mostly I walk out to a detached coffee stand much like Raj's (more of a hut than a stand, actually), admire my neighbor's dragonfruit vines on the way, and hope I get to say hi to dogs like the player gets with Bonbon and Taco. The town where I am has also gotten a lot more multicultural in recent years, so it really isn't a stretch that I'd run into people of different nationalities* and multiracial couples* and families in Starlet Town also. There's a Japanese man who set up an izakaya down the road from our place, and it's excellent.

[* Not to get into the sociopolitics of this, but maybe the fantasy of Coral Island for me is that none of the older white men are there looking for land to grab for their retirement and/or poor, younger, less educated women they can exploit as bangmaid brides.]

I don't looking forward to leaving town again, but I'm glad I'll have this game for a taste of home.

I'm only nominally a farmer, I think. Diving and clearing the sea has been my favorite activity in the game, and I think I'll continue even after I make the merfolk happy. I've been making decent money drying scallops and making kombu chips this Year 1 Winter, so making a living this way seems doable.

I've lamented elsewhere that farm life sim games set in seaside towns often forget how much the sea is part of the life of such a town — usually, such games make the ocean nothing more than another fishing spot. I love, love how much the ocean is very much a part of Coral Island. What happened to the ocean is why Starlet Town has been struggling lately. My progress underwater is tied to my progress overall. Merfolk have their own town, and I can befriend/date them; they aren't just blink-and-you-miss it sprites to liven up a fishing session. I still have a lot of seafloor to clear, so I guess I'll see if the ocean endgame is any good later. But just the fact that Stairway Games devoted this much of the game to the sea really touches me.

(I fucking love the ocean, okay? In another life, I was going to get a marine science degree right here in my family's town. But noooo, I decided to try being a writer, lol.)

As for dating, I'm not in a rush to woo any particular townie. There are almost too many attractive people in this game. So I just work on my farmer and on healing the island, and I let relationships develop naturally. Run into a townie? Stop and talk to them. Hand them a jepun blossom or a mushroom or a jar of jam. See whose stories and personality make me want to keep running into them once the first blush is past.

I've reached the winter, though, so I do have some clear favorites now.

I don't know if I want to marry Dr. Yuri, be her best friend, or be her. I just think she's so cool — the coolest person on the island even. I think I relate to her coming to the country after her adventures abroad and trying to do the best she can for the people around her. Maybe I want to be with another me-in-another-life, idk (after marine biologist and before writer, my next aspiration was pediatrician).

Mark recently won a popularity contest in the player community, and it's not hard to see why. In games like this, any scarred dateable who starts off gruff or mean is basically cotton candy left out for player ants. I haven't checked yet, but I'm willing to bet his dog-feeding cutscene launched a thousand fics ("Good girl" — woof). (Either that or something something garden rake up the ass something something.) Mostly I like him because he's the only one who actually seems to banter with the player, and he looks big and cuddly like my SO.

Chaem is the other initially aggressive character, and I think I like her, too. I was actually put off at first; in early access, she was only an aloof jock who was pretty focused on her workouts and her sport, not outright mean. I don't remember her being this rude to my farmer when I met her pre-1.0. Then I had a little think about why one would let Mark be a little mean to them but not Chaem. What do you know, getting to know her makes her warm up to you also.

I like Theo because he just gives off vibes that I need in my life.

Who else? I think I will always have a soft spot for Surya because he was my first crush in early access, and though the attraction has waned this go-round, I still want to be his friend. I want to be Eva's friend mostly because one of my friends really likes her. I want to be Lily's friend because I just want to know all about her and her bonsai. I haven't made enough progress with the merfolk yet, but I have a major crush on Princess Miranjani. (Agung, what we could've had if the devs hadn't baited and switched you with Semeru, hayy.)

Ah, and as usual, I have made it a personal mission to make the town grandma love me. Betty, I'm saving all my flowers for you, mano po, paturo naman po ng recipe sa mooncake.

Okay, I'm out of thoughts now; time to grab my diving suit again.

#coral island #games #personal #the sea #southeast asia

[savedpeople]

MULTIMUSE QUESTIONAIRE

RULES: Answer the questions with the Muses that would best fit the answers. Bonus if you give details why. If tagged, copy and paste into a new post – DO NOT REBLOG!

(Since this is a single-muse blog, I'm going to include muses I've played on other blogs. I'm not going to include every muse I've ever written though because 1. it already feels funny talking about muses that 99% of my followers have never seen me write, and 2. some of them were very short-lived. So I'm only including the ones that I've written most or were most significant, plus my newest one that I haven't written yet, since they've been on my mind a lot lately.)

1) Rank your softest Muse and your toughest Muse. (Personality-wise) - Strictly personality-wise, softest to toughest: Ted Logan (Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure), Max Caulfield (Life is Strange), Izaya Orihara (Durarara!!), Amaimon (Blue Exorcist), Satoru Gojo (Jujutsu Kaisen), Negan, Levi Ackerman (Attack on Titan.) This is kind of funny though because aside from Ted and Max, none of these characters can really be considered "soft."

