#if only i was treated better as a child

[honeypleasejustkillme]

who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd #bpd fp #actually borderline #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd problems #bpd vent #bpd mood #actually cptsd #childhood trauma #if only i was treated better as a child #maybe i wouldn’t be so fucked up now

[dawnssummers]

#they're everything #btvs #also this is a silyl joke post but i do have thoughts on spike generally dropping his front around dawn #like dawn barely remembers him as evil vampire she only knows him as guy who was there right before buffy left and then giles bath creature #and one thing about spike is that he does not treat dawn like a child And drops his armour hence stuff like dawn picking up on buffycrush #n more broadly dawn confiding in / trusting him . like the 'i must be evil' scene where dawn Knows spike isnt just trying to make her feel #better he really means what he is saying and that matters so much to dawn in that moment yk #like they both constantly have to prove themselves in some capacity (or feel like they do) and the fact they can interact levelly is so imp #they're besties #important* #spike #dawn summers

[swordsonnet]

when talking about topics like maturity and (self-)infantilisation, it's important to remember that there will always be disabled adults for whom the "normal" benchmarks of adulthood are not attainable or even applicable at all. if you want to be an ally to disabled people, you need to support all of us, not just the ones you find palatable - and that includes people who have "childish" interests, who get very emotional about seemingly trivial things, who aren't able to be independent in the way that adults are expected to be. that doesn't mean that we "need to grow up", or that we're reverting to a childlike state to avoid our responsibilities, or whatever op-ed writers think is wrong with gen z these days. it's just the way we are, and liking plushies or struggling with certain tasks doesn't in fact make us children! disabled adults are still adults, and still deserving of dignity, regardless of whether or not we can live up to the rigid societal norms of what it means to be an adult.

#still kinda pissed off at that article thats going around atm #it made a few half-decent points but they were buried under a mountain of bullshit #if youre writing about how young adults deny themselves agency by engaging in childlike activities #and you dont acknowledge the way that disabled people are constantly infantilised by abled society just for existing #and often have limited agency to begin with because it was forcibly taken from us #and you dont even question the value of forcing a normative timeline of development onto the vast diversity of humanity #but instead uncritically use this questionable model to further contribute to the infantilisation of disabled people #by stigmatising ultimately harmless traits/behaviours and calling them childish #then you havent just missed the point - you were aiming in the opposite direction of the point from the start #disability #ableism #actually autistic #(by far not the only disability this applies to but the main one i was thinking of) #also wanna note that children should be allowed to have meaningful agency as well. if your definition of child is 'stupid and powerless' #then that's a problem in itself. but that's a whole other can of worms #even if children were treated better (and they should be!) disabled adults should still be seen as adults #because that's what we are

[stubz]

Log date 510: today human Max is not here and that is disappointing as I have tremendous amounts of fun when he is here

Log date 511: human Max is still not here, maybe he is sick? I will ask Giver what helps humans get better when sick and then have my drone deliver it to him!

Log date 515: …human Max is still not here and it is the end of the week as he would call it…I miss him

Log date 518: Human Max is here! I have missed him greatly for he is the most fun one! We will play catch and build and draw and, and…human Max is sad today…

Log date 520: He is still sad. He plays catch and draws and builds but is still sad…this is not fun for me. He is not fun.

Log date 522: ….human Max lost his Giver. His Giver was hit by a transportation vehicle and died in the medical bay. He couldn’t say good bye as he is here and she was light years away in Earth…

Log date 522-b: I told Human Max he is not fun. That he is sad. He lied and said he was okay and forced a smile. I told him he is my favourite because he is the most fun but it’s okay to not always be fun… I asked him about his Giver and he told me stories of her. Soon everyone sat down to hear the stories and still stayed when he cried.

Log date 523: Human Max will be gone for a while until he is better. I miss him because he is fun but I want him to be better because I have the most fun when he is feeling well. He lost his Giver and that will take a while for him to be okay…and I will wait patiently for that

#I just remembered when I was in second grade my teacher was gone for a week or two #I missed her cause loved her and even called her mom a few times #When she came back she was trying her best to not cry and told us she was gone bc of what happened to someone important to her #He died in a car crash and that was why she wasn’t there for so long and may stay home for a bit longer #And I just remember feeling so sad bc I missed her and just learned about a terrible thing that happened to her and then I felt weirdly cal #Bc I missed her but I wanted her only come back when better. And I’m happy she told me and treated us like adults #The adventures of Kim and max running a space child care centre #humans in space

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[chaos-in-one]

People who comment "gentle parenting at it's finest" on posts of kids having a meltdown in public and their parents not doing anything about it do not understand what gentle parenting means at all and it makes me want to put my head through a wall