2) Which Muse would blow through $1000 quickly? - Gojo. But he's also rich rich, so $1000 is nothing to him. He canonically owns shirts that cost more than that. Aside from him, I think if you gave Ted $1000 he could easily blow it all on music gear and albums pretty quickly lol.

3) Do any of them have nicknames? Is there a meaning behind them? - Negan has been called "Neegs" by a few, but not many can get away with that. "Ted" is short for Theodore, and "Max" is short for Maxine (never call Max by her full name, she hates it.)

4) Are any of them up-to-speed on the latest trends? Anyone more old school? - Ted, Gojo, and Max are most likely to be up-to-speed on trends, but Max appreciates the old school stuff (she prefers analog cameras over digital for her photography, for instance.) Levi and Negan are more old school, though Negan might attempt to learn trends to seem cool to his students/the kids (it rarely works.)

5) Who has the best relationship with their siblings? - Three of them have siblings: Ted, Izaya, and Amaimon. Ted and his little brother probably have the best relationship, at least as kids, though he deals with insecurity and envy as their dad clearly favors his brother. Izaya has two sisters who are twins and about ten years his junior. Their parents were abroad for work so much that he basically raised them, but his bad influence played part in them turning out eccentric. Their relationship is complicated and a bit love/hate. Amaimon has six brothers and a sister. They are all demons (literally, they are children of Satan lol.) He's only seen interacting with one which I interpret him to have a neutral to positive relationship with. I don't see him having a close relationship with any of the others. But I also haven't read or watched the series in years, so I have no idea if more has been revealed.

6) Karaoke night! Who is likely to grab the mic first and bust out a tune? - Ted. Max will join him with some encouragement. Negan if he's had a few drinks.

7) Who is least likely to enter a beauty pageant/model? - Levi (he could actually probably do well as a model, but suggest this and he'll vehemently deny it.) Also Amaimon because he doesn't spend much time on Earth and probably doesn't even know what a beauty pageant is.

8) If your Muses visited a haunted house where actors scare you, who would panic and who would be unfazed? - Ted and Max would be panicking (but they're having a blast.) Levi and Amaimon are unfazed.

9) Are any of your Muses particular about taking certain modes of transportation? - Not really. Max does get nervous about airplanes and Izaya prefers to walk or take a taxi/public transport. Gojo doesn't drive and either takes the train/subway, has his assistant drive him, or teleports/warps short distances since he can do that lol.

10) Share a little-known fact about any Muse. - So I can't really think of anything, but I have twd verses for most of my muses that I never got to use/talk about so I'mma ramble on about little things about them here. Ted - and Bill - were following a band on tour that summer, and were at a music venue in the Atlanta area when the outbreak hit. Bill's dad died saving them the first day, and they and Missy go on to survive traveling around in their RV for a while. Max found an old vintage photography store shortly after the outbreak and took as many packs of polaroid film as she could realistically carry. She continues taking photos, not just to document the new world but to also capture small moments of beauty and happiness within her group. Gojo acts nonchalant about the apocalypse until he loses his best friend to a walker bite, after which he essentially shuts down and locks himself in a room with the (restrained) walker for days, refusing to let anyone in. He even attempts to remove its jaw/hands to keep it with him (kind of like Michonne did), and it wasn't until after that he finally killed it. He puts on a big smile and acts fine, but the unresolved anger and grief come out in spades whenever he goes up against walkers. Izaya and his sisters are in an airport preparing to fly back to Japan when the outbreak hits, and get stranded in the Virginia/DC area. A group takes them in out of pity, despite Izaya giving them the creeps. But when his sisters are eaten in a large walker attack, the group abandons him, and he's presumed dead. Months later, cue The Saviors showing up with Izaya at Negan's side as one of his lieutenants. Surprise! Levi meets up with his uncle, the only family he has, when the outbreak happens. It doesn't take long for them to start butting heads morally - his uncle is much quicker to warm up to the idea of stealing and killing. But they stick together until they're separated while fighting a horde, and Levi's been on his own ever since, unsure if he's alive. He's eventually taken in by Alexandria, but has a hard time adjusting. I don't have anything set for Amaimon, but he's naturally violent and off-putting and very likely ends up with the Whisperers or becomes a cannibal or something lol.

tagged by: @wexarethewalkingxdead tagging: @esoterium @survivoirs @chitteringbeast and anyone else that'd like to do this (y'all are the only active mutuals I know that have multiple muses and weren't already tagged I don't think??)

#dash games #my weeb past rearing its ugly head #max out there being the only female muse out of fourteen muses. girl i am so sorry #this got me very nostalgic so thank you lol #t.wd (and a.ttack on t.itan) is my go-to au for my muses and i've always enjoyed not only seeing how they'd fit into a story #but how they might interact with each other within the same au #since they're all from different fandoms. crossovers within crossovers lol #so i apologize for the block of text with that last question #✘ || Excuse the shit out of my goddamn french ( ooc )

[vs-redemption]

Soft Sunday

More Iwaizumi 😁

He is a sucker when you bat your eyes at him… it’s difficult for him to say no… some of the time.

Often will find a reason to give you kisses. Not he ever needed a reason.

He is excited to learn you lived in California but you told him that you didn’t live in the area he went to school. (This me I lived in the Bay Area aka San Francisco)

Tries to play it cool whenever you get real comfortable cuddling into his arms, but he is just melting on the inside. Enjoying your touch

He doesn’t make too much of a big deal about cooking… often he and you plan the meals together. He got keep his macros cause it’s part of his job, but he doesn’t restrict your enjoyment eating your favorite meals.

Again the man will flex shirtless reminding you they are not just for show. Picked up that habit from his friend Mattsun🤣.

Soft Sunday Mattsun

Interesting he says very little in the mornings at least not until he gets his morning kisses and( insert beverage of choice) from you.

He likes giving you scalp massages all while telling you about his day. He very happy to find someone that isn’t freaked out by his job. You even ask about the tools he uses.

You still don’t like horror movies but lucky you he plays twitch streams horror games. Some times you join him as he makes it less scary. His humor makes you forget that you’re playing a horror game. Even if you get scared he doesn’t mind cuddles and something fun to play after.

You both binge watch old episodes of “Courage the Cowardly Dog”. Both got a little inside joke whenever you ask about his day and he is happy to report that no portals of hell have been open on his watch.

He does the laundry shirtless🤷🏽‍♀️🤣

Iwa AND Mattsun? You're spoiling me this Sunday ;)

Soft Sunday Headcanons: Iwaizumi and Mattsun Edition

Iwaizumi

I love the idea of soft Iwaizumi! He's so tough around everyone else, but a complete pushover when it comes to you. Just bat your eyelashes, pout, or give him the pleading puppy eyes and he gives in to whatever you want. He just always wants to see you smile, so how could ne not?

He definitely doesn't need an excuse for kisses. Iwa kisses are the best kisses. It is known.

I wish I could impress him by saying I lived in California. But maybe living in Japan for 5 years counts too? I think he'd be stoked just to have 'living abroad' in common, even if it's not in the same place.

Do not get me started on this man's arms.

Not pushy, but supportive of any lifestyle changes you want to make. This is the perfect kind of man. lol Meal planning with him is actually really fun. He'll give you ideas for healthy meals but doesn't say a word when you tweak it just a bit to suit your taste.

Mattsun

He definitely doesn't seem like a morning person to me. But I can see him treating your kisses like his coffee. He groans and claims he's not quite himself until give him some sweet smooches.

Hey, you knew his job when you started dating him. It's only fair that you listen to him talk about his day, especially when he's willing to give you a scalp massage while he does it. If you do show particular interest in the details of his job, that's an added bonus to him!

If you're extra spooked by scary games, I can see him giving you warnings every time a jump scare is about to happen. "Close your eyes babe." "It's going to be loud in a second." "There's a creepy monster in the room I'm about to go in." The best course of action would probably be for you NOT to watch him play at all, but he thinks it's cute you want to be involved in his hobbies.

Courage the cowardly dog is so creepy!! That show used to give me nightmares. I'd still watch it though (as kids do). Going back and re-watching ANY old cartoon would be fun with Mattsun though. I'd probably pick Ed, Edd, and Eddy.

Doing laundry shirtless should be a requirement for Iwa too. Just saying.

#soft sunday #obitobrigade💖 #best moot sqad #Hajime Iwaizumi x Reader #Issei Matsukawa x Reader #Haikyuu x Reader #Hajime Iwaizumi headcanons #Mattsun headcanons #haikyuu headcanons

[bronzeagepizzeria]

Get To Know Me

Thank you for the tag, @demdifferentstories-29 !

What is your name? Niyati

For how long have you had this account? since 2018, i think? only started using it during the pandemic though

Favourite food? i have a massive sweet tooth, so anything sweet, really. also pizza

Favourite drink? i don't drink anything interesting xD just water and even then a bitch is severely dehydrated

Do you have any siblings? yes, one older sister

Do you have pets? yessss i've got three cats!!

How old are you? 19

How many languages do you know? i'd say i'm most comfortable in english, but i can speak hindi fluently as well. i understand tamil entirely and sort of understand marathi + a few words of kannada bc i lived in bangalore for 13 years

What's your all-time favourite movie/tv show? fav movie has got to be the godfather part ii. i've watched it a million times. fav show will forever be game of thrones, no matter how badly it crashed and burned. i really imprinted on that shit lol

What are you enjoying to do in your free time? read fic hahaha. or watch movies. recently i haven't managed to watch anything except reels on instagram though, send help

Are you an introvert or an extrovert? mostly an introvert, but i think i'm just bad at small talk. i don't have issues with public speaking or anything, and i can talk about stuff i'm interested in for hours and hours to virtual strangers xD

Your favourite music genres? i don't listen to a lot of english music tbh! i'd say pop? mostly i just listen to film soundtracks and bollywood songs

Your dream place to visit? i used to be fuckin OBSESSED with australia as a child so i hope to still go there? but i'd like to visit all over, really. i haven't travelled much. definitely wanna experience living in the US/UK for a while. i plan to do my post-grad abroad

Something you wish you were better at? not procrastinating. it's a serious problem

How long do you take to respond to texts? immediately lol. sometimes i respond to ao3 comments within minutes, which must freak people out

Do you have any tattoos? If not, would like to? nope. look in theory it's a cool idea but i'm famously indecisive and if i can't even settle on a pfp for more than a month i just know i'm gonna pick a tattoo and end up fucking hating it