#'gentle parenting is for gentle children' how do you know if your child is capable of being like that or not #if your first reaction to them doing normal child things like getting upset is to hit them? #also gentle parenting isnt doing nothing when your kid is having a public meltdown #that is neglectful #and pretty much the entire premise of gentle parenting is NOT abusing your kids and treating them like actual human beings #also I guarantee you no matter how much your kid sucks hitting them isn't making them better #it is teaching them to fear you #and it teaches them that violence is the way to get obedience #which will not be good for them down the line #the ONLY reason you should EVER put your hands on your kids is if it is the only way to get them out of immediate danger #such as if your kid is about to walk into traffic and you grab them so they dont get hit by a fucking car #other than that? you are not in the right for hitting your child #ESPECIALLY if you are doing it as punishment #gentle parenting #tag rant #abuse #abusive parents #abusive parenting #anti abuse #child abuse #child abuse awareness

[digital999placebo]

4 nations & 2 babies ….

Headcanon that Peter has an urban accent in Swedish bc when he first moved in with Sweden in the 70s, Sweden lived in Stockholm, and later in the 90s moved south. Bc Ladonia came around in the 90s he got more of a country accent in Swedish, but he has an urban accent in Danish. Peter doesn’t know Danish but he knows some Finnish.

#that’s a lollipop in Den’s mouth in the first pic he does not smoke around kids…..anymore #but I also stand strong by my headcanon that Sweden didn’t become a good dad until the 80s #he just treated sealand like an adult until he realised sealand was gonna live with him #n he picked up some books about raising kids n he was like: wtf have I done to this poor kid #*flashbacks to offering sealand cigarettes n giving him the boat keys no questions asked* #their first meeting was probnaly so awkward too just sealand staring with big ol eyes at swe #Denmark n Norway playing football in swedens garden n after a while swe was like: uh I’m making pancakes do u like… want any? #n sealand just: OMG UR INVITING ME?? INTO UR HOUSE THIS IS EPICCCC #Sweden: it’s.. literally only pancakes… #I can’t remember if it’s canon or not but sealand looking up den nor swe to hang out with bc they kicked englands ass a 1000 years ago so— #he was like: OMG mutual hatred EBIC #then they’re funny n they give him candy with liquor n treat him like an adult so he’s like: this is much better than being told I’m— #a child n I can’t do certain things’ #anyway tags #hetalia #hws Sweden #hws Denmark #hws Norway #hws Finland #hetalia nordics #hws nordics #hws sealand #hws Ladonia #999art

[cedarw00d-the-fourth]

There are two wolves inside of me. One wants to make Raphael the worst person alive to Agnezes and torture her, and the other wants to make him be kind to Agnezes while still being a little shit. They are both kissing and fighting eachother.

#fighting wars with myself #in my og “Bad” ending for Agnezes(she has 2 this one she goes with raphael) #Raphael straight up takes her horns as a trophy of finally having his bride #in her other bad ending she kills herself because she doesn't have anywhere to go #but yeah raphael is horrible to her #he still pampers her and treats her better than the other debtors in his house #but i should mention that he first slept with her when she was SEVENTEEN. #she was still a minor when she was taken advantage of #she's also not the only one of my guys to be S/A'd as a minor #iru was even younger when she was and that's why she's hypersexual #but yeah ig raphael becomes sweeter when Agnezes has his child #but he's still horrible to her. #cedar rambles #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #bg3 raphael #raphael bg3 #oc: agnezes valric #raphael x tav #< i guess

[gxlden-angels]

RUBY FRANKE AND JODI HILDEBRANDT SENTENCED TO 4 TO 60 YEARS IN PRISON LETS GOOOOO

#Ruby pled guilty to the charges #She'll likely stay about 30 since that's the current limit legally in Utah for consecutive sentences #But that's only if she's sentenced to the maximum sentence possible #15 years for each case of child abuse #for a total of 4 cases and 60 years #her adult children aren't considered methinks #similar to how a therapist can't tell authorities you're being abused after u turn 18 without your consent #idk how much she'll get seeing as they're in Utah #so there's a lot of ppl that genuinely believe she has a right to do anything to her kids short of killing them #if it means they stick with the religion for as long as they live #some do believe killing ur kids should be allowed tho if it saves their soul or whatever #I disagree with both obviously I think you should be hit with hammers if you treat your kids anywhere near like this #but Jodi better get got those aren't even her fuckin kids got damn #I hope they both get the maximum sentence but especially Jodi cause she absolutely exhasterbated this paranoid mom's shit #Ruby isn't innocent in the slightest she was fucked before Jodi ever showed up #but I fully believe Jodi pushed her closer to this extremen #extreme* #and I hope we start to chip away at the religious exemptions we still have in the US when it comes to child abuse #'spare the rod' spare ur fucking breath if you hit a child I'm gonna hit you with hammers #ex christian #religious trauma #child abuse