What's your sexuality? straight

Do you like reading? If yes what's your favourite book? i don't read much anymore, unfortunately. but i want to get back into it

Have you ever been in love before? ehhh no. i usually just trick myself into liking someone i suspect likes me lol

What's your relationship status? single

Have you ever been heartbroken? nah

Best memory you could think of? this question is super hard for me lol. recently my roommate and i did an hp rewatch and she asked me what memory i would rely on for my patronus and...i literally do not know. like i've had a decently happy life, but nothing stands out, you know? there isn't any one instance i can think of like that

Worst memory you can think of? same thing again. my 2023 has been so fucking bad it's not even sad to me anymore i just find it genuinely funny. but it hasn't been all bad either? i really don't know if i've just repressed my emotions for this year or if i'm over it already lol. maybe it'll come back to bite me in the arse later

Do you have any fears? moths and butterflies (i don't discriminate) i also don't like small birds/plants that are beginning to dry up/balloons losing air. i was a weird kid

Are you a morning or a night person? oh, night definitely. i spent the entirety of last year getting like 2hrs of sleep a night and napping during class

How many pictures do you have on your phone? 5001 + my icloud has not been backed up in 462 days

Who was your favourite childhood crush? first guy i ever liked was shahid kapoor. first guy i actively fantasized about etc has got to be chris evans. the captain america movies were my personality for a long time in middle school lmao

Are you a romantic? hmm i don't think so. i have pretty old-fashioned tastes when it comes to love and romance i guess, but i think i'm more of a cynic

What’s your dream date? showing my s/o movies/shows that i love. honestly that's my love language

What are your hobbies? i draw a little, watch movies, read fic. i used to play professional-level badminton but that hasn't been fun for me in a long time :(

Tagging: if you read all the way and you feel like it, go ahead!

#tag game

[jaerantsandwritesblog]

Jolyne “Jo” Estelle Morrison Bio

Jo was was born in Alola, to an Alolan/Paldean mom and a Galaran father from a well to do family and had to frequently travel and move around due to her family's work as Pokémon researchers and was homeschooled as a result. 

Jo chose Rowlet as her starter while in Alola and named him Archimedes, or Archie for short  after seeing the Aegisslash in the Stone as a kid and being fascinated with the wizard’s Noctowl. Being a child she was fully convinced that they were the same Pokémon due to Archie having a Shiny Noctowl’s color scheme, though she was extremely disappointed to find out that real Noctowl don’t talk

Her parent’s research would move the family to Galar for work and Jo briefly attended a prep school there. While staying there, she would also briefly meet her grandparents on her dad’s side, who were not at all happy at having a dark skinned trans grandchild, and explicitly made that clear, by disowning her and her parents. In revenge for the slight, her dad stole the family’s prized Scyther and a large portion of his inheritance and gave the latter to her as a birthday gift.  

While at prep school, she was a bit of an outcast due to just starting to transition, but she was able to make friends with a lot of the other immigrant kids, and had Archy for company, which made it more barrable. She lived there long enough to pick up an accent and a fascination with Fairy Pokemon. She also gained an intolerance to the cold due to the region’s constantly gloomy weather though she did learn to gain a love and craving of the various sweets, teas and fiery curries that she ate there. 

Jo didn't get to really build a team until after moving to Paldea, where the family officially settled their roots, even if her parents would still constantly travel for work, and as a result a lot of her Pokemon are imports from other regions or gifts from her parent's for stranding her with relatives who lived in the area. I'm also going with the idea that Hisuian variants of Pokemon are available either by breeding or fossils in this setting

After many challenges and trials, she became reigning league champion at 25 and decided to take a year off due to constant pressure due to people wanting to take on the champ, in addition to having to deal with the occasional stalker and chaser as well, leading to her developing a very brutal and efficient battle style as a result. 

She loves getting to find new people to battle and has made regional trips just to meet up and battle someone or find region exclusive Pokemon, though as acting champ she frequently has to postpone her travels to defend her title. While abroad, Jo will usually spend a lot of time and money getting goods and items shipped or delivered via Rotom Drone to wherever she's staying due to getting homesick. 

Her Favorites are as Follows:

Miltank Moo-Moo Milkshakes

Capsakid Pepper Sauce

Galar”s Finest Lemon Teabags

Vileplume Perfume

Raging Tauros Topical Testosterone Cream

The latest fashions from Unova and Kalos

Alolan Passion Fruits

Team 

Her main team, if not restricted by region or league rules, is as follows. 

Decidueye “Archimedes” (Shiny Noctowl coloring due to breeding)

Level 86. Archie has been with Jo since she was 5 and is considered her ace Pokemon. Frequently takes naps and practicing his archery, he’s often prone to coming up with new “cool” poses to practice, and gets embarrassed if found out, but is fiercely protective when angered or in battle, and is capable of delivering pin point strikes capable of crippling his targets. Archie is the only one on the team kept in a regular pokeball

Hisuian Samurott “Ronin”

Level 84. Ronin was originally a badly injured Oshowatt that Jo found while traveling, and despite the Pokemon center’s best efforts, they couldn’t fully heal Ronin’s injuries, making her fairly grouchy at the best of times, but this aggression increased as she evolved into a Samurott, leading Jo to discover that she’d rescued a Hisuian variant. Ronin will often take the pain of her injuries out on her opponents, leading to multiple fines over unnecessary roughness, but Jo wouldn’t trade her for anything, and the feeling is returned. Kept in a Net Ball

Skeledirge “Scoville”

Level 85. Scoville was Jo’s first Paldean Pokemon, as a Fuecoco, and she knew right away that there was not a single thought going on in between those eyes and that she had to add him to her party. Gentle and a massive lover of music, Scoville is constantly bugging Jo to play his favorite songs during their travels, and has gone so far as to have Cupcake steal her Rotom phone when she refuses, which lead her to buying him his own Rotom powered mp3 player to prevent this. He has a surprisingly eclectic musical taste and loves everything from classical to rap. Kept in a  Level Ball

Scizor “Reaper” (Equipped with Scizorite)

Level 84. Reaper is the oldest of Jo’s Pokemon, originally belonging to her grandfather as a Scyther, and is a prideful war veteran who was regulated to serving tea or cutting the lawn and hedges, once Sir Morrison retired. While happy to have a new master that will make use of his battle talents, Reaper gets tired rather easily due to his age, and will strike quickly to put an end to things, so he can go get tea ready despite Jo’s constant reassurance that he doesn’t need to . Occasionally, however, he will find a challenge worth prolonging the fight for, and will Mega evolve despite the strain it puts on his body. Kept in a Fast Ball

Tyrantrum  “Brutus” (Equipped with Dynamax)

Level 83. Brutus began life as a Jaw Fossil that Jo received from one of her parents' trips and was resurrected as a Tyrunt. He is prone to throwing tantrums when he doesn't get his way even after his evolution, and he still has issues adjusting to the modern world, often seeing other Pokémon or cars as either competition or prey though luckily this is handled via a well-applied spray bottle. Goes through enormous amounts of food, and often demands to be handfed, or given live prey to eat which is an expense that Jo will occasionally shell out money for after a big win. Brutus is fully convinced that the rest of the team are his subjects, Jo included and are there to worship him. He gets excited whenever he gets the ability to Dynamax, as he feels it shows off his kingly majesty. Kept in a Heavy ball.

Alolan Raichu “Cupcake” (Shiny, but Has Pink cheeks left over from her Pichu evolution due to Transitioning via Evolution. Has a heart-shaped tail)

Level 80. Cupcake is the baby of the bunch, discovered as a Pichu in a crate of fruits meant for an Alolan bakery, having eaten the entire contents. She frequently will demand parfaits or ice cream after a big win and has a sweet tooth that matches and exceeds Jo's on occasion. Despite her laid-back nature and relative in-experience compared to the rest of the team, Cupcake is a skilled battler and combines her ability to float with her natural agility to alternate between running on all fours to evade attacks or surfing through the air. She uses her pyshic abilities to communicate strategies with Jo and will act as a translator by sharing the team's thoughts with her. Kept in a Love Ball

(While I don't have a Canon design for her just yet and have to use Nessa as a placeholder, my face and voice claim for Jo is basically Mel Medarda as a pokemon trainer)

#long post #pokemon #trainer oc #hisuian samurott #Decudieye #tyrantrum #alolan raichu #skeledirge #scizor #probably the most I've written for an oc in a minute #Jolyn Estelle Morrison #Jae writes about things

[survey--s]

600.

Who gives the best advice? I don't really ask people for advice - because my experience is that they then get pissed off when you don't take it.

Is there any band out there that you like every song by them? No.

What’s the best song a friend has ever introduced to you? I can't think of anything in particular right now.

Have you ever smoked? Yeah, I smoked for a bit during my year abroad.

Does your favorite uncle have any children? He does. Two grown up daughters who now have kids of their own.

Have you ever been in a lighthouse? Yes.

Name one of your psycho exes? Chris.

Why were they a psycho ex? Well, he was a compulsive liar and refused to admit to several of his children. We broke up and it's come to light there are even more.

Do you still talk to your first crush? No.

Where would you like to travel? I'd love to go back to Canada and Italy, and in terms of new countries - New Zealand, Iceland, Japan and the Seychelles.

Are you shy about singing in front of people? Not really, but I definitely can't sing in tune lol.

Do you know anyone who always makes themselves out to be the victim? Yeah, I went to university with someone like that. It was exhausting.

Have you ever been insulted or called names by a significant other? Yes.

What’s your favorite movie battle scene? The battle for Helms Deep is pretty good so far as battles go.

Have you ever been to a same-sex wedding? No - I've never been to any wedding that wasn't my own.

What’s the population of your hometown? The town I grew up in is about 15k. My current town is about 7k.

What’s the most difficult experience you and a significant other have gone through together? I don't really know, to be honest. Looking back most of my relationships were just filled with pretty mundane dramas.

What’s something you have zero tolerance for? Animal abuse.

When's the last time you said you were sorry? Earlier today when I trod on the cat.

Would you like living on the coast? I love living by the coast. The only disadvantage is the strong wind/storms in the autumn.

Honestly, do you enjoy arguing? No.