[jakeperalta]

spent weeks psyching myself up to stand up to my mum and then immediately got shot down by her 😃👍

#vent incoming i apologise in advance for the long tags #we've lived together just the two of us since dec 2021 (although her boyfriend is here like 2/3 of the time as well) #and since i got my job in march 2022 i have been paying half of all the bills (literally down to like tv license when i barely watch the tv) #which is £300 a month #plus i buy all my own food + pay for the amazon prime she uses + contribute to various household things like toilet roll etc #and she doesn't have a mortgage so i am paying the same amount as her to live in her house #(and it is very much her house not our house) #and I've never been very happy with any of that but never complained either #but then recently it turned out she never set up the water bill when we moved in (it's one of the only bills i didn't sort for us) #so we have a huge backdated bill from dec 2021 and i knew she was going to tell me to pay half #so for the past month or so I've been preparing myself for this conversation and sure enough today she came and said 'we owe £700' #so i was like 'oh i thought maybe it would've been covered by my £300/month' which is the biggest stand I've been able to work myself up to #and she immediately started going on about how i live here too and use water too so it's just as much my responsibility to pay #and how when we're both earning i should be paying my share and i was like yeah i know that's why i never complained about paying before #but also i already pay more than most people would to live with their parents #and she went off about how actually most people charge their grown up kids rent on top of the bills so really i'm lucky i don't have to #(when she got the original £300 figure it was actually rounded up from like £240 to include 'rent' but i wasn't gonna bring that up now) #and in conclusion she doesn't see why she should be subsidising my bills #like i don't know maybe because you're my MOTHER and i am your CHILD who is just starting out in the adult world #and maybe that entitles me to being treated better than some lodger???!!!!! #anyway i paid the bill and now i'm trying and failing at not crying at my desk 😃 #talking

[gaypornluvr420]

and are these child slave quinoa vegans in the room with us right now

#i know some probably exist but most vegans are very conscious abt where they get their food from #i’ve seen vegan recipe website comments sections tear the cook to SHREDS for using hershey or nestle or anything in that vein #and can we stop pretending that non vegans don’t also buy food produced by slavery. #where do you think most of your food and clothes come from?? do you think only vegan products use slavery?? #EVERYONE needs to be more aware of where they’re buying things from because there’s so much more #slavery going on than ppl in developed countries would think #i didn’t know until i started looking into it bc obviously no one wants to talk abt it #and guess what!! vegans are usually the ones raising awareness abt corporations using slavery or treating their workers badly!! #bc the whole point of the lifestyle is compassion!!! so holy shit stop treating us like we’re the bad guys #bc vegans annoyed you once or bc you feel guilty abt eating animal products and are trying to make yourself #feel better by shitting on us #sry i just saw a post i otherwise agreed with but it kept mentioning “child slave quinoa vegans and im so sick of ppl talking abt this #phenomena that doesn’t really exist. #also no i don’t hate non vegans i know it can be more difficult and expensive etc. whatever.

[bumblingbabooshka]

Dr. Invar - Varith’s Betrothed

#her scars are from a medical double mastectomy - she's a cis woman #she works on a very small majority Vulcan science vessel #so she doesn't have an official rank but she's close to the person in charge and was allowed on the vessel due to nepotism #her mother is a fairly cruel person who looks down heavily on others due to her high status but favored Invar A LOT #this led to Invar being a bully as a child/teen but then she became ill and was tutored at home #this led to her being fairly isolated with only her parents and people who worked for them as company (her 'friends' quickly abandoned her) #her being abandoned by others + being with her mother so much made her realize how awful she'd treated others and want to do better #She's quite paranoid about her health because her illness was one which continued coming back #She has not undergone the rite of tal-oth because of her health (she doesn't want others to know this) #<- in general she's hesitant to share information about herself with others bc of the fear they'll use it against her but projects an aura #of self confidence to the point it reads as being cocky or full of herself. #bea art tag #star trek ocs #beas ocs #Invar #despite/because of being a bully (and her mother) Invar has a VERY strong hatred/fear of being made fun of #she doesn't know Varith well - they've only met/communicated a few times (mostly as children) #[REDACTED] family shenanigans #<- very technically #but I'm putting her in that tag in case I need to find her again

[dreampearls]

honestly I went into the sumeru archon quest ready to hate nahida or at the very least be very indifferent to her bc I was so like. Tired of how blatantly orientalist every aspect of sumeru seemed to be + nahidas design compounded w the fact that she's an archon using the chibi model reaaaalllly did not leave a good impression. .....However !! ! I actually ended up really liking her as a character despite my reservations. i think she might be my favorite archon if I'm going to be honest

#like i reallt really despise the 500 year old entity who looks like a 5 year old trope #but i get why they chose to make nahida a child/resemble a child. & tbh the more that i think abt it #the more i end up understainding it as a creative decision #since a lot of the archon quest involved subverting what wisdom traditionally looks by sumerus cultural standards (the thing w dreams + the #hamfisted ''the arts are Useless and Suck'' storyline lol) #what better way to subvert the traditional model of intelligence than to epitomize it w the visage of a child? #ie someone who is typically regarded as one of the lowest in society precisely because of the knowledge they lack & frequently treated as #subhuman for it #despite the fact that they are constantly accumulating knowledge at a rapid fire pace & are more open to the world around them as a result #you can only gain knowledge if you realize & respect that you only ever know so much etc. #intelligence not being a show of what you already know but rather a willingness to continue pursuing & understanding others with compassion #its Nice i Really Like that #i think the decision to represent the goddess of wisdom w childlike curiosity as opposed to an older wisened type was a good one #i just hate that its Genshin Impact doing this #so obviously their primary reasoning behind making her a child is the far more blatantly insidious one

[mad-hunts]

MATILDA MATHIS — his right-hand, heir to the dollmaker mantle.

#YOU'RE AS MUCH A PART OF ME AS I AM YOU: family portrait. #hey y'all! i thought it would be cool to start including photo references of his children so... here we have matilda. #she is the current heir to the dollmaker mantle so if/when barton dies then she will take over as the dollmaker. #matilda is also kind of the 'golden child' as she is treated better than the rest of his kids. #but this is really only because she is SO much like her father and possibly because she is his only daughter. #so he kind of dotes on her a bit. but yeah.

[aethenia]

it’s fucking gut wrenching to see girls you went to secondary school posting about men treating them like shit. we’re not friends, we’ve probably never shared more than a few words, but I can picture you as an eleven year old on the first day of school and that breaks my heart.

#she’s posting on instagram about how the father of her child is treating her like shit when she’s just asked him #to drop their son off at nursery so she can visit her dying father who just woke up from a coma #and he’s speaking to her so fucking coldly and cruelly #telling her to respect that he has his own life #and I can see her as the smallest girl in her tutor group with her big bag and her non-regulation school shoes #and her white blonde pixie cut #she deserves so much better #idk quite how to describe how i’m feeling here #she’s clearly so anguished #and i remember how much she used to post about being in love with this prick #and it’s none of my business but my heart fucking hurts for her #ig i don’t know her as an adult and so can only see her as a child? but i kind of feel that way about everyone i went to secondary school #with even those who I’m still in regular communication with #growing pains

[mobbothetrue]

I was the tiger, and no one understood me. Everyone else was domestic. Everyone else knew not of fear.

I was supposed to be domestic. A child’s toy. I was supposed to be tame and docile. I was not. The boy pulled my ears and my tail and was cruel. The father averted his eyes. The mother encouraged it.

The Mother didn’t understand what it meant to be domestic. The mother thought she knew better than anyone else. The mother thought she understood me.

It was the mother who chased me down with a kitchen knife after my claws broke the boys skin. Howling her anger, she pursued me out of the house, but she could not keep up once I ran.

I was the tiger, and no one understood me, but I didn’t understand anyone either. Other animals could speak, I watched them do it with narrowed eyes, but I could not. What had the mother done to me? What had the mother denied me?

I found a shop that smelled like home, and the strange man fed me a pastry. It stuck to my teeth, tasted like cinnamon and marshmallow. I understood him. He understood me. I could not stay, the mother was still looking for me.

I found joy on a beach rich with fish. The mother came to me there, and I swam away. She understood me, then, and threw her knife to the ground. I did not understand her, so I waited in the water until she left. It was warm.

#so. weird dream last night #I was also a human at a few points in this dream but that didn’t seem important #it didn’t change how anyone treated me #I was supposed to be a family pet set in a society where #due to magic #all animals are domesticated and can speak. but the mother didn’t believe in the magic #so I never got my dose. she thought she could control me #I didn’t mean to wound the boy— despite his parents he was. he was a child. who did not have anyone to teach him better #but I was a tiger and I had claws #also. man. I wish that pastry existed in real life. less for the magical grant animals understanding of humans aspect and more because it #was really tasty haha #there was also another woman on the beach. she caught fish and loaded them up in her wagon #that was too heavy for her to pull. she had no horse. I helped her sometimes and she would feed me in return #she was there for the final encounter with the mother… but she only watched.