Which theory do you wish but perhaps not believe was true about afterlife? I don't really believe anything happens after we die. I kind of think heaven would be cool, though, but without the religious aspect.

Are you scared of losing the person you like to someone else? No. I have no concerns in that respect, he's a very decent person with decent morals.

Do you have a hard time making decisions? I'm weird in that I can make huge, life-changing decisions in seconds, but I really struggle with minor decisions like where to eat or what outfit to wear lol.

If there was a large spider in your room, would you stay in the room? NOPE.

What’s your favorite kind of meat? (vegan/vegetarian options count!) Steak or bacon, or fried chicken.

Have you ever been mistaken for staff at a store you were just visiting? No.

What’s the coolest or most memorable animal you’ve ever seen at a zoo? White lions and tigers are pretty incredible, even though they're mostly inbred these days which is sad. I also remember seeing dolphins at an aquarium in Italy but it just made me sad. It was a mum and calf in this tiny tank and they just swam in circles constantly.

Do you share a bedroom with anybody? My husband and the dog, lol.

What video game have you played the most hours of? If you don’t know, just make a rough guess. Overall probably the Sims as I played it constantly as a kid.

Who will you see within the next week? Mike, my parents and I have no idea who else. I'm hoping to catch up with Susie at some point and I'll probably see my in-laws too.

Do your parents live in their hometown(s)? No - they live on the opposite side of the world from where they were born, lol.

Have you ever modeled before? No.

If offered $1 million, would you do a reality show of your life? No. I value my privacy too much for that.

Who owns the computer you are on? Me.

What’s your best friend’s favorite color? I'm not sure he really has a favourite colour.

What color was your senior prom dress? Red.

How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2014? Just the one.

Northernmost state you’ve been to: I've never been to America.

Think you’ll live to be 100? Who knows. Both sides of my family are pretty long-lived and healthy so I guess it's possible.

Which YouTuber do you feel like you could be friends with easily? I don't watch any YouTubers.

Who do you know personally that has a nice singing voice? My dad.

If you met your favorite musician, what would you ask him/her? I honestly have no idea lol

What's something you used to believe in that you don't anymore? Nothing in particular is coming to mind.

What's something you believe everyone should have? A home.

What's the first thing you do once you get home from a trip? Say hi to all the animals, and then go and take a pee.

Do you listen to podcasts? Which ones? No, I genuinely don't get the appeal.

What was the last heavy thing you lifted? The cat.

Do you have an anchor tattoo? No.

Are your hands unsteady? No.

Do you think you’re pretty? I think I'm normal looking.

Who do you know that wears the most makeup? I don't really know anyone who wears tons of make-up. I live in a very outdoorsy area so most people don't wear much (if any).

Are you anyone’s first love? Apparently so.

Has anyone ever told you they were in love with you? Yes.

How much does your mother know about your sex life (or lack thereof)? Nothing. My sex life is nobody else's business but mine (and my partners).

#survey #surveys

[stardustedknuckles]

I think...I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna take an online course to learn to teach English abroad and go do it. Rest under a cut cuz I got rambly and excited.

I always wanted to be a teacher, but not here in America and certainly not in Oklahoma. I've seen how teachers are treated, I don't have it in me to do grad school right now or even a teaching certificate (because again, nothing I would want to teach here would require less than grad school) and best of all, a lot of what I'd be teaching involves grammar around the middle school level. Even though I'd be teaching it likely to young learners (to start) little kids through middle school is exactly what I want to teach (or college. see: grad school). I love language arts and I love working with kids, and I have wanted to try and make a life in another country since before I even understood how fucked I was in this one. I could work in Europe and not have to worry about whether I look feminine enough or fit in with the staff or kiss up to the principal enough, I could work to stay in one place and get on with an actual school and eventually live there for real - the idea of going to a different country every year seems exhausting and not great for long-term savings. I'm ready to dig into a career that will take care of me in a place that will take care of me.

And I think that starts with this course. I thought eight years ago that I would be happy if I could find a way to make tutoring a full-time job, and I don't feel much differently today. I'm good at explaining things and I want to do that. I want to be every cool language teacher I ever had, especially for people who struggle with it. Tutoring Spanish was the highlight of my college experience. I didn't get to take a college English grammar course until senior year as an elective and I loved it. This is as close as I can get to the middle school version of me who was deeply saddened when English and Language Arts stopped being two different classes.

It just sounds too good to be true, but I have been thinking on it and looking into it for months now. I even have a place to stay in Sweden while I'm looking for work, because somehow the connections I made in the fucking beauyasha fandom have allowed the stars to align in this way. If I think about that too long I'll just start crying lol. I wasn't sure how I was going to pay for anything past the course until I remembered - once I have that certification, I can teach English online for supplemental income and keep the job I have. That's huge, and realizing that was what allowed me to say okay, this is real and we can do it. My credit card won't like it but we can do it. The alternative is getting a second job and that's not realistic in small town Oklahoma, and also I think it might kill me to try. I don't want to put myself through so many paces trying to do this that I am too burnt out (again) to enjoy succeeding.

Thanks for listening. I just needed to actualize it and make it real to myself. I've done the research, it's not a scam, it's a real thing people do, and I am more than good enough and excited enough to do it well. I'm not great at wanting things and even worse at imagining having them, so this is a pretty big deal.

#i got accepted to do that popular english teaching program for hong kong back in 2018 #it just quickly became apparent that I couldn't live on it and also i was daunted by all the other perfect classrooms on yt #but this time I won't have to live on it #I'll be able to save #and with a certification I will not only get paid better I'll have support finding work #this is my worst time of the month and that's how you know the idea holds water lol #i'm not in my idealistic good week #personal #sdk irl

[gettin-bi-bi-bi]

I've been out as a lesbian for years now, made many queer friends, was certain to never date a man and was cool w that. However, recently during a trip I met a guy that I think I developped a crush on. I find him physically attractive (never did with a man), we share a lot of values, he's nice and has many qualities I like in someone. I think he reciprocates, and I should be enjoying the flirting cause it feels nice but im anxious instead. Reworking my whole identity at this point feels like a mess, and if we do end up dating I can't help but wonder if I'd miss women + coming out to him about my past feels dreadful. I've never been with a guy but had many gfs, opposite gender sex is totally foreign to me and it's a source of fear. He lives abroad for work so it's hard to meetup but for now it's more of a blessing rn. I need more time to get to know him better in any case, cause it's too early to say im in love yet, but i'm def interested. Sadly, the stress of changing my whole life makes me overthink everything and prevents me from enjoying the moment! Any advice?

I understand that this can be a stressful realisation to someone who has always thought of themselves as a lesbian. However, I want to remind you that your queerness doesn't go away just because you have a crush on a man. Bisexuality is a thing (which you know, hence why you messaged this blog) and it is exactly as queer as being gay/lesbian - there is no hierarchy. You're not suddenly "less" queer because you developped feelings for a man. Thinking that is a form of (internalised) biphobia.

You identified as a lesbian for so long because that was the word that fit you. You didn't do anything wrong by calling yourself that but you're also not doing anything wrong now by listening to your heart/gut and recognising that this man is making you feel a certain way.

What does this mean for your sexual identity? Could be many things. Maybe you were always bisexual with a very strong preference for women ("homoflexible" is another word for that) and only just realised that because of this man. Maybe you were, are and always will be gay but this one man is the big exception (I have a straight friend who is 1000% firm in her straightness, yet she had a 3 year relationship with a woman because sometimes things don't go as planned). Even if you feel like "lesbian" is still the right identity for you, that doesn't mean you cannot explore and try things out. The queer community is so big on encouraging straight people that they should explore same-gender stuff. Why can't gays and lesbians be encouraged to explore different-gender stuff?!

Why are you afraid of "changing my whole life"? Why would anything have to change? Even if you were to enter a relationship with him that doesn't mean you cannot be an active part of the queer community anymore. Even in an m/f relationship you can do things to affirm and validate your queerness. If any of your friends cuts ties because you are suddenly not a "picture perfect gold star lesbian" anymore then they are a) biphobic and b) people who try to police your identity and love life, so it's better to stay away from them anyway.

As for how the guy would react to your queerness? I'd recommend telling him as soon as possible. Because if he is at all homo-/biphobic you'd rather want to know it now than later. Tell him! Also tell him about your insecurities and be open about the fact you have not been with a man before. If he likes you and is a cool dude, then he will help you be comfortable and I'd hope you two have fun exploring things together. Any questions you have about sex with a man you're welcome to ask here (or check out our sex ed tag) but it's also no shame to ask him things like "how do you like me to touch you? is this good? I'm not sure what to do next, can you show me?" You may realise that it's less different than you're imagining it to be. And remember that just because there's a certain genital combination between the two of you, doesn't mean that you have to have certain types of sex. You can do whatever you are comfortable with and curious about.

To circle back to the start: yes, I know this is all overwhelming and new. Try not to worry about any of those presumed "consequences". You are still 100% queer. If anyone gives you shit for it, then they can get lost. Having sex with and dating a man doesn't make your life any less queer. You can be exactly as out and proud as you like to be (okay, yes, invisibility that can come with bisexuality sucks, but there's things you can do to counteract it). Sexuality can be fluid and sometimes it changes in ways we didn't expect it to. Maybe you're bi, maybe you're still a lesbian with one exception. So what? Neither of those options is something to be ashamed of. Try to have fun and enjoy the exciting feeling of exploring something new.

Maddie

[zhuhongs]

I’ve been wondering for some time since I first started following your blog, what made you choose to study abroad in Taiwan rather than Japan? (Feel free to ignore this ask if this is a weird question)

hey, no worries. I'm super cool with talking abt it. So I decided to go to Taiwan for a lot of reasons, some practical, some personal. For the practical side, it was just easier to go to Taiwan at the time I applied, Japan seemed to have this an iron gate on new arrivals into the country and I had applied so many times, I really just felt like Japan would be one of the last countries to open up to foreign exchange students. In comparison Taiwan was more open to allowing students into Taiwan so it was just way easier to get a visa. Second was cost of living, Taiwan is way more affordable than Japan. Third was my own academic path, like I was almost done with my degree, and going to Japan independently as a student was rlly hard. And the language schools were like, not an option. If I went to Japan I'd have to go on a normal bachelors exchange but I had already finished my units so I'd be taking classes I didn't need. (basically prolong my degree when I was eligible to graduate). And the universities I was able to go to all required students take 7 classes plus Japanese and that just seemed far too much to me. I wanted more free time to enjoy living there, not do assignments for classes I don't need. In contrast, I was going to a language school in Taiwan where I'd only be taking classes I wanted and none of my grades would matter bc it wasn't for my degree. When I decided on going on my own to Taiwan I applied for graduation and now I'm just doing this for the skill of speaking Chinese.So the pressure is wayyy less. Also it just makes more sense.

Now onto personal reasons, I just feel like Chinese is way easier and more practical than Japanese. Sure I've studied Japanese longer but honestly since i studied it by myself w/o a teacher I learned i pretty bad and I'd really need to start from scratch if I wanted to speak it well. SO I decided to go to Taiwan for that. Also, like, part of it was the company. I feel like a lot of exchange students who go to Japan (not all, def not all, I've had so many mutuals who've gone and are great) are just... creeps. Like, ofc every country will have the creeps, but I feel like Japan has a higher proportion of fetishists and just creeps that go bc yk, anime. ANd like, the people who choose to go to taiwan are just better grounded. Like all the alumni I've met that chose to go to taiwan were like, just really cool well rounded people, and I'd rather be surrounded by them and not... well. yk. Also, Japanese society is just, very judgy. Like I just feel like I like Japan but not as a place to live. Like all the Japanese students I've met were nice but just, the way they spoke about things felt so, narrow. Like they didn't feel very accepting of a lot of things. I talked to some Japanese expats and my brothers coworker whos from Japan and moved back and they all said like, its really hard to rlly connect with people. Like a lot of ppl are so nice but it always feels like youre bothering them. Idk just, I didn't want to live there. In contrast all the Taiwanese people I've met seemed more down to earth. I understand all of this is anecdotal and not necessarily true but like, I told my japanese roommates abt this. I had this same conversation with them when i came and they were like.. oh no 100%, like we studied abroad bc we feel judged by japanese ppl. So like, not to say it's 100 percent true, its not!! But it is a factor. ALso I was just, more into Taiwan. It just felt like a better fit. Also I had friends here, like my cousin, my friends mom, like I had ppl to rely on if I needed and it really came in handy my first few weeks and in japan I really had no one. So for all of that, I came to taiwan. and I don't regret it one bit. Ido think someday in like 2 or 3 years I want to go to live in Japan though. Like do this same thing, go to a language school just for me. Live for a few months and come back and resume life. It's just that rn, Taiwan was the better option.

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[buckaroobuck]

Ahhh tysm for all the suggestions! I'm currently saving up to hopefully go there. Ideally I'd like it to be for at least a month, and I know even that's hardly enough time to see everything. I want to see all the castles lol Did you travel much outside of Berlin when you lived there?

I'm Canadian actually but I'm wondering if that would make much difference? Are you saying some nightclubs would actively turn away Americans? lol

Awesome! I traveled a couple places outside of Berlin when I was there. Potsdam is right next door and has Schloss Sansoucci if you’re into the castles— there’s also Schloss Charlottenburg in Berlin (those are the only two real palaces I’ve been to in Germany). Other places I went in the country are:

Nuremberg: Full of cool medieval buildings and has this beautiful fountain in the center market area (which also has one of the best Christmas markets). Albrecht Dürer's house is also here!

Leipzig: Has Bach’s grave, which is p cool! The zoo is also super fun, and there are a bunch of great museums.

Lutherstadt Wittenberg: The only reason I was here is it’s on the way to Leipzig from Berlin— I happened to be there at a fantastic time tho because they were celebrating an anniversary of the Protestant Reformation so there was a huge festival going on. Not sure what to do there at a normal time unless you’re super Lutheran (in which case lots of stuff about Martin Luther all over the place)

I was only in Munich very briefly for Oktoberfest but if you like beer, pretzels and meat, oh boy is this the place for you! Lots of places in southern Germany would be great to stay at for Oktoberfest tbh (which btw is usually mostly in September despite what the name implies)

The German part of my family lives in Osnabrück and Hanover, but I have 0 tourist recs for those places since I only visited them over long weekends and just kind of hung out— I think there’s a p good aquarium in Hanover? And the Osnabrück zoo is great!

My fam also spent Christmas in Rothenburg ob der Tauber one year, which is GORGEOUS around that time— lots of iconic-looking medieval buildings (including a full town wall that you can tour with a night watchman), awesome Christmas market, and a medieval crime and justice museum that is great if you like looking at weird and scary torture equipment lol

Also one more place that’s not in Germany— Prague was one of my favorite places I visited while living abroad, highly recommend!

As for club stuff, you need an ID to get in (if you look young at least, idk what the rules for carding actually are) so I had to use my American passport every time—since I speak German, most bouncers were whatever about it, but I know some clubs are picky about letting tourists (and foreign students) in because they have a reputation of being disrespectful and trashy (I think they generally like Canadians a lot more tho lol). Also some clubs are just super picky period— like Berghain for example, which is super famous and therefore vERY picky, you will for sure not get in

#berlin #german stuff #germany #asks #travel #recommendations